i have a lot of steve rogers feels

I know everyone’s always talking about Bucky having a mass freak out when he finds out all the dumb shit Steve’s been doing while he was gone but at the same time I feel like the next time Steve jumps out of a plane with no parachute every single other avenger is gonna freak out while Bucky’s just standing there like

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both tony stark and steve rogers
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Okay, but can we take a minute to talk about a Superfamily AU where Steve and Tony adopted Peter as an infant and for the first years of his life, he thinks Pepper is a superhero?  

Hear me out.  So, an offhand comment by Steve or Tony about Pepper being the real superhero for getting one of them to do…something and Peter overhears it and spends many of his formative years trying to figure out what Pepper’s powers are and to catch her in the act of using them.  Everyone thinks it’s adorable that Peter’s started following Pepper around because, “aw, kid’s got a crush,” and that is not what he’s spying on Pepper; he wants to see her fly - and if he’s good, maybe she’ll take him flying, too, since Tony is clearly “the Worst Dad In The World” and won’t take him flying in the suit.  (Sweet spiderling, how you hurt your father.  Steve spends the better part of an hour convincing Tony that he’s an awesome dad and also, their kid is so Extra, like his little four year-old ass actually stormed out of the room.  Like flung his head and stormed out because is so Tony’s kid.)

Anyway, so Peter doesn’t have a crush (he totally has a little boy crush on Pepper; it’s adorable); he’s doing recon.  He just knows Aunt Pepper is gonna pick up her car when her she drops her fancy pen and it rolls under the car.  She doesn’t.  Peter starts to think maybe she can sense when other people are near.  Maybe that’s he super power.  Maybe she can read minds.  

So, little Peter spent a lot of time thinking Pepper (and also trying to figure out her secret super hero identity because surely she had to have one.  You don’t just have powers and not use them to help people.) was a cape-wearing, car-lifting, mind-reading superhero who just happened to fly way below the radar.

Ofc, when he’s older, he gets what his dads were talking about, but he stills thinks she’s a superhero anyway when she can bully Tony out of the lab and to the dinner table when even Steve can’t manage it.  

Enter Civil War.  (I have given this A LOT of thought.)  Basically, Peter’s dads are off in another country getting a divorce and Peter is Just. Not. Having It.  He convinces Happy that he needs to go to Romania because my dads, Happy and Happy can’t help it.  He sort of agrees with the kid.  Plus, he’s always had a soft spot for Pete.  (Happy is at home with Peter because there is no one Tony trusts more to protect his kid than Happy Hogan.)  So Happy smuggles them to Romania somehow and Peter gets there just in time to see the mayhem Steve and co. unleash on Romanian rush hour.  

Happy had sort of explained what was going on, done his best not make anyone a bad guy.  Just explain that there these superhero accords and his dads were totally on different sides of the fence, and yeah, they’re fighting pretty bad this time, kiddo.  I won’t lie to you.  

So Peter shows up to all of this and his dad is arrested and so is Uncle Sam and huh, that’s this Bucky guy his dad keeps telling him about.  He doesn’t look that impress - holy shit, he’s got a metal arm!  He is totally going to be the cool uncle!  He’s not telling Uncle Sam or Uncle Rhodey that, though.  Yeah.  But that’s not the important thing right now.  The important thing is his dad is kind of a dumbass right now and he needs to got and Talk To Him.

So, he sneaks in to where Steve is (he got really got at sneaking when he was tailing Pepper all those years) and is that the weird cat guy?  That guy is so weird.  Who dresses up like a cat?  Who does that?  Peter kind of gives him a side eye and a wide berth because really.  (*Also, fuck you, too, Peter, I would totally dress up as a cat.  T’Challa and I could be cat superhero friends and it would be awesome.)  But there’s Uncle Sam, complaining about his “bird costume” (ha, a bird costume.  Peter is never letting that one go.) and there’s his dad looking stubborn and like he’s about to do something stupid.  Again.  Peter’s gotten good at reading those looks on his dad’s face because Steve does a lot of stupid shit like jumping out of planes without a parachute and jumping out of glass elevators without parachutes and also eating the whole breakfast Peter made him and Tony for Father’s Day when he was four.  Tony had eyed it skeptically and promptly distracted Peter while Steve his dumb face and ate all of it.  (Tony tried really hard to feel bad for him, but “you ate it! i can’t believe you ate it!  and also “i thought super soldiers couldn’t get food poisoning.”)

But right.  Dad’s about to do a Dumb Thing.  So Peter marches in all business, all serious and gives Steve his best Dad Face.  Or more accurately, Steve’s best I Am So Disappointed In You Dad Face.  He even crosses his arms and shakes his head a little.  Then he opens his mouth and what he says is:

“I’m calling Pepper.”

And thus, Civil War was averted because Pepper shut that shit the fuck down while she and Peter both gave everyone Very Disappointed In All Of You faces.  

I feel like this could be a 5 Times fic.  Five Times Peter Thought Pepper Had Secret Superpowers and One Time She Really Did.  

Other things to consider:

- Spider-Man was an embarrassing nickname his dads gave him when he was a baby because he crawled all over everything.  Steve used to joke that he was waiting for the door when Peter learned how to crawl onto the walls.  Oops.  Careful what you wish for.  That’s the first thing that gives his whole Friendly Neighborhood Spider-man gig away because really, Pete?  It’s like you took out a billboard ad in Times Square.  

- Tony takes Peter to his first day of school in the suit because he’s weak to those eyes.

- Steve is weirdly obsessed with his health and is always ready to take him to the doctor at a moment’s notice and “it’s just a cold, Dad.  I’m fine, oh my god.”  (Steve always sits up with him when he’s sick, though, no matter how old he is and 15 year-old Peter still secretly loves that his dad will make him soup and bring him a warm washcloth for “just a cold.”)

- Steve and Tony are absolutely those embarrassing dads who show up to every school event ever with Peter Parker Fan Club t-shirts and cheer obnoxiously loudly and yell out “that’s my son!”  They are the worst.

Basically, Superfamily and Pepper.  I have so many thoughts about superfamily.

Thor and Pikachu have something in common.

Steve Rogers was born with the shield. The serum just added wings to him.

Vision and his long-lost puppy.


Avengers and Pokemon drawings.
I had a lot of fun.

As I found that Cubone lost his mother and was traumatized by the experience like Tony, I add this comment. I didn’t know the story of Cubone when I drew it since I primarily used visual cues and/or abilities of the Pokemons for the match. Maybe someone who wears a helmet has a past that makes him wear it with which he can have power to move forward.
Tony would take good care of Cubone as he knows what kind of feeling the event gives.

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Tony Stark just barely convincing Ross to give him and Natasha a chance to fix things instead of going after his fellow Avengers with “boys and bullets.”

I need to talk about this scene, and how it illustrates why I have genuine BAFFLEMENT that people want to convince me that Tony Stark cares about no one but himself.

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So let’s talk about Bi Steve Rogers.
  • He’s always been casually bi
  • Always been pretty obvious about it by media standards but The Straights™ never noticed
  • The lgbt+ community all took notice but didn’t wanna say anything in case the first avenger was actually really homophobic and would get mad
  • Then one of those shitty homophobic news stations starts talking about the rumours and how they are ridiculous because Steve is an American hero and knows traditional values and all that jazz
  • When he hears about this he decides he wants to come out
  • He researches ways to come out but all the tips he finds are for small scale situations
  • While searching he comes across dates for nyc pride
  • He calls Natasha to tell her
  • She totally supports him but warns him of media backlash and being careful and all that stuff
  • And so, a few weeks later Steve is getting ready to go to his first pride parade
  • He painted over his eyes with the bi pride colors and wore a t-shirt of his shield with a bi color pallette that he found online
  • When he gets there he immediately starts smiling??? Like, he can’t stop grinning??     
  • At first no one notices it’s him because face paint and huge crowds
  • But then he finds a group of people waving bi flags around on a float and walks over
  • He starts talking to one of the girls walking next to it and about 30 seconds into their conversation she realises she’s talking to Captain America and has a mini heart attack
  • She wanted to make sure so she quietly asks his name and he happily tells her his full name
  • She almost screams but instead thanks him for everything he’s done and asks him why he’s here
  • “Well, I’m bisexual and I saw some guy on the tv talking about how there’s no way I like boys because I know ‘traditional values’ or something like that, so I decided to come to pride. Just to prove them wrong.”
  • She asks if he wants to talk to the group leader about making an announcement and he very excitedly says yes
  • She brings a man with his hair dyed blue, pink, and purple and a flag tied around his shoulders over and he gasps before going to shake Steve’s hand
  • The man brings Steve up onto the float and hands him a megaphone
  • They check around for cameras near them and once they were sure that someone would get it on camera Steve started talking
  • He basically just said he was bi as hell and loved girls AND boys, along with a little undertone of “fuck the media and it’s heteronormativity” mixed in
  • The news goes crazy within half an hour
  • When Steve gets back home he immediately contacts the news outlet that caused this whole debacle and asked if they would have him on the show
  • Obviously they said yes because who says no to a war hero
  • They try to keep the interview on the topic of his achievements but he keeps bringing up people he hooked up with during that time period
  • The first one he talked about was a girl so they were relieved
  • Most people thought the video from pride was a hoax and it was just someone claiming to be Steve and hum talking about a girl made the interviewer feel like it really was a hoax
  • But then he starts talking about the time him and Howard Stark made out in the back room of his lab and laughing about it
  • That’s when the interviewer decided to just ask him outright whether he really was in that video
  • “Yeah, that was me. Of course it was.”
  • The interviewer is baffled and mildly offended
  • “Why would you do something like that?” He asked in a way that made it seem like some huge scandal
  • “I saw someone on the news, this channel to be exact, try to disprove rumors about me being gay. Which I’m not, by the way, so at least you were half right. I’m bisexual. That means I’m attracted to both men and women.”
  • “That’s not possible.”
  • “Sure it is! It’s stars and stripes, not one or the other isn’t it?”
  • The internet has a fit
  • The lgbt+ community has never felt more alive honestly
  • Steve goes to every pride he can and talks to younger kids
  • He went on Ellen and talked about his experiences as a bisexual man in the 40’s
  • Mostly he just said he spent most of his younger years either fighting someone or crushing on someone
  • On the twitter account Tony helped him make he constantly tries his best to help out anyone who is feeling unsafe or unsure about their identity
  • Donates to lgbt+ charities
  • Probably starts a group that helps lgbt+ kids who have no place to stay by building group homes that have materials/resources specifically for them
  • So many bi jokes
  • Like any bi pun you could possibly think of he has made
  • Really helped a lot of people feel better and learn to accept themselves/others because of his openness and sheer willpower
  • Just, bi Steve Rogers being a pure force in the universe

can i get captain dad tho like i live for irondad but consider this: irondad and captain dad reuniting the avengers with the sole purpose of co-superhero-parenting their son peter parker. tony is the one peter goes to when he needs someone to help him with decisions he can’t make on his own and steve is the one he goes to when he needs a really good listening ear. tony he goes to with school problems and steve he goes to with bully problems. captain dad and irondad and aunt may are the three best parents alive

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“Will they just go and get a room, or, I don’t know, just go get married?”

“They still insist they are just friends.”

“…I am so done with them.“

“Yeah.”

Sorry as their heads are too big so I cannot find a way to let Steve standing on Tony’s boot (without kissing Tony in the process) so please ignore that bug XDDD


A fluffy Stony short comic for all of you and as a little celebration heehee

MY TUMBLR HAVE REACHED 1,000 FOLLOWERS!!! THANKS FOR FOLLOWING ME!!! I have never thought it is possible when I start drawing! Thanks for putting up with all my babbling and complains and all the silly fluffy ideasXD And I can’t say enough thank yous to all the likes, reblogs and especially the kind and encouraging messages, they all mean a lot to me and I would re-read the messages you sent me when I am upset, and I always feel a lot better after that ;D

Thank you, again, and I hope you would enjoy the Stony arts as much as I do! (*´▽`*)✿ Hail Stony!!!

Masterlist

I Don’t write smut, so nothing on this list is smut.


Peter Parker x reader:

Kiss Her

Splitting Up

Wouldn’t Miss It    

Nice

You’re My Favorite Superhero!

Fanfic Writer

Beautiful

Detention

I Think She Has A Broken Arm

I Love You

We’re Here For You

I Dance Way Better Than That

Good Excuses

You can’t tell anyone

Tale as old as time

First Dates

May’s going to love this

Stalker PT2

Stalker

Lightsabers

I’m Spider-Man

Healing Powers

Cheek kisses

Tracking devices

Today Should Be Interesting

Rumors PT2

Rumors PT1

Family Dinner

That’s My Shirt

More than Just An Apology PT2

More Than Just An Apology

Jealous

Is Spider-man Ticklish?

I Need You

We’re Going Out

Helpless Part 1

Helpless Part 2

Who?

Can I Sit With You?

An Unexpected Friend

Ballet Class With Peter Parker

It’s a Date

Remember The Plan

Saturday Morning With Peter Parker

That Was You?

Me Too

I Don’t Usually Cry

Mystery Girl Part 1

Mystery Girl Part 2

Mystery Girl Part 3

Mystery Girl Part 4

Headcanons:

Dancing W/ Peter Parker

Being short and dating Peter would include..

Playing video-games with Peter would include


Avengers x Reader:

Final Exams

Talent Show. Don’t even read this one it’s so bad I don’t even know.

I Think She’s Just Clumsy

Sure Enough

Hey Look It’s Captain Average!

No title for this one because.. Idk


Tony Stark x reader:

Allergies

You’re Gonna Have To Mess With Me First 

You’re So Old!

Y/N Stark


Bucky Barnes x Reader:

I like this bird

These Are Amazing!

It’s Just A Watermelon            


Tom Holland x Reader:

Having A Bit Of Fun     


Thor x Reader

Childhood Friends


Steve Rogers x Reader:

NO

Surprise!!


Sam Wilson x Reader:

Our song


Clint Barton  x Reader:

PDA


Loki x Reader:

Pranks

I Guess I Rule Asgard Now            


Wanda Maximoff x Reader:

You’re Sweet


Scott Lang x Reader:

Sneaking Out


Sherlock x Reader

Goodnight

It’s Not Enough

It’s You

Musician Wars

He Had It Coming

Violin

Bored

Good Luck

Unexpected

I Don’t Feel Like It        

Let’s Go       

Apologies                


Whew I write a lot.

So I’m willing to write more for any of these character except for Tom Holland. Just because I don’t really like writing for actually actors.

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“I think they’re both wounded warriors who don’t bleed on other people. Cap has no one to bleed on. I think Sam knows how to handle people like that. … Sometimes when things are bad, trusting a stranger is the way to go.” - Chris Evans.

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My second collaboration for the CapReverseBigBang2017 !!! I’ve had the joy to have to very different stories written for my pic, so I personalized it to fit each story. @themastersbeard wrote Some sunny day , a very poignant and nostalgic story about recovery, and moving forward with all the pieces your life is made of. The historical details and research that went into this gives Steve’s and Bucky’s past a tangible feel that I truly loved. Thanks a lot @themastersbeard for this great story !!! And for giving me the opportunity to draw Bucky as Carmen Miranda, something i’d never have thought of myself ;p 

Afraid

Request: Hey! I was wondering if I could request something? Lately ive been having a lot of anxiety attacks about myself, like self doubt and i feel v insecure and afraid and i was wondering if you could do an imagine or something about the reader having these anxiety attacks and bucky comforting and helping them get through the attack?? Idk if that makes sense. But thanks for reading this I love your blog bye - @lovelyttom

Note: yikes the title .. also, I’m sorry if it’s too short :( I hope your anxiety gets better, that you realize how strong you are, and that you overcome whatever obstacle life puts you through, darlin’! I love you all so much and my ask box is open for anyone who needs to talk! .c

Originally posted by lovelynemesis


All morning, Bucky had been worried about you. You didn’t show up for breakfast, training, or the meeting Steve had scheduled two days prior. It wasn’t like you to not show up and it worried Bucky to no end. Throughout the meeting he kept glancing at the door, waiting for you to hurriedly race in, apologizing for sleeping in late.

But when you hadn’t shown up after two hours, Bucky rushed out of his chair when Steve dismissed everyone and made his way to your bedroom. The only thing on his mind was making sure you’re okay.

Inside your bedroom, you were sitting in a corner, bawling your eyes out. Your anxiety was through the roof. You thought about how horribly you’ve been feeling lately, every reason why; self-doubt weighed down your shoulders and you couldn’t think about anything except your flaws. 

You were crying into your arms as you held your knees to your chest, rocking back and forth. Everything came crashing down on top of you as you soon as you woke up. It started with one small thought, then it went downhill from there. You figured a nice, warm shower would help. But when it didn’t, you felt hopeless.

A light knock startled you and you picked your head up to look at your door. You couldn’t find your voice so you hoped they would forget about you and just leave. But the man behind the door was not one to give up, especially on you. After three more knocks, you invited them in and wiped at your cheeks,having no energy to move from your spot.

Bucky slowly opened your door, nervous to see the state you were in. When his eyes landed on you, he felt relieved – but it was short lived when he looked at your eyes spilling tears and the fact that you were sitting in a corner scared him.

Bucky rushed to your side and his eyebrows creased with worry as he dropped to his knees in front of you. “Y/N, are you okay?” You thought about the question for a moment. Were you okay? No, you absolutely were not okay. You shook your head and let out a sob, covering your mouth so you wouldn’t be too loud. 

“No, no, hey hey hey,” Bucky immediately pulled you onto his lap and closed his arms around your shaking body. You hiccuped with cries and your fingers grasped at Bucky’s grey shirt. You knew your tears were soaking his shoulder but he clearly didn’t mind. He shushed you softly, rubbing your back soothingly.

After a while, Bucky found that that wasn’t helping when your cries got louder and your breathing became too shallow and restricted. It was beginning to scare him and he knew he had to do something.

“Y/N,” His voice was firm, yet gentle. It caught your attention and you looked up at him and pulled away just a tad, waiting for him to continue. “I need you to breathe with me.” Bucky lifted his hand to your cheek, caressing the moistened skin with the pad of his thumb. 

“Can you do that for me, Doll?” You hesitated before nodding, inhaling sharply. Bucky kept his eyes on yours, breathing in slowly. Your lip quivered and your grip on his shirt didn’t let up as you shakily followed his breathing pattern. 

His metal hand rubbed against your back and you felt yourself slowly but surely starting to calm. “That’s it, Doll.” Bucky whispered. Every breath Bucky inhaled, you mirrored. The softness in his eyes distracted you from your thoughts, but only a little bit.

Soon your breathing had gone back to normal, but your crying hadn’t stopped. It was a silent cry and Bucky knew that was the worst kind. It meant that you were still in your mind; your thoughts were screaming at you.

Bucky kept his eyes on you as you calmed down. “Are you feeling better?” He caressed your cheek again and you sniffled, releasing your hold on his shirt. “A little.” You whispered. 

The longer you sat in his lap, the thoughts of how insecure you were surfaced again. Bucky could detect the hitch in your throat and he pressed his lips to your forehead.

“Tell me what’s on your mind, Y/N.” Bucky all but begged, he needed to know what was bothering you so much. He couldn’t stand to see you hurting like this. Your eyebrows knit together and Bucky wanted to smooth the wrinkles out but refrained from doing so.

You licked your dry lips and took a steady breath. “My anxiety is so terrible and- I’m not-” You shook your head as if that would magically help silence your thoughts and squeezed your eyes shut, trying to hold in your sobs this time.

Bucky nodded his head gently and wiped a tear that fell down your cheek before pulling you into a hug. You clung to him. “You’re so strong, sweetheart. Please remember that.” He whispered into your hair, closing his eyes. He felt guilty for not coming to you sooner.

“I just feel so…so afraid. It’s like no matter what I do, it’s not good enough.” Your voice cracked and you sounded so hurt, it started to break Bucky’s heart even more. He couldn’t believe what you just told him, but he kept his reaction buried. 

If anything, everything you did was more than good enough. You brought a smile to everyone’s face, picked up slack when you noticed it, you were friendly and so kind to everyone you meet.

“You’re good enough, I promise you that. And so, so beautiful. It’s okay to cry, to let it out. I’m sorry you’ve been dealing with this alone, but I’m here now, okay? I’ll help you the best I can.” Your eyes watered after Bucky finished speaking and you felt the lump in your throat forming again. 

“Thank you, Bucky.” You sank into him and sighed softly, finally feeling like you could relax. Bucky held you close, rubbing your back once again.

You felt safe in his arms. As long as you had someone to go to that’s willing to help, you felt that maybe you’d finally be okay.

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aggressively queer steve rogers (the remix)

steve rogers coming home bloody and bruised from school and asking his mother what ‘queer’ and ‘fairy’ mean. sarah carefully explaining as she bandages up her child and watching as his lips twist and fists clench in anger. 

steve telling bucky, twelve years old and already so certain of who he is, skinned knees and bloody mouth and bracing for a punch that doesn’t come. instead bucky grins down at him and slings his arm around his bony shoulders and teases “always gotta make everything more difficult for yourself, don’t you rogers?”

sarah rogers taking steve to protests and rallies, to lunch at Ms. Kitty’s in Harlem, to meetings for communists and atheists and anti-war activists. sarah snapping at the women down at the shops who whisper about “that rogers boy”. sarah stops going to lunch with the ladies from church because steve didn’t inherit his anger from his father and sarah rogers does not forgive and she does not forget. 

the priest gave up on the rogers family long ago.

steve rogers meeting a tall black woman named iisa and falling head-over-heels in love for the first time in his life with her loud laughter and wicked smile. she teases him with whispered words exchanged between bodies pressed tight and when she’s beaten to death outside a dance hall for who she is and who people think she should be steve knows that no one will ever be held responsible. he sobs his pain and anger into bucky’s chest and finds he is capable of hatred. 

steve watching peggy carter knock down a recruit, talk back to and take abuse from her superiors in turn, ignore the hissed words of american soldiers who haven’t seen half the death she has. steve telling peggy that he ain’t fussed about the gender of his bed partners with chin jutting out and even big he still holds himself like he’s about to be knocked down. peggy grins and laughs and pulls him down into a kiss and for the second time in his life steve rogers falls in love. 

steve rogers waking up in the 21st century and discovering that everything he was has been washed away by time, all that remains of steve rogers an empty grave and his face plastered to a persona that is not his own. all those history books and they only tell the story of captain america. 

SHIELD is lax in the face of the man they think they know until the first press conference after the battle of new york when steve has to be escorted off the stage after cussing out a reporter for five minutes straight. steve starting fights and getting slammed to the ground by the police and spending days in jail and natasha grins as she bails him out again and again. steve shocking the world by refusing to curtail himself to their expectations because steve rogers is fire and rage and even 70 years in ice couldn’t temper who. he. is.  

steve seeing a man jogging around the park in DC and feeling a hot flash of want that he hasn’t felt since peggy. steve rogers saying “on your left” as he flies past him, grinning when the man calls back at him. 

aggressively queer steve rogers.

A Messed Up Place | Four

Pairings: Bucky x Reader || Steve x Reader

Summary: Bucky sees something that leaves him shaken up and makes some bad decisions after. 

Warnings: One mention of sex, alcohol abuse, a lot of swearing. BUCKY FEELS SHIT ABOUT HIMSELF – and the language of the chapter reflects this.

Notes: Written for @hellomissmabel. Y’all like angst, right? Because I’m feeding it to you by the bucketload. 

and random, but: sorry that things keep happening in the kitchen. idk, I just have an obsession with kitchens, i guess?? Also, sorry if there are any typos. Didn’t really have a proper read-through of this. 

AMUP Masterlist

True to your word, the day after your date with Steve, you come in search of Bucky in order to have a chat. Despite the fact that Bucky is expecting it, an uneasy sense of dread settles in his gut all the same.

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“Buried” (Chapter Two)

Welcome back!
This chapter is pretty heavy on the Tony/Pepper feels, we get to learn more about Tony’s relationship with Howard, and how he has been living his life. Sorry if it is a little boring?

If you would like to be tagged in upcoming chapters please drop a note in my ask box!!! I’m legit the worst about checking private messages/comments and remembering who asked! Also, if I missed tagging you… so sorry, just let me know!

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Present Day

“Tony.” Pepper knocked on his office door as warning before pushing it open. “I’m assuming you’re decent because you didn’t say anything, so please quickly correct me if I’m wrong.”

“Pepper, darling, when was the last time you walked in on me in a compromising situation?” Tony asked without even looking up from the paperwork on his desk.

The pretty redhead opened her mouth to list off all the times she had walked in on her boss doing something indecent– but then stopped when she realized she didn’t have a single incident that was sooner than six months ago.

“I stand corrected.” She said cautiously and made her way around the desk to feel his forehead. “Are you feeling alright? When was the last time you ate?”

“Um, yesterday.” Tony set the file aside and leaned into her touch a little more. “Just trying to slog through all this crap. I had no idea… no idea what Dad did everyday in this office. I wish I would have been paying more attention when he tried to show me. Wish I would have been doing this all year instead of… instead of doing what I did.”

“What you did?” Satisfied that Tony wasn’t sick, and after texting a quick order for delivery so he would have food to eat, Pepper perched on his desk, rubbing at his shoulders comfortingly. “Tony, no one blames you for reacting the way you did to losing your parents. First your sweet mother in the accident, and then Howard only a few months later? Honey, no one blames you for going a little off the rails.”

“A little off the rails.” Tony laughed bitterly. “I spent six months partying and drinking and high as hell, Pep. Everyone should blame me for that. I blame me for that. What was I thinking? I had a company to run, and instead I was doing body shots off of girls named after…colors.”

“Colors?” Pepper asked, even as she told herself not to, because it had never worked out in her favor to ask for specifics about Tony’s women.

“Yeah.” Tony groaned. “You know. Ruby. Sapphire. Tangerine. Um… one called Peaches?”

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And another thing

Why does Steve have monopoly over Peggy Carter? Because she is his ‘love interest’? You mean to tell me that in the seventy years Steve was gone, Peggy, who was one of Howard’s closest friends, wasn’t a part of Tony’s life growing up?

Give me Tony Stark growing up with Aunt Peggy only a phone call away, who was his confidant and mentor.

Give me Tony Stark growing up an honorary member of the Carter family and growing up in contact with badass cousin Sharon Carter and the extended family/descendants of the Howling Commandos.

Give me Tony Stark who had an extended family of loved ones to help support him when his parents died.

Give me Tony Stark with a network of seriously pissed off Howlies descendants out for blood when Obadiah’s treachery is revealed.

Give me Tony Stark making sure his Aunt Peggy had the best care money could buy and visiting whenever he could.

Give me Peggy in her lucid moments reading Steve the riot act for misjudging her favourite nephew

Give me Tony Stark and Sharon Carter as lifelong friends. Give me Sharon coming round for regular bitchfests with a side order of tequila and trying out gadgets in Tony’s workshop.

Give me Sharon Carter who shuts down Fury’s attempt to plant Natasha in Stark Industries and when he fights it she threatens to put ex-Director Carter on the line.

He shuts up.

Give me Tony Stark and Sharon Carter at Peggy’s funeral talking about their Aunt Peggy and everything she worked so hard to build and everything she did for them.

Also give me Sharon Carter who is no one’s token love interest, who didn’t tell Steve who she was because actually it’s no one’s business.

Give me Steve Rogers who realises he isn’t the only person who knows and loves Peggy Carter and respects their viewpoints instead of using her words to justify tearing apart the avengers and the remnants of SHIELD, everything she dedicated her life to building.

“I don’t like having silly surface discussions. A lot of times that’s required in this business. That’s when the social anxiety kicks in. When you feel kind of un-invested, like you’re playing some sort of game you know you shouldn’t be playing. You’re making just more noise, and more trash, and almost selling something, and nothing of this is clean. It’s all a river of garbage.”

Never Will I Ever

Summary: You’d waited years to get your soulmark, and when you finally did you realized that you’d never get to meet him.

Word count: 2284

Pairing: Steve Rogers x Reader

Genre: Angst with a happy ending

Warnings: Angsty

Author’s Note: So this was an idea that I’d had anyway BUT it wasn’t in the plans to be out anytime soon. However, yesterday I found myself on the receiving end of some hate, telling me to give up on writing because I wasn’t good and that I should delete my blog. Instead it fueled me to write this. So, to that anon, thanks for the motivation! And a big thank you to all of you who have been very supportive, it means a lot. Now, I feel like this started out strong but got a little weak near the end, for that I apologize, its 5am and I’m tired…If anyone wants a part 2 let me know and I can absolutely do it.

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Stand By You

Summary: All your life, you’ve lived in the shadow of your stepsister, Serena. Now that you’ve established a life for yourself, Serena prances back into her life and tried to steal Steve, your crush, away from you. Just how much can you take?

A/N: This imagine reflects how I feel (minus the stepsister part because I don’t have a stepsister). I feel discouraged by a lot of people in my life, and my father and I aren’t really the best of friends. I consider myself someone who stands up for herself, but it gets real hard when I don’t have anyone backing me up. Low-key wish I didn’t have to stand up for myself all the time. Hopefully none of you feel this way. Happy reading!

Word count: 3,256.

Pairing: Steve Rogers x Reader.


You stepsister, Serena, had a way of making things about herself. 

First, it was moving into your house. Your father had remarried a few years after losing your mother and slowly, his life revolved around around pleasing his new family. It didn’t help that he was a renowned businessman, meaning his time with you was already short, but Serena had a way of making sure he spent more time with her and less with you.

Then, it was during high school. She bloomed pretty quickly and her breasts grew in. The boys wanted to be her boyfriend and the girls wanted to be her best friend. Eventually, all your friends left you to become part of her posse and your father told you it was just a phase. You felt isolated. Your father and stepmother attended her cheerleading events, but didn’t attend your science fairs. They took her out to buy makeup and shop for clothes in Beverly Hills, but never took you to museums or saw you off when you flew to England for a science internship for a summer. Your father handed you a wad of cash whenever you wanted to take part in science-enrichment programs and never bothered to get to know your interests. 

Serena didn’t bother to get to know you either. You observed how Serena used her words and assets to get what she wants. Teenagers alike knew she was beautiful and rich, and it automatically made her the most popular girl in school. With her parents, she batted her eyelashes and played the helpless girl who needed help. They turned to you, asking you to pick her up when she got drunk, asking you to do things for her when you hung out with your friends, and asked you to give up your free time to do whatever Serena wanted. 

The last straw, however, was in college. She had already undermined your intelligence and you were grateful that you both went to separate colleges. You had been accepted into one of the best universities in the nation, far away from your home. New York had become part of your identity and you weren’t about to let that go. 

Your built a life for yourself. You had friends, a boyfriend, and a scholarship. However, your family flew themselves to New York for an impromptu vacation and asked you and you boyfriend to join. You were hesitant, but your father wanted to meet the man in your life. Long story short, you found Serena locking lips with your boyfriend and they ended up dating for a few months after that. Your father and stepmother hadn’t said anything about it and you were tired of no one defending you. You wished with all you heart that you had Serena’s confidence and the will to stand up to her, but you couldn’t. Who would back you up? 

Soon after college, Tony Stark had hired you as his co-lab partner. You were tasked with helping develop his suit as well as other things for him and the Avengers. 

Steve had grown on you and you could feel yourself crushing hard. He first caught your attention when he defended you from a stuck-up secretary who wouldn’t let you onto the Avenger floor because you forgot your ID, despite giving you her worker’s code, something every employee had. Steve came to your rescue and told her you were with him. She mumbled an apology and let you both in. 

Since then, you had been a mess whenever Steve came around. You found yourself smiling uncontrollably whenever he was in the room. Natasha and Wanda, whom you gotten to know the most, knew about your crush. They refrained from teasing you, though, and instead encouraged you to talk to him. 

“I can’t do that,” you said as you kept your eyes focused on the project in front of you. “He probably doesn’t even feel the same. He never talks to me unless he needs something.” Natasha rolled her eyes. 

“Y/N, whenever you walk into the room, he’s just as a mess as you are.” 

“I don’t believe that, I really don’t. Can’t Wanda read minds? Read his.” 

Wanda sighed and put her hands on her shoulders. “I could, but that’s invading my friend’s privacy. Everyone can see Steve has a thing for you.” You pushed your glasses up your nose and looked up, smiling gratefully at the girls. 

“I really don’t know what I’d do without you two,” you said. They smiled at you and you were about to say more, but you were interrupted by Bruce. 

“Y/N, I think there’s a Serena and Ethel Williams here to see you?” You groaned and rolled your eyes, Wanda and Natasha, giving you a knowing look. 

“What to they want?” Natasha spat. They knew your background and despised them as much as you did. 

“Let’s find out.” 

You stood up and followed Bruce out the door. Your heels clicked against the floor and you unbuttoned your lab coat. You put your coat away and greeted the pair.

“Y/N!” she yelled as she gave you a hug. You were taken back. She had never shown you this much affection before. 

“Hello?” she pulled away and you saw the rest of the Avengers standing around the both of you, and you put two and two together. 

“It’s so good to see you! Wow, I can’t believe you work beside the Avengers!” You grimaced, but smiled anyway. 

“I do. What brings you to New York?” 

“I moved here, silly! Didn’t dad tell you? He got me a modeling contract.” You resisted the urge to roll your eyes. 

“I didn’t know that. Welcome to New York.” 

“Serena, Ethel. Why don’t you both make yourselves comfortable?” Tony invited. “Any family of Y/N’s is a family to us.” 

“Great!” Serena squealed as Tony led her to a room. You huffed and Sam whistled. 

“Damn. An ass like that can get me to do anything.” You glared at him. “Was it something I said?” 

“Don’t,” you warned. 

Your father followed closely behind them and apologized for being late. 

“Sorry, I got held up with a call. It’s nice seeing you again, Y/N. I thought you wanted to become an actress? Why are you working as a secretary?” 

“When I was five, dad,” you said. You walked towards him to give him a hug, but he just smiled when he saw Serena behind you and walked passed you. You frowned and Bucky seemed to have caught on. 

“You okay?” he asked. You gulped and nodded. You looked around for Steve, but noticed he had followed Serena and Ethel to help them get situated. 

“I really don’t know what I did to deserve this,” you muttered. Bucky furrowed his eyebrows and Natasha ran to your side, pulling you in an embrace. 

“You’re such an angel and you really don’t deserve this,” she said. 

“Aren’t you happy to see your family?” Bucky asked. You looked at Bucky and he backed off, fully knowing when you got mad. 


Serena had taken over your life, once again. She tried to make friends with Natasha and Wanda, but they didn’t budge. Tony had to force the pair to go shopping with Serena, much to their dismay. 

But what really got you was Steve. You got the sudden courage to ask Steve out, but every time you were about to, Serena had a way to get Steve’s attention away from you. Every time it had just been the two of alone, she found you and made it so that she had Steve all to herself.

“I can’t believe you made this for me,” Steve joked as he picked up a batch of cookies from the plate. You laughed along with him.

“Technically it was for Natasha, but if it makes you happy, then I made this for you.” Steve held your gaze. It happened a lot, the both of you always silent and looking at one another before someone interrupted. This time, it was Serena. 

“Steve! I’ve been looking everywhere for you.” You both broke apart and stared at the blonde. He cleared his throat.

“What did you need?” 

“I was wondering if you wouldn’t mind accompanying me to dinner tonight. My dad has to work and I don’t want to make the reservation go to waste.” 

“Oh, sure,” he said, rubbing the back of his neck. Your eyes fell and Serena smirked in your direction. 

“Great! Pick me up at seven.” She left and you followed suit, leaving Steve alone in the kitchen. 

After that, he kept hanging out with Serena and accompanied her on dates and outings, leaving you int he dust. You had believed Wanda and Natasha, who told you Steve liked you, when you caught him stumbling over his words in front of you. Natasha told him that when he got nervous in front of a girl and stumbled over his words more than usual, he had it bad. But Steve never looked at you twice after he went out with Serena that night and your luck changed for the worse. 

Still, you tried to talk to him, but it seemed that the was always preoccupied between missions, reports, or Serena. You wished and longed to be in Serena’s position, but you had to tell yourself that it would never happen. 


Tonight was the annual Avenger dinner get-together. Tony had insisted Serena come because she had spent a few weeks at the tower, and he felt bad for leaving them behind. 

“No,” you said, when he announced to you that they were accompanying tonight. 

“Y/N, I know you’ve had your differences -”

“This isn’t a difference. This is Serena straight up walking into my life and stealing it again.” Tony sighed and rubbed his temples. “Weren’t you the one who told me you believed in me despite my upbringing?” 

“It’s too late, Y/N. I can’t un-invite them.” You sighed and stormed out of the lab, wanting the night to be over. 

The dinner was just as bad as you thought. Steve and Serena sat next to each other and the entire conversation was about her. Not once did Serena bother to mention about anything other than herself. She talked about her high school life, her life in college, and how your father had managed to get her a modelling contract. 

“Oh, wow,” said Bruce. 

“It’s pretty impressive.  My dad had to pay a lot of money because I didn’t go to the casting calls, but I got a contract with IMG Models anyway,” she boasted. “I don’t think Y/N has done anything big yet and I want to be the first person who has done something important.” You raised your eyebrows. Did Serena really just say what you thought she had said? 

“A modelling job, huh?” Natasha said without interest as she sipped her wine. 

“Yeah! I remember Y/N wanted to be an actress, but that didn’t work out, did it?” She laughed and sipped her drink and everyone let out uncomfortable chuckles.

“I don’t think Y/N ever had the guts to pursue her acting career. She never auditioned for the school plays,” your stepmother joked. 

“I don’t think she even stepped out of her room,” your father joined in. 

You were tired of being belittled. Abruptly, you stood up and put your hands on the table. 

“I’m extremely tired of you three undermining me. I’m tired of you pretending you know me, when you don’t. I wanted to be an actress when I was a child, but I wanted to be scientist when I got to high school. None of you bothered to ask me what I wanted to do and none of you bothered to get to know the person I was. I am an independent woman who does not need your approval and I don’t need to impress you to make me a better person.” 

Natasha and Wanda beamed at you, both giving you two thumbs up. You let a small smile dress your lips and felt proud or finally standing up for yourself. 

“And you know what, Serena?” you said, turning to face her specifically. “I made it as a scientist, working alongside two of the brilliant minds. I’m the one who keeps the world safe and I’m the one who keeps the Avengers safe. I’m the one who keeps you safe. You’re the one who needed someone to do things for you. I got here without daddy’s help.” 

You left the restaurant, not bothered that you had left Tony to pay your bill. You had driven Tony and Steve to the restaurant in Tony’s car, and felt pretty badass as you drove alone in his classic, most prized, red Ferrari.

Back in the restaurant, Steve felt horrible. He hadn’t known that you felt like you always came second your entire life and wanted to punch himself for spending so much time with Serena. Truth be told, he had a crush on you, but thought you didn’t reciprocate your feelings and sought Serena as a surrogate. 

“Well that was rude,” Serena said to break the silence. Natasha and Wanda looked at her.

“I don’t really think she was being rude at all,” said Natasha. They both stood up and walked out, following you back to the tower. 

The rest of the team looked baffled, but felt upset that they were imposing on your life as much as your family did. They felt bad for encouraging you to take time off of work to spend time with your family. They sat in uncomfortable silence and tried to finish up the dinner as quickly as possible. 

Steve couldn’t handle it and stood up, wanting to go back to the tower to find you.


You told Natasha and Wanda that you wanted to spend the night alone for a while. At the same time, you were proud that you stood up to your “family,” but you felt upset that you had potentially compromised your job. You decided you’d figure it out in the morning and got ready for bed. 

As you were about to slip underneath the covers, a soft knock came from your door. 

“Come in,” you said, assuming it was either Wanda or Natasha. The door opened and you saw Steve walk in. “Steve, please don’t -”

“Y/N,” he said, cutting you off. He looked at you differently and you sighed, walking towards him and crossed your arms in front of your chest. 

“Can I help you? I’m tired, Steve.” He looked down before meeting your eyes. 

“I’m sorry that you felt that way all your life,” he said, quietly. You pinched the bridge of your nose, tired that your crush didn’t feel the same, tired that you had to explode in front of your friends, and tired that you weren’t getting any sleep. 

“Listen, Steve. You can hang out with whoever you want. I don’t care if you choose to be around Serena and I don’t care what you do with you life. I don’t want anyone’s pity and I don’t want to be the person who causes drama. I’ll leave in the morning if that makes everyone happy.” Steve frowned. 

“No, I don’t want you to leave.” He took a step forward. You didn’t move, but were aware of how much closer you two were. “Natasha told me how you felt about me. I feel the same.” You looked at him.

“You do?” 

“Yeah, I do. I guess I busied myself with Serena because I thought you didn’t like me back. I’m an idiot,” he sighed. 

“You’re the biggest idiot, Steve.” He chuckled when he saw your lips curl upwards. Steve took your hands in his and uncrossed your arms, swaying them back and forth. 

“Forget about them. Your family isn’t with them, it’s with us. With me.” He let go of your hands to move them to your neck and used his thumb to caress your jaw. “I want to be the one who loves you. I want to be the one who gets to see your face every morning.” You grinned even wider and forgot why you were angry in the first place. 

Steve let a breath out when he saw you smile. “Look at me, the captain, getting tongue-tied when I’m used to giving orders.” You laughed and closed your eyes, enjoying the feeling of his touch. “Can I kiss you?” 

“I’d never say no to you.” 

Steve laughed and leaned in, pressing his lips to yours. You savoured the moment and tilted your head, wrapping your hands around his waist. He pulled you close and tugged your bottom lip for access, which you granted. Pretty soon, the moment got heated and you pulled away for a breath of air. 

“As much as I love kissing you, Steve, I’m really tired.” Feeling bold, you led him to your bed with one hand. “Stay with me? Just until I fall asleep.” Steve nodded and you wrapped the blankets around the both of you, resting your head atop of his chest. You fell asleep quickly, leaving Steve to admire the person you are. He got the girl.


The next morning, you awoke with Steve’s arms loosely wrapped around you. He awoke as you tried to step out of his grip and you both decided to enter the kitchen together. 

You saw your father, stepmother, and Serena walk with their suitcases in their hands. 

“Where are you off to?” you asked. Serena scoffed. 

“As if you’d want to know.” 

“I don’t, but I thought I’d make nice.” Your father looked at you with regret. 

“Y/N, I-I’m sorry for neglecting you. I guess I didn’t know how to cope with your mother’s and you were doing just fine on your own.” You sighed and awkwardly patted his shoulder before he walked out the door with Ethel. Serena stayed behind for a while. 

“You know, this won’t last forever,” she said. 

“That’s kind of the point of life,” you said. “I won’t work with the Avengers forever, but I sure as hell am going to make this the best damn thing I’ve ever done in my life. 

“You and Steve won’t last forever,” she said with a smirk. You were about to speak up, but Steve beat you to it. 

“Listen, Serena. You can’t go around life thinking everything will be handed to you. I don’t care what you think, but Y/N and I will be just fine. She’s the woman I want to spend the rest of my life with. I’ve had a thing for her ever since she started working here and I’ll always feel the same.” Steve leaned down to press a loving kiss to your lips as Serena stuttered. 

“B-But, Steve we -”

“I don’t care. Leave before I make you.” Serena turned around and rode the elevator down to the first floor. 

“You mean that?” you after as she left. Steve smiled and nodded.

“Every word.” 

Tony walked up to you and gave you a nervous smile. 

“I’m no good with apologies and feelings, and you of all people know that. But I’m sorry for insisting they stay. I hope this doesn’t create a rift between us.” 

You shook your head. “No, it could never. I know apologising isn’t something you’re used to, so thank you.” 

Steve looked down at you lovingly and pressed a kiss to your temple. 

“I ship this,” Wanda said. Bucky fake-gaged. 

“I did too until I realised they’ll be making out in front of us all the time,” he said. You laughed and shrugged as Steve pressed another kiss to your lips.


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