Do you know that feeling where you just wanted to say “I don’t know what to do” over and over again? Because you literally don’t have an idea what to do anymore and you feel like you’re trapped in this black black void of mess you can’t seem to get out of no matter how fast you tried to run?
I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what to do anymore. And you know what, if you’re ever feeling this, you’re not alone. I’m so deep and stuck in this moment too. I don’t know what to do.
cynthia go // excerpt from a book i’ll never write #23
Does anyone even realize how important it is that Karkat’s now the troll king?
I mean, he spent his entire life running and hiding from an evil queen, feeding himself with fear and paranoia. But now he’s home, he’s safe, he has his boyfriend and his best friend by his side, nobody is coming after him anymore. He’s in the condesce’s shoes now, but instead of ruling with an iron fist, he’s gonna guide and help all of these new lifes that are his responsibility now. He still blames himself for the death of his friends, but this is his way of making up for that, he’s going to do for this new society what he didn’t manage to do back then. I’m so damn proud of my son, you guys have no idea. His character arc is finally complete.
eskild being gross and putting his feet in isak’s face. isak shoves him away but he just keeps doing it. “smell my feet, isak. smell them.” (this is real life i didn’t make this up and eskild would do it i know he would)
eskild and isak having competitions over who’s music can be turned up louder
the two of them, slowly cranking the volume up while having a stare down. a Mexican standoff
until noora finally puts an end to it because she literally can’t hear her own voice shouting at them to stop anymore
a collective group effort to make a decent dinner but no one knows what they’re doing except noora and she’s just sitting casually on the coach with an infuriating smile, not helping. somehow food ends up on the ceiling? there is fork stuck in a wall? what is life?
sometimes the group chat will blow up randomly in the middle of the night because isak asked a random question that makes them all question their existence
noora tries to answer but it’s three in the morning
eskild asks him why he didn’t just ask in the morning
linn just wants to sleep
or they’ll text when they are all sitting in the living room together
Here we are now, at the end of this year. I’ve met some amazing human beings here, and just wanted to dedicate something to them since christmas is around the corner XD I shared laughes, tears and passion with you, and you have so idea how greatful I am for this! @monroeisabadass is a a very special person for me. She have become part of my life and she have become a true friend of mine who I deeply trust. I can share everything with her, no matter what. She’s always there to catch me when I fall and she’s just a huge dork sometimes, and I LOVE THIS SO MUCH! ♥♥♥ She’s a bright star in my life that I don’t wanna miss anymore. Than there’s my lil cupcake, @harlzquinzel who I just wish all happieness in this world! Same with @mrjandmrshq,@x-mars@jokers-dream-car, @joker-x-harley and @sighingxsilhouette. You all are beautiful souls and I wish you to be happy, I wish you to find peace for your hearts and souls. I hope that you all have restful holidays and that you’re able to calm your minds a little, cause the world we live in makes it harder every day to belive in life, love and humanity. It’s hard to find someone you can trust, someone who accepts you for who you are. Please don’t give up. The time will come when your heart and soul can finally say “I’m home“.
Riley is twenty-one years
old, who does whatever she is supposed do. She stays in her safe zone never
wondering out, until something happens that makes her rethink her life. Riley
decides to do something for herself and hit the road for a solo trip. While
trying to figure out her life and find inspiration to start writing, she meets
a green eyed stranger. Is it possible to feel an instant connection with
someone, and know they are the one for you? Riley and the stranger seem to
think so, but will something come in the way of stopping them from being
This idea has been running through my head for a few weeks, so I wrote the first chapter. It has been sitting in my document folder for a few days, and I’ve been fighting the urge to post it but I can’t anymore. I have two more parts of Welcome Back, Riley to write, that I plan on finishing this week, and then I’m going to focus on this story. I hope you enjoy this first chapter.
“there’s a warmth in dick’s voice that was never there in bruce’s. he’s done a great job of hiding it lately. and then it goes cold. i miss it more than he’ll know.”
“just shut up for a second. let me just enjoy seeing you alive, okay?”
“anyone can change and settle down. even you.” “don’t get your hopes up.”
“you still have it babs!” “i do, don’t i?”
“whatever my future holds, i hope it includes you.”
“barbara and dick. until the end of the world.”
“i don’t want to spend my life wondering what might’ve been. like you and nightwing.”
“you’re so beautiful. you have no idea… just looking at you makes me happy, but i… i don’t know if i can do this thing anymore, dick.”
“love will conquer fear.”
“you’re right, as almost always. know this: no matter how long i’m gone… i love you, barbara. and i will come back to you someday, i promise.”
“i need him to keep smiling his beautiful smile. to be the sun the earth keeps spinning around.”
“i love you, barb. remind me again why we’re not together?”
“get dressed, true love. we’re going out.”
“babs, you’re stunning and you’re brilliant and you’re probably the strongest person i know… on the inside, where it really counts.”
“i really had a thing for you back then–and bang.” “it didn’t have to end there, babs. it didn’t end there for me.” “or me, dick.”
“who loves ya, baby?”
“barbara… we’ve been connected since the day we met. i loved you when i didn’t know what love was. you have been the friend i can never doubt. and the partner i never thought was possible. whatever happens in this world, i know we can bear it if we have each other.”
“i’m just happy and i wanted to share it.”
“babs, you’re a genius.” “but you already knew that.” “babs, you’re beautiful.” “but you already knew that.”
“it’s never going to be perfect. it’s always going to be just us making the best of what we’re given.”
“i know i failed you. i just hope that someday you’ll let me explain. i hope that someday… i miss you, babs. more than you can know. and you were right when you said i was living in the past. so… here’s to the future, okay? as soon as i get there, you’ll be the first person i’ll be looking for. i love you.”
“you never failed me. i don’t know if you’re capable of such a thing. things won’t always be like this, dick. that’s something i know in my heart. i haven’t given up hope that someday– someday i can be for you what you’ve always been for me. i love you.”
people don’t talk about modern!newsies headcanons enough like
-they work at Barnes and Noble -Katherine is an aspiring author/literature student who really loves her maxi skirts and Pinterest -Davey takes up a part time job to help his parents pay the bills but he gets stuck babysitting Les so he sets him free in the children’s department of the store- -Jack totally runs an aesthetic blog -that’s full of lots of pictures of nature -and stills from old western movies -the lodging house is probably a foster group home -store manager Wiesel overworking them and cutting their hours -Spot Conlon works at like Books-A-Million on the other side of the mall -Jack Kelly in skinny jeans, a flannel, and a beanie -I’m putting it out there that Crutchie and Davey are total theatre geeks and probably cried watching Les Mis together or something
Hiiii! I feel so outdated already! Lol. Okay okay i know you guys think i suck because i promised to update last time buuuut was so caught up with things that the only times that i get to hold my phone and breathe—i would rather spend it catching sleep. That’s how busy i am. And i am not complaining or whatever either, i love what i’m doing.
But yes i have to admit though that this blog gets boring too. I mean, c'mon! I couldn’t think of anymore perky ideas to make this interesting and readable—that’s why i think i need to do a long hiatus just so people won’t feel like i am forgetting them because some of my readers do messaged me and ask why i no longer post any updates and all. And honestly, that makes me feel guilty and bad and sad. Lol. But can you be a little bit less demanding and a little bit more understanding though? Hahahaha. I know you guys missed my random shenanigans and blab—i have lots of them to be honest—i’m just a tad too busy and lazy to go online and rant. So, is the excuse acceptable enough for you? Haha.
Nooo, i don’t have any boyfriend (s) yet so i am not busy with booooys, i’m busy making a living and getting a life people. Hahaha! And i am still zero-ing on my social and sex life too. I mean not so much on my social because i often talk to people albeit parties are a no-no and all, plus definitely zeroing on sex. So, you figure how boring that is! Hahaha.
I’ll promise to do an update any time soon okay? I just have to draft it out and squeeze them in a manner that it would appear like an acceptable blog worthy post. Hahaha. But i still do read personal messages everyone, and i always always always reply as much and as soon as possible. So please bear with how things are now. I seriously think i can manage a lot of time on February to blog than this month buuut my fingers are crossed so i would definitely try to give you guys a good spanking of rant as soon as my schedules are straightened out. So, can we all be merry and pretty anyway? ;)
P.S. I missed reading updates from my favorite bloggers too. Boohoo. Like i would definitely make time to visit blogs soon because i feel like we are slowly drifting apart because i no longer know what’s happening to you guys. Haha. I am clingy like that. And also i seriously think my Tumblr needs an update because it logs a lot hence i usually get lazy lurking around because the posts takes time to load. But there’s no update available though so fxccck that. And it’s not even because of my innernut connection oh dear God.
I’m sorry, but I thought that for once in my life a show that was highly popular, with a well know character would just maybe not queerbait. I don’t like to be forceful or come off too strong, but I am done! I have been queer baited and I refuse to stay silent. I wanted to see myself or some version of myself on screen. I wanted a show that I have poured my heart and soul into to be good, to be kind and I got this rubbish!
Do you know why I ship so many gay ships? Partially because I ship them as people, but I think that a lot of it is the idea that maybe just maybe if I am very very lucky one will be canon. The idea that if I just keep shipping and keep seeing what others don’t that I might finally get it correct. All I want is to see some good LGBT representation in my shows. Subtext will not cut it anymore, it will not make it okay. Sherlock and John raising Rosie is great and all, but where was my love confession? where was my kiss or show of affection? it is all still in subtext.
If you tell me that that is enough representation or the Dumbledore being outed should make me happy or whatever the pairing is I will not stand for it. If I hear you saying that I am fetishizing gay people or that I am just being unreasonable and trying to make everything gay, I will tell you straight back of the struggles that we have overcome in the media and of the 70′s which had the closest to an openly gay Holmes.
I hope that my fellow disappointed shippers will join me, I don’t want to have to let people who don’t think I’m worth the fight win anymore. I’m sorry for being so firm and loud I just don’t want to have to stand for queerbaiting any longer.
Welp….found out why my mom was upset at me…I asked her what I did wrong and she said she’s highly disappointed in me and she’s not liking that my priorities aren’t straight and that she doesn’t like me driving my life into the ground….I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT SHE’S TALKING ABOUT!? But whatever…at least now the truth is out and she’s told me that I am a disappointment….just add it to the list of fuck ups that is my while life….
(Nat and Bucky surprising everyone by dancing their little butts off)
(Sam easily the life of the party, clowning on everyone)
(Laughing with Sam)
(maria drunkenly crying about how she actually loves America)
(Cool party tricks with her power)
(Being extremely intrigued with Wanda’s party tricks)
(Being very pretty)
(Flirting with everyone and probably singing Rihanna songs loudly while dancing)
(Probably broing out with Steve somewhere)
(That one dude who tells all the shitty yet funny puns)
I have no idea what I’m doing anymore omg. I was twerking to Bitch Better Have My Money and now it’s 5am (this is probably on queue) and I just can’t wait to party for 4th of July. Ya’ll don’t understand how excited I get on 4th of July because tHE FOOD IS THE BOMB AND I LOVE SWIMMING. THE ONLY THING THAT FUCKING SUCKS IS I WHEN I HEAR LOUD BANGS I HAVE NO IDEA IF SOMEONE GOT SHOT OR IF THEY’RE FIREWORKS.
After 4.5 years of dating, 4 deployments, a cross country move, and almost 2 years of long distance he decided that I’m not worth the wait anymore. We were supposed to get married and be together again in May(bought a dress, booked a venue, and mailed the save the dates), but I’m not worth another 4 months. He’s tired of not living his life to the fullest and making compromises because we are apart. He thinks marriage will just be more compromises. He hasn’t said that it’s over, but I don’t see a recovery from this. I’m crushed. And angry, so so angry. I’m angry for letting myself plan my whole life around being with him. I graduate in 4 months and I have no idea what I’m going to do anymore. I hate him.