i found religion

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❛ what a modern fucking tragedy you turned out to be. ❜
❛ what do you think the stars wish for then? ❜
❛ maybe i could have loved you in any life but ours. ❜
❛ i used to ache for a hurricane, an earthquake. ❜
❛ i found a catalyst for disaster in you. ❜
❛ is this what happens when the poem ends? ❜
❛ i found religion in betrayal. ❜
❛ things like us only exist in dreams. ❜
❛ you can’t give your storms to someone else. ❜
❛ nothing lasts forever, not even the rain. ❜
❛ it’s okay to fear. ❜
❛ don’t claw out your own throat while waiting for someone else to scream. ❜
❛ you are memories and moments. ❜
❛ in some other universe you’re asleep. ❜
❛ everyone leaves. let them. ❜
❛ you are not a ghost.  ❜
❛ you can’t haunt those that forget you. ❜
❛ everything ends and it’s okay. ❜
❛ my heart kept beating, out of sync with yours. ❜
❛ maybe i get to have a reason for the ache you left in my chest. ❜
❛ you exist still. ❜
❛ we can’t remember how to be alive. ❜
❛ the heavens burn for you and i. ❜
❛ every star is another story, every night a different sky. ❜
❛ we end to begin again. ❜
❛ beyond every somewhere, we exist. ❜
❛ the gods lie as often as men. ❜
❛ i sit not upon a throne of bone. ❜
❛ my kingdom wasn’t chosen. ❜
❛ the dead of mine do not speak. ❜
❛ history will write that you were the bravest of them all. ❜
❛ all stars must burn. ❜
❛ the greatest things must end. ❜
❛ hell is just another place i guess i’ll go to keep you warm. ❜
❛ if the monster always dies at the end of the book, why am i still alive? ❜
❛ gods don’t care about what might have been. ❜
❛ men shall fall and gods be forgotten. ❜
❛ you will be remembered eternally. ❜

I’m scathed
and I couldn’t tell you that I tried to kill myself eight months ago,
before I met you, a new beginning,
where I found religion in something I could physically touch and see.
But blue skies only last so long,
and you saw the word UNLOVABLE
carved into my skin.
I have trouble being honest,
and you’ll never truly know me enough
to stomach to all I have to say,
to reach into the depths of my heart and find what you’re looking for.
I’m trapped under layers of cellophane,
I’m a glass surface that will reflect off
who you want to see
and I can make myself look so beautiful,
it’s what I do,
but you shouldn’t trust me alone for too long.
Christian Ask Game!!

I have scoured tumblr searching for an ask game centered around Christianity. I couldn’t find one, so I made one instead! This is not an exhaustive list, feel free to add more questions if you like!

  1. What is the kindest thing that someone has ever done for you?
  2. If you could change places with a Bible character, who would you choose? Why?
  3. If you could add two commandments to the existing ten, what would they be?
  4. If you could break one of the commandments, which would it be and why?
  5. What is your favorite book of the Bible? Why?
  6. If you could perform miracles, what would you do?
  7. Which souls of our society do you think need the most help?
  8. Have you had a prayer answered lately? Share the story.
  9. Who has been the greatest influence on your Christian life and why?
  10. What do you think delights God above everything else?
  11. What made you decide to attend your church?
  12. How would your life be different if you knew Jesus was returning later today?
  13. Share about a spiritual experience you have had.
  14. Besides murder and violence – what do you think the worst kind of sin is?
  15. What is your most favorite bible you have received? Why?
  16. When you think about God – what is the first thing that comes to mind?
  17. What are your biggest questions about your relationship with God?
  18. When is it most difficult to trust God?
  19. What are the best parts about being a part of this church?
  20. What have you learned recently from another Christian?
  21. Favorite Bible quote/passage?
  22. Who is your favorite Christian that is a celebrity?
  23. Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
  24. What church do you belong to?
  25. What would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates?
  26. Do you feel you have a purpose or calling in life?
  27. What do you think the secret to a good life is?
  28. Were you born and raised Christian or did you become Christian later in your life?
  29. If you could ask God one question, what would you ask?
  30. Have you ever been to a religious retreat or camp before?
  31. If you could have witnessed anything in the Bible, what would you have wanted to see?
  32. What do you think will be the best thing about Heaven?
  33. Do you have a favorite quote about Christianity (not from the Bible)?
  34. Do you have a favorite prayer?
  35. What about a favorite saint?
  36. Do you believe in Purgatory?
  37. What is one misconception about Christianity that is not true?
  38. What is some advice you might give to a person questioning their faith in God?

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I found God in the heat of her lips,
the drive of her nails in my back
And the grip on my hips
I found my own religion in the look on her face
when she smiled at me,
The uptick of the corners of her mouth,
the light in her eyes and the feel of her cheek in my palm
I got to heaven in the slide of her skin on mine,
The teeth slotted at my throat
and the sweat slick down my back
I will never understand how something so holy could be sacrilege
—  Ode to All That is Holy; Her, Always Her

i. Is this what happens after the poem ends?
These freckles on my arms that you used to touch —

ii. I burned the leaf I stole from the tree you kissed me by. I found religion in betrayal and the way the smoke curled, reaching for the sky.

iii. After the ash crumbled in my palm I wrote us a constellation, painted the hunger onto my skin.

— I am left starving. And you, still holy.

—  Letters to Judas, loving a thief  | p.d (via p.d vulpe)
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