i have a lot of feels about this character

I’m having too many feelings about Arya’s characterization on the show, so here we go:

I feel really, really strongly that D&D decided that Arya was going to be the “Strong Female Character” trope, and they took away all of her…softer character development/relationships and grafted them on to Sansa. It kind of reminds me of book Hermione and Ron vs. movie Hermione and Ron–by removing one character’s flaws and giving them another’s strengths, it shortchanges both.

So let’s just dive right in, shall we?

“I will remember, Your Grace,” said Sansa, though she had always heard that love was a surer route to the people’s loyalty than fear. If I am ever a queen, I’ll make them love me. A Storm of Swords

So, Sansa knows that fear is no way to rule. That’s important. The thing is, this is pretty much the first time we’ve seen this sort of awareness from Sansa. I don’t know that, apart from Joffrey, we’ve seen her worry about gaining the love of others. She gets along well with other lords and ladies, so it’s never really been an issue for her, though at this point in her story, she’s being shunned by the court. Still, it’s interesting to see her realize that she should observe what Cersei does, and then do the opposite of it. 

How do you make people love you–specifically, people you rule? The phrasing of this is interesting, too. “I’ll make them love me.” Make is a forceful word. Compared to later in the series, when the Tyrells bring carts of food to win the love of King’s Landing for Margaery, make implies a certain amount of fear, or compulsion. 

The Bread Riots are the first time Sansa is forced to reckon with the reality of poverty in King’s Landing, and the first time she’s really confronted with the fact that people who have never even met her hate her. In a lot of ways, you could say it’s the first meaningful interaction she’s had with people below her station. She has maids and servants, of course, but up until this point I don’t think Sansa truly comprehends how fortunate she is. She still faces danger in the Red Keep. Any wrong move could result in being beaten and humiliated, but that’s danger of a different sort than starvation or rape or death.

Arya, on the other hand, is, from the beginning, defined by her ability to connect with people who are different than her. Unlike Sansa, who enjoys the people at court, nobles and knights and lords, Arya loves the smallfolk. Blacksmiths and butcher’s boys, cooks and horse masters. Not only is this important enough that Sansa comments on it, it’s so different from Sansa’s own worldview that it is spoken of with derision.

Sansa knew all about the sorts of people Arya liked to talk to: squires and grooms and serving girls, old men and naked children, rough-spoken freeriders of uncertain birth. Arya would make friends with anybody. This Mycah was the worst; a butcher’s boy, thirteen and wild, he slept in the meat wagon and smelled of the slaughtering block. Just the sight of him was enough to make Sansa feel sick, but Arya seemed to prefer his company to hers. Game of Thrones

Everything Arya has done since this observation was made has only driven the point further home. Arya can make friends with anyone–from her tentative friendship with the Hound to her friendships with the Brotherhood to Lady Smallwood–as she continues on her journey, she has started to learn better how to interact with nobility, something Sansa has always excelled at. In Braavos, Arya is quite literally putting herself in someone else’s shoes. 

Cat had made friends along the wharves; porters and mummers, ropemakers and sailmenders, taverners, brewers and bakers and beggars and whores. They bought clams and cockles from her, told her true tales of Braavos and lies about their lives, and laughed at the way she talked when she tried to speak Braavosi. A Feast for Crows

Arya’s ability to make friends isn’t just a casual thing, either. Maybe it’s the wolf in her. Maybe it’s the nobility in her–chivalry in the classical sense–but she protects people. She looks out for others, to the point where she knows she might do better on her own, but they wouldn’t, and she can’t leave them. This holds true for people she knows:

She would make much better time on her own, Arya knew, but she could not leave them. They were her pack, her friends, the only living friends that remained to her, and if not for her they would still be safe at Harrenhal, Gendry sweating at his forge and Hot Pie in the kitchens. A Storm of Swords

“You leave Weasel alone, she’s just scared and hungry is all.” Arya glanced back, but the girl was not following for once. Hot Pie must have grabbed her, like Gendry had told him. 

The roof was gone up too, and things were falling down, pieces of flaming wood and bits of straw and hay. Arya put a hand over her mouth and nose. She couldn’t see the wagon for the smoke, but she could still hear Biter screaming. She crawled toward the sound…Jaqen saw her, but it was too hard to breathe, let alone talk. She threw the axe into the wagon. A Clash of Kings

And people she doesn’t:

“He is not a lord,” a child’s voice put in. “He’s in the Night’s Watch, stupid. From Westeros.” A girl edged into the light, pushing a barrow full of seaweed; a scruffy, skinny creature in big boots, with ragged unwashed hair. “There’s another one down at the Happy Port, singing songs to the Sailor’s Wife,” she informed the two bravos. To Sam she said, “If they ask who is the most beautiful woman in the world, say the Nightingale or else they’ll challenge you….”

…Don’t do that either,” said the barrow girl, “or else they’ll ask for your boots next, and before long you’ll be naked.”
…And suddenly there was a knife in the girl’s left hand, a blade as skinny as she was. The one called Terro said something to his fair-haired friend and the two of them moved off, chuckling at one another. A Feast for Crows

Arya’s training arc in Braavos is simply giving her better tools to do what she has always done: defend people. Superficially, yes, she’s learning how to kill people. The show seems to think this is the most important thing she learned in Braavos, but there’s more to killing people than just killing:

“Are you some butcher of the battlefield, hacking down every man who stands in your way?” A Dance With Dragons

As a Faceless Man in training, Arya is learning discretion, patience, and temperance. Particularly with what she saw as she traveled Westeros, this emphasis on the value of life, and the importance of not taking more than is needed, is pretty profound. 

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100% Sadness 100% Happiness

I’m still so jangled over this Kevin and Sami angle that I don’t even know what to do with myself, honestly.  I’m trying to pour the emotions into writing, but it’s a struggle.  I think part of the difficulty is, well… I know there are a LOT of wonderful intense Sami fans, lots of whom have been his fans for longer than I have, but I think it’s fair to at least say I’m more invested than many wrestling fans in Sami’s character and career.  So where a normal reaction to these events and the worrisome and awesome things going on might be to be 90% happy and 10% sad, or even 90% sad and 10% happy, or 50/50 about them… I feel like I’m running at 100% happy AND 100% sad simultaneously all the time, and it’s just really hard to be running at 200% emotions constantly.  I feel like a car engine being revved WAY beyond its capacity–I’m just a little Volkswagen Beetle fan, I don’t have that much emotional horsepower!

I just spat this out so it’s probably bad

Part of the reason I don’t believe Snape was hanging out with Avery and Mulciber as often as his haters think he was, is because Lily and Snape were best friends. And in my imaginary world for some reason, best friends spend more time with each other, than other friends.

Also, I believe Severus had good inside of him at school. That he probably did good things in school. I mean if you think Lily stuck by him for seven years, despite the rumors she was hearing about him.

Before you say she only stuck by him because she felt sorry for him, or whatever. Lily shows a lot of strength of character. She puts her morals above her feelings. Even if she did have an attraction towards James, she still refused to have anything to do with him, while she saw him as an arrogant bullying toerag.

I strongly believe that if Lily saw nothing good in Severus, she would have ended the friendship long before the mudblood incident. However, she saw something good in Snape and it was the mudblood incident that destroyed her hope.

So I’m going to go down a new road and headcanon good things that Snape did as a teenager that wasn’t in canon because it wasn’t relevant to Harry’s journey. Some of my inspiration has come from actual canon :P Because I’m honestly tired of this Snape had nothing better to do that follow Lily around like a puppy or perform spells on muggleborns bs (which is fanon btw) it’s like what about idk gossip? yes, men “gossip” studying? quidditch? hogsmeade? did Snape ever get detentions? Did he ever get into fights with his housemates over Lily?

A student was hurt by a dark arts object and teenage Snape saved the students life using his prodigious knowledge of the dark arts.

James and Sirius believed he was the one who hurt the student in the first place and that’s how he knew the counterspell. He was only doing it to be seen as a hero. Which we all know isn’t true.

Some Slytherin first years were being hurt by James Potter and his homies. Not as bad as Snape was, of course. Ever since first year Snape has taken students both younger and older than him under his wing and taught them a few of his spells to give them defense options against James and his homies. Not all the spells, of course, because Snape wanted spells that were his secret.

Snape holds study groups for any Slytherin students struggling academically. Lily participates in these study groups and helps them with her best subject “charms”.  Some of the Slytherin’s have no pureblood are da best ideals, so they have no problem with a muggleborn helping them out. Snape helps them out in potions and defense against the dark arts.

James Potter tried to butt in, take over, and push Snape to the side and make out like this was his study session idea the whole time, just so he could be with Lily. “I’m a fair hand at transfigurations.” But Lily was having none of it.  She asked her friends if they needed help with t-fig and they raised their hands and then she said “well James you said you could help them with transfiguration right?” leaving poor James to feel rejected yet again.

Snape creates the potion that kept Lily’s hair beautiful and shiny. Under the condition that she keep the recipe secret. That was ONE of Snape’s  birthday gifts to her.

Avery and Mulciber: I can’t believe you’re friends with a mudblood like her!

Snape: She isn’t a mudblood! Mudbloods are those who try to ruin what makes us wizards great with their muggle rubbish. But Lily isn’t like that at all! Lily values and loves wizarding culture. She isn’t ignorant and she – any way you’ll see!

Snape: Did you think it was funny to use my spell on Mary MacDonald?

Avery: Awww you feeling sorry for a mudblood?

Snape: No! But the spell is mine and if it got back to me then -

Mulciber: But it didn’t get back to you so why are you whining?

Snape: Because – ugh fuck you all! -storms off-

The kind of presents Snape gives Lily for her birthday is anything that can be made with cheap materials.

Both Snape and Lily dressed in Halloween cosplay.

Once a week on school holidays when they have to go home for the summer holidays is book reading night. Because Snape thinks that TV kills brain cells. They read a book and the both of them get into deep discussions about it. Well more like arguments, because Snape doesn’t do discussions.

I’m running out of ideas because this kind of thing isn’t my forte, but my point is I don’t think Snape’s whole school life was dark arts and Lily.

rogue one “everyone lives” au:
  • chirrut teaching luke about jedi lore and philosophy while baze and han roll their eyes and pound space beers in the background
  • bodhi’s face when leia awards him a medal for bravery

  • cassian and han hating each other until they are forced to tag-team in a cantina brawl

  • k-2so and r2d2 making c3po’s life hell

  • jyn joining the pathfinders under kes’s command

  • cassian and shara bey co-infiltrating imperial facilities

  • baze and chewbacca playing dejarik against one another (because everyone else was too afraid)

  • luke and bodhi bonding over flying junkers

  • jyn telling leia about the time she met bail organa

  • lando introducing chirrut to gambling on bespin (”oh, did i win again” “you have to be cheating” “all is as the force wills it”)

  • chirrut and baze helping leia with her grief over alderaan

  • k-2so also being accepted as a deity among the ewoks (the devil)

  • the members of rogue one watching the destruction of the death star from the med bay
Luna Lovegood, Hogwarts Librarian
  • Adds student publications to the catalog- like zines, club minutes, even notes for classes that haven’t much changed in years (Professor Binns, we’re all looking at you.)
    • Adds MUGGLE PUBLICATIONS to the collection
    • It all started with this one kid and a comic book. They may be Luna’s favorite student, ever. 
  • Recording commentary for quidditch matches so that kids who miss them- due to detentions, studying, or just plain anxiety- can hear how it all happened
  • Recording oral accounts of the battle of Hogwarts. 
    • And then on and back as far as she can get anything for. The war, times before that. Even mundane things. 
    • She finally gets the stories of each of the ghosts hanging out. It eases a lot of muggleborns’ minds to know a little bit about these people who are past but not gone. 
  • Making a book that works something like google- all text of everything in the library is recorded, and by speaking a few key words to the book, it will tell you what book(s) you need, what page, where to find them, etc. It will also say “Listen just ask Professor Longbottom about this, I don’t have anything for you” or “our library doesn’t have anything about why you want to kiss girls, Jane, but Miss Lovegood has actual experience with this, why don’t you ask her?”
    • This book, of course, will tell you that the book you want is in the restricted section. It will still tell you exactly what page you need, though, so there’s none of that “welllllllll, it must be in the restricted section, but I don’t know where……” nonsense. It puts a lot of teachers at ease and helps them sort out students who want to Learn and students who want to get in trouble
  • Changes the charms on books from beating students for doodling in them, to calmly explaining why it’s better that you Not doodle in the 500 year old book that is not Yours, Dear
    • Provides doodling supplies so students have an outlet that isn’t 500 years old
  • Spends holidays painting murals on every wall and the ends of the big shelves. She enlists different teachers for sections that apply to their subjects and hobbies for ideas on what to paint. The history section is legendary for depictions of the giant wars and various scenes from Merlin’s life. 
    • (She also enlists students who don’t have anywhere to go over the winter break. The parties in the library are a secret well kept, but only because these kids who have so little deserve something special)
  • The herbology section is actually draped in various vines that, if you ask nicely, will reshelve books for you. Though everyone agrees that if you want the books back where they really belong, it’s best to water the vines. 
  • The library becomes a place to escape, not just study and/or fear for your life
  • McGonagall has pretty much never been more proud of anyone she’s ever hired
  • Luna and Neville and McGonagall have tea every Thursday
    • And other days in between, but Thursday is a set date

Honestly, one of my favorite things about Avatar: The Last Airbender that I don’t see get addressed a lot by the fandom is Iroh’s character arc.  It isn’t as obvious as Zuko’s, mostly because Iroh’s done a lot more living than his nephew and has had a lot more time to grow into the person he is now, but that’s just it.  He wasn’t always the wise old man we see him as by the time of the events of the show.  He was once basically a war criminal who laughed at the prospect of seeing a city burn. He might not have been a cruel man by nature (at least according to Word of God), but he was still fully willing to lay waste to Ba Sing Se.    It was only when Iroh lost his own son that he started to realize that what he was doing was horrible.  That all of the people he’d let die or maybe even actively killed in the Earth Kingdom were people.  That there were a lot of fathers going through the same thing he was, and he’d caused it to happen. And even with his retirement from the military and good works done with the White Lotus, he could never truly make up for it, and he knows that.  

Then along comes Zuko, who’s making all the same mistakes Iroh did all those years ago and who’s so much like the son he let die that it hurts.  I get the feeling that in a strange way, Iroh sees a lot more capacity for good in Zuko than in himself, if only because Zuko is still young and has time to un-learn all the bitterness and violence instilled in him by Ozai.  All of the wisdom he shares with Zuko about having to let go of his pride, about choosing his own path in life rather than adhering to one already chosen for him, and about not letting his judgement be impaired by the passion of the moment, are things he wishes he could told not just the all-too-eager boy soldier Lu Ten, but himself when he’d started out. And if someone as broken and despairing of ever finding his way as Zuko can find peace and some measure of redemption, maybe Iroh can, too.

Suddenly his words to Korra—“Sometimes the best way to solve your own problems is to help someone else.”—make a new kind of sense.

what she says: i love freeze your brain

what she means: If you look at Freeze Your Brain at face value, you could easily interperet it as simply about JD’s fixation on 7/11 and his issues oversharing. But it’s really more about a place that feels normal and familiar and safe in a frightening and new situation. It’s easy to overlook this, as a lot of the song is made to be comedic. Take the lines “When mom was alive/we lived halfway normal./Now it’s just me and my dad,/we’re less formal” for example. During the musical, it’s easy to focus more on Veronica freaking out than on JD’s words and their meaning. This is done intentionally, as if to show that JD hides how hurt he is about his mother’s death with other emotions, as many people do. Towards the end, it is shown that JD uses slushies to control a possible self-harm habit and self-destructive thoughts, and that’s when the gravity of the song hits you. Despite sounding light-hearted, Freeze Your Brain is about a teenager trying to hold onto the one place that makes him feel safe and happy no matter where he is. If you consider the possibility that his mother introduced him to 7/11, it’s also about trying to recapture childhood emotions, despite the fact that so many things have changed.

  • what she says: I'm fine
  • what she means: i can't believe people actually ship nancy with jonathan, because that completely goes against what the writers are trying to do. they set up your basic trope: good girl is trying to be #edgy and is dating your stereotypical "bad boy", and then this "nice guy" comes along and pays attention to her. listen, jonathan is great and all, but i don't trust pretentious creeps that like to take pictures of girls making out with their boyfriends in privacy without anyone's permission. jonathan also tried to put nancy in this box. "you were trying to be someone else." the writers totally destroyed the idea of nancy simply being that straight A student that wants to rebel. she's not dating steve, or drinking, or shooting guns because she thinks she's being "different". she's doing those things because THAT'S WHO SHE IS. you can get straight A's and want to do well in school while also partying and dating a hunk. speaking of the hunk, steve is actually wayyy better for her than jonathan (i mean i'd be happy if nancy decided not to be with anyone but let's be real i'm a total stevexnancy person) and here's why: he paid attention to her, like really noticed things about her. he didn't make fun of who she was in a condescending way, and he also supports her. like, yes, he's problematic in that he has shitty friends and horrible parents (from what we've heard) and while his initial decisions are rude and selfish, he becomes self-aware and tries to make it up to people. i.e., going to jonathan's to try and apologize and buying him a new camera, or coming to nancy to tell her he confessed to the police even though it got him in trouble, or telling his friends where to stick it and then going to help wash off the graffiti. in short, jonathan romanticized this version of nancy that wasn't really all of who she was and people paint him to be this great guy (would you trust a guy that took pictures of you without you knowing, and then only feeling guilty once you found out?) and steve is this beautiful work in progress that wants to understand how nancy works as a person. so basically the fact that the writers didn't leave nancy with jonathan means that they destroyed that basic story line where the "nice girl" leaves the "bad boy" for the "nice guy" and they did it in the best way possible without completely bashing any one character and i just really love this show.

Fun fact: The debt he’s referring to here happened between chapters 310-311. It took him over 200 chapters to repay his debt and he never once forgot about it this whole time.

I’ve talked a bunch about Elthina and Anders, but can I talk about Sebastian for a second? 

Yes, this guy. 

I honestly really like this character, because he manages to embody everything that the Chantry is supposed to be (in a game all about the way the Chantry fails) while also displaying some really serious character flaws of his own. He strives to be kind, loving, and accepting of all people, even those who don’t believe in the Maker. And that’s a big deal in this world, because they’re still at that point where fantasy crusades are a thing that happen against the heathens. 

He openly acknowledges that the Chantry has failed certain populations more than others, and refuses to condemn people who flee to other religions rather than to the Chantry. He instead takes it as a sign that the Chantry should be doing better, and he tries to make it better, even if that means directly confronting his beloved mother figure, Elthina. 

But even with all this desire to do good and be kind, he also has a reoccurring issue with revenge. When someone seriously crosses him, he loses all sense of perspective and resorts to disproportionate violence no matter what his morals say. He goes through all this struggle to deal with the mistakes he made while seeking revenge for his family, trying to learn and be a better person… and then he does it all over again as soon as someone else he loves is killed. 

Sebastian doesn’t get enough appreciation. He’s a character that desperately tries to be good, but will always be dragged down by revenge, much like the very man he vows to kill. 

satanslesbianmother  asked:

I am creating a black female character for a story that takes place in an area where...well, she's surrounded by white people who are almost obsessively politically correct, to the point of enforcing "colorblindness." I feel it's important to her character and to authenticity for her to react to her white friends being intimidated around the subject of race, but I don't want to end up writing the white person's "ideal black response" unintentionally. Any pointers?

Black Girl Living in a “Colorblind” Environment

Hey there,

Wooow, that’s like my entire life over here. Yes, I do have some pointers, but they’ll mostly just be my thoughts and experiences. Not everyone will have the same reactions as I do, but I hope this will help.

Internalized Racism

So I’ll just start by saying this is the perfect breeding ground for internalized racism. It is an everyday thing so subtle, so normalized absolutely every time, that the racism is hardly ever recognized for what it is. If your character is somewhat like me or people I know, they will struggle with the urge to not stand out, try to assimilate into the dominant culture or distance themselves from their culture(s) at the expense of their own identity, feeling the need to compensate and deflect stereotypes. They’ll be gaslit left and right, and replying with anything other than silence or agreement will most of the time start discussions or fights. They might at times feel like they’re living a lie, feel out of place and start questioning themselves. There’s more but you get the gist of it.

Reactions to Environment

Now most reactions will come down to: 

1) completely rejecting the white people and their culture,

2) trying to become like the white people and take on their views, 

3) or social withdrawal. 

What they all have in common is A LOT of unease surrounding your roots, your race and expressing your true self. 

Daily Struggles

There will be a lot of tension and anxiety when matters of race surface, even when they don’t end up mentioned or discussed. Feeling like you don’t belong, that you’ll only be accepted as long as you keep your mouth shut about racism.

Feeling unsafe comes to mind. I imagine your character desperately searching for people who might be different, looking for friends of color online, trying to make sense of their experiences by searching online, that sort of thing. If they do try to express themselves it’s because that person gives them the feeling that they just might be a bit more understanding than others and might get into discussions desperately trying for them to understand them. I imagine them not wanting to be seen as a stereotype while not wanting their race/roots/ethnicity pushed aside. High chances they will be passive aggressive about it because they lack any other meaningful way to express themselves. 

Of course there will be Black and brown people who’re content with assimilating into a culture like this. Good for them. But plenty of people also force themselves to believe that in order to survive. 

That’s what most of it comes down to. Surviving an environment that’s hostile towards you while it masquerades as your dear friend. 

~ Mod Alice

Daily Struggles - Racism & Racial Tension

In middle school, I had this friend. I was telling her a story involving someone else when she asked a strangely-worded question. 

“Did she look like you or me?” 

I was all “huh” until she pointed to my arm, my skin.

“Like you…” She said, then pointed to her own arm. “Or like me?”

I instantly fed off of the race-is-scary vibe and just muttered “Oh, like you…”

I grew up in a slightly less intense version of Alice’s environment, and my experience was passive-aggressive racism (micro-aggressions) with both the micro-aggressions and aggressive racism brushed over and kept low key. (That lady moved her purse when you walked by because she thinks you’ll steal it? Nah, she just needed it to warm her lap!)

I rarely felt the heat of racism. It wasn’t as blatant. Still, it happened in pockets.

Daily “racial tension” would be stares in public because seeing a Black person in the supermarket was a marvel. At school and other frequented places, well, they get used to you, so unless you’re the very new kid, it’s not likely she’d be made awkward on the day-to-day for existing (At least not until slavery is discussed and everyone is turning their heads to stare at her..).

Colorblind Environment and Balancing Culture

Alice hit the main points. Some reject the dominant culture, some embrace it (and may even allow and make race jokes at their own expense to cope) and some withdraw completely. I don’t think anyone fits into any neat category. 

Consider that your character may fall on a scale of embracing her situation, and rejecting some aspects. No one person is the same. 

I think background and home life will affect how she copes in this environment. I moved into my super-white town at a pretty young age, prior to that growing up in a culturally-diverse city and had sisters who did as well. We were able to embrace our culture at home among each other and other family even if that openness could not be experienced with most people in the neighborhood. If I’d been older before I moved, I probably wouldn’t have given a damn a bit more, or rejected more of the environment’s culture, but hey. 

Either way, it’s very possible for her to blend and embrace more than one culture. But how one embraces or how much, depends on the person.

Now, embracing different culture depending on the environment and code-switching doesn’t mean you’re at a cultural crisis or both sides cannot co-exist. For example, while I was made awkward about race in one experience, around that same age and time, I brought a bigger celebration of Black History Month to that same school by approaching administration on the severe lack of it. With permission and the help of friends, we made posters and announcements celebrating prominent Black leaders and inventors. That would not have happened if I didn’t have cultural pride being nourished elsewhere.

In Short

With maturity, self-realization, getting away from that environment and/or connecting with a knowledgeable and accepting group of people comes accepting what living in the dominant culture has made you, and hopefully embracing and not losing the culture you might’ve experienced without its influence.

As always, we’d also recommend having appropriate beta-readers take a look at your story for sensitivity and accuracy.

~Mod Colette

P.S. Based on some responses defending colorblindness as a good thing, which it’s not and is in fact racist (!) I would urge you to research the harms of the colorblind approach and learn of the huge disservice it is to People of Color to ignore the beauty that is diversity and in recognizing cultural differences.

PSA: “Seeing color” isn’t the same as “judging color.” 

Won’t dwell on it here. I do want to quote mod Brei from a different ask

Colorblindness is an act of racism by denying to acknowledge differences. I mean, no one ever says “I don’t see gender” so why apply such ignorance to race?

When did Lucy fall in love with Natsu?

There’s been so many essay-like posts around tumblr talking about when and where Natsu first realised he was in love with Lucy, but I’ve never actually seen any regarding when Lucy’s feelings started. So I thought I’d share my own opinionated theory!

I feel as though Lucy’s feelings for Natsu took a lot longer for her to realise than Natsu’s, so let’s start from the beginning:

Episodes 1-50:

At this point, the story as well as Natsu and Lucy’s relationship is very much in the starting stages; there simply isn’t a whole lot to it. Neither of them have even considered a relationship, especially not with each other. Lucy may have her “knight in shining armour” fantasies, (as we see in ending 1 of the anime), but that is the most we get.

Episode 50:

Episode 50 is where things start to get more interesting.

After the hilarious scenario of Lucy believing Natsu has a crush on her because of Mira’s meddling, she has now become self aware of the fact people mistake her and Natsu as a couple. Because of this, she starts to picture it in her mind and perhaps imagine what it would be like if they were in a relationship.

Again, though, this is still very early stages in their development, so she will continue to deny any sort of feelings for Natsu.

Episode 122:

The Tenrou Island arc in general was a huge step for NaLu’s relationship, especially on Natsu’s part as that was when (as many of us have speculated) he first realised he was in love with Lucy. Sadly, though, Lucy is nowhere near the love stage at this point.

During Acnologia’s attack in episode 122, Lucy is crying because she thinks it’s all over. Naturally Natsu overhears this, and of course the first thing he does is reassure her that it isn’t the end.

Now, I think the look Lucy gives Natsu after saying this is really significant:

This isn’t a look of love or anything, as I said earlier we’re still far from Lucy being in love with Natsu. Rather, this is her beginning to toy with the idea of liking Natsu. In this moment she cannot confidently say “I like Natsu”, but she is far more aware of it, and knows deep down that there is a slight possibility it could happen. However, at this stage she will still continue to deny any feelings for him.

Episode 123-End of Tartaros Arc

I know this is a really big time jump, but the end of Tartaros is where things start to pick up. Throughout this time, Natsu and Lucy’s characters and relationship develops immensely. I’m not going to dish out every example otherwise we’d be here for weeks, but it’s safe to say Lucy’s feelings have begun to develop, although she is still on the fence of “Do I like him” or “Is he just a friend”.

Chapter 468:

I’m going to skip the beginning of the Alvarez arc, because I know we’ve all heard the theories and opinions on Lucy’s angst a million times, and although their relationship does develop, it’s not enough for me to talk about. After all, a lot of those chapters illustrated Natsu’s feelings more than Lucy’s.

Chapter 468 is when Lucy’s feelings take a huge step forward. For those unaware, Natsu had gone off on his own, (with Happy), to try and defeat Zeref, and Lucy has basically spent most of her time worrying about him.

A few chapters later, (Chapter 468), Happy returns to the guild, but Natsu is unconscious, and Lucy’s face says it all:

Then she realises that Natsu’s heart isn’t beating:

And begs Brandish to save him:

Natsu being faced with death is the last thing Lucy would expect from a war. After all, he’s one of the strongest wizards she knows. So for him to be lying there in front of her, unconscious and his heart not beating, Lucy is absolutely terrified.

This, ladies and gentlemen, is the point where Lucy realises that she likes Natsu, because she cannot picture a world without him in it. After over a year of contemplation, she has finally reached the conclusion that she likes her best friend, meaning she would gladly consider a relationship with him, if it weren’t for the current circumstances, of course.

She isn’t in love with him yet, she simply wouldn’t mind the idea of a relationship. Of course she will still deny her feelings because she doesn’t want people to know, after all she’s only just figured it out herself, however you will notice she is definitely less upfront about it:

Of course she gets flustered and blushes over it, however she doesn’t explicitly deny it. Now, this could just be a translation error, I don’t have access to official translations, so please don’t quote me on it, but in this frame she’s simply saying that wasn’t what she meant, not that she isn’t, (as quoted by Ever), “head over heels for him”. See, she isn’t denying that she likes him, but she isn’t exactly singing on the rooftops that she has feelings for him. Remember, this is all still very new to her.

Now, throughout the rest of the Alvarez arc, you can see that Lucy is incredibly protective over Natsu:

This protectiveness is Lucy’s feelings developing more and more. She knows that she likes Natsu, and therefore will now be even more worried about the possibility of losing him, and wants to continuously protect him at all costs, as we can see from the screenshots.

Chapter 545:

Like I said at the beginning of this opinion/theory, Lucy takes a lot longer to comprehend her feelings for Natsu, which is why I believe that she only realises that she is in love with him in the final chapter.

I did a whole other opinion/theory explaining what each NaLu panel in the final chapter means, so I’m not gonna go into loads of detail here. (If you want to read that theory click here #shamelessselfpromo)

ANYWAY, I think the moment Lucy finally realises she loves Natsu is here:

Memories come flooding back to her old jobs with Natsu. All these memories cause this sudden realisation that her feelings for Natsu are far more than just “I like him”. She loves him. She’s spent such a long time toying with her feelings and throwing them back and forth, that shes finally figured out that she can’t keep throwing them around forever. She needs to come to that conclusion and she finally has.

Granted, she has only come to this realisation, so she’s not just going to burst out and say “I love you”, but she does do something equally as meaningful:

She hugs him. I touched on what this hug means in my other theory, so again I’m not going to go into heaps of detail, but I will say this. Lucy is new to romance. As is Natsu. Neither of them are just going to say “I love you” because it just isn’t like them to do something that stereotypical of two people in love. This hug is her way of expressing her love for Natsu.

What happens next is controversial. Every single person has a different opinion on it but I’m just going to say it how I believe it.

Natsu was going to kiss Lucy. You may be asking “well if Lucy loves Natsu why did she stutter and say wait?”. You have to remember and keep in mind that Lucy has only just realised that she is in love with him. Her feelings are all over the place and it is all so new to her. It’s all a big shock and a lot to take in, so of course she’s going to stutter and be all nervous; this is her first time feeling this way about anyone. However, because she is aware that she is in love with him, she doesn’t push him away, she doesn’t try to get out of his grip. Instead, she closes her eyes and opens her mouth. She wants Natsu to kiss her.

Of course we know that there was no kiss, but I think the most important thing here is that she would have gladly accepted the kiss and would not have regretted it, because she is in love with Natsu.

So that’s it! It’s annoying to think that Lucy took painfully longer to realise her feelings than Natsu did, but I truly believe that this was the moment she knew that she was in love with him.

As I said before I’ve never really seen any posts regarding Lucy’s feelings towards Natsu, or if I have they haven’t been in immense detail, so this was really fun to write and figure out!

Let me know what you all think <3


“I don’t play volleyball for merit.”

Happy Birthday Sugawara Koushi!

June 13th

so I’m going through the atomic blonde tag and I literally just saw a post saying that the movie is sexist because charlize theron looks “too thin” in the trailer, and because it’s “unrealistic” for a woman to be able to beat up men who are significantly larger than her, especially in heels??? 

like??? buddy. pal. my guy.  

this is a female-lead film in an almost entirely male-dominated genre (seriously, when was the last time you saw an action movie where the main character was a.) female, and b.) not someone’s wife/girlfriend?), directed by an established filmmaker (david leitch, best known for his work on john wick), starring an oscar-winning actress who is also producing it herself, featuring a romantic subplot between two women, with feminist themes in the trailers and promotional material, and you’re going to boycott it… because the main character (a secret agent who is required to keep high standards of physical fitness for her job) is too fit??? or because she’s too feminine??? (I mean, I can run and jump and climb in heels, and I’m definitely not a highly-trained spy.) if you genuinely believe that conventionally attractive/traditionally feminine women being portrayed as tough and badass is “unrealistic,” then it sounds like the only one being sexist here is you. 


So a lot happened in season 4 and I have a lot of feelings about all of them. 

One of those feelings is regret over not drawing Narti nearly enough. So what better place than the cadet squad AU to draw her - where everything is fine and everyone’s happy! In fact, why not nickname it the “everyone’s happy” au, huh?!

…Yeah, still a little in shock and will miss her terribly. ; v ; Even if I understand every character’s choices in the moment, I still feel super sad that my fave tiny outcast space family has fallen apart so quick. 

But there’s definitely a lot to look forward to with their story next season, whenever it may be. So I’ll definitely be watching it.

Until then… See ya, Space Lizard Girl. ; v ; 

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How have I never seen an ADHD Neville Longbottom headcanon?

ADHD Neville who always forgets everything

ADHD Neville who keeps losing his toad and his possessions

ADHD Neville who’s clumsy and uncoordinated, messing up potions, falling off his broom, dropping teacups

ADHD Neville who needs the passwords for the common room written down to even be able to get inside, because he can never recall them

ADHD Neville who’s shy and insecure because of how his symptoms makes it difficult to interact with people

ADHD Neville who’s ineloquent and bumbling because the words won’t come the way he wants them to

ADHD Neville who takes a long time to realise he’s got ADHD because he’s primarily inattentive rather than hyperactive and bouncing off the walls

ADHD Neville who finally realises because of a pamphlet he sees while visiting his parents at St Mungo’s

ADHD Neville who’s talented and intelligent, but fails to earn high marks because of poor memory and difficulty following instructions (and, well, abusive teachers)

ADHD Neville who becomes a skilled wizard when able to learn in an environment (Room) more suited to his Requirements, when he has the motivation and encouragement to drive him forward

ADHD Neville who’s probably equal parts brave and impulsive when he stands up to the Carrows even when he knows he shouldn’t

ADHD Neville who becomes a professor and is able to provide his students with a much more diversity-friendly learning environment

ADHD Neville Longbottom

Congratulations team Ike for winning the voting gauntlet! I have a lot of feelings about this one omg, it’s been since Robin I haven’t been this invested in a voting gauntlet! I’m so proud that Ike is the first male character to win a voting gauntlet dsmlksmkff (he is my childhood crush, and I still love him)

Well played to all other teams! It’s been a very fun battle! I’ve been sweating a lot since Hector & Camilla ;;;

Someone come talk to me about Seamus and Luna speaking as Gaeilge to each other, & Seamus speaks in the wesht dialect obviously & Luna’s is more standardised/East cause that’s where Evana is from, and sometimes they just recite the “An bhuil cead agam…” cause maybe they’re not both fluent but they know the basics from primary school, and they’ve got the daitheanna and the “Is/Ni maith liom..” stuff and okay I can see them going out to bars and Luna pointing out guys to Seamus like “Buachaill deas?” “Seá, buachaill deas.”
& Yeah just these two Irish cuties keeping the Gaeilge alive and confusing the Sasnachs