i had to make this because of reasons ;)

i’m feeling a fresh wave of hurt. jay meant the world to louis, and from the way he talks about her it’s evident she wasn’t only his mother, but his best friend. she nurtured him, but also gave him a push when he needed it. she really was a strong, incredible woman (more than we will ever know). a big part of the reason louis is the humble, loving person he is today is because of her guidance. he knew a year in advance that she wasn’t going to make it, that he only had limited time left with her, and nobody should have to go through that pain.

anonymous asked:

I mean to have you as a mutual is so shocking to me like, you're so popular and im just a peasant compared to you

my friend all i do is make jokes on the internet, theres no reason anyone should feel inadequate compared to me for any reason. like, i dont even have that many followers in the grand scheme of things. the only reason i even have this blog is because of the mutuals ive gotten which includes you by default so dont even worry about it or question yourself for a second

How would Joshua react when he finds out that another guy is trying to chase you too? Thanks!


Does this mean like chasing for your attention as in ‘want to go out’ sort of thing? If not I wrote the wrong reaction. Also, I’m assuming this is for Seventeen’s Joshua since as far as I know there isn’t another guy with that name (in the K-pop industry I mean).

Joshua

If he was interested in you, not dating yet but had a crush than he would maturely handle it. Not be jealous because he has no reason to be and unless the guy was a creep then he also has a fair chance. Who you pick is who you pick, and Joshua knows you’ll make the best decision for you. He wants you to be happy, even if it means not ending up with him but Joshua would put in as much effort as he can to stay your friend. 

If you were dating and someone attempts to chase after you, then he’d deal with it like a grown-up too. Yeah, he’d be a little jealous because some dude is hitting on his significant other of sorts. But Joshua would pull the man aside and set things straight, asking him to back off (there are plenty of other people, maybe not like you but plenty of other excellent, single people.) 

Being the gentleman he is, Joshua does everything to ensure your safety and comfort in both situations.  

Originally posted by mvnghaos

Neville couldn't be the Chosen One

I’ve seen some people claim that Neville could be the Chosen One if Voldemort have picked the Longbottoms instead of the Potters, because both of them had babies in the end of July and it makes sense (that’s one of the thousand reasons J.K. is a genious) BUT I’m pretty sure lots of people realised that Neville wouldn’t survive like Harry did because…
SNAPE DIDN’T WANT ALICE LONGBOTTOM. (I said want because I have problems with saying Snape loved Lily, it’s more like an obsession but anyways)
Lily’s sacrifice is the only reason Harry survived. Because she had a CHOICE. Snape had asked Voldemort to keep her. And so Voldemort gave her a chance to scape. BECAUSE OF SNAPE’S BEGGING. The protection around Harry, the reason Riddle couldn’t kill this baby, we all know, was because of a choice.
Alice Longbottom would probably do the same to protect Neville. But unfortunately she wouldn’t have a choice to stand for her baby like Lily because probably no one would ask Voldemort to keep her life.
That’s why, again, Snape was a key character. You may not like him (like me) but we all have to agree that Severus Snape helped to build Voldemort’s biggest enemy.

I think the reason I stan so hard for Robert Sugden is because the show has started vilifying him to an absurd extreme compared to others and what he is currently involved in. I am in no way saying that he is perfect or hasn’t done some bad shit or is extremely morally gray,  but lately he has been kicked down to a new low. Make him take responsibility for his faults and mistakes, absolutely call him on that. But maybe do that for others as well? 

anonymous asked:

Soooo I went on Pinterest and it turns out that most of your texts are from other ppl... like damn, try to be creative. Honestly, I used to love your work and then I saw that you copied/stole/whatever someone else's texts. Bitch what? Smh..

to be honest, the first few set of imagines that i made on here were inspired or whatever from the works I had seen on Pinterest, not gonna lie. But that was maybe 3-4 months ago? and since then i’ve been using my own imagines and making my own stuff because it was truly not my work and I didn’t like it. I mean sure you can call me a bitch or whatever you want but honestly if you’ve checked out any of my recent posts then you’d definitely see the difference between the old and new texts. Soooo uh, yeah also i deleted and replaced the old ones for this very reason. anon thank you for setting me straight even though, I was already in the process of getting them off my blog.

my bitch ass cringes to hell and back because i even posted them but I’ve since deleted and don’t claim them/never will as my content

Skam finale

I always go into watching TV show finales with low expectations but I just watched the first half of the last clip and it made smile and laugh and cry. I am so grateful for this show. The reason I love this show is because the characters are all flawed like real people. We don’t always make the choices that people want us to or the ones that seem like the most obvious. If my life was a TV show I know people would disagree with some of the choices I have made, because everyone is different. I do not like every decision Julie made for some of the characters but it was her show and without her we would not have had Skam at all. So thank you Julie! Such a great way to end Skam.

Okay so seeing Wonder Woman was literally eye-opening for me. I always knew that movies, action movies in particular, are really sexist towards women. I just didn’t realize how bad it was until I saw a superhero movie directed by a woman.

In almost every movie I’ve seen, the woman was always the damsel in distress or just some lousy love interest. And in action movies, mainly superhero movies, the camera is always focused on the woman’s boobs while she’s fighting. Yes, I’m mainly talking about Black Widow in the Avengers movies.

But in Wonder Woman, there were no close-up shots of her boobs while she was fighting. In fact, I don’t think that any woman even showed her cleavage, at all. They weren’t sexualized in any way. 

And all of the women looked like real people. There were women with big muscles, women with scars, there were women with thick thighs and arms that would jiggle when they were fighting, there were dark skinned women. They didn’t just all look like the stereotypical super thin white girls that you usually see in big movies.

The flirting was also very minimal. There were almost no romantic scenes at all.

And none of the men tried to undermine or belittle the women, and when they did Diana would just start talking about how she could do things better than them.

And the fight scenes. They were so amazing. They didn’t try to make the women look super pretty while doing it. No, they were full on fighting. Nasty, brutal, screams-of-pure-rage fighting.

But she always had a reason for fighting, and she always did it because she genuinely believes in hope and peace and protecting innocent people and people who can’t fight for themselves.

This movie sends out so many great messages for little girls, saying that you can fight for what you believe in and even if you don’t succeed the first time, not to give up because it is always worth it in the end.

Like I was thinking about it in the movie theater. For some little girls, Wonder Woman is their first superhero. There are little girls who will grow up with this movie and cherish it because it is the first and only movie with a lead female superhero. There are little girls who will grow up thinking that they want to do some good in this world, just like she did. I almost cried during several parts in the movie just thinking about that.

So please, for the love of all things good, please go see this movie. Not only is it a huge deal for women and girls now, it will be for generations to come. 

leaderly grumbles

My new manager fired me. I fired his store.

This happened about 6 years ago.

I worked at (store that sells donuts that you may or may not dunk) that was in a somewhat far off location from the rest of the city in a relatively new shopping center. I was there when the store opened, and we never really got much traffic, but there was two large car clubs that came out twice a week to meet, and chat, and generally bring our store a lot of traffic. We were told that the clubs pretty much keeps the store afloat.

I worked there for a long while, and my manager was awesome. She did a great job of keeping everything stocked, gave out hours to people who actually worked their ass off instead of playing favorites, and she was never unfair about warnings or suspensions.

One day, she got seriously ill and had to quit. I never knew the details, but it was serious enough for her to quit her job. Then comes Swagger McA**hole, our new manager. Now, Swagger McA**hole had all the charm and wit of a rabid chihuahua. He was a generally angry man, and thought himself to be above everyone else in the store. He popped the collars of his button up shirt like he was going to bring that trend back from the dead. Needless to say, Swagger McA**hole wasn’t well liked.

He fired and replaced people left and right for usually petty or outright wrong reasons, and I was the last one standing, because for some reason, I was always asked to make the regular’s coffee, because I would remember their names, what they wanted, and how they liked it, and I usually had it in the process of being made as soon as I saw them walking up to the door. The car clubs knew me by name.

Enter Hannah Handjob. She started hanging around the store. A lot. Swagger McA**hole and Hannah Handjob would often hang out in the Manager’s office, sometimes with the door closed. Like we didn’t know what the fuck they were doing. A short while later, I find myself fired for some bullshit reason. I think what was written on my exit paperwork (which I refused to sign) was “wasting inventory”, whatever the fuck that meant.

Sorry for the long backstory. Here comes the revenge part. Remember those car clubs I talked about? I found their website and message boards, and told them my story. They told me how incredibly shitty they thought it all was, and always thought Swagger McA**hole was a poor replacement for our old manager. Both the clubs agreed to find a different venue for their morning to late afternoon meetups.

That was the death knell for that location. Three months later, I go back to turn in my uniforms, because I’m sick of looking at them in my closet, and they’re all closed up. I don’t know for sure that I had anything to do with their closing, but I’m at least 80% sure the car clubs were keeping them afloat.

Who really Shattered Pink Diamond...

During the events of the “Back to the Moon”, we were all certain that Rose was the one that shattered Pink Diamond and started the rebellion on Earth. But during the events of “the Trail” the accusation of Rose Shattering Pink Diamond doesn’t make sense anymore.   

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pE6GRrLeSkg

please watch clip before reading this clip 

PLEASE REMEMBER THAT THIS IS JUST A THEORY AND IF YOU DO NOT AGREE WITH IT DO NOT PUT RUDE COMMENTS IN MY MAIL BOX PLEASE! 

As Zircon had explained before the shattering of Pink Diamond had taken place Rose had been recognized as a threat for 700 years. In others words Rose Quartzs were already out lawed and bubble by Pink Diamond. So how did Rose get so close to Pink Diamond if everyone was already on guard for her. And the murder weapon was described to be Rose’s sword! But as it was said before by Bismuth she designed the sword to destroy the physical form but never the gem… But Blue Diamond was told that it was a sword. So it doesn’t make sense at all.

In fact the shattering of Pink Diamond was pinned on Rose Quartz, why you may ask because it was convenient for the real perpetrator! They had someone to blame and also they had the power to cover up the ordeal. Along with that it had to be someone who was close to her as well, someone who could have gotten her outside of her palanquin.

Zircon believed it had to have been a person in power and the only Diamond we have not seen in power is White Diamond and I believe she’s the one responsible for Pink Diamond death. But why? Why did she do it? The reason being is that Pink Diamond was not filling her role as a leader. The one who performed the deed was pearl… OUR PEARL!

From what we’ve seen from the gem society is that they believe in complete order and each gem must fill their role! The diamonds are leaders they are meant to thrive and expand their civilization. Pink Diamond is seen to be the youngest diamond, since see only started her one colony. And she failed at her duty to due so. I’m not talking about her shattering, I’m talking about what she did with the planet. Yes she created kindergartens and made new gems but she did something useless not benefitting Homeworld and fitting the model.

I’m talking about the creation of the human zoo

She creating the human, she was capturing life wasting her resources, to study organic life. Of course the other diamonds would see them useless thing to do Yellow herself called the human zoo silly during “what’s the use of feeling Blue”.(The only reason Blue cares about humans is only because they have a connection to Pink). And from the detailed and well cared environment that the humans lived in she seemed more occupied with the zoo than creating her colony (she was still invested in creating it but was doing something on the side to put it in perspective).

That was her first mistake as a Diamond. The second mistake that Pink made was letting Rose go rouge. From what Zircon had said Rose Quartz gems were already an outlaw after Rose went against Pink, And what did Pink decided to do.

She deicides to bubble all the Rose Quartz and not destroy them. Now we’ve seen how harsh the Diamonds can be and how strict they are. And from what we got from other gems everyones afraid of making a mistake in the fear of getting shattered by the Diamonds who they see as godly beings. But Pink didn’t not excises her power enough and was too soft. And she couldn’t even get one of her soldiers under control. She showed mercy to all these Rose Quartz gems which is a sign of weakness.  From that description she didn’t seem fit to rule as a Diamond and that’s why she ordered Pink’s demise.

I also believe that’s why Yellow was acting so weird during the trail like she knew something. Like she knew something about it; I think knew the truth and was just protecting Blue. And it also explains why Yellow she’s trying so hard to get Blue to move on she knows what White Diamonds capable of and doesn’t want the same thing to happen to Blue, to be seen as an unfit ruler and gets shattered by White Diamond.

Okay now that’s done let’s get to Pearl side of the story.

The reason why I believed that it was a pearl is because what gem is more closer to a Diamond than a pearl. Zircon said it herself that it had to be someone close to her. Pearls are with their owners 24/7 they are able to see them at their strongest and their weakest. And they’re the only gems that are able to be alone with their Diamonds so a pearl could know the perfect time to strike since they’re with them all the time. 


And it had to be our Pearl that did it. And why because she was originally white Diamonds Pearl and she was given to Pink. There is evidence that she is White Diamonds Pearl her gem is in the same placement as white’s along with her color in the Answer the color that represented her was white. Though you all maybe asking “but how did she end up with Pink”.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vHLz6HF-Lrc

Listen to this and Zircon’s imitation and try to tell me that doesn’t sound familiar to each other.

Watch out my Diamond!!!

 The way Zircon said tried to imitate “Pink Diamond’s Pearl”  it sounds very similar to how dramatic our Pearl is. Remember during the trail case, when Zircon said “and where was her Pearl” Take notice how yellow and blue pearl when Zircon said that’s why was would they react like that when Zircon said “pink diamond’s pearl”…because they knew that she was really white Diamonds pearl our Pearl.  Now wait I have an explanation my reasoning. 

I believed that they knew because they were high ranking pearls.

Pink was still a young diamond she didn’t know anything  so White Diamond gave her Pearl to Pink. And during the time Pink thought it made sense since she was a beginner it would make sense that she would be sent her attendant that knew how White Diamond worked to help her further her training into becoming leader. This experience Pearl would guide  her through her next colony so she was told…

But what Pink didn’t know was that White Diamond had disowned her pearl. For what ever the reason our pearl was considered defective or maybe failed job for White Diamond.  Whatever the reason White saw our was unfit she  tossed her away. That could explain why Pearl is such a perfectionist, or so OCD because she was traumatized by it and swore to be perfect from now on. It took such a toll on Pearl mentally that she thinks so lowly of herself and always has to prove herself. That’s why Pearl was so dedicated in fighting for Rose she was scared to be thrown away again. She was under Pink but was still loyal to White.

Pearl is really torn up…

When White ordered the death on Pink she had ordered Pearl to do it; White had told Pearl that if she did this for her she would accept her back into her court and she would be her Pearl again. That’s why pearl is presented as this desperate individual; remember she was willing to do anything for Rose and even die for her. That’s the type of person she is whose’s to say that she wasn’t willing to destroy another Diamond to get back to her original owner. And we all know how desperate Pearl is sometimes…

And how she did it was simple she would lie to Pink Diamond that there was a problem with the palanquin and would have her step outside to fix it…. I say this because look at the position of the palanquin it looks like it crashed the way it was setup. It was close enough for gems to see the act happened but not close enough for others to see what happened. I say this because Eyeball said she “saw” Rose Quartz shatter Pink Diamond but we don’t know how close she was she may have saw a figure that looked like a Rose Quartz

And after getting her caught off guard Pearl shaped shifted into Rose Quartz and shattered her from the front. After that White Diamond pulled a few strings and a few gems say they saw Rose Quartz did it. I know Pearl’s a small gem but with White Diamond ordered it so surely she’s know the secret in shattering a Diamond since she was one herself…. 

Pearl was given the order and she did it everything was swept under the rug Rose was blamed and she completed her mission. However White lied to her and she wasn’t taking her back because she was still defective and assigning her a new owner when she got back. Everything she did was for nothing and she felt like she had no purpose. That’s why when Pearl said when she served “Homeworld”, because she techinally betrayed her owners. 

How Rose found her way to pearl was that Rose was trying to find out the her culprit that shattered. Then along the way she discovered it was no-other than our Pearl that destroy Pink Diamond. Instead of being upset she was surprised that a little could accomplish something like that. Pearl would tell her story and Rose would grow found and attached with her story. Pearl would call herself self a defective and say she wasn’t good enough saying “Who would want me…” And Rose being the person she is took in Pearl, despite everything she did in framing her. She saw pearl as a strong ally to have for the fight against Homeworld and well Pearl fell in love with Rose as a result. 

That’s why Rose took the blame to defend Pearl. And it you don’t believe me that it was Pearl that shattered look at how she reacted when Eyeball said that she saw Rose Shatter pink Diamond (in back to the moon) she’s shaking like crazy and scared because she’s the one who really did it. And take note that she’s the only one in the show that hasn’t shape shifted it seemly that Pearl avoids it at all cost; this could be due to the guilt she has in transforming into Rose Quartz. 

Though there is on piece of evidenced that I believe proves my theory that Pearl belonged to White Diamond and lied to her that she could go back her if she shattered Pink Diamond. 

You see this…

I always though that pearl getting stabbed had symbolic meaning and now that all the pieces have been putt together it does. Holo Pearl represents White Diamond stabbing Pearl in the back. Promising that she could come back to her and serve if she did what she shattered pink Diamond but she didn’t keep her word. Then the place wear Pearl is stab is the stomach… the same place that Pink Diamonds gem was. Rebecca Sugar foreshadowed this since the start of the series it was Pearl, under white Diamonds orders.

But hey that’s just a theory and as I said before if you disagree be polite.

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…I wonder if that was actually a good decision to make there, Kuroo

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I buried this point in a reblog of one of my other GotG posts, but I wanted to pull it out into its own post because I think it’s important.

I think this movie contains one of the most accurate and sympathetic depictions of the fannish way of thinking that I’ve ever seen in mainstream media. This is not a movie about fandom, but I think it is actually more sympathetic to, and understanding of, the way people in fandom think and behave than 99% of TV or movies’ attempts to depict more classically fandom-associated things like fan conventions, fanfic, or cosplay. 

These are movies about a guy who uses music and pop culture to process his emotions and provide a framework for thinking about the world, and while there are times when it’s played somewhat for laughs (e.g. trying to explain David Hasselhoff to Gamora), most of the time the movies are as sincere about it as Peter is. Even in the David Hasselhoff scene, Gamora doesn’t laugh; she might not fully understand, but she recognizes how important that fantasy was to Peter and just tells him that she thinks it’s sweet – I mean, if you think about it, what happened here is that the main protagonist in an action movie described a self-insert fantasy to a “cool” friend and got a sympathetic and understanding response. When does that EVER happen?

(In a reblog addition to the original version of this post, katiekeysburg contributed a link to an article with James Gunn that suggests there’s a certain amount of autobiography in Peter’s use of fantasy as a way of coping with reality, so a lot of this is intentional.)

And it’s also a movie in which the action-hero main character carries around a completely nonfunctional (in practical terms) comfort object with him, and the other characters are totally supportive of that. (The practically-nonfunctional part is important, I think, because I can think of other movies in which the protagonist has something like a weapon given to them by a dead loved one, but I can’t think of anything else I’ve ever seen in mainstream genre fiction in which the protagonist carries an object which is only used to comfort them and calm them down, and is actively shown being used that way on a regular basis.) In the first movie, Peter’s friends don’t really get it yet, but even there, the only actual semi-derogatory reference to it that I can remember is Drax’s “You’re an imbecile” when he realizes Peter went back to the Kyln in the middle of a firefight to retrieve the Walkman, and given how little interaction they’ve had so far and the fact that everyone’s lives were in jeopardy because of waiting for him, that’s a reasonable reaction under the circumstances.

But no one ever makes fun of him for needing it, and I’m pretty sure that by the time we get around to the second movie, when they’ve started to recognize how important it is to him, his friends would be the ones going through hell and high water to get it back for him (as evidenced by the fact that Rocket apparently retrieved Yondu’s broken arrow from Ego’s planet while the planet was literally blowing up around him – I’m sure any of them would do the same in a heartbeat for Peter’s music player).

Even Yondu seems to have been supportive of it, because Peter’s confidence with the Walkman, and with playing his music out loud in general, suggests that Yondu never used it as a punishment – that is, he could easily have withheld it to control Peter (surely it must have been obvious that if he’d wanted to control and break the kid, taking away his music would’ve been the way to do that), but he doesn’t seem to have done that; Peter never behaves like he grew up under the threat of having his music taken away from him. In fact, we find out in the second movie that Yondu actually made copies of the music on Peter’s tape and kept it on the ship, presumably in case the original was lost.

In both movies, trying to take away Peter’s music/comfort object is shown as something that only really bad people do (like the Kyln prison guard, or Ego crushing his Walkman), and people show their love for him by giving him more music, or by letting him share his music with them, or just making sure that he has it.

I just. These movies, you guys. ❤ ❤ ❤

I think it’s really telling that the reason Grog took such a shine to Scanlan in the first place (beyond him being a gnome) is because he also treated Grog as an equal. When Pike wasn’t around, Scanlan was always the first to make sure Grog’s ideas and suggestions got heard. Grog frequently had the wool pulled over his eyes by other VM members and while Scanlan was a tricky lil fuck, he never tricked Grog. He never took advantage of how easy it is to trick him.

This respect is mutual in that Grog never diminishes Scanlan’s ability based on his size alone (and height is a sore spot for Scanlan more than it is for Pike). Grog and Scanlan make each other feel bigger than the parts of their whole.

And so that’s why it hurt him so much when Scanlan comes back in disguise with another barbarian in tow. Because Grog WASNT mad at Scanlan before that, he understood and he respected Scanlan’s decision more than anyone else in the group, even going so far as to get angry when it was suggested that they scry on him in case he might be hurt. Because Grog knows Scanlan’s capable, he’s a tough little asshole even if he is small, so scrying to check up on him would be a betrayal of what made their relationship so cohesive.

Scanlan came back and attempted to trick Grog into not recognizing him. With a budget-Grog at his side no less. And that hurts. Like he said, it made him feel tiny.

anonymous asked:

Sasuke never kissed Sakura. Why?

Because you misunderstood the manga. Why? T-T

Exhibit A: Sakura touching her lips, blushing, while remembering one of her kisses with Sasuke:

Body language is important to remember especially on manga dear anon.


Exhibit  B: Sakura then remembering something “even better/nicer”. In order for Sakura to know which is better/or nicer she would have needed to experience both. Which is why she knew “which” memory she treasured most because she experienced of both.


Exhibit C: How could Sasuke not have ever kissed the woman he knows is a strong medic ninja that heals; but he still worries about regardless:


Exhibit D: How could Sasuke not have ever kissed the woman he loved so much to the point they created a daughter. Basically impossible. And those are his words. Not mine.

“How can you say that for sure?” = “How can you be so certain that you love her?”

In which Sasuke responds with:

“Because you exist Sarada” = “Because i love your mother so much you came into existence Sarada” and that equals to= “because i made love to your mother, out of the incredibly strong love that i had for her, you exist sarada”. What is not understandable? (making love equals to kissing everywhere, including on the mouth/& or lips)


Exhibit E: If Sasuke had never once kissed Sakura before then why was Sakura so casual about receiving one almost as it were something normal she’d ask him and she’d casually expect of him to do? Oh, i know! That’s because they have had kissed before!:


Exhibit F: If Sasuke has never kissed Sakura then why was Sakura so confused and surprised at getting her first rain check in a long time of seeing him almost as she didn’t expect one from him. Emphasis of that is on the: ??! 

(take note that the only reason why Sasuke couldn’t bring himself to kiss her there was because their daughter was right there watching. That’s why kishi drew Sarada there. To make sure we understand why he couldn’t kiss her.)


Exhibit G: If Sasuke does not like or has never kissed Sakura before because he found it weird, unnecessary, or something he couldn’t see himself doing, then why was he so happy that she asked for one anyway?

Update: Oh, i know! That’s because he enjoys teasing her and knows that he will give her all his love once he comes back! He enjoys teasing the fluff out of the woman whose heart is connected with his!

Update: I just realized that miswrote what i was trying to say on that last paragraph. What i mean’t to write was that he is happy that she asked for one anyway because he is happy to have Sakura in his life. Even though he couldn’t kiss her because their daughter was watching he loves her so much that he appreciates every single gesture coming from her. If he didn’t want to kiss her he would have shown a disgusted face; but instead he showed a smile and took a hold of something she made for him. He took a hold of something someone special to him made for him. His wife.

I just meant to write the teasing part as a small joke. But i wrote that first and forgot to write this. So sorry T-T i was sleepy when i wrote this and that’s why.

anonymous asked:

In what ways have you experienced antisemitism in England? (Not being passive aggressive, genuinely curious)

This is obviously just a set of my own, personal experiences.

  • When I was 13, an Iraqi Muslim refugee girl came to my school and ended up in my class part-way through the year. She was told to sit beside me, and my table of students was asked (in private, by the teacher) to help her with her English skills. She became a friend very quickly, and weeks passed normally, until I complained (of course) about preparing for Pesach at home. She didn’t know what Pesach was, so I explained as best as I could. She asked if I was a Jew and I told her that I was. She then called me “dirty” and asked to be moved to sit somewhere else. She never spoke to me again.
  • When I was 16 at my first job with a clothing retailer, an Arab woman was angry that I couldn’t give her money back on some clothes (because of some store policy), called me a “thieving Jew” and stormed out.
  • I’ve had friends become ex-friends because they found out that I was Jewish, and they said that I “manipulated” them by not admitting that I was Jewish in the first place.
  • I’ve had ex-friends say that they wouldn’t have been friends with me in the first place because “Jews always want something in return.”
  • When I was 17 and worked at a jewellery chain store, I was serving an Arab man until he noticed the Magen David around my neck. He cursed at me in Arabic and demanded that my manager serve him instead. When she tried to show him the jewellery that I had brought out to show him, he wanted a discount because of “the Jew’s filthy hands.”
  • In the same job, there was a Muslim woman that I worked with that joined me outside for cigarette breaks. She always begged to make sure we were right down an alleyway so the main street wouldn’t see us. I asked her why she was afraid of being seen, and she told me that others from her mosque might see her. I then asked if it was forbidden for her to smoke, and she told me that it was, but it would be worse if her family found out she was talking to a Jew and she didn’t want to risk it. She begged me to deny that we were friends if any Muslim or Arab asked me if I knew her.
  • My boss at the same job made a point to remind me that the safe had security cameras surrounding it, because she said she knew what “you people” were like. When I faced antisemitism from customers, she demanded that I stop wearing my Magen David so I wouldn’t “antagonise” them.
  • When I had to transfer to a different jewellery store due to moving away to university, I had a different Muslim co-worker. For context, if two people worked together to make a sale, they were supposed to “split” the sale on the computer, as each staff member had a daily quota for both item value and insurance that we were supposed to sell. I did most of the sale, and he said he would help put the sale through the machine, as the customer thought she might buy something else, too. After she was gone, I found out that he’d stolen all of the sale from me. I confronted him, and he told me that “Jews have enough money.”
  • When I was 20, I went to court with my family because of (non-related to our Jewishness) harassment against us from our neighbours. Our court-provided lawyer was a friendly Muslim woman. She sat with us and helped us prepare for being in court, as we’d never been before. My mother has a nervous habit of fidgeting with her jewellery, and the lawyer stopped part-way through a sentence when she noticed her Magen David (for clarification - none of us have “obviously Jewish” names), made an excuse that we were prepared, then left us. In court, she hardly asked any questions unlike the defence lawyer, and after the case finished (it was short, thanks to those behind the harassment being repeat offenders) when we wanted to ask her about what happened next, we were all completely ignored and she refused to shake any of our hands, even after we’d seen her shaking with the defence lawyer.
  • I had a Christian roommate at university tell me that she would “forgive me” for “killing Christ” if I accepted Jesus as my saviour, and was angry when I refused.
  • In a taxi with an Arab driver, he was friendly and asked me if I was doing anything for Christmas. I told him that I was Jewish so wasn’t celebrating, but would probably go to a friend’s Christmas party. He then asked me what I thought about what was happening in Palestine, and I said that the situation was a horrible mess, and that all we could do was hope for peace. He then said, “Jews are baby-killers” and accused me of being racist.
  • When I went to pick up some kosher items from the local supermarket, an Arab family spotted me in the aisle (as kosher, halaal, Polish and “speciality” non-refrigerated items were along the same aisle) and followed me around the store as I picked up the rest of my shopping, laughing in Arabic, and then spat on me. When I went to a staff member to tell them about what happened, he accused me of being an Islamophobic racist and told me that if I didn’t leave the store, he would call security.
  • A different Arab taxi driver, on a journey back home, asked me if I was Jewish. When I told him that I was, he asked threatening questions about “how many Jews” lived with me and when we’d all be home together. I was frightened, I admit, and I gave him the wrong address and hurried to the first person that was outside their house, asking them to take me in because I was worried. I called home, obviously, but the driver stayed outside for over half an hour and only left when the stranger I was with went outside to ask what he wanted, where he apparently said that he was “making sure I (as in, me) was home safe.”
  • I went to buy cigarettes from a corner shop using my debit card. The machine declined it for some reason, although I had more than enough money to cover it. I asked the owner to put the card through again, and he shouted that “Your Jew money’s no good here” and demanded that I leave.
  • I’ve been called a “babykiller” and a “Zionist bitch” when a man spotted my Magen David.
  • My synagogue’s windows have been vandalised, smashed and there has been excrement shoved through the letterbox and smeared on windows and we have to organise an extra police presence during festivals. Over recent years, all signs saying that the synagogue is in fact a synagogue have been removed.
  • When preparing for an inter-faith walk of peace, a priest visited our synagogue and called us “obstacles to peace” and “selfish” for saying that we couldn’t walk on a Saturday morning, when we’re supposed to be in the synagogue praying.

I’ve been spat at multiple times, I’ve had antisemitic slurs thrown at me multiple times. I stopped using Facebook a few years ago because of random rape and death threats sent into my inbox and written when I commented or liked anything to do with Israel or Judaism. My mother has had the same. We have to do our best to protect my brother from the same, and have told him never to tell anyone that he’s Jewish, because that would be far too dangerous for him.

Obviously this isn’t even mentioning the abuse that I’ve had on this site, where I’ve been called a Nazi, I’ve been told to kill myself, asks with antisemitic slurs (not dark jokes, but actual abuse), because whilst I do post some, there are quite a few that I’ve just deleted without comment to block whichever anon has been sending them.

So when I talk about antisemitism, I’m not just someone that happens to be Jewish and is against antisemitism because it’s anti-Jewish as some out-there concept that I’m against, it’s because I’ve been there, I’ve done that, been through it, keep going through it.

It’s very real, and it can be incredibly frightening. That’s why I take it so seriously. And that’s also why I criticise Jews for claiming that some things are antisemitic when they’re clearly not, because I want others to see how horrendous antisemitism actually is so that they take it seriously, too.

To the high school graduates ...

Here is something I wrote a few years ago that is still quite applicable, especially re:Hot Pocket™ safety.

Hello, high school graduates! All of you are likely close to collapsing under the weight of well meaning old-people’s advice, which for the past few months has piled up like so much smug, well-meaning snow. Allow me to add my own dusting.

1. Leave high school behind you, now. Whether you were the most devastatingly cool guy in all of McNary High School or the most excruciatingly awkward girl at Sprague, once you leave high school, no one will know. Or, more importantly, care. Most really cool people who do interesting, creative things with their lives didn’t have super happy high school careers. Many really cool people had great high school experiences. But any reasonably cool person over the age of 19 knows that what you earned, or endured, in high school has zero bearing on who you are the day you graduate. I know. It seems SO IMPORTANT now. But … it’s not. Not even a little.

2. Manners count, and they’re free. You can get away with murder if you do it politely, because whoever expects a polite murderer? Manners make other people feel comfortable and happy and respected, and when people feel comfortable, happy and respected they are 8,000 percent more likely to let you get your way.

Say please, thank you, excuse me, it was so nice to meet you, hope I see you again soon. Whatever you do, send thank-you notes so people are inclined to keep doing nice things for you.

3. Chew with your mouth closed. In fact, sometime when you’re alone, go sit in front of a mirror and watch yourself eat, then make any necessary adjustments now before it becomes a permanent habit.

4. If people expect you to go to college, but you’re not super-excited about it, skip a year and work before you head off. It’s not the end of the world, and it doesn’t make you a failure. That time is too expensive and too precious to use on something you’re half-assed about. Also, I speak from experience — folding jeans at a store in the mall for minimum wage for a few months made me feel very differently about how tedious and mindless sitting through a lecture class feels.

5. Unkindness, from here on out, becomes less and less attractive. Cruelty is one of the four main currencies of high school, along with attractiveness, athletic ability and actual currency provided by your parents (I see you, West Salem kids!). In high school, a profoundly mediocre person can rule — or at least maintain a position at the periphery of the popular kids’ group — through fear.

But once you get into college, you begin to leave that b.s. behind you. You don’t have to be mean to be funny. You don’t have to be mean to disagree with someone. You don’t have to be mean to someone powerless to prove your power. All meanness showcases is that you have ugly internal architecture. And as the facades that were so important in high school fade, that is what others will see when they look at you.

6. Know which classes you have to go to, and which ones can be skipped in lieu of more important things. Yes, if you want to go to Harvard Law or John Hopkins Med, you need to ace all your impossibly difficult classes. But if you want to do something post-college that doesn’t involve grad school — if you want to work in non-profits, if you want to write for a paper, if you want to do public relations, if you want to run a business — then instead, look for ways that you can get those experiences in college.

Join extracurriculars that mimic the experiences you someday want to get paid for. If you hate doing it for free, then chances are you’ll resent it even when you get paid for it. Also, this way, when you graduate college, you can prove to employers that you did something, not just wrote compelling papers on the metaphysical nature of being.

7. If you’re a person for whom the hooking up thing doesn’t work, then don’t do it. College is a time of lots and lots of casual sex. This, I think, plays pretty well into what many — not all, but many — 18-year-old guys want, and terribly into what most — not all, but most — 18-year-old girls want. Know what you want, and don’t feel bad if that’s not in line with what someone else wants. Also, know that after freshman year, people begin to date again rather than just drunkenly coupling and uncoupling.

8. Freshman year, you can and should be friends with everyone. Sophomore year will tell who is actually worth keeping.

9. After you microwave a Hot Pocket, be sure to gently tug open the end and let the steam out, and wait a couple minutes, because there is nothing more painful than a Hot Pocket steam-and-molten-cheese burn to the top of the mouth.

10. Don’t tell the internet too much about your love life, or deep innermost feelings, or secrets. It’s none of the Internet’s business, but the Internet has a big mouth and a long, long memory. Make good friends, and tell them in person when you hang out in each other’s dorm rooms and watch movies and eat Funfetti frosting straight out of the jar. Do this a lot. It doesn’t seem important, but it is.

SHORT FICS REC | -15k words fics, all tropes
manip | other recs | rec page 

strangers to lovers:

‘Til I Tasted You, 14k
if i had the chance, the things i would do to you, 14k
Hold My Heart, 14k
Hit the Heartbrakes, 13k
Just a Fine and Fancy Ramble, 13k
i think that possibly maybe i’m falling for you, 11k
Right Side of the Wrong Bed, 10k
All the Lines We Cast Will Bring Us Home, 10k
Ever Since, 10k
Nothin’ I Would Rather Do, 9k
there was a reason i collided into you, 9k
Down the Field, 9k
Spin Me Like A Record, 8k
Second Time’s the Charm, 8k
i’ll bring the bread because boy, you’re the jam, 8k
Like A Crow on A Wire, 7k
The Way You Make me Feel, It’s Real, 7k
Tesco, 6k
Cake Sword, 6k
Ain’t My Fault, 6k
I made a map of your stars, 5k
You Spin Me Right Round, 4k
Puzzle Pieces, You and Me, 4k
In This Light, 4k
What more can I do?, 4k
my song has not been sung, 2k
Check Please, 2k
cause you cut through all the noise, 1k
Push And Pull Like Magnets Do, 1k   

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You asked me if you did anything wrong, that you haven’t heard from me in weeks and don’t know why.
“What did I do to make you hate me?”
You don’t get it, do you?
The moment I met you, it was as if the world around me had blurred and drowned into nothingness. All of the commotion fell into a faint echo and right then, I knew. I could feel you taking a sledgehammer to the protective walls of my heart. They came crumbling down easier than they ever have before and just like that, my heart was in your hands.
I prayed you would be careful with it.
You weren’t.
You played with my heartstrings as if they were just another practice set that would enable you to perfect your technique for the right person. But the thing is, I may not have been your right person, but you were mine. I was willing to give up on my happiness for this lifetime because I swear you made me happy enough to fill a dozen more. I was willing to give up on all of my dreams because you had already come true. I was willing to give you all the galaxies inside of me if that showed you how devoted I was.
I prayed that would make me be enough for you.
It didn’t.
You stole my heart and the only reason I want it back is so I can tear it to shreds. I want to stomp on it the same way you did just so it can stop loving you. If I have to see it fall apart again, I want to watch it crumble in my own hands instead of yours. But most of all, I want you to stop asking if or why I hate you.
Don’t you see? Im not able to feel that emotion towards you. I have loved you too much for so long that I don’t know any other feeling.
So, if you don’t hear from me, it’s not because I hate you. It’s because I’m distancing myself just long enough to piece together what’s left of my heart.
I pray it will one day be worthy of your love.
We both know it never will be.

I made a post about Mother’s Day earlier this year and with Father’s Day coming up this weekend I thought it would be prudent to make another one:

Not everyone has a good (or any) relationship with their father. There are many people out there who had abusive fathers or absent fathers, who have a strained relationship with their father for whatever reason, and people who—regardless of their relationship—have lost their father and find Father’s Day difficult to deal with because of that.

It’s 100% okay to celebrate Father’s Day and to talk about your own father if you have a good relationship with him and plan to be celebrating, but please keep in mind when you’re posting and speaking to other people that not everyone has positive feelings about their own father. Please try to avoid posting/sharing things that shame people for not celebrating Father’s Day or spending it with their father and try to tag your Father’s Day posts so that people can blacklist them if they want to.

And if you have anyone in your life who you know will struggle with Father’s Day—whether online or IRL—consider reaching out to them and making sure they’re okay, as well.