i guess i have a lot of feelings

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 ɪ ʜᴏᴘᴇ ᴡᴇ ᴄᴀɴ ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ᴏɴ ᴅᴏɪɴɢ ᴛʜɪs ғᴏʀ ᴀ ʟᴏɴɢ, ʟᴏɴɢ ᴛɪᴍᴇ. 

sometimes I honestly wonder why I’m even still on this hellsite
no one ever interacts with me anymore and I feel trapped in what my blog used to be and is no longer - I thought of just deleting or at least remaking but I’m a) lazy and b) don’t wanna lose the memories. but since y’all obviously don’t give a fuck anymore anyway I’ve decided to just go bananas. it’s my blog after all.
so expect some changes (lots have already happened, at least when it comes to content changes and they’ll keep coming)
I guess from now on I’m gonna be 50% fandom and 50% poetry/mythology/aesthetic and who doesn’t like it can go leave. I’ve always tagged anything non-fandom as “misc” but I’ll start tagging (after the current queue ran out) everything fandom as “fandom”. so everyone can blacklist to their heart’s content.
I might change my url, I’m not sure yet, I feel like I need a change but I’m also super attached to this one. we’ll see. I’ll also try to do some more editing again and also more interactive stuff - I miss talking to y’all.
but yeah, that’s basically it. so long, fellas.

anonymous asked:

yo i don't want to rly be in this discourse but,,,,,, you don't have to be so rude to people. that person just asked you a question and you decided to curse them out???? idk man. you just need to be more respectful to people. also, where is your source that Lance is fully Cuban and not mixed????

i’m not sure if you’re aware, but I restrain myself a lot and i am unfairly nice to a lot of very dumb anons. but, amazingly, i don’t have to be nice to racists, if you can believe that. and they did not ask me a question, they made a series of incredible ignorant and purposely hurtful accusations. it would be like me saying to you “oh i guess since you disagree with me you must be in support of banning all immigrants and you must think all hispanics are criminals.” 
sucks doesn’t it? do you feel hurt? that’s how i felt. 

also, and i can’t believe i have to do this, but Jeremy Shada has said on multiple occasions that the line in the script that confirms lance being cuban is “I’m just a boy from Cuba” not “I’m just a boy from Cuba on my mother’s side and my dad is 1/3 irish, 4/9 polish, 5/80 english so i can be white enough to be liked.” where’s your source that he’s not? hmm

but i guess people are just white until proven POC am i right? lmao

anonymous asked:

Hey Grave, I'm a hard of hearing fan like you, represent! <3 When I saw that ask from earlier I felt so angry because I have been following you since before you made many gifs (I loved your writing BTW) and never once have you ever abused your captioning. You even censored when no one else was, FFS. I trust you fully and always recommend you to my friends as I get them hooked on gmm. I know from experience that you're likely feeling self-conscious but you do a great job and it's appreciated.

Thanks.

It was a lot easier when I could message Rian and ask what R&L were saying but since he stopped watching I’ve had to guess more because I don’t want to annoy my mutuals with “hey what did they say here” more than I have already. Just have to try my best with lip reading/context/speech patterns/headphones, though that gets really unpleasant during food episodes, I’ll tell ya.

anonymous asked:

Greetings cat,did you know about Ultima Almighty thing? and what do you think about him? and why a lot of undertale artists is not straight? (not trying to be rude,not trying to offended someone,just curious)

i’ve been suspecting things about him and i did know that steph was dealing with him,but i had no idea that he went for other girls as well and that just got him to my scum list man

i never actually watched his videos to begin with and my opinion on him wasnt very good,i guess, from the start?? i don’t know man

the men and woman who toy with other peoples feelings and treat them like some dolls are on my scum list so yeah. i’m not only talking about men who are like this,remember, even women. there’s a lot of people like this and its best to avoid them instead of driving them to the more wrong path than they already are. so be careful you guys.


i’m not sure :’) guess artists have more creative way of thinking and extend their limits more on art and even on things they do in life. i mean

i mean

normal person would like

draw for 2 hours right?

:’D or dont draw at all if they have too many things to do

but me?

boy oh howdy i draw for 7 hours and sometimes i dont even post those things 

and when i have a lot of work 

i procrastinate and draw for 4-5 hours-  

now with relationships

i don’t wanna limit my options to just one gender so i go with whoever i fall in love with uvu just kinda better than getting in a relationship with a person that you don’t feel happy with. 

but hey man,if you wanna be straight or gay or anything else then go right ahead :’D i have no problem with that as long as those people just dont bash on each other because of who their are. you just gotta live life to the fullest for yourself and not take life from others. 

i feel very isolated idk………i spend all of my time alone, am very focused on my studying and yoga and stuff, but like. i feel like i have zero social life but i also dont really enjoy going out all the time and clubbing etc so i never know what to do…..and i dont know if its bad that im quite solitary i cant figure it out……….i feel like i have no friends but i also know thats probably just my anxiety and ive always found university challenging socially so idk idk…….does it matter that ive not got a lot of friends at university? probably not i guess

anonymous asked:

How was extella in comparison to the main fate series? Did you enjoy it? - a sad fate fan without a ps4

I definitely loved extella but it doesn’t hold up to fsn imo, mostly because the routes are unusually short so I feel they’re not what they could have been at all. I expected like, twice the story length I got after hearing about how the VA’s got phonebook sized scripts and also considering how long extra and CCC were. I guess it’s partially a gameplay thing since there’s a limit to the amount of stage gimmicks you can come up with to keep things interesting but it really wouldn’t have hurt to make each route like two stages longer to just give the story some room.

extella also doesn’t make use of the size of its cast at all?? nero tamamo and altera obviously get a lot of attention and although the main story feels rushed im still Fucked Up™ but everyone except those three + elizabeth and archimedes barely get any attention at all. promo material played up the three factions thing so much but we hardly see any team dynamics and it seems like most/all side stories (i only played cu’s and archer’s so far lol) are only three stages which is basically nothing. 

absolutely don’t get me wrong here I fucking loved it which is exactly why I want More because again: it’s mega fucking rushed especially early on bc the routes are just really short. extella is really good but it could’ve been Excellent if it just took the time the story actually needs.

also the final battle in each route was really underwhelming but that might just be because I played easy mode lol

Dear Charlie,

lately it seems like i can’t look at myself in the mirror without seeing something i hate. self loathing is second nature to me like something ive just always done i guess except its gotten a lot worse. i have myself convinced that i will not be considered beautiful, lovable, or noticeable until im as skinny as i can get. i ate last night after having skipped 2 days and i feel like such a failure because of it. i know its not healthy to do that but i feel like just working out alone wont do the trick all the way. i wanna he so small that people tell me how little i am and insist i gain a couple pounds. i want my family to notice my loss of the weight and compliment me on it. i don’t like the way my hips / legs look in jeans. i don’t like how my but looks either. i don’t like my tummy or arms. i hate how my clothes look and fit on me. my friends say im not fat that 150 is an average weight for an 18 year old girl. but to me , to me i am huge beyond average. i look at myself and i don’t see a thing i like. i hate myself. pure , devine , hatred. i know i am not beautiful. i wanna be little. i will be little. even if it kills me.

i guess it just hurts that i was practice. that you will love the next one more fiercely. that you will not do them wrong the way you hurt me. that you will be better at communicating. you will be better at asking for what you want instead of going behind peoples’ backs to get it. you have learned how to be honest. you have learned how to kiss, how to touch, how to make somebody feel wanted. you have learned what destroys a relationship and what keeps it going. and i guess it just hurts that i taught you how to love someone who isn’t me. i guess it just hurts that i was practice and now i’m nothing.

  • What she says: I'm fine
  • What she means: In the original plan for the live action Scooby Doo movie, Velma and Daphne were going to have a romantic side plot. The movie itself was originally intended for an adult audience, but then Warner Bros decided that it should be more accessible to a “family” audience, so part of their editing involved getting rid of that romance. But in the final production of the film you can still see little bits that could have led up to a romance between the two. For example, at one point Velma tickles Daphne, and Velma also refers to Daphne dreamily as “the coolest girl at Coolsville high”. However at the end of the film Fred and Daphne kiss, and that relationship is so out of nowhere. It is built from nothing. If anything, the most developed heterosexual relationship was that between Fred and Velma because of the scenes where Velma shows jealousy of Fred choosing Daphne and of being overshadowed by Fred. But no, they choose to put Fred and Daphne together. We could have had canonically gay Velma and Daphne, but instead they give us another heterosexual relationship, and they don't even do that right.

I feel like some people in the YOI fandom may worry about episode 9 and how it may “not have any Victuri moments” now that Victor’s gone back to Japan.

And sure, we will certainly see less physical Victuri moments. But let’s instead think about the potential positive aspects of the situation: more emotional Victuri moments.

Because, to be fair, we’ve gotten to see a lot of their physical affection already - hugs, hand holding, forehead touches, kisses - you name it. And while I love it and I think it’s important, I think it might just be their thoughts and feelings that really make everything so special.

And this is the perfect opportunity to present the emotional aspect of their relationship. Yuuri has internal monologues about Victor and love all the damn time, and Victor looks so enamored in his Japanese boyfriend that it feels like he could kneel and propose at any given moment, and just imagine how being so physically apart from each other could only heighten and amplify those feelings.

Some people might say that this will be a test for their relationship, but I don’t think so. The fight in the parking lot in episode 7 was more of a test. Now they know that they can trust each other to perform well/give proper support respectively. The lack of Victor’s immediate presence will certainly be relevant and will shake Yuuri, but it won’t be because he’s afraid that Victor might leave him. He himself encouraged him to go back to Japan. Yuuri knows he won’t leave him, knows that he has no reason to be afraid. (And coming from a person who did everything to keep Victor by his side at all times? That’s big.) He trusts Victor enough to let him go back to Japan despite facing his Free Skate the next day. His issues during the second day event of the Rostelecom Cup will most likely only stem from the physical lack of Victor, but not from his emotional insecurity in their relationship. Because by now they’re secure. Even if Victor is thousands of kilometers away, he’s not gone and he’s not leaving him.

And remember that old proverb? If you love someone, set them free. If they come back, they will be yours forever. I think it might just fit this situation in a way. Yuuri is letting Victor go, not entirely of course, but he is letting him go for the time being, despite it being a time when he might just need him most. Perhaps he doesn’t realize it, but in a way, it’s a gamble. The thing is that Victor isn’t going anywhere. He promised to take Yuuri to the Grand Prix Final, and he will. Which means he is coming back. And I think we all know what that means in regards to the proverb?

Also, the entire situation could be interesting from Victor’s perspective. Assuming that he watches the livestream, he will certainly be overcome with some sort of feelings. Except that until now, he released them as soon as they came - through hugging Yuuri or kissing him or similar outbursts of closeness. He won’t be able to do that now. Which means that instead of dealing with the feelings physically, he will have to consider them emotionally and his emotions are clear to anyone who’s seen him around Yuuri. Am I the only one seeing the potential development here?

In any case, I am expecting Yuuri to find strength in his bond with Victor (which will support him during his performance) even without his physical presence and at least a small realization on Victor’s side. Or just Victor being extremely proud and happy with Yuuri, I’m also perfectly fine with that. (And I just really want even more emotional monologues on love please please please)

Even without the physical attention, I think episode 9 could be a breakthrough for Victor and Yuuri’s relationship. I’m sure that the anime could pull it off.

Also I can totally sense a sweet and fluffy ‘reunited at the airport’ scene which would further reaffirm their connection (and give us the beautiful hug/kiss we all secretly want more of).

So yes. Fear not. Episode 9 carries a lot of really strong potential for the development of Victuri. Have faith.

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When your crush finds out about your embarrassing niche blog 

Based on this but like, with sansby lmao idek

the video title is ‘Glitter bomb! FTA’ because Sans and Frisk have a youtube channel called “For The Aesthetic” where Sans eats garbage by request. And then Frisk gets an ambulance.

Bonus: 

so i might be stepping out of line making this post but i feel it needs to be made so yolo i guess.

i know a lot of millenials have a sort of knee-jerk negative reaction towards abrahamic religions (really mostly christianity and judaism) and i understand. really, i get it. my dad is a pastor, and he used his religon to abuse, demean, and control me at every opportunity. he regularly tells my sisters that he’s “so sad im going to hell” and other sundry passive aggressive nonsense, so trust me i get it. i understand how a certain religion can be triggering to someone.

but there is a very important point here, and i really hope you understand this.

you cannot let it make you prejudiced, and, let me be clear here, im talking specifically about antisemitism.

i know exactly whats going on in your head, because for a long time it was what was going on in my head. you hear the word “judaism” and you have flashbacks to sunday school and the old testament and all the times you sat in a church and felt personally attacked, and you associate that with judaism and jewish people because most of the things that upset you were in the old testament. 

you can have your triggers, but you can’t let those triggers become an excuse to further marginalize a minority thats already attacked from literally every position of power there is. every major religion has leaders who are antisemitic, every country has a history of marginalizing jewish people, every person on the planet grows up in an inherently antisemitic world and has to unlearn that sort of toxic mindset.

and maybe this post should have been made by a jewish person, or somebody with more education on the subject than me but i think its really important that people don’t let their personal experiences with organized religion turn them into the kind of prejudiced person that hurt them in the first place. 

as a romni i have a shared tragedy with jewish people, so i feel like it was easier for me to step back and be like “woah, your thought process here is super toxic and you need to stop” but i feel like a lot of white christian-raised people don’t really have that touchstone and need somebody to be like “wake up, what you are doing is wrong”

The thing is with writing is that sometimes you have no control over what you write. It’s like being drunk I guess. You do it and then have no memory of it later. You don’t know what you were feeling at the time and you don’t know why you wrote it. Looking back, it doesn’t even make sense but you know there was a lot of pain.
—  Something I learned from writing for three years.

16.11.06 fancafe - bts_Suga

23:35
Today is before we go
I really wanted to talk to you
Preparing for the fanmeeting was very busy heuheu
The second full album WINGS activity has come to an end
It’s a bittersweet feeling but, even though the activity is over it’s not the end of our schedule so I guess I will need more strength right??
Especially during activities this time, we have set many records and good results all thanks to ARMY’s much love and attention haha it really feels as though I have wings. Thank you so much
I love you and the lots of work for the past four weeks. Thank you bbyongbbyong

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We used to laugh.

Oh how we used to laugh.

We used to talk on the phone until we fell asleep in the early hours

of the morning.

You were my sunrise and set.

You were my every other thought,

my every other breath.

I was consumed,

we were consumed.

We danced with no music.

We conversed with no words.

I guess we should feel fortunate to have spent fragmented moments

with one another,

To have danced together,

To have spoken to one another,

To have laughed together.

Time is funny that way.

I thought we wasted hours upon hours doing a lot of nothing,

but the times spent dancing, conversing, laughing

are the ones that have lingered and haunted me,

forcing their way into my present thoughts and memories all these

years later.

—  gregory-eyev
Why Thea Queen and Laurel Lance Are the Most Relatable Characters on ‘Arrow’

Recently, a list of Hollywood’s Best 50 Female Characters came out, and on that list was none other than Felicity of the CW’s Arrow. She is quoted by EBR as being “relatable and grounded,” and fans are running wild claiming she is the most relatable character on the show, and one of the most relatable on television currently. I’m here to challenge that notion.

Thea Queen and Laurel Lance are messy characters, and I mean that in the most positive way possible. They have been through hardships, they have made bad decisions, and they have paid the consequences of those bad decisions (a lot of the time made by other people in their lives). They both have dealt with extremely heavy and realistic problems that don’t fall into the realm of magically curing paralysis or somehow feeling no guilt for the death of over 10,000 people. These problems include grief, depression, addiction, and guilt.

Both Thea and Laurel were forced to overcome the grief of losing Oliver instantly. They were both forced to grieve alone in fact. Thea’s parents had one another and shut her out to cry by herself, and Laurel’s parents divorced, her father became an alcoholic, and she also lost her sister, who was sleeping with the love of her life when she “died”. So, Laurel was also forced to deal with the knowledge of that betrayal. While the circumstances regarding these loses are heightened for the sake of television, they still are grounded in realism. Everyone has dealt with the loss of a family member or an incredibly close friend, and everyone has been forced to deal with the grief that comes along with. 

Another thing both Thea and Laurel were forced to go through was addiction. To deal with her grief, Thea began using drugs to cope with the pain she constantly felt, which lead to incredibly negative actions on her part. She was forced to face those consequences and better herself because of them. Laurel, on the other hand, fell into an alcoholic addiction once she lost Tommy, whom she believed to be the new love of her life, and was again left by Oliver, whom she believe would help comfort her in a time of need. Add in the fact that alcoholism runs in the Lance family, and Laurel suddenly becomes a figure for all those struggling with addiction or those who have someone close to them who is struggling with it. And it was constantly thrown in her face. Not only that, but Laurel was forced to overcome her mental illness on her own while also being forced to relive her presumed dead sister and ex-boyfriend once again rekindling their relationship. These women grew from these tragic circumstances they found themselves in; they felt pain; they cried; but they became stronger.

Probably the most relatable thing these women have been forced to overcome is guilt. In season 3, Thea found comfort in the one person she believed would never lie to her: her father. But unbeknownst to her, Malcolm forced her to kill Sara, someone she considered a friend, and once Thea discovered what she had done she was forced to deal with the aftermath. She did not run from it. She faced it head on. She confessed to Laurel, who strongly embraced Thea with open arms and assured her it was not her fault. She confessed to Nyssa in hopes that it would free her from the pain she is feeling. Thea was brave; she was incredibly brave. In season 4, Thea was once again faced with a tremendous amount of guilt as she was forced to choose between killing people to satisfy her bloodlust or let herself die, and she decided the later. She was willing to give up her own life so that she would not hurt anyone else.

Laurel, after being constantly lied to, made the decision to resurrect her sister Sara after she was murdered. Afterwards, she was forced to deal with the guilt and trauma that Sara would endure. While she knew what she did was wrong, Laurel wanted her family back; she did not want to lose her sister again. But her hypocritical ex boyfriend constantly threw it back in her face, and Laurel had enough. She finally stood up. She knew what she put Sara through. She knew the guilt that she was facing, and she didn’t need to be constantly reminded of it.

These women have, without a doubt, the strongest character development on the series. No, they are not perfect. No, they are not witty. And no, they are not just “relatable and grounded.” They are inspirational. They taught us that you can fight back, and that you can overcome your struggles even if everyone around you is telling you that you can’t. It’s okay to be messy. You can pull yourself back up. They felt real things, and it made them real people.

Hmm this is probably a little late but I can’t get over this scene/sentence.

As a lot of other people have already said, this is a pivotal moment in Victor and Yuuri’s relationship as they’re beginning to open up to eachother. But I guess during translation some details got lost because I can see that translators made this sentence really poetic in the subs.

In Japanese, Yuuri says 「踏み込んだ分だけ踏み込んでくれる。」


Firstly, 踏み込む doesn’t mean “to open up”, it implies a way more intimate and personal kind of action and literally means “to step into” or “to break into”, and it’s more like they’re giving away a very important part of themselves to the other. We can also conclude that the stories they tell each other are very personal, and are stories they’ve never told anyone else.

In Victor’s case, there wouldn’t have been an appropriate place or time for him to mention seagulls ever since his move to this point, and besides this, none of the others would be able to relate to this experience other than Yuuri who lived in Detroit for 5 years. Yurio only came to Hasetsu briefly, and was concentrating on skating the whole time, and everyone else has pretty much lived in Hasetsu for their whole life.
In Yuuri’s case, we already know he’s not the type to express his inner emotions publicly (cried in the bathroom), and so when he mentions this girl who was interested in him, how he pushed her away and why he did so, it’s highly likely that this is a story he’s never mentioned before. This is further emphasised through his nervous and shy body language - he’s huddling in on himself, no eye contact, covering his mouth - he’s unsure of himself.


Rather than “he meets me where I am”, the Japanese (分だけ) suggests that Victor opens up to Yuuri JUST AS MUCH as Yuuri has opened up to Victor. Rather than Victor being patient and understanding with Yuuri, he goes a step further, and it’s really as if they’re both finding comfort in eachother. We can already see from the rest of this scene but this is a really personal development between the two of them.


Another thing that wasn’t translated was 「くれる」which pretty much means “for me”. Victor didn’t have to open up to Yuuri, but he did so voluntarily for his sake, because Victor genuinely cares about Yuuri.

anonymous asked:

season two thoughts???

i watched all of this as soon as it came out last night so i probs forgot a lot of details lol. here’s some stuff i liked about s2:

  • sheith fucking died good riddance
  • shiro in ep 1 just being like “guess i’ll die lol” Mood
  • episode 2
  • pidge being cute heals my wounds
  • for some reason i wasn’t expecting a rebel galra organization at all so i really liked that!
  • that monster from the 3rd episode that essentially vores things and then vored itself and died
  • the pool scene and also every klance interaction in general tbh
  • paul blart mall cop space edition! how does netflix know who i am and what i want!!!!!!
  • lance’s cow that just fucking disappeared 
  • galra keith!!! Nice!!!!!!!!!!!
    • hunk making galra keith jokes is my fave i hope we see more of that lmao
  • the scene w lance’s insecurities setting the stage for a lance arc in s3
  • i wasn’t expecting the twist w haggar at all and now i want answers lol
  • i really loved every coran scene i would die for coran

things i didn’t like about s2

  • hunk being reduced to food and fat jokes like…he’s so much more than that wtf hunk deserves better
  • building up other character’s intelligence at lance’s expense is :/// lance is a Smart Boy give him some credit wtf i hope we see lance being respected more in s3
  • lance, hunk, and allura weren’t really around but i’m hoping that this means that s3 will be focused on them like how s2 was focused on keith, shiro, and pidge
  • i wish we saw more of ppl’s (and keith’s tbh) reactions to galra keith but i’m hoping that’ll be addressed in s3 cuz i doubt keith can adjust to this info as quickly as it seemed like he did
    • i hope we learn more about keith’s parents too wtf where is keith’s mom
  •  i can’t remember anything else but there’s a good chance i’ve missed some stuff

so yeah i liked season 2 a lot!!!! it wasn’t perfect but i have a feeling that s3 is gonna be way better and probably make up for what a lot of s2 neglected