i had to try it ok

here’s a lil tidbit for u!

when that girl on the radio said annyeonhaseyo, jk was like “oh she seems like she knows korean well” IN KOREAN.

and this girl, without needing translation or anything else IMMEDIATELY responds in pretty well-pronounced korean “oh i can’t speak that well” (informal). so not only does she know how to talk but she knows enough to understand context and reply on the spot.

and it’s a big yikes that anyone would try to make fun of someone who’s obviously spent a lot of time and effort learning the language and was respectful.

lmao also if ur a kboo don’t make fun of other kpop stans bc ur probably worse, friend!!

i just don’t know how many more fucking people need to die for everyone to take mental illness and drug addiction seriously you can’t be passive with this because when youre passive ppl either slowly kill themselves or just fucking OD out of no where but this shit is never out of no where

chances are u know someone close suffering with mental illness or drug addiction or both and don’t even know it

most don’t know i did and am

i’ve had chronic depression since i was about thirteen and addiction has been a crutch that’s helped me walk since i was eighteen

it took almost a decade for me to seek real help and be serious about getting better

but I got it

and for the first time that I can remember i wake up and feel ok

i don’t want to kill myself and that sounds so fucking stupid and hyperbolic but i’m crying as i type this and that isn’t fucking hyperbole

my therapists told me

try to be content

if you can be content the majority of the time well you can’t ask for more

and he’s right

i’ve been content for almost this entire year

obviously i have my moments of collapse

when the walls come close and grip me tight but I come out

clutching my breath and happy to be alive but luckily that collapse hasn’t come in a while

i don’t know what to do with my body at peace

because while i’m at peace all my friends are dying

you made this generation now help us fucking sleep

Ok I’ll try to post more on this blog. I pretty much started my transition with it so I’ll continue keeping this thing alive. This is a pretty new picture of me (16.11.17) and I still didn’t had more surgeries than the chest surgery. That’s because I’m too afraid of the others at the moment and I can’t really do them now because of work. Some more facts about me? I’m currently 23, 185 cm/6.09 ft and still a huge nerd. I love Stranger Things and by love I mean I’m having christmas lights everywhere and painted the abc on my wall. I even have Stranger Things tattoos. I also love Jim Hopper and Steve Harrington. I mean.. did you take a look at his hair? Joe Keerys hair is perfekt. I love listening to twenty one pilots and Macklemore.  I started playing Overwatch some weeks ago. I’m still addicted to dinosaurs. I have many pets. I love them, they are my family. I’m half-orphan because my dad passed away this year. He was a great man and I hope I can make him proud with this stupid dork I am. I also do cosplay. I’m a youtuber uploading cosplay convention vlogs and videos about transsexuality and how to get stuff changed in Germany. Yeah..I guess that were some informations? Do you want to know more? Write me! I love seeing questions or messages even if they are anon. ♥

oh and like my name says I’m Matthew / Matt

Cosplay YouTube:


Trans YouTube:


cryingkittn  asked:

it's me againnn so one time my brother had friends over and they'd sleep at our place and it was like really late around 2 am and i was masturbating and trying to keep quiet, after i came i was so exhausted that i immediately fell asleep above my covers and with my panties and a big tshirt on and the next day when i woke up i found myself underneath the covers only wearing panties and i got scared but it got me wet thinking that it could be one of my bro's friends☹

Hope nothing happened while you were sleeping and you’re OK! 💋

anonymous asked:

When you came out online/to your friends what were some good and bad experiences if you don't mind saying. My friend came out as trans to me and I don't want to mess up by accident and say a backhanded comment.

Honestly all my friends are lgbtqia+ so I’ve not really had any experience with non-supportive people? I’m happy to just ignore gender and I like agender to describe myself, but it didn’t really require a coming out, I’ve been drawing myself genderless and using they/them online forever anyway! And I still pretty much go by she/her irl because it doesn’t matter to me as much as how I look!

But I dunno, it doesn’t change who your friend is? Just try to remember their pronouns and if they choose a new name, respect that! It’s ok to mix it up sometimes, apologise and move on. Don’t ‘out’ them to other people, it’s their job to tell people when they’re ready. And be sensitive with comments/jokes, don’t go into gender territory unless you know it’s ok? Ya might just make them feel bad, and not better?

I guess just- don’t make assumptions either, do some googling, read other peoples experiences, and ask your friend if there are things that you aren’t sure about (if they’re comfortable answering!). No trans peoples experiences are the same, some people have dysphoria (feeling like their body doesn’t match their gender) some people want to go on hormones, some people want surgery, some people just want to change pronouns and leave it there! Gender is- all over the place and there’s no correct way to define it.

And ignore the mass media, its bullshit.


“I w-wanna go hooommee!!!”Mosquito cried out, rubbing his eyes, trying to wipe away his tears. 

Toolshed awkwardly patted his back, “We will get home dude, it’ll be ok.” He said, trying ot assure him.

New Kid watched over them. She wanted to say something, anything. But shecouldn’t find the words. “…” She walked over to the two boys and hugged mosquito, making him freeze and toolshed blink.

She released him and typed something into her phone before showing it to mosquito.

I’ll go and try to turn back on the tram. You guys stay in here and stay safe, ok? I’ll try to be as quick as I can. : D”

Mosquito read over the message, still sniffling as he tried to stop crying, “R-really New Kid?? B-but what about the si-sixth graders?”

She thought for a moment before holding up her hand and sticking out her pinky.

“uh.. Dude, wh-?”Toolshed started but Call Girl came int othe rescue.

“It’s a pinky promise.New Kid is makin a promise that they’ll do it. She explained, shooting a look over at the New KId who just smiled.

mosquito thought for a moment before locking pinkies with the New Kid, “W-well.. I-im holding you too it, dude. bzzt.”

She nodded and went to the door, she looked back at everything, giving a small smile and a wave before leaving.

“f-for a boy..New kid smells weirdly nice. I-i smelled it when he hugged me.”Mosqito said quietly.

Call Girl scoffed, “… Boys.”She sighed, looking at her new messages.


ok but consider this: viktuuri au where this is how they first met in the streets

(based on this)

Wilford was the last one left.

The others faded years ago, but he wasn’t quite sure how many. Not much point in keeping track of time when there’s nothing to live for. Nothing to look forward to. Nothing.

Mark kept his promise, he kept the channel up after he stopped making videos. That alone kept Wilford and the others around for a while. The fans still cared, after all.

But slowly, they started to lose interest. The weakest were the first to go, those who were only in one or two videos. Yandere, Bop, Bim, Ed, the Silver Shepard, they faded quickly. The Host lasted a bit longer, due mainly to the scope of his powers, but not by much, maybe a month longer than the other five. Dr. Iplier was next, and he spend his last moments bustling around the clinic, trying to cure himself. King, the Jims, the Googles, Bing, they were next. Soon, only Wilford and Dark remained, and then it was just Wilford.

The channel icon, Mark’s face with a pink mustache, Wilford’s face, was seen whenever someone scrolled through their subscription list. That was just barely enough to keep him alive. He was more of a ghost, really, barely corporeal and hardly visible unless he concentrated.

He never did anything anymore. He stopped trying to air Warfstache TV after Bim faded. He stopped leaving his room after Dark faded. There was nothing for him anymore, he was doomed to a lifetime of solitude that wouldn’t end until the last of Mark’s subscribers was gone and there was no one left to see his face.

It was unbearable.

He hated every second of this miserable life.




“Hey, you remember this dude?”

“Oh yeah, we used to spend hours watching his stuff.”


Someone was watching Mark’s videos.

Someone was watching his interviews. For the first time in ages, he felt the power of having an audience, even if it was only one or two people reminiscing.

He left his room for the first time since Dark faded, praying to whatever was listening that they would watch the other egos videos, too.

He looked in each room as he walked down the hall, hoping beyond hope to see someone inside. He checked the Google’s room first, knowing that “Google Gets an Upgrade” was at the top of the live action playlist.


“Hey, is that Markiplier?”


“Shit, I haven’t watched him in years, mind if I join?”


“Googs?” His voice cracked from disuse. “Googs, you in here?”


He checked room after room, still feeling the power of having active viewers. They were still watching.

Every room was empty. His voice echoed uncomfortably through each one. He started to lose hope. Obviously one or two viewers wouldn’t bring the others back, and while he had realized that as he walked through the hall, he just couldn’t keep himself from checking for the others.


“Oh hey, check out this series, it’s one of my faves.”

“‘A Date with Markiplier’ ?“

“Yeah, take the horror movie route.”


He finally reached Dark’s office at the opposite end of the hallway, and opened the door with trepidation. He probably wouldn’t be here either, no one else was.


“Holy shit, hot demon dude.”

“Dark was always my favourite uh, what were they called? Egos? Yeah. He was my favourite.”

“Any more vids of him?”

“Hell yeah.”


As soon as he opened the door, his ears started ringing.



Nerd Lord posted a link

Nerd Lord: hey guys watch this

Fucko: sweet

That Damn Kid: oh hey i remember this dude

Hot Diggity: fuckin nostalgia trip

Hot Diggity: imma binge this channel now fuk u

Fucko: yno wat same

That Damn Kid: yeah me too



The ringing got louder. Granted, it was still faint, but it was increasing in volume, bit by bit.

Wilford walked into the room slowly, not really believing the ringing was Dark. Why would it be? He was probably hallucinating.

Then he heard him.




13/10/17 (aka THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE)

okay so where do I begin…WOW.
okay so… on Monday October 3rd at 10:25pm, I was sitting on my phone in my room listening to holy ground and I was on twitter and BOOM. “TAYLOR NATION SENT YOU A DIRECT MESSAGE” I STARTED SHAKING AND CRYING WHEN I READ THE CONFIDENTIAL MESSAGE I WAS SO CONFUSED BECAUSE THEY DONT EVEN FOLLOW ME (yes I’m still trying to work out technology ok) AND I FLIPPED OUT AND I RAN INTO MY MOMS ROOM SOBBING AND I TRIPPED OVER THE HOOVER BUT ITS OKAY. MY MOM WAS SAYING ALL SORTS OF THINGS LIKE SOMEONE MAY HAVE HACKED INTO TAYLOR NATIONS ACCOUNT (?????? idk). Anyway I died and my mind was a mess and I couldn’t control myself at all, I had knew what it usually meant when people got these messages and I explained everything to my mom ( she is genuinely worst-case-scenario-Christine ) and she started crying with happiness for me. THAT DAY WILL ALWAYS BE REMEMBERED.

The next day October 4th at 5:27pm, I was (trying) to study when BOOM. I RECEIVED THE CALL. Ali phoned and told me about a special secret event on Friday the 13th of October and I was shaking so so much and could barely even talk but she was honestly the nicest ever (I noticed she said “wonderful” about a million times and I’m now so in love with that word). Side note: My mom still wasn’t really convinced this wasn’t a set up to get me kid napped but SHE FINALLY CALMED DOWN A LITTLE AND MEANWHILE I WAS SHAKING, CRYING AND BASICALLY DEAD.

Okay so then it was the waiting game…the days DRAGGED in as I found out a whole 10 DAYS before the event and I saw Taylor lurk people on tumblr/Instagram AND she liked the post about me and my best friend Eve. PEOPLE WERE ALSO TALKING ABOUT WHAT COULD HAPPEN ON THE 13TH AND I WAS JUST SITTING THERE LIKE HELP ME WHATS GON HAPPEN.

Fast forward to Friday…so because I live in Glasgow I had to fly to London… I COULDNT SLEEP AT ALL AND I ONLY GOT 4 HOURS SLEEP LOL BECAUSE I GOT UP AT 4AM. We went to the airport and I was genuinely so nervous and excited about what could possibly be happening. We then got a bus and then a tube and wandered about Covent Garden and EVERYTHING kept reminding me of Taylor. We then got a tube and another bus ( NUMBER 13 ) to our hotel. I got really stressed out because I opened up my case and there was makeup spilt on my dress BUT MY MOM CAME TO THE RESCUE AND FIXED IT FOR ME. I curled my hair and fixed myself up then I went to out to the secret meeting point and recognized so many people from tumblr/twitter etc and it was SO surreal. ALSO A FEW PEOPLE CAME UP TO ME AND WERE LIKE OMG ABBIE I KNOW YOU AND THAT MADE ME FEEL SO SO SPECIAL SO I LOVE YOU FOR THAT IF THAT WAS YOU. We checked in and got really cool wristbands saying United Kingdom (IN THE REPUTATION FONT) I WAS ALREADY DEAD.

We went to drop off our bags and me and I met 2 beautiful, amazing girls called Emma ( @taylorsmusic ) and Flora ( @spoookyswift ) and we were FREAKING OUT TOGETHER. We just couldn’t comprehend that we could potentially meet our idol. We talked about everything and I genuinely think I have 2 new best friends for life. I LOVE YOU GUYS. We were on the last bus to leave so we waited foreverrrr and my nerves were building up so much and I was FULL ON ALL OVER SHOOK.

Everyone on the bus was SO EXCITED and we were all dying together. It was such a combination of nerves and excitement like I can’t even describe it. So we FINALLY arrived at our secret destination and were escorted to the entrance to be searched etc (there was a big box of socks for some reason and it made us laugh so just thought I’d add that in and also a few half finished smart water bottles👀).

Okay so then we went through to TAYLORS HOUSE. It was beautiful and there was so much food laid out and I had a REPUTATION COOKIE and CUSTOMIZED REPUTATION M&MS and CHICKEN TENDERS. Taylors playlist of the songs she loves was playing in the background and we were LOVING LIFE. (Side note: my mom loved the olives you put out taylor so thanks for that) So basically me, Emma and Flora were chilling together (we were not chill at all tho) and everything was fine THEN Flora goes “oh my god, that’s Scott” AND IM LIKE WTF AND WE ALL LOOK OVER AND DIE LIKE WHAT WAS HAPPENING BEFORE OUR VERY EYES THE KING OF GUITAR PICS WAS HERE. We went and spoke to more amazing people and life was good…THEN TREE COMES THROUGH AND IM LIKE WHATATSTSS THATS A LEGEND THEN NOT LONG AFTER THAT WE SEE ANDREA AND WE ALL DIED. I CRIED WHEN I SEEN ANDREA IDK WHY IT JUST GOT TOO MUCH AND SHES MY QUEEN. IT GENUINELY FELT LIKE A DREAM LIKE SURELY THIS WAS NOT REAL.

Finally, after a while, we went through to THE LIVING ROOM. YES. A CHAIR. A SPEAKER. WE ALL KNEW WHAT THIS WAS. ME, EMMA AND FLORA HAD A LITTLE SUPPORT NETWORK GOING ON BECAUSE WE WERE ALL HOLDING HANDS BECAUSE WE WERE NOT PREPARED AT ALL. I cried - yeah she wasn’t even here yet and I cried. So anyway THEN I’m like I can’t even do this and my heart is beating abnormally fast. And that’s when she appeared…

I COULDNT BELIEVE MY EYES. MY ANGEL. MY EVERYTHING. GENUINELY LIKE A METER AWAY. NO WAY. Okay so then I SOBBED even more and I was uncontrollable (I finally did calm down but omg it was so hard I couldn’t stop crying) - thank you Emma and Flora for helping me LOL. Side note: her hair was so curly and pretty and she wore this camo dress thing and SNAKE BOOOOOOTS and a snake ring and yeah I was like GO GURLLL. IN THAT MOMENT I DIED IT WAS ACTUALLY HAPPENING.

On to the album, obviously you guys understand I can’t say much at all BUT REPUTATION IS MY FAVOURITE ALBUM BY FARRRRR. Like it’s genuinely so different but so genius - it’s incredible. She’s so talented and you can tell she’s worked so super hard for it and I can tell she’s happier than ever through the way she talks and she just seems so content with life and it makes me so proud and happy of how far she’s came. It’s so emotionally complex and THE LYRICS (she’s a genius okay). But there was one song that made me full on SOB and everyone in that room felt something…ANYWAY Taylor herself, during the whole of the session, she was so funny and she’s just so genuine…it was unreal. UNREAL. Some highlights that stand out to me include when during one of the songs she looked right at me for about 20 seconds or so and we just danced and smiled at each other. IVE NEVER FELT SO LOVED IN MY LIFE. To say I’m proud of her for this album is an understatement.

okay so then….IT WAS MEET AND GREET TIME. We were all sitting reading the magazines and talking to each other and it was adorable and even though I was a nervous wreck, everyone was so nice and amazing towards me. When it was time for the picture I was at the waiting point I can’t tell you how I felt. It was indescribable. I seen the 2 girls before me hug Taylor goodbye and it was my turn. I ran up to her and hugged her so hard and she looked at me and went “ITS ABBIE ISNT IT?” AND I WAS NODDING AND I WAS LIKE YEAH ITS ME and she was like “NO WAY I CHOSE YOU LIKE A YEAH AGO LIKE SOOOO LONG AGO” and I was like NO WAY and then I was like “THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR EVERYTHING YOUVE HELPED ME THROUGH, YOU’VE HONESTLY GOT ME THROUGH SO MUCH” and she was listening so intently and she smiled at me and hugged me and we held hands for a few seconds which was BEAUTIFUL and she was like “you are SO beautiful like SO beautiful and you are SO funny like you’re posts are hilarious” and I started shaking and I told her she was like a big sister to me and then we got a really cute huggy picture and then we got one with my mom which was cute and THEN (THIS WAS THE FUNNIEST MOMENT) the camera guy said to my mom “do you want a pic alone with her” and my mom was like “oh it’s okay I’m just her mom” and TAYLOR WAS LIKE" OH WELL THANKS" IT WAS SO FUNNY. THEN I told her I loved her and she was like I LOVE YOU BUDDY and I gave her one final hug before I left which was MAGICAL (I swear we hugged about 27468273 times).

As soon as I left the room, I BURST INTO TEARS I COULDN’T BELIEVE I HAD JUST MET MY IDOL AFTER LIKE 6 YEARS OF LOVING HER AND FANGIRLING OVER HER. My mom went to talk to mama swift and she said to her “thank you so much for making a beautiful, amazing role model for my daughter” and mama swift was like AWWW THANK YOU SO MUCH THEN MY MOM GAVE HER A HUG AND THEN I GAVE HER A HUGE HUG AND MAMA SWIFT WAS LIKE THANK YOU FOR SUPPORTING HER AND DOING THE CRAZY THINGS SHE MAKES YOU DO AND I CRIED MORE.


Thank you so so so much for inviting me to your London Secret Session - it was an HONOR to be there. I can’t believe I was given such a beautiful, amazing opportunity and I meant everything I said to you in there and it truly came from the heart. I love you so much and I can’t wait to hopefully see you on tour. You mean the world to me and I can’t wait to hear reputation again and DIE ANOTHER MILLION DEATHS.
I love you so much girl.

Abbie x @taylorswift

Background: I’m DMing for a group of new teens. Our tiefling bard has decided to sleep through a bit of traveling and our dragonborn paladin is carrying him. The crew gets where they are going and try to break into a house with high windows and have no luck.
Paladin: Can I throw him through the window?
Me: It’s above your head?
Paladin: I know. I’ll spin throw him.
Me: I mean, you’ll have to roll high and he’ll talk damage. *to the bard* Are you going to let him do it?
Bard: Yup.
Me: Ok, roll.
Paladin rolls the highest roll anyone had all night.
Me: Fine. You grab him by the tail and spin a few times and fling your half asleep tiefling through the window 10 feet off the ground. *to the bard* you take 4 damage, what do you do?
Bard: I curl up and go back to sleep.


hey guys

Draw me Like one of your French Girls... Part 1

This fic is dedicated to @yunyin who was a big part of bringing it about in the first place ^_^ 

(Warning some spoilers for ML Season 2- (Just the stuff we knew during the hiatus nothing important from the new episodes) 

“Listen furball, I am ten times as sexy as you are. That is just a fact. People would pay to see pictures of me.”

“People DO pay to see pictures of me,” Chat shot back.


“Never mind,” he grumbled, “the point is that I am obviously the sexier of the two of us.”

“Guys, I know this is a slow patrol night but you are giving me a headache,” Rena Rougue sighed, dropping down onto the platform and sprawling onto her stomach against the cool metal of the tower.

“Wait,” Chat said with a terrifying grin, “Rena. My dear, darling, friend.”

“Oh this can’t end well.”

“You are a fox of impeccable taste are you not?”


“And you are an excellent judge of both male and female attractiveness as well, are you not?”

“Ladybug is the hottest out of all of you,” she smirked, not bothering to get up.

“Yes, that is a given, but the point is-”

“The point is that I could pull off sexy far better than this mangy stray,” Bee interrupted.

“Could not.”

“Will you two please just stop fighting, it’s been too hot to deal with this level of stupid,” Rena sighed.

“It’s not stupid, my honor is at stake!” Bee huffed. “If you want us to stop then tell him that I clearly would be better suited to being a sex icon than he would.”

“Foxy lady, please tell Bee that she is clearly pollinating the wrong flower.”

Rena groaned. Clearly there would be no reasoning with the two of them until this had been hashed out.

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