i have a lot of angel family feelings

The Raid/One More Time, With Feeling

So, it’s official: Supernatural continues to be outstanding. I liked this episode a lot, and I like how they keep doing this - acknowledging there is a past in this show while developing new storylines and confirming stuff we’ve been saying for years. Because subtext - turns out it matters. Who knew.

Since I haven’t seen a lot of people talk about this, first things first: the BMoL’s (and Mary’s, and Sam’s) plan to eradicate and destroy all monsters - jolly good, but what does it mean for Cas? For Crowley? For Garth? Apparently they’re not working on a nuclear explosion spell or anything, and instead they’re going after specific groups of monsters one by one. And the thing is, they’ve got no reason to stop and ascertain who are the good guys and who are the bad guys, right? If they find Garth, Garth is dead.

(Is Sam okay with this? Mr Head Choice?)

And what about demons? I doubt you can kill every demon in existence, so the solution, surely, is shutting the Gates of Hell? And we know how Crowley feels about that, at least. As for the angels, again - seems unpractical and unfeasible to eliminate them, not to mention the cosmic consequences there would likely be if it could be done, so, again, is the idea to confine them all in Heaven? Mh.

As for the rest of it, here we go. 

Family Matters

Jesus Christ, what a mess. I know we talk a lot about how these characters have evolved so much they are almost verbatim the opposite of who they were twelve years ago (and how this was done so skillfully we barely even noticed), but with Mary back in the equation, you really see it. The alliances have now shifted. Where once we had John (emotional and barely hanging on and yet terrifyingly in control) clashing with his younger son who wanted a way out and a better life, and Dean was in the middle, trying to keep both of them happy, now we’ve got Mary pursuing a colder, more rational obsession, Dean who’s so done with all of it, and Sam acting as a mediator. Uh.

Now, it’s true we don’t know exactly what happened when Sam and Dean were teens (#season12wishlist). It’s likely Dean took John’s side out of some demented desire to be recognized and loved, and also so that Sam wouldn’t get hurt, but he believed enough in hunting that his brother getting out - that was a major falling out between them. 

But, well - the situation is hardly the same now. Sam isn’t a brainwashed, terrified teenager. He’s an adult, and, okay, there are rational reasons for the choices he’s making. At the same time, though, what’s going on is too close to whatever madness went down in their childhood for me to look with any sympathy upon any of it. Because at this point, Mary honestly scares me, and so does Sam. Him huddling with Mick at the end, saying those things about Dean - that was legit creepy, and more on this later.  

Dean 2.0

Just as an aside, I was very happy to see Mr Ketch doubling back to seduce Dean, because I’ve been saying this would happen for weeks and weeks. And if you write it down, just like that, what went down between them sounds very ambiguous: Ketch showed up with a bottle of scotch, they had a drink together, and then went to a hotel - a fancy place with a pool and a spa. 

The whole thing was coded like a courtship, because that’s exactly what it was (to the point they had to establish Ketch’s sexuality as a preventive #no homo); what made it uncomfortable is the fact Ketch didn’t really want to be there, and Dean - again, the woman in this scenario, as he so often is - was not the right fit for him. 

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I don’t think that it’s all that surprising or unrealistic that Cas returned to heaven with Kelvin; people forget that Cas’ time on earth is literally a blip in his long existence. His connection to heaven isn’t so easily severed despite how the angels have treated him, and despite what Cas said in 12.12. Cas missing his old home and family, and his willingness to try and make things work with them does not negate how he feels about the Winchesters.

Also, I don’t think it’s a bad thing that Cas returned to heaven because there’s a lot of lingering unresolved issues Cas has on that front. Think about it, the only way Cas could ever truly move on and finally be at peace with staying on Earth with the Winchesters permanently would be to return to heaven and settle things there once and for all.

Dabb said that this season was about looking for a place to belong so hopefully Cas returning to heaven is just another step in the process of him really realizing that his place is on Earth with Sam and Dean.

California Dreaming
Not all my romantic relationships were bad, but some of them challenged me in a way that I didn’t want to be challenged, and I am happy I don’t have to do that now.’ Lana Del Rey.

Does Lana Del Rey really live right inside the middle of the ‘H’ of the Hollywood sign and spend most of her nights perched high above the chaos that swirls within the city of angels below, as the teaser for her new album, Lust For Life, suggests?

Or does she rent a house in LA’s Santa Monica or Silver Lake or someplace else she’s not about to divulge, in case, having taken a cryptic February tweet of hers literally, a posse of her 6.3 million well-meaning Twitter followers showup on her doorstep with the ‘magic ingredients’ to cast spells on President Trump?

Does she really only dip her toes into ‘the muck and the mires of the city every now and then’, as she says in the album’s trailer? Or does she ‘go out quite a lot actually’, as she tells me when we meet, and spend her nights having fun with a tight crew of mainly musician mates, dancing at house parties, going to gigs and occasionally wrestling the microphone from her male friends to sing Hotel California in karaoke bars? In this post-truth world, it feels pedantic to care too much either way.

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Hello my beautiful and amazing followers this is imhoseoktrash (also known as @mylifeiskpoptrash)

So,some days ago, I finally reached 2k followers here on my sideblog!!!!!!!!! I made this sideblog just a few months ago and I am really happy to have you here and also on my main blog (for those who follow me in both). Thank you!!!!!!!!! You make my life amazing and this makes me feel so happy, specially beacusethis is my first follow forever with this blog💕💕

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Summary: When Castiel goes off to be God, thanks to the Leviathans, he abandons his sister (Y/N). When Y/N is captured, things go very wrong. Her grace is taken and Y/N is now human and has no idea what to do…

Pairings: Castiel x sister!reader, Dean x reader, (mentioned): Sam and Bobby

Warnings: angst, language, fluff, violence?, Dean being a flirt (yes this is a warning because have you seen him)

Word Count: 1075 sorry not sorry :D

A/N: This was written for @luci-in-trenchcoats Michelle’s 2k follower celebration. My prompt is in bold. This is my first write, so I hope you like it. Also, this isn’t beta’d, so all mistakes are mine. Flashbacks are in italics.

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anonymous asked:

Why was Dean acting like an ass to Cas in season 6?

Don’t worry about it, though. We’ve all been there, and especially me. 

So, I won’t get into this a lot because season 6 has been discussed so much - some meta bloggers, like @elizabethrobertajones, even have weirdly specific tags for it (hers is ‘we don’t talk about season six’, which I always assumed was a veiled threat and, as it turns out, she thinks it was a very romantic season and we don’t discuss it nearly enough). 

There are various theories about how this season was built, and one of them is that it was supposed to turn Cas for good - to make him into an enemy and then eliminate him from the show, if I remember correctly, so the general consensus seems to be, Why wasn’t Dean more of an ass to Cas in season 6? This was a narrative centered on misunderstanding and miscommunication, and from Dean’s point of view, Cas was acting like a demented Callahan type for no reason, which, given angels were (they still are, but back then it was particularly noticeable) the most powerful creatures Dean’d ever encountered, was incredibly dangerous, not to mention unpredictable. Dean should have wanted to take Cas out just to be on the safe side, and if it had been anyone else, he would have done it. But, of course, deep bond and stuff. Even after Cas’ done the unforgivable and hurt Sam, possibly for good (protect Sam: remember that’s Dean’s genetic imprinting, and he steamrolls over both friends and enemies to get that done), Dean still has enough empathy and affection for Cas to come clean about his own feelings, and to try and help Cas, or even save him, if he can. That, I think, is unprecedented?

Something that doesn’t come up a lot as a reason why Dean was so awful to Cas during this season (and therefore, what I’ll focus on here) is how Dean constantly refuses to see Cas for what he is - not a human being, but an unknowable, alien, otherwordly creature

Now, from Dean’s perspective (at the beginning of season 4), angels are not monsters, or things he hunts, or things that exist in the real world; they are, instead much more close and personal than that. They are a cherished memory of his mother, and they are, therefore, an emotional concept which symbolizes peace and being safe and thinking that things could, one day, be alright. This is thrown into particular sharp contrast if we compare Dean’s religious beliefs to Sam’s - we know that Dean doesn’t believe in God, and therefore angels, and that he doesn’t pray. So, for him, angels really are this intimate, childish thing he’s allowed himself to cling to all these years: his mother’s voice, full of love, biding him goodnight. And when Cas shows up, it’s painfully clear that Dean takes his very existence personally, and he’s not at all happy with any part of it. Cas is important in the narrative because he sort of ‘pushes’ Dean out of his comfort zone; he challenges him, and makes him feel out of control in a life where Dean’s fought so hard to be in control at all times (because someone had to be). In a way, I wouldn’t be surprised if Cas’ overt sexual aggressiveness was planned for exactly this reason - because Dean’s been written as bi from the start, and yet this is a part of himself he keep a tight rein over, and Cas’ behaviour very nearly shatters all that. We’ve seen Dean’s uncomfortable with being flirted at, and he’s uncomfortable with anyone being too close to him (in every sense) and Cas, in this sense, is a nuclear reaction. All those secrets Dean’s fought so hard to protect from his brother and Bobby and everyone else - now there’s someone who knows them. All of them, including what he really thinks about himself and the shameful things he did in Hell and how they made him feel. And the fact Cas was always in Dean’s personal space was partly meant, I think, to symbolize this intrusion into Dean’s mind and soul. 

(It must have been terrifying, really.)

And the thing is, out of all the possible responses Dean could have to this gobsmacking, life-changing revelation (that God exists and angels exist and one of them saved him from Hell and is now following him around), what Dean chooses to do is extremely revealing: he starts treating Cas like a human

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anonymous asked:

you never gave your thoughts on the album how do u feel

ok so a few of u have asked me this but i’ve purposely delayed my answer cause i wanted to fully digest the album before i commented on it. overall, i love the album A LOT and i think harley should be very proud of himself for creating it. there are so many elements to hs1 that i’m obsessed about so i’m gonna do a track-by-track. it will all be under the cut. :)

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Gothic Angels

Characters: Castiel x Reader, Dean (mentioned), Sam (mentioned)

Word Count: 686

Warnings: None

Request:  Can you do a little fluff preference of if Sam, Dean, and Castiel were dating a short goth girl?

Here is the one for Sam

Here is the one for Dean

Author’s Note: Please, send in requests because I love reading them and I love writing them! If you would like to be tagged in my future fics and my Series Rewrite that is coming soon, let me know and I’ll add you!

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Originally posted by supernaturalsuniverseinwriting

Being with an Angel of the Lord was much more than you could ask for. You were an orphan when Sam, Dean, and Castiel found you. You are still an orphan but being with the Winchesters and the Angel, you feel like you finally have a family again.

You and the men have a lot of differences. You were very short compared to their towering frames. You were very quiet despite them taking you out everywhere. You were very emotional and that worked well since the Winchesters always kept to themselves. But most importantly, you were a goth girl.

Well, that’s what people labelled you as. You just have a healthy appreciation for Gothic Culture and everything that came with it.

To cope with being an orphan, you always resulted to drawing. Whether you drew with pencils or paint or water colors. You were always drawing something. You actually drew so much that you now have 5 huge sketch books full of random things you liked to draw.

Growing up you’ve entered many art competitions at school or for when you volunteered at the local hospital. Just because you looked scary, didn’t mean that you were. You always wore black and if you couldn’t, you always had something on you that was black and you never went anywhere without your choker. You actually made it yourself when you thought being a DIY fanatic was your thing.

Now drawing has become your life and more recently, you’ve been researching what Angels looked like in ancient lore. Castiel has been nothing but good to you and you were grateful for that. You were always teased for who you were but Castiel made all those insecurities go away.

He made you feel like the most beautiful person on the planet.

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Cliffside Yoga: Trini (PR 2017)

request: can you do a Power Rangers fic where Trini brings her girlfriend to do yoga on the cliff and Trini’s girlfriend is like “why do you do this?”

requested by: anonymous

a/n: GO, GO POWER RANGERS!!! hey guys!! I am so in love with Trini (and all of the rangers for that matter). Also, in the reboot, Trini’s last name so I am just gonna tag them all. i have a lot of requests ahead of this one but I had inspiration for this one so, here we go! love ya lots, xx aubree.

warnings: none.

word count: 383 (short, so sorry.) 


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song Y/N is singing: x

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Trini was finally feeling at home here in Angel Grove. She had her rangers and now she had Y/N, her girlfriend. Though they had only just started dating, Trini felt that there was just something right about the two of them being together.

Maybe it was the way they both felt like outcasts in their own families, or maybe it was because they enjoyed the majority of the same things. Trini hated the idea of soulmates, but she definitely felt that if she had one, it’d be Y/N.

Trini bounded into Y/N’s room, laughing at the sight before her. Trini hadn’t told Y/N she was coming over, so there she was watching her girlfriend in her underwear, singing her heart out, into a brush, to one of her favorite songs. Trini recognized the song. She had heard Y/N singing it before. Hell and Back by Tonight Alive. It was one of the only songs that Y/N listened to that wasn’t really “frilly music festival” worthy. 

“This is quite the show.” Trini spoke up, causing her girlfriend to jump into the air, “When do I get backstage passes to your headlining tour?”

“Jesus, Trini. You scared the shit out of me.” Y/N put the microphone brush on her dresser.

“Whoops.” Trini laughed, “Put pants on, I want to show you something.” 

The girls made their way into the mines and up to a cliff that overlooked Angel Grove.

“Wow. This is beautiful.” Y/N stood mesmerized by the sun setting over the small town she called home.

“Here, do what I do.” Trini began doing some of her yoga poses, slowly so Y/N could get the hang of it.

They were up there for roughly about three hours, and now the two of them were perched on the cliff, eating snacks that Trini brought in her bag. 

Y/N looked at Trini, “Why do you do this?” 

Trini sat up, “It’s calming. I come up here, usually by myself, and clear my head. I just wanted to share this with you. You mean a lot to me.”

“You mean more to me than I can explain.” Y/N kissed Trini, “Wait. You come up here alone?!?”

Trini let out a laugh, “Don’t worry. Should a giant gold monster show up, I can take care of myself.”


Yesterday was the happiest and saddest day of my life. I experienced something so painful and then something so beautiful. I cried all day, but it felt so good. I am so happy & thrilled to say that I will officially be Mrs. Carrots/Mrs.Washington @carrotsbyanwarcarrots . The last four years of our lives have been so full of growth and love. We started our relationship, both pretty immature but we saw potential in each other. We both wanted to work, to grow, to be better people for ourselves, for each other, and for everyone around us. It takes two and he was the first man I’ve come across that really just wanted to try to be the best person he could be. He works so hard in every aspect of his life and I have so much respect for him. Every day he impresses me with his positivity for life, his ability to get things done, and his incredible love for me. I feel so loved by him and it brings me to tears every time. Forever I dreamed about meeting a man that would work so hard, much like my dad, for his family and himself. We’ve been through a lot together, many highs and lows…but even the lows were necessary to get to where we are now. Anwar you are truly, truly my best friend. There’s nothing I can’t tell you and every time I have something to say, you listen to me. Our communication is what has gotten us this close. You are a literal angel to me, I just know we were meant for one another. I couldn’t have created a more perfect man for me. I love you with all my heart and I will always love you. I can’t wait to be your wife! We are going to have so much fun 😻😁😊 Also thank you to @ifandco @benballer & Anwar for my custom ring! Never been much of a diamond girl…This ring is soo me! I love it so much!!!

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kalehdo  asked:

Seeing you answer all of those asks from those people struggling with depression/anxiety/negative thoughts, makes me so happy, u have no idea. I know a lot of people say Mark and Jack are angels, but honestly you're the purest one on this earth. I don't know what we did to deserve a wonderfully kind person like you

I often feel bad because I don’t know if what I’m saying is helpful, or if I’m even making a lick of sense. I just know that everyone deserves someone who is there for them, and since you guys are my family…I wanna be there for you. All the time.

Sssshhhh I promise you that I’m far from the purest one on Earth, but I really do appreciate the kindness you show towards me. <3
And honestly? I don’t know what I did to deserve you guys.

anonymous asked:

tw: depression mention - hi ellie u r one of my fave prescences on tumblr, just wanted to msg u and ask if you have any self care tips or tags that i can look thru, i'm going thru a v. terrbile time, breakup, no family or friends, financially destroyed and engaging in v. dangerous self depricating behavior n feel so alone and lost in all of this. i feel like my life is worthless rn and that im never gonna feel better bc of my mental illness :(

hi angel im so sorry you’re going through this, i’m sending lots of love your way. i do have a #healing tag and a #cute_hall_of_fame. things will get better, you will survive, and grow, and in time look back to be amazed at how much you’ve accomplished. 

When Ali Andrew Li was born on Jan. 7, he was gently placed on his mother’s chest, where doctors cleaned and examined him and covered him with a warm blanket.

“I just loved it,” his mother, Salma Shabaik, a family physician who lives in Los Angeles, says. “It was really nice to have the baby right there beneath my eyes where I could feel him, touch him, kiss him.”

That was different than the birth of her son Elias two years ago; he was whisked away to a bassinet to be examined. And unlike Elias, who cried a lot after delivery, Shabaik says Ali stopped crying “within seconds” after being placed on her chest.

Kangaroo mother care has been widely used worldwide to care for premature babies, and it’s gaining popularity in caring for healthy full term babies like Ali as well. It is as it sounds: Like a kangaroo’s pouch, mothers hold their naked newborns on their bare chest for the first few hours of life.

Kangaroo Care Helps Preemies And Full Term Babies, Too

Photo: Morgan Walker for NPR

Honestly, they hyped the fuck out of a Kanto postgame only to pull a “bitch u thought.” Listen Game Freak, I needed to follow my actual angel, cinnamon roll girlfriend to Kanto. Lillie nEEDS ME AND NEBBY BC WE ARE A FAMILY GOD DAMN IT

Sebastian Stan Romanian interview translation

Narrator: It is 9 A.M. in New York and the city is intensely buzzing. It’s full of people on Manhattan’s streets, an island that has represented the commercial, cultural and financial temple of America for many decades. Millions of souls animated by the noise of the streets, the reflections on the giant buildings and the savor of the coffee sold everywhere flood the arteries of the most cosmopolitan neighborhood of New York. On 428 Hudston Street, a young man is making his way to a coffee shop. (Sebastian saying “Nice to meet you, [formal] hello, Sebastian” in Romanian). He’s wearing a leather jacket but also a cap, to slightly hide his features, and he’s accompanied by a personal assistant. He speaks respectfully and immediately starts a conversation with the manager, an Australian married to a Romanian woman. He introduces himself simply, Sebastian, and he says he lives in the area. (The manager asks Sebastian if he was born in Romania, he says “Yes, I was. I was born in Romania”, both speak English).

Meet Sebastian Stan, the Romanian who, at 34, stars in the coolest Hollywood blockbusters. The world knows him as Bucky, Captain America’s best friend in the superhero trilogy which has brought him a climatic success in the past 4 years.

Sebastian: I like the whole group of people with whom I’m there making the movie very much, because we get along very well and… yeah, what I can say, (in English) it’s a very nice job.

Narrator: In Hollywood, everybody knows he’s Romanian, from his castmates to TV hosts, and everybody he collaborates with wants to hear him speak Romanian. With Sharon Stone, he flirted live in Romanian. He’s sexy, he’s got a million dollar body and he’s pursued by big advertising companies for various spots. In the industry, they say he has a killer smile. Ever since they found out he’s Romanian, more and more people are starting to talk to him in his mother tongue. He has won the admiration of millions of people from around the world, playing the role of the hot, bad guy which confronts almost all American symbols regarding heroes, characters inspired by comics like Iron Man or Captain America. He stars along Robert Downey Jr, Scarlet Johansson, Chris Evans, Hugo Weaving, Samuel L. Jackson and many other famous actors with whom he shares the sets.

Sebastian: Every time I wake up in the morning and I think that this is my work, what can I say, it feels very… unreal, like it’s just a dream, that someone’s paying me to hit someone else all day.

Narrator: He easily finds his words in Romanian while the conversation keeps playing. It’s not easy for him, seeing that he doesn’t have the chance to speak Romanian in either New York or Hollywood, in the fortress of American movies.

Sebastian: I have to thank my mom, because she… if it were me, I don’t know if I would still be able to speak Romanian. Because when you’re a small kid, you come here and you try to assimilate, you don’t want to be different, you want to fit in. So I have her and I have my dad, I also speak Romanian to him.

Narrator: His parents got divorced when Sebastian was 2, and his dad is still in America but on the West Coast. He visits him when he goes to Los Angeles to film, and he says his parents kept his interest for Romania alive.

Sebastian: I have to go back to Romania. I absolutely have to go back.

Rares Nastase: Do you feel that?

Sebastian: Yes, but it’s also about time. Now that I’m 34, it’s like I think a lot and I ask myself a lot about family and other things, and I have some questions about Romania and how it was during my time there. Because I left when I was 8.

Narrator: It happened in 1990. Sebastian was 8 and living in Constanta. Right after the revolution, his mom, a piano teacher, took him to Vienna, where they lived for 3 years before flying over the ocean to the United States.

Sebastian: It was very early, but I have some memories. What can I say about the communists and that situation, the least I remember is New Year’s Eve, when we had the TV on for the whole night, cause otherwise it we could only watch from 8 P.M. to 9 P.M.

Narrator: In front of a coffee with lots of milk, Sebastian says he’s happy about the success of the commercial movies which brought him fame, but he’d also like to play more profound roles.

Sebastian: Working on something which is about people, about family, about life, about what’s happening, that’s why I sometimes like European movies, because they always ask these questions that we have in life and ask ourselves everyday.

Narrators: And on this subject, he tells us that he’s keeping an eye on Romanian productions. He’s watched a lot of awarded European movies and he wants to collaborate with Romanian producers.

Sebastian: I started watching Romanian movies more and what can I say, I was… they’re better than American movies. I mean, directors like Cristi Puiu and the movies I’ve watched… The latest one was Graduation.

Narrator: He praises Romanians who make movies because talk about realities in the Romanian society, which he’s getting to know too. Romanian movies made him recently realize what his mother went through when she decided to emigrate with him thousands of miles from Romania.

Sebastian: Even if I didn’t grow up there, in Romania, if I haven’t known the situation in the past 10 years, I felt something because maybe I understood my mom better because of that film, the sacrifice, what it means for the kid, the ideas that we have at a certain moment and then how life turns out. Yes, I was very lucky, but I forget. When I was 22-23, I don’t think I was thinking about what it meant for her, after the revolution, to get up and go somewhere she can make money, to get us food. I didn’t ask those questions at 22, but now I look into it and I understand.

Narrator: Charm, ambition and talent is what made him star in Oscar movies. In The Martian, he stared alongside Matt Damon, and in Black Swan he filmed with Natalie Portman. He also stared in musicals and Gossip Girl, always in roles of irresistible men. But, in the most recent Captain America movie, he has a main role and he had lines in Romania after speaking to the producers about bringing up a bit of his natal country.

Sebastian: They knew I’m from Romania and that I was born there, so they did me a favor and wrote the scene so that it’d be in Romanian, because they knew I could speak it.

Narrator: After 18, he worked as a waiter in a Manhattan restaurant, in a time when he said every dollar counted. He was serving tables, but he didn’t give up his dream of playing on big scenes. His first casting was in Vienna when he was 10, and ever since then he was hoping to get to  Hollywood.

Sebastian: When we moved to Vienna, I tried to get into movies because I liked to imitate people, my grandparents.

Narrator: He feels strongly connected to Romania, he tells everyone that he was born in Constanta and he lived in an apartment building in a seaside town, which he visited in 2005.

Sebastian: I went to the beach, it was summer, I celebrated my birthday there in august, it was fantastic, it was very cool. I got the chance to see Constanta differently than when I was 8.

Narrator: He mentions a sad moment which has kept him in recent years from coming back to his hometown.

Sebastian: After mamaia [kind of like nana] died, to be honest it was a bit hard for me to go back because I know that if I go, then I have to go to the cemetery and I have to face what happened. It’s a very special situation.

Narrator: He becomes very serious when talking about his memories from Constanta in the days of the 1989 revolution. He was playing outside when the riot started.

Sebastian: I saw a white Dacia [Romanian car from that time] with about 6 people in it and they were yelling, they were about 20-25, and they had a flag with a hole in the middle.

Rares Nastase: And you remember the revolution?

Sebastian: Yes, and when I saw this car driving fast with the flag with the hole there, I felt… I always remember, that something major, very important was happening. I go on YouTube and I searched for Ceausescu [Romanian communist president who was killed after the revolution] and the helicopter came and he was going to run…

Rares Nastase: What did you think of that image?

Sebastian: I don’t know, but I felt something… I remembered as if the memory was in my muscles, it was in me, it felt like a knife going into me. That voice of his, when I heard his voice, it was… (in English) like it was yesterday. (in Romanian) Like it was the day before yesterday.

Narrator: He is assaulted with love all around the world, and he says he feels his Romanian roots. He’s always funny and careful about public appearances, but he welcomes his fans with smiles, jokes and even hugs. He travels a lot in Europe and Asia and in a lot of American cities to promote his movies. He goes to the gym almost every day, where he has a personal trainer, but he likes to recharge his batteries by walking the streets of New York for hours. He says that the buzzing of the city and the architecture give him a lot of energy.

Rares Nastase: Is celebrity changing you? Do you have to do things differently?

Sebastian: No, I don’t think I have to do things differently, but I realize the idea of time. You feel a bit like you have more responsibility till the end. What are you doing with your time? Okay, you made some money, now what do you do with them? If you want to have fun, you have fun and that’s your life. If you want to do something important, to leave something behind, to have someone ask a question about your work later, after you died… that’s what changed the most, responsibility.

Narrator: Beyond the climatic success, American newspapers have also been talking about his private life, about relationships he’s had. He dated Leighton Meester for a few years, Gossip Girl co-star, then he had a long love story with the Russian Margarita Levieva, with whom he stared in Spread. This summer, however, there were rumors about a breakup between the two of them because of jealousy. Sebastian Stan agreed to also tell us about this aspect.

Sebastian: It’s hard, I mean I always wonder and question how it’s possible for relationships to work in this business. I mean look at Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie. With all the opportunities, all the money in the world, problems are problems. It’s very hard because you leave for a long time, you don’t film in one location. You film in a location here, then you go to a location there for three months, then again, and it’s hard to maintain a relationship. I certainly want to have kids and to get to a point where I could have a family and work on interesting projects with directors whom I admire.

Narrator: He told us what the latest rumors in Hollywood are about good places to film in Eastern Europe.

Sebastian: Lots of movies were going to Budapest and another place, and now there’s something with a tax and all those movies are going to come here.

Narrator: At his mom’s home, in New York, he always eats Romanian food.

Sebastian: With mititei, mamaliga, sarmale [Romanian foods], every Christmas we have sarmale, Boeuf salad, I can never forget that.

Narrator: At 34, Sebastian Stan is recommended by the whole world and he shares blockbusters with quality stars. From Romania, to the country of possibility. From the years of Romanian communism, to the heights of success, he doesn’t forget to be a good Romanian.

Sebastian: An actor’s life in kind of hard, because you’re responsible until the end about what you do. It doesn’t really feel like there’s enough time on this planet.

Narrator: He’s optimistic about Romania. He trusts that Romanians can do beautiful things. He started from the bottom and followed his childhood dream. He hoped and he didn’t give up. He searched and he keeps searching to prove that he has talent. Sebastian Stan shows the whole world that Romanians are special, that they are smart and beautiful and respectful. That they succeed because they have the ambition to follow any great dream, no matter the obstacles.

Sebastian: Thank you, greetings from New York, I’m very glad that I could speak to all of you today and I hope to see you in Constanta or Bucharest.

anonymous asked:

Sorry for my english but The way 1DHQ always treat the other boys family vs the way they treat Harry' family is makes me sick :/ They always treat his family like "they are angels, they are such a rich, posh family". While the other boys family (Especially Louis and Zayn) treated like shit. All of the hates Louis's sisters and Zayn's sisters got for such a small thing they did. While there is still Gemma defense squad even though she is literally called an under age fan mental 🙄

first off your english is more than fine, don’t feel like you have to apologize for it!

and this point is SO SO SOOOOOO tru… i think it has a lot to do with more general classism in this fandom. there’s so many double standards. like jay and anne had BOTH been divorced and remarried but there would always be snide comments and judgments about jay for that and not anne. not to mention that there were/are fans who literally thought trisha and yaser were divorced because of how zayn’s family was portrayed in things like this is us [though as a sidenote i remember reading in some of zayn’s interviews post-leaving that yaser was not comfortable being in the spotlight so that’s a factor too]

jay and louis’ family would always get shit for ‘participating’ in louis’ stunts but when anne was on that jenner/azoff yacht you didn’t see many people shading her for it.

it’s all bullshit basically

i have gabriel feels and i’m gonna drag you all down with me

so much of the time he’s seen as a shallow, lighthearted trickster, but for real (this hit me while i was mulling on his perspective for a tough scene)-

the number of people gabriel has loved is just about a 1:1 ratio with the number of people he has lost

(and how many of those numbers are the same people on both sides?)

the angels? lucifer fell. gabriel was nobody’s favorite and lucifer, his mentor, Fell. gabriel wasn’t allowed to love him anymore. and he left heaven so long ago - nevermind the multitude of non-archangels (who knows what they were told, what they might think of him) - do you think gabriel ever wondered what would happen if he went back?

because if you think he ever stopped loving his family you’re so, so wrong, but here’s the thing - they have their own way of loving back, and it comes in ways that are more ‘for his own good’. what would michael do? look at what he did to lucifer in the name of Good and The Plan, and lucifer was michael’s favorite. raphael’s favorite is michael, you can bet she’ll side with michael over anybody, even gabriel - what would they do to him if they saw him again?

and we know he hid out as loki, but god, that’s even more tragic - if you know even a scrap of norse mythology you know that. loki’s been demonized as Norse Satan™ - admittedly by people who don’t understand his role in mythology in the least, but what about the people who do. what about loki’s brother, odin. what about frigg, his sister-in-law of sorts. what about baldr and thor and the rest?

here’s the answer: they hate his guts. loki killed baldr. odin killed loki’s children back.

loki’s children - there’s a tangle (what about the nephilim?) but if you believe gabriel (as loki) had them, then - it’s horrible. it’s a tragedy. six children and half of them (or two and one half) are dead and sleipnir alone escapes enduring horrible torture - the same kind of thing they inflict on loki later - because he’s odin’s prize stallion. odin’s prize.

if those stories are real, how well do you think gabriel dealt with it?

(the answer: not well. he burned his own pantheon down and dragged them to the end of the world for it; if one story is true, the rest probably are)

and then; the trickster. i’ve always thought the trickster and loki were separate, that the trickster came later - here is a god whose own pantheon hates him, who hid and lied and built himself a family that died or was chained or betrayed him - so he reduces himself again, to something with not even a proper name, just a noun describing what he is. he flees to america probably - back then it was probably brand fuckin’ new, to the europeans.

and then what? he entertains himself for the ensuing centuries until we arrive at SPN canon? the trickster’s victims were never entertainment, they were the last vestiges of Gabriel making themselves known - the teacher, the messenger, trying to give humanity one last message to differentiate bad and good - but he’s been loki for a while know (was loki) so there’s a certain amount of viciousness in it, too, and he probably shrugs and does whatever he wants for whatever reason

(he’s denied the name ‘gabriel’ and his whole existence when he held that name - did he do the same for loki, too? in ‘american gods’, america holds a lot of copycats - pale shadows of the same gods cast in a new land. do you think there was another loki, and gabriel just denied he’d ever been one and let his new, New World shadow take his place?)

(do you think he ever let himself remember?)

(do you think he ever looked for his father, like castiel did?)

(i do)

the trickster probably entered the roaring 20′s and never looked back - oh, he was like that before, excess and indulgence and all the good stuff with no moderation because why bother with worrying? but i feel like the kind of society someone like Gatsby could have theoretically existed in is one he would have reveled in

and y’know, he’s pretty old, and he doesn’t change easily (evidence: 1400 years or so and he still loves his family even though they’re all dicks) so: the trickster is a creature of excess and wild abandon, and he glories in it.

this sets the stage, probably, but here’s the thing: we never know what the trickster thinks. anything hinting at a higher motive in the show itself is all, guess who-

(answer: gabriel)

i don’t doubt he knew who the winchesters were as soon as he saw them. he knew. he knew what they were going to do and what was going to happen and he knew he’d get dragged back into it. maybe not how - but he knew. that kind of prophecy was written in the core of him right next to where he still loved lucifer.

and looking back - can you blame him for wanting to stave it off? the apocalypse was the last scraps of the family he knew being thrown in the fire by brothers he grew up with, as much as angels ever grow up.

what else could he do?

Crossfire - Chapter Six

Author: somemaycallmesunshine
Pairing: Young John!Michael x Prophet!Reader
Reader Gender: Female
Word Count: 21k
Warnings: violence, blood, gore, anxiety attacks, angst, swearing, kidnapping, character deaths, a little hint of OC characters

A/N: A bit of dorky Michael headed people’s way! Thank you all for your messages, likes, reblogs, everything. You guys are incredible and I wish I could hug all of you! Special thanks to the anon for suggesting I add some tags. They really help! FYI, parts of the episodes are weaved in through the plot with some changes for the sake of the storyline. (Visions as well as internal thoughts are in italics)

Summary: Takes place during season 5. With the apocalypse at foot, Team Free Will and the reader are doing everything in their power to stop it. But when their plans take a wrong turn, the reader gets kidnapped by none other than their enemy, Michael the archangel,

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Yuri On Ice: Instagram #3 Viktor Nikiforov

Viktor is someone who’s obsessed with social media! Even though it sometimes gets him into trouble, because all of his fans are able to track him down and follow him around (but he takes it easy, he’s a light-hearted person and doesn’t get annoyed too quickly). 

He seems to be self-obsessed and at the beginning of his career his Instagram was loaded with selfies and all of his medals, but since him and his boyfriend Yuuri made their relationship public his Instagram is one big worshipping Yuuri account. The only thing he loves even more to be seen on his pictures is his dog Macchan! 

He also feels like it’s important to show his boyfriend on a daily basis how much he loves him, even if it’s just a little gesture like a pic of him sleeping, with the caption “I adore this angel so much, hope we’ll have all the time in the world together”.  

He tries to push his boyfriends confidence and puts a lot of effort into their relationship. He often visits him at his family home and they take baths together in their hot springs (sometimes he sends the fam away for fancy dinner so they can really enjoy the hot springs). Making Yuuri happy is what makes himself happy too. Everyone can tell how much in love they are just by looking at them. 

Viktor is totally into PDA and cuddles, kisses and touches Yuuri all the time, even in public. But he’s still a professional and when he’s coaching him or when they’re giving interviews he takes a step back and plays it cool (even though he’s often tempted by his boyfriends appearance and motions to go into full-PDA-mode). 

They try to use their time carefully and seek a lot of quality-time with their friends from over-seas. They try to catch up with Phichit, Yurio, Leo, Guang-Hong, Chris and sometimes even Georgi on a weekly basis. Viktor calls them and he sometimes talks to them for hours over the phone. He also helps out if someone has an ice-skating-related problem and seeks his help. 

When all their schedules allow it and they’re all nearby they always go out together and get something to eat and drink. It always ends up in Viktor being drunk AF and Yuuri driving him home. The others always enjoy the show when Viktor drinks too much because then he gets all inappropriate with Yuuri in front of everyone. 

The one for Guang-Hong Ji: 


The one for Leo de La Iglesia:



A: “We used to argue a lot.

M: “But it was never something serious. And we stoped after we became Archangels.” 

A: “Now we’re way more mature and I’ve stopped teasing him like I used to do.”

M: “Yes, because we’re partners now, we need to know that we’ll have eachothers backs no matter what.”

A: “Still, we’re family. That was an understatement from the very begining. We just became more serious about it.”