My friend, I have so much advice for you. These are of course things I’ve learned from therapy, personal experience, and from what I’ve learned working on my degree thus far.💞
Okay, so let’s say you’re having a flashback or really vivid trigger. Get yourself an icecube or something cold to hold. The cold is painful enough that it brings your senses back to reality and out of your flashback, but it isn’t too damaging to you physically.
NO self blaming. I’m not sure what your situation is but in the beginning for me anytime I had a flashback I would blame myself for what happened. I would then spiral down a much darker path, if you catch yourself self blaming, talk to yourself and talk about why it can’t be your fault.
I’m super big on soundscapes when I’m having an episode. Rain On Leavesis my personal favorite, put it on and darken the room to give your senses a small break.
Focus on one of the five senses, i.e. slowly look at what’s around you and notice the details; take a deep breath and smell the air; chew a piece of gum and taste the fresh flavor; put your hands together and feel the skin; listen to the sound of traffic.
Alternatively play the five sense game; count five things you can see, four things you can touch, three things you can hear, two things you can smell, one thing you can taste.
Smelling (any)mint oil or chewing on mint leaves (helps with head-aches, nausea, and jolts the senses).
Count from one to ten slowly and then backwards, repeat until the flashback or panic attacks end. This honestly works and I’m not ashamed in saying I still do it.
Have a glass of tea, I know I suggest for this literally everything but tea can be really good for calming the nerves. Chamomile, lavender, and mint are all good for dealing with nausea/pain that might come with a trigger but also for calming you down.
If you want some witchy tips I can suggest some crystals I like to have/use for PTSD!
Carnelian is great for self confidence, anger, apathy, obsessive thoughts, and self esteem. Rose Quartz can be used for balancing emotions, nightmares, self care, guilt, irrationality, and intrusive thoughts/memories. Onyx is known for sucking up negative energies and neutralizing them, calming panic attacks, anger, aggression, and stress. Amethyst can be used for anxiety, grief, hopelessness, insomnia, intrusive thoughts/memories, stress, and poor focus.
I hope this helped a little dear! May good things come to you.🌿
Hey everyone! This one is free to reblog so long as you’re not a porn blog, in which case you can go sit on a cactus and die because trans women aren’t vehicles for your creepy fetishes! Have a great day!
A Loki x Reader of 715 words. Requested by 2 different people (one being @princess–irulan that I combined into one fic. With prompts #12 and #36. I think the ending could be a little better, but I actually didn’t struggle with his as much as I thought I would. Take that writer block. My requests closed at the moment until I finish all the fics that have been requested. Enjoy!
“I said I was sorry Tony!” I said, crossing my arms in a subtle defense. “Sorry won’t fix my proto type!” he yelled back, holding the now useless pieces of metal. “Why do you always have to break the rules (Y/n)?” I looked around the room as if the sofa could give me the right words to describe my feelings. “I’m not actively a rule breaker. It’s just- I get bored sometimes.” I explained trying to control my breathing. “I can arrange for Steve to give you some more hours in the gym.” Tony began, raising his eyebrows. I lifted my hands up in front of my chest reflexively. “No, come on Tony you know that’s not what I need.” I interrupted. “Really? Because there’s plenty to do in this multi million dollar tower you live in.” He finished staring directly into my eyes. I could feel my nostrils flaring, as I let short bursts of air out through my nose. Finally I couldn’t take it anymore. I turned on my heel leaving Tony behind me as I stormed away.
Being a cousin of Bruce Banner thankfully meant that while I wouldn’t turn into the hulk, I did have some great anger management techniques. Lacing up my point shoes, I walked to the center of the floor and took my beginning position before the music started. The Walt of the Flowers started, triggering muscle memory and calming emotions in me. I lifted my toes to my knee in a pose before tenduing to the side and starting some turns. After a few minutes, later I took my final pose, chest heaving from my dance. Just for fun, I curtsied to the front of the room. “That was beautiful darling.” a voice said from behind me. I glanced in the mirror and spotted Loki leaning casually against the wall. A smile sprung to my face as I turned and walked over to him, my point shoes tapping the floor.
He wrapped a hand around my waist and pulled me into his chest. I wound my arms around his neck and tangled my fingers in the little baby hairs at the bottom of his neck. “What are you doing here?” I asked leaning my head on his shoulder. “I heard Tony Stark yelling at you. I knew you would be down here, and I wanted to make sure you’re okay.” “I’m alright” I smiled up at him. Me mirrored my expression and hugged me a little tighter. “What happened if I may ask.” He said. I sighed remembering how I almost lost my temper. “I got bored and was wandering around Tony’s lab. There was a really cool looking metal thing with a button on it.” I said brushing my fingers lightly through Loki’s silky hair. “Apparently, after the whole Ultron fiasco, whenever Tony makes something more complicated than a fan, he puts a self destruct button on it.” Loki nodded figuring out what must have happened. “You could have come to me if you were bored.” he said slightly hurt. “I also kinda wanted to poke around Tony’s lab” I said, biting my lip to hold back a smile, and failing horribly.
He nodded, his blue eyes staring lovingly into mine. “In that aspect, you are more like me than Bruce. We are trouble.” he said, the corners of his lips pulling up. “That’s why we’re good together.” I smiled. Loki reached his other hand out to hold my waist, but I intercepted it and held it instead. “Dance with me.” I asked, swaying my hips. Loki smiled but lightly tried to tug his hand out of mine. “I don’t dance like that.” he said. “Not ballet.” I giggled, imaging Loki in a tutu and leotard. “Just dance with me.” I pleaded stepping backwards onto the floor and dragging him with me. I re positioned his hands on my hips and let my arms hang around his neck as F.R.I.D.A.Y turned on a song for us to dance to. I swayed to the rhythm as the rest of my anger melted away.
YOO saw your post about season 5 oitnb and just wanted to know what you are your thoughts on CO Bailey?
I’m so torn when it comes to Bailey, and I think that was the goal with having him be the one to murder Poussey. With Bailey, it’s harder to just automatically condemn him. Because he was a terrified, poorly trained kid, and he made a mistake. But that mistake cost Poussey her life, and Poussey was, and is, my favorite character, a precious child who deserves all of the love and happiness in the world. So naturally, I have a great deal of anger towards him.
That being said, I’m not sure what general consensus is on Bailey, but personally, even though it was, in direct terms, his fault, I find the blame more with Piscatella and MCC. MCC for not training the guards properly, and Piscatella for creating the environment that ultimately lead to Poussey’s death.
Like Taystee said to Piscatella, “It’s your fault. You. You’re the reason Poussey is gone.” I find myself thinking the same thing.
Bailey is a good guy. But like Poussey’s father told him, this is something that he is going to have to live with for the rest of his life. Something he probably won’t ever find peace with, because he took an innocent life, mistake or not. It’s a stain he’s never washing off.
How quick we become something else other than what God has given us and taught us. How our hearts tend to harden and defile what was given.
They have turned their back to Me and not their face; though I taught them, teaching again and again, they would not listen and receive instruction. But they put their detestable things in the house which is called by My name, to defile it. (Jeremiah 32:33-34 NASB)
But then, as followers the LORD Jesus, we continue to reap the blessing of grace. God’s faithful love remains. His own words:
Behold, I will gather them out of all the lands to which I have driven them in My anger, in My wrath and in great indignation; and I will bring them back to this place and make them dwell in safety. They shall be My people, and I will be their God; and I will give them one heart and one way, that they may fear Me always, for their own good and for the good of their children after them. I will make an everlasting covenant with them that I will not turn away from them, to do them good; and I will put the fear of Me in their hearts so that they will not turn away from Me. I will rejoice over them to do them good and will faithfully plant them in this land with all My heart and with all My soul. (Jeremiah 32:37-41 NASB)
I see only a few pages of Jeremiah’s journey with God and how he was used for God’s people. I understand it better now - in only a window view - what Jeremiah prayed for and cried about, why he was “The Weeping Prophet.” What burden and what delight!
Did you know that Jeremiah knew nothing is too hard for God and that he prayed for understanding? Then God even responded to Jeremiah with the same words? :)
“Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh; is anything too difficult for Me? (Jeremiah 32:27 NASB)
Nothing is too difficult to our faithful God who promised to do us good and plant us with all His heart and all His soul! We our His because of the LORD Jesus. We can count on every promise.
Neither Obama nor Joe Biden are perfect and they have let bad things happen. But they also did good things they tried for a better democracy even if didn't work. With Trump and his chosen cabinet all that is good is going to be gone. It could potentially lead to more wars. The entire world is fuckin terrified right now. thats why people are saying good bye to them. You don't have to like them or but maybe you should have aired you grievances at a different time
oh well i’ll just apply to the tumblr committee for ‘the right time to make a post’ and wait for them to review my application and grant me the permission to make venting posts on my own personal blog, where i have blogged vehemently concerning my hatred of all shades of imperialism and fascism and state violence for the past three years.
flippancy aside. i understand this is hard for you anon and that you are grieving. it may come as a surprise to you but so am i. i know what this shit looks like firsthand. amazingly enough, i watched this election go down with a sense of deja vu because the exact same thing happened in india two years ago. america has my fullest sympathies and i am keen, for one, in finding a way for us to unite across borders to fight the threat of fascism. i know what it means to be terrified of trump. you talk about this like this isn’t going to affect me at all, as though i don’t have dear friends and dear family members who live in the US who are vulnerable not least because of their skin colour, but because of their gender and sexuality or status as immigrants. i know anon, i sodding know. i have talked about how fucking frightened i have been at the way plenty of people have treated the act of voting and the act of abstaining from voting as though its a moral decision when it isn’t, it really isn’t - again, not least because the same damn thing happened here before we ended up with narendra fucking modi and his party of hindutva goons. i have talked about how frightened i am for what trump being in charge of the world’s largest superpower, with interests in countries in my corner of the world means to me and means to politics in the region. i have talked about how terrified i am that trump and modi seem to admire each other, that the hindutva brigade here admires trump, that his rise fuels their rise here. i know. my god, i know. i empathize.
here is the thing. i am sure obama and biden are decent and good men and i understand the impulse to mourn. but you do not get to come into my inbox and tell me that my grievances are impinging on your ability to mourn without thinking critically. i tag all my stuff rigorously, you can blacklist at will. but i will not be quiet about the fact that these memes about how cute and wonderful these guys are serve what i think is the insidious function of obscuring the sheer violence that has governed their time in office. idk about you but like. seeing that? its a form of propaganda. self-generated, admittedly, by swathes of people who have a great deal of love for these guys. and you know what, i have the deepest respect for them in terms of statesmanship and their qualities and the good policies they have put into place. but here is the thing. i am not interested in letting a culture of mythmaking and self-generated propaganda for the arms of an extremely violent state engulf me wholesale and i am not interested in being silent about it. all these cute memes and things like ob/ama is the best guy and those fake images of o/bama and biden running through the halls of the wh/ite house wearing pride fl/ags do serve to create an image of these guys in the popular imagination. it makes them look like harmless good guys who are only being held hostage by those evil repub/licans over there. and like, this is true to a certain extent but it is not fully true at all. the drone strikes was o/bama. the imprisonment of whistleblowers was o/bama. deportations - that too happened on his watch and increased in number, in fact. the strengthening and granting of more powers to the surveillance state was o/bama. what those cute memes do is elide and obscure this violence by reducing him to a personable politician.
and what is happening now is that people are conflating this personable politician with the institution of democracy. this terrifies me. maybe - just maybe - this is the result of my political milieu and the fact that there isn’t a damn politician you can trust in india whether you’re going all the way from our communist parties to our right wing parties. all that i have learnt is that the state can never ever be trusted because the state only serves to maintain power for itself. it will do good sometimes, but that is only solely so that it can maintain the veneer of legitimacy that permits it to continue functioning. sometimes not even the veneer so much as the lie, as long as you can spin the facts right. no politician ever can be conflated with the institution of democracy because democracy is an idea and as an idea? it belongs to people. it does not belong to a single man, or a single party or leadership. true, some politicians serve democracy a little bit better than others. this does not automatically mean we should venerate them as defenders of democracy. i’m not entirely sure that the guy who has strengthened the nsa and imprisoned whistleblowers has ‘defended’ democracy, so much as strengthened the framework for a fascist state to rise from within. you want a trite fictional metaphor? i’ll give you a trite fictional metaphor. its the goddamn senate voting emergency powers to palpatine, except palpatine isn’t the one pulling the strings behind the scenes unless palpatine is the fear induced by a mythical bogeyman at play. bush started it and o/bama completed it. doesn’t that terrify you? doesn’t it terrify you to think of one man as the sanctified guardian of democracy? doesn’t it terrify you to surrender all that power, symbolic or not, to one person?
this is what terrifies me about the direction the discourse is moving in. i’m already seeing people make cute bush memes and bush nostalgia. its not long before cultural and public amnesia sets in and we forget the violences that took place under o/bama’s administration: for us to remember only that he commuted chelsea manning’s sentence and forget that he was the one who put her there in the first place, for us to remember him commuting chelsea manning’s sentence and forget that he denied native american activist leonard peltier clemency for a crime that he maintains he never committed in the first place. just to pick like, two examples from random because they’ve been in the news most recently. when you say they are not ‘perfect’ this isn’t a case of your fave is problematic, or of them ‘letting’ bad things happen. they have been complicit in it. sometimes actively. that’s more than ‘imperfection’, that is something they should sodding be held accountable for because a good chunk of the time its involved the deaths of people, the destruction of villages and families and a lot of structurally racist and horrific violence.
i understand you are mourning and i am mourning the danger that democracy is in, the danger my friends are in, the danger my family abroad is in. but i think now more than ever is a time for truth-telling and truth-speaking, no matter how uncomfortable it is. we do no one justice by creating and mourning an image of o/bama that is a) conflated with the institution of democracy and b) is defanged and elides and obscures the state-sanctioned violence he was very much party to. we gain nothing by pretending that o/bama is something he is not. and i do draw the line at a mourning which is very much predicated on hiding the violence that thousands of people have suffered - many of them in the countries you seem to care about so much by saying ‘[trump’s presidency] could potentially lead to more wars’. no shit man, i know. i live right next door to one of the sodding countries that’s been hit by drone-warfare. i really really don’t need some rando on the internet to remind me of the role of america in international politics. i have to live with it every single day, thanks.
here is the thing though: everything that is good has been fought for by people. ordinary people like you and me, who refused to sit down and take the state’s obdurate cruelty as a given. it has never been the political class who have been ‘good’. it has been people who have worked and organized and championed their own rights and the rights of the marginalized who have won victories, no matter how incremental. o/bama did not free chelsea manning: the concerted and consistent protests of people did. trump and his cabinet will usher in a new wave of fascism and i don’t know what this is going to mean for international politics but what i do know is that i trust people and i trust the people who are going to stand up and fight and if o/bama wants to join that fight he’s welcome to. i’m just not interested in hiding from the truth of what his presidency has meant or in shying away from truth-telling on this blog because a particularly cutesy and noxious meme informs me that the dude behind the tools of the current american surveillance state and its violence is exactly the same as the dudes who were crushed under the heel of fascism and took up arms against it to protect people.
also a completely different note: while i do not mind having conversations with people about this stuff i would appreciate it if you did not come in here and patronize me or treat me as though i don’t understand the gravity of your situation or your country’s politics and attachment to political figures because believe me i know, this website never lets me forget for one sodding moment.
and if any of this makes you uncomfortable and you cannot use blacklists to hide my uspol or ampol tags, i do strongly recommend leaving this blog because i am not about to stop being critical about the o/bama administration just because someone far far worse is in office.
currently looking for a live person who
• appreciates me
• doesn’t make me feel like a worthless piece of shit
• actually listens to my advice instead of acting like they have to have an entirely different and separate life away from me
I’ll be waiting in the corner.
Originally I wrote this and posted it on Facebook. I added more to the end, to share how this might work in a chart situation:
How Each Mars Sign Expresses ANGER:
Aries: I always fight the loudest and strongest, so don’t try me. Hulk Smash.
Taurus: You can’t make me fight, move, or care, if I don’t wanna. That pisses you off more, doesn’t it? Ha. Eff off.
Gemini: I’m talking the most, so I must be making sense–If you don’t understand, then the jokes on you, cuz I already won in my mind. Over it!
Cancer: ::I don’t wanna, I don’t wanna, stop pushing:: Fine then! Screw you, this is what I think about all the things!
Leo: It’s laughable that you think you could win anything. What? Are we fighting? I stopped caring ages ago.
Virgo: I will make you hate yourself with my ambitiously direct remarks about your looks and mental capabilities. Whether you win or lose, you will certainly cry in your mirror tonight.
Libra: Well, honestly, I don’t want to fight about it, until I know all the sides. Loyalty is relative, bitch.
Scorpio: Don’t push me. Seriously. For your own good. Don’t. Push. Me.
Sagittarius: I’m going to listen to you yell at me, and then take it out on my cat. I never really heard anything anyway, I was singing Katy Perry, in my mind.
Capricorn: Now, let’s discuss this. You were awful, I could have been better, if we can’t fix this, then I don’t know what to tell you. Don’t raise your voice, honey. Are you a caveman?
Aquarius: Obviously, you are trying to engage me in intellectual warfare, and I’m not sure it means what you think it means.
Pisces: What? Are you listening? I think you’re glazing over. I’ve been trying to make this point for an hour! Are you sleeping? WTF!? Ahhhh!
Any aspect to Mars can also create something special.
For instance, I have Venus conjunct my Mars in Virgo, so I usually forget to express my anger for the sake of harmony, and can get passive aggressive. On the flip side of that, I have a great ability to hold back my anger, so anyone who gets it to come out of me, probably deserves it (I’m definitely still a Libra).
My Mars/Venus is trining my Moon in Taurus, creating a harmonious aspect with my emotions. You know those people who can express their rage without feeling? I’m not one of them, my Moon makes sure of that. The trine works as a permanent attachment between placements, for those of you who are not familiar.
My Mars/Venus is squaring Uranus in the 9th House, so I definitely insult people’s intelligence first, and can win all my battles of wit, but only when I’m angry–If I’m happy, I tend to be a moron. The square creates it’s own sort of angry energy, so my Mars is forever attached to the wittiest part of me, my Uranus in the 9th–but only through intense stress.
Since my Mars is in the 6th, these types of battles come out in work situations, mostly. I have made more then a handful of authority figures run away crying, and I rarely feel bad about it, because I know how hard I worked to keep myself quiet. I have been told that I was “emotional” and “full of rage” by more than one boss, protecting their managers. I actually rarely feel emotional or angry when I yell at people, because of all the earth associated with my Mars, I feel contempt for them.
I could go into much more, but I’ve got other things to do. I think it’s important to know this kinda shit about yourself, because it’s not fair to others, when we have no control over our “mean energy.” It’s also good to find parts of you that you are proud of, I for one, am very proud of my ability to say exactly what I want to say when I’m angry, now if I could work on it when I’m happy…
Anyway, I would encourage you to get your chart (Astro.com is great place to go), and work out your own anger issues, as I have here! It’s all about looking at the flow of things.
Aspects relating to Mars:
Square: Tension creating energy between one planet and your own anger. Basically, it amps up your Mars energy, usually creating an angrier person.
Trine: Harmonious energy that aids in one planet helping you express your anger, without you even realizing.
Sextile: If a Trine happens without you realizing it, a Sextile gives you the ability to use the same harmony of a certain planet, but however you see fit. Sometimes a Sextile can be more beneficial, because you can turn it off or on, based on how much energy you want to create with your anger.
Opposition: One planet is working on the opposite side of your anger. You tend to swing between full blown rage and repressed anger. Learning balance between the one planet and your anger, is key here. Also good relationships with others, should be able to help you.
Conjunct: The energy of another planet perfectly blended with your ability to express rage. This can help you or hinder you, based on which planet is there. But basically, you don’t have a Mars sign anymore, you have a “Marnus"or "Marturn” or “Marto”. You get it.
I am an ex swiftie and i have to say this album is kind of great. However it also angered me at somepoint especially getaway car like ITS MY FAVE ACTUALLY BUT I FEEL BAD THAT ITS ABOUT TOM AND NOT PAYING HIM DUST. Like was that necessary? after all hes been through when they were together. Tom was there for her when she was being dragged to hell and back. Tom is a really good man it hurts me to imagine how hed feel when he hears the song. It's good though. Somehow it sounded like an apology??
Well she says they were both sorry and the last 30 seconds makes me feel like she felt bad for leaving him like she did. But it’s also saying it’s no surprise they didn’t work out.
So one of the main reasons I quit Facebook is that it’s impossible to disable the memories “feature”. It’s horrible and destructive to my mental state. This morning I woke up to a similar “feature” in the photos app on my phone. Also impossible to disable. Lengthy sigh. The first thing I saw was the smiling face of a truly cruel person that has done a lot of damage to my life, announcing the awesome new feature for iPhone. I was positive I’d erased all traces of her, but iPhone found one. Today is going to be great. I suddenly have a lot of anger to deal with and nowhere to put it. Who do I talk to about the fact that for some wretched, unfortunate, pitiful people in this world, not ALL memories are good?
Summary: What happens when two hormonal teenagers accidentally switch into a porn channel when they were tug-o-warring the remote?
[[based of this prompt: Muse A and Muse B are watching a movie together, when suddenly an unexpected sexy/sexual scene comes on, causing extreme awkwardness between them, as they are crushing on each other but not yet together.]]
Warnings: The most detailed smutty smutty smut I have ever written.
Word Count: 2564
Grab your bibles and your holy books cause yall about to sin. YALL NEED JESUS!