i have no words to describe how this makes me feel

anonymous asked:

How does Nina make you feel?

The first hello exchanged between us had me nervous but confident. My voice was shaky and I was upset that day. Throughout the days spent talking to her almost everyday on FaceTime I grew to not be nervous but to feel motivated and happiness. A connection between us flourished and talking to her felt so easy, words poured out of my mouth like a river after a storm. It was easy with her. It still is. I began to love her and I knew she loved me back. Falling in love with a girl who loves you back could not be described. I could write a novel about it and not fully comprehend how being mutually in love feels. She makes me feel like I have a home and a someone who’s always looking out for me. I have a soul mate that I can always count on and who I imagine spending forever with. She smiles and my whole body tenses and as cheesy as this sounds my heart skips a beat. Her smile brings out the best in me. She makes me feel important and worth something more than I may feel on off days. I could keep going but I think you guys get an understanding that this girl makes me feel beautiful, inside & out.

writing ask game

made for novels, but can be used for fanfiction or other types of writing!

  1. describe the plot in 1 sentence.
  2. pick one sight, smell, sound, feel, and taste to describe the aesthetic of your novel.
  3. which 3+ songs would make up a playlist for the novel?
  4. what’s the time period and location in which the novel takes place?
  5. is this a standalone or a part in a series?
  6. are there any former titles you’ve considered but discarded?
  7. how many times does the word ____ appear in the novel?
  8. what’s the first line that comes up when you search _____?
  9. what’s the first line of your novel?
  10. what’s a line of dialogue you’re particularly proud of?
  11. which line from the novel most represents it as a whole?
  12. who are your character faceclaims?
  13. sort your characters into harry potter houses!
  14. which character’s name do you like the most?
  15. describe each character’s daily outfit.
  16. do any characters have distinctive birthmarks/scars?
  17. pick a color to represent each character.
  18. pick a font to represent each character.
  19. which character most fits a character trope? which trope?
  20. which character is the best writer? worst?
  21. which character is the best liar? worst?
  22. which character swears the most? least?
  23. which character has the best handwriting? worst?
  24. which character is most like you? least like you?
  25. which character would you most like to be?

Breath of the Wild seriously blows me away. It’s the really small things that make this game amazing. Like this scene, where I was hunting for deer in a forest when I hear a faint melody playing in the distance, carried by the wind. I stop what I’m doing and start following the music, which grows louder as you get closer, and find myself in a vast lush field.

Standing in the middle of the field is an eclectic character holding a worn-out accordion and playing a song that is hauntingly beautiful and somewhat familiar, giving you a side quest to accomplish. It’s really the little details in this game that makes it a masterpiece because you feel like the world is alive, and you ARE Link lol…

I have one last request for you, as you continue on your path of life: don’t fall in love with a writer. Please, don’t let them torment themselves at 2am thinking of how to describe the expression on your face at the first snow of the season. Whatever you do, don’t let them get distracted in the middle of the day because they’re trying to write up the perfect reply to your vague text. If you can ever control it, please don’t make them stay awake hours on end trying to hand-write you a letter to explain how they feel, when vocal words just aren’t enough. If at all possible, don’t tell them you love them, as they’ll think of a thousand and one ways to tell it back to you. I’m asking you this because it happened. To me. From you. And it sucked all the life out of me. Not in the sense that I didn’t write. But in the sense that all I did was write. Poems, stories, small journal entries. And it didn’t hit me until I heard your voice across that little coffee shop that my poem was about you. I realized you were the soft melody flowing through my head that I couldn’t get out, much like a favorite song. You were the glimmer of hope in the darkness of the night when my thoughts consumed me and I wrote until my hand hurt and my paper stained with tears. You were all of those, and so much more. So I ask that you please spare another writer’s heart, not to keep them from inspiration, but to keep them from hurting the way I did.
—  Excerpt from a book I will never write #1169 
Green Day Asks
  • I tried to make these as least cliche as possible lmao
  • 1,000 hours: How long did your longest relationship last?
  • 21 Guns: What was your first breakup like? Describe it in 10 words or less.
  • 21st Century Breakdown: Do you ever wish that you were born in a different year or era? Why? What year?
  • All By Myself: Have you ever been stalked? Explain.
  • Are We the Waiting: Are you waiting for something right now?
  • Bang Bang: Have you ever used any sort of weaponry, for sport or otherwise?
  • Before the Lobotomy: What's your happiest memory?
  • Blood, Sex and Booze: Are you into any unusual things in a relationship, sexual or not?
  • Bouncing Off the Wall: What kind of kid were you in elementary school ("the class clown," "the nerd," etc)?
  • Christie Road: Is there a certain place you feel happiest at?
  • Church on Sunday: Could you ever date someone with completely different religious views?
  • F.O.D: What do you want to say to your ex?
  • Fucktime: How old were you when you lost your virginity?
  • King for a Day: Have you ever crossdressed?
  • Longview: What motivates you?
  • Makeout Party: Describe your first kiss.
  • Oh Love: Do you believe in love at first sight?
  • St. Jimmy: Did you ever have an emo phase?
  • The Forgotten: Name a movie with a soundtrack you like.
  • Wake Me Up When September Ends: What's your favorite month?
  • We Are the Champions: What's your favorite cover of a song?
  • Xmas Time of the Year: Do you celebrate Christmas?
  • Viva La Gloria / Little Girl: Have you ever ran away?


This blog has grown into something I never imagined. It seems like yesterday that I was posting the first chapters of The City and of Weights & Measures. Sometimes I get really overwhelmed when I think about everything that has happened, especially in the last few months.

There are no words to describe how much it all means to me. You all have helped me keep going, not just as a writer but as a person. So many of you were there for me during one of the hardest periods of my life. Sending me messages that made my cry because I could feel every ounce of your love in your words. Making me suffer through all the jidevil posts you continue to tag me in. 

I just hope that I can give back what you have given me. You all have helped me find my voice again. And I cannot thank you enough for that. 

From the bottom of my heart, regardless if you are mentioned here or not, thank you. Everyone i interact with is a beautiful human being and I want to thank BTS for bringing us all together. 

so here we go!

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Kihyun singing “Amen” to Wonho while holding his hands :’)

A (Serious) Note about Panic Attacks.

I don’t make a lot of posts. I also do not enjoy making serious posts. Period. I go onto tumblr to feel good. It lets me escape the big scary world for five seconds and absorb myself in superheros, MBTI, Doctor Who and video games all at the same time. However, I have never needed to make a post as much as I need to make this one. 

1.  ANXIETY AND PANIC ARE NOT THE SAME THING Trust me. I have both. Anxiety can be a constant, on-going issue that never seems to go away. While it is nerve-wrecking, I would deal with my anxiety for months on end than have a panic attack as often as I do. I am NOT discrediting anxiety. It is a very scary state of being. Your body is literally in a fight or flight state all the time and there is no stopping the worry that comes in even the slightest situation.

2. PANIC ATTACKS Words can not describe how truly terrifying a Panic Attack is. I’m not entirely sure I can describe it accurately. Someone I know once compared it to  being underwater and never coming up for air. A better representation may be being underwater, chained to the bottom of the pool while people who can help you swim by you and watch while you slowly suffocate to death. Trust me, this is NOT an exaggeration. I have never felt more horrified, more alone, more betrayed by the world in my entire life as I have felt during a large scale panic attack. I can literally not process anything. My brain shuts off besides these thoughts: I need help; I can’t tell if this is real or not; Oh god I am going to die; I don’t want to live anymore; Please someone help me or end everything now I can’t take this. I feel so alone in the world that I don’t think the feeling will ever go away and that I am worthless. And yes, my panic attacks can include A LOT of tears and even an asthma attack- but I can’t think to find my inhaler, so I usually end up on the floor unable to breathe.

3. PANIC ATTACKS LEAVE EMOTIONAL SCARS. TAKE THEM SERIOUSLY. One thing most people do not understand about panic attacks is the severity of it NEVER diminishes the more times you have panic attacks. They will ALWAYS be this severe and they NEED to be taken seriously. Nothing is more harmful to a person with a panic disorder than being asked if it was “Just a Panic Attack”. DO NOT ASK THIS QUESTION. PERIOD. Take your friend seriously when they message, call, or ask you for help-Or even to just talk to them. It can be EXTREMELY painful to them if they feel ignored or belittled. I do not know about other people in the following instance, but I loose touch of reality slightly during my panic attacks. I NEED someone there to talk to me and tell me I’m going to be okay. I need someone to help me bring myself back to the world around me. If I trust you enough to be that person, that is a HUGE thing. I trust very few people. It is so painful when those people ignore me or dismiss what is happening to me. It leaves you in a giant uncertain emotional state afterwords that is very VERY difficult to fix. Panic attacks are scary as hell. They’re even scarier when you feel like you’ve been abandoned. The emotional scars that can come from that may never go away

. TAKE A PERSONS PANIC ATTACK SERIOUSLY. The words”Panic Attack” have been so overused (as with any mental issue) that they have just become another “trend” the general public views as common and insignificant. I hope I have been able to describe in some sense what a panic attack truly is. Mostly, I just needed to create this post for me. Processing what happens to me during a panic attack is nearly impossible at the time. This post is shorter than I expected it to be, but if I sat down and wrote everything there is to say about my panic attacks and the repercussions they have, you would be reading a 30 page essay. 

It really makes me so happy when I see that bangtan are earning well and are becoming so successful. Before they would fly economy, now they fly business class. They used to share hotel rooms but now they get double rooms all to themselves. Even the fact that Taehyung had the ability to spend $1100 on a Gucci sweater for Jimin and all the other expensive gifts the members have been gifting each other this year shows just how well they’re doing. 

Our boys have worked so unbelievably hard and to know that the world is finally seeing and recognising how talented and hardworking and passionate they are fills me with so much joy that there are no words to describe it. I feel like a proud mother watching her sons growing up into wonderful young men, like a best friend watching her parters in crime finding their way in life and fulfilling their dreams, a sister seeing her protectors finally recieving the love and joy they so greatly deserve.

They have recieved so many sponsorships and deals throughout the past year or so and they’re obviously making a lot of money - yet they remain just as humble and grounded as they always have been. The fame hasn’t gotten to their heads and they still work as hard, if not harder, than when they first debuted.

I truly love these boys with all of my heart and soul, and I wish for nothing else but for them to always be happy and loved. They are the same seven dorks that they were three years ago, and I couldn’t be prouder to say that I am, and always will be, a fan of BTS.

I couldn’t write this in the usual “that feeling when” format I normally do, so here’s something different for today. I hope it’s okay.

First of all, I admire every single one of you ADHD fellows who can just post stuff and send messages without obsessively double-checking and triple-checking them a trillion times. I wish I could be more like that.

I have always been described as a “talented writer” and it kind of clashed with the fact that everything I ever wrote was riddled with typos. I knew how those words were supposed to be spelled but I kept spelling them wrong anyway, without noticing it. It obviously didn’t make any sense to me because I knew I was a good writer. I didn’t get diagnosed until last month, so for 19 long years I didn’t know that the typos had nothing to do with my writing skills. So, my natural response to this irritating problem was to start hyperfixating on avoiding spelling errors. Check, double-check, triple-check, check, check, check. Check one more time. Am I sure I paid attention to every single word? Check again. Check, check, check.

It absolutely destroys me if I’ve made a typo and it’s too late to fix it. It’s a nightmare. A worst-case scenario. This intense obsession I’ve built around correct spelling has damaged my self-esteem… a lot. Even now that I know I’m prone to make lots of typos because of my ADHD, I still won’t allow myself to be any less than perfect in that area. Even when writing in English. English is not my native language, so I know that I should cut myself some slack for that at least. But I never do. And I’m so tired of being like this.

P.S. I spent such a long time writing and checking this submission for possible errors that when I finally went to submit it, the page had expired. Oh, the irony.

Guys. Guys? People.

Holy shit.

I did the thing.

I finished a story.

It’s a fluffy 1500 word one-shot that’ll make your teeth rot out and I named it after a No Doubt song that’s older than some people who may read it, but holy fucking balls, I finished it.

I don’t even know how to describe what my brain is doing right now. I haven’t finished a fully fleshed-out piece of fanfic since a secret santa piece over a year ago. I haven’t done anything self-contained enough to put on AO3 in three.

Three goddamn years.

So if you have a minute to read it and feel like being encouraging to someone who fell hard enough for this dumb ship to unstick three years (THREE!) of writer’s block, please do. I need some headpats and kudos and encouragement for this so I will hopefully be able to make myself continue doing it.

Holy shit, guys, I finished a story.

you give me the most gorgeous sleep (AO3)

(With immense love to @daftpunk-delorean and @malevolentmango for hand-holding, cheerreading and general encouragement.)

Hey everyone! ❤ 2k16 it’s almost over (thank gods) and I felt like doing a little something to celebrate!! I wish I could l thank each and every one of you individually but since I can’t, I thought making a percy jackson fandom family page would be a fun way to show my thanks! Also, to get your blogs the attention they deserve. (◕‿◕✿)

✧ how to join:

  • must be following this crazy demigod;
  • pls reblog this post;
  • send me an ask with the following: up to 5 pjo/hoo/toa characters in order of preference, your name, your cabin and few words to describe you. also, feel free to send an image so I can put as your icon (you don't have to, just if you want an specific one!);
  • fandom family page here;
  • make sure you check which characters are taken before sending your ask;
  • feel free to ask me if you have any questions! this has no deadline so feel free to enter whenever. anyone can participate, you don't have to be a pjo blog (づ。◕‿‿◕。)づ

Thank you again, and happy new year!! ❤

Imagine Bonnie and Kai having a baby

Something’s not right

What’s the matter? I’m all ears.

I’m not sure how you’ll feel about this, but…I’m pregnant

Really! I mean it’s not like I did this on purpose, to intentionally be with you forever or anything like that….

Just like I don’t intentionally flirt with you from time to time….

Look Bon-Bon this baby is not just yours it’s mine too, and i’ll try my best to make this work. This might seem hard to believe, but you mean the world to me, and I can’t let you go. We don’t need another reject in my twisted family.

Originally posted by bonkai-diaries

You better not let me down
                                         I won’t. not again, not ever.

I love you Malachi Parker 

Love you more than words can describe Bonnie Bennett

  • me, internally: I feel like I'm appropriating the word 'gay'. I'm not a man attracted to men. I'm not a woman attracted to women. I'm agender and attracted to whatever. that term doesnt really describe me accurately and considering it applies exclusively to binary-gendered people it misgenders me in a way. I'm not really fit to call myself that... but I'm not straight either and need a word to differentiate myself from straight people. actually, how would describing sexuality for me even work in the first place? what makes things "gay" for me? what makes things "straight"? do i even have a right to use a sexuality label in the first place? why is there no information about this dilemma?? what am I??
  • me, externally: lmao I'm gay
You ruin me.
Not in the typical chick flick way.
In a way so hard to describe.
If I were to tell you how I feel, I’d have to get you to imagine it for it can only then be slightly more understandable.
So close your eyes and put yourself in my shoes.
Can you imagine someone walking into your life and flipping it upside down?
They make you feel warm inside and make your heart almost burst.
They’re someone that can make you smile without even trying and make you feel wanted.
This will last for the first couple of weeks until they realise you’re hooked on their addictive company.
You’re now falling.
Imagine falling so fast that you’re scared to hit the ground.
This is then when the once bursting heart is ripped out, shattered into pieces, trampled on and then thrown back at you.
Now he’s decided he’s done.
He’s succeeded in getting you to adore him and by god it’s a strong hold.
They’ve now got you sat on your bed crying into your pillow repeating the same thing over and over again.
“Why did I let him in?”
And so when I say you ruin me.
I meant it.
You left me empty, broken hearted and alone.
I just wanted you and you didn’t want anything to do with that.
You left me to rot.
I wish I could hate you for that but it seems I still make excuses as to why you’re still untouched and perfect in my eyes and the fact that I know I’m a complete disaster in yours is the worst of all.
—  E.T // I’m a disaster in your eyes

2:52pm: desk views. i’m reading the first volume of in search of lost time (à la recherche du temps perdu) by proust, and oh my gosh his writing makes me feel so many things. i haven’t gotten very far yet (maybe because i’m annotating so much/looking up all of the cultural references…but proust’s style especially makes me feel like i must examine every single word and punctuation mark he uses). 

one of the main themes he’s explored so far is the passage of time (+ its corollary: memory) and the way he describes how the present, our concept of “now”, doesn’t exist because time is really just a perpetual exchange of the future to the past. that’s also how he approaches ‘truth’, that it’s simply a construction of what we think we know–but it’s unstable because time is constantly slipping away and thus we don’t have a concrete point in time/space to say “right now, i’m being absolutely honest, i am telling the truth”. ok i love this book a lot (so far). 

I don’t think I’ve had writer’s block like this before. How do you describe someone with words when they have a habit of making them seem mundane? I have a habit of overflowing onto paper. I fill up with so much love, the only way all of this heart seems to make sense is in ink. But with you, I feel like that isn’t enough. I’ve done it for other people, immortalized them unapologetically in metaphors and similes, but you’re different. Regardless of how much I spill, I feel like you deserve more, like my words are too light, too weak, too me. You always console me. You accept me, what I can write down and what I can’t. You make it seem like my words are fine, but I can’t help but think of them as anything but. Repulsive, stupid, undeserving of your eyes that hold so much fire. The least I could do is fill a page about you in a way befitting of someone that lights up my soul the way you do, but I can’t even seem to do that. And I know you’re probably expecting me to say it’s okay, but it’s not. For you, for this love, words aren’t enough.
—  Maxwell Diawuoh // Request: A girl who loves writing poetry, and in the past, she wrote for every last person she loved, but now she can’t write for the one person that means the most to her. Kind of like she feels her words are ugly and it is cruel of her to ever explain him or her love for him in words alone. No matter how deeply she pours her heart for into a page, it never is enough. Because she doesn’t feel like she is enough, though he believes she is.

celestialmatsu  asked:

Hello yes know that in a few hours EVERY POST ON HERE IS GETTING REBLOGED I FUCKJNG LOVE THIS BLOG SO MUCH THANK YOU FOR MAKING JT also you have the cutest art style wtf gimmie

why would you want to waste your time on garbage like me?

(but seriously, thank you! i died when i read this, over and over, it made me so happy and I’m so flattered people are enjoying this blog! I wish I had the words to describe how I feel when I get comments like this!! 💜 )

anonymous asked:

Hey Mod Todo! It's the person who asked if I could draw your fusion! So I posted it up and I just wanted to send you the link so you can see it: twitter. com /Craftsvim /status /841397762331623425 ; it was so much fun drawing him! Thanks again for letting me draw your fusion boy;v;!!!!!

     🌠 Mod Todo



AAAAHHHHHH, I’m calmed now – not really, I’m in freakin’ tears today.

I’m glad you thought he was fun to draw, that really makes me feel ALIVE !!  This is so good I literally saved it and stared at it for like 20 minutes straight while crying, this is a design I seriously love and getting fanart of it is just – -C R I E S.- I’m not used to be treated this well, I’m sorry, RIP.

Thanks you, like – THANKS YOU, his is so pretty, I’m still crying, I love this with my life and  s o u l, you rock, Ilu. ♥♥♥♥♥