hello!! i absolutely love WLFA, but weirdly i find even to be very emotionally manipulative towards isak! when "darcy" even (unintentionally) breaks isaks heart and isak confides to "anonymous" even, even knows how he fells but instead of fixing it, he tells him he deserves better than darcy. Then when anonymous breaks isaks heart (he had reasons but he knew how fragile isak was and didnt explain), darcy tells isak he deserves better! how can isak eve forgive even for not telling him darcy=anon?
that’s an interesting perspective. i can see where you’re coming from, but – the thing about those two things is that even never used them to his favor – at least, not intentionally.
neither did he use anything he learned about isak as anonymous even to his favor. in fact, cz and i were very careful never to allow even to have more of an upper hand than he already had by being both isak’s anonymous pen pal and himself; he never used any of the information he learned as his anonymous self to his favor, not if he could help it.
in regards to the sonja situation, he spilled all of his love and apologies on paper, afraid that if he tried to apologize in person (which he did try many times, anyway, considering that with or without the notes – even would probably be aware of the effect meeting sonja would have on isak) it’d mean nothing to isak. and he couldn’t immediately rectify the situation, considering sonja, at the time, was going through a very difficult time in her life after losing her mother figure, and even might believe he’s an asshole, but he doesn’t think he’s that much of an asshole.
similarly, when even holds isak and tells him he doesn’t deserve whatever is making him feel this way in chapter nine, he’s aware that he’s the one that messed up. he’s acknowledging that isak deserves better than whatever he has to offer, but he never once uses these acknowledgments as excuses or to favor himself or his anonymous self. he just states it as fact, because to him, it is a fact.
he uses anonymous him to try and mend the heart he broke, unable to do much else in his situation. he holds isak and states a fact. but he never uses this as an excuse to coerce isak into a relationship with either of his personas, and even at the end, even realizes isak deserves a choice in the matter, which becomes far more prominent in the last chapters.
even knows what he did was not okay. he knows that he should have come clean much sooner than he did. but he was never malicious in his intentions, and much like in canon, he was protecting himself and isak, as he genuinely believed he was doing what was best for everyone involved. it’s not like even wasn’t hurting when he saw isak hurting — because he was. and this is not the case for emotionally manipulative people. people are flawed, and i think even more so, because in trying to protect himself, in being ashamed of his mental illness, he unintentionally brought isak down with him. and that was never, and will never be, his intention.
isak is a very, very smart boy. right now he is understandably hurt and betrayed and angry. even knows he’s well in his right, and he will not push for more than isak is willing to give him. if that’s nothing, then even will accept that, no questions asked.