i hate conventions

  • Me the first time I listened to La Vie Boheme: lol okay but what are they even saying

》H a n a m i ☆ 2 0 1 6 ;;
I’ve met so many great people and had so much fun with my beloved friends !
At saturday I saw these really cool Waylon ( aka @actualjohnnytopside ) and Miles ( aka - I really need your tumblr dude o 3 o ) and we had a nice chat on this day ( and sunday with my beloved @its-like-instinct too ). :3
I promised to upload their picture on tumblr, but only this is too lame. //D
So, here are a few Selfies as Stan with my wife Mariya ( aka @kurodoggy ) and Bill ( aka @butlerofdeath ). On sunday I wore Phone Guy again and I found this flower crown - look how pretty I am. ( his design belongs to @dfox999 ) ;; Thankies for this awesome day !

*collapses into pile* I’m probably going to tweak a few more things with the colors, but this print is technically officially DONE~


also the bernie supporters at the convention are confusing the hell outta me bc they’re screaming bernie’s name and booing anyone who supports hillary clinton but then bernie says “pls vote for hillary” and they boo him too???? like wtf maybe actually listen to the dude you’re so intensely supporting


I hate skateboarding (at Tampa Convention Center)

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yall know those dudes at conventions? you do. i know you do, because they’re at every fucking con and they’re the absolute worst. the ones who are usually in joker or deadpool cosplay, and it’s the most obvious that they’re only in it because they want an excuse to be the largest, most gaping obnoxious assholes they can possibly be, and then they want to scapegoat it as being “in character?” is there a name for this? can we dub it deadpool syndrome, bc i s2g it is always deadpools

my idea of a date isn’t anything conventional. I hate the whole “get to know someone over dinner” charade. nah, if imma ask you out, this is how it’s gonna go.
I’ll swing by your house at 2 a.m. and you’ll be groggy as shit but you’ll be your natural self and it will be great. then I’m going to drag your sleepy ass up a trail just far enough where we can see the whole city and then adventure on our own to find the perfect place to chill and discuss the meanings of life and each other’s ambitions and dreams. then sit in silence with a blanket around each other while we watch the sunrise and the breath that escapes our warm lips.
then down the hill we go back to my place but not for anything freaky, no I just dragged your shit out of bed at 2 am, no we are taking a well needed nap. and you can lay on my chest and listen to my heartbeat while I play with your hair listening to soft music until we both pass out.
then around midday we wake up together and both help each other make a bombass lunch, a team effort we can both enjoy. and then we spend the rest of the day doing something we both individually enjoy while together. I can sit there writing my story while we sit back to back and you work on your drawing.
and then around the afternoon we will take a walk in the city and explore anything that could possibly spark our interest, visiting shops, climbing rooftops, petting the dogs of the street.
then we will grab some food on the go and I’ll drive you back to your place, probably the both of us exhausted. goodnight babes.

I can’t wait to meet a girl to do this with tbh.

I hate when conventional, able bodied, respectability conforming, classist, black women are dismissive of other black women’s hardships with black men...

I know I talked about this before, but I have to bring it up again. What happened to sisterhood? Penis pandering is more valuable than black girl solidarity?

I see this all the time on social media. “Um, I don’t know what you’re talking about, I don’t see this hatred for black women by black men” or my favorite “You guys are going to let a few guys on social media change your view of black men?”  Of course you’ll think like that, you represent what they like, you’re their ideal representation of black women, of course you’d say that, because you’re benefiting from their misogynoir and sexist rule book about black women.

The non-conforming sistas out here are the one’s who experience the most ridicule and abuse from these types of black men. I’m not saying these same brothas spare conforming sistas, because any wrong step and they’ll throw conforming sistas under the bus with the rest of black women.

But non-conforming black women aren’t having good experiences with a lot of black men. It’s not just about trying to get black men to find black women attractive, or wanting intimacy. It’s about basic human respect and treatment. Black men bully and target black women who don’t fit their “ideal black woman” standard. That’s the problem.

So these aren’t just black men on the internet. It’s black men off the internet, walking the malls, shopping centers, corporate brothas, family members etc…

And how come we have to ignore black men on the internet, but we aren’t told to ignore racists on the internet? We aren’t told to ignore black women on reality t.v. because for someone reason you all use them as the reason black women look bad. I never see anyone say “Yall let a few people on t.v. ruin your view about black women”. Yall let a few white folks online ruin yall’s perception about white folks?

We’re always suppose to ignore the things black women with deal with from black men, because kinship code and their reputations seems more important than black women’s experiences?

Why do we have to continue to make disclaimers for black men, to try and prove to white people we can stick together or that we’re unified? There’s a sea of issues black women deal with regarding black men, along with racism that are rooted in misogyny and sexism. No it’s not just ashy fools on social media it’s every day real life experiences.

What’s annoying is that it’s always as many black women as black men, telling black women who vent about their experiences “I don’t know what you’re talking about” or “It’s just a few dudes on the internet” and they normally fit the ideal black woman paradox these men like, so I don’t expect them to relate.

Conventional conforming black women, please stop being dismissive, you’re not helping, you’re making it worse along with these black men. Only thing you’re doing is selfishly helping yourself.

Getting real tired of going to anime conventions and seeing NH and SS cosplays tbh. Like good for them for having a good time but they have a big storm a comin’ when I show up in my Sakura cosplay with a cute ass Naruto with a big ass drawing of Shinachiku on a huge board. I’ve been to 9 conventions throughout my life so far, and not once had I seen a NaruSaku Cosplay. There were some narusasu cosplays here and there, but the point is that we really are a minority as a fandom irl and this chick here is bringing change to conventions as a cosplayer. My goal is to start recruiting NaruSaku cosplayers and shippers at conventions and expand ourselves just like how we come together on the internet. I feel so alone when I cosplay Sakura at conventions because my ships are so foreign to these people. Like I can’t even go to photoshoots without cringing and I keep silent when they talk about ships and THE LAST. We narusaku shippers exist, and I feel like something needs to change.


Jensen’s so lovely. He really made a special effort this weekend, headlining the con while Jared is getting better. He made sure everyone of the fans had their own special experience and didnt care that photos and autographs ran overtime, even doing extra photos than originally asked of him and still taking the time to talk to people. He’s seriously such a sweetheart.

Before the photo, I had a lovely little greeting with Clif, then helped a friend who was meeting him for the first time to relax, then when it was my turn, I just walked up and he was so smiley despite jetlag and lack of sleep. General banter & friendliness ensued and he put his arm around for a side hug. I kind of instinctively cuddled into him and put my arms around his waist omg. He chuckled and then cuddled his other arm round and pulled me closer. We took the photo and I began to let go and he gave me the biggest quick squeeze it was really cute aww. I thanked him and yeah it wasnt anything too special but I really admire him :)

recently I’ve seen some Jared hate on my dash from people I otherwise really like, and it bothers me. I will freely admit he’s not my favorite and that he’s said some crappy things, that he’s not perfect, but so what? saying crappy things sometimes is grounds for hating someone? I’ve said plenty of crappy things. every one of you have said crappy things. it’s not okay to condemn a whole person because one time they said a thing.

and I feel like tumblr people are just so jaded that when Jared does something like post a video sincerely thanking his fans, they turn it into something ugly just because he’s a famous white man. like isn’t that just really sad? to take a guy using his privilege to talk about mental illness and say he should shut up because he’s privileged? I don’t care if you think he’s annoying sometimes, he’s trying to destigmatize depression and encourage people not to kill themselves and at the same time fighting his own depression. criticize his mistakes, okay, but don’t call him names or say you hate him.