i guess you don't love me anymore now

at this point, anyone not into power rangers should definitely blacklist it because i’m not holding back anymore and this blog is now Real Power Rangers Trash.

You became so good at lying you couldn’t even tell where your stories ended and reality began. So why am I even surprised you could shatter me this way? I’m such a hopeless romantic, I only ever saw you as perfection. I spun your darkness into beautiful poetry, but all my sweet words were wasted on you.
—  K.N.B.

mermaid swamp spam     “I want you to live..”

“Go to the expedition, they said. 

The team of professionals, they said”

Well. This year I took part in the fandom battle, which was pretty unexpected even for me myself (guess the fandom huh). Our team was tiny yet strong (LOVE YOU GUYS) but I am the worst warrior ever, and my contribution is just two arts. ANYWAY, now the battle is over and I finally can post both.

Bughead feeds my soul
  • Me: "AAAAAAAAAAAAh Jughead and Betty!"
  • Husband: "Cara, who the hell are the they?"
  • *Points at Tv screen*
  • Husband: "..."
  • Husband: "Really? You're screaming because of them?"
  • Husband: "Well, they're kinda cute I guess..."
  • Me: "Of course they fucking are!"
  • Husband: "I've known you for 14 years and you're still dreaming about fake relationships. Where did our spark go?"
  • *Husband shakes head*
  • Me: "Shut up! They feed my soul!"
  • Husband: "You have your head in the clouds, love!"
  • Me: "I have my head in Bughead."
  • Husband: "I don't think you're speaking English anymore. I don't think you ever did speak English come to think of it... Wow, cool he wears a cool hat."
  • Me: "Now we're speaking the same language."
Bon Jovi {Sentence Starters}
  • "Take my hand and we'll make it, I swear."
  • "Everyday, it seems we're wasting away."
  • "I don't wanna sleep tonight. Dreaming's just a waste of time."
  • "I'll be there for you. I'd live and I'd die for you."
  • "Don't talk to me about sympathy now."
  • "Baby, you were there to pull me through."
  • "Darling, you give love a bad name."
  • "It doesn't make a difference if we make it or not."
  • "I guess this time you're really leaving."
  • "If I could turn back time, you'd still be mine."
  • "Everything here reminds me of you."
  • "I say we're living on love. They say we're living in sin."
  • "And you won't save me anymore."
  • "I took some shots and fell from time to time."
  • "I wanna know the danger of a kiss."
  • "When passion's a prison, you can't break free."
  • "I wasn't there when you were down."
  • "No one can save me. The damage is done."
  • "Would you let me hold your hand?"
  • "I didn't mean to miss your birthday, baby."
  • "We've got each other and that's a lot."
  • "You promise me heaven, then put me through hell."
  • "Your clothes are still scattered all over our room."
  • "We've gotta hold on to what we've got."
  • "Your very first kiss was your first kiss goodbye."
I Like It When You Sleep, For You Are So Beautiful Yet So Unaware Of It sentence starters
  • "Love me, if that's what you wanna do."
  • "You've been reading 'bout yourself."
  • "You've got a beautiful face, but got nothing to say."
  • "You look famous, let's be friends."
  • "You're the only thing that's going on in my mind."
  • "You're meant to be helping me."
  • "I'm not giving it up again."
  • "Am I too old to be this stoned?"
  • "I wasn't told you'd be this cold."
  • "Finding a girl who is equally pretty won't be hard."
  • "Oh, I just had a change of heart."
  • "Your eyes were full of regret."
  • "You took a picture of your salad and put it on the internet."
  • "I've been so worried 'bout you lately."
  • "You're mad thinking you could ever save me."
  • "You used to have a face straight out of a magazine."
  • "I never found love in the city."
  • "I feel as though I was deceived."
  • "I just sat in self-pity and cried in the car."
  • "You were fit, but you're losing it."
  • "Look! He's having a breakdown."
  • "Don't fall in love with the moment."
  • "You know I'm in love with this city."
  • "Don't fall in love with the moment and think you're in love with the girl."
  • "You think you've got it figured out."
  • "Well, your face has got a hold on me."
  • "Are you feeling the same?"
  • "You just keep nodding at me looking vacant."
  • "I'm petrified of being alone."
  • "If I told you I need you, is that what you want?"
  • "If I'm lost now then how can I find myself?"
  • "I heard you found somebody else, and at first I thought it was a lie."
  • "I don't want your body, but I hate to think about you with somebody else."
  • "Our love has gone cold."
  • "You're intertwining your soul with somebody else."
  • "This ain't the last time that I'll see your face."
  • "We are just gonna keep doin' it."
  • "I know when you're around 'cause I know the sound of your heart."
  • "I can't believe I forgot your name."
  • "I thought that you were straight, now I'm wondering."
  • "You're so conceited."
  • "I don't regret it, but I'm glad that we're through."
  • "I'm such a cliche."
  • "You call me when you're bored and you're playing with yourself."
  • "I'm sure she'll be gone in a second."
  • "Let me tell you 'bout this girl."
  • "I can't wait for you, boy."
  • "What does all our love amount to?"
  • "I thought it was love but I guess I must be dreaming."
  • "You got excited and now you find that your girl won't even get you undressed or care about your beating chest."
  • "I'd love to go to Paris again."
  • "I'm done, babe, I'm out of the scene."
  • "I'd fill you in on the things you missed."
  • "I like to think you hear me sometimes."
  • "I hope I'm half as cool as you."
  • "I haven't been doing too well."
  • "The chemicals that make her laugh don't seem to be working anymore."
  • "She just wants to feel something and I don't think that's asking for too much."
  • "What if you die with all of the cameras?"

anonymous asked:

Hello, I really love your blog. I check on it every minute just to see if you posted anything. If you don't mind can you do a BTS reaction when they find out you are a boxer. Sorry really weird. Thank u ~

Of Course! I’m Glad to know I have a lot of fans ^^

BTS Reaction When They Find Out You’re A Boxer

“Wow… I guess I can’t call you princess anymore, huh?”

Originally posted by jinful

“You’re amazing as always baby” He would smile, “But how come you’re only telling me now?”

Originally posted by btsleepy

“No wonder you’re so fit! I was wondering where you go during the day… Does this mean you like play fights jagi? Can we have play fights??”

Originally posted by kim-taehyvngs

“Pfft. I can do so much better”
“Why don’t you prove it then?”
“You know what… Maybe you’re the best, love you lots!” He says before dashing away into the bedroom

Originally posted by syubie-hyung

“Ooh jagi! Teach Me please!”

Originally posted by bts-in-motion

“Trust me, I can take it!”
“Are you sure Hobi..?”
*You lightly punch him in the shoulder and he’s now rolling on the ground*
“Owww!! That hurt a lot y/n!”
“You said you could take I-”
He pulls you onto the ground with him, “I’m just kidding with you. You’re amazing”

Originally posted by jimiin

“I can do that too!” *Throws fake punches* “Come at me bro!”

Originally posted by moonjint

Hope you liked ^^
~Admin Luna

Dad’s test results came back, and it is a more aggressive version of his cancer. They’re discussing treatment options now, but Dad is ineligible for several due to his other conditions. There’s also the fact that each time we beat this cancer back there’s an increased chance that the treatments won’t work at all.

So I thought I’ll drown this lovely stress anxiety depression cocktail in some MEA since I see from my dash the patch is live, perfect timing! But because the internet here is so slow, it’s gonna take 2 hours to download and I can’t play the game while it does. Guess that means I have to clean the house instead.

anonymous asked:

Are you still taking prompts? If so, could you write some more of the Gallovich Queer Club thing you've been doing? Ian and Mickey with Mandy, Carl etc?

// yes I am totally taking prompts! and wow thanks for requesting something from that idea, not many people have read it :) let’s see where this goes… //

// NOTE: you don’t need to have read the previous fics I’ve written in this universe, they all work as oneshots :) //

Carl was holding Yevgeny as he waited for Ian to come back from his therapy session. ‘So does Ian just live here now?’ he asked Mickey.

He glanced across the sofa to Carl. ‘We haven’t really talked about it…but he wants to be here. And I like him being here,’ he said with a note of finality.

Carl nodded. ‘What are you going to tell Yev?’

Mickey couldn’t keep up with how quickly the kid’s mind jumped from question to question. ‘What are you talking about?’

‘As he gets older, he’s going to start asking questions. He’ll ask why Ian sleeps in your bedroom and why his mom and aunt are sleeping across the hall.’ He wasn’t speaking rudely, just curiously.

'Look it’s not as if I haven’t thought about that,’ Mickey began awkwardly. In truth Mickey had been thinking about it more and more since the day he first held his son. 'I don’t know, honestly, we’ll just figure things out as we go.’ He didn’t like talking about it.

'Does Ian want to be Yev’s dad?’

'I don’t know, ok? Jesus.’ Neither of them spoke for a moment. Mickey sighed. 'I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have snapped like that. Sorry.’

Carl shrugged. ‘It’s fine. Don’t worry about it.’ But he didn’t ask any more questions after that. Thankfully Mandy walked in from her bedroom, just wearing panties and a t-shirt.

'Hey, is Ian not home yet?’

Mickey shook his head. ‘Doesn’t finish therapy until four. Shouldn’t be back for, like, forty minutes.’

'He left the house at one-thirty,’ Mandy said. 'He told me his session was at two. Mick where is he?

'He said was going back to his house for a couple hours. Said he wanted to see Fiona and Liam…why did he tell you his session was at two? Shit,’ he said, immediately standing up and heading for the door. 'Carl? Mandy?’

'Let me get some clothes on,’ Mandy dashed back to her room whilst Mickey put Yev in the stroller. She emerged a minute later with Svetlana.

'She told me,’ Svetlana said. 'I want to help find Ian.’

She and Mickey looked at each other silently for a moment. Then he nodded. ‘Ok. Thanks.’ They left.


They’d so far discovered that Ian hadn’t shown up for his appointment, and Carl had called Debbie and learned that he’d not been to the Gallagher’s either. It had been almost an hour. Mickey was starting to sweat nervously.

'I should’ve gone with him. I should’ve fucking gone with him!’ he muttered to himself, kicking an old beer bottle on the sidewalk.

'Don’t blame yourself,’ Mandy told him firmly. 'Let’s try the alibi, yeah?’

'Yeah, I have a shift in thirty minutes anyway,’ Svetlana said.

Mickey glanced at her. ‘You can blow it off if you want.’

She stared at him, taken aback. ‘Thank you. But we need the money.’ They all kept walking in silence, save for Yev’s light snoring.

'What can I get you?’ Kev yelled in greeting as they entered. He grinned, having not seen Mickey in a while.

'Looking for Ian,’ Mickey said.

'He’s not been here. Hey, how’s he doing?’ Kev asked, speaking more quietly now that they were at the bar.

'He’s missing,’ Carl told him.

'Shit. You check the hospitals? Emergency rooms?’

They all looked at each other. ‘We didn’t think of that,’ Mandy admitted. Mickey looked like he was going to throw up.

'It might not be that bad,’ Kev said hurriedly. 'Why don’t you try Boystown?’

'Why would he go there?’ Svetlana wondered.

'Why would he want to go there?’ Mickey murmured to himself, staring at his shoes.

'Ok I’m going to shut up and pour you a shot,’ Kev did so, lining up glasses for Mandy and Svetlana too. He tossed Carl a juicebox.

'Mick, we should probably head down there. It’s plausible,’ Mandy said.

He nodded. ‘Thanks Kev,’ he said.

'Yeah, hope you find him.’

Svetlana leaned down to lightly kiss Yevgeny, and then paused before hugging Mickey. It took a second before he hugged her back. It was brief but affectionate.

'Shit, you going straight again Mickey?’ Kermit yelled, laughing.

'Not fucking likely,’ Mandy spat at him as she wrapped her arms around Svetlana’s waist and kissed her, rough and hard. Carl grinned.

'Well that’s definitely bought in more business,’ said Kev amidst the wolf whistles from surrounding drinkers.

'Bye,’ Svetlana said to Mandy, grinning and licking her lips.

They headed out, the men in the bar shouting for Mandy to stay too. She just stuck up her finger as they left.


'So…this is Boystown?’ Carl said, looking around in wonder. 'Why have I never been here before?’

'Because it’s a fucking shithole,’ Mickey told him.

'Let’s just find Ian. And Carl, do not wander off anywhere,’ Mandy said, 'Can you push the stroller?’ She passed it over to him.


They first went for the club where Ian worked. It was fairly dead inside, with it still being early.

'Hey!’ Mickey yelled at the manager, who was stood near the bar. 'You seen Ian? Ian Gallagher?’

'No. But if you see him, tell him he needs to come by and collect his tips from last weekend.’

Mickey frowned. ‘He’s not had a shift here for nearly a month. He said he called to take some time off. He’s - sick.’

'He was here on Saturday. Mixing drinks and dancing as usual. Stopped giving lap dances though. Shame. He was one of the best.’

Mickey didn’t say anything. He just turned around and walked out as fast as he could. He felt like his head was going to explode. Carl was first after him.

'Are you ok?’

'Why would he lie to me?’ Mickey said. He was furiously trying not to cry. 'When has he even had time to come down here? Why would he…is he sick of being around me?’

'The guy said he stopped giving lap dances. That’s proof that Ian isn’t sick of being around you.’

Mickey didn’t say anything for a second. ‘I’m pissed with him but mostly I’m fucking worried,’ he told Carl.

'Let’s take the L to the hospital?’ Carl suggested.

'Mick!’ Mandy’s voice came from behind them. 'This guy saw Ian.’

A fit man in black jeans walked beside her. ‘I just sold to him. About an hour ago,’ he said quietly, glancing around to make sure no-one else could hear.

'Fuck,’ Mickey sighed. 'So he’s lost and he’s high? What did he buy?’

'Uh, coke, E. And some weed.’

'Why would he do that?’ Mickey asked Mandy, his eyes wide and desperate.

'He didn’t say where he was going,’ the dealer added.

'Yeah you can fuck off. And don’t fucking sell to him again,’ Mickey said, and swiftly kneed him in the groin.


They were on their way to get the L, walking under the bridge, when he saw them.

'Hey!’ Ian’s voice. Mickey immediately spun around. Ian was slumped on the ground, leaning against part of the bridge. He ran over and crouched before him.

'Ian, what the fuck? What have you taken?’

Ian’s eyes were unfocused. ‘Ah…a little of this, little of that,’ he said unhelpfully.

Mickey took his hand. It was cold. Probably from sitting out here. ‘Ian…why?’

Ian shrugged, unable to meet his eyes. ‘I don’t know. I don’t know anymore,’ he whispered. ‘I just didn’t feel like therapy…it feels like I’m not making any progress…and I know that would upset you…so…I don’t know,’ he shrugged apologetically.

'No, Ian, not knowing where you are and finding out you’ve been snorting coke upsets me. Actually going to therapy, that’s progress. You have to talk to me if you’re worried, if you’re unhappy. Please…the fact you’ve been thinking these things in silence…Ian when I said I loved you I fucking meant it. I need you to tell me this stuff so I can help you. I am never going to be upset with you about something like that.’

'Sorry I couldn’t be honest,’ he said. He was crying now. 'I’m sorry Mick, I’m just so fucking scared because I can’t control anything in my head anymore. Some days I can’t see myself. And I’m terrified that one day you’re going to realise that you don’t know who you’re lying next to anymore. Because I sure as shit couldn’t tell you for certain. Every day it's…a mess. Every day, Mick,’ he sobbed, leaning into Mickey’s chest. Mickey held him.

'There is no way that I wouldn’t recognise the only man I’ve ever loved. The only man who taught me how to be free. And now I guess it’s my turn to help get you free. Mess? I know mess. Nothing will stop me from loving you. Nothing. We can and will get through anything. But you’ve gotta meet me halfway, where you can. Don’t just leave me ignorant back home while you’re out using this shit to cope. Please. Please, Ian.’

'Yeah, I’ll try to talk to you. I promise,’ Ian breathed Mickey in for a moment before reaching into his pockets. 'Can you take these? I - I don’t want to have them on me anymore. Just in case,’ he told him.

'Of course,’ Mickey said, pocketing it. 'Thank you.’

'I do love you too…I love you and that’s why I hate myself for all of this even more.’

'Don’t, Ian. Don’t hate yourself. Just don’t. You’re not worthy of hate. Trust me,’ he told him sincerely. Ian just looked at him and cried. And neither boy could really tell whether they were good tears or bad tears.

'Mickey please can we just go home?’

'Sure, yeah…your house isn’t far,’ he said, helping Ian stand.

'No,’ Ian gently tugged at his shirt. 'Our house. Our home.’

Mickey smiled in spite of everything and kissed him. ‘That’s home?’

'It’s where you are.’

And then Mickey was crying too.

'Well that answers my question,’ said Carl. They all looked at him, confused - but Mickey nodded and smiled at him slightly.

// the end. hope this was ok…please keep prompting me for fic-a-day-for-may! //

magiclitchii  asked:

Kaisoo is so real, that even I myself don't exist irl compared to them. Mbyyyye!!


So close, Kyungsoo, stop.

Their happy smiles, that’s what I live for~ 

Suho trying to be a thirdwheel for Kaisoo, but failing, I love it.

Yeah, because Jongin looks at eveyone at the same way he looks at Kyungsoo. No bitch, no.

Kyungsoo taking Jongin’s jacket off. How to unsee? Oh, yeah, I CAN’T!

Jongin helping Kyungsoo pull his pants up (I love the way Jongin used to look at Kyungsoo everytime they did this Overdose choreography)


Kyungsoo fixing Jongin’s collar~ 

Now I’m wondering… Is this collar fixing a kind of mate preparation? Someone clarify this to me!

Jongin as a shy boy… Hm…

Is just me that thinks that this moment is a little… solemn? Maybe is the light effects.

Look how close Kaisoo is compared to Chanyeol the oficial Kaisoo’s thirdwheel lOl.

If Kaisoo isn’t real, I don’t know the difference between reality and fantasy anymore.

  • Kurt: That was Rachel. She was just confirming us for her opening night.
  • Blaine: What did you tell her?
  • Kurt: I said yeah, if we haven't killed each other in combat class by then, count us in. What happened in there? You were really coming at me, as if you had something to prove. What, I'm not sure...
  • Blaine: That I'm as strong as you are.
  • Kurt: Okay, but it's not like it's a contest.
  • Blaine: Isn't it, on some level? Because for the first time in my life, I really feel like I'm losing. I've felt that way ever since I got to New York. I feel like we're in this race together, and you are just so much farther than I am. And it just feels like the whole balance has shifted.
  • Kurt: What balance?
  • Blaine: I guess it started with when we first met and you came to Dalton to get away from Karofsky and I wanted to help you through that.
  • Kurt: And you did.
  • Blaine: And I loved the way that felt. I loved it. I loved being able to protect you, but now I look at your life and it's completely different. You're a star at school, you have all these cool new friends, you started a band. I just, I feel like you don't need me anymore, to protect or anything. I mean, you asked me to move out, for god's sake.
  • Kurt: We made that decision together. So so, is that what all this stuff is about, what's going on? Are you trying to get me to eat more?
  • Blaine: I don't like the way I feel about myself anymore, Kurt, okay? And you have like this amazing new body. Do you want to know why we haven't been intimate? It's because I feel insecure around you. I feel insecure around my own fiance and FratBoyPhysicals.com isn't going to judge me.
  • Kurt: And neither will I, ever. But I'm not going to apologize for not being some delicate flower that needs his boyfriend that needs his boyfriend to protect him. And maybe you're right, maybe it is a contest. Maybe that's the way it has to be with two guys, but I'd much rather be running this race with you rather than against you.
  • Blaine: Me too, I just -
  • Kurt: As EQUALS.
  • Blaine: I know, I know. I know that. I'm sorry, I just - I'm just so scared that you're going to keep changing and keep getting stronger and one day you're going to wake up and you're going to realize "I don't love him anymore."
  • Kurt: Never, I'm always going to love you. And I don't want you to be insecure or ashamed around me. Next time you're going through something like this you have to be honest with me.
  • Blaine: Okay, okay.

anonymous asked:

Annabeth: there was a time I thought... well, I thought....You were like a brother to me, Luke. I didn't love you Me: BULL FUCKING SHIT YOU DID YOU LIAR *later* Annabeth: I've had a crush on Percy since I was 12 Me: I guess Luke never existed I might as well burn the entire PJO series now since canon isn't canon anymore (Disclaimer: I don't ship whatever the hell people call Luke x Annabeth that ship is gross but you can't ignore canon)

I really don’t think Annabeth loved Luke romantically though, like ever, and I think she’s wise enough to recognise that. Canonically there are signs of her having a crush on Percy from the very first book, so I agree with that statement, too.

I’m not saying she didn’t have a crush on Luke, because she certainly did. But there’s a big difference between a twelve year old’s crush and romantic love. There’s a very different dynamic there, and even though at the time she might have thought that what she felt for Luke was deep enough to be classified as love, when her sixteen year old self looked back on it she saw it for what it was - a little girl infatuated with an older boy who made her feel special for a short amount of time. Luke had a huge influence on Annabeth, and completely fucked up her psyche for pretty much the entire PJO series, but that doesn’t mean she was in love with him.

The Wedding Date- Chapter 5
A/N: I probably won’t update tomorrow, but if I do I will only have time for at least one chapter. That’s kinda why I updated so much today. Just a little heads up, anyways, as usual I apologize for any mistakes, and the original is here

Camila woke up and looked across the bed. Lauren was still sleeping. She looked peaceful and serene. Her almost pitch-black hair was draped across her face and her make-up was smudged under her eyes. Camila felt the urge to trace her hand over Lauren’s face but that would probably wake up the other girl, so she just decided to go take a shower.

After her shower, Lauren was still sleeping. Camila went into the living room and took her phone with her. She remembered that Normani had asked her to call her. Normani went to school with Lauren, so she probably knew way more than Camila about Lauren.

Normani and her met via mutual friends. Normani went to school with Chris and Gabi, and Camila met them at a college bar. They were a big group of friends who hung out a couple of times a week. Normani, Chris, Gabi, Kasey, Dylan, Dinah, Emily, James, Austin and her. Lately Camila hadn’t managed to meet them, but after they were back from Hawaii, she would get back into her social life.

The whole group was supposed to be here too for the two weeks, but Kasey’s parents wanted some private family time. Camila couldn’t remember when they were arriving, but it was probably fast. She tiptoed out off the room, so that she wouldn’t wake Lauren and started dialing Normani’s number as she opened the window and stepped into the morning sun. It was nine AM, so Normani would be up already.

‘Hello with Normani Kordei.’

Camila smiled. Normani would always do that. Even though she could see who was calling her, she still felt the need to introduce her over the phone.

'Hi, Normani It’s Camila.’

'Camila? Oh, you’re finally calling. I was so curious to hear about the whole situation there.’

'Yeah, I know. I wanted to call, but I was so busy.’

Well that wasn’t really true, but Normani didn’t need to know that she hadn’t thought about calling her. That would just hurt her feelings.

'Oh okay, I get it.’

'When are you guys coming anyway?’

'The day after tomorrow. No offense Camila, but I’m not really looking forward to it. Five hours next to that annoying Gabi.’

Normani worked at the local new station and was a reporter. She worked her butt off, but it worked. In just a few years she had managed to reach a certain level in her career. She wrote some articles for the news and last month was her first TV-debut. Normani looked like the perfect brunette, religious American girl. She was a brunette, skinny girl with dark skin. The girl was just dead on gorgeous and nobody could deny that. Her looks certainly helped her reaching her career, but mostly because people didn’t expect much from her. After her first day, some jerks told her that she wouldn’t make it just with her pretty face, but Norman iwas one of the smartest people Camila had ever met. She would sometimes use words in her articles that Camila even never heard about.

Gabi on the other hand was a singer in the local bar. She wanted to be on Broadway and she had a part. She was a maid in some kind of show that Camila now couldn’t remember. She had two lines but choked on opening night. After that, she was so humiliated that she moved back to Chicago and left New York forever. When she moved, she fell into a small depression. It wasn’t that she needed to be hospitalized but she just decided not to talk or leave her house. After about a month she seemed to be over it, but that wasn’t the case.

Whenever she was drunk, she would go on hour-long rants about how she could have been the biggest musical star that the world has ever seen, but when she wasn’t drunk, she didn’t say a word about that. Camila figured that it just hurt too much to talk about all her lost dreams.

Chris was a designer, first in New York and he was then offered a job at Vogue in their Chicago department. That was probably the reason why the both of them, who were best friends, both moved to Chicago. Chris too had dreams to become a performer in the musical arts, but he never made it. Some agent a couple of years ago told him that his face was way too gay to ever get a decent part. Chris said he didn’t care what people thought about him, but she knew that he was pretty offended. After that, he didn’t audition that much anymore, mostly because his designer job was really taking off. He worked at and then got offered the job in Chicago. Camila herself wasn’t a big fan of Chris’ clothes, but people really seemed to like it. It was a little over the top for her.

'No, I get it. I wouldn’t like sitting next to Gabi for an hour, let alone five hours.’

'I know. But how is it there?’

'Great, the weather is awesome and the food is really good.’

'Mila, you know I wasn’t asking about the weather or the food. How is the whole Lauren and Austin situation?’

Camila swallowed when she remembered the fact that Austin cheated.

'He cheated.’

'What?’ Normani’s voice rose.

'He cheated with some girl, and now that girl is pregnant.’

'Oh my god. That bastard. I’m coming over right now to kick his ass. What gives him the right to cheat on you? Freaking asshole. Oh man, he’s so lucky I’m not there right now. Nobody messes with Camila Cabello like that. You did get mad at him, right?’

It felt good that Normani was so mad. It felt like someone was picking her side, even though she technically didn’t do anything wrong.

'Yeah, the first night, he tried to talk to me, but I flipped out on him.’

'What did you do?’

'I screamed that he could never apologize for leaving me like that. He begged me for a second chance, and I get that just set me off.’

'Yeah, he really doesn’t deserve a second chance, you know?’

'I know. I told him that, and then didn’t give him a chance to finish. I left and I heard him crying. The next evening he begged me to meet him, so I did.’

'Why do you still meet him after what he has done?’

'I needed to know why he did that. Why he left me that awfully.’

Camila didn’t see Normani but this would probably be the moment that she nodded.

'I went over him, and he told me. He cheated when he was at some business trip in New York. The girl that he cheated with is now pregnant. Austin didn’t dare to tell me, so he chose the easy way out and ended everything with a text.’

'Wow, he sure is an ass. Good thing that you two broke up after all. You deserve better.’

Camila swallowed. Did she really deserve better? Before that trip, Austin and her were perfect. He was her rock. She could tell everything to him, and now it was all gone. And some part of her still wanted it back, so bad.

'Do you still want him back?’ Normani asked, as Camila didn’t say anything.

'I don’t know. I guess some part of me wants to hold on to what we had. It was just so certain and I still love him. That just doesn’t go away in a couple of months.’

'Camila, it’s your decision, but I just think you need to find someone else. He doesn’t deserve you anymore. And what if you two get back together? What about the girl and the baby? Is Austin going to help the girl out? Or is he just going to run away from it like he did with you?’ Camila knew that Normani didn’t say that to hurt her, but it sting.

'I don’t know, Mani.’

'I’m just saying that that girl exist out there, and she will always remind you of what Austin did? Do you really want to settle for that? A husband who cheated on you and has a baby somewhere in the world? Maybe he will even want to take care of him/her. And then you end up with a husband who cheated on you and a baby that isn’t even yours.’

Camila’s stomach dropped. Normani was right. Her and Austin would never be able to get through this. That baby will always live somewhere.

'So how’s the whole deal with Lauren?’ Normani seemed to sense through the phone that she was getting uncomfortable.

'Weird. I mean, the whole situation is just kind of weird I guess.’

'How weird?’

'It’s just strange to act like a couple with someone you just recently met.’

'But how do you guys act around each other?’

'She kissed me in front of Austin twice.’

'What? Oh my God, perfect. That teaches the son of a bitch. Sorry. Go on.’

'She’s just really good at all of this stuff, and I’m, well not. She knows how to act around my family and apparently she’s been telling people the story of how we met, and I don’t even know that story.’

Normani laughed.

'She has done this quite a couple of times, so I guess it’s normal that she’s pretty good at this stuff.’

'Yeah I know. Is she always so flirty?’

'What do you mean?’

'She’s just a really flirty person. She’s always teasing me and flirting and I guess I’m just wondering if she does that to all of them?’

'I don’t know, Camila. I guess she only does that to hot girls.’

'She’s gay right?’

'Yeah. She struggled a lot with that during high school, you know?’

'Really? She seems so confident.’

'Well, she really wasn’t back in the day. If you think she can be rude now, she was way worse back then. She just struggled I guess. But back then, I didn’t understand why she was so mean and rude all the time.’

'Do you understand now?’

'I guess. Her parents didn’t accept her sexuality. They were really religious and I heard her mom kicked her out.’

'What? They just kicked her out?’

'Apparently. I never heard the story from Lauren herself so I don’t really know, but she did leave her house and moved into her cousin’s house for a couple of weeks. After graduation she moved to Chicago.’

'That’s so sad.’

'I know. And she had some problems too with her back then girlfriend. They always seemed inseparable, and one day some people saw them fighting. Her girlfriend, Jenna, then left and Lauren cried. She cried in front of people. After that she was never the same. She had lost her girlfriend and her whole family.’

'I can’t even imagine how that would feel.’

'I know. When she moved, I didn’t hear from her in four years. And then one day, I saw her in a coffee house and we started chatting.’

'Oh wow. She has gone through so much.’

'Yeah. I don’t know the whole story, maybe you should ask her yourself.’

'I don’t know. I don’t really know that much about her. She’s a mystery.’

'Some girls are closed off, to make sure nobody gets close enough to hurt them.’

Normani really was the smartest girl that Camila ever knew.

'Mila, I need to go. See you in two days.’

'Yeah, bye.’

Normani hung up and Camila was left with a queasy feel. Lauren’s story was heavy and Camila fell mostly sorry for her. Nobody deserves to be thrown out of his or her house. Camila desperately wanted to hear Lauren’s side of the whole story, but Lauren needed to tell the story on her own terms. She wouldn’t pressure Lauren into telling her history.


She turned around and saw Lauren.


'What are you doing?’

'I was calling Normani She wanted a heads-up. They’re arriving the day after tomorrow.’

'Wait, what? Normani is coming here?’

'Yeah, didn’t I tell you?’

Lauren looked shocked. Did Camila really not tell her that all of her friends were coming?

'No, what the hell are you talking about, Camz?’

The brunette was happy that the nickname of last night had stuck.

'Yeah. A lot of my and Kasey’s friends are coming for the wedding. Normani Gabi, Chris, Emily, Dinah and James.’

'Wait, what? Do you mean James Carver?’

'Yeah. Do you know him?’

'Yes. I went to school with that guy. He was basically my best friend.’ Camila just laughed.

The fact that Normani and James went to the same school had slipped Camila’s mind. She did however understand that James and Lauren were best friends. They seemed to share some characteristics. James was basically a man-whore. He felt the need to talk to anyone who had boobs, including high school students, which was quite creepy. At home, he worked as a bartender in some sleazy bar.

They always went there to wait until James was finished with his shift, and he would always slip them free drinks. His big plan was to open up a pool cleaning business, but there weren’t enough pools to keep him in business. So he ended up bartending, which he loves. He gets paid to serve pretty ladies drinks, so you don’t hear him complain very often.

'Who are the rest of your friends that are coming?’

Camila thought. 'Normani but you already know her.’

Lauren nodded.

'Then James, who is now a bartender by the way.’

Lauren burst out in laughter.

'Oh man. That’s so James. You can practically see him handing free drinks to every pretty girl he sees, to then get yelled at by his boss because he’s not supposed to do that.’

Camila laughed. 'Yeah, he does that like every night.’

'James Carver. I haven’t seen him since high school.’

'That’s a long time.’

'I know. I meant to keep contact but you know how it is, out of eye, out of heart.’

Lauren was looking awkward to her shoes, like she was ashamed of something.

'And then we have Gabi and Chris.’

'Normani told me about them once. She choked on Broadway and he’s a designer, right?’

'Yes, but you better not tell Gabi that you know that she choke on Broadway. She doesn’t like to be reminded. And don’t let Chris give you an outfit to wear. You would just end up wearing feathers and studs.’

'Noted.’ Lauren laughed.

'And then Dinah, my best friend since high school, she’s a lawyer.’

'Cool. And those are the only ones, right?’

'No, then you also have Emily. She works with Gabi in a local singing bar.’

'Okay, so Emily, James, Dinah, Chris, Gabi and Normani right?’


Suddenly Lauren stepped closer and Camila was surprised. They were now in kissing distance and she wondered what had made Lauren step in. Suddenly she raised her arm and she reached out for Camila’s neck. Right, the hickey. Her finger grazed over the love mark and Camila’s breath hitched. She took her bottom lip between her lips as Lauren kept grazing over the hickey.

'I got you good.’

Lauren whispered and her breath reverbed between both their lips. Lauren’s eyes finally met Camila’s brown ones. Lauren’s eyes were a darker shade of green than normal, and Camila fell even deeper than normal into them. Lauren’s eyes suddenly flickered to her lips and so did Camila’s. Camila swallowed, because she could feel that Lauren could lean in any time, and she desperately hoped that she would. Both of their eyes met each other again, but nobody made the first move. Lauren’s eyes flickered one more time to Camila’s lips and Camila thought she was about to close the distance, until they heard Kasey calling them.

'Ew, get a room.’

Lauren backed away faster than light, and her face flushed, and so did Camila’s face.

'Perhaps we should get some breakfast.’

Camila finally spoke.

The both of them went to catch some breakfast. They came across Camila’s dad and talked some time with him about the wedding. After that they met with Sinu, who was whining that all of the food had already been eaten and she didn’t know who did it. Lauren’s face went pale. She had 'stolen’ all the food yesterday evening. She quickly offered to go to the store.

'That’s nice, Lauren, but I’m sure you two have better things to do.’

'No, I’ll help Sinu. It would be my pleasure. I’m sure we’ll amuse ourselves shopping.’

Lauren gave Camila a quick poke in her stomach and Camila gasped. She wasn’t expecting that.

'Yeah mom, no problem, we’ll do it.’

'Both of you are like send-from-God.’

Lauren laughed.

'I can assure you that I’m born on earth, Sinu.’

After that they made some small talk and then left. They suddenly saw Austin, he was calling with his phone. He turned around slowly so he could almost see them.

Suddenly Lauren stopped in her tracks and spin Camila around. Once again they were in kissing distance, but this time, Lauren didn’t hesitate and leaned in immediately.

Her lips met with Lauren’s plumb ones. Camila was too surprised to move, but suddenly fell Lauren’s lips move against her own, and she started kissing back. Camila’s eyes fluttered close. One of Lauren’s hands was tracing on her back as the other tangled into brown hair.

What was happening? The kiss now was more intense than ever before and Camila didn’t know how to feel. Lauren was slowly sucking on Camila’s bottom lip and Camila whimpered against her lips. Lauren heard that and she smiled a little into the kiss. Lauren suddenly turned her head, deciding to deepen the kiss. Camila felt a tongue against her bottom lip and opened up immediately. Her mind was frozen and all she could feel was Lauren. All of her senses were guided at Lauren. All she could smell was Lauren. All she could taste was Lauren and in her mind she saw Lauren’s deep, beautiful eyes. Everything was Lauren as their tongues struggled for dominance. Lauren won, but Camila didn’t even care.

Her hands were roaming in her hair and slowly stroking her neck. Lauren’s smelled like sweet chocolate and it was almost intoxicating. Lauren’s hand was now stroking Camila’s jawline as she deepens the kiss even more. Their tongues still roaming around, but after a couple of seconds more, they had to let go because they needed air. Camila wanted to keep her eyes close for just a second more, to process what had just happened, but she felt Lauren’s gaze on her closed eyelids. Her eyes fluttered open again and she gasped at Lauren’s intense eyes on her.

She suddenly stepped slightly away.

'Looks like he saw us.’ Lauren said as she slightly tilted her head towards Austin. He was staring at the ground but his jaw was clenched.


Camila said. The fact that Lauren said that just reminded her that this was all a game. She was stupid to believe that Lauren had any other motive than making Austin jealous. She probably flirted with anyone and Camila was being stupid to think that she was special in some way.

After that, they fell into silence as they walked towards the car, with a grocery list and money from Sinu.

'Should I drive?’ Lauren asked.

'No, it’s okay. I’ll do it.’ Camila stated. It was her mom’s jeep, and it wasn’t that she didn’t trust Lauren; it was still her mother’s car.

It was a forty-minute drive and they were both still silent. They made some small talk and then finally arrived at the supermarket.

'I know this awesome game. Can we please play it, Lauren?’ Camila asked.

Lauren didn’t seem too eager to play. 'What is it?’

'All right, so we need to get all of these groceries. We split the grocery list in two, split the money in two. We then race to see who’s the first to get all of their groceries, pay them, and put them in the car.’

Lauren still looked a little skeptical.

'And what do I get when I win?’

'If I win, you’ll give me a massage. And if you win, I’ll give you a massage.’

Camila’s shoulders had been sore from sleeping on the bed. It wasn’t a great bed, so her shoulders and back were aching. She could really use a massage.

'Fine. But you do know that I’m super competitive and you’ll probably be giving me a massage right?’

'We’ll see about that.’

They split the grocery list and finally Camila handed Lauren a fifty-dollar bill.

'All right. Let’s do this.’

Camila stopped herself from squealing because she was sure that Lauren would have laughed at her if she did.

'Three, two, one.’

Camila, who was way to eager to win this game, started running towards the supermarket. Lauren on the other hand, didn’t seem so eager. She grunted loud, but then realized that she also really wanted to win, even if it meant humiliating herself in front of a lot of random people. Camila grabbed a shopping cart and started pushing it. Suddenly she saw Lauren come past her, as she was standing on the edge of the shopping cart. That way Lauren didn’t need to run, and she could just let the shopping cart roll her.

Damnit. Camila thought to herself as she did the same.

'Get ready to massage me, Camzi’

Lauren yelled at her and she winked. Whatever Camila did, she couldn’t let Lauren win this. She knew that if the brunette won this, she would never hear the end of it. It would hunt her down to her final day. So Camila started running even faster as she grabbed item after item.

She didn’t see Lauren for a while, and now Camila only needed one more thing from her list. A box of Oreos, which seems like an easy job, but seriously, at that moment she realized how many brands of cookies there were. Cookies with chocolate, cookies without chocolate, cookies with raisins, diet cookies, etc. But the worst part was that they weren’t even organized. The cookies were everywhere and Camila was lost. In the corner of her eye she suddenly saw Lauren, who seemed to have all of her items and was running towards the cash registers.

Suddenly Camila saw the blue box right above some dinosaur cookies. She grabbed the box and started running towards the cash registers. Lauren was already waiting in line for a while now, as there was only one lady in front of her. Camila quickly chose a line and was waiting impatiently. At this rate, she sure would lose. Suddenly she heard a woman’s voice going through the speakers.

'We will now open the cash register number five.’

Camila looked around and started running towards the just opened number five. She quickly started loading her stuff onto the roller. Lauren however was still waiting on the old lady, who was trying to pay.

'That’ll be $45.67 please.’

Camila pushed the fifty-dollar bill inside the open hand of the cashier and her eyes shifted to Lauren. The old lady was now slowly wheeling her shopping cart away as Lauren was impatiently giving her a death glare. Camila pushed her shopping cart out of the store and started racing towards the car.

She loaded the items into the trunk as she heard Lauren after her. Camila threw in the Oreos, the final item, just when Lauren arrived at the car. Camila immediately started cheering loud and threw her hands in the air. Lauren on the other hand was cursing words that made some children look up.

'I won!’

'You only won because that old lady in front of me had decided to pay with all pennies. I swear, I wanted to pay for her, just to end the pain.’

Camila laughed. Lauren was one of those people who would never admit their defeat.

'That’s one massage for me.’ Camila poked Lauren in her stomach.

Lauren gasped, but then laughed back.

'Fine. I’ll give it to you tonight, okay?’


The rest of the day, they spend sitting on the beach, talking with Dylan, Kasey, Ally and troy, Austin was nowhere to be seen. They talked about the wedding and their friends and before they knew it, it was dinnertime. Sinu told them that Austin had already eaten dinner earlier, so they just ate with the six of them. They shared a couple bottles of wine, and once again Camila was buzzed. She was talking with Troy about dancing, when suddenly she fell a hot breath on her ear. She inhaled Lauren’s scent.

'Are you ready for your massage?’

Lauren whispered in the brunette’s ear, and her breath hitched. She was doing it again. Teasing and flirting with her in public, knowing that she would blush. And she did indeed. She nodded slightly.

'Hey, Camila, is that a hickey on your neck?’

Kasey suddenly asked. Oh, crap. Camila had totally forgotten about that hickey. Camila blushed even more and was giving her plate a death glare. Lauren simply shrugged.

'Yes, that’s a hickey. Can you blame me though? If this hot girl was your girlfriend, I’m sure you wouldn’t keep your hands to yourself either. I’m not ashamed to admit it.’

Camila’s mouth fell open, and so did the mouths of the rest of the group. Did Lauren just brag about their non-existing sex-life? Yes, she did. Lauren leaned over and placed a small kiss on Camila’s cheek.

'Can we now go to sleep, Camz That bath you promised me is waiting for us?’

Tory’s mouth fell even more open and Ally’s eyes went wide. Camila couldn’t decline now before it became suspicious, but she know that if they left now, the whole group would 'know’ that they were going to have sex. Camila just decided to play the game along and she beamed at Lauren.

'Let’s go, honey.’

She placed a quick peck on Lauren’s lips.

'See you tomorrow guys.’

The whole group was still flabbergasted at what just happened but Kasey managed to get a bye out. Camila grabbed Lauren’s hand and she pulled her along to their room.

'So do you want your massage right now?’ Lauren asked as they were back in their room.

Camila suddenly fell nervous. Maybe she didn’t think this all the way through.

'Yeah, sure.’

'Okay, lay on the bed and get in your bra.’

Camila gasped. In her bra?

'What do you mean?’

'Camz, you won, I’m going to do this the right way. I’m going to get some lotion. Look, don’t worry, I’m not a perv. I won’t look at your boobs or anything, I promise. Just lay on your stomach and that way I can’t even see them. Camila seriously didn’t think this through. Lauren’s hands on her bare back seemed a little too intimate than she first intended, but then she fell her sore shoulders and how bad she really wanted the massage.

'I’m going to get some lotion. Just relax and lay down, Camila.’

Lauren motioned her head to the bed and then she left the bedroom. Camila undressed herself until her bra and lay on the bed. Lauren reentered the room and was holding indeed a bottle of body lotion.

'Just relax.’

She sat next to Camila and grabbed the bottle.

'This is going to be a little cold.’

Camila was nervous, as she lay there, half-naked. Suddenly she felt the cold liquid on her upper back. But she didn’t have a long time to get used to the cold, when Lauren’s warm, soft hands replaced the cold. She started slowly rubbing the lotion all over her upper back and her shoulders. She was gently, but at the same time, she pushed hard enough to get all of the tension out of her muscles. Lauren’s hands felt so good and she kept massaging the brunette for some more minutes.

The tension finally left Camila’s shoulders, and before she could stop herself she moaned. It was a soft, but hearable moan, and since there wasn’t any noise other than their breathing, Lauren had heard it. Camila immediately flushed. She had just moaned. Camila was praying that Lauren didn’t hear it, and that she wouldn’t make a remark about it, but of course, that was just false hope.

'I didn’t even know I was THAT good.’

She said and the emphasized the that part of the sentence. Suddenly Lauren’s hands roamed lower, first slowly grazing over Camila’s red bra, and then grazing over her waistline and ending on her tailbone. She kept massaging her under back, and that just seemed way more intimate than before.

Lauren’s hands kept inching closer to her ass and she would touch it for a mere second, probably pretending that it was an accident, but Camila knew better. Camila felt herself getting turned on, with every touch of Lauren’s hands on her back, certainly when she was stroking her waistline. It would normally tickle, but there was a noticeable tension in the room, so Camila didn’t laugh. Camila almost moaned again, but stopped herself right in time. But she was now getting so turned on, that it was almost embarrassing. Camila decided to stop this before things got out of hand even more.

'Thank you Lauren.’ She said firmly, indicating that the brunette should stop.

'You’re welcome.’

Lauren said, but Camila noticed an undertone of disappointment. Was she disappointed? Lauren suddenly left for the bathroom and left Camila behind, confused. She changed again into her pajamas and slipped into the bed. Lauren slipped into the bed a couple of minutes later on.

'Goodnight Camz’

'Goodnight Laur.’

I understand if you don’t want to be with me anymore.
Of course there will be pain, but better now than later, right?

And my dear, even though hurting me was never your intention
I knew it was bound to happen one day.

—  I guess I saw it coming, but I didn’t want to believe it.

Naley Appreciation Week:

Day 6 - Most Underrated Moment

4x05You know my father said that today would be the greatest day of my life. And your right, dad, it is, but it’s not because of basketball. You see today I learned that my wife, Haley, is pregnant. And while it’s an absolute honor to be recruited by Duke University, I guess what I have to say to you today is this; where I play basketball, if I play basketball is no longer a decision for me to make alone. It’s a decision I’ll make with my wife and my family’s best interest in mind. And when I do, I will let you all know. Now my wife couldn’t be here today so I just wanted to say one thing to her. Haley, no matter what happens we’ll face it together and I promise you I’ve never been happier.  Everything’s going to be ok and I love you.”

“You know I thought it was a miracle that I survived that accident and I guess I never really felt worthy of it. But now I know that that miracle wasn’t for me, it was for us. All three of us..”

hey guys!! so i think i’m going to leave tumblr. i’ve been on hiatus for the last few weeks and i realized that i’m actually better without using tumblr and i don’t need it anymore. it used to ge a good place for me, but now it just isn’t and i don’t feel the same way about it anymore. however i won’t delete because i don’t know if i won’t ever be back but yeah if you want to unfollow me, feel free to do so. i love you and thank you for everything you guys have done for me :)

anonymous asked:

So there's this guy that I've liked for years now and this year is the first year we've had a class together and at first he was like I guess maybe interested in me and he would flirt with me. But lately he's been acting like the complete opposite and I've been trying to talk to him but I don't know I just feel like maybe he's just not interested anymore. And I kinda just don't know whether I should just move on or not...

if you are making an effort and he isn’t, then he’s not worth your love! Relationships are two sided.