How Would You Feel
Word Count: 2079
Summary: Baz writes poems about how Simon would react if he told him about his feelings. Over the years, his view on that changes.
Baz sat on his bed, staring at the white wall on the other side of the room. Out of the corner of his eye, he saw Simon shifting on his own bed. A short while, he observed Simon without looking at him. Then he redirected his gaze on the notebook in front of him.
set the pen at the the top left of the paper, then he put it down
again. He shot Simon a quick glance, who was looking at him,
suspicious. Baz sighed so quietly that Simon wouldn’t have been able
to hear it. It was still torture. Now that he knew. Now that he had
finally figured it all out. Lately, Simon had been sneaking up on him
all the time. That’s when Baz had noticed the weird urges he was
having. To turn around when Simon followed him and pull him in his
arms. To calm him down when he was about to go off. To kiss him when
he had the chance.
It was torture to be aware of these urges. Eventually, Baz set the pen on the paper once again, writing ‘A poem’. He noticed that Simon was observing him. He wasn’t even subtle about it. It drove Baz to insanity. He held on to the paper, his heart beating fast. He felt so many things that sometimes he thought he’d rather feel nothing at all. Now his feelings sprawled out in black ink on the paper in front of him.