i just want to choose something small every day to fall in love with. how often do i really just like… study the heck out of a sunbeam. learn a new word and find out how to use it, teach it to others. watch birds because birds are nice. find a new favorite color. to find out something about each person in my life to compliment them on that’s genuine and better than “you’re pretty,” i mean realizing they always get water for other people before they sit down at lunch or how neat their notes are or how they always have a good pun. i want to listen harder and talk a little less and say more important stuff. and i want to watch out for stuff to just obsess over like a cool cloud or a tree and just. learn stuff from people. ask more questions about how her hair is so silky and just. fall in love with everybody.
Oh god, I totally understand your feelings regarding tapastic bl stuff. I used to be quite into it (ew) but looking back I realise that it's actually a really gross sub genre that does nothing to actually enhance LGBT fiction or discuss legitimate issues. Loads of them have incest as well which I don't think I need to say anything about...but yeah whole thing is just not good, I hope you're able to find a way to get your work out of that category - it's so much more than yaoi nonsense