i have no idea what day of the week it is

Happy WEEK SIX of Hannah’s Sunday Reading List! I have the biggest list thus far for you guys this week - 20 fics are on it!! I’m going to have to use a cut for this one, hahaha. I’m calling this my ‘hunting week’ because I searched around a lot for these fics - please, writers make my life a little easier and tag me in your stories please!! If you care for my sanity, that is.

Here’s what I’ve been reading this week:

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Hey all, if you’ve been wondering why you haven’t heard much from me, it’s because we’re holding our breath here with Eva’s condition. She started with some severe diharrea a few days ago and it has yet to clear up. We have no idea if its from the cancer progressing or something she got into. There was a lot of blood in her diharrea today (though the vet said that’s probably just from 3 straight days of straining). She started new medicine, so we can only hope that clears it up. She is still eating a lot (bland diet) and drinking…and is perky, though mostly weak and tired. I honestly don’t know what will happen this week, but I’ll keep the blog updated as much as I can. Please keep Eva in your thoughts 🙏

you were an angel in the shape of my mum

robert hated mother’s day.
he hated it more than he ever hated father’s day, more than he hated any other day of the year.

robert struggles with missing his mum on mother’s day, and aaron helps.

Robert hated Mother’s Day.

He hated it more than he ever hated Father’s Day, more than he hated any other day of the year. For weeks in the lead up to the dreaded day, every shop he walked into was decorated with hearts and flowers and bright banners that declared it was time to treat your mother with some overpriced chocolates and a tacky card.

He couldn’t even escape it in David’s, the shop decorated in shades of purple and pink, Tracy over-ordering flowers, the place fit to burst.

All of it, every heartfelt card and bunch of flowers reminded him of what he didn’t have, what he hadn’t had since he was fifteen.

A mother.

He woke up on the dreaded day, and he willed it to be over.

A whole day of seeing everyone in the village dote on their mothers, seeing everyone get into the spirit of it all, it was going to be awful. He’d decided he was already going to find an excuse to skip out on the lunch Victoria had organised for the two of them and Diane, and as he laid in bed, listened to Aaron shuffle around their room, he tried to think of a reason as to why he couldn’t go with Aaron to the Woolpack that morning, and have breakfast with his mum.

Robert liked Chas. He did, he liked Chas a lot, actually.

But not today.

He didn’t want to have to sit there, and watch her dote on Aaron, and gush about how cute he’d been as a child, and pretend like it didn’t kill him to have to watch Aaron be gooey around his mum, when his had been lying in a grave for the past fifteen years.

“Robert, we’re going to be late.”

Robert opened his eyes at Aaron’s words, his husband already dressed. It was a beautifully sunny day, but he didn’t really have the heart to enjoy the thin grey t-shirt Aaron was wearing, the one that usually made him want to drag his husband right back to bed and show him just how much he loved every inch of his muscled chest.

“I’m getting up,” he said quietly, knowing it would just put Aaron in a mood to argue with him on the breakfast. Liv had gone to Ireland to see her mum for a few days, off her own back, surprisingly.

She’d left on Friday with a cheeky grin, having emptied Robert’s wallet, and promised she’d text when she landed. Their WhatsApp group chat had been an endless stream of Liv’s complaining, and a few pictures of a sunny Dublin dotted in between.

Robert’s arms felt too heavy for his body as he dressed, buttoning up his shirt slowly. He’d picked out the blue one that morning, remembering how his mum had always teased that blue was his colour.

That it had brought out his eyes.

He’d loved the colour blue ever since.

Hey guys ♡

Unfurtunately I can’t be really active the next week because of my exams. But the whole stress is soon gone and I’ll start to post a bunch of new things and be more active.
I didn’t had so much time bc of my school and I’m really sorry for that!
Nevertheless you can look forward to some nice new content and projects (I have a few ideas). So please be patient and have a nice day!

wait a second.....

Based off what we saw in episode 12, I believed that Victor had only just started thinking of returning to the ice as an actual option after Yuuri had mentioned it at the hotel. 

I thought that Yuuri had put the idea in his head, and he had been sitting on it those past few days. But based off the timeline of the figure skating season, I think he’s been thinking about this for quite a while. 

The GPF happens around December 9-12 and the Russian Nationals are somewhere between December 20-26 (if I’m not mistaken). With this timeline, Victor would have about a week to somehow prepare and perfect 2–not only presentable, but comeback-worthy–programs. Given that this is actually impossible, I feel like Victor had been considering this for months at that point, creating his programs whenever he had time when not coaching. (Don’t forget that he has music composed specifically for his programs that fit perfectly to the skating, which would take quite a while to get done and so would designing his extremely well thought out and extravagant costumes). Returning to the ice was no spur of the moment decision, but something Victor has wanted for a long ass time, but he didn’t do it because of Yuuri. 

He didn’t want to leave Yuuri’s side and Victor hadn’t considered doing BOTH at once until after Yuuri had asked him to stay on as his coach for the following season (probably because it’s as absolutely insane as it sounds)

So he gave himself an ultimatum and when given the choice he picked Yuuri over skating. He gave up the only constant reassurace he had in his life for the man he loves with his entire heart. Not only until Yuuri said he actually wanted Victor to return did he actually plan on following through. Now if THAT. AINT. LOVE. then I don’t know what the fuck is

in the aftermath of things, you never did come after me. we didn’t waste time with hopeful antics, never said goodbye. you just woke up one day and decided I wasn’t what you wanted and two weeks later I pulled myself out of bed to live and breathe in a world where I don’t end up with you. the realization that I could have never been what you needed- hurts. but I also know that the things meant to happen for me, will always find a way. when you didn’t call, when you didn’t fight for me, I realized there was no point in stepping foot out onto a battlefield where I’m outnumbered. and so I didn’t. i sold myself to the idea that I’m better without you until I started to believe in it. and today, I believe in it whole heartedly. it took me a long time to get here and maybe I could never get back who I was on the day I loved you the most, but I also know that better things are coming. and I’m finally brave enough to open my arms for new beginnings.

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23.10.16 // 11oC ☀️

14-18/100 Days of Productivity

It’s been a weird week, and I’ve sucked at uploading daily pictures for DoP, so I thought I’d collate a few from the past few days ✨ I’ve been fighting Freshers Flu, finding my rhythm with all my reading, and getting to grips with the physical manifestations of actually doing stuff - I’ve been in bed as early as 7pm, have had a few days where I’ve had to pack working in after thirty minutes, and days (like today) where I’ve just not been able to do anything at all 😴🛌

But, all in all, I’m really enjoying uni. I’m probably about 3/4s done with my first piece of assessed work for my NAT module, and have a pretty good idea what I want to say for my International Security module. And I made a friend! 🙌🏼

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march 19, 2017 | 3:30 pm | 16/100

one of march’s weekly spreads and a summer spread 🌍🌈🌺 i’ve successfully used my bujo since february and i’m verrry proud of myself! also, i got so excited for summer that i started listing ideas, plans, and tv shows to watch! (message me what tv shows or movies i can watch and books to read please i’d appreciate it!!!) i have finals this week so please do wish me luck 🤓📖 one last push until summer break 🙌🏼🌴🌸🌤

//pops in

HI ^o^ Sorry for being inactive this week ahaha I got sick and the medicine I drink at night makes me super sleepy so I end up dozing off early ++ I still have to go to work because I’m saving up my vacation days ;;v;;

Anyway! I’m also answering && compiling asks right now (around 3k) – I’m so sorry I let them pile up ;;v;; I have some sets from … since what … October … I was wondering if it’s still okay to answer them (or not… they probably hate me now hhhh) ahaha I’m so sorry I feel so ashamed aksjhdkjsafsdf

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*wheezes* (Please click for better quality…!!)

Very late, but I wanted to get this dang thing finally over and done with ;A; For Day 4 of Voltron Week: Day Off/Vacation. The Paladins have some time off so Allura starts teaching them one of her favorite Altean pastimes: dancing! 

Meanwhile Coran… the little princess he took care of is not so little any more, and all these Altean dances bring back memories and it really hits them both that they are the last to pass on their traditions to others…sorry my thoughts got a bit heavy– also! First time drawing Coran!! 

Bullet Journal Quotes

Since my planner starts July 2016 and ends July 2017 I’ve been using it as a bullet journal for the summer until I start school again next week. I’ve been writing quotes, tips and odd bits of information in the space for each day instead of homework. Now it’s the end of summer I have collected a lot of quotes that I hope you guys might like. They may seem random but they do correspond with what i did or was feeling on the day.

Plato
“The beginning is the most important part of the work.”
“Love is a serious mental disease.”

Socrates
“No man has the right to be an amateur in the matter of physical training. It is a shame for a man to grow old without seeing the beauty and strength of which his body is capable.”

Buddha
“What we do today is what matters most.”
“To keep the body in good health a duty, otherwise we shall not be able to keep our mind strong and clear.”

William Shakespeare 
“The course of true love did run smooth.”

Oscar Wilde
“The books that the world calls immoral are are the books that show the world it’s shame.”
“They’ll tell you that dreams can come true but forget to mention that nightmares are dreams too.”
“Be yourself, everyone else is already taken.”

H.G.Wells
“Human history becomes more and more a race between education and catastrophe.”

Jane Austen
“One half of the world cannot understand the pleasures of the other.”

J.R.R Tolkien
“Little by little, one travels far.”

Neil Gaiman
“I like stories where women save themselves.”

C.S.Lewis 
“Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing changes but when you look back everything is different.”

Stephen King
“Talent is cheaper than table salt. What separates the talented individual from the successful one is a lot of hard work.”

William Arthur Ward 
“The price of excellence is discipline. The cost of mediocrity is disappointment.”

Audrey Hepburn
“Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you’ll find one at the end of your arm. As you grow older you will discover you have two hands - one for helping yourself, the other for helping others.”

Abraham Lincoln
“I will study and get ready and perhaps my chance will come.”

Theodore Roosevelt
“Nothing in the world is worth having or worth doing unless it means effort, pain, difficulty.” 

Thomas Jefferson
“Never spend money before you have it.”

Thomas Edison
“I have not failed, I just found 10,000 ways that didn’t work.”

Nelson Mandela
“It always seems impossible until it’s done.”

Salvador Dali
“I don’t do drugs. I am drugs.”

Winnie the Pooh
“Life is a journey to be experienced, not a problem to be solved.”

Morticia Addams (Addams Family Values)
“Normal is an illusion. What is normal for the spider is chaos for the fly.”

Clara Oswald (Doctor Who)
“The souffle isn’t the souffle - the souffle is in the recipe.”

The Doctor (Doctor who, Series 2, Episode 3: Tooth and Claw)
“You want weapons? We’re in a library! Books! The best weapons in the world.”

Dr Hannibal Lecter (Hannibal, Series 2, Episode 4: Takiawase)  
“I’ve always found the idea of death comforting. The thought that my life could end at any moment frees me to fully appreciate the beauty and art and horror that this world has to offer.”

Sirius Black (Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix: Movie)
“We’ve all got both light and darkness inside of us. What matters is the part we choose o act on, that’s who we really are.”

Luna Lovegood (Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix)

Harley Quinn (Suicide Squad)
“Harley Quinn, nice to meetcha. Love your perfume. What is that: the stench of death?” 

Welcome to the Night Vale (twitter)
“Death is only the end if you assume the story is about you.”

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5sos + incorrect quotes

  • Me last week: I dunno man. I have a full time job and a mortgage and shit. Fandom ideas just don’t come to me anymore. I still love my old fandoms but that creative spark all goes into work. Maybe I’m past my shipping days. I’ll just make my blog into a personal and aquarium/octopus themed place and settle at that.</p>
  • Fantastic Beasts: *KICKS MY DOOR DOWN AT 3AM* BITCH YOU THOUGHT
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Day 03: Pining // Pre-Kerberos heislookingatkeith is what I live for (feat. a charisMATTic wingman) 

Medication Woes

Towards the end of last week I woke up feeling very strange one day. I felt terrified along with a sadness so deep I cannot describe it into words. It was almost like I could feel emotional pain right in my heart. I called my father down to my room very early in the morning and just had him sit with me and rub my back as I tried to calm down. I had no idea what was wrong. After a long while the feeling faded a bit and I fell back to sleep. 

The second I woke up, the feeling was back again, and at twice the strength. I called my doctor and he concluded I was having panic attacks. He prescribed Valium in the hopes it would settle me down a bit. Unfortunately it did very little to help the issue. It got so bad that for a few nights I had to sleep in bed with my father because I was too afraid to be alone. My sadness felt so deep that I was in constant tears. My eyes started to stick together. 

I had planned to call my psychiatrist, but it was the weekend of New Year’s and he was not available. We all decided that if I could just make it until Monday, then I would call the doctor and hopefully he would have some ideas of what to do. Sunday night got so bad that I very nearly checked into the hospital. 

In all the disarray on Sunday, I had forgotten to take any of my medication. I forgot to take it the next morning as well. By Monday afternoon I had discovered my psychiatrist wasn’t taking calls due to New Year’s. But then, as almost a miracle, after one more time forgetting to take my medication, my symptoms started to die down significantly. I finally realized that I was having a very bad reaction to a new antidepressant I was trying. The terror went away and the sadness I felt calmed. The emotional distress I felt in my heart began to mute. 

I have been through some pretty horrible stuff in my medical history. I’ve had several hospitalizations and surgeries. I had a giant hole cut out of my back that is still there to this day. But I can say, without a doubt, this was the worst experience of my life. 

The fallout from this incident has not been pretty. I’ve had mild panic attacks. Sad spells with ugly crying. Feelings of hopelessness. Lack of sleep. The symptoms lingered a bit as the medication escaped my system. I also had a few days there where I wasn’t taking anything for depression and I’m sure that didn’t help much either. I am off the bad medication and back on the medication that has caused me no problems in the past. 

Late last night and this morning have been the first time since this all started that I don’t feel I am in emotional distress. I don’t know if this is completely over, but I welcome the respite from feeling so awful. 

So if you are wondering why I haven’t been posting anything on my tumblr, or why this month’s patreon comic is not yet produced, I hope this gives some explanation. I hope to be getting on that as soon as I have a few more days of clarity and sound mental health. 

I just want to publicly thank my mother and father. I have no idea how I could have endured all of this without them. Staying up late nights rubbing my back trying to keep me calm. Trying to keep the tears from getting too bad. They are amazing people and I love them very much. 

I see my psychiatrist for an official appointment next week. I still hope we can find a medication or treatment that can help me, because I am far from being out of the woods. These last few months have been some of the hardest months for my depression I’ve ever had. Nothing seems to be working, and apparently treatment can sometimes even make you worse if you take the wrong pill. I am highly considering ECT (more commonly known as shock therapy.) It has been known to work wonders with treatment resistant depression and I wonder if maybe that is the only solution I have left to me. I’m not sure. 

If you are curious and want more health updates, you can follow my personal blog. Otherwise I hope to be posting funny, cute, and positive things on this blog again very soon. And I will be posting my patreon comic whenever I get my wits back from this debacle. I appreciate your patience. 

BNHA cuddle week day 3: With friends or family

This is from the family AU I’m working on with @chibichibisha in which Katsuki and proto!Katsuki are twins, and Deku and Yamikumo are cousins. We love this AU and have many ideas for it, so expect to see more in the future.

PHILKAS WEEK – a week dedicated to philip & lukas

i wanted to do this because the fandom is so nice and i don’t want us to drift apart any time soon, especially not now that we have to do everything we can to get season 2. you don’t have to follow the prompts or do it every day, they are just there to make it easier if you don’t have any ideas. the week takes place between the 2nd - 8th of january.

GIF/GRAPHIC PROMPTS:
day 1: what made you ship them
day 2: a quote
day 3: a scene
day 4: an episode
day 5: music (playlist, song lyrics, etc.)
day 6: details (hands, kisses, hugs, etc.)
day 7: anything you want

WRITING PROMPTS:
day 1: domestic
day 2: soulmate
day 3: alternate universe
day 4: breakup
day 5: confessions
day 6: long distance
day 7: anything you want

EXTRA:
- tag creations with #philkasweek so that people can see it. i’ll reblog many of them!
- if you have got any questions, send me a message or an ask.
- you don’t have to but please reblog this post to spread the word.

The “Suddenly Wheatley” reprise...

…has caused a lot of feelings and emotional devastation, based on what I’ve read on Tumblr in the last couple weeks.  I remember thinking it was a neat idea when I was first told about the reprise, but I had no idea the effect it would have.

I’d like to make it up to you, fans of Portal 2: The (Unauthorized) Musical, so that the healing may begin

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