i have no idea what this is im sorry

anonymous asked:

I just have no fucking idea what my gender is im so frustrated and sad and scared I just want to understand I hate this I don't know what's going to happen dude what do I do

I’m sorry it took me so long to reply to this!!

I wish I could give you some save-all solution that would lead you to the answer, but unfortunately, no such thing exists. What you’re going through is very tough and very personal, no one else, myself included, will be able to give you the answers you’re looking for.

It’s going to take time. That’s one of the hardest things to accept, but rushing yourself only causes more distress. Just try to take a deep breath and slow down. You don’t need to have everything figured out, there’s no cutoff to discovering your gender identity. And really, gender is different for everyone, don’t try to make yourself fit into someone else’s idea of gender. 

Try different labels, pronouns, gender expressions, see if any of them feel right or better than others. It’s not so much about finding out exactly what you are, but feeling comfortable in your skin and how the world addresses and perceives you.

Finding and labeling your gender is a very personal thing, it’s for you. Once you let yourself just be, at least in my experience, it’s a lot easier to find yourself. I obsessed over figuring out if I was actually bi and I got nowhere until I finally stopped giving a shit and just decided to feel it out, not force anything. I think that might be a good approach for you. If you feel like you’re trans one day, then that’s what you are for that day. If the next day you think you’re genderfluid, then that’s what you are. The next day you feel nonbinary? Then that’s what you are. Your gender doesn’t have to be set in stone, just be yourself.

I know none of this will relieve your stress and I’m so sorry about that. I wish I could do more. Feel free to hit up my inbox if you need someone to rant to or anything, really. <3

derkommunismustoetet  asked:

im sorry for bothering you but that 4chan screenshot with all the lola bunnies, i dont get it?? i searched through the notes of the post but nobody explained why its so "creepy and disturbing" i honestly have no idea what im looking it

okay okay it’s all up to your interpretation… but from what I know of 4chan culture.. someone saying “guess what i’m doing tonight /co/” heavily implies masturbation. That picture has no reverse search so it heavily implies that it is his image. That this specific poster own all that lola bunny space jam merch and he’s gonna jack his meat to it…..
not good when u look at it this way


honestly idk what im doing with colors and shit but enjoy this shitty comics 

Melodramatic, But It Turns Me On

summary: teenage!phan are at a sleepover and begin to have a bit of fun with the sex dices they’d found earlier that evening. 

warnings: smut (kinda)

words: 5.3k


I was gonna write more of illaks but apparently a weird 1am idea took priority and now . idk what this is laugHs oops

Im so tired I cant even think straight im sorry if the majority of this makes 0 sense I need 2 have a nap

This is probably the closest yall will ever get to me attempting smut lol appreciate it while u can x x

(if u don’t know what a ‘sex dice’ is click here)


Phil’s always felt weirdly privileged to share Dan’s bed whenever he sleeps over.

It’s not like it’s anything he’s a stranger to – quite the opposite really, but out of everyone, Phil’s the only one Dan will actually let in his bed on account of the fact he can actually have a decent night’s sleep without Phil taking all the duvet or accidentally rolling over and pushing him off the bed. That’s Kyle’s trick – explaining why he’s down there whilst his marginally less irritating best friend is up here under his duvet, sharing his mattress. It’s nice sleeping with the knowledge he won’t wake up either freezing cold or on the floor.

Phil’s used to them being the last ones awake – having been friends with a bunch of total fucking lightweights for the best part of three years, it’s become the norm for the rest of them to be down there, asleep. They’re wrapped up in empty sleeping bags and spare duvets whilst the only two who can actually handle their drink are lying side-by-side, a cut above the sea of empty bottles and shot glasses littering Dan’s floor. They’d passed out about half an hour ago, leaving the two slightly tipsy teenagers still giggling over what had been a contribution to the night’s entertainment along with the heated games of ‘never have I ever’ and one too many Malibu shots.

“Does this not feel weird to you?” Dan’s eyebrow quirks in Phil’s direction as he holds the two small wooden cubes in his hand. “I feel-… it feels- I don’t know- gross, kind-of,” he huffs out a chuckle.

“Why would-…” he squints in the darkness, “-… lick-… elbow-… feel weird to me?” he replies, a threat of sarcasm in his tone.

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merry christmas @kageyamatobeeo!!! I was your hq secret santa >:)

I was happy to find out that we both like kagehinayachi and especially kags, so this is the result :D

Happy holidays 🎄🎉

haha let’s pretend there wasn’t more than two months between this and the last page.  (Courfeyrac is like ok this is fun guys but i think i have a job to do BYE) 

(really while this was happening what were the others doing????) 

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Somewhere in the UK...

Moffat: What are you doing?

Gatiss(running around rearranging the lamps of his living room): Everyone hated tfp. Everyone.

Moffat: I know, im sorry, but we’ll figure it out, the next season will be better!

Gatiss(attaching his phone to a selfie stick): We don’t have to fix it! They already did (waves hand at open laptop), the tin hatters!

Moffat: ….what?

Gatiss: We don’t have time for silly questions. Just read it.

Moffat(skimming over the basic ideas quickly): Well, its completely mad, but I suppose we’ve done mad before.

Gatniss: It’s not maddness, its fucking brilliant. Now, call Ben and Martin, I have a camera ready (waving the selfie stick triumphantly), the lighting is perfect, we can still get some footage to the BBC by tomorrow morning and look like we planned on this. HURRY, steven!

Hopeless Hearts

jessicamarcia requested: Jungkook + Idol/Fan AU 
Pairing: Jungkook | Reader
Genre: Fluff
Word Count: 17,378
Author’s Note: Tbh I had some apprehension about this request because an idea I stumbled upon that just kept coming back to me was directly from this fantasy I kept about having about what would happen if I ever meet Jungkook and how and this just feels very personal to me as a result. Regardless, I decided to share because I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t decide to contribute my pain to the fandom.

ALSO, sentences in italics are being spoken in Korean.

Summary: You never understood the gravity of your position as an intern working Kcon until you fall for one of your favorite idols, Jeon Jungkook—quite literally too.


Sometimes you think you have a lot of mixed feelings when it comes to your job.

On one hand, it’s a pretty incredible opportunity, one that you acknowledge not a lot of people get to experience first hand: which is working as an intern in the event operations department for Kcon—the annual Korean convention in which big Kpop groups will travel around the world to bring their music and their joy to the international fanbase. For someone who never actually had the means and the ability to make the trip as an audience member of your own accord, it’s fascinating to witness the back-the-scenes sight of how much effort and how much time goes into planning and organizing an event of this scale.

And because Kcon it in of itself is half a convention and half a concert, there were always many people needed to cover the different subsections of the event, which is where your role as an intern came into play. Given that there were two interns in the department of organizing the physicality of the event, you were put on the team mainly in charge of organizing the convention while the other intern assisted with scheduling of the talents and making sure the performances would go by smoothly.

But on the other end of that spectrum, working with vendors really allows you to see how many people handle responsibility and deadlines and it makes you want to pull the hair out of your roots. You like to think of yourself as a fairly reasonable person, giving a vendor 24 hours to respond to emails at the latest before having to resort to more emails and phone call—but this is absolutely ridiculous.

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Daddy! (The Joker x Reader SMUT!)

Originally posted by ronniesnark

Requested by anons <3
Prompts:  Can you do one where the reader jokingly calls Joker “daddy” and he ends up getting really turned on and it leads to some serious smut? Your writing is awesome by the way aaaahhh

Imagine the Joker (Jared Leto) spanking you for misbehaving!!! I’m sorry for my sinful nature XD
A/N: guys smut is not my forte i have no idea what im doing
WARNINGS: smut duh, a bit rough???


The tension in the crowded VIP lounge spiked as you cast your gaze down from the Joker that was staring at you with a mixture of anger and excitement. With a wave of his hand the room was left completely empty, besides the two of you. You could still faintly hear the loud music as the door shut. You licked your dry lips. He stood up, wordless, circling you like a wolf it’s prey before he stopped right in front of you.

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