i have gotten all of them!!!

Kylie: I am so excited to launch my new @Instagram campaign #IAmMoreThan. For the next six days, I will be sharing stories of 6 incredible people who have become heroes in their own way by taking #bullying and turning it into something positive. I’ve gotten to talk and bond with all of these people whose stories you will see on my page. I think you will all fall in love with them just like I did. I want to encourage you, my fans, to share something positive about yourselves. I’ll be reading as much as I can so that some of you can be apart of this as well! Let’s do this ❤️ #IAmMoreThan #StopBullying

A story of martial arts, migraines, and mentality.

Here is how martial arts helped me significantly and I have only been practicing two years and a bit total. 

The backstory of my childhood (briefly):

Since I can recall I have suffered from migraines that have only become worse as I have gotten older.  When I was a kid I would vomit and wouldn’t be able to get out of bed all day.  As an adolescent my head would ache all the time and I never understood why at lights would hurt like a thousand needles sticking into my head.  I never understood why I could barely moved and the slightest touch on my skin felt like an electric shock.  The pain was unbearable and my parents, who will never win any child-rearing award, always gave me tons of ibuprofen for them.  Still, the pain continued despite me taking these over the counter medications regularly.  As I got older and learned a bit more I started taking other over the counter medications for migraines and when one stopped working I would switch to another.  This cycle continued until it couldn’t because the drugs stopped working somewhere in my early twenties.  During college I learned more about migraines on my own and was able to start changing my behavior to help prevent situations that would spark off a migraine.  Mostly, it made me a hermit because being out all day in the sun or going to loud places would be my undoing.  

I met a master:

During my associates degree I met a man who applied for a position as a cook in the restaurant where I was working. He was older, bald, and so very pleasant.  There was something about him but I couldn’t put my finger on it.  After his ‘trial’ in the kitchen with me the chef asked me how he did and my reply was ‘if you don’t hire him, I’ll go down the street and open a restaurant so I can.’  The stranger was hired. Awesome.  I have a new friend.  After a few months of working ridiculously long hours together we started knowing more about each other and every once in a while he would do something and I would ask myself, ‘how in the world did he do that?’  Come to find out he had three black belts and all I could think was ‘I wanna be able to do that!’  Well, he decided to teach me after I begged, later revealing to me that he never thought I would survive the first day.  The training was hard and sporadic because of my school and work schedule, plus, I was his only student so it was tailored to me.  He would push me for hours until I hurt and all the while trying to bring me to a point where I had enough self respect to just lift my head up out of the pure and utter shame/self loathing I felt.  The mental work I had to talk about was just as grueling and taxing as the physical but I kept at it because it was all that was keeping me going through a horrible period of depression and alcoholism that I had fallen into.  He helped me get into AA and also become a more self aware individual, for which I feel I will never be able to repay him.  

The marriage:

Then I got stupid and decided to get married and left my master.  Usually, change is a good thing but in this instance it was a living nightmare, the details of which we simply do not have time for.  My husband’s family doctor wanted to put me on some medications to help prevent migraines and also prescribed me one for severe migraine pain.  ‘Good’ I thought, ‘This will help.  This is what I needed but could never afford’.  Not the case.  My migraines got WORSE!  I’m not talking a little bit worse, but to the point where I considered eating a bullet as a serious option for the first time in my life.  It took about six months for them to get that bad and all the while the doctor who was taking care of me decided to play russian roulette with medication to see which one worked, if any.  I was taken into the E.R. on several occasions crying, screaming, and wishing to die. The day finally came where I had enough and decreased all my meds until there were none to take.  I got better.  Through the trial and error process and self reflection it finally dawned on me that taking any medication gives me a migraine though the effect might not be immediate.  After a month off the meds I got better but still had migraines and a whole host of other problems which kept me feeling constant and unrelenting pain.  I didn’t know what to do anymore and my husband was no better than a dead horse with helping me.  I got divorced and decided to get back into the one thing I missed more than anything - martial arts.

Now, there are a few reasons why I did not practice martial arts during my four year marriage: my husband never supported me in that endeavor because of ‘financial reasons’ though his family has millions and I wanted to be the only student again.  Leaving a master whom you respect more than anyone else is heartbreaking because they help you find pieces of yourself you never knew existed and make you feel so amazing.  I felt amazing when I practiced martial arts and couldn’t imagine replacing what I had knowingly given up. 

I stepped into the dojang:

Through my then internship supervisor I learned about the dojang where I still practice.  Her husband is the main instructor there and the two of them have taken me into their family.  My supervisor, now most trusted friend, got me to do an introductory class with her husband.  It was just to see where my physical fitness was at and what I was already capable of doing.  After an hour I was exhausted and had sweat dripping down me but I didn’t care.  I was smiling like an idiot.  I was not leaving this place.

I signed up and kept trying to make it to class as often as I could which at first was infrequently.  I was finishing up my bachelor’s degree and was working full time so I made it to class when I could.  Mind you, I still had migraines and was taking way too many pain meds to keep this crazy schedule up.  When I finally quit my job and entered the master’s program I was able to attend martial arts more frequently.  There was class twice a week and paperwork which had to be completed for each rank to make sure you exercised your mind and spirit as well as your body.  I groaned until I started reading the recommended reading list.  This is where my life turned.  

Up until this point I was still a mental mess and my physical ability was nonexistent but I love to read.  I read every single book on that list.  Stories of people who had been just as jacked up in the head and body as I was and they had made it to black belt! Wha?!  No way.  They had been ill as children, suffered tragedies, and look where they were.  I wasn’t doomed to a decrepit body and doomed to live in pain my whole life.  It could change and now I was determined to make it my reality or so help me. I read about what it meant to be a student and the mentality one has to adopt in order to travel along The Way.  (At the time my thought was ‘which way? where?’)  I read of energy and power and what it meant to truly build these within yourself and why these are not things which can be taken by others unless we allow it.  My training got more regular and my migraines lessened in severity over time.  I could breathe easier, do more physically, and I hurt for months everyday because of training.  Epsom salt and baths were my only salvation but I didn’t care.  The migraines were better… a few sore muscles I could handle.  

The amazing thing about my dojang, and I will never stop being grateful for this, is how they treat new students.  I have had enough conversations with the head instructor that they know new students are usually a mess and looking for something.  Still, whatever your quirks and crazy habits are they take you in and never pass a word of judgement.  The instructors there never made me feel bad for the fact I have a chronic illness, that I couldn’t come to class, never shamed, never told to ‘suck it up’, and always encouraged.  So many people had made me feel terrible because of an illness which to my recollection I was born with but never did my instructors at the dojang do this.  One by one my chronic body pains were getting better and I could do more in my average day without living under constant fear of getting a migraine.  

What I’m trying to say here is simply this:  You can be a fucking mess top to bottom and get into martial arts.  You find the right people and they will help guide you to be the person you want to be instead of one you hate.  It will be hard and it will hurt but I guarantee it will be worth it.  

anonymous asked:

I think Levi was actually geniunely serious about torturing Annie because of all the deaths. His violent tendencies and impatience are probably his strongest flaws. Also, if he wouldn't have said any of that, maybe they could've eventually gotten Annie back without her getting away? At one point I associated it with Levi's "I always talk too much" line from after the mission. Maybe he felt guilty about opening his mouth then? But now, I don't think that's the purpose of that scene.

He was upset and people say things when they’re upset. Honestly, I would probably say similar things and probably mean them just as equally as Levi may have in that scene. But I don’t think that should reflect on him to the degree where people assume that he just gets off on torture and loves hurting people at any opportunity that he sees fit. 

Violence is all Levi’s ever been allowed to know. 

Kylie: “I am so excited to launch my new @Instagram campaign #IAmMoreThan. For the next six days, I will be sharing stories of 6 incredible people who have become heroes in their own way by taking #bullying and turning it into something positive. I’ve gotten to talk and bond with all of these people whose stories you will see on my page. I think you will all fall in love with them just like I did. I want to encourage you, my fans, to share something positive about yourselves. I’ll be reading as much as I can so that some of you can apart of this as well! Let’s do this ❤️ #IAmMoreThan #StopBullying”

anonymous asked:

I disagree with the post saying that the drag queens performances were good for the lgtqa+ community because the performance brought no attention to them at all, if you didn't know they were drag queens you probably wouldn't be able to tell, for the performance to be worth it they'd have to have gotten SOME sort of attention instead of being treated as props by Miley, by cheapening them to some back up dancers in order to look edgy she didn't give them any of the attention that they deserved

I do agree they were treated as props and Miley using them to seem edgy. But really think about what this can do for the lgbt+ community. There were over 20 drag queens there and many transgender people as well on that stage tonight. Again I do believe they were used as accessories, but this type of exposure is ultimately a step in the right direction. And to address the comment about how you wouldn’t know they were drag queens if you didn’t already know before hand, gonna guote the original post you are addressing, “The queens didn’t need to be introduced because the community that they were there to represent have recognized them for this. And to us (well, me at least) it’s just one step closer for our community to be more broadcasted. and that’s enough for me tbh.”

Kylie ‘I am so excited to launch my new @Instagram campaign #IAmMoreThan. For the next six days, I will be sharing stories of 6 incredible people who have become heroes in their own way by taking #bullying and turning it into something positive. I’ve gotten to talk and bond with all of these people whose stories you will see on my page. I think you will all fall in love with them just like I did. I want to encourage you, my fans, to share something positive about yourselves. I’ll be reading as much as I can so that some of you can apart of this as well! Let’s do this ❤️ #IAmMoreThan #StopBullying’

Hey T

Taylor, this summer has been amazing for me. the best part was getting to see you live. those nights…I was the happiest I’d ever been. and I’m so incredibly blessed that I had gotten to see you, because I don’t know how I would have gotten through this summer. those nights when I wasn’t seeing you, those long days of feeling alone….you helped me through them. I have so much love for you because you were the only person that was there for me(and my internet friends which you introduced me to helped me with a lot so thank you), you filled me with so much happiness when I was feeling down, and I can’t thank you enough. but here we are now, tonight was the vmas, I go back to school this week. tonight seeing you win all these awards, seeing you so incredibly happy, puts such a smile on my face. im so proud to call you my idol, I’m so proud that I look up to you. I love you so much, and one day I hope I can thank you in person, but for now this is good.

rainmanjdog asked:

Just wanted to say, "hi" finally (sorry I have been a lurker for quite awhile). You have a beautiful blog and I am a huge musical fan so its fun as well. So proud of all of you for sticking up for the truth and against the bullying regarding Sam and Cait for months! S/C are such special people and although I have believed for quite some time they were together, I am grateful for folks like you who never said anything negative about THEM as people (together or not). "Love always protects!" :-)

hi! Thank you so much! It’s been quite a ride and I haven’t even gotten the bs people like Jess Maddie Puffy and Leslie have gotten but it’s definitely been frustrating. I’m an optimist though and I believed in what I saw between Sam and Cait and what I knew about them as people. Not going to say I haven’t had moments of doubt but they’ve been few and brief. In the end love always wins!! Anyway thank you for your lovely message! ❤️

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I’ve always hated my hands. I took it upon myself today to think of all the things I dislike about myself and take horrible iPhone quality photos of them.

My mother always had rough hands and so did my father. I used to trace the outlines of my veins in class and put lotion on as if it would make them look “less manly.” I used to hide my hands with long sweaters in PE class and always feared holding someone’s hand I liked.

But as I’ve gotten older, a little wiser, I love my hands. They allow me to flow my creative energy into every aspect of my life. They allow me to hold my love all morning and night. I’m growing into a version of myself that has more to do with acceptance rather than thinking I could always be better.

I have found peace and gratitude in the things I thought I hated.

Much loves.

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Tagged by the beautiful cherrylynne851 (who has tagged me in many things I’ve yet to do haha sorry! I promise I’ll do them when I have time!) Also was tagged by the amazing luluyixing (I’ve gotten behind on all these tags I forgot you tagged me in this too… whoopsies!) So most of these aren’t selfies but I actually don’t ever take them and this isn’t good because I’m still kind of upset that school didn’t get canceled today because the hurricane dropped back into a tropical storm… is it too much to ask for to get this day off from school? Also still in my school uniform… Anyway I wanted to share how amazing my brother looks like I mean he’s so attractive just look at that charisma. And I don’t look that bad either but compared to him I just look like a bum. I hope I didn’t blind you guys with my family’s beautiful faces and my class A selfie skills. I’m tagging nerd-and-kpop-fanatic jonginaked luluyixing sunnys-gf and hopingforfruit!

6 random facts

tagged by columbinexmassacre thank u buddy

1. i have a cactus in my bedroom named caroline who i have had for 6 years (shes going strong)

2. i have a bunch of fairy lights framing my bed and i have gotten so used to sleeping with them on, that i literally cannot sleep in the dark

3. i’m a slut for plain pizza, i don’t like toppings just serve me up a plain pizza and i’m all good

4. i have a puppy called Colin

5. my uncle used to be the limo driver for the jonas brothers lmao

6. i love socks more than i love my family, im a sock whore

i tag whatfunislife yung-roof vicious-spungen and vodkacuddles have fun homies

midnight-blue-vvanderer asked:

Series question; So of course people have crushes on others. Which one is the most a)tragic b)hilarious c)stupid one from all the verses altogether?

Tragic crushes:

The never-was clusterfuck of Sollux’s black crushes is kinda sad. First with Equius, later with Eridan, mostly just… flailing about feelings instead of talking about them and you know, GETTING SOMEWHERE WITH THEM. And then it’s too late, when he finds out he could have gotten somewhere.

Hilarious crushes:

Shaula has a crush on Garfit.

…do I even need to say anything?

Stupid crushes:

Every Agness in every universe has a I WILL DENY IT WITH MY DYING WILL, NO SIR, NOT ME crush on Feferi. Depending on the level of insight she has about Eridan’s past fuck ups, Eridan reacts to this by pointing, laughing, and going WHO’S STUPID NOW, HUH? Before getting punched in the face. Feferi remains, thus far, blissfully oblivious in all verses.

Fifth Harmony I'm sorry

You mean to tell me a song that went double platinum, has 200mil views on YouTube, 1 out of the 7 songs to go platinum this year, worth it official peak was #12 on the billboard hot 100, peaked 9 on worldwide iTunes, peaked #4 on the American radio, made it to #20 in Canada, Australia and all throughout Europe, Worth It also had 166 million streams on Spotify, was heard everywhere literally, even in a damn chocolate commercial, and it didn’t win?? Fifth harmony I love you and I’m sorry MTV did yall dirty and gave to some boys who song just fucking came out. Congrats 👏🏽

Oh and let’s not forget all the bullshit 5H has gotten and really deserved this damn award but GIVE it to boys right??? No matter how hard they have worked for this and truly wanted it. But let’s have everyone continue to attack their fans and them. Let’s attack their fans bc obviously we have no fucking hearts and want you guys to slit your wrists, necks or anything that’s possible. Let’s not forget again we have no fucking hearts or any morals bc we always have to talk about Ashton and his dad or any other personal issue. Might of fact we have no morals or compassion for 5sauce or any of their fans?? Right bc you guys REALLY know us and think we don’t have problems of our own nor any compassion or sympathy. I’m sick of that being an excuse for y'all to hate on us bc of some shit TROLL accounts say or people we don’t even consider Harmos.

Fifth harmony once again you do not deserve to be slut shamed, given racial slurs, hated on, have horrible double standards against you guys, and any type of horrible transgender jokes made against you guys either. Fifth harmony I’m sorry MTV did y'all dirty and gave yall award to a bunch of white boys who has it extremely easy bc they are boys and there will never be any fucking equality for girls no matter how hard we work bc in some way someone is gonna drag us right back down.

I’m sorry fifth harmony y'all deserve better then something like this you bring smiles too many faces for y'all to be done this damn dirty. While 5sos is gonna have some party with groupies or some shit later.

5sosfam don’t tell us to not be pissed when you clearly aren’t gonna understand where we are coming from.

Vmas were fucked up besides Abel, Tori and Nicki dragging the hell out of Miley tbh 😂😂.

kyliejenner: I am so excited to launch my new @Instagram campaign #IAmMoreThan. For the next six days, I will be sharing stories of 6 incredible people who have become heroes in their own way by taking #bullying and turning it into something positive. I’ve gotten to talk and bond with all of these people whose stories you will see on my page. I think you will all fall in love with them just like I did. I want to encourage you, my fans, to share something positive about yourselves. I’ll be reading as much as I can so that some of you can be apart of this as well! Let’s do this ❤️ #IAmMoreThan #StopBullying

Kylie Jenner : I am so excited to launch my new @Instagram campaign#IAmMoreThan. For the next six days, I will be sharing stories of 6 incredible people who have become heroes in their own way by taking #bullying and turning it into something positive. I’ve gotten to talk and bond with all of these people whose stories you will see on my page. I think you will all fall in love with them just like I did. I want to encourage you, my fans, to share something positive about yourselves. I’ll be reading as much as I can so that some of you can be apart of this as well! Let’s do this ❤️#IAmMoreThan #StopBullying 

YEEEESSS KYLIE THIS IS SO AMAZING

exquisitespoopy asked:

How far into the Warriors are you? Like, your latest posts are from (what I think is the third series, I could be wrong)

ive read all the main arcsss?? all the way up till Omen of the Stars or smthn
i have all the super editions i just havent gotten a chance to read them yet which i should oops

“Everyone says how pretty I am and how much they want to be like me. I thank them. But why can’t I believe them?” (r.i.d)