Therapy 2-15-2017- Holding onto Hope
I haven’t been updating much.. mainly because it’s hard to form words as to how I’m feeling when I don’t quite know myself…
Last Wednesday I had another session later that night.. During that time my therapist talked about another client (no defining information given) but she talked about how he lost his mom at age 4, and at 11 he is still so angry over it. So angry. She wanted me to see that if I killed myself my boys would have a really tough time. Ugh. It worked. It gave me a spark of motivation.
Other stuff happened during that session, but I felt right in that moment I knew I had to fight. And fight hard.
I left the session with hope. Something I haven’t had in a while. And During the past week, I’ve been trying to hold onto to that hope. Nurture it. Not sure if I still have a lot of it currently, but I’m still here..fighting.