i have been waiting so many years for this one day

Hey baby, I think I wanna marry you

Pairing: Jikook // Kookmin - established relationship
Warning: angsty and insecure Jimin
A/N: this story is based on this request. I’m so sorry for the delay, I hope you like it and you enjoy reading it, maybe the wait was worth it :3

This said, ENJOY!!


Jimin took in a deep breath as his eyes clenched shut, feeling his heart hammering against his ribcage almost painfully.

He wasn’t like this, he wasn’t one to doubt anyone and maybe that was why he had been hurt so many times over the years; but Jungkook had been acting off the past days and Jimin was just, well… insecure.

They had been dating for years now and not even once Jimin hadn’t felt a bit insecure about it, always a bit scared Jungkook would realize he wasn’t attracted to him anymore and just leave Jimin behind, broken and sad.

Jimin opened his eyes when he heard Jungkook’s laugh -for the umpteenth time that afternoon and not thanks to him- and forced his eyes to look at the couple sitting comfortably as if nothing was wrong with the world.

As if Jimin wasn’t having a mental breakdown and his heart broken at the sight of his boyfriend being goofy and completely comfortable with a woman.

But, isn’t he gay? One would ask; No, Jimin would answer. Jungkook was not gay, or at least that was what he said when he finally got the courage to confess to Jimin, I’m just attracted to you, hyung.

Jimin was flattered then, the fact that very-straight Jungkook accepted he had feelings for his friend -his male friend- and decided to act on it always gave Jimin the motivation to keep working for their relationship to work, but at the same time was what scared him the most. That was Jimin’s insecurity; the fact that he didn’t have boobs, nor nice and smooth curves, soft skin and delicate features that would make Jungkook go crazy.

He felt like crying as the thoughts kept popping on his mind, images of Jungkook kissing a woman, leaving him, saying he didn’t love him anymore; It all just fueled that anxiety that wouldn’t let him sleep at night sometimes. He gasped for air as the first tear fell down from his eyes and decided to spare himself the suffering. He hauled a taxi and went home, to curl himself into his -their- bed and cry until his eyes weren’t capable of it anymore. 

Jungkook would be home late, anyways.



Jimin grew accustomed to awake alone on bed, it had been happening for the past two months already. He would wake up, Jungkook’s side of the bed already cold, sheets thrown away haphazardly and some of Jungkook’s clothes carelessly thrown on the floor.

Jungkook had always been a bit messy, Jimin was the one to make sure that their apartment was always nice and clean; the older maybe nagged at Jungkook too much, now that he thought about it, scolding him if he didn’t wash the dishes or if he forgot to do the laundry.

Maybe that was one of the reasons Jungkook grew tired of him.

He decided to go get something for breakfast after a furtive glance at the clock told him it was too late in the morning to keep lazying around in bed, even if it was his free day and the previous night had been exhausting enough to make him want to curl in bed and sleep until the end of the days.

He poured some coffee on his mug, some milk and two teaspoons of sugar, just to try to sweet up his sour mood, and sat on the kitchen table, eyes half open but thoughts already running wild inside his head.

He couldn’t help but think about his relationship with the younger boy. He always thought they were meant to be, after all Jungkook was Jimin’s true and first love, not to mention the one who helped him come out the closet when they decided to be an official couple. Jimin had always known he was gay, early on his teen years when he started to have more interest in boys than girls gave him the first hints, but it wasn’t until he was in college and met Jungkook that he actually admitted to himself his sexuality. Jungkook was the first one to know, and then Jimin’s closest friends -Taehyung, Jimin’s best friend, will always be hurt about it, though- and helped Jimin to be secure about who he is.

Jimin developed a crush, but he knew better than act on it, despite Taehyung’s words of encouragement,  by the simple fact that Jungkook was straight. The younger one had always  had girlfriends and never once mentioned being curious about experimenting with people of the same sex. That’s why he was so surprised when Jungkook kissed him one night, suddenly pecking Jimin’s lips in the middle of talking while they were out drinking. Jungkook had panicked,  his hands shaking when he confessed to be thinking about Jimin in ways a straight man shouldn’t think about another male, but that his feelings were too strong to ignore.

It had been difficult at first, but they managed to make it work. They had been each other first everything and Jimin had wished, maybe foolishly, to be also each other’s last everything.

He whipped away angrily the sad tear that was falling down his cheek. He had promised last night he wouldn’t cry anymore but the pain was too strong to ignore. He had been giving Jungkook his everything, the least the younger could do in exchange was to tell him if he had stopped loving him back.

He had hated himself at first when he had started doubting Jungkook, but the facts were piling over each other and Jimin couldn’t help but to assume things. The other would always give the excuse of being too busy with work: “My boss is bitting my ass lately, so many projects to work on and so few time.” he had said once, when things started to go downfall and Jimin had said nothing, he wanted to trust Jungkook because the other had never given him a reason not to. But what got Jimin suspicious was how Jungkook started to get a bit jumpy with him, putting his hand on the screen when he received a text message, inventing obvious excuses for when he got home too late, the lingering feminine fragrance on his clothes. Jimin didn’t want to jump into conclusions too soon, but Jungkook was giving him reasons to doubt. Hence why he decided to follow around his boyfriend.

Jimin felt horrible, hiding on the shadows and watching like a creep his boyfriend. He hated this feeling of distrust, the fact that he was doubting Jungkook. He was tempted more than once to forget it all, go home and wait for Jungkook to get back home for a session of cuddles.

But then, he saw them. He had been waiting, sitting on a bench near the building Jungkook worked at -but not close enough to be spotted-  and fighting with the chilly wind of autumn that threatened to turn him into a popsicle, when he saw Jungkook and a petite girl walking out the building and amicably talking while making their way to some random direction. It wouldn’t mean much to Jimin if not because the girl had her arm perched on Jungkook’s own and smiled up at him with fondness on her eyes and Jungkook was returning the gesture. They seemed close, and Jimin felt his world crumble.

Everything else around him was blank as a knot formed on his throat, and with his heart pumping furiously inside his chest he stood from the bench and followed them, maintaining his distance and just observing as they walked around the busy streets of Seoul. They stopped to some shops from time to time, she pointing her finger on the windows shopping to every jeweler’s they passed by and Jungkook just nodding with half a smile on his lips, but they would walk away after he mumbled something Jimin couldn’t hear from where he was hiding.

They ended on a coffee shop and Jimin standing around the corner watching his boyfriend get stolen by a stunning lady. She was truly beautiful, light brown hair, long and surely silky at the touch, small frame, cute smile. It had hurt so much.

He was snapped out of his thoughts as his phone buzzed. He decided to ignore it, not in the mood for whatever it was reclaiming his attention, but the device vibrated again against the wooden table so he grabbed it and unlocked it to find a couple of messages from Jungkook.

I’m coming home early tonight, babe

let’s have a dinner date



Jimin jumped startled when the front door opened that night. He had been on edge all day, thinking about their date and what was Jungkook planning. He couldn’t help but think that that date was going to be their last one together, getting nervous and anxious to the point of throwing up all the contents of his stomach after getting something to eat.

He sat straight on the sofa, muting the TV as Jungkook entered the room, a soft smile on his face and looking as gorgeous as ever.

“Hey.” greeted Jungkook, before kissing softly Jimin’s temple. “I’m finally home early, huh?”

“Yeah…” mumbled Jimin with his eyes closed. He released a soft breath, contented with the simple touch of Jungkook’s lips against his skin. Jimin had missed him a lot, and it hurt him to know that it was going to end like this. “I missed you.” he added in a whisper.

“Me too.” chuckled Jungkook before pecking Jimin’s lips. The older closed his eyes again, wanting to scream at Jungkook for lying, to call him out, but he refrained. He didn’t feel brave enough for it now. Jimin had decided to let Jungkook do it, so he could embrace what they have for as long as the younger would let him.

“Are you ready? We are going out for tonight’s date.”

“What?” mumbled surprised Jimin and watched as Jungkook went to their shared bedroom while getting rid of his necktie.

“Since it’s been forever since our last date I thought it would be nice to have a fancy dinner.” hollered Jungkook from the other room. Jimin heard the wardrobe door squeak as Jungkook was searching for nice clothes to put on.

The older silently walked to the room and reclined his weight on the doorframe, watching Jungkook undress, admiring the soft curve of his muscles and the silky skin he had the pleasure to touch so many times. Jimin had Jungkook’s every scar, mole and birthmark memorized.

“What, you don’t wanna go out?” asked Jungkook while changing his socks.

“Aren’t you tired from work?” questioned Jimin. Jungkook observed him, blinking owlishly with those big doe eyes that the older loved so much before standing up and walking to him.

“I’m tired, yes, but I want to have a nice evening with you.” he mumbled softly. Jimin looked down as Jungkook grabbed him by his hands, feeling the knot forming again on his throat. Those hands he loved so much had been touching another person that it wasn’t him. “Hyung, are you ok?”

“Yeah, sorry. Let’s go out.” he said, forcing a smile on his lips as he separated himself from his boyfriend to go get changed.



When Jungkook said a fancy dinner, Jimin never thought he would end in one of those restaurants that charged even for just breathing inside the establishment.

Jimin knew they couldn’t afford such place, their salary wasn’t high enough to pay for a single cup of water but here they were, sat in a table for two with shiny cutlery, expensive wine on their glasses and candles to add a touch of intimacy.

“Can we afford this?” asked Jimin softly. Jungkook chuckled and Jimin bit his lip nervously.

“Don’t worry about it hyung, just enjoy tonight’s dinner.”

Jimin had never reasons to doubt Jungkook, his tone always firm and secure gave the older one so much reassurance; however he had never reasons to think Jungkook had been cheating on him until that day, so maybe that night Jimin would end up heartbroken and on jail for not paying for his dinner. Was that the younger’s plan? Was he mean enough to end their relationship after a good dinner date?

The night went on rather calm, considering Jimin was waiting for the moment in which Jungkook would break up with him. The older could tell something was on the other’s mind, Jungkook’s hands were kind of shaking and he had knocked out his glass of wine a couple or more times, chuckling forcedly and apologizing awkwardly at their waiter for the mess.

Jimin felt kinda relieved then than it would mean something for Jungkook; if Jungkook was nervous it meant that it wasn’t easy for him to break things off. At least it didn’t feel as if Jimin were nothing.

“Hyung.” Jungkook called to get Jimin’s attention. He looked up and saw Jungkook fidgeting on his seat, his forehead a bit damp with sweat and eyes wandering in nervousness. Jimin knew the other so well it scared him sometimes. “I need to tell you something…”

“Ok” he whispered, feeling the suffocating knot forming on his throat again for the umpteenth time that day. He had tried to be ready for this moment, but could he ever be ready for the love of his life walking out the door after tearing his heart apart?

“Uhm… It’s been a long time since we got together, right? We’ve been a couple for a very long time and I know It’s been rather hard for us to find ourselves and be comfortable with what we have, but we did it and I’m so proud of who I’ve become thanks to you. I’ve always tried to give back to you the same love I received from you and this past years together have been awesome…”

“But?” asked Jimin with a broken voice when Jungkook paused for a moment. Jimin could tell the other was thinking, recollecting his words as to speak coherently and not tumble across his speech like he tended to do when he got too nervous.

“But I think it’s time for a change… for us to try and experience new things so, that’s why- I, well… I thought- shit, I’m so nervous…” Jungkook mumbled the last part and Jimin just observed with tears threatening to fall from his eyes as Jungkook whipped his sweaty hands on his pants. Despite the nervousness Jungkook seemed eager to simply spill it out. Jimin didn’t know what to do with himself.

“Hyung, I… I love you, more than I’ve ever loved anyone and- shit I had rehearsed this but it’s a fucking mess…I- I want… let’s get married.”

“What?” asked bewildered Jimin trying to blink away his tears. Jungkook was flushed until the very tip of his ears, it would be rather adorable if not because Jimin was busy trying to catch on on what was happening.

“I said I want to marry you.” answered Jungkook more determined. His hand flew to his pocket and rested softly a small velvety box in front of Jimin. “I know I make a lot of mistakes and that it’s hard sometimes, this past month hasn’t been easy at work but waking up beside you every single day is what motivates me to keep going. I love you, more than I’ve ever loved anyone and I want you to be mine for the rest of my life.”

Jimin stared at the box in front of him open mouthed. That had been a turn of events he didn’t expect. He was ready for hurtful words from Jungkook’s mouth, for his heart to break and for the countless days of himself buried on his bed crying non stop.

And that’s why he started crying, a strangled sob came out of his mouth as the guilt started consuming him, all the culpability crushing him down for even doubting Jungkook was cheating on him, for believing for a split second this amazing boy didn’t love him anymore.

“I’m sorry.” he blurted out, snapping one hand on his mouth to try to muffle his sounds while the other grabbed the box. The last thing he wanted was to attract attention to them “Fuck, I’m sorry- I-“

“Sorry? What for?” asked Jungkook dumfounded, panic lacing his words. “Is that— is that a no?”

Jimin shook his head, he was crying so hard he couldn’t even formulate words. He curled down on himself, the tiny box opened on his hands and the shiny silver ring greeting him.

“Hyung…” Jimin felt Jungkook’s strong arms embrace him; he didn’t even notice when Jungkook had stood up, but the younger had kneeled beside him to drag his small frame against his strong chest, and the warmth emanating from him helped Jimin calm down a bit, his familiar cologne invading his nostrils. “Come here…” mumbled the younger and helped Jimin stand from his chair and lead them out.

The restaurant had a beautiful terrace with dim lights and big bushes of flowers, beautiful scenery for couples to enjoy romantic dinners if not because the chilly air of autumn made it impossible at that given moment.

Jimin clung into Jungkook for dear life, his face buried on the younger’s chest and surely staining it with his tears and wrinkling the material with his vice-like grip. Jungkook felt so good against his body, lean and muscular and strong, his big and warm hand running up and down Jimin’s back as to calm him down.

“That wasn’t the reaction I expected.” joked Jungkook, his lips firmly pressed against the crown of Jimin’s hair.

“I’m sorry…” he mumbled again, like a broken record. He had ruined everything. “I’m sorry Jungkook-“

“Stop apologizing, It’s ok Hyung…” cut Jungkook softly, but the hurt was evident on his voice. “I understand if you don’t want to.”

“I want to marry you!” corrected quickly Jimin, a bit louder than intended. This was all just a mess, and he had managed to hurt Jungkook unintentionally. “I just— I thought you wanted to break up with me…”

“What? Why would I-

“You’ve been so busy with work lately, I haven’t seen you at all and… You got so secretive and I just- “ Jimin sighed tiredly. He rested his forehead on Jungkook’s shoulder, afraid of the reaction he would get once he told the other everything. “I followed you after work yesterday and I saw you with that girl… she was so pretty Jungkook… I thought you didn’t love me anymore.”

Jimin waited for Jungkook to say something but as a minute went by and the younger didn’t say anything Jimin lifted his head to stare at the other. His eyes widened when he saw the younger’s ones red with a hurtful expression on his face.

“I’m sorry, Jungkook I-“

“Have I done it so badly that you don’t trust me?” interrupted Jungkook, his voice pained. It was the first time Jimin had seen him so vulnerable; Jungkook was always strong, in control of his emotions, it was a rare sight to see him cry, even for Jimin.

“No, it’s not that. I trust you, I just… I’ve always been insecure about us because I always feel you will realize you aren’t attracted to me anymore, that after all boys don’t attract you.” explained Jimin. It was the first time he had admitted it out loud and now that the words were out he kind of felt relieved. He knew it sounded pathetic, they had been together for over five years and Jungkook hadn’t done anything but show how much he loved Jimin, but the fear was still there. It’s not always that easy to fight one’s monsters all alone.

“I love you hyung, I’ve told you countless of times…”

“I know.” whimpered Jimin, ashamed hanging his head lower again. “I know, and I’m so sorry for doubting you…”

“Hyung…” said Jungkook lifting his head up. “I love you. No girl can change that, not even the most beautiful woman on earth can make me stop loving you. Don’t doubt it, don’t you dare doubt yourself like that because you are the best thing that could ever happen to me and I regret nothing about us.”

Jimin sniffled, trying to contain the tears that threatened to come out at those words. Jungkook had told him hundreds of times how much he loved him, but Jimin wouldn’t even grow tired of hearing it over and over again.

“I’m sorry I ruined this night.” mumbled Jimin, his fingers closing around the lapel of the other’s jacket to pull him closer. Jungkook’s warm body had always been a firm and solid reassurance to him. “I understand if you are mad at me-“

“No, I’m not mad.” reassured Jungkook, gentle hands resting on Jimin’s waist to return the embrace. “It’s not exactly how I planned the night to go but I’m glad we had the chance to talk about it. I didn’t know you thought like that, I should have known and take care of you properly.”

“You do, Jungkook.” Jimin paused to lick his lips, overwhelmed by the situation. “You take good care of me, like no one else could do… You are the best companion and lover I could ever dream of. I would love to marry you, if you still want me…” finished off Jimin, his voice creaking more times than it was natural for a grown up man.

Jungkook pressed him closer, his embrace tightening around Jimin’s waist and his lips leaving a soft tender kiss on his forehead.

“Of course I want you, you drive me crazy Jimin.” confessed the younger. Jimin shuddered against his body, he loved when Jungkook dropped the honorifics and called him by his name. “I want you always by my side.”

Jimin couldn’t hold it anymore, not when Jungkook was looking at him with such love and want on his eyes, so he tilted his head up to fight back the centimeters of height difference and pressed his lips against Jungkook’s, a soft kiss that said so much without any words.

Jungkook took the box from Jimin’s hand, played with it with his long fingers before lifting up the lid and taking out the delicate silver ring.

“She’s just a friend. I told her I wanted to ask you but I didn’t know which kind of ring to get you.” explained Jungkook with a soft tone, delicate and affectionate as a little smile grew on his lips. “I asked her for help, she had proposed to her boyfriend a month a go and I wanted her opinion about rings…”

Jimin nodded as he didn’t know what to say, a knot forming on his throat again due to guilt. Jimin felt so stupid.

“Hyung-“ Jungkook waited for Jimin to look back at him, “Would you marry me?”

The ring slid down his sturdy finger with ease, as if made only for him, shining brightly and contrasting beautifully against his slightly tanned skin.

“Yes.” he said, wide smile to match with Jungkook’s own before  leaning forward for a kiss.

and one day, you will understand
how some people feel familiar the
moment you meet them… as if
your souls have met many years ago
and they pick up right where they left
off. and one day, out of the blue,
someone will run up to you and tell
you… ‘I have been waiting for you and I have missed you for so long.’
—  r.m. drake
Luffy & Nami’s Hug - Clarification

Ok here it goes: Basically it boils down to her hugging Luffy out of happiness

There are two things I want you to take into account before I explain, in order to help you understand my viewpoint a little bit better:

  1. In real life time, Oda is reuniting the SH crew after approximately 2 years of being separated. This is probably the longest internal separation of the SH’s in reference to our real life time period. Which means that Oda would like for their reunion to be somewhat impactful as fans have been waiting a long time for this.
  2. In OP time, they have been separated for about 10-11 days (forgive me if that is wrong, but I believe it is around that many days). Now 10-11 days in OP time, imo, is considered a long time. The entire Pre-TS was a period of 3-6 months only, so 10-11 days could be considered a significant amount of time passage for the characters.

Now, lets focus on the moments right before their reunion. Chopper excitedly comes to Nami and exclaims “Luffy and the others are here!” and “He’s at the entrance!”. You can see immediately that she is happy to hear the news and excited to see them after such a long time. When Nami is running towards the crew, you can see she is yelling “Luffy!” because she is happy to see him again after such a long time. Obviously she is happy to see the rest of the crew too, but she runs towards him specifically. Bepo (Law’s navigator) did the same exact thing, he hugged his captain because he was gone for so long. Nami is not doing anything different in my view.

It is further supported by the fact that she is running towards Luffy with the intent to hug him, when she had the option of Usopp or Robin, both of which, would be perfectly reasonable options for Nami to hug, and an easy route for Oda to take if he wanted to. But this is the reunion of the SH’s after two years, and the reunion of two characters which, imo, share a very close bond.

You can see that she was going to hug him regardless, she was running towards him with open arms the same way Chopper was to Usopp. It is only because Luffy mentioned Sanji that Nami, instead of hugging him out of happiness to see him again, hugs him but then starts crying instead.

The anime also shares my interpretation, as they focus on her mood change the second Luffy mentions Sanji. Therefore it can be reasonably assumed that if Luffy had not mentioned Sanji, that she would have hugged him regardless but it would’ve been a “happy to see you again” kind of hug instead of “I’m sorry, Sanjis…” hug. But this is OP we are talking about, not a slice of life, so Oda did what he had to do to build up drama and tension, as well as end the chapter on a cliffhanger.

It is of my belief that Oda has made Luffy and Nami’s friendship a bit more special than the others (not in a romantic way, but as a bond). So now that he has two characters with a very close bond about to see each other again, he has the emotional one initiate the hugging which would make sense and not feel OOC for any of the two involved.

Sorry if its a bit longer than expected, it really is a basic thought I am trying to convey. That Nami went to hug Luffy because she was happy to see him after being separated in what could be considered a long time in the OP world, but the mention of Sanji just turned a happy hug into a comfort hug.

This is all supplementing my theory that Oda is going to be less and less subtle about any end game pairings he has in mind from here on out, so this event fits perfectly within reason of doing so. 

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It’s Baklava time

I make baklava for my birthday every year, and my birthday is in two days.

Guess what? Baklava isn’t difficult to make.  Secret’s out now.  But people are always super impressed by it.

There are countless recipes and variations, but I have been making this one for close to 20 years now and have been told by many people that it is one of, if not the best they’ve had.

I use pecans in mine.  Other recipes call for walnuts, pistachios, or a combination, but mine is all pecans.

The syrup, ready to be cooled.  Honey is sometimes used, but not in this recipe.

First layer of the nut mixture over 8-10 sheets of buttered fillo.  Note: I always read about covering the waiting dough with a damp towel, but I have never done this and have never had any problems.  Fillo is not as precious as you might think, and in an application like this, is very forgiving.  If it tears, so what?  Just piece it back together and slather on the butter (sometimes I have to melt more butter).

All assembled, cut, and ready to bake (and slightly blurry).  Yes, cut it before you bake.  Three reasons: 1. It’s so much easier to cut it first.  You may have to sort of hold the top layers in place a bit, but it is very forgiving.  2. All the spaces make it easier for the syrup to soak in.  3. It keeps people from deciding they’re going to just cut themselves a piece the size of a brick (like certain coworkers of mine yes, I’m talking to you, Mark).

My favorite part.  I never noticed till tonight that the recipe actually says to wait 5 minutes before pouring… I never do.  Just pour slowly!  It makes a very satisfying hissing noise, too.

My coworkers love me.

The recipe I use (I do not know the source as I found it a super long time ago):

2½ cups sugar
1½ cups water
1 T. lemon juice

1 pound chopped pecans
¼ cup sugar
½ tsp. cinnamon
1/8 tsp. nutmeg
1 pound fillo dough
1 cup melted butter

Bring 2½ cups sugar and water to a boil; add lemon juice.  Simmer until it is a pale yellow color.  Syrup should be thick and cold when poured over hot baklava (put it in the fridge while you put the pastry together).

Mix nuts, ¼ cup sugar, and spices; set aside.  Butter 9x13” cake pan thoroughly.  Carefully layer the filo dough in the baking pan, one at a time, brushing each one with melted butter.  After layering about 10, add a layer of the nut mixture.  Then layer 3 - 5 more sheets of dough, buttering each one, and then another layer of the nut mixture. Continue until you have about 5-10 sheets left (or you are out of nuts). Layer those last like the first 10, brushing each one with butter.  Cut the pastry into squares or diamonds.  Bake at 325 F for 1½ hours.  Remove from oven and let cool for 5 minutes.  Pour the cold syrup over the hot pastry.

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Cheers!

sashapieterse27 

I’ve never felt so many emotions at once. I love every single one of my cast and crew. Pretty Little Liars has been a big portion of my identity for the past 7 years and apart of me will always be there. On those stages. Thank you all for all of the love you have shown me, you’re the reason we went to work every single day, and it was worth every second. From the bottom of my heart I thank you. And with my whole heart I love you ❤️ you guys have an incredible 10 episodes to watch next year, I can’t wait for you to see them. Thank you @lucyhale @sleepinthegardn @itsashbenzo @shaym for creating our sisterhood. Thank you @theandreaparkerfor being the best inspiration, role model, rebel heart, heart healer, second mom, and now lifelong friend. I love you more than you’ll ever know. Thank you @vrayskull for loving me and showing me kindness and grace every single time you walk on set. You are a blessing when you’re working and you’re a blessing in every step of your life. Thank you @janelparrish for having such poise. I respect you and love you as a friend and a talented AF costar. I will never forget all the love you have shown me. Thank you @ianmharding for always making me laugh. You have such a good heart and I’ve loved every second of your company. Thank you @tylerjblackburn for being so present and passionate. I’m so thankful to have you in my life. Thank you @keeoone for capturing all of our happy, silly, tired, sad moments. You are truly wonderful. Thank you to every single other cast member who has ever stepped foot on our stage. You have all shaped and cared for our show. We wouldn’t be the same without you. Thank you to our INCREDIBLE CREW who have never ever let us down. You’ve always been so faithful and loyal. I trust all of you with my life and I’ll never forget our bond. You are more than friends, you are family. There’s no one else I’d rather be with at 5am in the jungle ❤️ Huge thank you to our writers who have loved and nurtured our show. They’ve listened and cared for all of you from the beginning. Last but definitely not least, thank you @imarleneking and @lisacochranpll for creating this love fest we’ve called home. I am forever grateful. [x]

Wedding Bells (Part 1)

Pietro x reader || Request || Happy Birthday, anon! || oh wait || shoot

 Anon: Hey I hate to sound demanding but Have you ever thought of making an imagine about Pietro x reader wedding? That would be so lovely TBH *whispers* it would do for a perf bday present for me too *wink wink*

If you’re birthday was yesterday, then this is a belated birthday present!

It was near impossible. Pietro had tried everything! From trying to measure your finger while you slept to asking Wanda and Natasha, but no matter what he asked, the answer always seemed to be; ‘I don’t know.’

With every passing day, Pietro grew more and more discouraged. You were the most oblivious person he knew of, that was one of the many traits about you that he loved, while sometimes hated. You’d been dating for a solid three years and Pietro was finally ready to take the next step in your growing relationship. He wanted to marry you. At one point in his life, Pietro had sworn to not get attached or to fall in love with a woman because it would only get him hurt– but you taught him that pain was only a part of the package.

“Pietro! Have you seen my other shoe? I left it somewhere and I don’t remember where! I swear…I thought I put it somewhere where I’d remember where-” When you met eyes with Pietro you couldn’t help but smile.

“What’s on your mind, troubled boyfriend of mine?” You asked, grinning.

Pietro smirked at your words, “Nothing, curious girlfriend of mine.”

You hummed in response and walked closer towards him, sitting on his lap. Pietro rested his hands on your waist and you gently pressed your forehead against his, “You’re a terrible liar, ya know that?” you murmured.

“I was just thinking of thoughts.” Pietro replied smoothly.

“Everybody thinks thoughts. You know what I mean, Maximoff.”

Maximoff. The name ran through Pietro’s head, swirling around with your name in front of it. (Y/n) Maximoff. Just thinking about the two name put together made Pietro feel extremely excited and nervous at the same time.

“I was only thinking of you, printsessa,” Pietro drawled the nickname out slowly, leaning close enough to feel your breath on his face.

You locked eyes with him and a sly smirk curled on your lips, signaling to Pietro that you were flattered, but not buying it. So without a moments hesitation, Pietro pressed a kiss to your lips and spun you around so he was on top. You giggled and brought a hand to Pietro’s chest, gently pushing him back so that you could once more see his flawless face. “You win.” You said quietly.

Pietro grinned and planted a kiss on your cheek before standing up to make his way out of the room, “I always win.” Pietro said chuckling.

“Only because I let you!” You cried out before he vanished from sight.


Pietro walked down the hallway, barely being able to contain the overwhelming feeling inside of him. You were the love of his life, his printsessa, his heart. And more than anything in the world, he wanted to marry you.

“Wanda!” Pietro hollered for his sister, “I need your assistance!”

Baffled, Wanda turned away from Vision whom she was conversation with to look at her twin brother, “What? With what?” Wanda asked.

Pietro swiftly took her arm and pulled her away from Vision, out into the hall. He leaned close to her ear, “I need your help with something…”

Wanda furrowed her brows, “Alright, tell me already.”

Pietro took a deep breath, “I want to propose to (Y/n)-”

“FINALLY!” Wanda screamed in his ear, pulling away almost immediately after the words ‘propose’ and ‘(Y/n)’ reached her ears. Wanda gripped Pietro’s hands tightly, “Show me the ring, Pietro!” she whispered loudly.

Pietro sighed, chuckling nervously, “That is what I need help with…”

Wanda paused and looked at Pietro carefully before looking over her shoulder at Vision, “I am terribly sorry to leave so abruptly, Vision– but Pietro is trying to propose to (Y/n) and hasn’t gotten–” Pietro clamped a hand over her mouth.

“Wanda! I want it to be a surprise!” He hissed, a pit in his stomach.

Vision merely raised his eyebrows, “I see. I won’t speak of it again.”

“Thank you, Vision,” Pietro said, spinning around and dragging Wanda out of the room with him. “Now, Wanda please listen. I have no idea what size–”

“Leave it to me, Pietro. I will handle it. All you need to do is figure out how you are going to propose because- no, you cannot just walk up to her and ask her. It has to be something to remember.” Wanda responded quietly.

Pietro gave a quick nod, “Got it. Thank you Wanda, I appreciate this.”

“Of course. Now go. I really do not want you to screw this up.”


The moment you saw an ominous path with candles lit at both sides, illuminating t through the dark, you knew you had to follow it. You didn’t care if it was there for you or not, you were a curious person. Moving one foot in front of the other, you followed illuminated path down to one of the many docks in New York. The only difference was that this dock was completely cleared of boats for at least a mile. There was only a dock, a beautiful sunset, and the water which reflected the marvelous sky overhead.

And there he stood. Pietro Maximoff.

Pietro stood stiffly at the edge of the dock, fumbling with a small black box that he held in his hands. When he noticed your presence, he straightened his back and watched as you silently walked closer, lips parted in awe.

“Pietro…This is beautiful…” You told him, finally meeting his eyes. “But why…? I’m pretty sure our anniversary isn’t for another…” You trailed off when you realized that Pietro was slowly getting down on one knee.

Hesitantly, Pietro opened the small, black box revealing a silver ring with a Sapphire gem in the middle. Pietro licked his lips to speak, 

“(Y/n) (L/n), I-”  “Yes.” 

prettylittleliars To the girls that have forever changed our lives: thank you for giving us panic attacks every time we get a text from an unknown number, showing us what it means to have an unbreakable friendship, and making us fall in love with Rosewood - even though, let’s be real, that town is crazy. That’s a series wrap on production for #PrettyLittleLiars… We can’t wait for you to see the final 10 episodes April 2017. ❤️#PLLEndGame

sashapieterse27 I’ve never felt so many emotions at once. I love every single one of my cast and crew. Pretty Little Liars has been a big portion of my identity for the past 7 years and apart of me will always be there. On those stages. Thank you all for all of the love you have shown me, you’re the reason we went to work every single day, and it was worth every second. From the bottom of my heart I thank you. And with my whole heart I love you ❤️ you guys have an incredible 10 episodes to watch next year, I can’t wait for you to see them. Thank you @lucyhale @sleepinthegardn @itsashbenzo @shaym for creating our sisterhood. Thank you@theandreaparker for being the best inspiration, role model, rebel heart, heart healer, second mom, and now lifelong friend. I love you more than you’ll ever know. Thank you @vrayskull for loving me and showing me kindness and grace every single time you walk on set. You are a blessing when you’re working and you’re a blessing in every step of your life. Thank you @janelparrish for having such poise. I respect you and love you as a friend and a talented AF costar. I will never forget all the love you have shown me. Thank you @ianmharding for always making me laugh. You have such a good heart and I’ve loved every second of your company. Thank you@tylerjblackburn for being so present and passionate. I’m so thankful to have you in my life. Thank you @keeoone for capturing all of our happy, silly, tired, sad moments. You are truly wonderful. Thank you to every single other cast member who has ever stepped foot on our stage. You have all shaped and cared for our show. We wouldn’t be the same without you. Thank you to our INCREDIBLE CREW who have never ever let us down. You’ve always been so faithful and loyal. I trust all of you with my life and I’ll never forget our bond. You are more than friends, you are family. There’s no one else I’d rather be with at 5am in the jungle ❤️ Huge thank you to our writers who have loved and nurtured our show. They’ve listened and cared for all of you from the beginning. Last but definitely not least, thank you @imarleneking and@lisacochranpll for creating this love fest we’ve called home. I am forever grateful.  

shaym Today we let Aria, Alison, Hanna, Emily, and Spencer go while the rest of us tried to cope by eating cake. Thank you everyone for this incredible ride. I’m trying to breathe and soak it all in and I’m just so full of gratitude that this was my life for so long. Rosewood Forever, xoxo Em. I mean Shay 💋. #PLLForever

So the amazingly talented who writes so many great fics @fayrenz tagged me and I just really like this kind of questions so yeah! Before I’m going to bed I’m doing this.

Rules: Answer the 10 questions I give you. Tag 10 people and give them new questions to answer as well.

1. let’s start with some random basics. do you like boba tea? and fave flavor? (my fave is taro!) 

It’s been years since I last had one and I was never a huge fan hehe so nope.

2. The first thing you notice about someone?  

Their eyes. I’m always drawn to the eyes and to girls’ hair uwu

3. choi in (prescription) glasses vs choi in sunglasses?

THIS IS THE QUESTION I’VE BEEN WAITING FOR! Honestly?? prescription glasses. Same goes for any of the shines!

4. first kpop album you bought?

Since I was a broke college student when I first got into this black hole, I could only afford one for the first time in like 2015, so it was Base by my soft pup. :3 It was destiny tbh. lol

5. fave song (in terms of the melody, beat) and fave song (in terms of lyrics)?

It’s impossible for me to choose one, not even a top 10/15 faves nooo! Let’s stick with one of the two hundred songs I love and say that in terms of melody/beat, this last 1-2 years in kpop only, I absolutely loved Canvas by 4Minute and in terms of lyrics Lipstick by SHINee.

5. moonriverwaltz or selene 6.23?

AGAIN NOOOO! WHY YOU GOTTA BE LIKE THIS? I love both because the lyrics are so beautiful!! But Moon River Waltz is the song that makes me feel like I’m floating in the sky touching the stars. :3

6. up and down or ready or not?

Ready or Not because it’s so much fun!

7. middle parting, side parting, fringe or styled away (on your bias) ?

Fringe. Long fringe like Minho had his during their DxDxD 2016 tour era.

8. do you read manga/manhwa/webtoons? what’s your fave??

Nope, I’ve never read one but I feelo like it would be interesting!

9. cookies and milk or tea and biscuits?

cookies and milk

10. did you notice the problem with question 5 when you first read thru this?

lol yes I was going to fix it. xD

Thank you for the questions and the tag @fayrenz! :D

I’m tagging my amazing friends @flowercrownshinee @dimpledvirgo @kirnjongdaemn @sabakunocasali @moonjjongie @jjongsensation @kpopsavedmylifeandthenkilledme @jjongeyed @leejinklies to do this is you want. ^^

My 10 questions for you! (I borrowed two because they’re great questions)

1. Who was your first celebrity/literary crush?

2. What’s the book series that you consider a crucial part of your childhood (mine’s HP and Anne of Green Gables because I grew up with them. ^^)?

3. What was the first album that you bought?

4. If you could see only one color, which color would it be and why?

5. What’s the weirdest movie you’ve ever seen?

6. To what historical period would you go back and why?

7. What’s your favorite genre of literature/movies/music?

8. Would you ever write a book if you had the opportunity and what would it be about?

9. The smell of the rain wetting the ground or fresh baked pastries?

10. If you could show one special something (place, book, album, movie, anything really) to your bias, what would it be?

sashapieterse27: I’ve never felt so many emotions at once. I love every single one of my cast and crew. Pretty Little Liars has been a big portion of my identity for the past 7 years and apart of me will always be there. On those stages. Thank you all for all of the love you have shown me, you’re the reason we went to work every single day, and it was worth every second. From the bottom of my heart I thank you. And with my whole heart I love you ❤️ you guys have an incredible 10 episodes to watch next year, I can’t wait for you to see them. 

Thank you @lucyhale @sleepinthegardn@itsashbenzo @shaym for creating our sisterhood. Thank you @theandreaparker for being the best inspiration, role model, rebel heart, heart healer, second mom, and now lifelong friend. I love you more than you’ll ever know. Thank you @vrayskull for loving me and showing me kindness and grace every single time you walk on set. You are a blessing when you’re working and you’re a blessing in every step of your life. Thank you @janelparrish for having such poise. I respect you and love you as a friend and a talented AF costar. I will never forget all the love you have shown me. Thank you @ianmharding for always making me laugh. You have such a good heart and I’ve loved every second of your company. Thank you@tylerjblackburn for being so present and passionate. I’m so thankful to have you in my life. Thank you @keeoone for capturing all of our happy, silly, tired, sad moments. You are truly wonderful. 

Thank you to every single other cast member who has ever stepped foot on our stage. You have all shaped and cared for our show. We wouldn’t be the same without you. Thank you to our INCREDIBLE CREW who have never ever let us down. You’ve always been so faithful and loyal. I trust all of you with my life and I’ll never forget our bond. You are more than friends, you are family. There’s no one else I’d rather be with at 5am in the jungle ❤️ Huge thank you to our writers who have loved and nurtured our show. They’ve listened and cared for all of you from the beginning. Last but definitely not least, thank you @imarleneking and @lisacochranpll for creating this love fest we’ve called home. I am forever grateful.

@sashapieterse27: I’ve never felt so many emotions at once. I love every single one of my cast and crew. Pretty Little Liars has been a big portion of my identity for the past 7 years and apart of me will always be there. On those stages. Thank you all for all of the love you have shown me, you’re the reason we went to work every single day, and it was worth every second. From the bottom of my heart I thank you. And with my whole heart I love you ❤️ you guys have an incredible 10 episodes to watch next year, I can’t wait for you to see them. Thank you @lucyhale @sleepinthegardn @itsashbenzo @shaym for creating our sisterhood. Thank you @theandreaparker for being the best inspiration, role model, rebel heart, heart healer, second mom, and now lifelong friend. I love you more than you’ll ever know. Thank you @vrayskull for loving me and showing me kindness and grace every single time you walk on set. You are a blessing when you’re working and you’re a blessing in every step of your life. Thank you @janelparrish for having such poise. I respect you and love you as a friend and a talented AF costar. I will never forget all the love you have shown me. Thank you @ianmharding for always making me laugh. You have such a good heart and I’ve loved every second of your company. Thank you @tylerjblackburn for being so present and passionate. I’m so thankful to have you in my life. Thank you @keeoone for capturing all of our happy, silly, tired, sad moments. You are truly wonderful. Thank you to every single other cast member who has ever stepped foot on our stage. You have all shaped and cared for our show. We wouldn’t be the same without you. Thank you to our INCREDIBLE CREW who have never ever let us down. You’ve always been so faithful and loyal. I trust all of you with my life and I’ll never forget our bond. You are more than friends, you are family. There’s no one else I’d rather be with at 5am in the jungle ❤️ Huge thank you to our writers who have loved and nurtured our show. They’ve listened and cared for all of you from the beginning. Last but definitely not least, thank you @imarleneking and @lisacochranpll for creating this love fest we’ve called home. I am forever grateful.

“sashapieterse27: I’ve never felt so many emotions at once. I love every single one of my cast and crew. Pretty Little Liars has been a big portion of my identity for the past 7 years and apart of me will always be there. On those stages. Thank you all for all of the love you have shown me, you’re the reason we went to work every single day, and it was worth every second. From the bottom of my heart I thank you. And with my whole heart I love you ❤️ you guys have an incredible 10 episodes to watch next year, I can’t wait for you to see them.

Thank you @lucyhale @sleepinthegardn @itsashbenzo @shaym for creating our sisterhood. Thank you @theandreaparker for being the best inspiration, role model, rebel heart, heart healer, second mom, and now lifelong friend. I love you more than you’ll ever know. Thank you @vrayskull for loving me and showing me kindness and grace every single time you walk on set. You are a blessing when you’re working and you’re a blessing in every step of your life. Thank you @janelparrish for having such poise. I respect you and love you as a friend and a talented AF costar. I will never forget all the love you have shown me. Thank you @ianmharding for always making me laugh. You have such a good heart and I’ve loved every second of your company. Thank you @tylerjblackburn for being so present and passionate. I’m so thankful to have you in my life.

Thank you @keeoone for capturing all of our happy, silly, tired, sad moments. You are truly wonderful. Thank you to every single other cast member who has ever stepped foot on our stage. You have all shaped and cared for our show. We wouldn’t be the same without you. Thank you to our INCREDIBLE CREW who have never ever let us down. You’ve always been so faithful and loyal. I trust all of you with my life and I’ll never forget our bond. You are more than friends, you are family. There’s no one else I’d rather be with at 5am in the jungle ❤️ Huge thank you to our writers who have loved and nurtured our show. They’ve listened and cared for all of you from the beginning. Last but definitely not least, thank you @imarleneking and @lisacochranpll for creating this love fest we’ve called home. I am forever grateful.”

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I honestly have no idea where to start when it comes to you. You have been everything to me that I never thought I would find. You are brave and kind and gentle. Your heart is so big and so full of love. You would do anything to help anyone even if you have had nothing. Your mind is so incredible; your curiosity is unlike anything I’ve ever seen. You’ll never know how much I’ve learned from you. Looking at us now, it’s hard to understand how we stumbled so many times in the beginning. We always found our way back to each other tho, I’ll always find my way to you.
You’ve made an unbelievable impact on my life. I’m so inspired to live and grow with you. I can’t wait to spend my days absolutely amazed by you.
You’re so beautiful that you literally take my breath away. I’ll never understand how I ended up with someone with so much beauty and light. I could write forever about how much I love you. How much I love waking up to you, how much I love the sound of your voice, how much I love your mind, how much I love your bright, beautiful eyes; how much I love your cute (strong and weathered) hands, how much I love your soft, amazing, absolutely perfect body. Thank you for giving me love I never knew existed. Thanks your for the past incredible year. Thank you for sticking around for more. I love you babe. I love you endlessly. Happy anniversary 😊💕😍

@mackonit

Darling, the three words:
I love you
Should not be used as a disclaimer.
Have you ever woken up at 4 a.m.
Unable to breathe?
Baby, thats what
I’ve done three days in a row
Because of you.
My body, my brain, my heart, my soul
Is in so much agony
It is trying to kill me slowly.
Cut off my breathing.
Everyday is like a surreal dream.
I no longer have a concept
Of time.
How many days has it been?
How many hours, months, years, minutes?
One thing I do know is a couple weeks is nothing compared to two years.
I do know that you’re the only
Person I have EVER loved.
I do know that this is the most
I have ever cried.
Too bad you
Caught fire and
Got addicted to the heat.
Just wait until you get burned.
Honey, don’t come crawling back to me
After you’ve been burned
Again and again
Expecting me to
Extinguish the flames.
By then you’ll have third degree
Burns.
I won’t want to get burned myself,
I’ve just finished healing.
Why am I not good enough for you?
I was good enough when you
Fucked me
In the back of my truck.
I was good enough when we would laugh
And kiss for hours.
I was good enough for two years.
What’s changed?
My love,
Resist the urge to
Shove your hand into the molten coals.
Resist it for me.
Resist it so in a few weeks I wont
Have to face the world alone.
I’m going to need your support more than ever then.
Mud is a lot safer than fire.
You always told me
You hated orange freckles.
What the fuck is so god damn fucking special about her?
Baby, make your decision.
May it be shooting me
In the heart and fucking around with fire
(Which I might add your mother told you not to do) or playing in mud puddles in the rain.
Just remember mud extinguishes, kills, fire.
I’ll never trust you again,
Love you again,
Or get to have a conversation
With my best friend again if you
Light this fire.
Keep that in mind before deciding to
Shoot me in the heart.
—  Disclaimer (via fuckingsupernovas)

[150923 Fancafe Update]

From Xero to the lovelies


TOPPKLASS!
Suddenly it’s 700 days since debut, time has passed really quickly..
I’ve built many good memories with ToppKlasses in those 700 days,
so I feel very happy from the bottom of my heart. We’re preparing
for our comeback soon after the one-year break. Thank you very,
very much for our lovely ToppKlasses who have been waiting for
Topp Dogg. Topp Dogg will come back cooly too this time around
so I hope you anticipate it.
I know this is cheesy, but >>
I love you, lovely ToppKlasses S2

cr; toppdoggintl

I love that every once in a while, like at least once a day, I see a harry potter fandom post on my dash. It’s so cool to me that it’s so enduring even so many years later, that people are still thinking about it like I am, that this one series affected so many people. 

I feel like a whole generation was raised on these books and it connects us all in a way that will probably endure our whole lives in small ways we don’t even think about. Because no matter our different histories, we’re all connected by this shared childhood experience that no other generation has ever, or will ever get to experience.

Feeling real fond of the HP fandom rn. <3

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#NoShameDay 

 I have been so excited all week to participate in no shame day you have no idea! I have Ehlers Danlos Syndrome, Gastroparesis, GAD, IBS-C, mitral valve prolapse, and I’m about to be tested for POTS. My life has been a slew of invisible illnesses and people not believing me, including many of my own family members. It took months to convince my mother I was really in pain, and then I had a year to wait before I could see a geneticist. It’s been a journey 

This is one of the best things to raise awareness for invisible illnesses especially, and the disabled community as a whole. Because even though my legs can look that rad in an outfit, they’re still riddled with constant chronic pain 

#noshameday 

#cripplepunk 

#chronicallyillgrrrlgang