omfg they made the elevator scene somehow even more sexual I’m screa ming…….he says “Well, we will be all alone in here” suggestively, laughs, and says “It’s your first time?” eXPLICITLY I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS I HATE ZERO ESCAPE
There are still days when I look in the mirror and see something that isn’t there. Where I start planning and telling myself just one last time. I can’t get there again. I can carve flesh from bone. I still have it in me.
But it’s just that. It’s just a dark day.
Because the fact is that I don’t hate myself anymore. I am no longer alone. I have life in me. I have love. I have too much to destroy myself again.
And I’m still crying and my breathing is out of whack. My throat hurts and my blanket is wet which is hell.
I just want to be completely alone with no one in the house. I hate feeling so completely awful and spiteful and ridiculous