i hate sleeping out


I have self image issues that I’m working through about my chest (long story, I’ve got a deformity called pectus carinatum that makes my sternum stick out further than it’s supposed to) so I hate shirtless pictures of myself, but since I’m trying to banish those issues, I’m going to put these photos up anyway

can i just say how much the revival has made me grateful for season 7. like, asp was going to have rory get pregnant at 22, which would have honestly been the most heartbreaking ending i could think of for rory- a major part of her characterization is that she didn’t want to end up like lorelai, yes she loves lorelai, yes she respects lorelai and appreciated all the sacrifices lorelai made for her, but she didn’t want the life lorelai had. lorelai is exactly where she’s supposed to be- in stars hollow, with the inn, with luke- but rory wanted more. rory wanted to be christiane amanpour, she wanted to travel, see the world, do things, which was a major part of her turning down logan’s proposal because she wanted a ‘wide open future’. how the hell would she have gotten that with a baby? that’s the  worst thing- like, you will become your parents whether you like it or not. and logan, too- he becomes mitchum, lives out his huntzberger preordained life, the life he desperately didn’t want, without even being told he has a child. at least in the revival rory is 32, she’s done stuff, she’s lived, but geez, that’s still a crappy ending for the girl who wanted to be christiane amanpour.

9 years ago I tried to kill myself. I was in and out of hospitals and treatment centers from then on. I was self destructive, I lost people I loved, and I did whatever I had to do to cope with my misery. I dated a guy who forced himself on me and who abused me whenever I did something he didn’t like. I went away to college to try to start over and realized I couldn’t get out of bed to go to class. I tried to transfer back home but I stopped eating and wound up back in treatment. I dropped out of college and couldn’t work much more than a part time job. I struggled daily to get out of bed. I hated myself. I stopped sleeping, self harmed frequently, I was a mess. I thought I would never get better, and I never expected it to make it to my 21st birthday. But now I’m in a healthy, beautiful relationship with the girl of my dreams. I go to school full time, play college softball, work part time. I’m applying for nursing school while training to be a lifeguard. I have some money saved for when I’m ready to move out with my girlfriend. I never made any plans for a future, because I was positive I wouldn’t have one. Luckily, I am in an amazing place in my life. I should have never made it this far, but I am so thankful for all the reasons that I am. For anyone who thinks they can’t go on any longer, for anyone who swears there’s no way it’ll get better, it does. Please wait, you deserve to be alive to see it.

  • me: hey mom and dad can we go
  • them: yep
  • them: continues talking
  • me: seriously im tired can we go
  • them: yeah lets go
  • them: continues talking
  • me: i want to leave
  • them: okay honey
  • them: continues talking
  • me: mom. dad.
  • them: okay, okay, we're leaving
  • them: continues talking

title: when you’re not listening
summary: Luna misjudges the relationship between Bellamy and Clarke. In response to this post by @bell-clarke.

The sleeping quarters were modest: a long, narrow bed; a desk decorated with scattered papers and spilled ink; a small, circular window; a lit candle that bathed the room in a dim orange glow. It smelled of sea water and rust. The metallic odor burned at Clarke’s nostrils, distracting her from the fact that she wasn’t alone. 

There was a fine line, Clarke had found, between being honest and being appreciative. It turned out, that Clarke’s honesty had struck Luna, who was under the impression that a romantic entanglement existed between she and Bellamy, as ungrateful complaint.

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i just want everyone to know that i’m 100% on board with that Last One Out of Beach City AU

(Edit: forgot to tag @memepaladins skgkjlghj)

Oh man… Was supposed to draw a lot today… About the new Hero, some present and more… I just hope am not too sleepy. I hate it…

Lately I’ve been so reckless, freakin careless… I dunno. Not a good start of 2017 for me I guess… xux

jason’s hair get’s curlier when it’s wet, also he suffers from Helmet Hair™ quite often and he always ruffles it a bit whenever he removes his helmet. when he doesnt cut for a long time it gets in his eyes and it annoys him , that being said he cuts it once a month. he has dyed the white part black after his resurrection because he didn’t like it and he felt weird abt it. sometimes he dyes it again, but only if hes going on a mission that might take a long time and he needs to be Lowkey™ that bein said it p much looks always like this :

I hate sleeping alone
Terrified with the lights out
I hate living alone
Talking to myself is boring conversation
Me and I are not friends
She is only an acquaintance
I hate dreaming of being alone
—  Daughter - Alone/With You

I miss Heath Ledger :(