i have a hard time believing that shes 25

8/25/17

Bean’s appeal period expires today.

I can’t believe this might actually happen. I’ve loved her since we first got the call - I fell hard for this kid, and I’ve told myself over and over she was leaving. She still could. But I’m trying to let myself experience shards of hope (not rays - they’re sharp, they come with pain - shards is more appropriate) that I might have the honor of calling this child my daughter. Most of the time I refer to children in my care as “my children” or “my kid(s)” because “my son/daughter” feels too possessive and permanent. I know that isn’t logical.

I still think about her mom all the time. Bean will never know who her father is. I already don’t know how to answer the questions she will have. I hope her mom is able to stick around long enough to build some kind of connection, create some memories for her. She has a right to that. They both do.

Bean, I love you. Whatever the future holds. I love you so much, baby girl. I’m going to be the best damn second mom I can for as long as I have the privilege.

The Olicity Wedding - The Power of Perspective

Before I start this meta, let me explain something. I was working on What is Love Chapter 2 two nights ago. I wasn’t part of the Twitter craziness initiated by Jen and Calli. I did check my Twitter before going to bed though… BIG, MONUMENTAL MISTAKE. I thought I entered a new dimension where Jen would have lost it completely – she confirmed later on that she was drowning into madness. 

Don’t you worry people, this is how you recognize geniuses – sometimes, the limit between madness and extreme brilliance is really thin… I strongly believe Jen and Calli fall under this category…

They see things we don’t, interpret signs we don’t even notice and know their characters by heart. Moreover, they are PEOPLE who are devoted to the fandom. 

Their theory (That all of you have read here I’m sure) is really strong and I felt like accepting it a few times in front of the compiling evidence…

But I’m a rational person. And I swore Jen that I would help her jump off this damn train, destination the Olicity Wedding. I tried to compile my best arguments here… hopefully it makes a bit of sense and can talk to some of you! This is not about knowing if someone is right or wrong, it’s about giving a counterarguments for people to make their own decision.

One more thing – Jen and I are friends in real life and this is not a way to bash her theory or anything – it’s just a friendly reminder than we can disagree, still understand each other and see different symbols in similar things :)

MAY SWEEPS

Everyone gets really excited to the prospect of May sweeps – who will die, resuscitate, get pregnant, married, divorced, both?

Arrow is pretty unlucky in this division as May Sweeps always begins on a Thursday… Too bad for a TV show broadcasted on a Wednesday…. Only 4 episodes can be included in the May Sweeps when, really, the 5 last episodes are always critical for Arrow.

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anonymous asked:

hello, I need a bit of encouragement.. I'm 20 years old and I have never been in a relationship, nor has any guy ever pursued me. my friends all have boyfriends, are getting into relationships, or are even getting engaged. I fight low self esteem and jealousy throughout every day. I have a hard time believing God wants me to be happy with how my life is now and that he has good things in store :( how can I change my mindset? it's so hard for me.

Hello friend! Well, let me start by saying that you are still SO young. One of my best friends was in the exact same boat you’re in now, and at 25, he has finally met the girl of his dreams. He always used to say the same things you are, but when I texted him a few weeks ago saying, “I know it was tough, but I bet she was worth the wait,” he said that it absolutely was. 

In his book, The Problem of Pain, C.S. Lewis talks about how our definition of love is wrong. We talk about a loving God, but what we really want when we say that is a senile, grandfatherly kind of God, “whose plan for the universe was simply that it might be truly said at the end of each day, ‘a good time was had by all.’” Lewis goes on to explain that God’s love is truer and fiercer than that — the kind of love a supreme artist lavishes on His ultimate creation, a creation that He wants to mold and shape into the image of Christ. The fact that God hasn’t given you a husband or wife at this point in your life doesn’t mean He doesn’t love you. It means God, in His love, is using your singleness to mold and shape you to be more like Him and to draw you to Him.

You can be content. With relationships, many single Christians believe that to be content, one of two things must happen: They must get married, or they must purge themselves of any desire to ever be married. Either way, their definition of contentment is completely wrong. Contentment doesn’t eliminate your desires. You can be content today as a single and still want to get married someday. Christ was content going to the cross, but He didn’t really want to go. He wanted to do the Father’s will, and that desire overshadowed everything else. Contentment is a decision, not a feeling. It’s a determination to be satisfied with what God has given you today. Because of this, it’s possible to be content in your singleness, and if you practice contentment today, you’ll be better prepared for whatever life brings your way.

If you think your friends who are in relationships are better off, that God has overlooked you, that you’ve missed His plan for your life, you’ll be miserable. If, on the other hand, you know you’re right where God wants you to be, that being unattached isn’t a badge of shame, and that romantic relationships don’t bring instant fulfillment, your emotions will be transformed. What do you really believe about being single? Are there lies at the root of your negative emotions? Track them down, root them out, and replace them with God’s truth. Your feelings will change, and you’ll find a world of possibilities in your single life.

Be Blessed! <3

- Sarah