i have a feeling im missing something what am i missing

i already made some quick textposts but here’s a quick list of what i caught during baekhyun’s live ig story thing (let me know if i missed something!!):

  • baekhyun said he ate lots of good food today 💕😭 
  • baekhyun really looked so tired and sleepy and was yawning and in bed and stuff during the whole broadcast and was acting like it was 2 am but it was 2 pm soihfeowijefoiwjefwe
  • his mother changed his sheets/bedspread to pink lmfao (i’m assuming he’s at his parent’s house ant not the dorms)
  • myongryong’s legs hurt bc he’s been running around a lot and welsh corgis’ legs hurt very easily apparently so he has to take him to a hospital soon :(
  • there are baekhyun posters put up all around his room that fans gave him and im crying
  • someone asked him to speak in english in the comments and he got a little embarrassed and said ‘hi my name is baekhyun’ he’s so cute
  • and he also read a comment that said ‘good english’ and laughed (i’m unsure if the comment was in english sounding korean or actual english though)
  • he put his face so close to the camera to read comments and it was so cute im ded also he covered his face a lot w/ the blankets and looked super comfy im 💕💘💗💟💓💖
  • after showing his room really quickly he giggled a little (i d*e) and he was like ‘it’s really clean huh??’ (as in his room) he’s so neat and organized wow

i miss making things. in retrospect i think that’s what i miss most about my old job; rarely did i make Great Art (usually I made Goofy Nonsense) but at least i made something every day.

now i sit in the corner and make thematic maps that no one looks at or cares about and its just not enough to get me through the day and feel like i accomplished something

i should come up with a project or something to do but ????? i am tired and sad all the time and everything is hard

i know ive been sadposting a lot but also im having a protracted ugly public mental breakdown so fuck you thats where im at right now

I use to live in fear,
Constantly listening
Now I wander this world
Wondering what does one do

I could not shake the thought
That something was missing
And that something was you

The tree bark so rough
The concrete so tough
The cold of the rain causes me to cough
And I miss the feel of fabric so soft

Alone am I in a world so real
Family and company so sealed
Oh how I miss that feel

I use to live in fear
Constantly listening
Now I wander this world
Wondering what does one do

And I could now shake the thought
That something was missing
And that something. Was. You.

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