i had to tell someone about it

I feel like I should balance out the salty drama posts I flood you guys with… I think it’s sending the wrong impression about me. I had someone approach me for advice with so much trepidation and groveling you’d think they were talking to a dragon. I’m nice, really! Sometimes I just get caught up in the salt too much. 

I don’t want to drive people away from getting started with magick, quite the opposite - if you’re led to believe there’s no skill inherent with magick, you’ll feel like shit when nothing you do seems to work. People tell you that all you need to do is get the right ingredients and it’ll work - but nothing happens! Are you just hopeless? Not at all! You’re just new!

Magick is a skill that needs to be cultivated over time, and it’s perfectly normal to get lackluster results when you’re just starting out. A path is made by walking, and you need to wear down the ground somehow! Even when you fail, no attempt is in vain - even the act of attempting the magick wears down the subconscious barriers in your mind and will make the next try a little easier. You’re always accomplishing something with every attempt and building up your experience until you can finally see and hear spirits, predict the future, win the lottery, all the things that are promised to you when you’re starting out.

Despite what people may tell you, you can be objectively “better” at magick than someone else, but that status doesn’t come with technique or lineage or esoteric study, it comes with practice and experience. You shouldn’t expect life-changing miracles from your first few attempts - don’t blame yourself for not being immediately fantastic at something you just started! Magick is like any other skill - the only way you can get better is by practicing. 

There is no gate to gatekeep, only a hill to climb toward mastery. There’s no fences or gates on that hill, but neither are there any shortcuts to the top. The only thing stopping you from climbing it is you.  

anonymous asked:

Hey I'm sad, can you tell me about your day? Or a story? Ily

Awe I’m sorry babes, I hope you feel better! 

I’ll tell you about my day, I was at Wal-Mart buying new hiking shoes cause I’m cheap and I need them for a 13 mile hike with my class on Friday. So I’m tying the laces up and I hear someone walk up behind and whistle. 

Now I’m ready to either slap someone or call someone out but then I heard a girl say, “Damn I know you didn’t fall from heaven, you had to have climbed out of hell with those muscles.” 

So I turned around and I just know my face is beat red and I’m just staring at this like 5′6″ girl with beautiful eyes (like stars tbh) and she smiles and give me her number and then disappeared into the alsis.

Then I was trying on galaxy’s pants and she appeared again and said, “whoa even your ass is out of this world.” And fucking winked at me. 

So yeah, I think I may have to call her.  

anonymous asked:

Hi bonnie! I have seen many thing discussed about détails in 302 but not tais. .. Did you or someone else understand what Jamie had in his hand when he is in the "carriage prison" of the british ? Thanks and brava for your amazing fics!!!!!

Hey, great question. So, I can’t really tell anything much about the item from the footage. But in the books, Claire has Jamie exercise/strengthen his injured hand by squeezing a ball of rags. Since it is in his left hand, that would be my best guess. Maybe as a subtle nod to the fact that he is still using Claire’s knowledge and skill to stay healthy and able (which I believe we will see some more of at Ardsmuir. #ardsmuir salad club)

Anyone have any other theories?

anonymous asked:

Robert will see Aaron with Alex and finally... emotionally... will take his ring off. Nobody had mentioned Robert still wearing his ring. I wonder if Aaron will find it and someone will tell him about Robert seeing them together. Maybe Vic.

I don’t want him to take it off ever! 

anonymous asked:

I was talking to my best friend yesterday about a tshirt I bought. I usually wear a medium and she wears an XS. Anyways I was telling her how the sizes were a bit larger so I had to buy a small. She said "so I'd have to buy an xxxxxs" and started laughing. I feel like absolute shit. I had actually convinced myself to eat a real meal yesterday. I even ate like 1200 calories. Now I want to fast. Her comment kind of makes me want to cry. I'm sorry for sharing. I felt like I needed to tell someone.

That’s a really awful situation. I’m really sorry you had to go through that 😢

Hey guys. I know this is a really negative subject that’s been taken care of but I just wanted to get this off my chest.

A lot of you may have seen some stuff being said yesterday on the angry anon post about Dustin from Stranger Things. Most notably the “Someone ASKED me to kill someone. So it’s ok!” 

I just wanted to let you all know that this person has been blocked so they won’t come after me, any of the posts, and hopefully none of you. 

Some of you may be thinking “Why is she announcing this? Why should I care?” 

I’m telling you all this because the person I blocked had spent all morning yesterday going through a lot of the posts, reblogging them and saying “f*ck you they’re not autistic” “f*cking stop!” “you crossed a line” Just going ON. They even liked the posts where anons had insulted me. They’re officially my “biggest fan” on this blog because they reblogged and liked so many posts. They then messaged me saying “We need to fucking talk” 

TBH that scared me at first because I didn’t know what this person had done yet and I had no idea which blog they were trying to message (I only have two; this and my personal blog) I had even messaged that person back about it, telling them to stop and their first response was “I’m autistic you f*ck” And when I told them that it’s hard enough that some of you, if not all of you, already have enough negativity in the real world without them (the angry blogger) going after all my posts and your submissions and their response “Oh f*ck off they can handle it”

This went on for a little while until I called them an ableist. They then put a screenshot of our conversation on their blog, making sure everyone could see me calling them that, and played the victim by saying “How can I be an ableist if I’m autistic???” They “conveniently” left out the parts about you all “handling” his anger, and the parts where they straight up denied going after me on the posts. And then I finally blocked them

None of you deserve this, you don’t deserve this person attacking your submissions, comparing you all your headcanons to murder, none of it. 

A true ally doesn’t put other autistic people down for having fun and a true ally doesn’t use their autism as an excuse for their shit behavior

I’m sorry if this person was disrespectful about your submission and I hope this person never attacks any of you. Just know that now that this person is blocked, they can’t look at this blog anymore, they can’t reblog any of the posts, and hopefully they won’t be trying to go after any of you

I’m someone who finds one thing to be passionate about for a little over a year and that’s it. Been there, done that.

It’s the same with astrology now. I learned a lot, I can read charts easily, I understand aspects, decans, asteroids, points, houses, dominants, etc. I can read a chart if I wanted to. I get it now. But it’s time to move on, a bitch is bored.

anonymous asked:

hey al pal! i know you get so many messages about this, so i wanted to share it- i recently had my first kiss at 22 and i just wanna tell them to not feel the pressure to kiss anyone- do it when you're ready because when it's with someone you don't like or aren't dating then it's not as great! Make sure you don't feel that pressure to have that "first kiss" at any certain age babes. I just really felt like sharing that x

I am so so so glad you messaged me this and so glad you waited too. It’s never productive or helpful or positive to rush life’s experiences simply to get them over with or say you’ve done them.
If you wait for a person or moment that really feels right, it will be unforgettable :) There is no age or timeline to which we must do these things, so live life by your own pace, rock your self confidence and forget everything else 💛

need to vent about a convo i just had w/ someone i know who doesn’t use tumblr: she found out recently that when her boyfriend was younger he had been intimate with men. she came to me to talk about it and said that it’s changed everything in the relationship now and she doesn’t know if she can trust him, even though she also says that he said it was something he was ashamed of and opened up to her about in trust as he’d been too scared to tell anyone. she says she doesn’t know if she can date a guy who has been intimate w/ men. i’ve dated bisexual guys and str8 men who have had sexual experiences with men, and i personally feel like bisexual men are better in relationships for me to be with because they are (in general) a bit more in-touch with their gender because they’ve experienced a situation which has caused them to think critically about the structure of the masculinity they conform to and how male intimacy jeopardizes that “masculine ideal”. this stigma that if you’ve had same-sex experiences then you’re forever “kind of gay” is ridiculous and sad and completely dishonors this new uprising of the subversion of cultural identity, especially when it comes to gayness being a threat to “real masculinity” (and even more so for men of color). idgaf about men’s feelings most of the time but men shouldn’t be made to feel bad for having sexually experimented at one point in their life and it shouldn’t make your value for someone you love change. everybody should dump their boyfriends all the time in my opinion, but not because they did gay shit once.

anonymous asked:

can you explain three points in that last ask please? the 'only one with ambition', the 'everyone's a killer', and the 'struck a cord'?

last ask

my dude. yes ofc I can.

the last point is the easiest one to explain tho. the whole ‘mixed breed’ thing struck a cord w/ me bc I’m half-Japanese, half-NZer, and I have been mocked in the past (for no apparent reason). and that hurts, yakno? so xanxus was p much saying that mixed breeds aren’t inferior to someone ‘pure’, and that makes me happy.

for the ‘only one with ambition’, it’s in comparison to the other charas that were there when he first showed up.

tsuna is all about not wanting to be a mafia boss, but it seems p clear to me that he doesn’t really know what he wants. he has fantasies, yeah, but if he had smth solid I think he’d tell reborn eventually. and reborn is an enigma™ so no one knows wtf he wants. (aside from training tsuna, but if tsuna resists enough he’s not going to be a mafia boss).

gokudera wants to be tsuna’s right hand man, but that seems impossible if tsuna isn’t a mafia boss. yams is an enigma™ as well, and the rest of the charas…just don’t seem to have ambition.

varia all work for xanxus as well. we didn’t really know anything abt them (aside from a bit abt squalo) so they were up in the air too.

when xanxus first appeared it’s like. we know what he wants; he wants to take the place of vongola decimo, he wants to be a mafia boss. it’s p difficult to doubt that lmao

and for the ‘everyone’s a killer’: that was me exaggerating.

but anyways. to comment on everyone:

gokudera has a fckn nickname. in chapter 3, page 13 (or smth) he’s seen w/ an explosion. I mean?? he has a reputation in the mafia world and I struggle to believe that he hasn’t at a minimum seriously injured someone.

yams….is innocent present day. so is ryohei, to a lesser extent, bc ryohei has actually been in fights.

hibari is hibari so….lmao. mukuro is mukuro as well. :|

chrome I think wouldn’t’ve either.

but that’s not limited to the guardians? let’s face it, varia are all hired killers, bianchi is also a hit(wo)man with reputation, reborn is the number one hitman, dino the mafia boss, ipin is one w/ a lot of potential, lambo wants to kill reborn - everyone at the very least is imo capable of murder.

xanxus is an antagonist, and yeah he’s a bad guy, but he’s not an exception. in many ways he’s conforming to the khr world.

anonymous asked:

Thoughts on Kihyuk

BEST!!!!! FRIENDS!!!!!! their dynamic is so funnie and interesting but also heartwarming God :((( like with most mx members i’ll talk about how minhyuk makes them silly and comfortable but minhyuk with kihyun is so fiery fdmsfds and i saw someone tag a kihyuk gifset once with #truly the epitome of only i can insult you and that’s really one of the best descriptions i’ve seen of them? like during the last episode of mxray s1 where they had the psychoanalyst guy talking about everyone and for kihyun’s part minhyuk just kept interrupting him to say what he wanted to say even though it was?? almost the same thing?? but in a Minhyuk Way he wanted to be the one to talk about His best friend? but also you can tell that they’re really so close like ever since before no mercy (that one vlive minhyuk did where he kept looking at the polaroid of he and kihyun from back then… :( ) through now .. minhyuk’s really out here talking about their future families and how he’s thought about how he hopes even their kids will be friends? and even though they are Fiery to each other you can tell they understand each other on such a full level like the way minhyuk talked about kihyun in that second anniversary video (even though you could tell he was a bit embarrassed to be so.. nice? to kihyun) was just such a beautiful Good description of what kihyun does for the team and also this one interview i can find the link if someone wants later but they’re talking about good and weak points of each of the members and kihyun talked about minhyuk’s good and weak points and for the weak points instead of like.. actually saying something mean about minhyuk (like they kinda did for most of the memebrs) kihyun just talked about how he wishes minhyuk wouldn’t worry and overthink about his performance/words so much and be more confident :( so uhh hHHH idk if this is coherent but i love best friends i love them

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falsettos as bitmojis!

❤️ whizzer - mendel - marvin - jason - charlotte - trina - cordelia ❤️

Young Volcanoes

Under normal circumstances, the Potter-Weasley-Malfoy family would avoid the Press like the plague, but with a family that big, it’s simply not possible.

Each of the children has mastered their own- unique- method of dealing with the attention…

Harry: Alright, it’s an 18 yard dash to the front door, it’s packed out there, 

Harry: if someone gets separated YOU CIRCLE BACK. No one gets left behind!

Ginny: Remember, don’t tuck your thumbs. It’s all in the elbows, no punches- 

Ginny: I’m looking at you James and Lily.

Harry: Don’t make eye contact, they sense weakness. Understand everyone?

Everyone: *nods*

Harry: Send us off Teddy, Victoire. Battle stations everyone!

Ginny: *whistles* Go go go!


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it’s comeback season again!! time for drama, hello antis!!

there’s a post circulating around tumblr calling ‘pied piper’ predatory, pedophilic song and is an obvious attempt at bringing bts down because of personal reasons.

that person basically related song’s lyrics and misinterpreted them so if would fit their narrative. but in the end they were trying to show bts in a bad light and accuse them of making a song about r*pe which is so gross, i’m at loss of words.
the song relates to legend of the pied piper of hamelin. “piper was a rat-catcher hired by the town to lure rats away with his magic pipe. when the citizens refuse to pay for this service, he retaliates by using his instrument’s magical power on their children, leading them away as he had the rats.” so how could someone make it into this? i don’t know.

bts are making fun of obsessive fan culture, calling themselves the piper who lures kids. fans are the kids, leaving their responsibilities to listen to him. yes it’s a methaphor. in the song they’re basically telling us we should take care of yourselves because obsessing over them instead of living our lives won’t do us any good.

it’s criticizing fan culture, they’re “taking over” us with their music, enchant us and lead us away from our lives… because that’s what music is for, to forget about the reality for a moment. 

some people took interpretation to another level, relating absolutely everything to sex. i saw posts saying  the part “good girl” is a reference to daddy kink but they… never used that word. in the original lyrics there’s no “good girl”, it was just used by translator to keep the meaning. which is why only intl fans started this shit, not korean fans. i even saw a post relating pipe to hobi’s dick. for real.
in my interpretation this song is like a playful teasing between friends, they tell us they’re bad for us but it’s in playful tone. how often one of your friends said to you something along the lines “i’m horrible but you still love me”? exactly. 

this could also criticize the parents who don’t care for their children and that’s why it’s so easy to lure them, so easy for the kids to start living in a world of fantasy instead of the real one.

so those posts calling ‘pied piper; a pedophilic song are just poor attempts at ruining this comback. let’s not forget that people who started this aren’t even armys, they don’t care.

do you really think bts would write song that could threaten their reputation? they learned from their mistakes. do you really think they would make a song that could make a lot of fans feel bad? they care about us deeply. you can interpet this song as you want but don’t push it on other fans and don’t say things that could hurt bts, just because it’s not your favorite group. and before you start throwing accusations just please, use your head.

Landlord is jealous of my income, raises my rent $500. I screw him years later for $20k.

All names have been changed. Long story:

In the late ‘90s wife and I were just married, just getting started, and we decided to DINK (“double income, no kids”) it for a few years to save up for a down payment on a house.

The dotcom bubble was still rising and I was a newly minted software developer. I had an entry-level job for a while and then got recruited to a new city and a new job that paid 3x what I was making before. It was an offer too good to pass up. I ran the numbers and it was a no-brainer: by living frugally and saving my entire salary, living off just her income, we would easily have enough in a year to put 20% down payment on a new house.

We rented an apartment in the new city that was listed for $950/mo. The landlord was a real estate agent who owned a two-bedroom condo as an investment property. Let’s call him “Hank Wazowski”. Hank was a thin, gray, no-nonsense guy. He was pleasant enough, but perfunctory, dry, and had no sense of humor. He made a point of explaining that under no circumstances was he responsible for maintaining the garbage disposal and that it was NOT included in the rental agreement and he would not be responsible for fixing it were it to break. Um, ok.

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things I picked up in my second watching of it that I missed/didn’t catch


-pennywise starting to stutter as he dies and repeating bills anti stuttering tactic

-the television telling kids “playing in the sewers is fun, okay there with your friends” and something about finding clowns while Bev comes home with her tampons

-during the part with the projector ritchie running to hug Eddie when he was afraid

-eddie reaching for ritchies hand while hugging bill at the end but pulling away

-pennywise getting offended when his house was called a crackhouse

-bill face changing when he realizes it’s not georgie after “georgie” calls the boat an it

-bev wearing 3 rings at the beginning but at the end only has two (maybe a ring from her dad/promise ring?)

-the Tim Curry pennwise in the room of all the clowns

-what looks to be a painting of the original pennwise in the clown room also

-pennywise laughing at the end of the credits

-what looked to be a nesting area in the pile of children’s accessories

-patrick licking his lips and looking at ritchie, ritchie noticing and makes a joke but is obviously afraid

-pennywise’s eyes turning yellow whenever he’s hungry, at the end them being deep yellow and bloodshot (he hadn’t eaten in a while)

-the greywater is always a sign pennywise is close

-bev wearing an uncut key around her neck.

-pennywise saying fear as his last word may be referring that bill stutters when he’s afraid, and penn began to stutter when showing his first sign of fear.

anyone else pick anything up/have theories on why he said fear or anything else? aight I think that’s all later egg boys


itschriscrocker “10 years ago on this day, I defended my favorite pop star against the media. While I’m known to do comedy: This was the one video that I was serious in. That year, my mom was battling addiction & became homeless after serving for our country in Iraq. The struggles in my home life and family life made me defensive over any woman going through a hard time. The internet and YouTube was a very different, less LGBT friendly place at the time. Nothing I said in the video was listened to. I was mocked for my femininity. I was called every gay slur in the book. Talk show hosts questioned if I was a man or woman, after playing the clip. I knew there was no way people would take me serious. So I decided that I would play up to the joke everyone thought I was. Realizing that telling them about what had actually triggered my emotional reaction (What my mom was battling) wouldn’t be of interest to anyone. So I gave them a cartoon of what they assumed I was, in my public appearances afterward. But the truth is and always was about standing up for someone and not standing idly by when you see someone being hurt by others. In the 10 years since this video- A lot of LGBT Youtubers are celebrated for who they are. I often wonder if I had started videos later, if I would’ve been treated differently. But what I will say is this: Even if I got a public beating for standing up for what’s right: Im happy I did. And I’ll always love @britneyspears ❤️”

Snap Decision

(A chance meeting with a stranger at a bar helps you recover from a bad breakup.)

Warnings: 11000+ words of mostly sex stuff.  Bad ex boyfriends. People doing inadvisable things.  Listen up kids: in real life you should be more cautious about who you let take naked pictures of you! Lots and lots of sex.  If you’ve read my stuff before, you know the drill.  

You thought it would be fun to work in sales after you graduated from university; you would travel around the country, meeting new people, holding meetings in fancy high rise office buildings in big cities, wining and dining clients at gourmet restaurants while you closed deals and made boatloads of money.  The reality was that you were selling industrial wastewater management systems, making a moderate income, while traveling four days a week to factories and chemical refineries in some of the least glamorous locations on earth.  You didn’t mind the work itself, but the evenings alone in small town hotel rooms were dull and disheartening, so you would frequently head out to a local movie theater or neighborhood bar to distract yourself from the loneliness on the road.   

 It was pouring down rain outside and you decide to run to the closest place you could find to grab a drink, rather than risk driving around and getting lost.  That’s how you found yourself sitting alone at the bar of the Applebee’s restaurant that was adjacent to your hotel, sipping on something called a Blue Hawaiian, in a town you couldn’t even remember the name of.   

Unruly children sat with their families having dinner in the nearby booths, while innocuously bland pop songs played overhead.  You took one sip of the cloyingly sweet blue cocktail in front of you and immediately regretted your decision to come here tonight. Given the lousy week you had experienced, you would have been better off drinking cheap whiskey at a dive bar filled with unapologetic alcoholics.  Here, the family friendly atmosphere mixed with the empty promises of a fruity cocktail that was designed to trick you into thinking you were on a tropical island vacation instead of in your real life.  Your real crappy life. 

You had totally blown the sale today.  The clients had a million questions about the technical specifications of the products you were trying to sell, but you kept tripping over your words and making yourself sound like an idiot.  You blamed your poor work performance on lack of sleep.  And you blamed the lack of sleep on your boyfriend, David.  Actually, he was your ex-boyfriend now.  After more than a year together, you dumped him for cheating on you.  

He claimed he was faithful, but you were certain he was lying.  He never picked up his phone when you called him from out on the road.  He would eventually call you back, but his stories about where he was and what he was doing always sounded a little off.  The final blow came when your friend Stephanie told you she saw him going into a movie theater with another girl.  David claimed Stephanie was mistaken and that you were just paranoid and jealous for no reason.  You wanted to believe him, but deep down you were sure that Stephanie was right.  All the unresolved questions you had about what David was doing while you were working could easily be answered if he had been cheating on you.  David cried when you told him it was over, he begged you to reconsider, but you were resolute and just walked away.

That had been a week ago, and every day since then, you questioned whether or not you made the right decision.  You had no hard proof that he had been unfaithful.  Sure, Stephanie said she saw him, but she only saw from a distance.  Maybe she was mistaken.  Maybe it was just someone who looked like David.

“Is this seat taken?”

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