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1. “I don’t want to have a baby.”

2. “Did you enjoy yourself last night?” 

3. “Are you kidding me? We’re not ‘fine’!

4. “You’ve only heard his side of the story. You never asked for mine.”

5. “Well, this is where I live.”

6. “Oh my God! You’re in love with him/her!”

7. “You make me feel like I’m not good enough.” 

8. “For some reason I’m attracted to you.” 

9. “I am not losing you again.”

10. “Why don’t they just kiss already?” 

11. “I think I picked up your coffee by mistake.”

12. “All I wanted was your honesty.”

13. “Why do you keep pushing me away?”

14. “I can’t explain right now, but I need you to trust me.”

15. “I’ve never felt this way before….and it scares the shit out of me.”

16. “Don’t fucking touch me!” 

17. “Are you really taking his side against me?”

18. “Wait a second are you jealous?” 

19. “I wish I could hate you.”

20. “I’m sorry if this upsets you, but I’m going to marry her/him.”

21. “You know, it hurt when I realized that you’re not in love with me. But nothing can compare to the pain I felt when I saw you fall in love with her.”

22. “Come over here and make me.” 

23. “This is by far the stupidest plan you’ve ever had. Of course I’m in.”

24. “You’re the only one I trust to do this.”

25. “I thought you were dead.”

26. “This isn’t just about you. It’s about what’s best for all of us.”

27. “I love you, you asshole.”

28. “You did this for me?” 

29. “You can’t protect me.”

30. “You know I wouldn’t do this if I had any other choice.”

31. “Promise me you’ll look after your mom.”  

32. “I’m so stupid to make the mistake of falling in love with my best friend.”

33. “Stop talking about the past, I could be dead in a matter of hours… make me up a future.”

34. “The way you flirt is shameful.”

35. “I waited and waited, but you never came back.”

36. “You never told me you had a fucking twin.”

37. “I want to go back to before….”

38. “I just wanted an easy day with my girlfriend/boyfriend. What’s so wrong with that?”

39. “Go then, leave! See if I care!”

40. “Why are you up so early?”

41. “Please, take me instead!”

42. “You braided his hair?”

43. “She’s been missing since Friday and you’re not worried?”

44. “Have you lost your damn mind?!”

45.  “Please don’t argue. You have to leave right now, you aren’t safe here.”

46.  “I’m your daughter.”

47. “I’m not surprised that you murdered him.”

48. “Is there a special reason, as to why you’re wearing my shirt?”

49. “Am I supposed to be scared of you?”

50. “Don’t use me as an example. I wasn’t a good kid.”

51. “Is that what you’re doing? Trying to make me to hate you?”

52. “I’ve been in love with you my entire life.”

53. “I’m not happy here.”

54. “If he’s going to treat you like shit I’m going to kick his ass.”

55. “I just want to cuddle and watch Friends.”

56. “You’re hiding something from me.”

57. “If I die, I’m going to haunt your ass.”

58. “I want my best friend back.”

59.  “You better have a good reason for waking me up at the ass-crack of dawn.”

60. “I don’t know what I did to deserve you.”

61. “A wedding?”

62. “I just want to be alone right now.”

63. “Don’t you dare to ever do that again!”

64. “Where would someone hide in a town like this?”

65. “If I ever see you anywhere near her, you’ll have to deal with me!”

66. “I thought you were a dream come true.”

67. “Everyone keeps telling me you’re the bad guy.”

68. “I came here to explain what happened, and I’m not leaving until you listen.”

69. “I made a mistake.”

70. “H-How long have you been standing there?”

71. “You can’t break my heart like this!”

72. “I wasn’t going to wait around for you forever.”

73. “The skirt is supposed to be this short.”

74. “I’ve moved on.”

75. “This is why you don’t ever have any shirts to wear.”

76. “Run, and don’t ever look back.”

77. “The three seconds rule doesn’t apply to sticky foods.”

78. “I think I’m in love with you, and I’m terrified.”

79. “Please, don’t give up on me.”

80. “When are you going to realize that I don’t care?”

81. “I may be an idiot but I’m your idiot.”

82. “When you love someone, you just don’t stop. Ever. Even when people roll their eyes or call you crazy… even then. Specially then!”

83. “Fuck…I feel I’ve been hit by a car.”

84. “Those things you said yesterday… Did you mean them?”

85. “I know that you have reached a decision, but given that it is a stupid ass decision I have elected to ignore it”

86. “I’m tired of being your secret.”

87. “They always make shower sex sound so appealing, but honestly it seems quite dangerous.”

88. “Do you ever think if people heard our conversations they’d lock us up?”

89. “Let me tell you exactly where in hell you can go.”

90.“Who gave you that black eye?!”

91. “After everything you did, you’re asking ME to apologize for snapping at you ONCE?”

92. “I miss her so damn much, and it’s killing me that she’s gone!”

93. “What the hell are you doing here?! I told you I never wanted to see you again!”

94. “It must be hard with your sense of direction, never being able to find your way to a decent pickup line.”

95. “Are you drunk?”

96. "I’m sorry, what were you saying? I keep getting lost in your eyes.”

97. “You got her pregnant?! What were you thinking?”

98. “It’s okay baby, I’m here for you.”

99. “You say the nastiest things when you’re angry, so yes, I’m walking away from you now.

100. “I’m starting an idiot jar. Any time you do or say anything idiotic, you have to put at least a dollar in it—more depending on how stupid the thing that you said or did was.”

101. “My parents asked about you.”

102.“Oh, gosh, you’ve insulted me! What ever shall I do? I’ll be mentally and emotionally scared for years!”

103. “You haven’t even touched your food. What’s going on?”

104. “Do you need me to get anything from the store?”

105. “They say I’m in here because I’m crazy, I think I’m crazy because I’m in here.”

106. “There’s no getting out of this. You ruined me”

107. “If you don’t want to talk about what happened, then say so. Don’t just lie and say it’s fine.”

108. “I was going to kiss him, but then my friend texted me about going to Taco Bell, and, well, there’s this cashier that works there who is way cuter, so I bailed on the rest of the date.”

109. “Don’t say you love me.”

110. “It’s a hobby of mine to prove you wrong.”

Pass the salt

@incorrectprinxietyquotes @theasgardiandetective @sanders-snippets

…..has this already been done?? Eh whatever have a small fic

((inspired by sanders-snippets contribution to asguardiandetective’s fanart which was inspired by incorrectprinxietyquotes’ chat which came from somewhere I don’t remember))

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No one had any idea what was going on with Prince. It had happened twice in one week and the others were getting tired of bruises and the feeling of flying through the air.

It had all started with Morality. He was in the living room, making a blanket fort while Logic sat at the table. Morality couldn’t make the blankets corner stay in place, it kept slipping off the table.

He looked around for something to use when he spotted the encyclopedia sitting on Logic’s poly of books. Prince strolled into the room, humming a Disney tune with a peppy step.

“Hey Prince! Can you throw me that encyclopedia there?” He pointed at the table with a smile, watching as Prince nodded.

“Of course Morality, anything to help with the construct of an amazing blanket fort!” Morality nodded happily, holding out his arms for the book.

What he got was an armful of Logic.

In an instant, Morality was on the floor with Logic in his arms, both equally confused as Prince continued his way up the stairs with a happy hum.

The next time it happened, Morality and Anxiety sat in the dad side’s room, Anxiety sorting through the massive pile of stuffed animals Morality had collected.

He threw a couple behind him, sifting through the biggest ones. “Morality, how do you even have so many that you need two people to look through your pile of you want to find anything?”

Morality shrugged, sitting on his desk across the room. “I don’t know! But what I do know, is that you’re doing a great job slugger!”

Anxiety rolled his eyes, pulling out a giraffe stuffie from the pile. “Here we go.” Morality squealed happily, clapping his hands. “Perfect! Toss him over!”

Anxiety looked at Morality incredulously.“No. I’m going to put the pile back and then I’m going to walk over and give it to you.” He didn’t wait for a response before he started piling stuffed animals back onto the pile.

A voice came from the door.“What are you two doing with the fluffy mountain?” It was Prince.

While Morality gave an explanation, Anxiety continued to work on the pile.

“Hey Princey, hand me that teddy bear, would you?” Anxiety asked, not looking up.

The first thing he heard was, “Okay.” The next was a loud scream.

Something crashed into him so hard he fell forward, crashing into the pile with a scream of his own. Stuffed animals flew everywhere and Prince wandered down the hall with a happy tune.

It happened again at the breakfast table. Prince had gotten the unfortunate habit of throwing the other sides left and right and it was getting ridiculous.

Anxiety stepped into the living room,staring at the table.

“Oh Anxiety! Come take your seat kiddo!!” Morality said, waving at the empty chair that sat next to Prince, a happy smile that said “accept-your-fate-kiddo”.

So, begrudgingly, he slid into the chair next to Prince, giving the royal a side eye as he dug into his coffee-filled cereal bowl.

Logic sat at the end if the table messing with his food. “Roman. Please pass the salt.”

Anxiety nearly screamed as Prince turned, snaking an arm under his legs and back, leaning back in preparation to throw. “Roman I swear to god of you fucking dare-”

“Now now Kiddo, we’ve talked about throwing people at the table!” Morality scolded, looking up from reading newspaper comics.

Prince huffed softly, setting Anxiety back in his chair and returning to his food.

~

Prince stepped through the mindscape door, hanging up his sword by the door and taking off his shoes. He happily bounced into the living room, stopping when he saw Anxiety standing next to a large pile of pillows with his arms crossed and a smug smirk.

Prince raised an eyebrow, watching the darker trait carefully. “Wha-?”

“Hey, Morality and Logic? Could you pass me the storybook?”

A set of arms grabbed his legs while another held his back as he was suddenly flipped, carried by the two mentioned side.

“Wait wait wait what-”

In a second he was flying through the air, a scream tearing from his lips as he landed in the pile of pillows, Anxiety cackling above him.

“How does it feel Princey?”

He rolled over, glaring up at Anxiety with squinted eyes. “Not as great as I imagined.”

Anxiety smirked. “Exactly. Keep your hands to yourself next time.”

anonymous asked:

Hi! Have you written a post about why you like chlo/nath that I could check out? Or could you maybe explain, if you haven't? I'm curious about the pairing and I want to know more about it! Thank you and hope you have a good day!

Hi nonny!! Great question!! I’ve discussed the ship before and how i got roped into the madness here: click me for the link!! (i rec reading some of the reblogs and replies on that post for other peoples story on how they came into the ship!!) 

i also talk about it here and here

basically the amazing @karawek drew peacock!nathanael and bee!chloe AND I WAS A GONER ;o;/ they are so beautiful!! and kara’s art is gorgeous!!! we chatted about it and came up with an au based around it and ever since then IVE BEEN SCREWED!! here’s the post that outlines the buzzkill au

check out kara’s art here and her chlonath art (x x x x x x) …ok some of those are just nathanael, but OMGGGGGGGGG ;o;/ 

Also, my boo, @twindoodle helped perpetuate this great love….HAVE YOU SEEN HER ART?!?!? like not just her chlonath art….but like ALL HER ART!!! i remember following her before i shipped chlonath, cause her art was so good! and then when i fell into the chlonath trash can i noticed she drew peacock!nathanael and bee!chloe based of karawek’s art and I DIEEEEDDD x___x 

links to twins art, her chlonath art, and her buzzkill art (x x)

Also this past june, i hosted chlonathweek2k17!!! it was loads of fun and so amazing to see a boost in such amazing chlonath content!!! 

Here’s a link to (hopefully all!) of the chlonathweek2k17 posts!! I tried my best to reblog every post!! (Ill have to delve through the tag again to double check!!) i also made a google spreadsheet with all the posts linked for each day! ill link it here if you’re interested!! (i also need to make sure thats up to date!! XD) 

other than that, i just think aesthetically they look adorable with each other! the blondie with the redhead gives me mad spitfire vibes and i love young justice! ;o;/ and i love the idea of nathanael being more and more willful like his superhero dream-self, and finding the courage to stand up to chloe. and i love the idea of chloe having an arc of redemption and them having that sort of gets on each other’s nerves but in a playful joking manner dynamic! 

another great chlonath artist is @aarspi ;o;/ like WOW! so many good pieces!!! and they also collabed with the amazing writer @krzed for chlonath week, AND MURDERED ME DOUBLY WITH THEIR ART AND WRITING!!!

Here’s a few links to some of my fav aarspi chlonath art (x x x x x x)

other notable posts that are up there as my top favs: 

@corgi-likes-chat made this beautiful nathbee kiss kiss 

@twindoodle KILLED ME WITH BUG BABIES

@lunian also committed homicide in my murder with more chlonath babies

@mardimari just spoils me with cute! >////////<

@moonviewer anything moonviewer draws, I LOVE! this one particularly!!

@siderealscribblings this cute fanfic!!!

@clmeeni has an amazing angel!nathanael au in the works! and i’m already so in love with it!!! nathangel!!! amazing!!! here’s some art for it (x x x)

tldr: i ship them mostly because the love of my life, @karawek drew this and i died, since then i fell in love with the idea of both chloe and nathanael growing and developing as characters! and there have been so many talented artists and writers that have done just that!!

if youre looking for that sweet sweet chlonath content, feel free to peruse my chlonath tag on my blog (its linked in my description the lil 🍅 🐝 and ill link it here again!!

I KNOW IM MISSING LIKE 50 MILLION OTHER THINGS! butttttttt im starting to fall asleep and i really REALLY wanted to answer this ask, because it just got me so excited!! but i hope this helps as a smol introduction to the ship!!! honestly it’s just fun to play in the sandbox of this amazing universe thomas astruc created, this fandom is lovely and ill ship just about anything if there’s good content for it!!! this ship just so happens to be filled with beautiful art and lovely stories that grabbed my attention!! and through it I’ve made the greatest of friends and had so much fun!! 

anonymous asked:

You know what I was thinking? What if, in one of the net charity livestreams, they did a giveaway for merch instead of donating themselves? Like, you know how sometimes Mark donates to meet certain goals or to match what has been donated already, but if he turned that into merch giveaways with the money still going to the charity, people like me who can't buy merch/donate could feel a bit more included :') It was just and idea, idk if they have done it before, but it would be really nice :]

Yo! That’s actually a really good idea. If Mark somehow found out about it, he might consider it omg

That’d be really awesome :)

A Few Random ROE Observations/Rants

* Why the Hell is Party!Twin working as a waitress (in a hot dog costume no less) and “barely bringing in any money”? She has a 100 million dollars! I can understand not wanting to be idle, but she could be doing volunteer work with her time wheile she looks for a job.

* The cousin mentions that Party!Twin took school through the summer to graduate on time, uhhhh… When? She was on a cruise ship all summer. And graduation was a few months before the fall festival, so presumably not after the summer semester. Also why wouldn’t she have graduated on time? 

* Why did Nerdy!Twin graduate before Party!Twin? I mean, it would make sense for them to be at differenct schools, but the dialogue makes it sound like Nerdy!twin was already done school and launching her company.

* It sounds like Party!Twin had no idea that her brother had been married before? From the way he brushed her questions off. Even if she was a a teenager at the time (possible as I theorize a 6-8 year age gap between the brother and the twins), surely she would have been aware that her brother was *married*, especially since her sister has pictures of the ex-wife in her family album.

I already have a feeling this book is going to give me a major headache.

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“This is for you, Thomas.” Alexander hands him an envelope.

His chest is tight, as his heart pounds against his ribs. Alexander can’t bring himself to meet Thomas’ eyes, so he just stares at the floor, mindlessly counting the tiles in effort to subdue his worry. He wonders if telling him in this way was a bad idea, and if perhaps waiting for evidence of reciprocated feelings first would have been smarter. However there’s no changing what has already been done, and the most he can do is wait for a response. It feels like time is standing still, because every second that passes drones on, and somehow his mind jumbles together thoughts so quickly, he can hardly believe a minute hasn’t passed yet.

He fiddles with the sleeve of his grey sweater, nervously twisting the fabric between his fingers. His letter is only a page long, is Thomas finished reading it yet? No, it’s only been a few minutes now, he can’t expect a response so soon. Alexander begins second guessing himself; he wonders if his heavy use of poetic verses and rhetorical devices were too cliché, or if somehow his message wasn’t clear enough— no that was impossible, even someone as dense as Thomas would know, he’d only have to take one look at it to know it’s contents. In hindsight, scribbling a heart beside Thomas’ name on the outside of the envelop might have been a bad idea, but who really knows. The sickly anxiety pulsing through him is yelling that all his ideas are bad, so he isn’t exactly sure what to believe.

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Here it is, next part of this journey! Enjoy! If you want to be tagged in this, let me know :)


Warnings: none

Pairing: Thorin x reader

Part 1  Part 2  Part 3  Part 4  Part 5  Part 6  Part 7  Part 8  Part 9  Part 10


Night was falling upon Bag End and dwarves had settled in Bilbo´s house. As you sat at the armchair in the living room drinking your tea, the company started to gather around, smoking their pipes by the fire. They all start to hum a melody that you quite can´t recognise but it sounds a little sad song. To your surprise, Thorin begins to sing first and as you listen to his quiet, deep baritone voice, you feel little melancholy because of it and you don´t know why.

 

”Far over the misty mountains cold

To dungeons deep and caverns old

We must away ere break of day

To find our long-forgotten gold.”

 

As Thorin keeps singing, others soon join in and stand up. You see from the corner of your eye that Gandalf is nearby, silently listening and smoking his own pipe. Althought not every dwarf in that living room had experienced what happened in Erebor 60 years ago, they can still feel the loss through that song.

 

”The pines were roaring on the height

The winds were moaning in the night

The fire was red, it flaming spread

The trees like torches blazed with light”

 

Later that night you decided to take a short walk and admire The Shire´s view of the night. It was so quiet and peaceful, something that wasn´t going to last when you are going to travel through the wilderness. As you were putting on your cloak so you don´t get cold, Thorin appears in front of you. ”Where are you going this time of hour?” he askes quietly looking straight to your eyes in a way which can make you weak in the knees. ”I was thinking about taking a short walk around Bag End. I´ve never being here and unlikely ever again will be so, I´m gonna enjoy it while I still can.” you answer him fixing your hair and fasten your clip in your cloak so it stays on and keeps you warm. Thorin doesn´t say anything but instead takes his fur coat and puts it on. You stare at him for a second before a wide smile appears into your face. ”So you´re gonna join me then?” Thorin chuckles and puts his arm around your waist kissing you gently before guiding you through the door into the starry night. ”Of course I am. There is no way I´m going to let my One wander off unfamiliar territory without an escort.” You don´t say anything to that, just roll your eyes and match your pace with him while you two start to walk a sandy path toward the area of trees that surrounds a small pond making it look like a world of it´s own. It´s in the middle of Bag End but still aside enough so you can enjoy each others company in peace.

You sit down on the grass and Thorin leans his back against the tree so you can lean on him as you settle down between his legs, resting your head on his left shoulder. He wrappes his arms around you protectively and takes a deep breath of the chilly night air and looks ahead toward the pond. For a while you two don´t speak, just regard the scenery in front of you. Moon has appeared to the sky and it reflects on the surface of the water quite perfectly. It was so quiet, you could almost hear your own heartbeat but occasional hoot of a barn owl breaks the silence. Finally you can hear Thorin´s quiet and low voice near to your right ear. ”You do realize how dangerous this journey is going to get ibinê?” he asks worry evident in his tone as he rests his chin on your shoulder looking at your face from the corner of his eye. Of course you do, how many times you had been on a journey knowing that every day could´ve been your last? But you don´t say that to him, this isn´t the time to start arguing, you don´t want to ruin this moment by doing that. Besides, Thorin has every right to worry, this isn´t nothing like the trip you two took in order to find his father. This is much more serious there are more people and Thorin feels the weigh of the responsibility of each and every one of them in his shoulders. It´s his burden, but you´re determined to help him in any way you can. ”Yes Thorin I do, but I´m not alone am I? You are there and so are 13 other warriors so…I think we´re good. And if and when there are dangerous situtations ahead, we deal with them, one at a time.” you tell him turning your head slightly so you can look him in the eyes. He smiles looking at you and presses a soft kiss to tip of your nose and that earns you to turn up your nose and wiggle it like a bunny because his beard tickles you. At that Thorin raises his eyebrow before grinning and that´s the only warning you get before he starts to tickle your sides.

Squeling you try to get away from his hold but he is too strong for you. Lying on your stomach on the ground, Thorin is above you pressing his right knee on your back so you can´t escape from him while he keeps tickling you. ”This is what you get for turning up your nose to your king.” Thorin says to you chuckling while you are choking in your own laugh trying desperately to get away from his grasp. ”Thorin….pl..ple..please…sto…stop!” You are now squirming under him but he shows you no mercy, instead he lowers his hands knowing that just above your hipbones is very sensitive area that makes you loose your mind. Attacking on that area sets you off and you´re sure that you´re going to die in laughter.

After a while he finally lets you to have a breather but he is still hovering over you. When you have calmed down enough, he lowers his head, his raven black hair engulfing your field of view, his hands are each side of your head and you can feel his lips against your ear as he speaks quietly. ”Learned your lesson akhûnith?” Thorin says with a very low tone and his breath is tickling your skin which makes your hair in your neck to stand up as you start to shiver because of it, his voice always has that influence on you. You suddenly have lost your ability to speak as you can feel some of his weight on your back and his lips against your ear. ”Turn around.” is the next thing he is whispering to you and you can hear the authority in his voice and slowly you obey him turning to lay on your back. Your heart misses a beat when you see Thorin´s gaze on you. He lowers himself so he is laying on top of you but taking some of his weight so he isn´t crushing you keeping his sapphire blue eyes fixed on your face the whole time, his intense gaze and the feeling of his weigh on you is slowly setting you on fire as you can feel that familiar yearning inside your body building up. You can see the passion in his eyes as his pupils are dilating the longer he´s holding your gaze in his like he already knows what he is doing to you just by looking at you. ”It´s been a while since I have seen you beneath me looking like that…..do you have any idea what you´re doing to me?” he whispers pressing his lips onto your neck just enough so you can feel his light touch. You can´t speak, you don´t dare to speak instead you tilt your head further back so he can more easily make his way down on your neck mapping you body like he has done so many times before. Low growl of approval vibrates through his chest as he starts to undress you little by little taking his time, there is no hurry, he wants to savor that moment as long as possible because who knows when is the next time you two can be together like this. His kisses on your skin, his hands on your lower body caressing you…under the starry sky your fiancé is making sure you know just how much he adores and loves you.


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Oh holy. I have no idea how to feel about this.

Had to go to school and do an exam that I had missed previously because of my illness. Was really super nervous about it because it’s chemistry and I’m horrible at chemistry, and everyone who had already done the exam kept complaining and saying how difficult it had been. And our school has the rule that when one has to catch up on an exam that they have missed, the exam will be made more difficult (in case that the person had missed the exam on purpose to study more for it).

Well. About that…

I had seen the exam the others had taken. It was full of math problems, like calculating the molar mass and writing down the chemical equation off things. All things I wasn’t looking forward to.

I sat down for the exam with a really bad gut feeling and – couldn’t help but stare at the paper my teacher laid before me.

No math problems. No molar mass. There were multiple choice questions and fill-in-the-blank text and other very easy things.

I looked up at my teacher, ready to ask him if this was the right paper, perhaps he had mixed up something – and he smiled at me, patted my back and said, “Good luck, I’m sure you will do well!” and walked out.

He had given me an easier exam on purpose.

I think it’s super nice of him and all that, giving me a chance at all – because I would surely have failed the exam the others had taken, and even more so if it was made more difficult – but… even if I don’t really like my classmates for bullying me and others, even if I’m glad that I could get a good grade in this subject just once… this doesn’t feel completely right. It feels unfair, to get favorited like that.

My whole family was like “You deserve to get things made easier for you, not harder, just once”, but my sense of justice doesn’t really agree on that.

Really don’t know what’s best here. Just be grateful and say nothing or speak up against it.   

“Two’s company” -h.s. Part 6

Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3 / Part 4 / Part 5

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Your apartment was so ridiculously quiet that you felt on edge when you stepped into it late, late the next night. Ruby had dropped you off after a long car ride of asking a million questions about your trip, the culture, the people, and mostly - unfortunately - about Harry. 

“He waited with me for like an hour,” Ruby said, swishing her long red hair over her shoulder. “He told me all about your trip and how you two kind of like took on an entire jungle and I seriously cannot believe you were able to do that! He’s so sweet. I remember you two were so close in school and everyone was jealous.”

“Yeah.”

“And I mean totally not that it was probably like being with a celebrity and all since you knew him from school but was it weird being with him again? Why’d he even go?”

“He had the time. He was bored. My mum was nervous about me going on my own.”

“That’s so interesting! Was he different than you remember? He seemed really tired and exhausted when we talked but obviously it was because he’d just gotten off his flight.”

The conversation had gone on for a little while longer. You’d given small little answers for everything but mainly you lulled in and out of sleep. Your apartment was far too quiet when you arrived though and you almost wished you’d have Ruby’s constant talk to fill the void. Your bed was too comfortable too, and too large to sleep in all by yourself. 

So that night you barely slept, scrolling through your laptop and catching up on two months worth of social media and information in a night before sleeping for maybe an hour or two. You were making coffee in the morning when your mum showed up - muffins in one hand and a big hug looping around you from the other side. 

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I have been wanting to try these for a while but I’m not really sure where to start. If anyone has any tips on getting started with doing energy readings feel free to send them in. I already do some energy work so I have an idea of the basics on how it works but the more info one can collect the better right? I’m hoping to do readings for people here once I feel comfortable since I have no one I can practice with physically (most my energy work is done with plants and animals in nature along with myself and pet dog Duke.)

#58- “I’ve been in love with you my entire life. Ever since the first day I met you.” Prompt

From @ashleyvc88 - “#58 with Enzo”

@allgirlswrestlingclub


Y/n fiddled with her dress, while everyone around her hustled and bustled. She was super nervous, and had every right to be. She was about to get married to one of the greatest guys she has ever met. 

   “Are you ready sweetheart?”

Y/n was released from her for by her dad. He looks at his daughter and she gives him a nervous smile. He kisses her hand and locks arms with her.

   “You are going to be fine baby girl. He loves you and you love him. Nothing in else in the the world matters.”

Y/n wipes away the stray tear that fell from her father’s eye.

   “Dad, if you start crying, then I’m going to cry. We gotta to keep it together until we get out there.”

They both let out a small laugh as the wedding march starts playing. Y/n takes a deep breath and her father puts the veil over his daughter’s face as the doors open. They start their slow walk down the aisle, with the faces of all y/n’s friends, family as well are her future in-laws and future family staring in awe. Y/n keeps her head down slightly, but locks her eyes on her future husband, only feet away from her now. She sees his icy baby blues welling up with tears, causing her to feel her own array of tears. She takes a deep breath to try and stop or at least delay the arrival. Y/n and her father reach the altar and he takes his daughter’s hand and places it in her future husbands. He gently kisses her on the cheek and walks over to his seat. Y/n looks straight ahead into the eyes of her love, smiling. He gently grabs the veil, pushing it over her head and inhales deeply looking at his ravishing bride. He whispers while the priest starts talking to everyone.

   “You look beautiful.”

   “You don’t look so bad yourself.”

Y/n whispers back to her groom. He looks so sharp and sophisticated, unlike his normal appearance. Without his J’s, no leopard print, and his hair tamed, Y/n hardly recognizes him. Y/n quickly runs a hand over his hair, letting it loose a little bit, causing him to chuckle.

   “You didn’t like it all slicked down?”

   “It isn’t you Zo. I’m marrying you, and I wouldn’t change a thing about it.” 

   “Would the bride and groom like to exchange their own vows?”

The priest interrupts their whisper session and they both nod. Enzo clears his throat and starts.

   “Y/n, what can I say that I haven’t said to you before. You are a gorgeous, amazing woman who is waaay to good for me, but somehow I snatched ya up. I’ve been in love with you my entire life. Ever since the first day I met you. Back down in developmental, you were already there, kicking you know what and taking names. When I walked through those doors, I was starstruck. Before me, I saw this strong, beautiful woman who could hold her own and that’s when I knew I needed you in my life. That’s when I grew a pair and walked up to you, and well the rest I guess is history. From NXT, to the main roster. From takeover specials, to PPVs. From kick-off matches, to main eventing matches. Y/n you have been there through it all with me, helping me get along, being my manager, my tag partner, my go to gal. Y/n, I love you with all my leopard print stained heart. I cannot wait to be with you forever and beyond.”

Enzo gets a few chuckles throughout his vows and Y/n smiles at him and starts her own vows.

   “Zo, from day one, I knew there was something about you that caught my eye. I wasn’t sure at the time whether it was the two-toned hair in a crazy style, the stylish J’s, the leopard print everything, or that thick Jersey accent. I realize now, that it was and is all of those things and more. What people see on t.v is the over the top Enzo. But what I got to see was the man with the biggest love not only for the business, but for all the fans, and for me. I got to see the guy who took care of me when I got injured, and thought my career was over. I got to see the guy who loved to play with his dogs. Got to see the guy who never put himself first. So the Enzo everyone got to see every week, I got to experience EA all day everyday. Zo, i love you and that is never going to change. This girl is gonna stick with you through the toughest times, and love that big leopard print stained heart of yours forever and always.”

Y/n also gets a chuckle or two in her vows. Enzo uses his hand not holding y/n’s to wipe away the tears that fall from his eyes. Then wipes away y/n’s tears that fell while she gave her vows. The pair smile at each other and then the priest.

   “Do you, Enzo Amore, take Y/n to be your wife? For the good times and the bad?

   “I do.”

   “And Y/n, do you take Enzo Amore to be your husband? For the good times and the bad?”

   “I do.”

   “Then by the power vested in me, I now pronounce you man and wife, you may now kiss the bride.”

The crowd erupts into cheers as Enzo pulls Y/n in for a soft kiss. The couple rest their foreheads against each others while smiling.

   “Now for the honeymoon.”

Enzo wiggles his eyebrows, causing Y/n to giggle.

   “How you doin.”

She says in her best Jersey accent causing her now husband to laugh. The couple turn toward their families and friends and start back down the aisle, ready to start their lives together.


Ello!

First, I want to apologize because it took me so long to get another drabble out. I was having severe writer’s block, but I hope this Enzo Fluff helps a little. 

Next, I just want to say how thankful I am for all of you!! You guys keeping liking and commenting on my drabbles and requesting them, and that honeslty makes me soooo happy! BTW , my requests are always OPEN so feel free to give me your request.

Finally, for the Prompts: WWE- give me a wrestler and a number and anything you want included and I will do it (unless the number has already been taken). Writing- Give me any character, any fandom, number and whatever you would like in it (unless the number is already taken). Inbox, or message me your ideas. I would love to hear them :) 

  Feel free to talk to me too! I love a good conversation and I love meeting new people!

See you soon with another drabble, I have a list and an order so bare with me if it takes me a little bit to get to yours, but I promise it will be done <3 :D

Ciao loves <333

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Jacksepticeye's Outro (FULL SONG)
I DO NOT OWN THIS SONG!! This is the full song of jacksepticeyes outro called "I'm everywhere" by Tecknoaxe. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JPtNBwMIQ9Q

This reminds me of Anti. I know people have already said this but the more i listen to i the more i get Anti vibes. Some people said that Anti has been over done and lost the feeling or that Jack has mocked or talked about him too much instead of just letting it be a creepy and spoopy mystery like it was in the begging of his appearance. The idea of Anti always watching is super creepy. 

low key i feel so bad because I didn’t see this until now x3 omg XD I’m so sorry

FASHION/APPEARANCE STATS

BOLD what applies to your muse.

TAGGED BY:  @larknnightingale​ (omg thank you so much for tagging me!!!)
TAGGING: (no idea who has and hasn’t been tagged XD i’m so sorry if you’ve done this already) @bloodbluebat@mosaic-marquise@kittykatkatfish@thesilverarmada@aqualinnea@whatwillowtree@valgami

BODY.

Long legs. Short legs. Average legs. Slender thighs. Thicc thighs. Muscular thighs. Skinny arms. Soft arms. Muscular arms. Toned stomach. Flat stomach. Flabby Stomach. Soft stomach. Six-pack. Beer belly. Lean frame. Beefy / muscular frame. Voluptuous frame. Petite frame.  Lanky frame. Short nails. Long nails. Manicured nails. Dirty nails. Flat ass. Toned ass. Bubble butt. Small waist. Thick waist. Narrow hips. Average hips. Wide hips. Big feet. Average feet. Small feet. Soft feet. Slender feet. Calloused hands. Soft hands. Big hands. Average hands. Small hands. Long fingers. Short fingers. Average fingers. Broad shoulders. Underweight. Average weight. Overweight.

HEIGHT.

Shorter than 140 cm. 141 cm-150 cm. 151 cm to 160 cm. 161 cm to 170 cm. 171 cm to 180cm.181 cm to 190 cm. 191 cm to 2m. Taller than 2 m.

SKIN.

Pale. Rosy. Olive. Dark. Tanned. Blotchy. Smooth. Acne. Dry. Greasy. Freckled.

EYES.

Small. Large. Average. Grey. Brown. Blue. Violet. Green. Gold. Hazel. Doe-eyed. Almond. Close-set. Wide-set. Deep-set. Squinty. Monolid. Heavy eyelids. Upturned. Downturned.

HAIR.

Thin. Thick. Fine. Normal. Greasy. Dry. Soft. Shiny. Curly. Frizzy. Wild. Unruly. Straight. Smooth. Wavy. Floppy. Cropped. Pixie-cut. Afro. Shoulder length. Back length. Waist length. (ish) Past hip-length. Buzz cut. Bald. Weave. Hair extensions. Jaw length. Mohawk. Dreadlocks. Box braids. Faux locks. White. Platinum blonde. Golden blonde. Dirty blonde. Blonde. Ombre. Light brown. Mouse brown. Chestnut brown. Golden brown. Chocolate brown. Dark brown. Jet black. Ginger. Red. Auburn. Dyed red. Dyed any “unnatural color” (a/n only option for her hair but it’s natural and not dyed). Thin eyebrows.Average eyebrows. Thick eyebrows.Plucked eyebrows.

TATTOOS / PIERCINGS.    

Full sleeve. Thigh tattoo. Neck tattoo. Chest tattoo. Back Tattoo.  Shoulder blade Tattoo.One tattoo. Face tattoo. A few here and there. Multiple. No tattoo. Monroe piercing. Nose piercing. Septum. Nipple piercing(s). Genital piercing(s). Industrial piercings. Earlobe piercings. Prince Albert piercing. Eyebrow piercing(s). Tongue piercing(s). Lip piercing(s). Top of the ear.Tragus piercing. Angel bites. Labret. Stretches out ears. Navel piercing. Inverse navel piercing. Cheek piercing(s). Smiley. Nape piercing(s). No piercings.

COSMETICS.

Eyeliner. Light eyeliner. Heavy eyeliner. Cat eyes. Mascara. Fake eyelashes. Matte lipstick.Regular lipstick. Lipgloss. Red lips. Pink lips. Dark lips. Bronzer. Highlighter. Eyeshadow. Neutral eyeshadow. Smoky eyes. Colorful eyeshadow. Blush. Lipliner. Light contouring. Heavy contouring. Powder. Matte foundation. Shiny foundation. Concealer. Wears make up regularly. Wears it from time to time. Rarely wears make-up.

SCENT.

Floral. Earthy. Fruity. Perfumes. Aftershave. Cocoa. Moisturizer. Shampoo. Cigarettes. Leather. Sweat. Food. Incense. Marijuana.Cologne. Whiskey. Wine. Fried food. Blood. Fire. Metal. Rain. noNE OF THESE SHE SMELLS LIKE LAVENDER

CLOTHES.  

Jeans. Tight pants. Overknee socks. Tights. Leggings. Yoga pants. Pencil skirt. Tight skirt.Loose skirt. Tight / formfitting dress.Cardigans. Blouse. Button up shirt. Band-T-shirt. Sports-T-shirt. Sweatpants. Tanktop. Cut off t-shirt. Designer. High street.Leather Jacket. Online stores.Thrift. Lingerie. Long skirt. Miniskirt. Maxidress. Sun dress. Tie. Tuxedo. Cocktail dress. Highslit dress / skirt. T-shirt. Loose clothing. Tight clothing. Jean shorts. Sweater. Sweater vest. Waistcoat. Khaki pants. Suit. Hoodie.Harem pants. Basketball shorts. Boxers / Boxer-Briefs. Thong. Hotpants. Hipster panties. Bra. Sportsbra. Crop top. Corset. Ballerina skirt. Leotard. Polka dot. Stripes. Glitter. Silk.  Lace. Leather. Velvet. Chemise. Patterns. Florals. Neon colors. Pastels.Light colors. White. Black. Dark colors. Fur / Faux fur. Revealing clothing. lol best way i could describe it sort of

SHOES.  

Sneakers. Slip-ons. Flats. Slippers. Sandals. High heels. Kitten heels. Ankle boots. Combat boots. Knee-high. Platforms. Stripper heels. Bare feet. Loafers. Oxfords. Gladiator shoes.

Updates!

 OK November 1st is almost here, meaning it’s almost time for Nanowrimo. Meaning I will be attempting to write a whole novel. This doesn’t mean that I will be abandoning my writing here. I know I’ve been slow to release updates and requests. My depression and anxiety has been horrible, like I barely eat and sleep type of horrible. I have been feeling a little better and getting inspiration for my stories. 

The Reaper’s Angel Book 3 updates

Chap1 - Already posted!

  • Chap2 - I’m 6 pages in and not done! 
  • One shots - I have ideas for at least 3 that will take place from books 1 and a couple that are inspired by book 2. 

  • I’m also working on the story banner for the master list


The Walking Anarchy

  • Chap2 - I have about a full page typed out but I have tons of notes on this. 
  • I have an outline started and I’m thinking this series will be about 10-12 chapters long, maybe more depending on how inspired I can get. I have 2 ideas for the ending so this may have a “pick your ending” thing. 


Requests: 

  • I currently have 6 in my messages. I have maybe 2 of them 50% done. They’ve all been started though! 
  • Requests are STILL OPEN. I will not respond to your message until I get it written, but I am accepting requests. I have plenty of drabble prompts littered in my page. If you find one you think would be interesting, send me the prompts, the characters to include (SOA only on this account please), and the type of story (fluff or angst).


I also will be posting more on my side blogs. I have a lot of them! 

  • I have one that is for my poetry and more person writing @muselessrambles
  • Reaper’s Angel RP @reapers-angel
  • Randomness/mostly Marvel at the moment. This is NSFW themed and for 18+only @mrs-kozik-rogers (it is marked at explicit). 
  • @burning-bright-soa is my newest one that I will be posting about OC!Melinda x Juice, as well as posting their story on this blog. 

All stories from these accounts will be posted on my Ao3 account. A few will be posted on fanfiction.net, but not all. They will not be posted on any other site, nor does anyone have permission to repost without my permission, even if I am given credit. I like to control where my works end up. 

anonymous asked:

Ok I know people don't like Messer for the things she says in interviews but is there a deeper reason that I just haven't been around long enough to pick up on? She seems kinda... hated (?) for just some poorly thought-out sound bites.

okay, a little history.

though erica has been with cm since the beginning, she didn’t become co-showrunner until 2010. you know what else started in 2010? season six. now, to be clear, no one blames her for all the shit that went down re: the ladies, that is 110% on cbs execs and pretty much everything that has gone wrong since 2010 can be traced back to their ~grand~ idea that was criminal minds: suspect behavior in some way or another.

she became a co-runner, presumably because ed bernero, the showrunner from the beginning of the series, was full timing for suspect behavior. chris mundy was also taken over to suspect behavior. they were argueably two of the best writers on the team (the fisher king 1&2, aftermath, sex birth death, profiler profiled, the big game/revelations, gideon’s exit episodes, legacy, penelope, lo fi, the instincts, masterpiece, demonology, to hell, and back, nameless faceless…to name a few lol) and from what i saw of ed during s6 (which is when i came into the fandom, lucky me), he was a good showrunner, in terms of talking to the press, though idk how much actual control he had over the show. considering seasons 1-5 compared with 6, i assume he had very little control. iirc, erica did not speak with the press or had very little contact with them.

when suspect behavior got canceled in 2011, ed and chris were fired. yes, instead of moving two of their best writers back to the main show - which, reminder, was suffering - they fired them. again, 110% on cbs execs and their ~grand~ idea for a spin-off that inevitably didn’t work bc they didn’t understand why cm was so popular.

BUT during most of this, i feel like fandom was somewhat comforted by the fact that they passed the torch to someone who had been there since the beginning (esp since they hired a handful of new writers for s6 who, btw, were not required to watch the prior seasons and the characters have obviously suffered for it) and who had, arguably, written a decent number of okay-to-good episodes as well. i remember a few of us looking up her eps during the summer between s6 and s7 and being like “okay, maybe it won’t be too bad.”

now. a quick reminder. a showrunner holds the “ultimate management and creative authority” for a tv show (thx wikipedia).

so. when a show takes a creative dive that appears to mostly be due to execs trying to ~stir shit up~ for shits and giggles instead of leaving a very profitable show in the capable hands of its original showrunner, reasonable people tend to put the blame on the execs. as such, i don’t blame her for a lot of the missteps that happened in season 6. even some of the stuff that was clearly the showrunners’ decisions is forgivable because it makes sense within the bts context. for instance, barely giving any characterization to seaver makes sense because they needed to focus on characters we already knew/loved who were leaving and they thought they could develop her character in s7.

but when the network execs stop mucking around where they don’t belong and the show doesn’t really turn it around, the blame starts falling rather squarely on the showrunner’s shoulders because they are in charge of the direction the show goes. it’s like when people talk about shonda in relation to grey’s or scandal. yes, she doesn’t write every episode, but she sure as hell is the one who plots out where the show is heading and she has final say. that’s erica’s role on cm. she plots. she has final say.

so when you get poorly plotted episodes (what the actual fuck was season 9’s openner and finale episodes???), episodes that don’t fit the tone or message of the show (THIRTEENTH STEP GE T OUT), poorly placed episodes (a ~fake rape~ case after morgan’s final confrontation with buford, route 66 being 2-3 seasons too late), characterization that doesn’t make sense…yes, a lot of that is on the writers, but ultimately, erica could veto that stuff. erica knows what good finale cliffhangers look like because she was there for all of the really good finales…and yet we keep getting shitty ones.

so. there’s that.

and i think “some poorly thought-out soundbites” is…an understatement, especially the…“some”…portion. three and a half seasons as full time showrunner = plenty of soundbites that could go horribly wrong. you have to remember too…all of the things she says to the media are things that are ultimately under her control, so it’s not just her missteps in wording. when she announces, for instance, that we won’t find out how prentiss feels about having to fake dead until episode TWELVE…that’s generally more about the content of said announcement (content that, again, she has control over), regardless of how she words it. when she says reid/maeve ~will be a relationship like nothing we’ve ever seen~ and then they fridge maeve…well, that’s a double punch (triple punch?) in the gut.

other issues:

  • drops just about every spoiler that the cbs promo’s don’t or drops them in tandem. not cool.
  • girl shipbaits like no one’s business. thing is…rule has been from s1…no on the team is hooking up with anyone else on the team. literally a show rule. so her shipbaiting takes on an extra level of aggravation because she riles people up (many of whom do not know about this rule) only to have them be let down time and time again. not cool. also, the actors end up getting practically harassed by it as well. pretty much every interview, shemar has to say that morgan and garcia are like siblings. extra not cool.
  • similarly, fanservice. my stance? i want the show to make me happy because the characters are in character, they are engaging, and the story is engaging. if that means i start squealing like a tiny child because morgan is teaching reid to hit a ball? COOL. if i’m seeing morgan half-naked in a towel for some ill-conceived and ooc drama (with a dose of shipbaiting on the side)? NOT COOL.

finally, a more direct explanation of reasons i was not okay with the latest announcement:

  • i’m still aggravated as hell about last season’s “jj doesn’t have ptsd bc she’s a strong woman” and “that story is over with” (very) poorly worded soundbites
  • which makes this feel like she’s only doing it because fans complained
  • which i could maybe be okay with
  • (because, really, the idea that someone could be waterboarded, beaten severely, and sexually assaulted and then be 100% fine is so incredibly unrealistic and is totally lazy writing)
  • except between the things she AND aj said last year, i’m severely worried that things are gonna fall flat and just feel fake
  • so i’m already not looking forward to this because i have very little faith in it being done well
  • then you’ve also got erica saying jj and reid are gonna hash it out
  • and saying she “loves” jj and reid’s relationship
  • personally, in recent seasons, i haven’t seen that supposed love she has for their relationship from the way they’ve been written
  • because reid doesn’t seem close to her at all
  • and because jj’s reactions to reid come off as antagonistic and passive aggressive
  • and i like the idea that their relationship never fully recovered from jj keeping the secrets she kept
  • that’s interesting character development to me
  • i think it’d be much more interesting to have her hash it out with hotch whose ptsd is more recent
  • (since apparently reid’s near death experiences have happened so often that he is no longer affected by it!!!)
  • and whom she used to have a closer relationship with before she was a profiler
  • as it stands, it currently feels more like shipbaiting/fanservice than actual storytelling
  • especially because 200’s massive plot holes make it feel like fanservice and basing fanservice on fanservice just seems like a downward spiral
  • which is really disappointing
  • so far, i’ve been pretty satisfied with this season and the idea that this is could crash and burn for even more reasons than before is disheartening
  • so yeah

TL;DR - if you’re new-ish to the fandom or at least new-ish to the behind the scenes stuff, then yeah, i feel like there’s some stuff you’ve missed. clearly.

Hi, @taylorswift. I hope you’re having a magnificent day. I just wanted to thank you today. I was a typical loner almost all my schooling years – the student who always seemed to be socially inept, and isolated herself further somehow. But you and your songs not only provided me refuge for lonely days and nights when no one else seemed to understand what I feel, but also it is because of you and your music that I met and bonded with my best friend and soul sister @rosejin99, who is a Swiftie herself, and a wonderful person in general. Its already been three years of our friendship and over time, it has grown stronger than ever – if that’s even possible.

So, thank you, Taylor. For everything you are, and everything you’ve done. You have no idea how much you mean to Rose and I. We love you and hope to meet you someday in the future. I’m so excited for Call It What You Want and of course reputation. I can’t wait to listen to it on November 10, which is just a week away. Sending you so, so much love from India. ❤❤❤

Love, Tris

Writer's Block. Y'Know, That Thing That's Total Bullshit.

Whoever came up with the term “Writer’s Block” is a dirty, evil, son of a bitch. That person single-handedly deprived the world of millions of works of art. And I hate him or her for it. Severely.

He or she didn’t create a descriptive term, finally putting words to a common phenomenon that had thus far eluded a competent title.

They created an excuse.

If someone’s too afraid to go to a wedding for various, possibly subconscious emotional reasons, and someone tells them, “It’s okay. You’re just suffering from wedding block,” Person A might as well put the wedding gift in the mail then and there. Because what Person B just gave them was all they needed – an exterior justification.

But there isn’t actually some random, natural occurrence of an inability to attend weddings. There is only the fear that stops Person A.

There is no Writer’s Block.

Only the fear of writing.

It’s been five full days since I’ve put pen to paper. Already, this is the most I’ve written since Tuesday, minus the odd mandatory email.

As someone who is trying to make a living from this shit, that’s the equivalent of randomly deciding, “Meh… Don’t feel like goin’ to work this week.” And then not goin’ to work for a week.

If I wanted to make myself feel better about it, I’d be all over that “suffering from writer’s block” shtick. Luckily, I hate making myself far too much to make myself feel better about myself.

My girlfriend would come home from an 8-hour shift at her real-life, adult-person job that actually involves standing and wearing pants and all that yucky stuff, and ask me, “You get any writing done today?” Not to motivate me through shaming. She knows my self-loathing has that covered already.

She asks out of a sincere interest in what kind of batshit ideas have pried their way out of my head. What terrible, inhuman things I was doing to my poor characters now.

And my response for the past five days has consistently been, “No. Just did some brainstorming.”

Which is all kinds of bullshit.

Every writer knows that there’s no off-switch to brainstorming. The wheels are always turning. It’s a job you take home with you. It’s a job you take to the casket with you. So yeah. All kinds of bullshit.

Might as well’ve said, “No. Just did some air breathing.”

But the excuse was more for me than her. Telling myself, “You’re not under any deadlines right now.” Knowing that no one except myself was expecting any writing from me at the moment. It’s all fine. Because I’d never not work if it was something I was getting paid to do.

But if you don’t write the stuff that you don’t get paid to write in the first place, you’re never going to get to the point of getting paid to write. So that excuse is just more kinds of bullshit.

So why haven’t I written?

…Well, I’m scared.

In my lifetime, I’ve dealt with enough anxiety problems to choke a moose. I’ve dealt with enough anxiety problems that that’s the only thing nonsensical enough to quantify the amount of anxiety problems I’ve dealt with. I mean, I dropped out of high school and got a GED because I had anxiety about my having a C in science.

It’s been a fuckin’ bloody, violent battle. And I haven’t always won.

But things are starting to take off for me, writing-wise. So, of course, that anxiety is taking off right along side it. Trying to pull me back down into the bucket of mediocrity, screaming at me about how unworthy I am. How I’m not cut out for it.

Thus the not having written in five days.

It’s the fear that keeps me from that wedding. But I’m not an entirely dumb man. And I know that any fears I have about going to the wedding are worth overcoming. Because I know how mind-blowingly orgasmic that wedding cake tastes. And I will be damned if I don’t get a piece of it.

I gave the fear its five days. And that’s all it gets. No more bullshit. No more excuses. Now it’s time to kick its ass back into submission and be a goddamn responsible person. With accountability and everything. Hopefully forever.

Because there’s no such thing as writer’s block. But every writer that is writing with the intention of people beyond themselves seeing their work feels that overwhelming fear. A fear that stops them from putting pen to paper. From coming up with a single word to type, leaving them looking at that taunting, white screen for an hour. A fear that even stops them from sitting down at their desk, opting to throw a few more hours at Netflix instead.

Sometimes it’s a fear of failure.

Sometimes it’s a fear of success.

But that’s the job. If you can’t overcome that fear – just enough to get going again – you’re not doing the job.

A chef either cooks or gets the fuck out of the kitchen. They don’t get to play the “Chef’s Block” card, so why the hell should you?

So the next time you’re face-to-face with that taunting, white-screened sonuvabitch, shift gears. Accept the fear. Use it, not as an excuse, but as a motivator. Mix it up a bit. Write a description of the room you’re in. Write down every thought that goes through your brain. Anything that gets some words out of your head so you don’t have to think them anymore.

Maybe even write an obnoxiously long blog post about your fear of writing that everyone is annoyed by for having to scroll past it on her tumblr dashboard.

But that might be a little too douchebag-y.

it’s just hhhhh

i’m so stupid. i know i’m stupid and too sensitive and i wish i wasn’t. but i had such a nasty art block when i drew those stupid, stupid pirate au pictures and i felt so! good! that i got something not only drawn but coloured as well! it wasn’t anything special, but i got something done and i didn’t absolutely hate it?

and then people started tagging it as undersail and i was confused but didn’t really pay it much attention, but then people started messaging me telling me that undersail has already been made by someone else and that i was copying them and

i’m so stupid but it made me feel so incredibly bad. people who’ve followed me for a while know that one of my biggest Bad Self Esteem Things is the fear knowledge that i have nothing to offer, that there is nothing special about me or the things i do, that everything i do has already been done by people much better than me so i shouldn’t even bother. and this whole thing just really struck that very specific nerve, removed that feeling from the “silly things i probably shouldn’t worry about” category and put it straight into the “things that are 100% undeniable fact” one.

so i really don’t feel like drawing anything right now. i have ideas, but they’re all stupid and unoriginal and uninteresting and i’m just embarrassing myself, thinking any of my stuff is worth anything and i’m so stupid