i guess i'll have to deal

I guess they never learned to love me until I was gone. But then maybe they didn’t love me, maybe they loved my absence. Maybe they loved how they had something– someone, to love without having to deal with the responsibilities and pain that comes with it.
—  b.d. // excerpt from a book i’ll never write #46

anonymous asked:

how do you feel about graduating? i'm going to be graduating college in june and i feel so nervous. it's so weird that i won't be seen as a student anymore and i'll have to move out and i'll actually have to behave like an adult. how are you dealing?

I’m not really “dealing”, to be honest…I don’t feel like something has drastically changed.. I guess I have the sense of completeness, but no negative emotions towards graduation. Maybe something a bit bittersweet, but overall I can’t say I share your point on this.

For me I got to keep the most important parts, and it’s probably why it doesn’t feel like a big deal. I have someone very important with me already; I have my classmates’ contacts so if I want to I can still meet them. I have a job, so I guess lacking it can be a major stress point with graduating? And as for last few points of yours….I think people who you are important to, never really gave that much of a thought on seeing you as a student because you are much much more than that. Behaving like an adult is only necessary in the right places, I guess, with people who are close to you you can still act the way you acted and goof around.

Don’t be nervous before it comes, because it’s going to be great! Try to view it as an open door to something a bit bigger, but still amazing! Changes aren’t always for the worst;) 

I wanted to make a follow forever for my 200 followers, but I was to scared I might forget someone, so here we have this instead. I love every single one of you so much and I love that you’ve stayed with me. This drawing is such a small and ugly representation of how happy I am with this, but I guess you’ll just have to deal with it.

anonymous asked:

Pls consider: Coran and Lance having another bonding moment, and Coran starts talking about how it feels for your family to be gone and Lance goes like, "'Kay, it's official, you're my uncle now. I have like ten thousand others, don't worry, you're in good company, you've joined a huge family." And while Coran's still reeling from that, Lance realizes, "Wait, that makes Allura my cousin, I can't mack on my cousin!! :(((( Oh well, I'll just hafta deal, I GUESS." Finally Coran finds his (cont.)

(Cont.) voice, and is like, “Er, you realize that Princess Allura and I are not actually related? I’m simply her steward and-” Lance cuts him off. “Look, my dude, my uncle, my space uncle, I don’t care if you aren’t blood-related or not, she’s your kid.” And then Coran realizes that Lance is right, and he cries, probably.

Coran cries?? I’M CRYING, ANON.

Do you know… How goddamn weak I am for the ‘found family’ trope? Like hooo my gosh. ;-;

I just want an episode where. It finally hits the Paladins that Altea is gone? Like, objectively they know that Allura and Coran lost their entire planet, but it hasn’t sunk in yet. For the Paladins, Altea has always been gone. It was lost 10,000 years ago. But for Allura and Coran, it’s so much more recent?? Alfor knocked them out, and they woke up to find their everything gone. That’s so heartbreaking.

Lance would realize first, and he would immediately tell Hunk. Pidge would be there, obv, and the three would go and find Allura and Coran on the top deck and just. Hug them. Shiro passes by and is like ?? but then Lance blubbers out “We’re Coran and Allura’s family now” and Shiro is like ‘ENTER THE DAD’ and joins in on the hug. Hunk wraps his arms around everyone and picks them up. He is fuelled by familial love and 100000x stronger.

After everyone finishes lowkey crying on each other, Shiro just goes “Wait, guys… Keith is an orphan” and Hunk just starts BAWLING and Coran sprints out of the room with everyone on his heels. They gotta find Keith.

Keith is in the training room and suitably alarmed when all his friends suddenly pour into the room, all teary-eyed and in varying levels of emotional distress.

The group hug is suffocating but… Nice.

Toontown’s Miracle

Status: Incomplete
Chapters: 1/?
Words: 1343
Genres: Slice of Life, Comedy
Summary: When life gives you Mura, you’re going to have to just deal with her and all of the friends she brings along. There’s always something to learn when she’s around like keeping your doors locked at night and chewing with your mouth closed. Truly, she is Toontown’s Mura-cle, and that pun is proof.

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anonymous asked:

Saitama really liking this cake from a local Z City bakery but its a bit pricey so he only gets some when he has extra money or they have a special deal for it. So Genos works hard studying the cake when they walk by the bakery to find out the ingredients. Genos then gets the ingredients when their on sale and surprises Saitama when he comes back from patrol with a homemade version of his favorite treat and a his favorite tea to go with it. So they spend the afternoon having tea and cake.

a hOMEMADE PASTRY FOR HIS GOOD SENSEI /////////

THEM SHARING IT WITH TEA AND SAITAMA GOING ON ABOUT HOW GENOS MANAGED TO MAKE IT JUST LIKE IT IS AT THE BAKERY (Probably better????????? \ \ \)

And sweet tooth Genos headcanon to me means that he probably only needed to taste 1 slice (piece by piece) and he was able to figure out how it was made, even without scanning it or something. It did take him a couple tries but nowhere NEAR how many it should have normally~ / / /

Saitama with like….with just the biggest grin on his face while he bites into his slice of cake and Genos couldn’t be more proud ;w; /////////

Anon this is literally sugary sweet I’ll get a cavity please I’m sCREAMING-////////

“I would like to make a request to care for that patient.”

“Is this a personal matter?” 

“A small one; I doubt he remembers me.” Itachi put on his best winning smile but it was difficult with Kisame in the ICU. He had come in with bullet holes. Itachi should have tried harder to keep in touch with him during medical school. 

“As long as you do your care properly, sure.” The head nurse replied and handed the sheets over. “He’s here mostly for blood loss, you know the deal.” 

Itachi gave a nod and took the clipboard. 


~~~~~~~~

“Itachi asked for him personally?” Sakura questioned as she bought juice from a vending machine and ignored the fact Tsunade so had vodka in her water bottle but it was after hours so not her real business. 

“Yup.” Tsunade taped her water bottle against her leg. “It’s more personal then he’s bluffing; the guy had bullet wounds.” 

“But you still said yes.” 

“It’s probably some old fling and Itachi feels bad. Married to his work and all that. Besides, he’ll probably take over for me one day before you do so it’s good for him.” 

“Probably.” Sakura snapped her orange juice open. 

“Probably.” Tsunade shrugged. “Time will tell. As long as he doesn’t do anything to open the guy’s wounds I really don’t care.” 

“He will be transferred out soon.” 

“Exactly. That’s when we learn how Itachi handles this.”

“After?” 

“After.” Tsunade grinned and took a swig from her bottle. “Itachi has colleagues in every bit of this hospital and if his work starts to slack we will know.” 

“True, the only time his work has ever been off Sasuke was getting his wrist set and he couldn’t be there.” 

“Exactly.”

Outlast {Sentence Starters}
  • "I know, I am supposed to be dead. No, no such luck."
  • "More than stupid, in fact. That was crazy!"
  • "It was foolish and wrong to think we could control it."
  • "You know, I love the mountain air up here at night."
  • "Don't pass out on me. There's still a lot for you absorb!"
  • "Where are the survivors?"
  • "You know, I'm a bit worried how much time you've been spending with ____."
  • "It's impossible to understand. The things we felt."
  • "It's understandable, people get scared."
  • "You can't make a deal if you've got nothing to bargain with."
  • "I see what's happening here. You're bored. You want a little attention."
  • "I guess I'll just have to kill you outright."
  • "Well I'm here for you. I'll give you very special attention."
  • "Okay, this isn't a problem. I can solve this."
  • "Somebody has to win and somebody has to lose here, I don't make the rules."
  • "You understand what we achieved here?"
  • "You must be exhausted. Let's take a break, huh, buddy?"
  • "You wanna head out, take a stroll?"
  • "There! Better now, right?"
  • "Uh, no offense to the man, but I sometimes worry he might just be a little bit crazy."
  • "Go ahead, I'll wait here. Go on, run free!"
  • "C'mon man, get in! I've seen what they're capable of!"
  • "Fuck! Really? You're gonna walk on me?"
Bioshock {Sentence Starters}
  • "You are my greatest disappointment."
  • "I gotta say, I had a lot of business partners in my life, but you..."
  • "Thank you. Thank you for helping me."
  • "We all make choices, but in the end our choices make us."
  • "Life isn't strictly business."
  • "Would you kindly lower that weapon for a minute?"
  • "A man chooses, a slave obeys."
  • "I have what you're looking for. Just open your eyes."
  • "You've been a sport, so I guess I owe you a little honesty."
  • "But, I guess I'll have another drink."
  • "Son of a Bitch, left me to freeze."
  • "How do you know someone's even coming?"
  • "What is the difference between a man and a parasite?"
  • "I've never killed a man, let alone a mate. But this is what its come to."
  • "I want to make them beautiful, but they always turn out WRONG!"
  • "That means we've got company."
  • "Well, I said if you are going to do such things, you should at least do them properly."
  • "Wh-what happened? I'm hurt- I'm bleeding- oh, God!"
  • "You know what? They were right."
  • "There's two ways to deal with mystery: uncover it, or eliminate it."
  • "So tell me, friend, which one of the bitches sent you?"

anonymous asked:

So I've asked a couple times but I guess yall havent seen it. Since I was 12 and first learning about sex, I've had terribly intrusive sexual thoughts that have lasted until now (im 17 now). I constantly have impulses that I'm always afraid I'll act on and it's all really embarrassing because idk why I have these thoughts. They also come in the form of abuse sometimes like I'll have intrusive thoughts of abusing myself in terrible ways. It's gotten better but it's still frustrating to deal with

Hi Anon,

We’re sorry we didn’t get to yours right away. This is the third time you’ve submitted this in three days. We get a dozen or more asks a day, and we are doing our best to keep up, as well as answer questions we are best equipped to answer. Here is what a google search about intrusive thoughts have told me:

How To Overcome Intrusive Thoughts:

To overcome intrusive thoughts, it’s important to first realise you’re in complete control of yourself and it simply feels like you’re not when an intrusive thought has a strong grip on you. Knowledge is very important if you’re going to achieve that, so here’s a page that’ll help you to understand intrusive thoughts and explain how you can overcome them:

Intrusive thoughts are ego-dystonic. This means they’re the very opposite of your character. You have these thoughts because you DON’T want them because they’re everything you’re against morally and as a result you’re perceiving them as threatening, so your brain flags them as important.

You never have to fear acting on an intrusive thought. You’re terrified of these thoughts. They’re your worst fears which is why they’re so hard to ignore and you’re suffering as a result. You’re not just suddenly going to reverse your character and find it acceptable to act on them. You’re only suffering like this because you’re a good, kind and moral person.

Analysing the thoughts is the problem. Every human being has intrusive thoughts. However only OCD sufferers react to them for a prolonged time rather than shrug them off because of how our brains flag them as important. The more attention you pay to an intrusive, the more it sticks around because it’s being given importance that it doesn’t deserve to have. By accepting that you’ll have these thoughts and understanding that you’re the one in control you can get on with life whilst they’re in your head in confidence they’ll fade out when you don’t respond to them and as a result show your brain they’re not a threat.

Spiking is a good thing. Spiking refers to an increase in symptoms (intrusive thoughts, anxiety, compulsions) as a result of an intrusive thought that gets our attention. Spiking is incredibly uncomfortable so is often avoided by sufferers. However, spiking is actually a good thing, as it’s an opportunity to practise recovery techniques. You should put yourself in situations that you find uncomfortable (e.g. if you have a fear of being a rapist, go outside and walk past as many people as you can rather than avoiding going outside at all) because then you’re facing your fear and proving to yourself that you’re in control.

Beware of ‘backdoor’ spikes. When you start to recover you’ll notice a decrease in anxiety. This does not mean you’ve become your fear. It simply means you’re starting to understand the thoughts are ludicrous and not threatening. If people analyse the fact they’re not suffering anxiety as a result of an intrusive they’ll ruminate in fear having become what they loathe (which causes them to spike again) but this is simply not the case.

Knowing this will give you the tools you need to start tackling your disorder. You’ll suffer more anxiety at first (especially if you’re spiking yourself intentionally), but it’ll lead to long term relief, which is far better than the temporary relief reassurance provides.

What Are Intrusive Thoughts?:

Intrusive thoughts are thoughts that consistently enter your mind against your will. They’re considered intrusive because you simply cannot get them out of your mind, and they often pop up at unusual moments. Intrusive thoughts may also occur in flashes, and often cause significant anxiety when they enter your mind.

Many people experience intrusive thoughts with anxiety, and they may cause significant distress. That’s why it’s so important that you find relief. If you haven’t yet, take my 7 minute anxiety test.

There are many different types of intrusive thoughts, but they generally fall into these categories:

  • Unwanted Memories – Though not often considered an “intrusive thought” in the medical sense, many people experience persistent, unwanted memories. Those with PTSD are especially prone to these types of memories, but anyone may have a memory that causes them significant distress, and those with anxiety are more likely to have that memory pop up at unwanted times.
  • Violent Thoughts – Thoughts of violence and aggression may also be common in those with some types of anxiety, especially obsessive compulsive disorder. Generally, these are thoughts were the person imagines themselves doing violent/aggressive things. However, one could consider worries about danger happening to other people to be violent thoughts as well.
  • Sexual Thoughts – Like violent thoughts, a person can have unwanted sexual thoughts. Sometimes these sexual thoughts are paired with religious-induced shame, while other times the sexual thoughts may also be somewhat violent in nature. These are also more common with those with specific types of anxiety disorders.

Still, any thought that comes at an inappropriate time may be considered an intrusive thought. Those with phobias may randomly experience a flash of the object that causes them fear, and in some cases that thought may be considered intrusive.

The steps you can take to help break the cycle of repetitive, scary thoughts:

1. Revisualization - take a few times throughout the day where you can sit comfortably and visualize your scary thoughts in a more less threatening way. You can use humor or stupidity to downplay those thoughts to less frightening thoughts. Whenever the thought pops into your head throughout the day, remember your NEW visual and take the time to picture them differently.

2. Positive Self-Talk - use self-talk that reassures you that you would never carry out the thoughts you think. You have the power to DO or NOT DO anything you want. Remind yourself that it’s okay that those thoughts are there. Do not resist them…. accept them as just “thoughts” and nothing more. They cannot hurt you or make you do anything you don’t want to do.

3. Shrink the chatter box! - see your obsessive thinking as nothing but thoughts. These thoughts are nothing but a loud chatter box that never shuts up and the more it irritates you, the stronger and louder it gets. Realize that you can shrink the chatter box, simply by accepting that it’s there and downsizing the importance of what it’s saying. The better you get at doing this, the more you will realize that your repetitive thoughts fade into the background and become less threatening and important to you.

4. Thought StoppingThought stopping is a technique that is highly effective when used alone or when used in conjunction with the other steps listed here.

It is not uncommon for people to think that it won’t work for them, but I assure you that if you work hard, you can feel comfortable again in your own mind. Some people need the aid of a therapist, coach or even medication and this is completely acceptable. See your doctor or coach for further help. This is what they are there for!

I want to be sure that you know that all people experience random thoughts on a regular basis. They are thoughts that don’t really mean anything, they just come in and go out. The problem with the anxious person is that they are more sensitive and aware of these thoughts and when they find a thought that is scary, obscene or “wrong”, they pull it aside and pick it apart and try to analyze why they are having it. Instead of “letting it go” and dismissing it for the very fact that it has no importance, they dissect it looking for reasons.

The main cause for obsessive scary thoughts is exhaustion and stress and they can be overcome with education, understanding, support.

Treatment of Sexual Obsessions / Thoughts in OCD:

Treatment of sexual obsessions is complex and individualized.  In my Palm Beach Gardens, FL practice, I treat many individuals with OCD sexual obsessions usingexposure and response prevention (ERP) and cognitive-behavioral therapy (CBT). Treatment involves confronting fear triggers in a systematic way while resisting rituals and avoidance behaviors. With consistent practice, these fear triggers lose their power over you.

Overcoming sexual obsessions is not based on definitively proving that these obsessions are unfounded. Although this outcome would be desirable (if possible), someone with a strong tendency toward OCD doubt can never eliminate all traces of doubt in a way that is fully satisfying. After all, if you have these types of symptoms, you’ve probably already spent months or years trying unsuccessfully to accomplish this goal.

Am I sure that I don’t secretly want to have sex with _________? Trying to answer this question with a resounding “No” is ultimately doomed to fail. It’s not the question itself that is the problem. It’s actually your exhaustive attempts to disprove the possibility that perpetuates your symptoms. I have discussed this idea in more detail in my posts onthought control and unwanted thoughts.

Instead, successful, effective treatment of OCD is based on learning to accept uncertainty about the things we can’t know for sure. You might not know with 100% certainty whether or not you could become a pedophile, but neither does anyone else. People without OCD-related sexual obsessions accept this doubt, without engaging in efforts to avoid or neutralize. This is the goal of treatment: to accept doubt without avoidance or neutralization. This is the key to breaking free from sexual obsessions and living a happy, healthy life.

I hope this help you.

Best,

Lena

RWBY Volume 3 Soundtrack prompts
  • "Now they know the cost of trusting you's obliteration."
  • "This is not a tragedy."
  • "This is not an accident."
  • "You placed your faith in fools and now you'll smother in lament."
  • "Their iron gloves point fingers."
  • "If i just closed my eyes then i could go anywhere."
  • "don't be foolish, give up your wish, big things aren't for you."
  • "You were the one who held me down and told me I was heading nowhere."
  • "Accept your fate and show good face."
  • "Why was I your fool?"
  • "I've got a message here for you!"
  • "Time for you to learn it's my turn!"
  • "I won't be held down any longer!"
  • "I've waited all my life and finally it's here."
  • "Hey wait turn and show your face!"
  • "I'm in control I own my soul I'll never go back there!"
  • "I don't care what it costs me, I know I almost lost me."
  • "You rose i fell made my life hell."
  • "Finally see how sick you are."
  • "Who am I to complain?"
  • "The life I fought for still isn't mine."
  • "I know that I could do so much, if I could just believe in me."
  • "Can I stop my fall?"
  • "Years of scorn will leave you cold."
  • "I think I might change it all."
  • "We're all born with a dream, we wanna make come true."
  • "I bet it's hard to live with, knowing that you'll never be this fine."
  • "I'm cool like the rain, and I'm hot like the sun."
  • "You can see I never miss a beat."
  • "Your makeover's long overdue."
  • "We can't all be divine."
  • "Just think of happy things."
  • "Just be more like me!"
  • "You and I disagree on certain points of view."
  • "Don't beat yourself up, don't blame yourself."
  • "Maybe your inner beauty can make up for your waistline."
  • "You are my star."
  • "You make me smile when the world's come undone."
  • "What am I supposed to do? Just sit here and not fall in love with you?"
  • "Can I lock up my heart and not feel it?"
  • "If love is blind then how do I make you see me?"
  • "I'm falling there' no doubt."
  • "Is there any chance for this dream romance?"
  • "Should I just give up?"
  • "What's a fool to do?"
  • "Could you fall for me like I fell for you?"
  • "You should give up now your retaliation's moot!"
  • "You want to mess around come on let's go!"
  • "I'll run circles around ya, I can touch the sky!"
  • "I'm the one that your mama said 'don't mess with them or you'll end up dead' "
  • "The bigger they are, then the more they will bleed."
  • "I gleam like a blade and am harder than iron."
  • "I'm the one, who rose out of filth and was loved by no one."
  • "You're still standing up? Well let's go another round."
  • "You like the way I dress? Yeah I know I'm fine."
  • "I guess you didn't know that you were dealing with the best."
  • "You shoulda stayed at home today."
  • "It might be hard to hear me say, kicking your ass is child's play."
  • "I hope you're not crushed by this ridicule."
  • "Does it feel good? Knowing you tried?"
  • "How does it feel knowing your efforts will fail?"
  • "You will not prevail."
  • "It was you who ended their lives."
  • "Have you no shame?!"
  • "You'll regret your deeds."
  • "You'll watch them all bleed."
  • "The taste will be sweet when you get what you've earned and i'll watch you burn."
  • "I never felt that it was wise to wish too much."
  • "I never thought a hero would ever come my way."
  • "Now it's cold without you here."
  • "I won't say goodbye."
  • "You showed me that a greater dream can be achieved."
  • "The light you gave to guide me will never fade away."
  • "Moving forward never felt as hard as today."
  • "I don't have to say goodbye."

well… episode 1 down… i definitely didn’t see that coming. i’m kind of disappointed actually?? spoilers but

seems like they just… dealt with whispers in the first episode and unless he makes a comeback i’m not sure if i like what they did here.

i mean i get they had to deal with him quick since having Will be drugged up out of his mind for an entire season would get super old really fast but to take whispers out of the equation like this after all that build-up feels a little anticlimactic. they did kinda write themselves into a corner at the end of season 1 so i get why they’re doing this but :/

Marinette's boyfriend/good friend
  • Adrien: (Thinking) Mmm.. Marinette? What's he doing with Nathanael?
  • (Marinette and Nathanael chatting and laughing)
  • Adrien: (Thinking) They sure don't seem bored...
  • Adrien: Hello! What kind of game does he think's he is playing?
  • Alya and Nino: Huh?
  • Alya: He's just talking to her, what are you jealous?
  • Adrien: Me? Jealous of Nathanael? Besides he has been akumatized and that's bad!
  • Nino: Guess what? We have been also akumatized, I guess you just forgot.
  • Adrien: Yeah, well it's not the same thing, besides I'm Marinette's Boyfriend! I mean I'm her good friend.
  • Nino: You know? Marinette has been kind of down on the dumps, so if she wants to talk to another boy don't make a big deal out of it.
  • Adrien: Who says that I am!?

Okay so even if a Clint has a wife and kids in AoU, and canon Clintasha is only platonic, it’ll still be hella cute?

Natasha corrupting tiny Bartons and teaching them how to hotwire a car while Clint’s wife facepalms in the background.

Clint getting made on an undercover op and calling Nat to go stay at the farm and keep his family safe just in case.

A list of household rules drafted especially for when Nat visits. No poison tipped daggers in the house, no cleaning guns on the dining room table, nobody’s allowed to be maimed or killed in bedtime stories, stop drinking soda straight from the 2 liter bottle and all the other little bad habits she’s picked up from Clint.

Clint and Natasha mailing back souvenirs and postcards for everyone when they’re out of the country.

Clint getting a text on the Quinjet home from a mission that reads “Christmas card pic on Friday, wear a red sweater.” Natasha staring at her own text in confusion because this weird number just sent her a message, “Family Christmas pic on Friday, you’ll need a red dress.”

Do the kids have a godmother? Yes they do.

Riakle Fanfiction
  • This is my first ever Fanfiction. Please give me feedback I would love to know what everyone thinks! The next chapter is going through the last round of editing now and should be up soon.
  • Girl Meets Fate
  • Prologue
  • Word Count: 1,277
  • It was seven o'clock in the morning on New Year's Day and the five exhausted teens hadn't been to sleep yet. After the fireworks went off over the ski lodge Riley, Maya, Farkle, Lucas, and Zay stayed in the lounge and talked all night. They didn't notice when the snow started falling across the already white-topped mountain. They didn't notice when the sun peeked through the trees and slowly but surely creeped up the walls of the cabin. They didn't notice when Cory and Topanga came down the stairs with little Auggie and started making breakfast. They didn't notice anything outside of their own little world and that's exactly how they'd always liked it.
  • Riley was sitting on the cushion farthest to the right on the couch while both Maya and Farkle used her as a personal pillow. Maya was laid across the couch with her feet in Riley's lap and Farkle was sitting on the floor with his head leaning against her knees. Lucas and Zay were each leaning against the wall on either side of the fireplace. They had originally each been sitting on a pillow they stole from underneath Maya when she had started to doze but Lucas had given his to Zay when he complained that one pillow wasn't enough and it still hurt to sit. They had switched places a few times in the beginning but ultimately decided on this arrangement and had stayed this way for more than four hours by this point. They had never been so comfortable in their lives and they couldn't tell if it was the place or the company but they were each silently wishing that this trip would never end.
  • "This place is magic," Riley stated, somewhat abruptly cutting off a story Zay had started telling over twenty minutes ago.
  • Farkle laughed before turning around slightly to face her, "There's no such thing as magic. That stuff is all just illusion."
  • Riley just rolled her eyes, "I'm not talking about that kind of magic, Farkle. I'm not talking about the magic that you see, I'm talking about the magic that you feel." The room was quiet for a moment and then Riley spoke up again, "Come on! You can't tell me that there isn't something special about this place!"
  • "No. I- I feel it too," Lucas said as he sat up a little straighter. "I feel closer to you guys up here."
  • "Of course you do, Huckleberry," Maya started as she slid her feet off of Riley's lap and onto the floor and slowly sat up. "All the open spaces and creepy critters, this must feel just like home."
  • "Do you even remember Texas?" Lucas asked and then immediately regretted it.
  • The two shared a short yet meaningful glance and then Maya looked away with just a hint of a blush. Of course she remembered Texas, but she would never say that. Not here. But Riley was her best friend and Maya didn't have to say anything for her to notice the look exchanged between the two.
  • "I'm feeling some tension," Zay said as he looked at the pair momentarily, "and a tingling feeling in my butt. I think it's going numb."
  • Farkle gave him a squinted, sideways look and then turned his attention back to Riley, "I don't know if I would call it magic but I think we can all agree that this place is special."
  • "Exactly!" Riley exclaimed. "I was hoping you would all feel that way."
  • Maya hesitated, "Uh oh."
  • "I think we should come back here. I think we should come back here after we graduate and say goodbye to each other before we go to college. I don't want us to drift apart because we've forgotten this feeling."
  • "Riles, we would never drift apart. I'm your safe place, remember?" Maya said as she scooted closer to Riley and wrapped her arm around her.
  • "And I'm yours. But no matter what, I think this would be good for us. To have this one last big thing before we have to take on the world. What do you think, Peaches?" Riley said and looked at her friend.
  • Maya smiled at her, "I go where you go."
  • Riley smiled back at her and then looked at Farkle.
  • "You know I'll be there. I'd follow you ladies to the end of the earth even though there is no end because the earth is -"
  • "Okay we get it," Maya cut him off, "You'll be there. What about you Ranger Rick?"
  • Lucas rolled his eyes, "I'll throw my hat in the ring."
  • Maya's face showed her anger as once again she was unable to get to him.
  • "I guess that only leaves one," Riley said and they all turned their attention toward Zay.
  • Zay looked around at each of them, squinted his eyes up a little bit, then said, "If you people expect me to come back out here you're going to have to find me a better place to sit cause I don't think I can handle this again."
  • "Deal!" Riley said happily.
  • A few months after the trip the group dynamics quickly went downhill. The love triangle between Lucas, Riley, and Maya was resolved when Lucas formally asked Maya out on their first real date. Their relationship was a passionate one, on one extreme or the other, which they both really enjoyed but when Maya realized the toll their relationship was taking on her friendship with Riley she ended it without telling anyone why. She thought this would save their friendship, but she was wrong. When school let out for the summer they drifted farther and farther apart until eventually they weren't even talking to one another. By the time school started again in the fall you wouldn't have been able to tell they were ever friends at all.
  • Five best friends turned into strangers but strangers with a promise to never forget the feeling of staying up all night in a magical cabin on top of a hill just so they could look at each other's faces a little longer. A promise that was soon all but forgotten.
  • That is, until Farkle reminded Riley that since they had recently graduated there was a ski lodge a day's drive away that was calling their names. When she tried to protest he told her that his dad had already rented the cabin. The same cabin from three years ago. She caved. She always caved when it came to Farkle. He knew where her buttons were and he wasn't afraid to push them when he really wanted her to do something.
  • She supposed that's how she got here. Sitting in her closet staring at the pictures from the first ski lodge trip and pretending she was packing her bag. She hadn't seen these pictures in years and she wasn't prepared for the emotions that swept over her. She cried when she looked at the three friends she had lost after this trip but mostly she cried when she looked at that beautiful blonde haired girl she used to call her best friend. This trip wouldn't be easy on her - going back to that place without their old friends and knowing that they should be there - but she made a promise to Farkle and she wasn't willing to break it. She wiped the tears, put the pictures back in their rightful box, and grabbed the sweater she had gone into her closet looking for in the first place before stumbling out and finishing her packing. She closed her suitcase, took a deep breath, and then climbed into bed. She had a long week ahead of her.
A brief summary of each season of Supernatural
  • Season 1:
  • Sam- I want to be normal but my girlfriend just died so I guess I'll help Dean
  • Dean- we need to find dad
  • Season 2:
  • Sam- I'm a psychic
  • Dean- SAM, DAD
  • Season 3:
  • Sam- I need to save Dean from his deal
  • Dean- lol I made a deal and now I only have a year to live
  • Season 4:
  • Sam- I'm high off demon blood and need to kill Lilith
  • Dean- woah angels are real
  • Season 5:
  • Sam- oh no I let Satan out of his cage
  • Dean- should I say yes to Michael?
  • Castiel- I rebelled for Dean
  • Season 6:
  • Sam- I'm soulless
  • Dean- we gotta kill Eve and make Sammy better
  • Cas- I'm working with Crowley to kill Raphael
  • Season 7:
  • Sam- SATAN
  • Dean- DICK
  • Cas- I was God for like five seconds then I died and came back, now I'm mentally unstable
  • Season 8:
  • Sam- we gotta close the gates of hell and my hair is super majestic
  • Dean- I need Cas. Also what happened in purgatory stays in purgatory
  • Cas- Naomi is controlling me but I won't kill Dean
  • Season 9:
  • Sam- I'm possessed by an Angel but idk about it
  • Dean- I got the mark of Cain and need to kill Abaddon and Metatron
  • Cas- I'm human now and all the angels got cast out of heaven
  • Season 10:
  • Sam-gotta get the mark of Cain off Dean
  • Dean- lol I'm a demon
  • Cas- deannnnnnn. Also I need to get my grace back
  • Season 11 (so far):
  • Sam- RESEARCH
  • Dean- Amara is tryna smash but I only want Cas
  • Cas- I'm possessed by Satan