i hate publishing me


pull me like a ripcord, break me down and build me up x


BOOKS READ IN 2016: the hating game by sally thorne

I have a theory. Hating someone feels disturbingly similar to being in love with them. I’ve had a lot of time to compare love and hate, and these are my observations.
Love and hate are visceral. Your stomach twists at the thought of that person. The heart in your chest beats heavy and bright, nearly visible through your flesh and clothes. Your appetite and sleep are shredded. Every interaction spikes your blood with adrenaline, and you’re in the brink of fight or flight. Your body is barely under your control. You’re consumed, and it scares you.

                                                                             Over and over, I had to ask myself
about the words I was using        and if those words were,
in fact, killing people.

Anaïs Duplan, from “N’ Then She Said “I Need to Tell U Somethin, N’ Dont Hate Me for It…” published in BOAAT Press


Working and planning, working and planning, working and planning is all I’ve been doing recently (ah and watching twin peaks). Couldn’t post any of that tho bc tumblr seems to be hating me and I can’t draft nor publish posts, wtf? 😕

  • Sister: You should meet my friend! She's a writer, too.
  • Me: Oh, cool! Yeah!
  • Sister: This is my friend--she's writing a novel! Friend, this is my sister--she writes fanfiction.
  • Me, who is also writing a novel, which my sister damn well knows: ...
  • Me: ...
  • Me: ...hi.

frostbite883  asked:

TLoK Question: Which character in TLoK do you want to have and changed for the better (if you had creative freedom to re-make the character in however way you want)?

instant fix: Legend of Korra AU where Prince Wu’s a tiny annoying dog that can’t talk instead of a tiny annoying human who can

Second volume arrived today, yesss~
Chapters from 5 to 9.

*since I can’t always respond to comments because tumblr hates me, I’m gonna write it here: an Italian publishing house called J-Pop is distributing the manhwa of ks (it’s an official collaboration with Koogi, no worries), but only in Italy!*

Is this something Liam can even take back???? Like I know his brother abdicated, but Liam isn’t going to. Like I’m so tired man I just wanted to be engaged to the prince. This whole event and now my reputation is tarnished in front of everyone and Liam god I’m left in limbo with his feelings on all this. I’m sure he trusts me, but still I HATE MADELEINE SO MUCH. Publishing pictures like that is DISGUSTING especially when she set it up. And then that shit she did to Olivia too? All my worst fears came to pass, but I guess at least I got to tell Liam I loved him from the start and be with him. It’s a small comfort.

I just hate this drama. Now I have to clear my name in the next book and I don’t even know if they’ll let me near the Prince and UGH KEEP YOUR GROSS HANDS OFF OF HIM BEFORE I GET BACK AT YOU MADELEINE.

And to the other anon who sent me the hate message: I am not publishing it because I will use your message to IP block you. I have no patience for people who hide behind anon messages to accuse me of things that aren’t true.

If you consider my (properly tagged) screenshot posts so annoying and spammy, and you “used to respect me”, I did you a favor: now you won’t have to see them again because you won’t be able to interact with me anymore.

fortune-maiden  asked:

1, 10, 15, 23, 26, 50? :)

Oh my god that’s many thank you…

Fandom questions

1. What was the first fandom you got involved in?

Umm depends… I was nuts for Donald Duck and drew tons of fanart before I used internet or even knew what fandom was so I’m not sure if it counts… Same with Harry Potter, so I guess Dragon Ball. I used to admin a Facebook page back in the day and followed many many others but didn’t really interact with people, my “fans” aka the people who liked the page weren’t very active;; But anyway I guess Dragon Ball

10.  Is there a fandom you read fic from but don’t write in?

All fandoms except Boueibu;;; I mostly read Osomatsu-san and Mystic Messenger, something else here and there but Boueibu is the only fandom I’ve ever written in those short donald duck stories i wrote when i was like seven don’t count i didn’t know fanfiction was a thing back then

Current fandom

15. Is there an obscure ship which you love?

I tend to go for the obvious pairings and only really “love” one to three at a time but often like others and tbh I’m pretty easy to convince;; give me a few nice headcanons or art or a fic and I’m like oh boy this is a good ship (@crazy-grrrl-on-the-computer i’m looking at u) but can’t really name anything specific right now

author questions

23. Name a fic you’ve written that you’re especially fond of & explain why you like it.

Oh gosh I wonder… Probably Stare - Look Away. It happened in some wee hours by impulse, basically wrote itself, and I think the repetition, parallelism and atmosphere work really well there?? I liked writing it, I liked it a lot when it was done and after two years I still can’t find anything to complain about (except some probable typos I missed). Kind of ironic that my favorite is Enatsu when I’m generally so indifferent to the ship itself;;

26. How do you come up with your fanfic titles?

I would like to know that too lmao they’re awful and impractical

fanfiction questions

50. How did you get into reading and/or writing fanfiction?

I… think I first started looking for fics on FF.net a few years ago but have no recollection what the first fandom or ship might have been;; Most likely Fairy Tail? i remember my first smut fic tho it was a wild experience And then I followed links I got from tumblr and recs from my brother (he has a horrible taste by the way I’m never trusting him again)

And I started writing with GUESS WHAT reader x character stories on Quotev;; I thought most of the ones I read were bad and wanted to do better. I did better but still kinda bad;; The ship fics started when I got two great ideas for Ioryuu fics close to each other sometime in 2015, one of those was Very Nice which I don’t even like in retrospect and the other one;; still in progress;;; I don’t want to abandon it but I’m stuck hlep;;; and then it just. Spiraled from there. And I’m still appalled whenever I look at the work count on my ao3 because what the hell how are there so many where did they come from

And Eärendil went into Valinor and to the halls of Valimar, and never again set foot upon the lands of Men. Then the Valar took counsel together, and they summoned Ulmo from the deeps of the sea; and Eärendil stood before their faces, and delivered the errand of the Two Kindreds. Pardon he asked for the Noldor and pity for their great sorrows, and mercy upon Men and Elves and succour in their need. And his prayer was granted.