i have a thing for you lately

look dear anons you don’t come into my inbox and talk to ME about a red riding hood au and not expect me to get both nasty and thirsty enough to stay up late to scribble a wolf!JJ before bed

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I forgot to finish the holes in the corset. I’m so sorry anon TwT

Urgent - Please Help

Hi everyone. If anyone of you noticed I haven’t been on tumblr lately, it’s due to the fact that I’ve been overly busy with doctors, surgeons, and other medical things.

I need to have open heart surgery this summer.

Surgery is extremely expensive- and thankfully my dad and his insurance is covering most of it. But there’s things I need during surgery that aren’t covered by insurance- food, shelter, I need my room to be moved and renovated so I don’t need to go up stairs.

I can’t really ask my dad for money anymore. I still need to eat, I need to pay my$200 housing deposit this week, I have sorority dues coming up (call them unnecessary but my sorority is my family and keeps me sane) and things of the like. I thought I would be fine, seeing as I can sew and sell things online and on campus.

But my sewing machine broke.

I need, at the very least, $100 to get it repaired. Then I can start making money again. If I could get more to even cover my housing deposit or dues, that would be amazing.

My paypal is: PayPal.me/pastelroyalty
My Venmo is: @Erin-Costello-9

Please, please donate even a dollar if you can. I don’t know how to keep my head above water.

If you can’t donate, please reblog this. It means the world.

itskushi  asked:

Here's why I like Mchanzo They met late in life, both aren't happy with their pasts and at some point ashamed of things they've done, so they bond over stories over their broken selves. They've both probably experienced relationships with other people and thought it might have been love at some point. But now they met one another and they think "Fuck, I was wrong before and this is what it is." They're different people, broken, and they make each other feel whole, like they matter, to fight for.

Broken, yet beautiful people with a kind heart! Thank you for sharing the McHanzo love!

anonymous asked:

Where do you live in the US? Would you let a little on here come to visit you or if they were in town would you have dinner or tea with them? ✨

MISTER 101 - Transparency in effect

This has been a rather interesting topic in therapy lately…  anyone who has been around here long enough knows the struggles I face with my anxiety, agoraphobia and paranoia complex. And its a real shame that when someone who doesnt know better hears “agoraphobia” and thinks that youre some kind of unabomber type, held up in a cabin with the windows boarded up.

thats simply not true. 

it comes in all forms.. and mine is acute, mainly dealing with overcrowded places, situations I cannot control, things that are unfamiliar to me, being surrounded by people, etc… I go places (certain places) at least, just fine.

My new therapist has been working above and beyond his means to both help me and get to a point where I wont need him anymore. Thats the goal, as its always been.

A hot topic lately is me “getting back out there”

Its been a long time since I have been able to truly be myself, (years) with a little or sub, etc. years since i have been touched in an intimate way that wasnt a condolence over death or simple family expressions. Years since I have stood in front of someone with my belt wrapped in my hands, or rope.. or even just the feeling of being dominant over someone who willingly gave their submission to me.

And as such, and in order to see the limits to which I could get to.. my therapist did a cognitive regression test kind of thing on me. He is convinced that if I could find someone within the lifestyle who I can relate to, meet and perhaps even engage in scene with… it may do a number of things, including triggering me back to a time before the issues took hold and maybe even waking that part of me back up enough to keep me there and essentially…”cure” me.

Now, these are long term goals… but recently ive been working hard on the baby steps so to speak. 

baby steps that would bring me to a place where I could actually leave the safe zone around my house, venture out to somewhere, and meet with someone… even if for an hour at the least… and I think I am ready for that. 

So to answer your question... yes, I would. but that person would need to be incredibly patient with me, understand my limits… and also understand that I may be able to stay an hour.. I may only be able to stay a few minutes. It may be in a park, and it may need to be in a hotel room. Noone is allowed in my house, and in the last handful of years only my therapist and brother have been allowed in for short amounts of time. Otherwise, its been… emergency situations.

I dont even get my mail here. I dont even keep my ringer on… my groceries get delivered and left on my porch. Its all incredibly taxing… its all incredibly complicated. 

So appropriations must be made… 

Whether its just a cup of coffee or waxing philosophy… it would be a great pleasure to meet with someone who I could truly be myself with… but the road to getting there isnt just a hop and a skip, its a journey… and one that some days i feel absolutely ready for, and others I feel like running away from.

anonymous asked:

can you do bts reacting to their s/o having offensive humour (like filthyfrank) and not knowing when to stop? (lmao my humour is so bad, causes some awkward situations) Thank you~

Lmao! Yes! I’m sorry this is late, but my laptop is acting weird. When i saw this I got so excited, so I hope you enjoy.

*gifs are not mine*


BTS Reaction To You Not Being Able To Control Your Offensive Humor

Jin: When he first met you, he was surprised at how filthy your jokes were. He didn’t understand how someone like you could say such things. He’d find them funny sometimes, but lately it’s been getting out of control. When you would say something provocative in a sexual way at the wrong time he’d be pissed. Expect a whole night of him telling you how wrong you were and that sometimes you need to learn how to control what you say.

Originally posted by jiminahhh

Yoongi: Your humor and the way you presented it was one of the reasons why he was attracted to you. When you’d reply with one of those jokes, he’d start cracking up. If you were to do it in a professional environment, he’d be shocked. For example, at a dinner and they ask about your favorite scene in a certain movie (Forrest Gump) and you say something offensive, he’d spit his drink out in surprise. “Baby!” You’d just shrug your shoulders and he’d chuckle quietly, letting you know that maybe this wasn’t the best way to make a first impression.

Originally posted by jeonbase

Jimin: This smol bean would be cringing every time you made a joke that was distasteful. When you’d do it in a situation where it was not the time or place, he’d be a little upset and flustered. he would pull you to the side to let you know that today, right now is not the time for your jokes and he’d want you to tone it down a bit.

Originally posted by j-miki

Hoseok: He too would love that this was a part of your personality because it balances your relationship out. When your jokes would come out at the wrong time, he would be flustered and stuttering over his words. He’d have to take a breather because this was too much for him. he’d apologize to whomever you guys were talking to and would pull you away. “Ahh why would you say that to them?” After they were out of sight he would laugh a little and shake his head.

Originally posted by kawaiinekololitablog

Namjoon: Every time you’d come out with your jokes, he’d be chuckling but would feel bad afterwards. The jokes you would often repeat were offensive and sexist. When the jokes come out in a event where everything you say or do is watched, he’d scold you in private. “Yah,” he’d say,but chuckle a little. “These people are always going to be watching what you say so you have to be careful.” Overall, he wouldn’t mind as long as you didn’t do it in places where it could affect his image.

Originally posted by bangthebae

Jungkook: He would love your humor because in some ways he can relate to you in that aspect. When it came to serious situations he wouldn’t know what to do. At first he’d chuckle, because he thought it was funny, but considering the situation, he’d chuck it up and tell you that it wasn’t very nice to say. He too would apologize and keep it pushing.

Originally posted by officialwookkibby

Taehyung: This boy, when he first met you, he didn’t know someone could have such jokes like the ones you have. Tae can be serious at times so when you said an inappropriate joke at the wrong time, he’d chuckle in embarrassment. He’d cover his face and sigh thinking, ‘Why does she have to be this way?’ After the event he would talk to you and let you know that not everybody is going to be okay with your humor so maybe you should wait for another time.

Originally posted by cyyphr

Send in more requests y’all. I do anything and everything so don’t be afraid to ask. Some I may not do because the context isn’t clear.

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I never do this. And I never really shared what I look like on here (except my photo op I had with Jared Padalecki).
But lately I’ve been struggling with a lot of confidence issues and finding true happiness within myself. But this weekend I felt really good and I realized there are so many beautiful things to be happy about. And it’s all out there, I promise. All you have to do is be open to it. You all are beautiful and you deserve to be happy and feel confident about yourself!
Go ahead! Post that stunning selfie you have sitting in your camera roll! Share that beauty and self love in the world. We all need more of that.
Do what makes you happy. Wear what makes you feel good. Spread love! Love for others and love for yourself.
It’s okay if you don’t love yourself all the time. It’s definitely a process and something hard to go through. And it’s hard to get past the negativity. But realize that there are so many amazing things about you to love! And also love your imperfections. It’s all apart of you and it’s all beautiful ☺❤
Always keep fighting my loves!
You are not alone
Love yourself first
You are enough
Stay gold!

Graveyard with Bea
  • Mae: Know any ghosts stories?
  • Bea: Not off the top of my head
  • Mae: Ok, what's scary?
  • Bea: Uh...Things are like monumentaly screwed right now. And no one in the power gives a shit or they're actively making it worse out of sprite or profit.
  • Mae: Woa!geez! I meant like, a skeleton or something.
  • Bea: Oh right. Sorry.
  • Mae: Ok ok ok. We'll have a spook-off. I say something, and you make it spookier. How about this- a skeleton outside your window.
  • Bea: A regular strange person outside your window.
  • Mae: He's frowning-
  • Bea: And he is your landlord.
  • Mae: That's not-
  • Bea: You're late on rent. And you can't pay. And he's there to evict you.
  • (...)
  • Mae: Geez, Bea, all the things you are afraid of are boring.
  • Bea: The scariest stuff is like, really really boring.
A BIGASS SORRY

Hey all, 

I just wanted to say if you’ve sent me a message in the past (several) months, I’m incredibly sorry about the lack of response!  I haven’t been logging into this account and so I haven’t seen a lot of your messages until now.  This is completely a matter of me being shitty and also having a really hard time mentally lately.  I’m kind of at a crossroads with a lot of things right now, so I’ve been trying to think of what to do with this blog.  

Meanwhile, I update every day over at my daily comics blog.  It’s got a different flavor than It’s Time, but you still might enjoy taking a look.

Thank you so much for reading and enjoying and sending me messages asking for more <3

Catch Me if You Can (Steve x reader)

Hey loves! I needed to give Steve some love and I’ve been super tired lately so, this one shot is coming in the morning instead of after the new chapter of Battered and Bruised. I love you all so much and I hope you have a wonderful day :)

Description: You have a training session with your boyfriend, Steve, but you’re ability is super speed so it makes things a little harder for him.

Warnings:

Masterlist


It was early Thursday morning, and you groaned. You alarm was blaring in your ear as you threw your pillow over your head and rolled on your stomach, trying to block out the unforgiving noise. Steve rolled over and put his hand on your back. He rubbed it, and you hummed in content.

“Good morning babe.” He smiled at you, chuckling at the fact you were so unwilling to get up. You responded with a good morning that was mostly muffled from the fact that your face was smushed into the mattress.

“Come on, F/N. We have a training session this morning, remember? We need to get ready.”

You groaned in disbelief. “But, it’s too early.” You took the pillow away from your face and cuddled up to his chest. You hoped your moves of affection would convince him to stay in bed and forget about training.

“Nope. We gotta go, babe.” He kissed your forehead and got up, sitting on the edge of the bed. You grabbed his hand and gave him your best puppy dog face. He gave you a look. “No. You’re not going toget us out of this session.” He gave you a goofy grin. “You know I can’t resist you when you make that face, but the team needs us there today.”

“Okay..” You held out the last syllable of the word and released his hand. He got up and headed to the bathroom to wash up.

You rolled on your back and stared up at the ceiling. Why did these things have to be so early? You groaned once more and pulled yourself away from the sheets. You woke up your nerves by speeding through the room: grabbing your clothes, making the bed, brushing your teeth, and changing. And it was all done in less than a minute. You were standing by the door. “I’m ready!” You were smirking towards Steve’s direction. “Come on, babe. We have to go to our training session.” You mocked him in his stern voice.

Slowly, he sauntered out of the bathroom and crossed his arms. “Really?” He still had his toothbrush in his mouth. He playfully rolled his eyes and cracked a smile, walking backwards to the bathroom. “Give me ten minutes and I’ll be ready to go.”


Once Steve was dressed, you walked hand in hand into the training room. Most of the team was already there, besides Tony and Banner. Obviously Banner didn’t need to attend, he kind of had his own way of fighting after all. And Tony, well, he just didn’t show up half the time.

The morning commenced fairly well. Wanda paired up with Vision and they started a battle in the middle of the mat. Steve was making sure that neither of them used their powers and solely focused on hand-to-hand combat. He didn’t agree with letting them use their energy manipulating powers during sessions. They needed to know how to fight. Ultimately, Wanda won. Vision had a soft spot for her and didn’t want to hurt her. Steve rolled his eyes and called up the next pair of fighters. This time Natasha and Clint took the floor. They were both good at what they did, and it ended in a draw when both of them were rolling on the floor, in pain from all the blows they had taken. The training session continued and everyone watched, giving pointers and learning new moves.


Finally, it was almost over and you stepped on the mat, Steve across from you. You seldom fought him, but it was always fun. He was actually a good match for you because he was the only one strong enough to stop you.

“Ready?” He had his hands in loose fists and put them in front of his face, taking his fighting stance.

“Let’s go.” You gave him a smirk and you were gone. You darted across the room, stopping momentarily in different spots, keeping him on his toes. His eyes were shifting and he spun around every time you passed him. You stopped behind him and delivered a quick jab underneath his ribs. He let out a groan, but quickly brushed it off.

The only flaw to your ability was that you left a trail of light behind you when ever you ran, making it easier for him to track you. Even so, you were still too fast for him.

“Catch me if you can.” You whispered in his ear, as you quickly appeared behind him. When you tried to bolt, Steve caught your arm and threw you down on the ground. The force knocked the wind out of you and your groaned.

“Gonna have to be faster than that, sweetheart.” Before he could land on you to put you in a lock and end the match, you disappeared from underneath him in a flash. You started making circles around the room, creating a whirlwind around Steve. He threw his hands up in front of his face, straining his eyes against the wind. When you finally stopped, you jumped up on his shoulders, using your thighs to bring him down.

You had him pinned. “Like I said, catch me if you can.” The right corner of your mouth was pulled up in a smirk. You were inches away from his face and kissed his lips. The team groaned, knowing that this would happen.

He winked up at you. “I’ll get you later, babe.”


I hoped you enjoyed this cute little one shot to start your morning! Battered and Bruised will be posted this afternoon. I look forward to having you all read it! I love you all.

Taglist:

@mcfuccfairy

i was pretty sure Merle and Magnus were gonna be confused/pissed off if they witnessed Taako having a cheesy romantic reunion with Kravitz but given all the shit theyve dealt with lately re: Barry, Lup, Tiny Voidfish, The Hunger, 100 years lost memories; i really cant imagine it being that big an issue
like i can totally picture Taako and Krav leaping into each others arms like “oh god i thought id never see you again” while slightly offscreen merle goes “yeah not the weirdest thing ive seen today actually”

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So you can get extra dialogue if you examine certain things while Alula is with you, and… I’m pretty sure fire is the kind of thing you’d explain to a child pretty early on (that it is dangerous, if nothing else).

So… does the Oneshot world just… not have fire? I guess that would explain why phosphor is the peoples’ only source of light in the absence of the sun. 

anonymous asked:

I've been pretty bummed out lately. Schools killing me, making me have constant break downs every week, and I've been sad since I don't have anybody to talk to lately. Everyones busy and I understand that, I dont like to cling onto them, but lately its like my depression is making me think that they dont care about me, that they dont need me, and that im just a burden on them all. i've been like this for almost four days now... and i cant seem to get myself out of it.

Well let me tell you the one thing that i’m sure of:

You are not a burden. You may feel like you are because your depression is telling you that you are, but you aren’t. As you said, everyone has been busy. That doesn’t mean that they wouldn’t like to see you, who knows? Maybe they’re not in a good space or they’re totally overwhelmed with school just like you. What I would do is reach out to the friend you feel closest to and explain how you’ve been feeling. A strategy I would suggest is using “I” statements. For example, Instead of saying something like, “My depression is bad right now and you haven’t been there for me.” Try saying something like, “I am feeling super down right now and it would be awesome if I could talk to you.” This way it comes off less accusatory and you avoid possible conflict.

Is there anyway you could talk to someone about school? Maybe a parent, teacher, or counselor? If you’re struggling, remember there’s always extra help available! Try starting your homework as soon as you get home so that it doesn’t loom over your day. And if you aren’t doing well in a class keep your eye out for extra help at lunch. 

Sometimes you are going to feel more depressed than usual but these times will pass. When you have negative thoughts also keep in mind that this is your depression talking and that what it’s saying is not true. Remember that if you don’t have anyone to talk to you can always private message me! You are loved. You are cared about. You are going through a tough time but it won’t last forever. I’m going to challenge you to counteract these thoughts you’re having with positive ones. If you think, “No one cares about me,” remind yourself about your family, your pets (if you have any), your friends. If your depression say’s “you can’t do this” tell yourself you can etc…Keep pushing on! I know you’re going to be okay <3 xoxo

Originally posted by tana-the-dreamchaser

anonymous asked:

Could you please write some characters comforting a really depressed s/o? I've been feeling down lately and your writing is one of the things that make me smile.

Depressed reader being comforted by Zenyatta is basically the plot of Softly Smile, with a little trauma on the side. 


Zenyatta


You stared forward blankly, no energy in your body as you logically knew that you should have something to eat. However, lacking both the will and the appetite to eat. 

A dampened flicker of shame started inside of you as Zenyatta opened the door, military rations clasped firmly in his grasp. He floated towards you, his heart breaking in his chest at how you curled up deeper into yourself.

He sat next to you, his hand awkwardly resting on yours. His fingers tightened as he pulled you closer towards him. 

“I am here,” he finally said, “If you need to talk. I cannot fix all of your problems, but I will help the best I can.”

“That’s all you can do,” you rasped, voice hoarse from lack of talking these last few days. 

Zenyatta pulled his hand away to open the military rations, slipping the heating pad into the pouch. After warming it he opened it, your nose turning at the smell. 

“I have heard these aren’t the most pleasant,” he hummed, “But it will feed you.”

You picked up the plastic spoon, digging a scoop of the oddly solid food. You quickly ate the oddly tasted meal. Zenyatta rubbing your back as you scraped the bottom of the rations.

“You will feel better if you shower, I will be here when you’re done.”

Hanzo


He suffered from his own darkness creeping over him, seeing it in your face before even you knew. He quickly went to your room, hoping to stop it before you’re consumed by depression. 

You sat blankly, staring forward with nothing on your face, Hanzo sitting next to you. His hand curled up into yours and you leant against him thoughtlessly.

“I don’t know what’s wrong with me,” you murmured, Hanzo’s thumb gently stroking your hand.

“I do,” he cringed at that, “I mean there’s nothing wrong with you, I mean.”

“Shit,” he swore under his breath and you couldn’t help but smirk at him stuttering.

“I’ve felt that way before,” he said, taking a deep breath to calm himself.

“That everything is tiring, even the sun shining is exhausting,” you gave a shock as he described what you were feeling perfectly.

“That maybe it would be better to die in your sleep, just to not have to go through something as exhausting as life.”

“I’m sorry,” your fists clenched as you whimpered.

“There’s nothing to be sorry about, it’s not your fault you feel like that,” he said, “Just let me help you, don’t isolate yourself.”

“If only for me,” you closed your eyes and sighed, nodding as your cheek dragged against his arm.

anonymous asked:

Uh.. I am calm? I just asked if you saw the tweet and wondered if anyone else interpreted it like I did.. jeez. (Someone else on your blog just mentioned feeling a sad pang at seeing Mitch third-wheeling it with the boys.. and loads of people have been speculating about Misha's multiple-episode absences lately...) #stillcalm #look #nocaps #orexclamationpoints #ommmmmmmm

People freak put like this every year this time. Everyone think Cas is dying or Misha is fired or something and so they over react to the littlest things. it’s the same every year and the result is gonna be the same as every year - Misha will be in the same amount of episodes as usual and Cas will survive into next season.

Holy crumbs there’s a lot more asks that I never answered than I remembered…

Sorry for everyone who I never replied to– I read them all and I do my best to answer them thoughtfully, but sometimes (especially lately) I don’t have time to respond.

Please don’t take it personally! I still love hearing all your ideas whenever you feel like sharing. :D

I’ve been in a happy committed relationship with my boyfriend for over a year now. I love him to death and would do anything for him as he would for me. lately I started wondering about having a poly relationship with him and I don’t know how to bring it up. We have friends who are in poly relationships so we’re both fine with it but when it would come to us I’m not so sure. I don’t know how to tell him I’ve been thinking about us in that way (being in a poly relationship).

The best way to tell someone anything is clearly, gently, honestly, and with your words. When you two are alone and things are calm, and it seems like a good time to have a serious chat, say “Hey, you know how our friends Harry and Ron and Hermione are poly? Have you ever thought about trying something like that out?”

Think beforehand about what your best case scenario is: do you just want him to be open to the idea so you two can start discussing your own needs and hopes? Do you want him to be open enough to the idea to start taking active steps toward practicing polyamory? Do you just want him to be made aware that you’ve been thinking about this? Identify your goals going in, so you can be clear about what you want from the conversation.

However he responds, make space for that. If he’s totally shut off about it - “Yeah, I can see that it works for them, but it’s never something I’d be interested in” - then you have to decide what to do from there. But your current issue is not knowing how to bring it up, and the answer is just to find a comfortable moment and put it out there for discussion. There’s no secret trick to it!

The norm for me as of late has been getting up at noon but right now it’s 9am and I’m drinking coffee and wow this wasn’t even planned. ☺️

Today I have a lunch date with a friend who I haven’t seen in over a year and ahh I’m so excited to see her. We have so much to catch up on. Also, guys, let me just say that the only reason this is happening is because I reached out! Like, huh, it really is that easy once you come to terms with the fact that the worst thing that can happen is you get rejected and that’s ok.

I think I’m killing it with the whole putting myself out there and saying what I feel rather than waiting for people to come to me thing.

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I’m grateful with all my current followers, don’t get me wrong.
BUT, there are some people just because they leave you this nice compliment and comment that they are big fans, when they just got to see my artwork doesn’t mean that I will draw something for them like nothing. 

That would be drawing something for each follower. There would be no end. I can barely work on personal projects. -sigh- 

Yes, drawing is easy but after years of practice like everything in this world. This “artist” job is being there, checking new references, practicing new styles, trying out new brushes or tools, discover your own style and work on it 24/7. 

You want drawings for free? I suggest you to try drawing, it’s never too late to draw, really, if you are patient enough, with the time you might get to be a great artist! And you probably would understand why we charge for our artworks. 

We are humans that have things to pay and also we like food

That would be all, I guess. 

I have to save myself.... Cole Sprouse imagine.

A/N: So I’ve been feeling down about my situation lately and since I’ve had so many feels about my baby Cole Sprouse, I thought about how I wanted to hear his voice and make all this shit go away. this is my first every imagine, so please be gentle and I hope someone reads it and it somehow puts you at ease if you’re going through the same thing. Cole is visiting for a while, while he’s on break from filming the show.

P.S. This is about a YouTuber Precious Galvan a.k.a PreciousGhettoness


Originally posted by margotmercier96

It was such  busy day at work, Me-N-Ed’s Victory Grill a restaurant in the city where I live (Fresno, Ca). I’ve been working there for almost a year and I still haven’t moved up into becoming a server yet, even though they promised me two months back

Now I know I can’t complain because this is the longest that I’ve held a job and I love almost everybody here and had become a real family which is what I’ve come to love about this place.

“So, how’s my little Precious on this busy night.” my boyfriend Cole surprised me.

“OMG, baby!! When did you get into town? I’ve missed you so much!” I exclaim as I jump into his arms.

“Like five minutes ago, I called here to make sure you were here or not. So I quickly hung up as you said your name.” He answers, as he tries to kiss me.

“Hey, Precious stop kissing your super hot actor and get back to work.” My manager Jose says half-serious.

“okay,” I say as Cole slowly releases me from his grip. “Just one today Sir,” I say to my beautiful boyfriend and turn to my manger smirking. “I’ll put him in VIP so there won’t be any commotion.”

“Fine,” Jose rolls his eyes. Chuckling at us before going off somewhere in the restaurant. Cole just chuckles and puts his arm around my waist. I seat him in VIP which is a small little glass room .

As I set down the menu and close the door behind him, he takes a seat and looks at me ,”Well I’ll just let Aleeya know that she’ll take your order ,K.” I say hugging his head on my chest. “I’m so glad you’re here, I’ve missed you.” I say thanking God that the curtains are closed from the previous guests.

“Me too,” is all he says before kissing me softly.


As the night goes on , I can see that the curtain in VIP has been moved so that Cole is looking at me, which makes me giggle as he does one of his stupid ass faces.

“Hey, Mike I just sat that 8 at table 44, they’re ready for you.” I say looking at my co-worker.

“Can you get started on their drinks for me, I’m barely getting to my 63 girlie, please.” he says as he walks to table 63.

“Sure, like every other table, I got you.” I say as I make my way to 44 greeting and asking for their drinks.

After I’m done handing out the drinks I let them know that Mike will be here shortly to take their order.

As I see the order for one of the big parties is out I offer my help, which Dern, one of the servers, gladly accepts. We take out their wing platters, salads, burgers, sandwiches, and finally three large pizzas.

Then I help Matty buss some tables, since we have a couple of small parties waiting to be seated. As soon as I’m done seating people with the help of my other co-host Marissa, Jose walks up to me and tells me I have to take a 30 since I will be closing tonight. I’m a little relieved because I am hungry and realize Cole is still here. I quickly clock out. (this is literally what goes down at a regular day at work as a host)

As I walk through the door to VIP, Cole is already meeting me with open arms. I set my drink down and in some weird coincidence as if it was supposed to happen , Aleeya walks in with a plate of a beautiful BBQ chicken sandwich cut in half with fries and some ranch. “Made with Love,” she says as sets it down in between us two and leaves us alone, closing the door behind her.

“Thank you so much, I love you.” I say while thrashing into my half, he just laughs at how I’m acting like a starving animal.

“No problem I know how hard you’re working today,” he says biting into his own half. “Like you do everyday.” He stares at me.

“Cole, I know you don’t like how they treat me professional-wise, hell I don’t either, but it’s my job and it’ll have to do for now.” I say right before taking a sip of my raspberry tea.

“I just don’t get how they can treat you like you’re the most hard working person here, but they still wont move you to a server. And I’m not the only one who thinks you deserve the position.” he says protectively. I know that he’s right.

“look this is only temporally until I’ve saved enough money to move to LA, remember. And plus my YouTube channel is kinda taking off right now.” I say pleading he’ll drop the subject. But knowing Cole he wont.

“Yeah now your up to 300 subscribers, Yay.” He says sarcastically. Which he changes as he sees the hurt in my eyes. “I didn’t mean that. I just- I just don’t know why you wont let me help you out with that dream job of yours. We can move you into my place no rent needed.” he says hopefully.

“Cole Mitchell Sprouse, when have you ever known me to just take hand-me-downs. I love how protective you are of me and want to do everything in your power to save me, but you have to understand that I don’t come from a world where everything is right there. I’m starting from the bottom here and I just want to say one day I got there because I earned it, just like you did. I love you but just, just let me do this for me.” I say as I get up. “I’ll see you after I close okay. Thank you and I love you.” I say as I kiss him bye before getting back to work.


We both are now in my dark room, lying down in my bed; me tired from work, him tired from the drive from LA to Fresno. As he sits up staring at me into my eyes as I’m lying on my back staring back at him.

“You know I didn’t think of how you felt about this. I didn’t mean for you to sound like a charity case, you know that.,” he says slightly stoking my cheek, then moving his hand back to my waist.. “It’s jus I know how hard you work there, but I also know that you’d be one of the best actresses I will ever know and love. I just wish the universe felt the same way right now.” He says right before he kisses your forehead.

You sigh know exactly what he meant. “I know that. I love you for just being my cheerleader when needed. And you know I’ll always be your cheerleader when you need me to be. It’s just that my time to become everything I’ve always wanted is still a long way ahead of me then it was for you.” you say sadly smiling. He nods knowing you are right. “Oh and it wasn’t 300 subscribers, it’s 378!” I say matter of fact. We both chuckle lightly tiredly.

“Well since you do have the day off tomorrow, I would love it if you were actually my personal cheerleader and pull out that cheer outfit from your high school days.” he says stupidly.

“We’ll see about that.” I say as he leans down to have a quick little kissing scene, before he shifts himself back onto my bed, pulling my into the spooning position, and pulling the duvet on top of us. Me smiling because I know damn well I will be in that cheer outfit he loves so much, because I missed everything about him, especially him inside of me.