i hate all of you give me my life back ; ;

6

Joël: Hey, dude. Are you back home now?

He forces himself to keep his voice neutral. Anita doesn’t raise her eyes from her screen. Joël is not fooled for one second. He knows that she is absorbing as if by osmosis every nuance of expression that passes over his face, committing to memory every vibration of his voice, every subtle change in his body temperature and probably in the rhythm of his heartbeat too. He stares at the phone in his hand, willing himself not to lay it on the table, not to wipe his sweaty palms on the legs of his pyjama pants.

Roy: Yep. We flew in last night.

Joël: We? 

Roy: Me and Sonia and Bunty. Bunty’s going to be enjoying a nice restful stay at The Oaks for the next 6 weeks. I’m just leaving there now. And you wouldn’t believe it, freaking Sonia turned up the Olds’ place for a surprise visit the second night I was there! Surprise was an understatement, dude. Turns out she had a massive attack of the guilts and wanted to work on our marriage after all. I nearly had a heart attack. Not least because I’d arranged a date with Claudia the following evening. I was shitting bricks, dude.

Joël: Claudia? You mean M-

He almost says ‘Megan’s friend Claudia’. He knows that any mention of Megan will shatter Anita’s artificially calm demeanor like a crystal glass under a sledgehammer. He swallows and tries again.

Joël: You mean Claudia with the amazing rack? That Claudia?

Anita arches one eyebrow. He gets up from the table under the guise of feeding Brutus.

Roy: Yeah. I’m getting misty-eyed just thinking about it. Anyway, because I’m the man, I managed to turn what could have been a complete disaster into one of the best nights of our lives. All three of us. You know, I never realised how versatile the chicks were in our home town, dude. Damn. 

Joël: Wait. What do you mean, versatile? Are you saying what I think you’re saying? Jesus Christ. I hate you more than I’ve ever hated anyone in my life right now.

Roy: It’s my world, baby. You’re just here to bask in my awesomeness. Hey, do you want to meet me for lunch so I can give you all the filthy details? I think I can swing an hour between meetings.

Joël: I don’t think so, dude. I’m kind of busy today. Anita and i are looking at houses.

There’s a 5 second silence. 

Roy: Did you say Anita? You and Anita are back on? And looking at houses?

Joël: Not only that, she wants to get married.

Roy: Dude, you don’t have any money. You can’t do shit. 

Joël: Anita has money. 

Roy: So basically you’re going to be Anita’s sugar baby? Just when I thought your life couldn’t get any more pathetic, you sink to whole new depths. Congrats, dude. Anyway, I’ve got to go. I’m running late. Some of us actually have to work for a living, you know. We’re not all free-loading parasites spongeing off our sugar mamas. Later, you worthless piece of shit.

Anita: Was that Roy? How is he?. 

Joël: I think he may have been slightly miffed that I couldn’t have lunch with him. 

You were the hardest most painful lesson of my life. I hated you for awhile for everything, but now all I can do is look back and thank you for everything you taught me. You taught me exactly how it should never be with someone. You taught me that I should never put up with someone who treats me less than what I am. You taught me I should only give myself to someone if they truly deserve it and if they are giving me the same in return. I don’t hate you, you just mean nothing to me. You were an important lesson to me, getting me ready for a person who genuinely deserves me.
THE SIGNS LOST TOGETHER
  • Aries: "Maybe we should split up. Me and Gemini will go-" *Points at map at random* "Here."
  • Taurus: "Nah. I think I'll stay here. Text me some updates."
  • Gemini: *Sitting in the corner with an attitude*
  • Cancer: *crying* "What are you guys DOING? We'll never find our way!"
  • Leo: "Everyone just chill. I'll use the map to find the way."
  • Virgo: "No need, I'll use the GPS on my phone." *Looks down* "Welp. My phone's dead."
  • Libra: "Guys chill. When life gives you lemons you-"
  • Scorpio: "Shut up Libra. We're in the middle of nowhere. I hate all of you."
  • Sagittarius: "Just enjoy the circumstances for right now. We'll make it out alive, probably."
  • Capricorn: "This is all of your faults! If you'd have listened to me we wouldn't be in this mess."
  • Aquarius: "We should start planning ahead, we're going to get hungry at some point. We should all take a vote of who we'll eat. I vote Pisces."
  • Pisces: *Rocking back and forth and sobbing*
Who Do You Love More? (Part 2)

Pairing: Archie Andrews x Reader

Requested: Yes

Warnings: Cursing

Part 1


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anonymous asked:

Why do you hate porn?

I have seen the devastating effects of pornography addiction ruin the lives of friends and family members. It takes and takes and gives nothing of value back. I see no redeeming value in it.

Worst of all, I know I’m not immune to it. If I let my guard down, even for a moment, I’m in danger of ruining so much of this happy life I’ve worked so hard for. Decades of happiness torn down horrifically fast. It is insidious and it is dangerous.

Also, please let me be clear: THIS POST IS NOT AN INVITATION TO DISCUSS THE MERITS OF PORNOGRAPHY.

You have asked me a question and I have answered it, but I’m NOT interested in debating my position. If anyone feels the need to defend pornography, please do it where I can politely ignore it. If you try to do it here, I will block you.

Is that close minded? HELL YES!! Because my mind and my spirit are valuable to me, and that’s what you do when a deadly enemy is at your gates. You CLOSE the gates.

Please realize this is not a personal crusade of mine. I’m not going on to other blogs and scolding them for their views on pornography. And it’s not my intention to pass personal judgement on anyone else.

But I am VERY serious about my own cognitive self-defense and personal boundaries. (In fact I almost didn’t answer this question because I worried about people wanting to debate the issue, but I decided you deserve an honest and straightforward answer.)

Hopefully I’ve been sufficiently honest and straightforward here.

Here’s a photo of me meeting Tom Hiddleston the other day at radio whilst waiting for Ed Sheeran. It was a pleasant surprise to be honest :)

………

Alas, I know some of you lame ass anon (and marginally like 0.000002% braver not anon keyboard warriors) seem to amuse yourself with hating me every time I meet your beloved Thomas. So do me a favour this time; instead of directing your hate into other people’s and fan accounts inboxes like the lame bloody w*nkers you are, please get a backbone, preferably come off anon and direct it to my inbox to provide me with some much needed amusement if you really can’t suppress the need to hate.

Or better yet, if you live in London, which some of you once claimed (my fave being the person I met at the GQ awards, which I’ve never attended, who I told that I had Tom and Cumberbatch’s phone number because I hacked someone that works at a phone company or something LMAO keep reaching) write all your complaints about me on the back of a postcard and give them to me in person if you ever see me and I’ll be glad to reply to you in real life, without a keyboard and screen to get in the way :) :) :) :) :)

In the mean time, every second you try hate and bully is another second this photo of myself meeting Tom is going to exist trololol so enjoy <3

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AND FOR ALL OF THE KIND PEOPLE WHO DON’T TURN ON MEMBERS OF THEIR OWN FANDOM AND ARE HAPPY WHEN OTHER PEOPLE MEET THEIR FAVES… I thank you. You the real MVPs and I sincerely hope that you too get to meet everyone you want someday :)

anonymous asked:

Salam, Idk if you might understand me but I have this little things running throw my mind telling me I should give up in life & just die. I hate feeling like this but I'm always thinking like My Dua will never be accepted, I'm not good enough, what's the point of all this, & I'm always thinking maybe I should go back to my old ways. I feel like since I repented I'm Having so many problems in my life & people think of me as good person who changed so much, but they don't know I struggle so much.

Alikum Salam

I will try my best to answer your question by referring to the Qur’an and Hadith

Wanting to give up in life and die

“And never give up hope of Allah’s Mercy. Certainly, no one despairs of Allah’s Mercy, except the people who disbelieve.” (12:87)

“Do not give up and do not be downhearted. You shall be uppermost if you are believers” (3:139)

The Prophet ﷺ said: “No one of you should wish for death or pray for it before it comes, for when one of you dies, his good deeds come to an end and for the believer a long life will not increase him in anything but good.” (Muslim)

A version narrated by al-Bukhaari says: “No one of you should wish for death. Either he is a doer of good and will do more, or he is a doer of evil but perhaps he may stop.”

Al-Nawawi said: This hadeeth clearly indicates that it is makrooh to wish for death because of some harm that has befallen one, such as loss or distress caused by an enemy, or other such hardships of this world. But if a person fears harm or fitnah with regard to his religious commitment, it is not makrooh to wish for death, according to this hadeeth, and several of the salaf did that.

The Prophet ﷺ said: “The best of people is the one who lives long and does good.” (Ahmad)

Acceptance of Dua

And when My slaves ask you (O Muhammad) concerning Me, then (answer them), I am indeed near (to them). I respond to the invocations of the supplicant when he calls on Me. So let them respond to Me (by obedience) and believe in Me that they may be (rightly) guided. (2:186)

The Prophet ﷺ said: “Nothing can change the Divine decree except Dua.” (Ahmad)

The Prophet ﷺ said: “Du’aa’ may be of benefit with regard to what has already happened or what has not yet happened, so adhere to Du’aa’, O slaves of Allaah.” (Tirmidhi)

The Prophet ﷺ said: “No precaution can protect against the decree of Allaah. Du’aa’ is beneficial with regard to what has been decreed and what has not been decreed. The du’aa’ meets the calamity that has been decreed and wrestles with it, until the Day of Resurrection.” (al-Tabaraani)

The Prophet ﷺ said: “Ask, and you shall be given it; and you shall be given it.” (Tirmidhi)

The Prophet ﷺ said: “Let everyone of you ask of His Lord all that He wants.” (Tirmidhi)

We were informed by our Prophet ﷺ that Allah (subhana wa ta’ala) fulfills everybody’s wishes so long as a person does not get impatient and say, ‘I asked Allah for so and so and I still haven’t received it’. We are told never to despair of the mercy of Allah (subhan wa ta’ala).

The Prophet ﷺ informed us that there are several forms for the acceptance of dua. One is that you are given what you ask for. Another is that you are given better than what you asked for. A third is that some calamity that was about to befall you has been averted instead. The fourth is that the dua is saved up for you as sawaab/reward for the Day of Judgment. In all cases, asking Allah (subhana wa ta'ala) for things is beneficial. 

Feeling like you are not good enough

He created the heavens and earth in truth and formed you and perfected your forms; and to Him is the (final) destination (64:3)

Indeed, We have created the human being upon the best of forms (95:4)

Allah SWT has created each one of us unique; you will find no two people in the world with the exact same personality, physical appearance, strengths, weaknesses, interests, etc. The way Allah SWT has created you and moulded your personality is for a reason – he has made you this way because he wants you to achieve your full potential and use your abilities for a bigger cause – do not lose heart if the situation looks difficult right now – keep striving and doing your best and, most importantly, keep asking Allah SWT to see you through this difficult time and be by your side – if you have His help, there is no difficult you cannot overcome. Again, remember He has created you the way you are for a reason – Allah SWT makes no mistakes with His creations – you are good enough – you are exactly the way He intended you to be – you only have to work hard to move from strength to strength now.

What’s the point of all this?

(He) who created death and life to test you (as to) which of you is best in deed (67:2)

And I did not create the jinn and mankind except to worship Me (51:56)

Going back to old ways,

Do people think that they will be left alone because they say: ‘We believe,’ and will not be tested. And We indeed tested those who were before them. And Allaah will certainly make (it) known (the truth of) those who are true, and will certainly make (it) known (the falsehood of) those who are liars, (although Allaah knows all that before putting them to test)” – (29:2-3)

“And certainly, We shall test you with something of fear, hunger, loss of wealth, lives and fruits, but give glad tidings to As-Saabiroon (the patient). Who, when afflicted with calamity, say: ‘Truly, to Allaah we belong and truly, to Him we shall return.’ They are those on whom are the Salawaat (i.e. who are blessed and will be forgiven) from their Lord, and (they are those who) receive His Mercy, and it is they who are the guided ones” (2:155-157)

And We have certainly revealed to you verses (which are) clear proofs, and no one would deny them except the defiantly disobedient. (2:99)

The Prophet ﷺ said: “No misfortune or disease befalls a Muslim, no worry or grief or harm or distress – not even a thorn that pricks him – but Allaah will expiate for some of his sins because of that.” (Bukhari)

Facing struggles after having repented

The Prophet ﷺ said: “If Allah wills good for His slave, He hastens his punishment in this world, and if He wills bad for His slave, He withholds from him (the punishment for) his sin, until He requites him for it on the Day of Resurrection.” (at-Tirmidhi)

The Prophet ﷺ “If a certain status has previously been decreed by Allaah for a person, and he does not attain it by his deeds, Allaah afflicts him in his body or wealth or children.” (Abu Dawood)

The Prophet ﷺ said: “Great reward comes with great trials. When Allah loves a people, He tests them, and whoever accepts it attains His pleasure, whereas whoever shows discontent with it incurs His wrath.” (at-Tirmidhi)

Narrated by Sa‘d ibn Abi Waqqaas (رضي الله عنه) who said: I said: O Messenger of Allah ﷺ, who among the people are most sorely tested? He ﷺ said: “The Prophets, then the next best and the next best. A man will be tested according to his level of religious commitment. If his religious commitment is solid, his test will be more severe, but if there is any weakness in his religious commitment, he will be tested according to his level of religious commitment. And calamity will continue to befall a person until he walks on the earth with no sin on him.” (at-Tirmidhi)

Al-Hasan al-Basri (رضي الله عنه) said: “Do not resent the calamities that come and the disasters that occur, for perhaps in something that you dislike will be your salvation, and perhaps in something that you prefer will be your doom.”

Al-Fadl ibn Sahl (رضي الله عنه) said: “There is a blessing in calamity that the wise man should not ignore, for it erases sins, gives one the opportunity to attain the reward for patience, dispels negligence, reminds one of blessings at the time of health, calls one to repent and encourages one to give charity.

Finally a word of advice from me: it is very common that, once someone finds their way back to the deen and tries to practice it earnestly, they are faced with hardship. Do not fear these hardships as they are from Allah SWT and may be intended to either purify you from your previous sins, help you learn an important lesson and come out of the difficult situation a more mature and improved individual or to test whether you can withstand challenges you face in life and, having gone through them, still maintain your level of iman in Allah SWT and keep trusting Him to take the best decision for you. 

Take this difficult time in life as a challenge you will get through and form an intention that, once this difficulty is over, you would have come out of it a much stronger individual and a much better Muslim in’Sha’Allah. Remember, every night ends and every difficult situation is eventually taken care of by Allah SWT. You will soon witness good times in’Sha’Allah. 

And, behold, with every hardship comes ease (94:5) 

Read all the above mentioned Quranic verses and Hadiths remembering that each of them are intended specifically for you and are a message to you from Allah SWT to help you through this difficult time. Whenever you are faced with negative thoughts, try to remember the above and find hope – I know it is easier said than done but we must strive in Allah’s path and never doubt his decisions and power even for a second. You are strong enough to face this hardship and you will not go back to your old ways - You are strong enough for this! As Allah SWT has stated in the Quran:

Allah does not burden a soul beyond that it can bear(…) (2:286)

Takecare :) 

anonymous asked:

Can you briefly explain what the law of attraction is for me? Thanku x

basicalllyyyy what u give out to the universe is what will come back to ya. If you put out positive energy into the universe, it will come right back to ya. Like if you completely think “i hate myself, i hate my life, i have no friends” then that’s what you get but if you think “ i love myself, i’m very grateful for the people in my life etc” and put LOVE out, then it will eventually come back! Say, for example, you really wanted a new camera. If you focus all ur energy on thinking about what life would be like with this camera, what ur life would be like with this camera and you become certain that you will get this camera then eventually the universe will work it’s lil magic and you will get the camera

real shitty example but like if you are 100% certain that something will happen, it eventually will. Like, I’ve been accidentally manifesting late buses for about a month now so it kinda backfired on me like I keep thinking “oh i bet the bus will be late” and then it is. I’ve also manifested a stable financial situation and some other jazz. 

I explained this terribly but watch annie tarasovas vid on it and bonny rebeccas is very well explained also xxx

Just Friends ~Part 5

HI GUYS! 

sorry this took so long but it is finally back 

JUST FRIENDS RETURNS STRONGER THAN EVER 

anyways enjoy :) 

-1 981 words 

angst/smut

prologue, part 1, part 2, part 3, part 4, part 5, part 6, part 7, part 8, part 9, part 10

~Jungkook won’t let you leave~

Originally posted by aestheticvbts

(gif isn’t mine credit to owner) 


I froze. you mean a lot to him what was that supposed to mean?  The words Jimin had muttered kept going back and forth in my head and I couldn’t wrap my mind around them. Questions and doubts were flooding in from everywhere. I couldn’t mean anything to Jungkook I was sure about that after all that he did, but still a spark of hope refused to leave. Maybe just maybe I had misinterpreted everything, maybe he wasn’t that bad after all. Maybe I actually meant something to him. Or maybe he was toying with my feelings, that was more than likely, he was a fuckboy now, everyone knew it. He just doesn’t want Yugyeom to take away his ex-best friend, he probably couldn’t stand the fact that after he had left us both we started going out together and have fun without him. I was going to leave but after Jimin had left me here I found myself unable to move. I wanted to find Jimin and ask him what he meant by what he said, but I couldn’t head back in there not after I had stormed out like that. I finally decided to leave when this time Jungkook comes running to me. I instantly regretted staying there for too long, I didn’t want to confront him about this, I was too confused by everything. I sped up even if I knew it wouldn’t change much. He caught up with me and pulled on my arm quite toughly, but I smacked his hand off of me right away. He couldn’t touch me so casually after what he had done.

“What’s the matter?” he grumbled clearly offended by my reaction.

I couldn’t believe it, he looked completely oblivious about this whole situation and didn’t seem to understand why I was unhappy. I could feel the anger boiling up inside of me, I had so much to tell him and I couldn’t seem to think straight.

“Jeon Jungkook. What do you fucking mean what’s the matter?”

He looked confused as I just started to yell at him frantically.

“Is this an actual fucking joke to you or are you just too stupid to realise what’s going on?!”

I was loosing it. The memories of what he had done came back to the surface again all at once. He had abandoned me, he didn’t give me any news for months, and he just crashed back in as if he wanted us to be friends but now my life was just fucked up ten times more than it was before. Every bit of my soul hated him as I shouted at him.

“How could you toy with me like this?! How dare you use me like one of your whores?!”

He didn’t say anything. His expression was blank and it only made me angrier.

“I thought I was your friend.”

My voice quietened as I felt tears coming to my eyes. I couldn’t cry, not in front of him, I didn’t want to give him that satisfaction.

“I was stupid enough to believe you, but it’s over now. Don’t you ever come close to me again.”

I was about to leave but he caught me by the arm, I started to struggle to make him let go but he caught me by the shoulders and made me look at his face.

“Listen, I”m sorry…”

“It’s too late for that.” I spat.

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anonymous asked:

"You're the devil" for Tendou ??? ♡

Tendou Satori:

She didn’t know what she would do without that comforting dip in the bed next to her. She didn’t know what she would do without his warmth and security. She never did know what she would do without him, until today. Today she realized without him, maybe, for once in her life, she’d actually get a good night’s sleep.
It was 2:15 AM on a Friday night and all the heavy burdens of college had been lifted off her shoulders. She opted out of all parties, all trips to the bar, everything. She wanted this to be a relaxing night. She wanted to hop in her bed and sleep for a solid eight hours, but now that she thought back to her earlier thoughts of euphoria, she realized she must’ve been delusional.
Nothing was euphoria when you were Tendou Satori’s girlfriend.
__ was not the type of person to get frustrated for no reason, everything she did had reason behind it. So when she was just falling into sleep and her boyfriend began to poke her in the sides, she felt as if she had every reason to suffocate him with the very pillow he laid on. Although, she ignored it. Satori did everything for attention, and she hoped, and prayed, if she just left him alone, he’d soon tire out too, and hopefully forget she was even there.
But there was no chance of that ever happening.
He would go on for another thirty minutes poking and prodding at her sides, snapping the elastic of her camisole and underwear, yank at her hair, anything solely to piss her off. She sighed, if she wasn’t tired before, by god she was now.
“Satori.” She huffed, flipping herself over to meet the cheeky grin of him, his lazy eyes wide open.
“It’s about time you’ve acknowledged my existence.”
“Well it’s about time you forget mine. Go the fuck to sleep.”
“But I don’t want to-o…” He pouted, in a manner that was so melodramatically childish it pissed her off. “Besides, it’s too much fun to see you suffer.”
“I hate you.”
“No you don’t”
“No I don’t”
“Atta girl…” Tendou scooted forward and placed a dramatic, wet kiss on her forehead. She sighed, opting out of fueling him further.
“Babe, tomorrow morning you can poke me all you want but please just let me sleep?” Her hand found his from underneath the duvets, and she gave it a gentle squeeze. “Like, for once in my life. I’m actually desperate.”
Satori hummed in reply, snatching her hand back into his as soon as she drawed back. “Give me a kiss and maybe I’ll comply to your demands…”
She smiled, rolling her eyes and scooching forward to give him a quick, chaste kiss on the lips. Tendou wasn’t satisfied, he never was, and he pulled her back in for the sloppiest kiss she had ever received. She loved him, but his tongue down her throat was the last thing she wanted at 2:50 AM. He pulled back with a small sigh of content.
“I’m satisfied.” He smiled, watching her with delirious eyes as she slowly shifted back around. She knew that look of mischief in those ruddy eyes of his. She knew he was far from done. Although, after a solid five minutes of seldom movement, she figured maybe, just maybe, Tendou had fallen asleep. She nuzzled deeper into the pillow, it’s downy warmth a welcoming presence. In this moment she was sure all was serene, all was well. That was, until she was snapped out of her senses by a cold shock. Of course, he had put his cold feet against her bare back, his caterwauling laughter echoing off the walls. She arched her back, her surprised yelp melding into a dissatisfied growl.
“Satori…” She spat, cupping his chin in her hands. “You’re Satan.”

anonymous asked:

Maybe one with Natasha Romanova/Romanoff "Why do you hate me?" If your not doing this anymore then don't worry

A/N: These are taking me like way too long, but my brain is a little fried. Only one more after this and I want to make it really good so be patient.

Warnings: I think I’m funny.

Sentence Prompts

Originally posted by marvelheroes

“Why do you hate me?” You blurted suddenly interrupting Natasha’s train of thought as she tried to hack the computer.
“Excuse me?” She didn’t even glance up from the control panel irritating you further.
“I’m sorry I tried to kill your friend and I’m sorry I can’t always control my powers. Ya know, Clint doesn’t hate me anymore and the rest of the team accepted me and I’ve been trying really hard and like I did so well in the hall just now. Right?”
“I don’t hate you.” She muttered to the keyboard.
“You never train with me! You never want to go on missions with me! You don’t laugh at any of my jokes! I use jokes as a mechanism to handle awkward tension. I’m just trying to diffuse whatever this is. It’s fine if you don’t want to be my friend, but can’t we at least be civil. I just-“ Natasha grabbed your arm pulling you down harshly to her eye level. You lost your breath a little this close to the great Black Widow.
“I don’t hate you.” She spoke calmly and slowly. You nodded timidly. “I keep my distance because I like you and I am nervous about you getting hurt. You know what happen with the last new recruit. This is a hard dangerous life and we all need walls. I am trying to be kinder, but I’m not going to risk your life because I want to avoid hurting your feelings. You’re right though. You are getting better. It just takes time. So give me time too.” You could only nod as she released your arm. You took your position back at the door keeping watch. She wrapped up the download quickly. When she rose and prepared to lead you back to the jet she suddenly turned to you again. “And I don’t laugh at your jokes because they’re really lame. Clint laughs because he is also lame.” She gave a small smile and headed out.
“Hey this morning’s joke was so good! Who’s secret identity should work as a garage attendant? Peter Park-er! That’s punny!”
“Alright maybe I hate you a little.”

Random Song Lyric Starters

A completely random mixture of song lyrics, ranging from fluffy, to angst

“Look into my eyes”
“It’s the start of my demise”
“We shall rise”
“What if we run away?”
“What if we left today?”
“What if we said goodbye to safe and sound?”
“We’ve got no time for getting old”
“Cross your fingers, here we go”
“I’ve got a lot to say to you”
“I notice your eyes are always glued to me”
“It makes no sense at all”
“Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone”
“I guess I’m dreaming again”
“Let’s be more than, this”
“I know I never make this easy”
“It’s easier to disappear”
“I just can’t stand leaving you alone tonight”
“It’s too late to go”
“I just stutter”
“Did I stutter?”
“So here I am”
“You can take or leave me”
“I won’t be anywhere but here”
“I heard that your dreams came true”
“Guess he/she/they gave you things I couldn’t give to you”
“Ain’t like you to hold back, or hide from the light”
“I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited”
“I wish nothing but the best for you”
“Don’t forget me”
“Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead”
“You make me smile when the world comes undone”
“You are the one who sweeps me off my feet”
“Everything’s all that I love about.”
“You would make my life complete”
“What am I supposed to do, just sit here and not fall in love with you?”
“There’s no turning back - I’m in love”
“All that I need is to know I’m not wrong”
“One look at you and my heart starts to soar”
“Now it’s clear to me, that everything you see is not always what it seems”
“I wish I knew then, what I know now”
“I don’t have to pretend”
“I am trying to hold on”
“I tried seeing the bright side”
“I miss the taste of a sweeter life”
“Why did you run away?”
“I was there for you in your darkest times”
“Where were you when I was at my worst?”
“You said you had my back”
“I can’t get over you”
“I like the way it hurts”
“I still fight, while I can fight”
“Where you going?”
“I’m leaving you”
“I feel so ashamed”
“I’ll never stoop so low again”
“I guess I don’t know my own strength”
“You ever love somebody so much, you can barely breathe when you’re with them?”
“Yesterday is over, it’s a different day”
“Life is no Nintendo game”
“I know we said things, did things, that we didn’t mean”
“Maybe our relationship isn’t as crazy as it seems”
“I love you too much, to walk away”
“Don’t you hear sincerity, in my voice when I talk?”
“Next time, there will be no next time”
“I apologize even though I know it’s lies”
“I’m tired of the games”
“What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you?”
“What am I supposed to say when I’m all choked up and you’re okay?”
“They say bad things happen for a reason”
“No wise words gonna stop the bleeding”
“I’m trying to make sense of what little remains”
“Who do you think we are?”
“Trust me and we’ll fly, not fall”
“Together we can go so far”
“All the lights in the sky are stars”
“It doesn’t make me nervous”
“If anything, I’m restless”
“I’ve been around and I’ve seen it all”
“Can’t go home alone again”
“I need someone to numb the pain”
“What would I do without your smart mouth?”
“You’ve got my head spinning”
“Cause all of me, loves all of you”
“I love your curves and all your edges”
“Give your all to me, I’ll give my all to you”
“You’re my end and my beginning”
“Even when you’re crying you’re beautiful too”
“You’re my muse”
“I didn’t mean it when I said I didn’t love you.”
“I never should have let you go”
“Never imagined I’d be sitting here beside myself”
“When you left I lost a part of me”
“I can’t sleep at night when you are on my mind”
“It’s breaking my heart”
“I’m trying to keep it together but I’m falling apart”
“I need you back in my life”

I just hate rich people man. Honestly I don’t mean any disrespect but like ugh they make me so mad. There are good rich people who give back and are understanding and wonderful people. Not talking about those. I’m talking about privileged bitches who’ve had everything given to them their entire life, never worked hard and just are horrible people. We have an exchange student living in my house (cause my mom has a lot of money but she’d never help me out lmao are you kidding) and this guy is hella rich. His parents sent him here all the way from China, paid for his flight, paid for his rent for FOUR YEARS and sent him to university which is what like $50,000+??? They gave him a whole bunch of extra spending money. The dude bought a $1200 JACKET ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS. ALSO $600 BOOTS. I DIDN’T EVEN KNOW THAT EXISTED. HE BOUGHT A $1100 INSTRUMENT. WHAT. THE. FUCK. He has one at home, too. He just decided to get a new one. Y'know when u just casually spend $1100 arbitrarily out of the blue because like why not because CAN’T RELATE. Dude it would take me at least like 9 months to be able to save up $1100. And it’s even worse for a lot of people out there like I’m privileged compared to some people. At least I have a place to stay (mind you an abusive place) but at least I have a home and food and a car.

This dude came home the other day with a new car. A $40,000 CAR. LIKE JUST ALL NONCHALANTLY TOO. Like it was just a regular fuckin day to him. This kid had a job and stuff before I think but like his parents buy him everything. His parents bought him: a $40,000 vehicle, $50,000+ worth of schooling, paid his entire rent for 4 years and gave him enough extra spending money to be able to afford $1200 jackets. My mom won’t even let me live with her without paying rent. We pay $300 because we can’t afford much more than that at the moment and we still get bitched at every day and treated badly because we’re not paying $1000.

I just really needed to vent I’m not trying to be like “oh feel bad for me” because I know that I’m privileged compared to some people. I can afford my basic needs and that’s more than what some people can. I am in no way trying to invalidate people with less than me or be like “omg I’m so poor”. I have to put this disclaimer on stuff because if I don’t, people think I’m trying to disregard every poor person and come in my inbox with death threats so like idk

anonymous asked:

thoughts on kenji kishimoto pls???

omg anon who are lets me friends omg im crying yes

  • kenji my son, my husband, my boyfriend who spits in my mouth
  • 100/10 would bang kenji kishimoto
  • if juliette didn’t exist i would pray every night for kenji and warner to bang
  • peoples reaction to the new books like: wARNETTE. While im like kenJI
  • more kenji 2k17
  • everyones not talking about this but they should like a line in the synopsis for restore me is “When tragedy hits, who will she become? Will she be able to control the power she wields and use it for good?”
  • Like nothing better happen to kenji. IF KENJI IS HARMED I SWEAR TO GO d
  • kenji protection squad
  • also did i mention that i would bang kenji because i definitely would
  • kenji can deck me and i’d cry and tell him do it more
  • I neED KENJIS BACKSTORY I NEED IT. ITS NOT A WANT ITS A NEED.
  • I love how sarcastic he is like yes my son yes
  • HE CALLED JULIETTE OUT ON HER SHIT AND I LOVED HIM FOR IT LIKE YES BABY YES BABY YES YES KENJI YES MY SON LIKE:

    All you do is sit around and think about your feelings. You’ve got problems. Boo-freaking-hoo,” he says. “Your parents hate you and it’s so hard but you have to wear gloves for the rest of your life because you kill people when you touch them. Who gives a shit?” He’s breathing hard enough for me to hear him. “As far as I can tell, you’ve got food in your mouth and clothes on your back and a place to pee in peace whenever you feel like it. Those aren’t problems. That’s called living like a king. And I’d really appreciate it if you’d grow the hell up and stop walking around like the world crapped on your only roll of toilet paper. Because it’s stupid,” he says, barely reining in his temper. “It’s stupid, and it’s ungrateful. You don’t have a clue what everyone else in the world is going through right now. You don’t have a clue, Juliette. And you don’t seem to give a damn, either.” I swallow, so hard. “Now I am trying,” he says, “to give you a chance to fix things. I keep giving you opportunities to do things differently. To see past the sad little girl you used to be—the sad little girl you keep clinging to—and stand up for yourself. Stop crying. Stop sitting in the dark counting out all your individual feelings about how sad and lonely you are. Wake up,” he says. “You’re not the only person in this world who doesn’t want to get out of bed in the morning. You’re not the only one with daddy issues and severely screwed-up DNA. You can be whoever the hell you want to be now.
    You’re not with your shitty parents anymore. You’re not in that shitty asylum, and you’re no longer stuck being Warner’s shitty little experiment. So make a choice,” he says. “Make a choice and stop wasting everyone’s time. Stop wasting your own time. Okay?”   
  • also his humOR:

“Who’s Bruce Lee?”
“Who’s Bruce Lee?” Kenji asks, horrified. “Oh my God. We can’t even be friends anymore.” 

“I am going to MURDER YOU—”
“No,” he says, pointing at me as he shifts backward again. “Bad Juliette. You don’t like to kill people, remember? You’re against that, remember? You like to talk about feelings and rainbows—” 

“Hey, um, I’m sorry to bother you, but I’m looking for a friend of mine,“ he says. “Have you seen her? She’s a tiny little thing, cries a lot, spends too much time with her feelings-”
“Shut up, Kenji!”
“Oh wait!” he says. “It is you.”

“So that’s it?” Kenji says. “You just like him for his personality, huh?”
“What?”
“All of this,” Kenji says, waving a hand in the air, “has nothing to do with him being all sexy and shit and him being able to touch you all the time?”
“You think Warner is sexy?”
“That is not what I said.”

“Can you, like, see invisible people, too?”
“No,” Warner says to him, eyes focused in front of him. “I can feel your presence. Hers, most of all.”
“Really?” Kenji says. “That’s some weird shit. What do I feel like? Peanut butter?”

“I’m not falling for Warner,“ I say quietly.
"Sure you aren’t.”
“I’m not,” I insist. “I’m just– I don’t know.” I sigh. “I don’t know what’s happening to me.”
“They’re called hormones.”
I shoot him a dirty look. "I’m serious.”
“Me too.” He cocks his head at me. “That’s like, biological and shit. Scientific. Maybe your lady bits are scientifically confused.”
“My lady bits?”
“Oh, I’m sorry” - Kenji pretends to look offended - “would you rather I use the proper anatomical terminology? Because you lady bits do not scare me-”

“You know, I can sort of control it now,“ I tell him, beaming. "I can moderate my strength levels.”
“Good for you. I’ll buy you a balloon the minute the world stops shitting on itself.”

Kenji clears his throat. "Hey–guys? Your loin passion is grossing out the little ones.”

“When are you putting me down?” he counters, no longer amused. “I mean, I’ve got an excellent view of your ass from here, but if you don’t mind me staring -”
I drop him without thinking.
“Goddammit, Juliette - what the hell -”

“I’m sure he is fine,“ Kenji is saying to me. "He probably just got hung up doing whatever it is he’s doing. You know, commandering and shit.”
“Commandering isn’t a word.”
“It has letters, doesn’t it? Sounds like a word to me.”

“I have a pretty spectacular face.”

“Back to work. And this time, focus. You’re not an ape. Don’t just throw your shit everywhere.”

“The man is moody as hell.”
“I am not moody—”
“Yeah, bro.” Kenji puts his utensils down. “You are moody. It’s always ‘Shut up, Kenji.’ ‘Go to sleep, Kenji.’ ‘No one wants to see you naked, Kenji.’ When I know for a fact that there are thousands of people who would love to see me naked—”

“Have you ever had a girlfriend, Kenji?”
“What?” He looks mortally offended. “Do I look like the kind of guy who’s never had a girlfriend? Have you even met me?”

“Please—please get up—and lower your voice—”
“Hell no.”
“Why not?” I’m pleading now.
“Because if I lower my voice, I won’t be able to hear myself speak. And that,” he says, “is my favorite part.”

“Okay, hold up,” he says, turning to block my path. “We both know there’s no way you haven’t noticed all of this” — he gestures to himself — “so if you’re trying to play games with me, I should let you know up front that it’s not going to work.”
“What?” I frown. “What are you talking abou—”
“You can’t play hard to get, kid.” He raises an eyebrow. “I can’t even touch you. Takes ‘hard to get’ to a whole new level, if you know what I mean.”
“Oh my God,” I mouth, eyes closed, shaking my head. “You are insane.”
He falls to his knees. “Insane for your sweet, sweet love!”

Kenji snorts.“That’s because you’re not fragile,” Kenji says. “If anything, everyone needs to protect themselves from you. You’re like a freaking beast,” he says. Then adds, “I mean, you know—like, a cute beast. A little beast that tears shit up and breaks the earth and sucks the life out of people.”

“You know, you have a really strange way of telling me you’re attracted to me.”

“Damn,” Kenji says after a moment. “Damn damn damn. This shit is bananas”

“Son of a motherless goat!”

“So, let me get this straight,” Winston says. “Our plan is basically seduce the soldiers and civilians of Sector 45 into fighting with us?”
Kenji crossed his arms. “Yeah, it sounds like we’re going to go all peacock and hope they find us attractive enough to mate with." 

8,100 - 9,000 Follower Prompt Batch Special
  • “You must not trust the masked one.”
  • “I will not allow you to mess this one up for me.”
  • “Falling in love with your roommates? Hilarious." 
  • "Do you have any idea how embarrassing what you just did was?”
  • “I always make sure to film your bad ideas.”
  • “How was I supposed to know that the cat was actually a dragon?”
  • “It makes you wonder how gullible I really am.”
  • “I let you in my life. Try not to mess anything up.”
  • “I’ve always held you accountable for my mistakes.”
  • “I’ve been an awful person to you and I want to change that.”
  • “It was easy to ignore what I was doing, because it didn’t affect me. I’m sorry. Truly.”
  • “You can’t just pretend I don’t have feelings.”
  • “Magic can’t be real. I’m just a con. How could this be?”
  • “I secretly fact check everything you say to make sure you’re wrong.”
  • “It’d be so easy to just end your life here and now, with no one around.”
  • “Sometimes I can picture you plotting my death. I can see it in your eyes.”
  • “Something went totally right in the programming.”
  • “I hate when you get smug.”
  • “I can’t argue with that logic.”
  • “Does it get tiring, being right all the time?”
  • “Stop feeding their ego with your lies.”
  • “I’m a professional, so please address me like one.”
  • “I told you that the chances of me messing up were reall low, right?”
  • “Stop focusing on my negatives.”
  • “I’m not giving anyone false hope." 
  • "Control your demon. They keep chewing on my blankets.”
  • “Stop using science as an excuse. I’m not your test subject.”
  • “It was one video, sure, but now everyone can see what I did.”
  • “I know I said I was going to drop the subject, but I can’t help my curiosity." 
  • "Ready to make me look bad?”
  • “The only thing I wanted to do was help you.”
  • “You imply I’ve never made mistakes as bad as this. Your implication is wrong.”
  • “I’ve written six pages nonstop since this morning. I can’t feel my fingers.”
  • “I don’t like inviting people into my house.”
  • “We’re on an endless road." 
  • "Do you ever wonder what’s out there?”
  • “This is where I belong.”
  • “I’m hoping we can find what was missing.”
  • “All bad ideas begin with you and end with me.”
  • “Fantastic. Let’s just go through the front door and alert everyone. No way could that ever go wrong.”
  • “Loving you was the only thing I knew how to do.”
  • “It’s too hard. All I do is not enough.”
  • “Help me understand.”
  • “I am made up of misunderstandings, you know?”
  • “I wish I could lie about something like this, but I can’t.”
  • “Look at me. I wasn’t kidding.”
  • “We need to leave before they get here." 
  • "Loving you leaves me hurt.”
  • “I hate this. Just talk to me! Stop walking away when I accidentally hurt you. I can change if you just tell me what’s wrong.”
  • “Don’t make it easy on me. I like a good challenge.”
  • “Whisper sweet nothings to me.”
  • “You’re the only person I know who will baby talk at a plant.”
  • “I remember all the times we ran through the streets in the rain and screamed our hearts out.”
  • “I didn’t want it to happen, but the busier I got, the less we talked.”
  • “Do you think they can tell I’m nervous?”
  • “Your crush was obvious to everyone- especially them.”
  • “Why didn’t you do anything?”
  • “You’re all dead to me. Go away and let me suffer here in peace.”
  • “Do I want to know why you’re laying on the floor like that?”
  • “I’m still thinking about you.”
  • “You don’t have to say a word if it’s too personal.”
  • “I beg you- tell me how to fix this." 
  • "If I bribe you with an odd amount of cash, can you pretend to be my date next week?”
  • “I hate parties and yet here I am. The things I do for you.”
  • “If you feel the same, what’s the problem?”
  • “You can drag my reputation through the dirt as many times as you want, but jealousy has never been a pretty look on you.”
  • “You’ve taken all my friends from me and I’m supposed to forgive you?”
  • “It hurts all the time.”
  • “Stop giving me those looks.”
  • “Disappointment is my nickname." 
  • "It’s like my progress is going backwards. One step forward, three steps back.”
  • “You can’t stay in a bubble for the rest of your life.”
  • “Say your last farewell.”
  • “You’ve saved my life more times than I can count on my hands. I want to return the favor.”
  • “I always figured you’d understand. How could I be so wrong?”
  • “I thought I knew you pretty well.”
  • “So many choices. I’m stuck.”
  • “Look at me and tell me that you’re happy.”
  • “I know they’re lying about something, but I don’t know what it could be.”
  • “I was never good with mysteries. It’s part of the reason  I don’t like them.”
  • “I let you in and it was the worst thing I’ve done in my life.”
  • “You think I do these things because I want to?”
  • “I’m just a petty thief in the eyes of the public. That won’t ever change.”
  • “I’m just here to do my job. Move.”
  • “I gave you plenty of time to think about what you did.”
  • “We are two of the same kind.”
  • “No one will ever understand what you meant to me.”
  • “Videos that can make me cry are not just limited to people being surprised with animals." 
  • "If you do my English paper, I’ll do your science homework." 
  • "I thought it’d be funny to leave a trail of gummies leading to the couch for movie night, but I didn’t expect you to actually eat them." 
  • "I’m nervous one hundred percent of the time.”
  • “I want to change on my own terms, not yours.”
  • “My goals and dreams are still so far away.”
  • “Do you ever feel stuck?”
  • “I see you haven’t retired from crime.”
  • “I can’t believe they stole my chair." 
  • "Of all people I didn’t expect to be here, you were on top of that list.”
  • “I get an odd satisfaction from seeing you fail.”
  • “Cheer up. Your next attempt will be better, I’m sure.”
  • “I’ve always had faith in you.”

anonymous asked:

Do you support gay marriage? Why? I am against it personally so don't worry I'm not here to cuss you out if you don't :)

Firstly, I think this is obviously a topic that does have to be spoken of. 

HOWEVER

I think that as Christians we often come across as legalistic because we’re always like, “don’t do this.” 

I think a question that the church should begin to ask is, “how can we better honour those who are doing things right?”

I think homosexuality has become such a messed up topic in society because the church has treated this issue so poorly. We have totally owned the judgemental stereotype that is upon Christians.

Ultimately, I believe people are born gay - with a tendency to be attracted to the same sex. I don’t think it’s my place to hate someone or condemn them because of their sinful nature.

For me, I have a natural tendency/addiction to rely on alcohol when I’m down or even when I’m not! BUT because I believe following God and His commands is much more important than pleasing my own desires, I choose not to partake in alcohol consumption. 

So, coming back to homosexuality, I think it’s fair to want to be with the same sex. However, if God is worth taking precedence and all authority in your life, you should be willing to give up ANYTHING for the sake of serving Jesus. Even if that means your sexuality. (Worse followed. Refusing to know God, they soon didn’t know how to be human either—women didn’t know how to be women, men didn’t know how to be men. Sexually confused, they abused and defiled one another, women with women, men with men—all lust, no love. And then they paid for it, oh, how they paid for it—emptied of God and love, godless and loveless wretches. Romans 1:26-27)

God has given us freewill and choice to either honour Him or dishonour Him. This comes down to a choice to act on temptation or to flee from it. 

I believe God has called us to live and walk in holiness - forsaking all else. Whether it be sexuality, alcoholism, drug abuse, poor language, hatred towards others, and the list goes on and on.

We are called, as Christians, to not walk in willful sin. Because of this, I do agree with you - gay marriage is wrong. BUT, so is your poor attitude towards your roommate or the way you spoke about your boss yesterday.

I think it’s less about deeming stuff right and wrong, but rather reminding the world that God truly does love AND like them, and He desires them to walk in holiness and surrender; in complete pursuit of him - forsaking ALL else.

I'm probably going to stop writing for BTS.

Writing is a huge passion of mine. The first time I was exposed to a novel that impacted my life, was truly the biggest door opening for my life, I was 10 and read novels my teachers wouldn’t allow me too because they thought the level I was at wasn’t enough. 

I lost friends because I just wanted to read. I became an outcast because I was truly so engulfed in the idea of imaginary worlds that I felt I was a part of. 

That being said, I wrote many stories based on bands I liked or stories I loved, etc. I didn’t know they were called fanfictions, or else I would’ve probably been blogging at the age of 10. I sat in my room for days during the summer, during winter or spring break just writing or reading. 

By the time I was 12 I had written two novels of a story I created, an original one. I hand wrote them, so it took much longer to create, but it was a huge accomplishment for me. I still have the copies of them, over 600 pages of white lined paper with messy, fifth grade grammar and shitty illustrations of the characters I had pictured perfectly in my mind.

Writing became more than a hobby for me. I became obsessed with it, to the point where my family had to force me out of the house to actually get any exercise or to be my friends.

I ended up losing most of my friends for that. I never contacted anyone, I was reading books over and over because I couldn’t go out and buy new series I was interested in.

I moved when I was 13, to a new city. I was happy about that, because I thought maybe I could get a fresh start and meet new people. I got involved in new series, movies adapted from books I loved, TV series adapted from books I loved. I found that people at my new school enjoyed the same things as me, and I found friends I related to and cared about.

I told my mom and dad I wanted to become an author.

They told me I was ridiculous, and that I would never make enough money to support them when they got older. They told me to get an office job like my older sister, do something safe and stable even if you hate it. I remember that being said to me, even though it was 3 years ago. 3 years ago is longer tn you might think.

I started to think if I can’t do what I love, what’s the point of living. Pretty drastic, especially for a 13 year old right? I was upset, thinking that my dreams were useless. Once I got into high school I had dropped writing and focused on my friends even if I was unhappy. I stopped reading, stopped thinking about the world I had created and was once so engulfed in, because why do something you love when you’ll never make enough money of it to support your family?

I was depressed. I got into more fights with my siblings  and mom more often. I hated myself. I didn’t like to spend time at home because all I did was cry and sleep. I was failing a lot of my courses for no reason. My teachers hated me. I was really wrecked by the thought of not doing something I love, especially after spending so much time and energy writing it and thinking it all, basing my life on imaginary worlds nobody knew of. I didn’t care about making money when I was older. I just wanted to write.

Writing fictional things was like a diary to me. I was physically abused as a child and mentally abused when I refused to get hit anymore. While I wasn’t putting my feelings onto paper, I made myself feel better by creating a universe that would help me forget the things I was going through. Friends leaving, family members dying, abuse and negativity from all around. My own way to cope.

Think about that, your whole life being shattered because you wouldn’t be able to afford to take care of people you practically hated just because they gave birth to you.

I created this blog once I became a fan of Bts, in the summer of 9th grade going into 10th. I was 15, and wanted to write my heart out. At this point I had given up becoming an author, just to please those around me. It was a hard spot in my life, my grandmother was in the hospital and unfortunately passed away. Again, it was my coping mechanism.

So I spent almost all my time on here, writing really sub par series to get rid of the fact that I didn’t have a future doing what I loved.

But I fell in love with writing again. I loved the attention I was getting for my writing, no matter how amateur it was. I was getting love and support I never had, which urged me to write more and more. I started to hardly see my friends, and was spending all my time writing once more. My grades went up, but hardly. My boyfriend and I broke up, and by the time I was in 10th grade I had spiraled back into that downward spiral of why do something you love when you can’t make enough money off of it.

My irritability and anger came back, I hated my mom and locked myself in my room for days. I stopped going to school and I failed every single one of my courses.

I was finally able to meet new friends, ones that I related to more than just hey, we watch the same TV show! We talk everyday, we always have something new to talk about even if its about nothing in general. I trust them, and I can really say I love them all so much.

I got diagnosed with depression, after years of living with it. I just reached a point where I woke up and forced myself back to sleep because I hated my life. My mom took me to the doctor and  barely needed conformation besides the fact that I didn’t eat, slept all day a contemplated dying all the time.

I got put on pills. Didn’t work. Got put on higher, stronger pills. Those fucked me up but I kept quiet. I was tired of looking like I was insane. Both of my parents dont believe in depression, they jut thought I was crazy and wanted me to leave. I was out of it most of the year but felt happier. Slept like the dead, had nightmares a lot, hardly ate, but as long as I felt happier I was fine.

Went back to school for a few months, quit again once I found out we were moving, again. Talked to only 2 people in real life, most of my friends were online.

I stopped taking my pills without anyone knowing. NEVER DO THAT. I didn’t consult my doctor, almost tried to kill myself and it was a mess. Since then I’ve been eased off my pills and have not had a problem with my own self hatred or suicidal thoughts.

I was ready to get a job. I had been studying for my drivers test and got help to make a resume. Never happened. My birth ceritifcate was lost, my SIN card seemingly disappeared into thin air. Can’t open up a bank account of nobody knows who the fuck I am.

My mom and I got into a huge fight, because she refused to pay to get me a new birth certificate. I needed one to get a SIN card, which was needed to open a bank account, which was needed to get a job so I could pay for a car and whatever else I needed.

The fight got so bad I tried to leave. Didn’t work, my brother found me and brought me home. My mom tried to leave next but it never happened. Empty threats from weak people.

 A lot of cups were broken by me that night, and I seriously believed I’d be stuck as a high school drop out forever. My mom made me believe that night that I was insane and had no life ahead of myself.

Everything calmed down, I went through boxes for days searching for my birth certificate which my mom didn’t help me look for.

I found my birth certificate, and I applied for a new high school. I’ll be graduating by the time I’m 19, but I don’t mind in the least. My resume is finished, and by this Monday I’m planning on going to get a new SIN card and apply for as many jobs as I can until I find one. I’m opening up a bank account this Tuesday and even studying for my drivers license again.

I really didn’t understand college, or university. Hell, I still don’t. I got into contact with my older sister I haven’t spoken to in 4 years. She promised me a place to stay when I graduated high school, until I was able to get on my feet by myself.

She went though a similar thing with my mom, leaving when she was young after getting abused, but she has a good life. Getting married this week and in college studying to make her own jewelry and open a shop of her own. She helped my inspiration return, and I’m grateful I decided to talk to her again.

She’s helping me find a college or university for creative writing. I plan on saving up once I get a job, and moving to where she is to attend. Writing is the biggest passion of my life, and I’ve gone through so much to finally realize I can do whatever I want, without being held back by those who didn’t believe in me.

I met people that give me amazing advice and all around make me a better person. This blog has been such an experience. I’ve gone through a lot of ups and so so many downs. I wouldn’t have met people I consider family if it weren’t for this blog, and I’m so happy,. All 13k of you have supported me more times than I’ve ever gotten hate. The hate I did get only made me stronger and more ready for the criticism I know I will receive. Whether it be if I publish novels, or end up becoming a screenplay writer. I’m not exactly sure yet.

The reason why I made this long ass letter, or… Whatever it was, was because I wanted all of you to know that this isn’t the end of park-jimeme. I’m going to improve in the future so much more than I have the past year of running this blog. I’m going to come back better than ever, with fresh original work that is purely from my mind and my mind alone.

Thank you all for being a reason that I’m able to get to this point.

Never live your life pleasing others, live for yourself and yourself alone. Find people who will support you no matter how hard times get. Get help if you need it, dont try to handle things on your own.

And last but not least, thank you to @infireation @bobajimin @seokjin-seng, @hyongtae, and @lellantos for helping me realize that I’m a lot better than how I acted, and for making me a better person 💕💕 I love you guys so much!!!

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A strange nostalgic feeling came over me, and I think I know why. I have broken up with the Naruto franchise since its ending, and I ought to have blacklisted the series from my dash. But I haven’t. Why? Because unexpectedly, the SasuNaru/NaruSasu peeps whom I follow give me life. I will never erase their sass from my dash.
They are so real. They can be critical and outright hate the ending like I do, yet somehow they have never lost their devotion to the SasukexNaruto relationship. Because that bond was real–in the manga, and real for us, no matter what the ending.

I hope the SN/NS fandom likes this. I unearth this again for you guys. This was made way back when I was running on a lot of strong feels for the series. Even after all this time, underneath my risen salty levels: Part One was an important part of my life, and these two meant something to me.