April 3, 2017
I had a very busy day today.
I woke up at 7:30am.
I didn’t need to be awake until 9:30am, but I couldn’t go back to sleep after I got up to use the restroom.
For some odd reason my mind just started racing.
I kept thinking and I didn’t know how to make it stop.
That was going on for a whole hour.
When I finally got up, I opened my door and was blinded by the bright sunlight burning through the windows in the dining room.
My mom had the blinds open for the natural lighting instead of using our fluorescents.
She was sitting by the bar, typing away on her laptop, and working on some paperwork.
“Good morning Mom,” I said.
“Good morning Papi,” she replied.
She calls me that when she’s in a good mood.
I walked passed her and headed towards the kitchen.
I had prepared an overnight oatmeal recipe the night before, so the first thing I did was open the fridge to get my breakfast.
I normally don’t eat breakfast, but I’m trying to fix that.
This was my second attempt at making this overnight oatmeal.
I made it with almond milk, plain yogurt, honey, cocoa powder, and chia seeds.
It was supposed to have strawberries as well, but we didn’t have any, unfortunately.
And to be honest, it wasn’t as great as the first time I made it.
When I finished eating my chocolate strawberry-less oatmeal, it was time for me to get ready for school.
I took a shower, brushed my teeth, changed into some nice clothes, put on my black Steve Madden boots, and fixed my hair.
Then, I left to school.
I walked toward my class which was located in the business building.
I was there thirty minutes early for class and I was actually pretty happy about that because I was about to take an exam.
I sat down in the first empty seat I saw and started to study for the time being.
I remember this one classmate of mine was walking in circles around the hallways of the building.
He was wearing sweatpants and I could tell he wasn’t wearing any underwear.
It was really a nice sight to see - I wish you were there to stare at his junk with me.
My thirty minutes of studying came to an end…
I unconfidently walked into class to fail my exam.
To my surprise, it was a lot easier than I thought, but to be honest I don’t expect to get higher than a “D”.
I will find out by tomorrow how I truly did.
After my exam, I walked to another building - The College of Liberal Arts.
I went there in hopes of running into an old English professor.
I printed out a copy of one of the letters I have sent you…
I’m thinking about publishing it…
I hope that’s okay…
Thankfully, she was there!
I told her about what I was doing and what I was expecting from her.
She’s such a kind woman.
I’m not even her student anymore and she agreed to help me with this.
She even said she’d give it to her colleague because he’s a creative writing professor.
She said she doesn’t have that kind of experience.
She mostly only reads and writes for academic purposes.
Soon after I told my professor goodbye (and many thank you’s), I headed toward the writing center to get a second opinion on the same letter.
The girl that helped me was very kind.
I was so nervous to let her read it and judge it in front of me.
Honestly, I was scared she was going to think it was nonfiction (obviously, it is, but I didn’t want her to get that impression).
I was shaking for a few moments and my palms started to sweat.
She didn’t have to edit it much.
She just told me I had a lot of punctuation mistakes.
I should really work on that.
It was actually really nice to be next to her while she read my excerpt.
She let out a few sighs as if she could relate.
She let out subtle aw’s under her breath.
She also let out a giggle at one point.
It was very comforting to see someone’s real life reactions while reading something I wrote.
It makes me wonder if you do them too.
Afterward, I ended up going to my previous workplace to interview my ex-manager for a project I have for my management class.
When I got there, everyone who I used to work with was still there.
I only saw one unfamiliar face there.
The guy was obviously new.
Everyone said hello and asked how I was doing.
I made small talk with them for as long as I could.
Then, I sat in the way corner of the restaurant and waited for my ex-manager to sit with me.
When she got to the table she said, “I hope you don’t mind me eating right now. I’m starving.”
“No, of course! Don’t worry about it.” I said encouragingly with a big smile.
“Alright then, good! So… let’s make this happen. Hit me with your best questions,” she said. “Show me what you got.”
I laughed, looked down at my notes and started interviewing her.
It lasted about thirty minutes.
I had worked with her for over three years and I can honestly say I learned so much more about her today in this one session alone than those three years with her.
Later, I got something to eat before going into work.
I had Chinese; it was sadly very unsatisfying.
I was only at work for a few hours.
Nothing worth mentioning happened there.
When I got home, I was greeted by my mom the same way she greeted me in the morning.
She was at the bar doing work on her laptop again - I was living in déjà vu.
My dad was in the living room watching TV.
“How was your day Papi?” She asked while I walked into the kitchen.
“It was okay. I’ve just been really busy all day and I’m about to go eat with Josh,” I said.
“Really? At this hour? Where are you guys going?”
I didn’t realize it was already 10:30pm. “Yeah. I’m pretty hungry and I want to see him. We’re supposed to go to Applebee’s. To be honest, I’m not too sure if I’m going after all because you know how he is with his kids and all. Sometimes he’ll say let’s go, then ten minutes later he’ll say never mind because one of his twins woke up or something.”
“Yeah. You’re right,” she agreed.
I continued talking to my mom for a moment; all while preparing my breakfast for the week.
I’m trying to eat healthier, so I’ve been making the overnight oatmeal I mentioned earlier almost every night.
To save time, I decided to prep for the next four mornings.
I got papers, blunts, bongs.
All the ingredients to make a high nigga pie.
That’s one of my favorite line’s in Scary Movie; I just had to say it, sorry.
Let me start over.
I got oats, almond milk, cocoa powder, yogurt, chia seeds, yogurt and strawberries.
All the ingredients to make my chocolate strawberry oatmeal (yes, we had strawberries this time).
It didn’t take me long.
Just before I finished up, Josh called me.
“Hey! Do you still want to go to Applebee’s? I got my dad’s truck, so I can just meet you there.” He sounded really happy to go and meet with me.
“Yeah. Of course. I just need to finish something. If you get there before me you know what to order me right?” I asked.
“Cedar Grilled Chicken?” He questioned.
“Okay. See you later.”
I hung up the phone and continued to make my oatmeal.
My stomach was feeling really empty so I tried to hurry.
When I was done, I got my keys and rushed out the front door.
I sped my way through the streets and through the highway.
In times like these - when I’m anxious to see my best friend and hungry - I’m glad the speed limit on the highway is seventy-five miles per hour.
So, it surely didn’t take me long to get there.
When I showed up at the restaurant, I walked in and noticed he was sitting at one of the high tables that surrounded the bar.
I walked up to him, he saw me and we both smiled at each other.
He looked so cute with his freshly new haircut and clean shaved face.
He knows I don’t like facial hair.
Sometimes I wonder if he shaves it just for me.
I doubt he did it for me this time because he just started a new job at a restaurant; they prefer if you don’t have any facial hair.
“Hey Josh,” I said with a big smile.
“Hey Alex,” he responded. He mirrored my smile.
“Did you already order for me?” I asked.
“Yeah, I ordered for you. It should be coming out in a little bit. I got wings - buffalo and bbq flavored. And of course I ordered your chicken for you.”
“Thanks, because I’m starving!”
The rest of the night consisted of us talking about movies, games, a girl that he’s talking to and our lives.
He talked about his twins.
I talked about my love life - or lack thereof.
This was going on for over an hour.
When it started getting late, I paid for the tab and we walked out together.
I started walking him to his truck and when we turned the corner of the restaurant I gave him a big hug.
We kept our arms wrapped over each other’s shoulder and kept walking toward his truck together.
It was really cute, because I felt like we were a couple - I’m sure it looked like that to other people who could see us through the windows of the restaurant - but we aren’t.
He’s just a really great friend who deserves all my love and appreciation.
He’s been there for me every single time, and that’s not me being overdramatic.
We talk every day.
I see him two to three times a week - four on a good one.
I just love him to death.
I really do.
And I know he really loves me too.
I can honestly say bravely that I’d do anything for him.
“Hey,” he said as he looked at me.
I turned over to him and looked straight into his brown eyes.
His face was close to mine because we were still holding on to each other.
“Thank you for the food baby, and the drink of course,” he continued.
I like it when he calls me names.
I laughed. “You’re welcome Josh. You don’t have to thank me though,” I lied.
Of course he has to thank me.
I just said that so I could fish for more appreciative comments.
“Yes I do. You always buy me food. And you’re always there for me when I need you. Or when I need money - you give it to me. The least I could do is tell you thank you. I love you Alex.”
I swear, I feel like he and I make the perfect homo-hetero couple.
My heart fluttered when I heard him say that.
That’s all I ever want in a relationship - whether it be a friend or a boyfriend - all I ever want is to feel wanted, appreciated, important, and, of course, loved.
“I love you too, Josh,” I said with a smirk.
We finally got to his truck and I gave him another hug before I said goodbye.
“I’ll text you when I get home,” I said.
“You better,” he demanded.
And I did.
I didn’t do much after I got home.
To be honest, there was nothing for me to do.
I didn’t have homework and there was nothing productive to do around the house.
So, I decided to have a bit of downtime by myself.
I made popcorn, heated up some nacho cheese, poured some hot cheetos in my bowl of freshly popped popcorn and pigged out in my room while watching a new episode of Riverdale.
I only saw about twenty minutes of it though, because I couldn’t stay up too late.
I also really wanted to tell you about my day.
I don’t know why.
I guess I just wanted to say that I wish I had more days like this - days where I’m busy as hell and distracted that I don’t even have the time to think about the bad things.
So here I am writing to you.
It’s already passed midnight; I should really go to sleep soon.
I have to wake up early in the morning because my friends and I are going to the school clinic to get our blood checked.
I’m getting tested for STD’s and general blood work like my sugar levels, cholesterol, etc.
I’m not sure if my friends are getting checked for STD’s.
By the way, I know I’m always ranting to you; so, I just wanted to take this time to tell you thank you - I know I don’t do it enough.
So… Thank you!
I have learned to appreciate what you have while you still got it, because one day it will be taken away from you in the most tragic, unprepared way.
Until Next Time…