Let me talk about this mother fucking
scene here for a second. This fucking scene.
So the whole time I was playing FFXV I
knew Noctis was gonna die, I mean who didn’t? They made it as obvious
as they possibly could. I knew getting attached to him was a massive
mistake but I did anyway cuz I mean, he is fucking hilarious and cute
and everything. Anyways, when Noctis comes back from the crystal he
is acting more mature, he looks more confident and he actually acts
like he knows what the fuck is going on, prior to his 20 year old
You know Noctis is ready to die and has
accepted it, he knows he is going to die, there is no stopping it.
The gods were like “Sucks to be you” and pretty much fucked him
over. But this scene, this god damn scene is what finally made me
start tearing up, because fuck you game. You send him to his death,
you watch him kill himself to destroy Ardyn, you watch his father
stab him and then you watch as he dissolves into nothing. BUT you are
watching this KNOWING he is ready to die, he is at peace so you are
at peace, then this fucking scene shows up at the end.
Noctis is pretty much fucking crying
over the fact that he is going to die, he is doing it after seeing
his friends again and it makes his resolution quiver. It goes back to
the beginning of the game and brotherhood, it goes back to us seeing
Noctis not as an “emo kid” that is just trying to be edgy, but a
fucking kid that has been forced to watch his father DIE SLOWLY,
knowing that he is going to be next. Noctis has known since he was
little that he was going to die and not because of a fuck up, or
because of an accident, or hell because he burns the kitchen down,
no, he is going to die because he was born a Lucis and because the
gods picked him. And there is absolutely NOTHING he can do about it.
Noctis wasn’t going “through a revel”
phase when he was trying to push his duties away, it was his love for
life that was doing that. Noctis did NOT want to fucking die. You
can see it through the whole game, you can see how much fun he
fucking has, you can see how much he enjoys everything and is
actually ready to jump in when it comes to an adventure. He acts like
a god damn kid when it comes to fishing. Even if he is lazy and
somewhat spoiled, you cannot tell me that Noctis did not fucking love
everything about life, except being the “chosen one”.
Regis raised Noctis as a son, not a
king, because through the trailers and the movies, and the cartoon
and fucking everything, you can see that Regis was intending in
bringing peace himself. Regis wanted to fix everything so his son
didn’t have to die. He didn’t prepare Noctis to face death because he
never wanted him to die, he wanted Noctis to be a normal teenager
that makes stupid mistakes and doesn’t have to worry about his life
being taken away slowly. Regis was a fucking beautiful dad that
wanted nothing but happiness for his son, and he was trying to
achieve that one way or the other.
But fuck man did all of that shit
screwed over Noctis. Still, I can’t blame Regis, I’m just fucking
upset. I’m god damn sad as fuck that you send Noctis to die just to
find out later that he didn’t want to die anymore. 10 years of
isolation he tried to make himself understand that death was the only
answer and seeing his friends for ONE DAY destroyed all of that
resolution, but he had to go on because he needed to, not just save
the world but show his bros that they didn’t put their trust on the
wrong man. He needed to go on because it was the right thing to do.
He needed to go on because Ardyn is a dickhead. All the people that
died so he could end the darkness were counting on him. So he went on
and died, knowing that he still wanted to live.
Fuck this game. I’m gonna go fucking
cry under my bed now.