i have nothing to say for myself anymore

I looked through our conversations when we used to be on cloud nine and in love, these were the times you told me how lucky you are to have a girl like me, how thankful you are because you never received such love I was giving to you and whatever happens, you will never let me go. The words you said mean everything to me and it stabs my heart, realizing that these words mean nothing anymore. I can’t help myself but to cry my heart out till the sun has set. The pain is too heavy to bear, the love I believed to be true and different was gone. We used to be over the moon, but the present tells the opposite. This is stupid of me to say but, I won’t deny the fact that I miss you so much. I love you, I still do. But somehow, I’ve come with the thought that I can’t do anything anymore, I need to let you go because it’s the right thing to do. I’ve decided to finally move on and this would be the last time I would cry over you because there was nothing left to hold on to and I can’t hold on to something that doesn’t want to be held.

I’m sorry. I’m sorry because I was the reason why you let things end. I’m sorry for the terrible mistake I made, I never blamed you for deciding to end this because you were hurt and I understand. I only have myself to blame. But, I was hoping you would’ve understood, that I did it for us. I always feared the day would come, the day you will finally won’t take back the words you’ve said. I’m sorry for the other things that have hurt you, for the things that made you cry, jealous and mad. 


Thank you. I’m thankful that I met you because you have given me a temporary bliss. I laughed and smiled because of you. Somehow, you made me feel loved and beautiful in a short period of time. Thank you for the good days: the days we felt unstoppable like we’re flying high, when holding your hand felt like home, leaning on your shoulders made me feel secure and hearing your voice sound like the angels are singing. It was worth it, being loved and loving you. Thank you for making me realize how capable I am to love someone. You proved forever within a number of days. You were the greatest and worst thing ever happen to me. 


Goodbye. This will be the last time that I will write you a message, I’ll accept the fact that some things are meant to end, even though I used to believe that you won’t let that happen. I did everything I could to make you stay, but I guess your life no longer includes me because, you’re happy now and I can see that clearly. You already found a love that’s all the things ours couldn’t be. I hope you find overwhelming joy by her side, I hope she won’t hurt you and make you cry. I hope for the best for the both of you. It hurts but I’ve accepted the painful truth that I am just a distant memory now. I don’t regret loving you, but what I regret is that I let myself believe that this would last.


I won’t forget you and the memories, I will always keep you alive in my heart. I’ll just get used to not having you in my life anymore. Deep within my heart knows getting over you won’t be simple. I need to stop loving you so I can start loving myself again. You were a painful blessing, but you were also a great lesson. I guess you’re just another chapter of my life needed to end. I still and will pray for your safety and happiness even though I’m in pain right now, I still believe you deserve the best. I hope you find everything in her that you couldn’t find in me. You will always be my greatest love.

—  S.L // unsent last message

“How much do you love yourself? Because if you understand the value of self-love. You would never be friends with those type of people. Most of the people around here are running around empty. They have no sense of self. No sense of self-love. When I say self-love its nothing to do with celebrities, money, materialistic things and all of the things that your negative mind will probably go to. It’s nothing to do with looks, nothing to do with cars or any superficial things that one would asume could make you love yourself even more. It’s a matter of knowing your value. It’s a matter of you saying I don’t have to be around these people in these types of environments or situations in order for me to finally see the value in myself. I love me independently of how you love me. I believe in me. I know my self worth. I know clearly that I’m a child of the universe and the universe has a purpose and if it didn’t I wouldn’t be here anymore. I am here. And I have a purpose. Everyday I am a work in progress. Self-love is the cure to self-hate.”

self love - motivational video, HESMotivation

it gets harder to talk about but it gets easier to hold it in. to sit up prettier, to shut up louder, to pretend i don’t want you when all i want is to give in, to hold back the tears at the bar and release them once i get into my own bed, to pretend i want to exist. i want to exist. i want to exist. if i say it enough times, even i believe it. but suddenly, i’m a couple drinks in and i remember how unhappy i really am and everybody’s having fun around me but i can’t breathe anymore and my friend tells me i’m a wimp for never expressing my anger when the second i express it, there is always someone there to invalidate it. it’s getting easier to call myself crazy as an excuse for feeling, as if i’m not allowed to feel, as if this pressure build-up in my head is nothing but unequal brain chemistry, and everybody is so easy to brush off my emotions as being a product of mental illness instead of re-evaluating their own actions and wondering how in the world they could have made me feel this way.

so yeah, to say i’m mad is an understatement. to say i’m mad would even be lying. because it goes deeper than this feeling i experience once in a while, the real truth is that i’m sad and that sadness runs deep. i’m hurt. i feel like nobody even cares if they hurt me and the second i even suspect i am offending a stranger, i say sorry. but people run from me instead of apologize because their pride is more important than my feelings and it’s always been that way. i fall in love with anyone who shows me affection and people think it’s weird but when you’ve been deprived for so long from people who will listen, i don’t know, it’s hard. it’s still hard to believe that the second i start spilling my emotions, people talk over me. nobody wants to be with the person who brings up serious conversations at parties. nobody wants to be there for the girl who is always sad. everyone wants to pretend it doesn’t exist. and the more they pretend, the more i realize i’m getting good at this.

so i try to shut up until i can’t. like this time last year, i was showing up to your house to scream at you because i spent so much time holding everything in. but last night, i sent you fifteen text messages and deleted every one before i pressed send and i know no one’s gonna be there to congratulate me but maybe i can start being proud of myself because i don’t know how else i’m going to make this inadequate feeling end. you know, maybe i just have to keep trying things until i find something that works, maybe i just have to fly through boys until i find someone who isn’t gonna leave, maybe i just have to realize that the only person i’m ever going to truly have is me and i should stop holding people to impossible standards because they’re never going to live up to them and i’m always going to end up disappointed. nobody’s ever gonna care the way i want them to. it’s like i’m impossible to please. but god, i don’t know - i just wish for one second, someone would be excited about something because i am. be sad about something because i am. make me feel like my feelings affect others in some way. like they mean something. i’m growing so tired of the blank stares they give me.

i don’t know. maybe i’ve always asked for too much but i can’t remember the last time someone told me they loved me and if we’re being honest here: it’s devastating. i’m sad. i feel like i have nobody left. everyone likes me at first because i am so outgoing - i say what i’m thinking - but they leave soon after they realize that i am too much to deal with and they don’t really want to hear what’s in my head. they turn away because my insecurities make them nervous and who wants to deal with the girl who asks you if you hate them every five seconds? you say you don’t hate me but your body language tells me everything. i know i’m getting annoying but i can’t stop so i keep repeating it: i want to exist. i want to exist. i want to exist.

they say you’ve gotta let people in but the more i let people in, the more i regret it. i’m tired of silencing myself but it’s like the moments i’m silent are the only moments i’m not ruining everything.

—  I WANT TO EXIST. I WANT TO EXIST. I WANT TO EXIST. I’M NOT REALLY SAD. REMEMBER THIS.

I love you.
I love you.

When you say something too many times, it begins to lose its meaning.
I know this because I read it somewhere.
I know this because I felt this somewhere.
I love you.
Do you still love me?

How could we turn into strangers when you held my hand and gently promised me that this comfort will last for as long as we’re alive?
Now even a look at you has become so unfamiliar that I’d rather just look away.
Maybe this is what you meant by “As long as we’re alive.”
How could I still be alive with so many pieces of me missing, so many holes I’m trying to fill in with alcohol and spilled ink, so many lines on my palms that you claimed with your kisses?

All my life, I’ve been an actor.
I contort my emotions and make everyone believe I am someone other than myself.
Yet, the toughest role I’ve ever been forced to play is to act like we never knew each other. To choke back my tears, and rub my eyes and say I’m just tired every time they start welling up, to act like there’s nothing constantly missing from my arms.
I think maybe I’ve gotten so good at this that I can’t believe I’m myself anymore.
And the worst part is, I can’t hold this facade up for too long.
It keeps melting and have to keep building it up and I don’t know if I have the energy to keep doing this.

I still love you.
I still love you.
I’m afraid my words have lost all meaning,
And I’m afraid I will never be sorry to say that I’ll never stop loving you.
Even when I’m constantly falling apart.

—  Tamarind Fall; Writing prompt: Now we act like strangers but I’m not sorry to say I’m still in love with you.

anonymous asked:

Can You do a Roman Reigns Imagine? Where we have to share a hotel, and we get into a heated arguement which leads to rough , passionate sex?

  A/N: I’m so sorry that this took so long to get done. But I hope you love it!

Warnings: Daddy kink, strong language, shower sex (is that warning??) uuuuh, can’t think of anything else. I write before the requests before I give the warnings so sometimes I forget :P

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      “I have to do what!?! No, there is no way that I’m gonna share my room with her! Come on, Triple H, can’t you just get her a different room? Hmm, I didn’t think so,” I said to Hunter over my cell phone. He had just informed me that I had to share my room with Y/N, the new WWE Diva. I guess with her being new and everything, Triple H and Stephanie McMahon forgot to book her a room so now I had to share mine with her.

     "Can’t she just sleep in her car,“ I asked, continuing my rant. But, of course, Triple H said no. (I just hope that he knew that I was joking.) He then told me to ‘be a man’ and deal with and it and said that Y/N should be up to my room in a few minutes. So I hung up the phone, unlocked the door, sat down back on my bed and kept an ear out for the newbie.

     The knocks on the door came half an hour later (‘in a few minutes’ my ass). Already I knew who it was, so I said 'the door’s unlocked’ and in walked Y/N. She had her bags in her hands and a towel around her neck, telling me that she just came from the gym. That and Y/N was wearing a tank-top and shorts. Plus, she was drenched in sweat; which, I hate to admit, was kinda hot.

    “Hey, Roman,” Y/N said to me after she closed and locked the door.

       “Hey,” I said back to her. I leaned back on my -or I guess I should say our- bed and started to play a game on my phone just to show the new comer that I wasn’t interested in anything that she had to say. Unfortunately she wasn’t getting the message.

    “Sorry you have to share your room with me,” she said. “I know that this wasn’t your idea, but-”

“You can say that again,” I retorted with a roll of my eyes.

    “I know this wasn’t your idea, but-” Y/N annoyingly repeated herself and then laughed at herself. I narrowed my eyes at her and she just shrugged her shoulders.

“What,” she asked. “You said I could say it again.”

    “You know  I didn’t mean it, smart ass. Now, why don’t you go to sleep on the couch so that way I won’t have to hear your voice anymore?”

  “Seriously, Roman? The couch? I thought that you would be a gentleman and let me have the bed.”

      “Normally I would, but you’re such a newbie that you just don’t deserve it,” I said laughing to myself.

  “Whatever,”she scoffed back, “I have to take a shower first, anyways.”

   “In that case, I think I have to pee.”

  “No you don’t; you’re just saying that cause I said that I want to take a shower!”

      “Probably. But you’re still not going in the bathroom, and there’s nothing you can do about it, Newbie.”

    I was completely wrong on that part cause after I said that, Y/N came over to the side of the bed that I was on, lifted one of her legs up and slammed it down onto my stomach.

   “Fuck,” I groaned in pain. Then I rolled on my side and watched as Y/N walked into the bathroom with a smirk on her face.

          A few minutes later and I could hear the shower running.

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      It had been a whole hour after Y/N had started her shower, and I had to piss. Badly. But she still wasn’t out of the bathroom. So I went to the door and heard the shower still running. I knocked hard a few times, but Y/N wasn’t responding. Look, I’m a gentleman and everything, but when a man’s gotta piss, a man’s gotta piss and I ain’t tryna piss through the window. I tried the doorknob and noticed that the door was unlocked, so I opened it and saw something that made my dick hard: Y/N had the shower head in her hand and it was pointed at her pussy. The look of pleasure was all over her face. Moans were escaping her lips, but it was hard to tell what she was saying exactly, so I listened more closely. “Fuck! Ro- Roman,” she purred my name. She purred my name!

   “Me,” I accidentally asked out loud. I still couldn’t believe that shit.

       “Shit! Roman? What the hell are you doing in here,” Y/N asked in return as she dropped the shower head. She quickly covered herself up with her hands at first and then with the shower curtain.

     “Uh, I had to take a leak,” I answered, “and you were takin’ way too long. By the way, were just playin’ with yourself….and thinkin’ about me?”

    “No! Now fuck off!”

      I took a few more steps into the bathroom and and put a smirk on my face. “Baby girl, I’d rather get you off,” I replied with a wink.

    Y/N let out a nervous gulp but had let go of the shower curtain, letting me see her in her whole naked, wet, beauty. “What’re gonna do to me, Roman?”

       “Pick that shower head back up and hand it to me, Newbie.” She did what I told her to do and I chuckled. “Baby girl, you got this on the wrong setting.”

   “What do you mean, I got it on the wrong setting,” Y/N asked impatiently, making me chuckle again.

      “Cause yo got it on spray when you should have it on massage.” I changed the setting and aimed the nozzle at Y/N’s clit. I smirked when she instantly moaned. The look on her face told me that she was enjoying this more than when she was doing this to herself.

       After a while I decided to get in the tub with the newbie. So I handed her the shower nozzle, got shirtless and pants-less and sat on the side of the tub. I took the nozzle back from her and watched as she started to rub herself. I licked my lips before I smacked her hand away and put two of fingers in her glorious hole.

   “Roman, oh my god,” Y/N screamed.

     “You like that, Baby-girl,” I asked her while I pumped in and out of her. God, I wish it was my cock filling her pussy up, but I had to wait til I got her good and ready and I had a great way to do that. I slowly pulled my fingers out of her, stood up and put the shower head back where it belongs.

     “What’re you doing, baby,” Y/N asked me in an innocent voice.

       “Nuh-uh, Newbie,” I said with a wag of my index finger. “You only get to call me Daddy.”

   “Daddy?”

        “Yup, just like that; sounds fuckin’ hot too. Now, bring you fine ass closer to so I can eat you out.”

     Y/N smiled as she said “yes, Daddy”.

      She moved close enough so that her lightly trimmed bush was on my chin. I dipped my head a little to give myself a small taste of her dripping pussy. It was a quick swipe of my tongue and Y/N couldn’t help but to whimper.

    “Damn, baby, you taste so good!”

           “Fuck, how do you go from hating my guts to eating me out,” Y/N wanted to know.

    “Who cares, baby,” I answered, “just let me enjoy my feast.”

     Y/N rapidly nodded her head and I lapped up her moist opening. I went slow at first, but Y/N told me to stop teasing, so I went faster earning many loud moans from the newbie. She moaned my name plenty of times, holding on to my long hair as she came on my tongue with shakes and screams.

     “Damn, Newbie. I would’ve been doin’ this to ya much sooner if I had known that you were gonna taste so sweet and sound even sweeter.” I laughed while standing up in the tub.

      “Well, I would’ve let you do it sooner if I had known that your tongue was so powerf-” Y/N cut herself off when she saw my hard cock spring at my abs after I removed my briefs. “Holy shit,” she whispered, eyeing my dick, “you’ve got a mighty hammer there, Thor.”

    “Haha, thanks, Newbie.”

      Y/N groaned in annoyance. “When are you going to stop calling me that, Roman? You know that I’m great in the ring and I’ve beaten almost all of my opponents!”

   The whole time that Y/N was ranting, she was also looking at my naked body body up and down. She saw how my cock was dripping with pre-cum and licked her lips.

    “I’ll start callin’ you by your name once you prove to me that you can take this dick. Oh, and you can stop callin’ me Daddy while we fuck…unless of course you want to keep callin’ me Daddy.” A smirk made it’s way on to my face as Y/N made an ‘o’ shape with her mouth. “Now come on, Newbie, lets get started.”

   I helped Y/N wrap her legs around my waist and I was back in her glorious hole, but this time with my thick dick. When it got in her, the newbie gasped and asked me to give her some time to adjust to my size. Once she was ready, I slowly went in and out of her and both instantly moaned. I picked up the pace some after a few more slow thrusts, and I loooooved the way she felt around my cock. I told her that and she moaned while sucking on my neck.

    “I love the way you fill me up,” she finally said. “Your cock feels so fucking          good in me, Daddy.”

    “Mmm, I see you have no problem with still callin’ me Daddy, Newbie.”

    “Aw, fucking shiiiiit,” she moaned as I continued to pound into her and suckin’ on her nipples. “Can you blame me? You’re so fucking hot!”

     Y/N saying that got my motor running faster than before. So I made it so that Y/N’s back was right on the shower wall, picked up my pace and really pounded into her tight, wet pussy. God, it felt so fuckin’ good. My long hair got in my face and I so desperately needed to see the newbie’s sex face. So I flipped my hair over and saw her staring straight back at me with a tear falling down her cheek. I knew it was from pleasure, but I still felt the need to ask.

    “You okay, Baby-girl?”

      “Fuck yeah, Daddy,” she answered, out of breath. “You’re just really hitting my G-spot and it feels so fucking good and I -ah, shit!”

    I hit Y/N’s G-spot several more times, that’s how she cut herself off that time: cause she was enjoying my D too much. But I was enjoying her P just as much, maybe even more.

    “Come on, Newbie,” I growled, “cum all over my cock!” I told her that cause I knew that she was close; I could feel it. But I wanted her moans to be captured in my mouth, so I quickly put my mouth on hers and continued to thrust into her hole.

  Our tongues fought for dominance as we kissed and moaned in each other’s mouths. A few more thrusts later and I had the newbie shaking with pleasure. Her moans vibrating in my mouth added with her pussy pulsing around my cock had me cumming my own damn self.

    “Fuck, that was hot,” I said after I finished shooting my load in Y/N’s dripping pussy. I let Y/N back down and kissed her passionately on the lips.

   “I know, best sex ever,” Y/N replied. “But I took your dick. Hell, I loved taking it. So, I guess that means that you’re not gonna call me Newbie anymore, right?”

   I smirked at her before caressing her cheek. “That’s right, Y/N.” Her eyes lit up when I said her name. “Now lets get washed up and then go to bed together, Newbie.”

Preference "How they react to you breaking up with them"

Pt. 1 : http://underratedcharactersimagines.tumblr.com/post/158008568336/preference-how-they-react-to-getting-caught

(Great…I made myself tear up again XD oh god…This is SAD…Yeah…So this is like a continuation of the cheating one :3 Hope it as requested and you all like it :) Gifs not mine/found them on google/credits to the original owner.)

Negan-When he’d hear the words, “I can’t do this anymore…I really loved you, Negan…I really did but your lifestyle isn’t for me…It’s over…I’ll go back working for points…”, coming from you, he’d get angry at you and his gaze would change. He’d want to take it as a joke at first but your watery eyes and shaky voice told him it was the truth. In that moment, he’d pretend to be unaffected but hold a grudge against you for the rest of your life, making you work harder until you’d come back crawling and begging him to take you back as one of his wives.

Daryl-When he’d hear the words, “I love you Daryl…I do…But I don’t think I can feel the same anymore after that…I just can’t…It hurts me to say this…but I’m so sorry, it’s over…”, coming from you, he’d stay still and get quiet. He wouldn’t know what to do but to stare down, thinking about his mistakes and remember all the past memories he had with you, making him tear up. As he’d look back up, he’d feel short of breath and wouldn’t be able to stop himself from trying to approach you to convince you that it wasn’t over.

Rick-When he’d hear the words, “I thought you were the one…That we’d grow old and be happy together…but after what you did…It’s hard to see it…I’m sorry Rick but it’s over…”, coming from you, he’d be speechless and wouldn’t want to believe this was happening. He’d remember his memories with you and feel regret for his mistake of that night. He’d grow anxious to see you in tears and would himself tear up and it would all show. He’d grab your shoulders to have a better talk.

Merle-When he’d hear the words, “I don’t think I can love you anymore after…what you did…let’s break up…”, coming from you, he’d instantly scoff and deny your feelings and words. He’d hold back his tears trying to be tough and just shake his head over and over again. He’d raise his voice at you and instantly tell you to take back your words, only for your tears and silence to confirm him that you all meant it, making him grab a hold of you the instant you’d turn your back on him.

Glenn-When he’d hear the words, “I know you don’t love me anymore…I can tell by the way you smiled at her before I let you know I was there…What’s the point of us…let’s just break up…”, coming from you, he’d feel terrible to have made you feel that way and grow to feel regret for his actions. He’d want to comfort you and tell you that it was going to change but your tears and silence, made him realize you really don’t want him at the moment, making him look down at his feet.

Carl-When he’d hear the words, “I can tell you don’t love me anymore…That’s why you were with her, right? And that’s why i’m letting you go…”, coming from you, he’d feel himself in doubt and start to rethink his feelings. He’d stay quiet for a good while and remind himself about you and him together. He’d look back at you and understand your feelings, making him just try to plead you to rethink your decision as he realizes he still loves you.

The Governor-When he’d hear the words, “I don’t want to bother you anymore…or for you to have to constantly worry about my faithfulness to you…So let’s break up…”, coming from you, he’d oddly be in disbelief and get even angrier at you. He’d feel as if you had no rights to feel that way, as to him what he did to you was simply to teach you a lesson. He’d grab a hold of you and raise his tone, only for it to change drastically the instant he hugs you, wanting you to stay in his life.

Abraham-When he’d hear the words, “You were right…I’m not the only one left…and nothing lasts forever…Although, it hurts me to say this Abe…but it’s over between us…”, coming from you, he’d feel horrible to make you feel such things but wouldn’t have the courage to admit it. He’d want to make himself believe he was fine and act that way, only to be unable to look at you straight in the eyes to confirm to you it was over. As he’d try to say something, a lump would get caught in his throat, making him realize he probably doesn’t want this. “You’re right…Good…I’m glad you realized it too…”

Eugene-When he’d hear the words, “I’m sorry Eugene…but I don’t think it’ll ever work out again…I just can’t bring myself to forgive you…It’s over…”, coming from you, he’d tear up quietly and wouldn’t know what else to do. He’d try to act tough at first but the more your words would pour out the more he couldn’t handle it. He’d try to apologize himself again and ask you as to what would be able to make you forgive him but as you’d stay quiet, he’d understand it was the end.

Ron-When he’d hear the words, “You’re obviously better off without me…I could tell from your smile with her…So let’s break up…”, coming from you, he’d deny your words and just be angry that you would ever think that. He’d realize his mistake and thinking about it he also thought about how your absence would affect him, making him tear up as well and just hug you to keep you from walking away.

Jesus-When he’d hear the words, “I loved you Paul…I always did…But now, after everything, It’s hard to feel that way…I tried but nothing…I’m sorry but it’s over…”, coming from you, he’d tear up and feel his heart aching. To hear you say that you love him, only to then announce him that you wanted to part ways, made everything worse for him and he just couldn’t hold in back his tears. He’d just want to comfort you and tell you that it isn’t over.

Dwight-When he’d hear the words, “I want to believe that I still love you D…But it’s hard after what you did…I just don’t feel anything for you anymore…”, coming from you, he’d feel empty and would just be in disbelief. He’d want you to take back your words but as he’d try to say something, nothing would come out. He’d only glare at you, to see you in tears, making him feel his heart slowly breaking apart. He’d just put all the blame on himself as you’d walk away and eventually break down in tears.

Morgan-When he’d hear the words, “I trusted you and loved you…but after what you did…I just can’t feel that way anymore…I’m sorry but it’s over…”, coming from you, he’d have nothing else to say but to just apologize for everything and especially hurting you. He’d feel terrible to have broken your trust in him and would reflect on his actions, only to think of how much it must’ve pained you but in the end, he’d realize you made your choice and would let you walk away.

Shane-When he’d hear the words, “I don’t think I can go on with you anymore…I just feel myself hating you for what you did…That’s why it’s better to break up…”, coming from you, he’d hate you for your words and just not accept it. He’d want to believe that he loved Lori but the more your words came to him the more he realized how much he regretted his actions. He’d show his frustration through his apology and end up to beg you not to hate him.

Milton-When he’d hear the words, “I thought we shared the same feeling but you proved to me that we don’t…and how wrong I was…That’s why it’s over between us…”, coming from you, he’d feel his heart ache and just wouldn’t want you to say such things. He’d ask you to stop and would try to convince you to forgive him and give him another chance to prove himself. He’d admit to you being his first love and all, saying how he just can’t ever see himself with anyone but you.

Aaron-When he’d hear the words, “You were everything to me…but after what you did…I don’t feel that way anymore…So it’s better to break up…”, coming from you, he’d feel lost and learn to regret his actions. He’d realize how much he meant to you and regret to have pushed you aside so easily that day. He wouldn’t be able to look you in the eyes as guilt would come to him and he’d only be able to let out an apology.

Gabriel-When he’d hear the words, “I really love you Gabriel…But as much as it hurts me…I don’t think I can ever bring myself to forgive you for what you did…It’s just better that we break up…”, coming from you, he’d feel just as hurt, tearing up to hear you. He’d shake his head in denial of your words but come to realize that from your tone it truly was the end. He’d want to look at you and beg you to stay and work things out but in the end let go, if it’ll make you happier.

The Wolf-When he’d hear the words, “I want to say that I still love you Owen…But I can’t anymore…Let’s just go our separate ways…”, coming from you, he’d scoff and call you out for acting “Childish”. He’d never have the intention of letting you go anywhere anyways even after what had happened, so for him to hear you like this was stupid to him. As you’d try to walk away, he’d grab you over and just explain to you reasoning.

Noah-When he’d hear the words, “I’m sorry Noah…But I can’t go on…I realize it’s better to break…i’m just not in love with you anymore…”, coming from you, he’d be utterly heartbroken and wouldn’t be able to form his words. He’d try to be strong and hold back his tears but he wouldn’t be able to. He’d realize how much it hurts to learn such heartbreaking news and would just wish to be able to go back, while trying to reach for you, only to be rejected.

Simon-When he’d hear the words, “I can’t be with you anymore Simon…I loved you…but after what you did…I don’t know if i’ll ever feel that way for you again…”, coming from you, he’d stop smiling and feel the tension between you two. His heart would seem to stop for once and he just wouldn’t know how to react properly. As you’d talk and talk, he’d zone out thinking about your past together and realize how much of a big mistake he’d make if he’d let you go.

Ezekiel-When he’d hear the words, “I’m sorry Ezekiel…But after what you did…I just can’t bring myself to be happy by your side…There’s no point…let’s part ways…”, coming from you, he’d feel disappointed in his own behavior and realize the extent of how much he must’ve hurt you. He’d want to pull you closer and comfort you from your tears but seeing you purposely avoid him would only end up tearing him apart even more.

Benjamin-When he’d hear the words, “I love you Ben…But thinking about what you did makes me forget that feeling…and I can only think that it’s over…”, coming from you, he’d shake his eyes and start to tear up. He’d feel like a little boy all over again and just rub his eyes trying to refuse what you had just said. He’d manage to look you in the eyes and tell you his thoughts and how he wants to be with you.

Caesar-When he’d hear the words, “After what you did…I don’t know what else to feel for you Caesar…I just can’t go on…”, coming from you, he’d want to refuse what you just said and instantly prevent you from leaving him. He’d go as far to lock the door of the room and keep you in there, saying that you’ll work things out together. However, as you’d get adamant, you’d end up hurting him and he’d just have to let go of you.

Spencer-When he’d hear the words, “I don’t love you anymore…I just don’t…i’m putting the blame on your actions but it could just be me…either way, it’s over…”, coming from you, he’d question you despite knowing the answer behind it all. He’d feel desperate to keep you and would do anything to stall more time to just be able to convince you to stay with him. He’d try to remind you of the past, only to get his heart broken even more as you’d reject him again.

Richard-When he’d hear the words, “I don’t think we can ever go back…I just don’t see myself forgiving you for that…I’m sorry Richard but I just can’t be with you…”, coming from you, he wouldn’t want to believe you and just try to make you take back your words. He’d get mad at himself for everything and it would show in his tone. As you’d try to leave, he’d grab a hold of you and hug you tightly expressing his excuses and his love for you, only to never feel you hug him back.

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PROMPTS! YAY PROMPTS! Nurseydex bad mental health day lovin'? Or Nursey explains poems to Dex, Dex doesn't get shit but is all heart eyes about it? Or domestic nurseydex? Anything nurseydex please!

I know I told you I was going to do their coffee shop meet cute from the faculty AU, but that was turning into a huge thing and taking forever, and then last night the idea fairy visited and gave me some stressed out grad school Nurseydex instead.


Nursey looked at the stacks of books that had taken over their coffee table, flags sticking out of them in every direction, and wanted nothing more than to fling them at the wall. Just flip the whole table. Send papers flying everywhere. He could see it in his mind so clearly. It was so close to being satisfying that it made him itch. He grabbed a throw pillow off the end of the couch, pressed it over his face, and screamed.

Dex looked up from his place at the dining table (the only flat surface left in the apartment for him to work at) and raised his eyebrows. “Feeling a bit dramatic today?”

“I don’t want to do this anymore. I’m done. Can I be done? I don’t even remember what the point of getting a PhD is anymore. The pressure to come up with something ‘new’ and ‘innovative’ in a field where everything has been said a thousand times before just makes my mind go blank now, and I think I can vaguely remember a time when I found this subject interesting, but that was so long ago it just feels like a dream, and now I’m so far down the theory rabbit hole I’m not sure I can talk to normal people anymore and I sound such like a pretentious asshole every time I have to talk to my advisor that I want to punch myself in the face.” He ran out of breath and slumped on the couch, staring vaguely at the ceiling and longing vaguely for the days when he thought being “chill” was his ultimate ambition.

Dex blinked at him for a few seconds and then shrugged. “So don’t.”

“What?”

“Don’t finish. You don’t actually have to. Nothing says you are required to finish your dissertation and get a PhD. You already have everything needed for a master’s in passing. There is literally nothing stopping you from withdrawing from your program, taking the MA, and doing that teaching certificate I know you have all the information for stuffed in the back of the desk in the office.”

Nursey just stared at him.

Dex moved his laptop to the side and folded his arms in front of him. “I’m serious. Unless you really want to be a college professor, there’s basically zero reason for you to get a PhD. If your dissertation is driving you to the point of mental breakdown and you genuinely do not care about the subject anymore, then stop. I won’t judge. You’re not even in debt for this degree because they’ve had you TAing the whole time. There are no real consequences here. There is life beyond academia. You can be ABD for the rest of your life and I will still love you and you will still be employable and the world will still turn.”

Nursey realized that his vision had gone blurry and his hands were shaking, but at the same time, he felt like he could breathe again. “Oh,” he said.

“Yeah, oh. It’s gonna be okay, you know? I promise.”

Nursey blew out a huge breath. “Thank you.”

“Of course.” And then Dex smiled at him and pulled his laptop back over, leaving Nursey to sort out his thoughts.

Nursey wasn’t sure if he’d actually take Dex up on the offer to love him through the process of withdrawing from his program, (during which he sincerely doubted he’d be much of a delight,) but maybe just knowing it was a sincere option would be enough to get him through the last fifty pages of his diss. Just knowing he had options made him feel a thousand times lighter.

Pure Magic, part 1 (Alec x Female!Reader)

Warning: I know Alec is a gay character. But he is just that, a character. Keep that in mind. Please, also note that english is not my first language. I am sorry if there are any mistakes, please feel free to point them out to me I won’t be offended. All credit goes to the creators.

Also, you might want to read part 2 of this story.


“There is nothing more I can do, Isabelle. I’m sorry” Magnus says.

“But there has to be something! There has to be someone who can find them!” the brunette yells, frustrated.

Her brothers, Alec and Jace, had gone on a mission two days ago and never made it back to the institute. Every shadowhunter was on it, all around the world, just in case they were thrown into a portal. No one has been able to locate them. Maryse was the one to ask for Magnus’ help, which expresses how desperate she is to find her boys.

“There might be someone, but she is hard to find” the warlock speaks, turning to the Lightwood women. “She has the ability to hide her magic, which makes it impossible to track her down.”

“What is she?” asks Maryse.

“A witch. A pure blood witch. Her magic has no limits, she could make Earth implose if she wanted to. She’s basically a lethal weapon.”

“I heard of her, I thought it was a tale” says Isabelle, furrowing her brows. “How do we find her?”

“We don’t. She lives among the mundanes, very few people know what she looks like. All I know is her name, Y/N Y/L/N.”

“Maybe Luke can help, he’s a cop he has access to that kind of stuff” Isabelle says with hope. “It can’t be that hard to track someone down.”

Magnus glances at Maryse, waiting for her reaction. The woman turns to her daughter, “contact Luke, give him the information. Say its important.” And with that Izzy leaves the room, her phone in hand, already dialing the werewolf’s number.


“I need you” Theo states, entering the room.

“Well, hello to you too, Theo.”

“Y/N, please. Two shadowhunters went MIA two days ago, we can’t locate them.”

I sigh, putting my phone down. I glance at Theo, a shadowhunter from the London Institute and a friend of mine. Also one of the very few people to actually know what I am capable of.

“I don’t interfere in the whole magic world, let even the shadowhunters one” I declare.

“Come on, you already did. You saved my ass last night!”

“You were going to die! It was reckless of you to think you could take a whole pack of werewolves on your own.”

“Y/N, please. You know I wouldn’t be asking if it wasn’t important. They might be in danger” Theo pleads.

“Or having a blast in Miami.”

I get up from the couch, facing Theo. “Do you have something that belongs to them?” I sigh. He shakes his head no. “But there’s a warlock there, maybe he can portal over here and take something of theirs to us.”


“You’re younger than I expected” Magnus’ says.

“Sorry to disappoint” I smile. “What do you got for me?”

“Tooth brushes?” he says, handing them to me.

“Perfect. They are in New York, 69th Street Transfer Bridge” I declare, handing the items back to him.

“Just like that?” Magnus says, stunned.

“Just like that. The brunette is on a bad shape though, you might wanna bring Theo with you so he can draw some of those healing runes all over him.”

“Or we could just go together, so you can use one of your tricks to heal him” Theo presses.


I put my hand on his forehead, noticing how warm his skin is. “What is this?” I ask, pointing to a mark on his right arm. It doesn’t look like a rune, it looks like nothing I’ve ever seen before. Magnus squats besides me, scanning the mark, tracing it with his fingers. “I don’t know, but it looks like something really dark.” We exchange a worry look. “There might be a way to save him, but never tried it before. It’s powerful, I know it exists but I don’t know if it actually works.” “Do it” I hear behind me. Turning around I take a look at the blonde shadowhunter, Jace. I take in the blood on his shirt and the pain in his eyes. He had been stuck in here with his dying brother, his parabatai, for two days. Unable to get him out of here, unable to save him, watching him die slowly in his arms. I could feel he was weak, he was hurt baldy, but managed to hold on to life in order to stay by Alec’s side, too scared to sleep and to wake up to a dead body.

“There is a risk. A huge one, I don’t know what I’m doing” I warn.

“He will die anyway. The mark is something dark, it took all of his energy away. No rune will ever be able to heal him. And if Magnus can’t, you’re the only one who stands a chance. Please” Jace pleads.

“Whatever happens, it stays between us. I don’t want to be involved in the magic world. My powers are powerful, people will take advantage of it. The Clave will take advantage of it.”

“The Clave doesn’t like downworlders” Jace points out.

“There is nothing demoniac in me, I’m pure magic.”

I grab Alec’s hand. “Alright, let’s do this. I’m sorry if I fail” I say to him, caressing his hair. As I tighten my grip on his hand, his eyes flutter open. Our eyes lock, and our entire lives goes through our pupils. From our first memories to our last, our lives getting linked together. I close my eyes, snapping out of transe.

“What happened, what was that?” Alec asks, worried.

“I don’t know, I-” I reply, getting away from him. “I need some fresh air.”


“What happened, Y/N?” Theo asks, taking a sit next to me.

“I think I just linked my life to his” I whisper.

“What do you mean, linked your life to his? As if, if he dies you die?”

“No, it's… deeper. He knows all of me, I know all of him. I stripped my soul naked.”

The three boys approach us, Jace still limping from his unhealed wound. “Let me take care of that” I say to him, brushing my hand over his thigh. The wound closes, just like that. “Is there something you can’t do?” Magnus says in awe. I shrug, turning to Alec. “Are you ok?” He nods, a shy smile playing on his lips.

“We should get going” I speak, turning to Theo.

“Stay” Alec blurts out, words coming out of his mouth before he even realizes. “I mean, you saved our lives, let us be your hosts for a night” he adds, blushing.

“Alec is right. No one needs to know who you are or what you are. It stays between us” Jace says. “Plus, you two are kind of linked together now, what’s up with the perimeter?”

“The perimeter?” Theo asks.

“Oh God, I didn’t even thought about that! How do you know about that!” I accuse.

“According to the tales, two people who’s lives are linked can’t be too far away from each other without feeling a hole in their heart. And if Alec gets a hole in his heart, I get one two. The perks of being parabatais. He’s a pain in the ass, but you kind of get used to it.”

“Fuck you” Alec and I speak in unisson.

“Alright, we need to work on that. I won’t deal with you two complaining at the same time” Jace states, walking off the beach. “But save some of it for Simon!” he adds, turning around, tripping over a rock in the process.

I laugh, looking at Theo, waiting for his approval. He says nothing but follows Jace, stating that he is fine with staying for the night. “Or forever” I think to myself, noting that London is too far away from New York. From Alec. The elder Lightwood walks by my side, and I note that the mark is not there anymore. “He’s hot, could have been worse.”

“That’s why I can’t”

Okay this chain of thought started by the latest fabulous art by @lapicesypantones and came from the minds of myself and @ravenesque2

So, back when we knew Daryl and Carol talked, we guessed Carol would have to explain to him why she left. I had assumed she’d say she couldn’t kill anymore etc, but nothing specific. However, now we know what she says, and we know she specifically makes it clear - if she kills again there will be nothing of her left. She’ll lose herself.

We also know, from the spoilers, that Morgan acknowledges that Daryl didn’t tell Carol the truth becuase he wanted to protect her. Morgan makes it clear - Carol is the thing Daryl is “holding onto”, he can’t lose her.

Previously, I had thought Daryl seeing Carol in the battle would be an inspiring happy moment, however the fabulous fanart made me realise - now he knows what she’s said, if she kills again she loses herself - Daryl seeing Carol in battle will scare the pants off him!

As far as he knows, she’s still in that frame of mind, and she’s sacrificing herself to get Ezekiel into war and to help fight it herself. So he’ll be terrified he’s about to REALLY lose her for good. If she kills again, what will happen? will she kill herself? Will she leave forever? He NEEDS her to stay alive and around, because she is what he’s holding on to.

So what happens if Daryl sees Carol in the battle… and she’s about to kill someone? He’d want to stop her, to stop her from doing the thing that will make her lose herself.

And what if that person she was about to kill, was Dwight?

Imagine if Daryl stops Carol from killing Dwight. The very moral question that started ALL of this, should Daryl have killed Dwight in the forest? The question that Carol and Daryl sat and pondered as they smoked on the steps. That Carol thought about as they dug Denise’s grave - if Daryl now thinks he SHOULD kill Dwight, then he has become everything she fears. She can’t bear the thought of Daryl becoming that man - just as she couldn’t bear it in COnsumed when he was going to let Noah die. She didn’t want Daryl to die but she also didn’t want to “lose” Daryl the way she feels she’s losing herself.

And here we have a moment, where HE is saying no don’t kill him. But he’s not doing it for himself, he’s doing it for Carol cos he wants to hold on to her - like Consumed all over again. Yet Carol will see, he is the man she always knew him to be, the man of honor. 

While poro confused Dwight won’t understand why, why after all he did to him doesn’t want Dwight to be killed, and Daryl can show Dwight WHY he always understood why Dwight was doing what he was doing, why he was willing to whatever it took JUST to have Sherry stay in his life - because that’s what Daryl is willing to do just to have Carol in his life.

And he can say again to Dwight, “THAT’S why I can’t.”

(And then Carol makes Dwight give Darly his vest back, at least, and Dwight realises Daryl has held on to what makes him good despite everything decides he’s going to be a double agent and help them bring Negan down)

Late Night Working*

WARNING: Imagine might contain mature material so read with your own risk! No need to come say to me that I didn’t warned you

Posted on Instagram: 9th of March, 2017

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Y/N’s POV:

It was Friday and everyone started leave beside me. I sat patiently behind my desk because I knew that if I stood up there, my boss would run there in 5 seconds with a high pile of new papers to sign.

It had been that since the day one. Every Friday overtime working. I was always the last who left that building. He didn’t let me go before those works would be done which he gave to me and I didn’t have enough strenght to fight back. It could mean in the worst option to getting fired and that was the last thing I wanted.

I had given up days ago already because I knew that I couldn’t ever sneak away without that he would notice that. It felt like he would have put some cameras in my office where he saw when I finished my works and then appears with new ones.

I had searched all painting and even plant pots but I have found nothing but I still had a strong feeling of that he stalked me. It wasn’t normal at all. If he didn’t have cameras, then he must have something of skills to sense people.

I had ever believed on things like that. They felt stupid but now I had started to think about that those things might be possible. But whatever, he was doing, freaked me out.

So I just sat there in my office and looked how minutes passed. When I moved my hand over my bag, I heard how the door opened and my boss walked in with two folders.

“I know that it’s Friday but could you please check out these before you leave, I should post them tonight at the latest” he mumbled. Yeah, a nice notice but why those words are like an air for me nowadays. Why they sound so familiar, I thought and rolled my eyes.

“Ms. Y/L/N! When you have finished your work, we should really talk about few things” I heard my boss say to me and then I realized that I might have slipped out of thoughts from my head. My thoughts weren’t just thoughts anymore when someone heard them. I blushed so hard.

I sat back behind my desk and started go through the papers. It took maybe 20 minutes before I was ready and took the paper pile on my arms, which had got a half lower than what it was when my boss brought it to me.

I knocked the door of my boss office polutely and heard his low voice told me come in. “Everything ready?” he asked and I nodded before I put the pile on gis table. “Yes, sir. Everything is ready and now I’d be ready to talk with you like you wanted”

I tried cover my earlier acting with professional side of me. “Good, please sit down, Ms. Y/L/N” he told and nodded over the chair in front of him. A long silence landed between us before he took his gaze of the newspaper which he had read.

“So Y/N, you have been working here a while now. How have you fit in so far?” he started familiarly. “Fine, I mean people here have been really kind and helpful” I smiled to him. “And I have really enjoyed working here” I added still. He nodded back and smiled.

“That’s great to hear, Ms. Y/L/N..” he mumbled and put the paper pile a side from his table. He fixed his eyeglasses and looked me. “.. because it has been great for me too to follow how hard you’re working. We have been looking for long-time workers like you, and finally we found one”

His words made me feel proud. “And if you promise to not tell anyone, you’re also pleasure to eyes” he said quieter. I blushed and didn’t know what to say. I looked down and bit my lip.

“It start be late, sir. I should be going home. There’s my parents coming to my place to eat a dinner later” I told to him and tried give him a hint to let me go. Air between us had started get more tensed after every minute I spent there in his office.

“What time are they coming?” I asked and I looked the clock on my wrist. “6pm” I mumbled. It was 3:45pm now. “Well then there’s still so a lot of time left” he smiled. So that maybe meant that he wanted still continue our conversation.

I tried hide my frustration with fake smile and sat back down on the chair. “You’re right, and actually I have everything ready in my fridge so I have to just put them in the oven before they come” He just nodded softly.

His eyes never left me, and after couple minutes it started already freak me out. “Sooo… ” I tried start the conversation again but nothing smart came out of my mouth. “Y/N, listen to me. Have you ever dreamed about being a boss of a big company?”

His sudden question make me full of energy again. “Well, who wouldn’t. I mean that might be everyone’s dream when they start work somewhere, being higher than others one day” I chuckled. “Not really, Ms. Y/L/N” he grinned and made me blush and mumble that ‘oh’ back.

I had embarrassed myself once again in front of him. “But it’s glad to hear that you have thought about that option and that you have big enough dreams to reach” he continued and stood up from his chair.

He walked other side of his table, behind me and let his hands land over my shoulders which made me shiver. “I have always liked that feature in my workers, ambition” his words danced in my ears like little raindrops which land on some hard surface.

“But do you know, what other feature I appreciate on them?” he asked and made me shook my head. “Obedience” he whispered and now his mouth was just maybe millimeters away from me, I could tell even I didn’t look behind myself. I couldn’t do it.

My breath quiver when I breathed out. He chuckled and stepped further of me. “I should go.. ” I said. I couldn’t be around him any second anymore or I couldn’t probably contain myself. My hormones rushed inside me like a crazy and I didn’t like that feeling. It was wrong to feel that way, but my body didn’t seemly care about that fact.

“It had taken just 10 minutes, Ms. Y/L/N” Mr. Bieber said and nodded over the clock which laid on the wall. “I know but I just remember that I have to go to buy a few things still to our lunch” I lied and tried stand up from the chair but he pushed me back gently.

“No, I can drive you there so it won’t take so long then” he told and moved stand in front of me. “Now, where we were… oh yeah, I was telling you about those features” he grinned. He seemly enjoyed that position more than he probably should have.

He was teasing me slowly with his words, or then it was just my head which gave new meanings to those innocent sounding sentences. Or was he doing that all on purpose? No, he couldn’t do that, I thought. On that moment, I woke up from my thoughts when I heard my boss talk again.

“What are you thinking about? You look like so absent. Is something wrong?” he asked with worried tone. Yeah, actually yes. I was sitting in my boss’ office and I didn’t know, why he asked me there in the end, and my mind was racing too wild right now that even the record of speed of light would soon get beaten.

However, those things stood just inside my head and I just shook my head for him. “I’m fine, sir” His left hand moved under my chin and he made me look at him straight on his deep brown eyes. “Is that so? I think that you’re lying to me right now, Ms. Y/L/N”

I couldn’t anything to myself that this setting somehow turned me on. I had always find attraction over dominant men. I smirked lightly to him even that wasn’t part of my first plan. He raised his eyebrows asking.

“Would you like to tell me now what was really on your mind?” “Those things might not be sober in this surroundings or time” I said quietly back. “Well, work time is already over and you’re actually free now so I don’t find any reason to not tell about them. We’re just normal people when we’re off the work” he said calmly.

He was totally right. We weren’t on the work anymore. I had stood here because of my own want. There were no chains over my shoulders to keep me in this place, it was my own want.

I looked him while he still waits for my answer. “I just thought about that, do you do all these things on purpose when I’m around? I mean keep me overtime here so you could see me more and so on, because it feels like that at least” He smirked to my question, it was enough for me already as answer. Seemly my all suspects had been right.

Justin’s POV:

“I already knew that you’re a really smart young woman but I didn’t know that you would be this smart” I chuckled to Y/N. “Damn, seemly you caught me, but my purpose wasn’t bad just know that… I just-” I mumbled and scratched back of my neck while I tried find right words.

“I just- like I said, you have also other sides which I admire on you. I could nothing to myself. I didn-” I couldn’t finish my words before she said back: “It’s okay” She stood up from her chair and I stepped further from her.

Maybe this was the good time to let her leave finally, I thought, but for my surprise she sat over my big table. “Since we’re not at work anymore, it’s maybe safe to say now, that you haven’t been the only who has enjoyed that little game of yours” I turned around and looked her a bit confused.

“What?” she giggled and moved her hand over my chest. “Nothing… I just-” I mumbled and followed how her hand started move against my toned chest. It felt good to be honest. “Didn’t expected that, huh? Well it felt weird for me too first but well here we’re now” she giggled.

Her giggles were maybe the favorite sound of hers for me so far, but I had a feeling that one sound would sound even better to me. She moaning my name in that little office and over that big table of mine. I wanted her more than I had ever wanted so far.

I moved closer to her so our lips were just few centimeters away each other’s. “I’m glad that you told that to me, Ms. Y/L/N” I mumbled and peaked her lips softly. She looked so uncertain in front of me now, and somehow it turned me on even more. However, I could tell that she wait for more and I was ready to give her that.

I stepped closer to her and pressed my lips against hers. My hand moved behind her back and started search the zipper to her dress. After a moment searching I found it and pulled it down. She giggled between the kiss when my cool fingers ran down her bare back. I smiled back and pushed her dress off her shoulders.

“This is so wrong” she whispered but didn’t show a move to stopping. She opened my tie and dropped it on the floor, before she started open my white shirt. I took off my black jacket and put it over the back of the closest chair. When she was ready with my shirt I pulled it off too.

Y/N jumped off the table. Just on that moment I realized how beautiful she actually looked there. Of course, I had noticed that earlier too but on this lighting, she looked like a goddess.

She let her dress fall on her feet before she stepped off it. Her lips touched my bare chest and it sent chills all over my body. I cursed myself lowly when I noticed how she moved millimeter by millimeter lower against my body. Kiss by kiss she reached my crotch and a big smirk spread on her lips.

I had to pinch myself so I would be sure that I wasn’t dreaming. When I looked down again, she was still there. I wasn’t dreaming, I thought. Y/N opened slowly my belt and the zipper of my jeans before she pulled my jeans on my knees.

“Someone is a bit excited” she bit her lip when she looked at me. “You don’t even know how long I have dreamed about this” I slipped out of my mouth. She chuckled and grabbed my boxers gently. A light moan slipped out of my mouth without thinking.

“Stop teasing, Y/N” I hissed but she didn’t show any move to fasten her moves. “Patience” she whispered before she pulled my boxers fully off. I had closed my eyes before that. I wanted feel it all, but for my surprise her touch was gone after that. I opened my eyes but didn’t see her anywhere.

Damn, she seemly tricked me and bad, I thought and shook my head. There I was now standing middle off my office, my jeans and boxers on my knees with a boner. I was ready to leave but then I heard a cough behind my table.

I turned around and noticed Y/N, who was sitting on my chair smirking just her lingerie on. “Did you already think that I left?” she asked. I chuckled and walked over her. “No, I was just thinking what should I do with you, but sadly I don’t have anything of those things with me which I would need” I told her. She raised her eyebrows and turned the chair, so we were now facing each other.

“Sad” she mumbled and played with the gold chain which hang on my neck. “It would have been interesting to see what you would have been ready to do to me but I try manage” she acted hurt but I knew that she wasn’t ready to leave yet.

We switched places so I was sitting on the chair now. “Take those off” I nodded the rest of her clothes. She nodded and opened her bra and threw when on the floor next to her other clothes. After a few second followed her panties. “What’s next, sir?” she bit her lip.

I liked that way, she still kept that 'sir’ in the game. It gave this moment more tension and a little taste of danger. “Come here” I told her come stand in front of me. “There’s an hour and half left, is that enough to you?” I mumbled and looked the clock on the wall. She nodded quickly and I pulled her even closer to me.

“I can drive you home after that because I’m pretty sure that you can’t walk there by yourself after we have finished” I smirked. She moaned softly back and looked me in the eyes. “You ready?” I asked and she nodded back quickly.

She sat on my lap slowly and let out louder whimper when I filled her. She started move slowly on my lap up and down, increasing her speed. My hands moved on her hips and I helped her move faster. “Yes, just like that” I groaned low to her and gave a kiss to her which last more than I expected.

“Why didn’t we do that sooner… damn you, I wouldn’t have mind at all if you come to my office without those papers once and just lay me on that little table of mine… ” she talked to me breathless. Her dirty talks turned on me even more if it was even possible.

“Well, like you said earlier. This is in the end wrong, we shouldn’t do this… but I have always liked too much breaking rules” I chuckled and pushed her off me without warning.

However, I didn’t give her time to complain against my sudden action, but I pushed her against my table and pushed myself back inside her. Her moans filled the whole room and I prayed the god in my mind that everyone else would have left the building already, or we would be in big trouble.

“Justin, please” she cried out and looked me over her shoulder. “Tell me what you want and I’ll give it to you” I mumbled to her ear and slapped her ass gently. I couldn’t just stop myself doing that anymore. Her ass was like a magnet which beg the other half, my hand. “Let me cum” she whispered.

I fastened my pace and pulled her hands behind her back. “Not yet” I murmed and let my eyes close. “Not yet, Y/N. I know you can take it still” I half mumbled myself to her. She let out frustrated groan but obeyed me still.

I continued pounding her still a couple minutes before I gave her a permission to come, and let’s say that she like really came. She squirted all over my table but I didn’t care about the mess. I was some kind of proud of that mess.

I pulled myself off her and kissed her cheek before I took a couple tissues from the drawer of my table. I handed one for her and took another to myself. “It’s 5:30pm, we should probably leave if you don’t wanna be late from your lunch” I mumbled and she looked me before she nodded.

We dressed up and I helped her out of the building to my car. I drove her home like I promised. The car ride was silent but when I stopped the car in front of her house, she opened her mouth.

“Thank you” she mumbled and kissed my cheek. “I had… fun” she blushed. “Maybe we should do that again sometime then” I grinned and it made her blush even more. “I think that we can avoid that” she said before she stepped out of the car.

I stood there still inside my car and followed how she walked in front of the door of her house and opened it. The light hit against her again just perfect. She looked beautiful. I got still a quick smile from her before she stepped inside her home. I smiled back. I couldn’t wait to see her on Monday again.

anonymous asked:

I've been wondering what is happening back on the war front. Obi Wan's still high general, isn't he? So is he calling them in his free moments for updates or to offer advice or what? How are Yularen and the other people Obi Wan knows handling things? Has Anakin taken over the 212th or are they all preoccupied having a collective panic attack over Obi Wan's safety? I love these stories. Apart from anything else, I now have a hilarious mental image of Obi Wan accidentally becoming emperor.

Ahahaha, Obi-Wan becoming Emperor would just mean he abdicates his throne immediately and runs off to be a hermit somewhere.

“—Move the troops in position on the north-west side of the mountain region. Should the separatist gain a foothold in the north, move further west and try to bring down any structures you leave behind. As we’re facing a droid army, don’t bother with salting and burning the earth, that will only leave unnecessary damage for once the war is over and the civilian population moves back into the area.”

“Duly noted, General.” Cody’s hologram nodded consideringly. Next to him, Admiral Yularen was frowning slightly, but not saying anything.

“Any concerns, Admiral?”

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The Winchesters and the Milligan

A/N- The fifth part of Long Lost Sister. I recommend reading the rest of the series.

Series Summary- Sam and Dean meet their sister, Adam’s twin, on a hunt and things don’t go all that smoothly.

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Y/N swung the demon blade through the air, swiping the demon standing in front of her. She ducked as he lunged toward her and then jammed the knife up through his rib cage. The demon crumpled, dead, on the floor. Y/N straightened up and looked around. The other three demons lay dead on the ground. She headed over towards her brothers, Dean checked over his younger siblings, “Everybody okay?”

Before they had the chance to respond, a new, heavily accented voice called across the warehouse, “Did you really need to take out Anna? She was one of my best.” The siblings stood on defense against the Scotsman. “Well, well, if it isn’t the littlest Winchester. Reunited with big brothers at last.”

Y/N narrowed her eyes at him, “Crowley. For the last time, it isn’t Winchester, it’s Milligan.”

Sam and Dean shared confused looks, Y/N and Crowley had meet before? When and where had she run into him?  Either way, the brothers were not too happy with Crowley being around their sister. Dean stepped forward toward Crowley, “Have you two meet before?”

Y/N shifted uncomfortably, “Yes, we’ve run into each other before on a few hunts.”

“More like hunting for me.” Crowley mumbled under his breath.

“What was that?” Sam asked. The brothers knew there was something Y/N wasn’t telling them. Of course the brothers didn’t know everything about Y/N, Sam was aware of that, but Y/N’s mysterious past with Crowley was making him uneasy.  

Y/N threw Crowley the signature Winchester bitch face, “You’d think as the King of Hell he’d be more well connected, but he’s kind of useless. Why have you guys even left him alive this long?”

Crowley made a face at the young woman and leaned closer to her. Dean and Sam instantly moved forward, trying to step between the two, but Crowley bent closer to her and said, “Now now, no need to be rude. It’s not my fault, we both know nobody can help you with what you want.”

“What does that mean?” Sam asked, looking back and forth between his sister and the King of Hell. Crowley winked at Y/N and disappeared. Before Y/N could even suck in a breath, Dean and Sam turned on her, questions pouring out of their mouths.

“What was that about?”

“How did you meet Crowley again?”

“What did he mean by you hunting him?”

“Yeah and what was that about nobody being able to help you?”

“Help you with what?”

“What exactly are you trying to do?”

Y/N took a deep breath and sheathed the demon blade, “It was nothing, it’s all nothing. Don’t worry about it.”

“Don’t worry about it?” Dean gave her an incredulous look. “Seriously? Our little sister has some obvious beef with the King of Hell and you want us to just not worry about it? Are you kidding me?”

“Yeah, Crowley’s nothing I can’t handle. I’m perfectly capable of taking care of myself, I’m not some little girl.” Sam sighed, rubbing a hand down his face, this was a common fight between Dean and Y/N. He’d say something about her being their little sister, or him looking out for her and she’d automatically bite back that she could take care of herself; it would just escalate from there.

Sam stepped in before it got bad, “We’re not saying you can’t, but the point is you don’t have to worry about Crowley on your own anymore. You’ve got us now and we know from past experience how much of a headache he can be. We just want to know that you’re safe. Dean didn’t mean to imply that you couldn’t look out for yourself.”

“That’s kind of you Sam, but really it’s nothing. Seriously. Let’s just get out of here okay?” The brothers knew that there was more she wasn’t telling them, but decided to wait till they got back to push for more information.


The boys didn’t try again until they were settled back in the bunker the next day. The siblings were seated in the library, researching and enjoying burgers. Sam and Dean exchanged looks over the books they were hiding behind, each trying to get the other one to ask.

Finally, Dean cleared his throat, but Y/N continued to read, obvious to his attempt to get her attention. When she didn’t look up Dean tried again, louder this time. Y/N raised an eyebrow at him, “Yes?”

Dean looked nervously at Sam, who nodded at him, “Well, we wanted to talk about the run in with Crowley yesterday.” Y/N slouched back in her seat, crossing her arms over her chest and the Dean braced himself before continuing, “I know you said you it was nothing and we know you can take care of yourself, but we are still worried. What exactly were you all tied up in with Crowley? What did you go to him for help about?”

“Guys, there is nothing to worry about. It was all in the past.”

Sam leaned forward in his seat, “Y/N, you didn’t make a deal with him, did you?”

“What?!” Y/N looked between the two brothers, shocked. Dean wouldn’t look her in the eye, terrified she’d say yes. “Of course not! Like he said, Crowley couldn’t help me. There was nothing to make a deal about. He couldn’t offer me anything.”

Again, the brothers shared uneasy looks, “But there was something you were willing to make a deal about? What was it you so desperately wanted?”

Y/N threw her arms up, exasperated with the relentless questioning, “Fine, yes I went to Crowley for help and probably would have made a deal.”

Y/N pushed back her chair and stood up angrily from the table. Sam and Dean followed her lead, both standing from their chairs.

“For what?” Dean’s voice was gruff and angry, it set him on edge that she, or Sam would ever do that.

“I was looking for someone that could help me free Adam from the cage. I thought Crowley as King of Hell might be able to, but just like everyone else he’s been a dead end.”

At the name of their mutual brother Sam and Dean both went rigid. The three siblings had never really discussed Adam and realistically the conversation was inevitable, but that didn’t make it any easier. While they never talked about him, Sam and Dean both individually felt guilty about their youngest brother’s fate.

“Y/N…”

“Don’t, okay? There really isn’t any need to even be having this conversation. There’s a reason I didn’t bring it up to you. I know you don’t care and I’m not going to make you talk about it, about him. Now you know how I meet Crowley. Happy?”

Y/N turned on her heel and went to storm out, but Dean reached out and grabbed her arm stopping her, “Just stop, you didn’t even give us a chance to say anything. Look, I know it’s a rough subject, but we don’t not care.”

Y/N let out a humorless laugh, cutting him off, “Oh you care? Wow, y’all have a weird way of showing it then. Leaving him to rot in hell with Lucifer and Michael is your way of showing you care?”

Dean’s hand dropped from Y/N’s arm, and both averted their eyes, not able to look Y/N in the eyes. When she continued her voice was harsh, with a cold edge to it, “No, if you cared you would have tried harder, hell you would have tried. You never really did. You made a half assed attempt with Death once, but quickly gave that up for Sam here. Let’s be honest with each other, if that was one of you still down there you would die trying to free the other.”

“Y/N,” Sam started, but he honestly didn’t even know what to say. How was he supposed to defend them? She was right. If Dean was trapped in the cage he would never give up trying to free his brother and Dean had done everything to free him before.

Dean tried to blink about the tears starting to form, “It’s not that black and white. Hunting never is, we wanted to save him, we really did, but you said it yourself, there is no way of getting him out.”

“Don’t. You didn’t try and exhausted all your resources and try to set him free. You figured there was no way, but you didn’t try and find a way. Don’t even try and give me that bullshit. That’s my twin brother you’re talking about and you left him in the cage for all of eternity.”

Sam and Dean were shocked into silence. The guilt they felt for Adam before now multiplied. Sam stepped towards Y/N, but she quickly stepped back from him, “I was down there Y/N, I know what it was like. If there was some way we could have saved Adam we would have done it. I wouldn’t wish that on my worst enemy, and certainly not my brother.”

Y/N’s voice kept rising as she got angrier and angrier, “Don’t call him that. He wasn’t your brother, you never treated him like a brother. Like you treat each other, but then again no one will ever be as important to you to as each other is.”

“What does that mean?” Dean snapped.

“It means unless you’re Sam and Dean Winchester, you better watch your back, because you two will screw over anyone to save each other.”

Sam gave her a lost look and tried again to reach out for her, “C’mon, that’s not true. Y/N-”

“No, it’s a hundred percent true. You’ll always pick each other, like with Adam, hell like with the apocalypse. You will risk everything, even the safety of the whole world to protect each other. I can’t trust you two; I can’t trust that you’d do anything for me. I never will be able to, because if push comes to shove one day, I’m the extendable one here.”

Sam and Dean stood there in shock, not sure how to respond, “That’s what I thought.”

It was the slam of Y/N’s door that finally shook the boys out of it.


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I drove past your house for the first time in eighteen months. did you know that every red toyota sienna gives me a brief feeling of panic? a moment of “what if it’s her, what if she sees me, what if I let myself drift into a guardrail when I remember all of that hurting I did?”

how terrible, that red cars can never just be red cars, now. always an open wound, leaking into my periphery like the last three minutes of a sunset. all that angry sky before the curtain falls.

the last time I was here a box of gifts took up the passenger seat. my foot an extension of the gas pedal, daring every stop sign to compete with my heart. you think YOU’VE brought people to their knees? look at this skin. look at these hands. look at what I’ve had to come back from.

so, all this to say, I drove past your house for the first time in eighteen months and nothing changed. maybe this is a subtle sort of victory, that the walls of my abuser are still settling into the earth around your footsteps, and I’m still the same survivor that can’t go ice skating anymore but has taught myself to glide anyways.

in the midst of all these days and hours I wonder what you have had to forgive. the people you have had to learn how to melt for. whether you thought of me as you did it.

tires on gravel.
windows rolled down.
late march breeze whipping through the interior.
your blinds, shut tight.
this is always how we knew each other.
but this time, I’m the one
leaving.

—  white lines, 5/30, Caitlin Conlon

I looked through our conversations when we used to be on cloud nine and in love, these were the times you told me how lucky you are to have a girl like me, how thankful you are because you never received such love I was giving to you and whatever happens, you will never let me go. The words you said mean everything to me and it stabs my heart, realizing that these words mean nothing anymore. I can’t help myself but to cry my heart out till the sun has set. The pain is too heavy to bear, the love I believed to be true and different was gone. We used to be over the moon, but the present tells the opposite. This is stupid of me to say but, I won’t deny the fact that I miss you so much. I love you, I still do. But somehow, I’ve come with the thought that I can’t do anything anymore, I need to let you go because it’s the right thing to do. I’ve decided to finally move on and this would be the last time I would cry over you because there was nothing left to hold on to and I can’t hold on to something that doesn’t want to be held.

I’m sorry. I’m sorry because I was the reason why you let things end. I’m sorry for the terrible mistake I made, I never blamed you for deciding to end this because you were hurt and I understand. I only have myself to blame. But, I was hoping you would’ve understood, that I did it for us. I always feared the day would come, the day you will finally won’t take back the words you’ve said. I’m sorry for the other things that have hurt you, for the things that made you cry, jealous and mad.
Thank you. I’m thankful that I met you because you have given me a temporary bliss. I laughed and smiled because of you. Somehow, you made me feel loved and beautiful in a short period of time. Thank you for the good days: the days we felt unstoppable like we’re flying high, when holding your hand felt like home, leaning on your shoulders made me feel secure and hearing your voice sound like the angels are singing. It was worth it, being loved and loving you. Thank you for making me realize how capable I am to love someone. You proved forever within a number of days. You were the greatest and worst thing ever happen to me.

Goodbye. This will be the last time that I will write you a message, I’ll accept the fact that some things are meant to end, even though I used to believe that you won’t let that happen. I did everything I could to make you stay, but I guess your life no longer includes me because, you’re happy now and I can see that clearly. You already found a love that’s all the things ours couldn’t be. I hope you find overwhelming joy by her side, I hope she won’t hurt you and make you cry. I hope for the best for the both of you. It hurts but I’ve accepted the painful truth that I am just a distant memory now. I don’t regret loving you, but what I regret is that I let myself believe that this would last.

I won’t forget you and the memories, I will always keep you alive in my heart. I’ll just get used to not having you in my life anymore. Deep within my heart knows getting over you won’t be simple. I need to stop loving you so I can start loving myself again. You were a painful blessing, but you were also a great lesson.

I guess you’re just another chapter of my life that needed to end. I still and will pray for your safety and happiness even though I’m in pain right now, I still believe you deserve the best. I hope you find everything in her that you couldn’t find in me. You will always be my greatest love.

—  Happy for you
As the midnight’s silence comforts me, for the first time after that 1AM phone call, I felt relieved. The storm is over, it may have crushed the life out of me but it also gave me countless chances to redeem myself from the pain that was holding me down. After this night, nothing will be the same anymore but I’ve accepted it completely. I’d like to believe that things will get better in due time. Love is the strongest healing force in the universe and I’ll let it heal my wings. There’s no skipping the pain of saying goodbye but there will always be hope for those who believe. It will all be better tomorrow..
—  d.r.n

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Lee groans, not the good pleasure-thick kind, and Burr sighs and says, “You shouldn’t have gone and got shot then,” righteous.

Indignant, Lee bites the exposed skin at Burr’s neck.  “I didn’t plan to get shot.  Nobody goes to a duel expecting that.”  He pauses.  “You should have gave me indication that Laurens was going to, after you conversed with Hamilton.”

Burr doesn’t mention that he did tell him.  He’d tell him again, but he doesn’t care — it’s over, now — and he’s otherwise occupied, moaning as Lee thrusts in him.

“Maybe you wanted me to get shot,” Lee pants, biting down on the pain from his side, his dark hair falling in his face as he leans over Burr.  “Maybe you hate me, too.”

“I don’t hate anyone,” Burr says.  Lee is a little crazed, now, even more so.  “I only did my duty.”

Lee scoffs.  “You only agreed to be my second because you hate—sorry, dislike, Washington because he ignored you,” he says, grinning, “and because you wanted to show off in front of Hamilton, because he’s ignored you too.”

“I did not.”

Lee leans in, whispering in Burr’s ear.  “C’mon, you can tell me.  I’m not your General anymore, I’m dismissed.  You can tell me what you really want.  No consequences.”  He kisses Burr, something rare, pulls away with Burr’s lip between his teeth.  “You wish I were Alexander.”

Burr doesn’t say anything, he closes his eyes and wraps his legs around Lee and pushes down on him.  It makes Lee squeak in mix of pain and pleasure, and Burr focuses on that instead.

“Maybe Laurens should’ve shot you in the mouth,” he says.  Lee doesn’t disagree.

School AU Prompts (based on my experiences)

* “A bird flew into the classroom and our teacher who is very afraid of birds is screaming and diving behind us to seek shelter” au

* “We’re playing field hockey and you hit the ball so high that it hits me in the face, but I’m fine and keep playing and two minutes later you’re screaming at the blood on my face and oh that’s unfortunate” au

* “We both have transparent rulers and we’ve never spoken before but you find this to be the perfect opportunity to start talking to me. Really? This of all things? Matching rulers?” au

* “You asked me if I was emo and Christ, that’s the third time I’ve been asked that today *deeply inhales* BOI” au

* “I have a love for learning French and am determined to be the top student but your first language is closely related to French, so the subject comes naturally to you bUT YOU SLACK OFF AND NOW WE HAVE AN UNSPOKEN RIVALRY” au

* “I’m not athletic and get nervous real easily so instead of participating in gym, I keep scores. While your team switched places in volley ball you whisper to me to sneak your team a couple points and I’m too awkward to realize it was a joke and you have to stop me” au

* “You’re the top student in chemistry, but you often get lazy on homework and I’m failing, but when the teacher says I was the only one to have a perfect score on a test, we all get a taste of your petty side” au

* “I blank out during a test, but you mistake it for me not knowing the answer so you whisper the answers to me. I thought I was hearing things, but I hover my pencil over the letter you suggested and you whispered ‘yes that one’ damn I’m gonna ace this” au

* “We have an assignment to write a bunch of poems in English class and I got too into it, so you gawk at my four page poems making me uber uncomfortable” au

* “I know jack shit about this subject, but I’m well versed in random 80’s pop culture, so when our nostalgic teacher tries to make references so we can understand the material, I’m the only one who gets them and you think it’s because I failed the subject so many times that I lived through the references” au

* “I have my head leaning on my fist and crack my knuckles against my chin, but you can’t figure out where the noise is coming from and I have to hide my laughter.” au

* “I started daydreaming and forgot to pull out my work, so the teacher asks me about it and I panic saying it’s already finished. You and your friends start getting loud, so the teacher points to me and says to follow my example and don’t you give me that look” au

* “You teach me phrases in sign language, so when you start talking during a lecture, I sign to you to stop talking because I didn’t want to be caught talking and somehow I’m still the one who got in trouble” au

* “You start off singing 'let it go’ really quietly and progressively get louder until you’re standing and doing the moves and- wait, now you’re sassily walking out the door and is the teACHER SERIOUSLY JUST GONNA LET YOU LEAVE?” au

* “Another fight broke out and a rumor started that it was over buttpads and you keep reminding people. It’s my third class of the day and I SWEAR TO GOD IF I HEAR THE WORD 'BUTTPAD’ ONE MORE TIME” au

* “You just waltz into the band room where me and all my friends hang out in the morning and offer to read a fanfiction you wrote about two of the teachers” au

* “I misspoke and accidentally said something that sounded like a pimp name so I shouted 'if anyone is in need of a pimp name, I just came up with one’ and without missing a beat, you said 'your offer intrigues me’” au

* “I stuttered over my words and accidentally said something really bad and you were the only person who I could convince to punch me and now you feel really bad, it’s okay, my bruises heal quickly, I had it coming, here’s three dollars” au

* “I have nothing to do until play practice which is hours later, so I hide in a storage closet and you’re the one to find me while searching for your tuba” au

* “You think you’re some fancy salesman, selling useless car parts and junk from the streets, but hey I guess the jokes on me, I bought an antique, broken street light glass off you for fifty cents and now I have to carry it around all day, using it as a paper weight” au

* “We share the same birthday and I sit directly behind you in class and one of your friends says 'happy birthday’ to you and now every. single. person is now wishing you a happy birthday, including the TEACHER and not a soul says it to me I MEAN SERIOUSLY THEY ANNOUNCED BOTH OUR BIRTHDAYS ON THE LOUD SPEAKER THIS MORNING” au

* “The teacher is speaking with someone and we hear them point out that we’re the only two people with curly hair in the class and you turn to me and say 'there can only be one’” au

* “We both have a cold and have to sniffle frequently, and we accidentally got the whole class sniffling as a joke and- hey buddy, you started it” au

* “I’m quiet in chorus but when we have a concert with my favorite song as a piece, I make myself HEARD and after the concert you compliment me and say I should sing louder more often and dammit, I shouldn’t fall in love with everyone who’s nice to me” au

BONUS:

* “You’re the lead in the school musical and I work backstage, but it’s my first time and I’m nervous so I call a friend, but you take my phone from me and start saying ridiculous (but hilarious) things to them like its nothing and… hm, I’m not so nervous anymore” au

* “You’re vocally homophobic, but only to impress your conservative friends because you’re scared they’ll leave you, but when we were in kindergarten, I had a crush on you and we kissed on the playground, and I recently came out as trans, so I just have this blackmail on you that you kissed a boy, just try me fucko” au

                                             ADELE 25 LYRICS MEME

Hello

“I was wondering if after all these years you’d like to meet”
“They say that time’s supposed to heal ya, but I ain’t done much healing”
“I’ve forgotten how it felt before the world fell at our feet”
“I must have called a thousand times to tell you I’m sorry for everything that I’ve done”
“At least I can say that I’ve tried”
“I’m sorry for breaking your heart”
“It’s so typical of me to talk about myself, I’m sorry”
“Did you ever make it out of that town where nothing ever happened?”
“It clearly doesn’t tear you apart anymore”

Send My Love (To Your New Lover)

“This was all you, none of it me”
“You told me you were ready”
“I’m giving you up”
“You set me free”
“Send my love to your new lover”
“We both know we ain’t kids no more”
“You couldn’t keep up, you were falling down”
“If you’re ready, I am ready”

I Miss You

“I want every single piece of you”
“I want to teach you things you never knew baby”
“Then kiss me back to life to see your body standing over me”
“I miss you when the lights go out” 
“Pull me in hold me tight don’t let go”
“I love the way your body moves”
“No one has me like you do baby”
“Be delicate with my ego”
“We play so dirty in the dark”

When We Were Young

“Everybody loves the things you do”
“Everybody here is watching you”
“You’re like a dream come true”
“Can I have a moment before I go?”
“My God, this reminds me of when we were young”
“Let me photograph you in this light”
“We were sad of getting old”
“It was just like a movie”
“I was so scared to face my fears”
“Nobody told me that you’d be here”
“That’s what you said, when you left me”
“A part of me keeps holding on"
“I guess I still care”
“Do you still care?”

Remedy

“This ain’t easy it’s not meant to be”
“No river is too wide or too deep for me to swim to you”
“When the world seems so cruel and your heart makes you feel like a fool, I promise you will see I will be your remedy”
“Your love, it is my truth“
“And I will always love you”

Water Under the Bridge

“If you’re not the one for me then how come I can bring you to your knees”
“If you’re not the one for me why do I hate the idea of being free?”
“If I’m not the one for you, you’ve gotta stop holding me the way you do”
“I want you to be my keeper but not if you are so reckless”
“If you’re gonna let me down, let me down gently”
“Don’t pretend that you don’t want me”
“What are you waiting for?”
“And who are you hiding from?”
“Have I ever asked for much?”
“The only thing that I want is your love”

River Lea

“I need to learn to lighten up and learn how to be young”
“I’m scared to death if I let you in that you’ll see I’m just a fake”
“I stain every heart that I use to heal the pain”
“I should probably tell you now before it’s way too late”
“I never meant to hurt you or lie straight to your face”
“I’d rather say it now in case I never get the chance”

Love in the Dark

“Take your eyes off of me so I can leave”
“I’m far too ashamed to do it with you watching me”
“I can’t stay this time cause I don’t love you anymore”
“Don’t come any closer”
“I’m being cruel to be kind”
“I can’t love you in the dark”
“It feels like we’re oceans apart”
“You have given me something that I can’t live without”
“I don’t want to carry on like everything is fine”
“The longer we ignore it all the more that we will fight”
“ I’m trying to be brave”
“Stop asking me to stay”
“I don’t regret a thing”
“It is the world to me that you are in my life”
“I want to live and not just survive”
“I don’t think you can save me”

Million Years Ago

“I only wanted to have fun”
“Deep down I must have always known that this would be inevitable”
“I know I’m not the only one who regrets the things they’ve done”
“Sometimes I just feel it’s only me who can’t stand the reflection that they see”
“I feel like my life is flashing by”
“They can’t look me in the eye it’s like they’re scared of me”

All I Ask

“Why don’t we just play pretend”
“Look, don’t get me wrong, I know there is no tomorrow”
“If this is my last night with you hold me like I’m more than just a friend”
“Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do”
“What if I never love again?”
“I don’t need your honesty”
“I’m sure my eyes, they speak for me”
“No one knows me like you do”
“Let this be the way we remember us”
“I ain’t asking for forgiveness”

Sweetest Devotion

“We can break every law”
“There is something in your loving that tears down my walls”
“I weren’t ready then, I’m ready now”
“You will only be eternally the one that I belong to”
“Come whatever I’ll be yours all along”
“I’ve been looking for you, baby, in every face that I’ve ever known”
“There is something about the way you love me that finally feels like home”
“You’re the right kind of madness”

—BONUS—

Can’t Let Go

“I have loved you all my life”
“I gave you everything you never gave me”
“I never lied and I never faked it”
“This love, it ain’t over yet”
“Did you find the note that I wrote?”
“It was hard to write with a lump in my throat”
“What was I thinking, I gave you everything”
“Sometimes I feel like I’m in the dark”
“Hope you know, I won’t let go”

Lay Me Down

“I would never lie to you unless you tell me to”
“The words don’t come out right when you’re right in front of me”
“You can read my mind, be it truth or lies”
“Lie down beside me”

Why Do You Love Me

“How do you keep me coming back for more?”
“I can’t decide if I should run and hide”
“Your love drives me crazy”
“I want you to love me”
“Who knows why I love you”
“I spend every single moment daydreaming of you”
“I can’t describe how I feel, it feels right”
“You have a place in my heart that will always be yours”

I'm Not Afraid of You // Kylo x Reader

After dating Kylo for a year and his temper and anger problems getting in the way of everything, (Y/N) has had enough. 

Originally posted by trashwilldo

His blaring voice boomed through the metallic hallways as she stood there quietly, flinching as his red sword came down, striking the walls. His hair’s waves rippled with every strike with screams being thrown at her. Her heart rate was beating ridiculously fast as she could feel the organ in her throat.

This was a typical day for the couple. Now, the Commander always had a terrible temper, but dating the common girl caused more. It wasn’t that he was the problem, it was a matter of managing his work with his health with her. He loved her, yes, but he could barely control his temper around her.

As for the girl, she used to be terrified of him. The relationship they had was something terrifyingly beautiful. Together, alone, he was completely head over heels for her. Kylo adored the girl with every fiber in his being. She never expected to end up with the man, yet somehow those were the stars’ plans. But now, after all of the fights and the meltdowns, she didn’t feel the need to stand for this anymore.

Breathing heavily, the heaving motion of his chest rising and falling, he slowly turning around to face his love, however rage was still a dominant emotion in his eyes. He knew the reason they were fighting over was simply foolish, yet there was a part of himself that felt it completely necessary to start this.

Staring at him expressionless, she had her arms crossed and sighed. “Are you done?” The two of them stood there, the only sound surrounding them was his irregular breathing.

“You mean to tell me th-“

“No. Let me speak for once my damn life,” she spoke, taking the usually dominant force of the two aback. He furrows his eyebrows in both confusion in anger. “All you do is criticize all of my actions. Whether it’s to your benefit or mine, you always have to pick something with me. And it is never out of love,” she accuses.

Kylo retracts his saber and flips his hair. His rage comes to a close as his eyes soften and takes a step towards her. “You know I don’t mean anything I say or do. It’s just that I’m really tense,” he extends his hand out to cup your cheeks as she slaps it away.

Once again, he furrows his eyebrows as he gulps, knowing he is in for it. “Stop it. Just because you say you don’t mean something and you stroke my cheek, doesn’t mean that everything is going to be fine. Because every time you apologize, you do it again and again. And I’ve had it,” she says, shaking her head. Kylo’s eyes widen as he expects what’s coming next, and it’s something he’s feared ever since she became his.

“Please,” he begs, grabbing her hands.

Quickly pulling them out of the touch she desires so much, she begins, “Ever since I said I loved you, you have been nothing but inconsiderate and selfish. You only care about work and taking over something that doesn’t even belong to you. That goes for the galaxy and myself. You try to scare me into being submissive to you, but I’m not afraid of you. Not anymore at least.”

She can tell his words are tearing him apart as his brown eyes beg for mercy. His joints become weak and unable to supporting his weight as he falls to his knees, something he never expect to do for anyone. He holds onto her legs, tightly afraid she will slip from his fingertips with a snap. The sobs soon part his lips as she sighs, knowing that this is hurting him as much as it is her. “I’m sorry I ever made you feel that way. Please let me prove myself once more to you,” he says, his grip becoming a vice on her legs.

The girl sucks in a breath, knowing that if she submits, he has won. And this was a fight she wasn’t going to surrender. “I deserve a happy life,” she bluntly states.

“Yes, I am willing to give that to you. If you’d just let me show you that I can,” he musters up the strength to stand up and cup her cheeks in his large, leather covered hands.

Gulping, she says, “I deserve my sanity. And you have deprived me of that ever since you said those three words back to me.”

Kylo shakes his head vigorously, unable to accept the truth of the situation. “No, (Y/N). I love you and I can’t let you go. I’ve let so many blessing slip out of my own fingertips and I can’t let the best one of them all go as well,” he pleads before crashing his desperate lips onto her. His lips carry a sense of familiarity and warmth that her life has lacked for years on end. Their brined tears mix in with the sweet, passionate kiss as she attempts to pry herself off of the only man she’s truly loved. Yet with one swift motion, he pulls her back in, forcefully making her accept the love he spews out of only her.

Placing her hands on his chest, she pushes him away as he staggers back. Once again, the two are left breathless, both knowing that this was the end of the line. “I love you, but I can’t go on,” she finally says after a beat. The tears fall down his face in a symphony of chaos. He whispers a small profanity as he pulls at his roots, cursing himself into a state of damnation. “This is too much for the both of us…”

“We can make it work. We made I work for a year, and who says we can’t make it for many more to come,” he tries to compromise.

She backs away to the door. “I say we can’t. And that’s all left that I have to say,” she gulps as his eyes fall into a pit of despair.

“But, I wanted to start a new life with you. I wanted to spend my life with you. I will never love someone the way I love you. Not for the rest of my existence,” he attempts as his words only make the poor girl sob harder.

The hallway is filled with her sobs as his occasionally sniffles. She is ever so broken up about the whole situation, never did she picture this occurring. Not this soon. Not ever. “I wanted to, too. But I can’t go on. I’m hurting from the damage that was instilled long ago. And now it’s time for me to leave,” she says.

Her words shred his soul into nothing as if it weren’t that way before he met her. “I’m sorry,” he whispers as she looks up at him. “I’m sorry for breaking your beautiful soul.”

She lightly smiles. “Thank you for showing me love,” she responds as it only causes him to cry again. The sight is too much for her to bear as she makes her getaway. “Goodbye, Kylo.”

Her footsteps echo through the hallway as well as in his mind. That sound will forever haunt him.

And with that, he watched her walk away out of his life.

prompt time. things I've heard this week.

1. And that was the moment I knew
2. How late is late?
3. It’s nothing McDonald’s breakfast can’t fix.
4. Tell me not to worry.
5. What are we friends now?
6. Why can’t you just be honest?
7. Good luck with this mess you’re making.
8. I don’t want to get out of bed.
9. Watch out for that one.
10. That’s what happens when you wear red.
11. Have some self-respect.
12. Please don’t wear that dress.
13. It really hurts.
14. You can always wake me up.
15. I’ll be here, in the shadows…
16. I thought you were still there
17. I’ve had this feeling for a long, long time
18. I can’t replace you.
19. Do you want that back?
20. Get wasted.
21. The cops shut down the party
22. I don’t even know what’s going on.
23. Am I getting warm?
24. I don’t want to fight about this tonight.
25. I’ll tell you why.
26. I want to be used.
27. I’d rather have my heart broken
28. Maybe you should look in the mirror
29. I feel good enough right now
30. Are you ashamed of me?
31. I don’t care for most of it.
32. But you’re all that I want
33. Don’t tell me about him.
34  I don’t want to know.
35. I don’t want to see you with her
36. How many times do I have to tell you ?
37. There’s nothing I can say anymore is there ?
38. You’re here to try and make it all better.
39. Go back to California.
40. Tell me something I don’t know
41. Please stop screaming
42. You never called
43. This feels a lot like hitting a wall
44. You think I’m insane
45. You think I’m making it up
46. I’m never going to put myself through this again .
47. Thanks for letting me in
48. I don’t like that I did that to you
49. It’ll only make you mad
50. They know your name
51. Why are they calling you?
52. Look away, look away
53. It’s all in your mind.
54. I would go with you if you calmed down.
55. It came undone
56. I would do that if you let me.
57. We know better
58. Don’t talk to me about the fucking weather.
59. Let me call you ‘baby’
60. You can call me ‘honeybun’
61. I’m losing sleep
62. I am afraid to be close to you
63 . Where should I begin?
64. I’ll be in the garden
65. Be near me
66. They’ll never get you right
67. No one could stop you
68. I only have my opinion if you want it
69. I’ve been watching you all night
70. He should be scared of you
71. Do you have a curfew?
72. You can’t help me.
73. Between me and you
74. Did you think I’d be happy?
75. The trail went cold.
76. I’ve been worried about the future
77. I didn’t want you to know
78. Follow your heart
79. The heart doesn’t lie
80. I’m watching you be torn apart.
81. It feels worse than being kicked in the ribs.
82. It’s getting in the way.
83. It’s a lot easier to just lie
84. Can you even look me in the eye ?
85. Who am I to get in your way?
86. Would it kill you to talk to me?
87. You’re just pretending it didn’t happen!
88. He’s two years old !
89. I just drove around the park
90. You’re pushing me far, far away
91. I want to hold you for longer
92. The more I think about it, the more upset I get.
93. All you had to do was give a fuck
94. I am on all fours
95. I am just a fucking man
96. I will wait
97. I know you hate me
98. She always comes back
99. Maybe if you understood me
100. Loving you isn’t a choice
101. Don’t pretend you didn’t hear
102. This is a nightmare
103. I’m the victim in all of this
104. I’m going back to the club
105. You’ll find someone, you always do
106. You have sand in your hair.
107. It all comes down to you
108. I thought this would help me
109. You’re never satisfied
110. I feel myself giving up
111. I’ll put on a show for you
112. I wish I could make you laugh.
113. Get your shit together
114. My brain isn’t here
115. Everyone I love is on drugs
116. I want to hurry home to you
117. Nothing is over til it’s over
118. You fell asleep watching TV
119. We were moving and shaking
120. I need air
121. You think that’s all it takes?
122. It gave me a rash
123. I’m stretched so thin
124. I wasn’t looking for anything
125. She’s just an unpleasant person
126. Do you actually think the world revolves around you?
127. Have fun in Mexico without me
128. Do you still want to be here?
129. I know you give a fuck.
130. That’s what he said you said.
131. I’ll come back when I can.
132. Don’t tell anyone you saw me.
133. I did it for you
134. Poor you.
135. Could you be more disinterested?
136. There’s nothing more to talk about
137. I’m not interested
138. Don’t make me block you
139. Give it time
140. I just wanted to see for myself
141. You’re different somehow
142. I give up.
143. That’s why we are going to the beach.
144. Take me with you.
145. I want to put my toes in the ocean.
146. You could give me the world, but you won’t even give me a drawer.
147. Don’t hurt yourself
148. Is it better for you?
149. Your mom never liked me
150. This is when you’re supposed to know.