i had this whole thing memorized

Nothing else mattered

It’s been quite a while since I wrote my last Supernatural meta. Some days ago I answered an ask where I said that time constraints were among the reasons why I hadn’t written much lately. The other powerful reason was lack of inspiration. The thing is that after watching episode 12x14, I felt that I simply HAD TO write about something in particular, no matter what. I haven’t had time to read any meta for this episode, and that’s a good thing because it means this is my opinion without anybody else’s influence. Without further ado, let’s talk about the part of the episode that inspired me to write again.  

Other more talented meta writers have previously stated that Mary’s arc this season parallels Cas’ arc in season 6. I totally agree. The whole “Mary is working with the BMoL and keeping it from Dean and Sam” is the same thing Cas did when he was secretly working with Crowley. At least, the writers are trying to undo some things from season 6 because in this case Mary decided to confess to her sons what she was doing without being forced. However, if somebody still had doubts that Mary is a Cas parallel, in this episode there was a very explicit shout-out to a memorable scene between Dean and Cas: Mary literally told Dean, “I’m doing this for you.” I know she meant both Winchesters, but she was talking directly to Dean in that scene. Besides, where have we heard those exacts words before?

There was something else that was very relevant almost at the end of the episode. If we’re keeping in mind that Mary is a Cas parallel, how much of what Dean said to Mary applied to Cas around 6 years ago? The thing is that Dean never expressed what he felt at that time, but he did it now. The fact that he’s trying to talk about his feelings is huge character development for Dean.

What did Dean say to Mary?

“The moment I thought something bad had happened to you, nothing else mattered.”

That pretty much explains this from episode 7x01:

It also explains why Dean was so worried and desperate when he thought Cas was dead, to the point where he told Bobby that maybe angels didn’t need to breathe. It explains why when Dean realized Cas was alive, he didn’t focus on being pissed.

Dean didn’t tell Cas there was no way to redeem himself. He didn’t decide to leave him right there; Dean actually wanted to take Cas with them. Why? Dean was hurt deeply by what Cas did, and didn’t like the choices Cas made. The same happened with Mary. Dean didn’t like the choices she made and was really hurt by them. However, when Dean thought that something bad could happen to Mary, nothing else mattered. There was no betrayal important enough to prevent him from running to her rescue.

That’s what happened back in season 7’s premiere. The moment Dean thought that something bad could happen to Cas, nothing else mattered. Nothing Cas had done was beyond redemption. The idea of losing the person he loves hurts Dean a lot more than accepting the choices the person makes. That’s why Dean forgave Cas in season 7, no matter what.

Of course, many of us already knew that Cas meant a lot to Dean even back then. I’m just glad the subtext of season 12 is somehow explaining things that happened so long ago in the show. If season 12 continues like this, I might feel inspired enough to keep writing as often as I used to. 

anonymous asked:

Hc that Michael has a whole bulletin board thing of him and Jeremy or something and has like a shrine of him That sounds creepy wai

i mean i guess if u word it in a way like that it sounds strange but i’ve always HC’d michael as having a bulletin board w a collection of stuff he and jeremy did that meant a lot to him? considering he had a lot of momentos he was burning in the musical, plus a lot of ppl have bulletin boards/memorabilia of memorable moments to reflect on! :0c

jeremy’s his only friend so the board’s basically dedicated just to him & michael and jeremy likes to make fun of him for it by calling it his jeremy shrine but he never rly means it and michael can tell so whenever he punches him for it it doesn’t hurt lmao

after the squip squad becomes a thing tho he adds more momentos w/ his other friends on it too!! there’s a pic of all of them in a group photo in the middle of the board,, chloe demands the picture of she and michael backstage where he’s giving her a piggyback ride be as close as possible to the pic in the middle as possible for Extra Focus and he caves bc one does not refuse chloe valentine


At these lines my heart stopped. as did breath. literally. i’m sure it was a physical thing. not to say TWO HEARTS of the Doctor, so full of pain and grief. for him the whole world must have stopped or even all worlds he had ever experienced. Even though I recognized the voice of Nardole pretty early, at these sentences my mind automatically switched it for River voice. it couldn’t be any other way. and, in a moment, it reminded me of a way that River was speaking of Her Doctor in that memorable scene from The Impossible Astronaut. with a smile, love, calm, but also pain and sadness at the same time. what’s more to say.

whither would you go:

so, i’m sorry, i wasn’t able to get any pics or film the scene/event, but it was a small space and the ushers/workers were right next to me so i didn’t want to risk it. anyway, i’m gonna put a highlight rundown for my sake so i don’t forget, and for anyone else interested. if anyone else was there, feel free to add on whatever, i’m sure there’s things i missed.

okay so things that happened before i go to sleep and forget:

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Top Figure Skating Programs of All Time

Top 3 Ladies Programs of All Time

1: “Les Miserables” Yuna Kim

This is such a beautiful and emotional performance, I had a hard time deciding which program out of Kiss of the Vampire, Gershwin, Homage to Korea and This but I ultimately decided to go with this because the emotion in it makes me feel things everytime I watch it. Her 3lz is incredible and her movements so beautiful I just love her a lot.

2: “Rachmaninoff Piano Concerto no.2″ Mao Asada.

The sheer emotion in this performance, the gorgeous spiral, the twizzles and the amazing step sequence at the end are all phenomenal. But the context is what truly cements this for me. Mao’s reaction at the end just shows how monumental this program was for her and for fans and it was an historic moment.

3: “An Angel Ave Maria” Carolina Kostner

She truly is an angel, this program goes down as my favourite Ave Maria and one of my favourite routines because Carolina is so compellingly and mesmerisingly beautiful that I tear up everytime. The look on her face on the end pose is just… celestial.

I just had to go with the holy trinity for this.

Honourable mentions: Michelle Kwan’s East of Eden, Sasha Cohen’s Swan Lake, Mao Asada Liebestraume, Yuna Kim’s Gershwin and everything else, and I also adore Ashley Wagner’s Exogenisis. 

Top Ice Dance programs of all time

1: “La Quete” Delobel/Schoenfelder

What are they doing here? They’re telling me a story. The message, the characters, the story itself and the beautiful way they skate it, and above all the personal significance of this routine all make it my favourite ice dance program ever. Skating together since they were 12, former world champions, plagued by injuries, Delobel had had a child, they went in wanting the gold but by the free dance they knew that was out of reach so they were able to skate this so freely. Their goodbye to competition, this was the last time they skated this routine and the first. The story of their career told as they close the book. I have so much emotion over this whole thing and it makes me cry without fail every-time.

I leave you with the words my friend gave me when she 1st showed me this “she had a surprise for you”

2: “Bolero” Torvil and Dean

Truly GOAT, Torvil and Dean’s Bolero will go down in history as one of the most memorable and famous programs ever. It has such a strong and beautiful character, they use the building repetition of the music so well and their skating builds and moves to match it. Everything about this program is phenomenal and It truly deserves the GOAT title.

floodhunter  asked:

Hey Dave, a little while ago you reblogged about that autistic artist, and you made sure to acknowledge that other, non-savant level autistic persons are still awesome and valid. I really appreciate that, as a person who comes deals with my own, and have known many others with autism spectrum, because so many are seen as less because we don't get the super abilities. I don't really have a point, I just want to thank you for being a great person who is always willing to adapt and accommodate. :)

Thank you for sharing. Your perspective means a lot to me.

Back in my sophomore year of high school, I had the opportunity to earn some extra credits by assisting a classroom with some of my fellow students, some of whom were autistic.

There was an autistic student named Alex who was the same grade as me. I remember asking the teacher when I met him if it was true that some autistic people could do amazing things like complex math problems in their head or memorize whole books.

And her response was very humbling and always stuck with me. She said, “Some autistic people have talents like that, but Alex has other gifts. For example, he really likes basketball.”

And something about the way she said it just really hit me hard. Like, she wasn’t mean or angry with me, but it became obvious just how ridiculous the basic premise of my question was.

I mean, nobody expected ME to have superpowers in order to feel valued or appreciated. Why should I be asking other people if they have extraordinary abilities, as if they needed them to still be extraordinary people?

I continued going to the classroom with Alex and those other classmates three days a week all the way until graduation. And on graduation day, it was my honor to walk with Alex up to the podium where he an I both got our diplomas.

Alex earned the exact same diploma that I received. The same academic honor. And he did it without so many of the advantages that I had.

And THAT is pretty damn extraordinary.

If this keeps up, I think I’m going to start making a series based on why Peter is totally fictional creatures. I’ve already demonstrated why he’s a dragon.

No, seriously, Peter Nureyev shares a whole lot of traits with a vampire.

  • Very pretty – between Carmilla, Lestat, Edward, Aubrey, etc… let’s face it, vampires who are described as pretty are par for the course
  • Almost preternaturally persuasive
  • Sharp teeth – oh, those teeth
  • Weirdly good at a whole lot of things – understandable, if you’ve had countless years to hone those skills (also, some versions of vampires are just naturally more coordinated than humans, so… yeah)
  • Particularly good at memorization and keeping track of numbers – you thought I was gonna forget the bit where vampires are compulsive counters, didn’t you?
  • Has to be invited into places – I mean, have we ever actually seen Peter break into a place he hasn’t been invited into first? That’s the thing about a con man, after all, your mark just opens the door for you and smiles when you walk in
  • Inability to cross rivers – good thing there’s not a ton of water on Mars, huh?
  • Little regard for food human life
  • Aversion to sunlight – does that work the same when you’re not experiencing the sun through Earth’s atmosphere? After all, vampires never had a problem with sunlight reflected off the moon, which implies that they’re affected by a very particular aspect of UV light
  • A face like that had tasted blood before – and found it sweet as milk.

I mean, COME ON.

lesbianoceans  asked:

hey so ur tag about failing in math in college is really comforting bc im in my second semester and im failing a class (critical thinking) and ive been like. freaking out about it and not sleeping n shit and i appreciate ur story about failing classes!! it took some of the stress off. thanks!!

no yeah like let me be very clear - during my freshman year i was an economics/poli sci double major, and the econ track required only two math classes: intro calculus and mathematical methods ii. i dropped intro calculus after the first week because the professor wasn’t great, figuring i’d just take it the following year with a new prof. i failed mathematical methods ii that semester - like, utterly tanked, failed both midterms, failed the final. 

and then during my second year i switched to a poli sci/public admin double major, so the math was no longer required, but i would have to retake it if i wanted to remove the F from my academic record. i was also applying to transfer to a different school (utoronto, #1 in canada) and i didn’t want the F on my transcript.

so i took mathematical methods ii again during the first semester of my second year. i showed up for every class. i took fastidious notes. i did all my homework. i got As on both midterms. 

and then i failed the final.

and they don’t let you pass the course unless you pass the final. i begged and pleaded with my prof, but there was nothing that could be done. so i now had two Fs on my transcript. i was devastated.

i applied to utoronto anyway. and i enrolled again for the third semester in a row, because i did not want that F on my transcript and i had come so close to passing last time. and… my mental health was awful that semester, i’d been raped over winter break and i’d just cut ties with my biological mother, so i was really not… feeling the whole school thing. i tanked on both midterms. don’t remember if i fully failed them or not, but my grades were Not Good.

and then i got a letter from utoronto saying that i’d be accepted if i passed the math course. so i threw everything i had into passing. i blocked tumblr for a month during finals. i did literally every exercise in my textbook, and then i did every practice exam i could get my hands on until i had memorized the “rules” for doing each type of problem. 

i got an A-. i passed the course. i got into utoronto, and transferred, and graduated on time with honours and transitioned right into a really math-y policy job. 

so like. in my experience, you can fuck up over and over again and you can still right the ship. i don’t mean for this to sound platitudinous but failure happens to literally everyone, in small ways and big, and you can keep yourself going as long as you realize that failure isn’t the final verdict. 

Harlivy Prompt

Summary:  Harley was kissing back now, desperately, her fingers buried deeply in Ivy’s hair. Somewhere in the back of her mind, she knew this was wrong, but she didn’t care.

I wrote this for a prompt I got a while back (“I’d like it if you stayed” and “Why didn’t you invite me to your wedding?”)

It’s a little…risque? It’s pretty tame, but I figured I’d warn you all.

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Guilty - Part 4

Table of Contents: Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 | Part 6 | Part 7 | Part 8 | Alternate Ending I | Alternate Ending II | Alternate Ending III

Genre: Angst, smut

Word Count: 1,971 words

Pairing: Reader x Baekhyun / Reader x Kai

Summary: *REQUESTED* You find yourself getting more and more frustrated with Kai as he keeps hanging out with his ex-girlfriend, Krystal, against your wishes. Your solution? Hang out with Baekhyun instead.

There were plenty of things that you could complain about at this point in your life, but you couldn’t complain too much about your boyfriend. He’d been so sweet to you this whole weekend. You’d spent so much time together. The two of you had cooked meals together or, at least, he’d passed you ingredients while he watched. Kai wasn’t much of a cook, but you’d taught him a few things. After all, he was living alone. You’d even helped him clean up the apartment. You couldn’t say that you got much homework or studying done, but Kai helped you memorize your Japanese vocabulary.

You let out a yawn. “I’m tired…”

Kai looked at you with concern. “I am, too… Do you want to stay here tonight? I could drop you off to school in the morning or I can take you home tonight.”

You shook your head. “I think I’ll just go home. I already told my sister I’d be home.”

Kai smiled. “If you’re tired of me, you can be honest. I won’t cry or anything.”

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anonymous asked:

Helloo, I'm pretty new to the studyblr community and I joined to get some motivation lmao but I have a test on thursday and I was wondering if you had any last minute study tips, I didn't manage my time well and now I'm stressed because I've only just realised the importance of it ://

Hello there! 
This sounds exactly like me haha I’m such a procrastinator myself (not proud of it) so i can only speak from my own experience and what works for me:

  • i usually make a summary of all the things that test will be about - Writing everything down already helps me memorize it, gives me an overview about the topic and i have everything in one place without having to flip through my whole folder which would stress me out even more
  • since you already do not have that much time i would consider only writing the most important things down! (or you could just ask your friends if they have a summary and are willing to share)
  • it helps immensely to watch some videos about the topic - Most videos sum it up pretty nicely, are not that long and listening to someone explaining it and being able to visualize it makes you remember things much better and quicker
  • I try to memorize my notes by talking out loud and explaining it to someone else (or just talk by yourself) Do this over and over again and I’m pretty sure after 3- or 4-times you’ll have it more or less down!
  • you’re still lucky that you have almost two days left: Learning your notes at night before you sleep is actually really effective. Most of the time you’ll see that the things you studied the night before are already memorized since your brain processes them during your sleep. 

I cannot really think of any more tips but if anyone of my followers sees this and has some things to add please do! I wish you good luck for the test on thursday and i hope this has been a bit helpful to you! I’m sure you can do it :)

50 Things Linstead

A/N: I’m posting the prompts here, just so you know what to expect and look forward to. I had to eliminate a few, because in the end I had too many. No hard feelings I hope. I hope you like this, and you can be expecting the first one pretty soon.

The idea for this little project is not mine, so credit is where credit’s due. It comes from Fanfiction.net. Here is the link to the fic (x).

50 Things Linstead: prompts

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Here it is, after over a month, the final installment of “Thinking of You,” which had began as a simple Marichat one-shot. Thank you everyone who expressed wanting me to continue. It was a long push, but it’s finally done thanks to your encouragement. This conclusion turned into its own very long monstrosity, but please enjoy and let me know how you feel. Thank you again.
Read part 1, and part 2

Thinking of You Pt. 3 

She threw together a capelet. It was a deep blue-black with gold zippers and red lining inside. It was simple enough to make in a day, after a brief stop at the fabric store after school. Thank god Chat Noir did not pay her a visit or he’d admonish her cowardice. She’d promised she’d wear the dress, but she didn’t say anything about wearing something over it…

Ah, she knew he’d still throw a hissy fit over not having the courage to talk to Adrien about her mistake.

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The first arc is so good though.

Like, the only problem I ever had with the og as a whole is some timeline inconsistencies and unclear family trees.

But even those are relatively easy to fill with fancanons or by stretching things a bit.

And they definitely don’t ruin the experience (atleast not for me) because the plot is good, world-building is good, villains are threatening, characters are likeable, complex and memorable and the main character is good. Even if you wouldn’t like Firestar, you atleast gotta admit that he got shit done as a protagonist.

The other arcs have good characters and interesting ideas too, but pretty much all of them fall flat on else with not having proactive enough main characters or not having a plot that actually goes somewhere (Power of Three, nuff said). And not to mention the time inconsistencies! I mean Squirrelflight should’ve been an elder by now, how is she still having kits after Omen of the Stars? And don’t even get me started on Thornclaw!

Honestly though, whenever I think about “what would I change?” with Warriors, the og is the only one where I wouldn’t want to change anything major (a.k.a plot or character related). Even with Dawn of the Clans I would speed up the plot a little and remove Slash in general because the arc gets reeeaaaally slow after the First Battle (I still like it, but seriously though was it necessary to drag the dividing ‘till the fifth book? Honestly the whole arc could’ve probably been done with only 5 books. Maybe even 4.)

anonymous asked:

Do you like The force awakens?

yeah! it’s not my favorite star wars movie (i think i usually rank it around #4 which is the dead middle lmao) but it’s definitely a good time. i was OBSESSED with it when it first came out but then once the shiny newness wore off after a few months i kinda lost interest and reverted back to my natural Prequel Hoe state hahaa

it IS pretty formulaic and i wish they’d been a bit bolder about trying new things instead of having empire 2.0, rebellion 2.0, death star 2.0, etc. one of the things i love most about the prequels is that they’re really different than the other star wars movies, i know lots of people take issue with the experimental aspects the prequels had going on but i thought the films came out more unique and memorable because of it. also tfa is only the first installment in a trilogy so to me it feels like there’s not really a whole lot there yet?? so i’m hoping the next two movies will flesh the story out and add more depth, just as tpm and anh are improved with the added context of aotc & rots and esb & rotj. and the cast and crew have been saying that tlj is unlike any other star wars movie so i really hope that’s true because i want to see something super different and unique when i sit my ass down in the movie theater on december 15

Funny Imagine

Think about if the characters had to ability to read their script for XV….

Noctis: Fuck this… *chucks script*

Luna: This is just a page…. *stares in horror*

Ignis: I beg your fucking pardon!? I lose my sight??????

Prompto: Um, wait…what? *scans the whole thing*

Gladiolus: Why am I a fucking dick…?

Regis: I have less than a page of lines…

Ardyn: Oooooh! *grins*

Iris: So, Im reduced to being a girl who has a crush on Noctis and my badass upgrade is offscreen? *mutters bitterly*

Verstael: *has lines memorized since there were like 3*

Cor: Might as well do this… *realizes the lack of his appearances*

arisjonesb  asked:

Hello again! i also wanted to ask what do you think of Celeste's character overall

I honestly really enjoy her character! Celes is fun—her unrepentant selfishness is perhaps one of the things I find the most fun about her, actually.

While I wish that her actual murder plan had been done better in Chapter 3, her breakdown in the trial was an absolute blast to see the first time around. It’s always been a little bit of a disappointment that the character in dr1 who spent the most time hyping up their ability to act and lie impeccably actually had the easiest-to-solve case out of the whole game, but her reactions during the trial still served to make her one of the most memorable culprits. My personal liking for Celes is still why I’d probably rank dr1 Chapter 3 over Chapter 3 in either sdr2 or ndrv3.

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You know, if magical wishes were real and I was given only one, it would be to live a single day with you day over and over forever.
It would be a little like Groundhog Day, in that it wouldn’t be identical every day; it would always start the same, in the same place but I could change the course of the day with the decisions that I made. Every day I would wake up beside you and spend every moment with you, only to fall asleep beside you and start the day over again.
I could repeat this day forever and never get bored… I could do all the things I wanted to do with you… all the things we never got a chance to do. We could sit on the beach and have fish and chips, we could watch the sunset together from a million different places, we could even shop for socks I really don’t care - it’s having endless chances to spend time with you that I’m really wishing for. We could go to that Italian restaurant we always said we’d go to but never did, we could watch every great film ever made and cuddle the whole way through or I could read you my favorite poem until you’d memorized it like I have.
It wouldn’t matter how many times we repeated that day – I would always find something to fill it with… I would always find a way to love you and make you smile…
And the saddest thing is that the one thing in the world I would wish for if I had the chance – to spend endless repetitive days with you just so I can love you and finally get it right - is an opportunity that somebody else already has…
I just hope they’re not taking it for granted…
—  Ranata Suzuki | If I had one wish