that feel when you post your vid that took 7 hours to edit onto the overwatch Reddit and this is what you get back. So you just remove it. You take the post down off Reddit because fuck me for making a D.Va video that isn’t 100% team wipes am I right? No one watches them anyway. that 11 - 5 Dislike ratio sucks. If only you had uploaded that stupid 30,000 note Mercy video to youtube before posting it to Tumblr! You might actually have a few subs!
So you delete the video idea you had. Clear the flash drive of all that footage because people don’t give a shit about making anything other than pro montages or reading patch notes. You consider deleting the whole damn channel because why should I try am I right? I’m not Seagull or Taimou, what’s the point? There is nothing I can bring to the table. Not the hours of editing, not the music synchronization, not the midi edits, just nothing.
So then you just sit there and just wonder why you bother? You remove the tabs that you had open to a Blue Yeti microphone and an Elgato capture card that you were going to get this week to make more content even though you are so broke you could probably start a Gofundme for food. You’ve already removed comments from people coming over from games just to say hey you’re shit after you beat them in a game. I had to turn off messaging because of some guy harassing me for a full hour because he lost one round of For Honor.
Your diamond rank and gold guns? Means nothing. Even if a video get’s popular it’s going to get downvoted to shit for being on console with the whole “diamond is like silver rank on PC!” nonsense. I’m probably overreacting and I know I am. I’m depressed as fuck and making these videos and seeing 100 views after a day was really bumping up the morale. I’m really happy when I’m making these vids but some days it just blows man, it really blows.