i have no idea what to give him

Well played, ED.

I had no idea what the hell this story line was even about for MONTHS. Really, I had no clue. I never bought that it was to give Robert and Aaron a baby because the baby would have to be important and the focus. It never was. That baby is wallpaper. For a while I thought it was about making Aaron suffer but while that happened it wasn’t even about HIM really because he is reacting to stuff that are happening to Robert at this point. 

This entire story from beginning to (I assume) end has been about breaking Robert down to his most basic, fractured self. 

Everything that has happened has been to make him suffer. Even the stuff that happened to Aaron directly was meant to make Robert suffer because if Aaron hurts Robert hurts. 

The break up and Robert’s subsequent spiral into insanity has been this slow, nuanced, incredibly sad thing. It has been. Robert makes me sad. Because he just doesn’t care. He is done. He has nothing and is out to get the people he perceives to be at fault. He hates himself so much, it’s takes my breath away. 

You know how Iain talked about them having a masterclass in acting, quiet story? 

It’s Robert’s. 

Ryan’s performances for the past YEAR have been this amazing, quiet, nuanced, heartbreaking journey. 

They have literally spent an ENTIRE year breaking Robert. 

It’s brilliant. 

All I hope and ask for is that they spend at least half as much time letting Robert heal and put himself back together because that part is what I am most looking forward to. 

Seriously though. Well played, ED.

Heroes of Olympus as popular text posts
  • Percy: ''Fun drinking game: Take a shot of water every couple hours to make sure you’re healthy and hydrated.''
  • Annabeth: ''Do you ever have the urge to tell someone to shut the fuck up even when they aren’t talking?''
  • Jason: ''If you ever feel bad about yourself remember that one time i didn’t understand that my waiter was just trying to give me my change so i fist bumped him instead ''
  • Piper: ''People always shoot down my ideas and I’m sick of it. two sentences in and everyone’s already shouting “what the fuck that’s illegal” or “you can’t do that” let me talk dear god''
  • Leo: ''Back by unpopular demand: me''
  • Hazel: ''I watched my brother drop a remote on his foot and the only thing he said was “i am so sick of being alive”''
  • Frank: ''Listen, I’m a nice person so if I’m a bitch to you, you need to ask yourself why.''
  • Nico: ''Gayer than intended: an autobiography''
  • Reyna: ''Girls aren’t playing hard to get… They don’t want you.''

hes a supernatural kid who can levitate things (including himself) and has a third eye

Hoechlin speaking about Sterek and:

1) Derek loves Stiles, which we already knew but it’s great hearing him say it.

2) Dylan and Hoechlin have absolutely nothing against Sterek. Matter of fact, it seems like Hoechlin himself loves the idea of Sterek (whether it’s as a BROTP or OTP) and I’m pretty sure Dylan feels the same.

3) Hoechlin appreciates the Sterek fandom very much.

4) He highkey just shut Posey’s comment down without actually saying the name.

Now that the show’s over, he no longer has any fucks to give and can say what he wants to say and I love that.

This picture speaks a lot to me. Last night, I was at a co-workers apartment, and I engaged him along with one of his roommates in a nearly 4 hour political conversation. Now many of you know where i generally fall politically, may have even seen me change some of my views in the roughly 2.5 years I’ve been running my blog. My co-worker some of you have read what I’ve had to say about him, he’s the one I took shooting, a more center-left leaning political ideology, and his roommate would be even futher left than him. We discussed various topics, and generally I didn’t agree with his roommate, but my co-worker wad the median between us, to give you folks an idea of how those 4 hours were discussed. It was very pleasent, and very informative on all sides.

I share this story along with this photo (I take no credit for making) because I want people who don’t live in the US, or who spend all their time on social media sites like this one to really understand where America is truly. We are not as divided as CNN, FOX, or even what Tumblr would like to think we are. The average person, regardless of their political ideology is still a person who cares for their fellow man.

In someone’s time of need, you aren’t going to ignore them, and would likely help them. We are still fellow humans, with emotions and feekings towards one another. With all of the discourse we tend to forget we love our fellow man. While we may never agree with someone we still want the best for them.

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These are all doodles for a Cuphead AU I came up with a few days ago. 

The main idea is a whole “what if” scenario where Cuphead and Mugman actually win the bet they made with the Devil and take over the Devil’s Casino and all the loot inside.

A few days into running the place, Cuphead comes across a trident that gives him a lot of crazy powers. However, along with the power came an extreme case of the craziness. Having gone mad with this corrupting power, He forces Mugman to join him, making his poor brother his right-hand man by force.

Meanwhile, he completely strips King Dice and the Devil of their powers and then boots ‘em to the first part of Inkwell Isle.. The rest of the AU follows King Dice and the Devil as they fight their way through their unhappy debtors to get back to the casino and take it back through force.

I’m thinking about calling the AU “Dicehead and the Imp” for now, haha.

re: clone shiro

can i just say i have no idea how the galra have managed to rule the universe for 10k years because they are bloody mORONS ok so they make a clone shiro and just let him float in space to potentially die on the off chance he’ll find voltron??? like??? they couldn’t even give my guy a boost??? let him steal a ship with a lil extra vavavoom in it??? couldn’t even point him in the right direction??? no they just let him steal one with only 7 days fuel in it and just sit back like “ok cool, so lets hope he finds them!!” what…if he died…what would they have done…made another clone and tried again dkufhf god…haggar…babe, you’re smarter than this…….

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My friend’s and I current DnD party! This is the first campaign we ever played so we are still learning but we are having so much fun, we have weekly sessions with cooking and a lot of snacking involved, my character is the drow wizard to nobody’s surprise haha 

some info about them!

Leonane: Mountain dwarf cleric from a respected clan, found a talking enchanted reliquary with an old god symbol in an expedition, believes it to be the word of the divine and asks it for advice at every chance. team’s grandpa, cautious and concerned about survival, good at negotiating not so good at mingling, judging your every move, is very tired of all of us.

Gruk: Very charismatic albino half orc paladin that is convinced he was chosen by the gods to save the world, quick to trust, lawful good, not the smartest guy, gives away too much money and information, heeds Leonane’s every word, will help everyone in need, will run into a group of thirty enemies without a second thought. needs to stop getting us into fights.

Velare: Drow wizard raised by humans, lives in the underground rooms of a human city’s public library working as an archivist, a hermit that fell in love with a human girl and scared by the passage of time put her in stasis without her consent and hid her away, is looking for a way to extend human lifespan. Has a soft spot for humans, looks very villanous, laughs at inappropriate times, yells at Gruk a lot.

Ulthimesia: Human warlock, left her husband and her noble title for a dream demon, her husband found out and went after them with an army and struck down the demon, in an attempt to save him she trapped what was left of his essence in her pendant giving her control over dreams and the ability to materialize nightmares, is looking for a way to restore her lover to his full form, an expert in monsters and creatures, panics and puts people to sleep when threatened, a refined lady.

What Turns BTS On

J I N :

One of the things he likes to imagine doing with you is just completely spoiling you, he loves it when you’re a quivering mess under him. Also, the idea of combining two things he loves on his mouth, which means food play. Licking things of his choice off your body just turns him on to the max. +bonus
Fucking on the kitchen counter.

N A M J O O N :

Just you, dressed in basic kitten/princess clothing, obeying him just like he wants to. Loves hearing things such as “Please touch me,daddy”, “Please let your princess come”, just anything that makes him feel like he’s in absolute control.
+bonus
“I’ve been a bad girl,daddy”

H O S E O K :

One of his sexual fantasies is you and him, in his practice room, dancing.It can go either way: you nail the dance and before you know it he is making you watch yourself get fucked in front of the mirror, or you’re not doing so well so he gets to punish you with teasing to the max later.
+bonus
“Do you see the way my hips move? Just wait till later to see how they move when I’m fucking you senseless.”

T A E H Y U N G :

The idea of public sex appeals to him. You, blowing him in a bathroom stall of a bar, or you two fucking outside in the balcony or a rooftop at 2 AM. He also loves car sex a lot. Just the idea of trying not to get caught excites him and turns him on.
+bonus
Muffling your moans with his hand or his mouth while he thrusts forcefully into you so no one hears you.

Y O O N G I :

What turns him on is filthy and rough sex, or his fingers in your mouth while he thrusts deep inside you, watching you swallow when he explodes inside your mouth or giving you facials. Deep down tho he just wants to spoil you.
+bonus
Elevator sex. Do I have to say more?

J I M I N :

Shower sex is something he loves. Whether you’re standing up and he’s taking you from behind against the wall or you’re lying in a bathtub and you ride him,or cold water hitting your bodies while he’s eating you out; it just turns him on a lot.
+bonus
Sex when he’s angry. ×69 times hotter when he pounds into you+often leads to overstimulation

J U N G K O O K :

That boy is extra. His biggest sexual fantasy is fucking you in the bathroom of an airplane as it’s flying high; even if you’re scared of airplanes, he’s so good he’ll make you forget what’s happening around you.
+bonus
Baby boy who loves amusement parks and wants to finger you on a rollercoaster ride.

q&a: Kieran

princekierz said:

Hi Cassie. This is about Lady Midnight, not Lord of Shadows, so I may be a little late but anyway. People who hate Kieran are constantly bringing up the fact that he tried to convince Mark that he being with his family again wasn’t real in that note he sent him and I really can’t understand why he did it? What was the true purpose of that note? Can you please tell me? I love Kieran, and I don’t like when people are unfair with him. Thank you.

That’s interesting – I have to admit it never really occurred to me people would be confused by what that note meant/was about. The below contains spoilers but not major ones, so skip if you are avoiding even mild spoilers.

First I should say it’s fine to dislike a character. There is no character I have written or read about that someone hasn’t disliked for some reason. If that character is in a love triangle, multiply that by 100,000,0000000. (That may not be a real number but you get the point.) I’ve been thinking a lot about liking and disliking characters and the act of reading with empathy, which I will get to more at the end of this essay. Right now I’m just going to talk about what that note meant, and the way in which Kieran is a complicated sort of character generally.

We read for lots of reasons. To see our own experience reflected (a “mirror” reading experience) and also to see experiences that are not ours. (A “window” experience.) One of the interesting things about seeing the judgements of Kieran is the expectation that he is meant to act like a mundane human being (one who has dutifully read not just many relationship-help tomes but also all the Shadowhunter books – thanks, Kieran! – and is well acquainted with the Blackthorns despite never having met them). At very least, he is expected to act like a Shadowhunter, and not at all like a Faerie – despite the fact that a Faerie is what he is, and as a Faerie, he is not like us. He does not have typical human cultural beliefs about love (in good and bad ways), or commitment — he doesn’t mind at all whether Mark has sex with other people — or what promises mean, or what is personal space (a ridiculous idea to a Faerie.)

Mostly what I’ve seen complaint-wise about Kieran is that he is manipulative, which is true only to the extent that he has grown up in Faerie, where everyone is manipulative. Because they cannot lie, they have created a complex society of misdirection and manipulation and Kieran, growing up as Prince, would have been raised in the heart of that. He would know no other way to behave, and indeed has only been learning, slowly, different human patterns of behavior. He is actually really terrible at being manipulative — not a patch on Julian, for instance — and mostly he is neither good at it nor does it that often. But we can certainly look at what he has done.

So, on to the note and the vague six words it contains. (I don’t really understand what “he tried to convince Mark that he being with his family again wasn’t real” means, because Mark was obviously with his family and not, say, on a balloon tour of Cappadocia. I don’t think even the Seelie Queen would have tried to convince him otherwise, because that is not manipulation, that is waving your arms around yelling “Mark! They’re dosing you with PCP! That’s not really Ty! It’s a huge bunny!“ which is not going to work and nobody would reasonably think it would.) So I’m just going to gather that some sinister goal is being implied here and talk about why Kieran did send the note.

Remember that none of this is real. Why did Kieran say that? Because he was worried about Mark and thought it was the truth. Not for another reason. I gather there is an assumption that the phrase "remember that none of this is real” is somehow about Mark’s family, but it wasn’t. If Kieran had wanted to say “don’t trust your family” or whatever, he would have said that. The note was about the entire world of the Nephilim. Nor was it anything Kieran didn’t entirely think was true.

Nor was he entirely wrong.

Kieran was cast out of the King’s court because he was well-liked and the King saw him as a threat. He spent his years in the Wild Hunt with Mark watching as Mark’s heart broke every single night when he counted out his family’s names on the stars. He felt Mark’s agony when Mark saw Simon, and thought Simon had come to bring him back to the Nephilim, only to find out the Shadowhunters had abandoned him like garbage. Experiencing the agony of someone you love is worse than experiencing your own. After living through the horror of Mark’s despair and crushing loss, is it particularly surprising that Kieran might be wary of Mark getting attached to his family again only to be ripped away from them again – which is in fact what pretty much everyone in Lady Midnight thought was going to happen? Like, nobody thought this majorly fuckerated offer from the Fair Folk was likely to have a good outcome? Julian was terrified what it meant for the kids and thought it might be better if Mark had never come back? Kieran is unlikely to have a more positive view of the kindliness and honestly of the Clave (or the Courts of Fae) than Julian does.

Here is what Kieran knows to be fact:

Shadowhunters hate Faeries.

Mark was abandoned by his people. The Nephilim, certainly, his family, perhaps. Kieran knows they never tried to get in touch with Mark, and he is unaware of the Blackthorns’ complicated circumstances, that they were forbidden to look for Mark, and that they needed to protect Helen. There is no way he would know about those things, unless he had read the books. (Read the books, Kieran!).

He knows the Shadowhunters have enacted the Cold Peace, a series of racist laws punishing Faeries. He knows Mark will be in danger from this.

He has no reason not to think that when Mark is returned to the world of the Nephilim, using his family as bait, they won’t chop his damn head off.

That is what Kieran is urging Mark not to think is real. Nephilim promises. The idea that he will be safe outside Faerie in the Shadowhunter world. And Kieran is not exactly wrong either. We are all glad that Mark is back with his family….and if the Cohort gets into power they might chop his damn head off. Maybe he would have been better off back in the Wild Hunt.

Kieran can’t lie – and he can’t lie in writing either. He said what he said in his note because he was frightened for Mark, and he wanted him to stay safe. In no way did he mean “Your family doesn’t love you,” because if he thought that, he would actually have said it at some point, ever, rather than being incredibly vague in a note that, since he has never said anything remotely like “Your family doesn’t love you” to Mark, Mark would find incomprehensible. Mark understands the note perfectly, because the idea that Nephilim as a group are not trustworthy is not new to him nor is it a huge surprise Kieran would feel that way. (There’s also a lot of numinous stuff to get into about what real and unreal means to faeries, in a magical sense, but there’s no room here, alas.) Kieran has lots of opportunities to say bad things to Mark about his family if he wanted to, but IIRC he never does.

Misguided is not the same as manipulative. To be manipulative means that you’re playing on someone else’s hopes or fears to achieve selfish ends without regard for their well-being. But the idea that Kieran is a cold-hearted bastard who didn’t mean a word of the note (despite not being actually able to lie) and is a consummate actor doesn’t really jibe with anything we actually know or observe about Kieran. Far from having Julian’s ability to play others like guitar strings, mostly Kieran blurts out what he means when he means it and never even tries to pretend otherwise. He can be petulant as hell and annoying, showing up to see Mark when he’s not supposed to and sulking about whether Mark likes someone else. He can be manipulative in the way he sometimes kisses Mark when Mark is trying to be logical because he’s insecure and he trusts Mark’s desire for him even when he can’t convince himself Mark really loves him (but this doesn’t really work, which is what I mean by Kieran not being great at manipulation). He very foolishly interferes with Mark’s dream in Lord of Shadows because he wants to talk and he thinks giving Mark a dream in which they’re having a friendly conversation means he’ll find out what Mark’s hiding. (Which is another example of him not really understanding human issues. All he wants out of the dream is a talk — “Because you are not truthful with me. Your heart is closed and shrouded. I cannot see it,” Kieran said. “I thought, in dreams, perhaps …” — and the dream starts out with them sitting and talking while one bandages the other, and Kieran manages to get in the idea that he knows Mark is lying to him. Things take a sexy turn, but not because of Kieran. He can’t control Mark’s dreams in every detail: if he could, there would be literally zero point in a dream in which he’s hoping Mark will volunteer to tell him the truth. Mark has to have free will in the dream or there’s no point in what Kieran straight-up says the dream is for, and again, Kieran cannot baldfacedly lie. And Kieran is right — Mark is lying to him, in fact the whole family is gaslighting him, which is why it pains Mark when Kieran recalls the phrase “remember that none of this is real.” Because none of it, in this case, IS REAL. Kieran is being lied to by EVERYONE. However, Mark is still right that Kieran shouldn’t be poking at his dreams — and he shouldn’t. Kieran, as a faerie, doesn’t really get that: dreams aren’t private to him, and besides, Mark has allowed Kieran into his dreams before, so Kieran assumes it’ll be okay now, because Mark said it was all right previously. But this is where Kieran needs to learn not to make assumptions, and to value Mark’s privacy even if he doesn’t really get it. Does he? He seems to: he listens to what Mark says, and he never touches his dreams again. In fact, they actually have a pretty useful, healthy conversation about it, though we have to wait until QoAD to see how any breakthroughs they make in LoS play out.)

So yes, Kieran can make spectacularly bad decisions, with the worst of them being when he thought getting Mark hauled back to the Wild Hunt for an infraction was a good idea and wouldn’t result in any collateral damage. And Kieran deserves to be blamed and to feel guilty for that, nor do I mean to excuse him – and I have no interest in doing that; that wrong that he did is a building block of his flawed character. As I saw someone say on twitter the other day, which probably means you’ve all seen it many times, characters are not all either angelic cinnamon rolls or problematic monsters. Like people, because they are intended to reflect people, they exist on a continuum of behavior: some fail and learn, some fail and never learn, some have good intentions and some bad, some grow and change, some are changed by grief or shock or maturity, some cannot grow and are tragic figures. Committing a manipulative act doesn’t damn you forever unless you keep committing manipulative acts forever. If people (and characters) were rendered garbage by past mistakes, there would be no need for therapy or books, since both are about how people learn to change.

As Kieran says: “Everyone is more than one thing. We are more than the single actions we undertake, whether they be good or evil.” That was in Lady Midnight, and it’s possible he was thinking about the fact that he never tells Mark in that book that the reason he wanted Mark brought back to the Wild Hunt so badly – the reason he turned Mark in, hoping he’d be dragged away from the world of Nephilim – was not so that he could date Mark, but because he had been told Mark was going to be murdered. That Mark’s head was going to be chopped off NOW. That doesn’t excuse his behavior, but it makes it a lot less manipulative in two ways: he actually wasn’t acting for a selfish end, but to protect Mark from death, and he never tells Mark that in LM, letting Mark blame him. He lets Mark break up with him and walk away from him with only quiet resignation as a reply. He does nothing to try to make him stay and attempts no manipulation at all, nor is he manipulative when he shows up to help save Tavvy – he offers help, gives it, and expects nothing in return. Only when Kieran is in shock over having been lied to, and his sudden recollection of his own mistakes, does he tell Mark that he was in fear for Mark’s life – which makes a big difference to Mark, who is able to recognize what that means about why Kieran did what he did.

[Kieran said] “Iarlath had hinted you would not be safe in the Shadowhunters’ world. That they were planning to lure you back, only to execute you on some trumped-up charge. I was a fool to believe him. I know it now.”

“Oh,” said Mark. The knowledge unfolded in him, realization edged with relief. “You thought you were saving my life.”

Kieran nodded. “It makes no difference, though. What I did was wrong.”

(Emphasis mine.) Kieran is flawed, he screws up. He is also capable of acts of great nobility – his willingness to testify to protect the Blackthorns at the end of LOS being one of them. Kieran spends LOS being lied to and manipulated by everyone around him while his memory is gone. He is trapped in the Institute, a place so full of anti-Faerie magic that it makes him so sick he can barely eat. He suspects Mark is jerking him around in some way, he turns out to be right, and he’s still willing to testify in the Blackthorns’ defense. He is also able to see when he is/was wrong, and acknowledge it. None of this makes him a perfect person, but it certainly complicates him away from the oversimplified reading that he’s a manipulative horrorshow and that’s the end of the story — especially when a huge chunk of the story has yet to be told.

My suspicion, since there are plenty of other flawed characters in these books stumbling along messing up, is that Kieran’s true crime is being part of a love triangle. Having been through this before I remember well the long essays about how Will was a horrible person and the Wessa relationship was toxic and Jem was a horrible person and that relationship was toxic because dying people should know not to bother other people with their feelings (seriously). That is how people talk about love triangles these days; it seems to be a contest about which relationship is perceived as healthiest, which people are the best and most deserving people of the prize (Tessa, or in this case, Mark). There are a couple problems with that: one that is an unhealthy relationship can become healthy. (It obviously depends on the relationship, some absolutely cannot and should not be fixed, but there would be little need for marriage counselors if relationships could not be made healthier.) The second is that if you want to hate a character, you can convince yourself they are evil even if they spend a whole book saving bunnies, nuns, and salmon who can’t find the salmon cannon, so the arguments do get a bit circular after a while. Certainly I have come across plenty of essays about how Cristina is terrible and should go away because Kieran doesn’t like her (he does like her) and Mark doesn’t want her (not true) and she isn’t so great (I think she is so great and so do they.)

So I will say three things:

1) Kieran is not what is keeping Mark and Cristina apart, any more than Cristina is what is keeping Mark and Kieran apart. Kieran and Mark have a relationship that needs to be worked on to be healthy, and Cristina and Mark have to get to know each other better outside the magic of the binding spell. These things would be true regardless.

2) I know that this essay will garner plenty of people announcing that this means I ship Mark and Kieran or am in love with Kieran, and I know this because this happens whenever I post anything about them, or a piece of fanart of them, even if I post a piece of fanart of Cristina and Mark shortly after. I can only say what I have said for ten years, which is that I don’t ship my own characters or “love” them in the way a fan loves a character — all the characters are pieces of myself in some way or other so that’d feel very odd. I know there may be other authors who feel differently, but I can’t “ship” a couple when I’m primarily interested in their relationships in terms of theme, craft and writing the best story I can — I need the distance of being a reader, not a writer, to “ship” something. (I would also note that male authors rarely ever have people talk about how they’re in love with their characters or they write about them because it’s a “fetish” or “they get off on it”: only women get that narrative, but that’s another post.)

3) I remember reading online that writers should write with “savage empathy.” I’ve always thought that was great advice, as it reminds us to always stay in sympathy with characters and write from a place of their humanity, in all the vastness of humanity’s capability for complexity: for the same person to be capable of immense selfishness and immense nobility, or deep gentleness and great cruelty. It reminds us that we strive to reflect what is human rather than what is either entirely perfect or entirely evil. I feel like it’s also been good advice for me as a reader. It reminds me to look at things from the characters’ point of view, to not expect them to know what I know,* to remember the circumstances of their lives and the ways in which they may behave differently than I would because of the way they were raised/what their culture prioritizes. It has helped me be less judgmental of characters and while I don’t think it’s made me unaware of the problematic, I think it’s made me a happier reader. Even when I don’t forgive, I can understand, and that reminder of the eternal complexity of the human soul, and its capability for change and redemption, has enriched my reading life. It’s wonderful to realize that you can enjoy reading even more than you did before, and I can only hope for the same for all my readers.

*This is why it is pointless to be angry at the Superhero’s girlfriend when he is off saving the city, and you know he is off saving the city but she doesn’t, so she’s just angry he didn’t make it to little Marcia’s bat mitzvah.

Maybe, if I post every time this happens, abled people will stop thinking that this sort of thing is rare.

A while back I was sitting by the restaurant in Ikea and using my phone while I waited for Marvin to buy some things.

I was seated at one of four high-backed chairs arranged around a low coffee table. Across the table from me was a stranger, his young son sat in the chair to the right of me, and his daughter, who was about nine-years-old, sat on the floor at the coffee table. She was colouring and her brother was playing on a DS.

Their father stared at me while pretending he wasn’t. It’s pretty obvious when someone is watching you from eight feet away, though. I didn’t get angry vibes so I wasn’t concerned and just pointedly ignored him while catching Pidgey after Pidgey.

My phone had a semi-transparent, soft plastic case on it. I usually covered it with cute stickers. At that time, it had large words written in sharpie on the back that said, “It’s rude to stare”.

I was absorbed in my game when the stranger across from me laughed suddenly, loudly, and pointed me out to his daughter.

“Her phone says, ‘It’s rude to stare’,” he said.

He chuckled and looked at my face, expecting an explanation.

I stared at him.

He stared back.

I sighed.

“Oh, yeah. People stare at me a lot,” Just like you were, I thought. I waved my phone to show off the words. “So I wrote that on there. So, yeah.”

I went back to my game. Guy chuckled again.

“Really, people stare at you? Why?” He asked.

I looked up from my phone. I stared at him.

He stared back. I raised my eyebrows. He kept waiting for an answer.

I held up the butterfly-printed cane that had been leaning against my legs by way of explanation. “Sometimes I use a walker or wheelchair, too.”

“And people stare?” He pressed.

“Yep,” I said shortly.

“Wow. Well, you know, I think it’s probably because of their own personal fear.”

I seriously bristled at that. The tone was awful, really patronizing.

“Yeah. Seeing disabled people in public is a real shock. We remind people of their own mortality,” I said humourlessly, adding in some sarcastic laughter for good measure. I tried to signal my disinterest by lowering my head and leaning over my phone screen.

“Yeah-” he said, charging full speed ahead like he didn’t even need me for this conversation. He clearly had something to say all prepared.

"And you know, it’s funny. But I used to be scared of- people- people with disabilities,” he said, with a smile and lean-in, touching his fingertips together, making me want to punch his face.

I was in a bit of social shock. I just kept thinking, are you kidding me? This Ikea food court confession is happening right now, huh?

“Not physical disabilities, but mental disabilities.”

He was so smarmy, you guys. When he said that, I think my soul left my body. And I had no idea how to either respond or extricate myself reasonably. 

I hesitated, looked from this guy to his children, who were watching the exchange with awkward interest.

“Oh. Uh. Well, I’m autistic, so…” I let my words trail off. To this day I have no idea where that sentence would have gone.

“Oh. Oh! But I mean, you can’t tell,” he turned tomato red. “You’re so well-spoken and- I guess you could say that you have really overcome.”

As he was fumbling, I was giving him an exaggerated but sincerely felt grimace and an unimpressed "ehhh”.

At his pronouncement of my overcoming, I sat up straight and said, loudly and pissed enough that his children started looking worried, “Uh, yikes. No.”

Guy’s daughter looked like she would rather he did anything but continue talking, but that’s what he did. Like any allistic abled white dude worth his salt /s, he powered through, ignoring my obvious and projected displeasure.

“But, I mean. In school, it’s funny, because it ended up that most of my friends were handicapped. I guess I kind of protected them-” His voice took on an artificially soft, sticky quality. It was at this moment that I snapped.

“Okay. I’m going to cut you off there,” I said. I put my hand up. His tomato face spoiled.

“What? Why?” He seemed torn between expressing frustration and wanting to appear kind-hearted and open-minded in front of his children.

“Well. Uh. Ugh,“ I looked at his kids, wondering how harsh or how kind I should be. I hated that he put me in this spot. In that moment I hated him so much.

"Well, you’re saying a lot of stuff that non-disabled people think is nice to hear, but it’s not. It’s just- it’s just not.” I knew it was pointless to try to explain. My words were failing fast. He didn’t really care, anyway.

“I wouldn’t even be able to explain it to you,” I shrugged.

He gaped at me. Now he was angry. This wasn’t going how he had wanted it to.

“I know you’re coming from a good place. But it’s not nice. It’s just not… yeah.” I gripped the handle of my cane in one hand and my phone, Pokémon Go forgotten, in the other. I fought the urge to literally run away. I felt the surreal pressure of my behaviour being one of these kids’ formative disability-related experiences.

“Oh. Uh. Well. Okay. Sorry,” he said, embarrassed, not sorry. “And uh, thanks for saying that,” he said, trying to get me back. I looked away.

“I just-” he started. Even his children looked unhappily surprised that he was trying for that last word.

“I just want to say that you’re great.

I didn’t look at him. I smiled at his daughter, who smiled back out of habit, more confused than anything. His son looked down at his DS, secondhand embarrassment turning him red too.

“Hmm. Well, your kids seem nice,” I offered breezily.

After that, I moved away from the circle of green chairs and sat in an uncomfortably high stool in the corner. I hid there, head down, my hands shaking very slightly, feeling paranoid. Like I failed. And that my friends, is ableism. 

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When Amanda woke up, she decided to crawl out of bed to get a bowl of cereal. And eat it on the couch, of course.

“Ain’t nothing beat couch cereal.” She declared to the empty room and dug into her delicious and dangerously sugary cereal.

Almost immediately after taking a bite out of her cereal, she heard footsteps coming from her dad’s room, but, when she glanced up, she saw Damien walking by her.

“Good morning, Amanda dear.” Damien greeted.

“Mornin.” Amanda responded. She KNEW it. Her dad and Damien had been getting pretty close, so it wasn’t a completely wild assumption that they would start dating. And, of course, the footsteps she heard must be…

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POT Dating Tips

1. Always confirm the same day that you guys are meeting. These men have crazy schedules and they can cancel on you same day, best to know before you do your hair & makeup. 

2. Never drive or uber a long distance to meet them. They should offer to come to you and if they don’t they should offer to uber you. I always get ubered to my dates, I never give them my real address obviously but somewhere close that I could walk or a place I could drive to and leave my car. Driving or ubering a far distance because he said he would reimburse you isn’t worth the risk. These men ain’t shit! they will lie to you. Don’t risk being out of gas or money, never worth it. 

3. Always vet them before you meet them, nothing worse than going on POT date to find out he wants to pay you 200 per meeting. ASk questions nothing to invasive but just enough to see if can meet your needs. If you want monthly allowances make sure he’s open to that. IF he wants to do per meet to start, discuss how much. You can obviously negotiate a better price in person, but make sure you guys are in the same range $$$.  Don't’ waste your hair/makeup and a cute outfit on a fuck boy who thinks he’s a sugar daddy. NEVER go on the POT with someone who gives you weird vibes, I mean if he’s weird over the phone he probably won’t be better in person, nothing is worth your safety. 

4. Be cute but comfortable, Opt for the heels that are more comfortable over the ones that may look better with the outfit.  Nothing worst than being out and having your feet hurt the entire time. 

5. Be sexy and alluring without showing too much. I have big boobs so no matter what I wear their gonna show, but I always wear dresses that aren’t  too tight or show that much cleavage. He may want to take you to social events with his colleagues or friends, you don’t want to show up on your first encounter with your boobs out or a dress that barely covers your ass. You want to give off a lady in the streets but a freak in the sheets vibe. You don’t have to spend much to look great, Forever 21 or Zara has great dress options that are affordable. Macy’s always has in store sales on shoes ( Got a couple of heels from there), DSW also. A little black dress with some cute heels and some simple accessories can go a long way, ladies. For new sugars, you can spend under 100 bucks buy a cute outfit that you can re-wear to multiple POT dates. Ball on a budget until you can get him to take you, to Saks ;)

6. Knowledge is key! reading book  Ho Tactics and the art of seduction has really stepped my sugar skills up. Body language and confidence is everything! This may sound silly but I practice my faces in the mirror so I can get an idea of what I’m looking like when I say certain things, also what angles i look best in so I know how to tilt my head or smile. You have to mindfuck these to give you everything you want but never had. I always give eye contact it shows that you are really engaged it also turns guys on. I always order martinis or wine because of the way the glass fit in your hand. Eating a  olive off a  toothpick while eye fucking a guy will drive him crazy. Always ask follow up questions, whens he’s going on and on about his job or life, in general, show that your interested make comments be engaging. Also, brush up on current events, I use the SKIMM to help keep me up to date on current events. Be pretty but also cultured.

7. Always choose a high-end restaurant in your area. I usually yelp and look for restaurants with $$$ that has the best reviews, I legit have been to areas in D.C that I wouldn’t have been able to afford or even heard of. Set your standards high and don’t lower them. Don’t ever go out with a guy who thinks going to some cheap chain restaurant is acceptable. Like your makeup shouldn’t cost more than the menu. Gain knowledge on the nicest spots in your area, if he wants to take you somewhere lower end that’s the easiest way to spot a Splenda. If it doesn’t go anywhere at least you got to go to a nice ass restaurant, ate some good ass food, and drank some wine that cost as much your textbooks. Still a win. 

8. If you’re meeting for a quick date such as Starbucks ( which I don’t even recommend, they give me Splenda vibes)  make sure you choose a time when it’s not too pack. You don’t want to walk into a packed Starbucks with the line to door and no seats for your first date it sets an awkward tone. You want to be in a quiet setting where you can discuss the arrangement privately, without random people walking by every minute.  Choose a time after lunch, or later in the evening. 

9.Safety First! Never give out private information, give out fake email address, phone numbers, etc. The only thing I’m truthful about is that I’m a student and my age. Never get into a POT car, or go back to his place. I also send my friends my location so they know where I’m at all times. Also download a safety app, very useful. If a guy gives you weird vibe excuse yourself to the bathroom and call a uber, try to find a different exit and leave his ass. Never meet up in a sketchy area or place. Make sure the place is public and that it is quiet but moderately packed. Never meet up too late in the night, and don't’ over a drink. Overdrinking puts you in a bad head space which can lead to a bad situation that could be unsafe. I have no more than 3 cocktails on date depending on the time we are together. These sites are filled with psychos, be careful !. 

10. Last but not least Never give up the pussy until you get yours. Things happen maybe you drank too much, or he was really cute so the chemistry was there but it is never a good idea to sleep with POT before the arrangement has been hashed out.  This is not normal dating and he is not your bf. Unless he’s paying your bills, tuition, rent or aiding your makeup addiction why does he deserve pussy???? Always get your first, these men will fuck and dip out never to be seen again. GIving him quick access will not get your bills paid sis, don’t do it. Before you think about giving him some think about your rent that’s about to be due, the tuition you still have to pay, that car payment, or Rihanna new makeup line that’s about to drop.  Pussy is power use it wisely!

Feel free to add on ladies. Pusssy is power, let’s encourage each other and help each other to mindfuck these men! #TeamVagina

CK || TOM HOLLAND

Relationship: Tom Holland x reader

Request: anon: ok first i wanted to say that your writing is amazing and second i was wondering if you could do an imagine were the reader is a well known model an has a calvin klein photoshoot with tom holland and it gets steamy between the two and it ends with smut? i’m sorry if i was too specific

Warnings: S M U T (18+)

Word Count: 1933 words

A/N: so. many. sins.


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anonymous asked:

MMKAY this may sound weird but I'd //really like to see Shiro pilot Black again because he's a traumatized character, and as a traumatized person, the idea that you can be traumatized and still be a good leader is something really important for me to see. As much as I want to see Shiro have a rest and be happy, I don't agree with when people advocate for pushing him to the side and letting him 'have a break' and get better by staying out of the fights. Piloting is what makes Shiro happy. :/

i wasn’t going to discourse about this, but you’re making a really, really good point. my least favorite thing on this website is the idea that coddling is preferable to healing.

i don’t want to be harsh about it, but i hate this. if you’ve experienced trauma, a lot of the time the way to heal is to work through it and past it. it’s hard. it’s supposed to be hard. that’s what shiro is doing as a pilot. he’s found something to center himself in, something that gives him a sense of self-worth–this is canon.

it’s canon that he questions whether he can be part of voltron given what he’s been through, and it’s canon that a big part of keith’s relationship with him is keith constantly re-centering him and reminding him that he is worthy, and that he’ll always have someone there to fight for him:

like i know i joke about shiro needing a nap (which he does, he deserves that), but more than that he needs to know that he has a purpose. in canon, that’s how he deals with his ptsd. being a pilot isn’t just his coping mechanism–it’s how he’s healing. and despite what a good portion of tumblr likes to think and say, healing will always be preferable to coddling yourself and dwelling on it. i’m sorry, but i really strongly believe this and i absolutely hate that mentality.

and shiro is a great leader. he knows his team’s strengths, he keeps cool under pressure, he’s tireless, he watches out for everyone. he’s doing… //clenches fist. so so good. anyway, this a really valid argument for why he doesn’t just deserve to be the black paladin for his relationship with the black lion (which he does) but he’s really earned his spot as a leader and a part of this team.

Scenario; Though you never really acted up too badly before, for some reason, due to the presence of his friends- you decided to push your limits, disobeying him every chance you got. 

Jungkook; 

-he’d just nod at your defiance, hiding his annoyance until the two of you were alone-

*snaking his arms around your waist, he’d pull you close*
“Y/n…babygirl, you know Daddy doesn’t put up with brattiness* 
*one hand would trail down to your lower half, teasing you* 
“I’m gonna have to punish you now, you know that right?” 

Originally posted by theking-or-thekid

Taehyung; 

-though he hated punishing his little girl, he couldn’t just allow you to think you could act so badly, and as soon as the others left; he’d remind you of your place- 

*the second he heard the front door close, he’d bend you over right there on the couch* 
“I really hate hurting you baby, but I hate your fucking little attitude even more..”
*hikes your skirt up* 
“Count after each spanking, I’m not gonna stop until you’re covered in bruises princess.” 

Originally posted by donewithjeon

Jimin; 

-he knew he wouldn’t be able to punish you for awhile since the guys were staying for the night, but he wanted you to know how deep a grave you had dug yourself every chance he got- 

*following you into the kitchen to fetch more snacks, he’d pin you against the counter, raking his fingernails against the back of your thigh* 
“Just wait, princess… Just fucking wait..” 

Originally posted by ciutae

Namjoon; 

-wouldn’t be able to hide his frustration with you at all, though the two of you couldn’t be alone; he wouldn’t be afraid to give you a little warning or two in front of his friends- 

*harshly grips your thigh, causing you to yelp slightly* 
“Oh did that hurt baby?” 
*leans over to you and places his lips right beside your ear* 
“Just wait til you see what I have planned for you later..” 

Originally posted by btshada

Hoseok; 

-he’d be able to contain himself for a while, well, that is until you decided it was a smart idea to tease him with the maknaes- 

*once everyone went to bed, he’d swiftly have you underneath him* 
“What was that you said with the maknaes, y/n?” 
*harshly swats your thigh* 
“Oh, what’s wrong baby?” 
*hits you again* 
“Not so tough now that they’re not here, huh?”

Originally posted by jminies

Jin; 

-he’d act as if nothing were wrong, allowing you to think you could do as you please, but the second he got you alone; he’d make you regret having such bad behavior- 

*shoves you onto the bed, forcing your face into the mattress*
“Seems like you forgot that Daddy really fucking hates brats, y/n..” 
*grabs a fistful of your hair* 
“So it looks like I’ll have to remind you what happens to bad little girls like you.” 

Originally posted by teamoseokjin

Yoongi; 

-god, he wouldn’t put up with your attitude at all, the second you began to act up he’d grab a fistful of your hair and practically drag you to the bed room; not even caring that his friends were there, he’d give absolutely zero fucks- 

*tightening his grip in your hair, he’d force your eyes up to him* 
“What the fuck do you think you’re doing huh, little girl?!” 

You; “I- I..” 

*immediately cuts you off with multiple cruel smacks to your thigh* 
“No, I don’t want to hear your fucking excuses. It’s much too late for any of that..” 
“Daddy’s gonna have lots of fun with you tonight, little one. I hope you remember all your safewords..” 

Originally posted by orayanno

An anon asked for Keith in B3 for the Expression Challenge. And I got uh… really inspired? :’D So have a little comic with Lance in A3 and a hug as a bonus, yai. Thanks for your ask, anon, it was really fun making this little comic. u 3u

I have some headcanons about Keith and Lance’s reaction, actually. You can read it under the cut. (It’s so long I’m sorry aha).

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BTS Reaction To: Cock Warming.

-Request: can you do bts’ reaction to cock warming?-

Thanks for requesting!

Disclaimer: I don’t know much about cock warming so I’M SORRY IF I MESSED UP HDHIWNS.

JIN.

“Jagi, what are you doing?” Jin asked as he felt you trying to pull his boxers down from underneath the covers.

“I’m cold.” You shrugged.

After removing his boxers successfully, you slipped his member inside of you, causing him to moan out quietly, enjoying the feeling of you wrapped around him.

“Now we have to stay like this for the entire night.” You told him.

“What? How am I supposed to stay still like this?” Jin asked, wondering to himself whether he’d be able to resist from thrusting in and out of you.

Originally posted by seokjinings

SUGA.

When you asked Yoongi if you could try something, he simply nodded, feeling too tired to really care what you were about to do. You removed his boxers, soon slipping him inside of you. Yoongi’s eyes opened immediately, knowing exactly what you were doing.

“If you really think I’m going to stay still like this all night, you’re wrong.” Yoongi said, slowly moving himself in and out of you.

Originally posted by yoongichii

RAP MONSTER.

After Namjoon and you both finished having sex, he decided to stay inside of you, wanting to feel you around him as you both slept. You asked him what he was doing,confused as to why he hadn’t pulled out yet.

“I want to stay inside of you.”

Originally posted by minyoongihoseok

J HOPE.

Hoseok was completely confused at first, not really understanding the point of having himself completely inside of you without moving. Once you had explained to him that you just wanted to be closer to him as you both slept, he ended up giving into the idea.

“Fine, but I can’t keep any promises that I won’t end up fucking you.”

Originally posted by 4jiminnie

V.

Taehyung loved the idea. He loved having himself inside of you, and to be honest, he was a little surprised that you had even thought of it, but he was glad you did. Although he told you he liked the idea, he was having trouble staying still inside of you, so you both ended up just having sex.

“I can’t help it, you feel too good.”

Originally posted by snowsensation

JIMIN.

Jimin was a little shy at first when you asked him if you could cuddle him with his cock inside of you. He wanted to do it, but the idea was very alien to him, as he’d never heard of it before. Jimin would agree to it, although he couldn’t help but feel a little nervous. But soon enough, his nerves were calmed as he pushed himself inside of you.

“This feels so good.”

Originally posted by princejimin

JUNGKOOK.

It took Jungkook a lot of convincing before he had agreed. Like Hoseok, he didn’t really see the point in it.

“Why do that when I can literally just fuck you all night long?”

Originally posted by theking-or-thekid

in the heights au: everything is the same except sonny is actually invited to ninas dinner