i felt the need to make something


For the past two days, I have spent my entire time glued to my phone helping somebody who was once a stranger to me. Two days ago, a stranger privately messaged me saying that she wanted some help. I’m not going to go into her details, but something traumatic had happened and she hadn’t felt the need to breathe no longer. So, I stopped writing and postponed the fics that needed to be uploaded, and I spoke to her all day and all night. It took two whole days to convince her that her life was worthy and I do not regret a single second of it. I saved a life and it makes me so damn happy.

The point of this whole thing is to remind you that you are NOT alone and that I am ALWAYS here to speak to. Suicide isn’t something I like and it’s a tough subject for me to deal with, but I’ll push through my trauma just to make sure you’re okay.

As most of you know (if you have been following me for the ten months), it has taken me nearly five months to return to daily activities after losing my best friend to suicide in early November last year. It had hurt more than I thought it would when I found out because in early January last year I had lost my only cousin to suicide and my best friend promised me he wouldn’t leave me that way. I had only just returned to daily activities before losing him, too. Now, I’m just a clueless mess on where to start living with my life. Nothing has been the same without the two of them bugging me constantly.

If you think that killing yourself is the only way to end all the pain you feel—let me remind you that it isn’t the only way. If you ever went through with that, all that pain you feel will drift into those who love and care for you and let me tell you know, that pain it is not the best. If you ever contemplate it, please message me. I wouldn’t want to lose another precious soul who belonged on this Earth. You are worthy of every breath you take. You are worthy of your existence. You are loved and you are cared for. You’re a beautiful person and you shouldn’t allow that to become nothing.

Talk to me about anything—anything that is troubling you, anything that is hurting you, anything that is harming your life—just message me and I’ll be there to listen to you. Heck, I’ll freaking facetime you just to make sure you are okay and I’ll stay up all night to make sure that you stay okay. You are strong and you are capable of living. You matter in this world and there is someone out there who is waiting for your existence to be present in their life. That person is me. I love you and I don’t want you to leave this world behind. I want you to stay and be strong and hold your head up and ignore the negativity. I believe that you can make it. I’ll help guide you through hell, even if it means I have to open old wounds just to help you find your light. I’ll crawl through Hell over and over again just to get you all to safety.

So put down that gun, get rid of the rope, throw away those pills, flush down that blade, step away from the edge of the highest building, walk away from that bridge and turn off that stove. Whatever way you are choosing to end your life, get away from it.

Please, I’m begging you. Don’t throw your life away just because there’s bad in it. Keep breathing and keep crawling and you’ll find something good. This is coming from someone who has lost two amazing people to suicide and who has thought about it and suffers from depression herself. You matter to me and to the world.

Keep living. Keep breathing. Stay alive.
There’s good coming your way, just be patient, honeybee. I love you so much.

Remember; message me whenever you want. I am always here to listen and to help you. 💖

This has maybe been said before, but I feel the need to reiterate. Just because you disagree with a person’s portrayal or their interpretation of a character, does not mean they are incorrect. It is fine to have a difference in a opinion. In fact, that’s what makes humans so incredible. However, it is not okay to offer condescending “help” to someone every time you see them post headcanons or meta. This sort of thing can end up eroding someone’s confidence in their ability to write whatever character or worse yet they just decide to stop writing that character altogether. Especially, if they aren’t already confident. And NO I am not talking about constructive criticism or saying people should stop offering constructive criticism. Don’t be stupid. What I’m talking about is not constructive because it is less ( or not at all ) about helping a person further develop their character and more about molding someone’s unique portrayal into what you believe is the “correct” portrayal. STOP trying to force people into boxes you deem appropriate. Not every portrayal will be the same or something you personally agree with and that is perfectly okay! This is one of the beautiful things about rp. If you don’t like someone’s portrayal unfollow them and/or find another that you do like if you can. But don’t harass people about their interpretations! It just kind of makes you look like an asshole.  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

blazingbowstring  asked:

When you get this, please respond with five things that make you happy. Then send to the last ten people in your notifications anonymously

1. okami :’> (i gotta)

2. finding the Good Music™

3. hope.

4. my ocs and original story!!!!!! <3 <3

5. …tumblr, tbh. i mean, i know its a Professional Hellsite, but at the same time, i’m really grateful for my followers, my mutuals, for the great posts and the amazing art/writing/etc., the kindness people can show, and all the other stuff like that :’0 thank you all for being here with me :’>


   Please keep in mind that, however hard my muse may argue something or however confidently they make a statement, they can be wrong. It’s my muse’s opinion, and my muse talking, and their perception is skewed.
              Do not feel like everything out of my character’s mouth is the truth, or that I’m godmodding. 

{Reaction} Waking EXO up at 3am because you’re in the mood

EXO reaction when is 3AM and their girlfriend wake then up because she’s in the mood ( I write right? XD)

Note: I hope this is good and that you all enjoy it! I’m sorry my posting isn’t very frequent at the moment, but I’m trying my best to make fresh content and reply to your requests whenever I can. Fighting~! Mami x

Disclaimer: I don’t own the gifs/ images used.

Main Masterlist - EXO Masterlist

Park Chanyeol

Originally posted by parkchny

Chanyeol grumbled irritably as he felt his whole body being shaken vigorously awake. He’d been dreaming about something, but whatever it was had escaped his mind now, leaving him with nothing but a tired mind and a bothersome girlfriend. He turned to look at you in the bed, but his whole tired perspective changed as soon as you told him you needed him.

Chanyeol: *Pulls you roughly underneath him* “I was sleeping, Jagi. I think you deserve a punishment for waking me up.” *Voice still hoarse from only just waking up.*

Do Kyungsoo/ D.O.

Originally posted by veriloquentmind

Usually, Kyungsoo doesn’t fall into your advances quite so easily if it’s at what he’d call ‘a stupid hour of the morning’ because he works a lot, and sleep doesn’t come often to him at the best of times. But tonight, he’s needing it too, because God knows how many nights of work has stopped him from getting to be with you like this. He was glad you asked, because he was sure he needed it more than you did.

{y/n}: “You’re already hard? Wow, someone must have been pent up.” *smirking*

Kyungsoo: “Just shut up and kiss me”

Byun Baekhyun

Originally posted by blondejongin

Baekhyun was much luckier than the other two with his awakening. He woke up to the sensation of your lips pressing against his neck. He woke up to a pound of pleasure hitting him right where he needed it. Usually he’d joke about the time, or that he knew you wanted him, but now, he was too endorsed in you that he completely lost his sense of humour. All he wanted was you.

Baekhyun: “Get those shorts off your pretty little butt, Jagiya.”

Oh Sehun

Originally posted by wooyoung

Sehun pretends like he’s annoyed that you wake him up to begin with, but it isn’t long until he’s in the mood too and completely forgot about his fake grudge against you putting a stopper on his beauty sleep.

Sehun: “Ah jagi, don’t stop.”

{y/n}: *smirking* “I thought all you wanted was to go back to sleep?”

Sehun: … *Pushes you underneath and starts kissing you to hide his embarrassment.*

Zhang Yixing/ Lay

Originally posted by lobbu-lobbu

When you woke up Yixing, it took him a few minutes to adjust and actually wake up. But when he was fully awake, he didn’t question it and just let you come onto him, not that he’d ever complain about that. He smirked as he started to kiss your neck.

Yixing: “You’re asking for it now, Jagiya.”

Kim Jongdae/ Chen

Originally posted by everybodyloveschen

You woke up Jongdae, and to begin with, he was annoyed, letting out an irritable ‘wae’ as you repeated his name. But when he felt you hands traveling down to his crotch, he stopped whining immediately and fall into your touches.

Jongdae: “I was trying to- oh you want that? Okay”

Kim Minseok/ Xiumin

Originally posted by mercuryica

Minseok woke up to the sensation of your hands on his hips, massaging them as you pressed kisses to his lower torso. He grumbled, waking up with the biggest amount of arousal than he’d ever felt in his life.

{y/n}: “Do you want me to stop?”

Minseok: “Never stop, Jagiya.”

Huang Zitao/ Tao

Originally posted by bingutopdaeri

You think you’re the one waking up Tao when you’re in the mood? I don’t think so. Tao is more likely to wake you up more often than not when he’s in the mood. On this occasion, you had been moaning in your sleep, and Tao had honestly tried to refrain himself, but in the end, he woke you up anyway, unable to handle how hot you sounded.

Tao: “It’s not my fault Jagi, you were moaning.”

{y/n}: “Well it’s your turn to moan this time.” *Give him what he wants so you can go back to sleep.*

Kim Junmyeon/ Suho

Originally posted by qrishan

Suho woke up to you kissing him on the neck, and that was enough for him to follow your lead, no questions or hesitations.

Suho: “That’s it babygirl.”


Originally posted by wooyoung

Luhan woke up with the sensation of being very hard, but that’s when he realised that it wasn’t just a sensation, he actually was hard. He looked over at you, you were looking at him sheepishly, with flushed cheeks as if you’d done something sinful.

{y/n}: “You were moaning in your sleep and it turned me on… I’m sorry I woke you, I’m just-”

Luhan: “Get your pretty little arse over here right now.”

Kim Jongin/ Kai

Originally posted by kaibility

You can pretty much guarantee that whatever time you want to have sex with Kai, he’s going to be up for it. Even if it’s at three in the afternoon, or three in the morning. When you woke him up, pleading for him to pleasure you, he doesn’t need to be asked twice.

Kai: *Brushes his hand against your lower half ‘accidentally,’ smirking as you moaned* “What’s that Jagi? You want me to touch you there?” *Teasing you af*

Wu Yifan/ Kris

Originally posted by krismehard

Waking Kris up at three o'clock in the morning for sex is going to be both a wish and a curse. It’s good, because he isn’t going to question it, and he’ll pleasure you more than amazingly (because this man is obviously a god in the bedroom), but when it comes to the day after and you can’t walk, that’s when you’re going to realise the damage that you’ve done (AKA inflated his ego by about 10 times.)

Kris: “What’s wrong Jagi? Struggling to walk?”

{y/n}: “Shut up, I’ll hit you.”

Kris: “Go ahead, it would be my pleasure.” *winks*

anonymous asked:

how do you feel about the sudden increase of posts criticising su?

I initially felt like some of them are actually making valid points, but the way many people are acting in some posts like that has kind of made me hate all those posts now lol. Like i just don’t understand the mentality of putting so much effort into something you hate, or acting like the show was made for you specifically or something. That kind of attitude has turned me off to that whole like, subsection of tumblr. plus their blogs are just 1000% pure negativity and honestly?? I don’t need it in my life lol.

Another thing is that it seems like for people who claim to be critics, they take criticism VERY poorly. i.e. upon posting this im very confident that some of those blogs will probably send me passive aggressive anon asks saying I’m an idiot (which like, ya that’s fair tbh but I’m doin my best)

So I am definitely being subjective here but I’m not a fan of the blogs that post that kind of stuff generally. Like don’t get me wrong, they are obviously totally free to post and share what they want, you do you. Just for me personally, I don’t like to see it.


I am not a piece of meat that a man gets to utilize for his pleasure. I’m an adult human being in a relationship with a man who treats me with love and respect. It hurts my heart that so many young people are so confortable enough using these phrases and objectifying women with such ease. I felt like speaking out about this one experience tonight because I know very well that most women know the sensation  of being spoken about in an uncomfortable way pubicly or taken advange of publicly by a man. We need to talk about these moments openly because they are harmful and they live on inside of us as shame. We need to share and be vocal when something makes us feel uncomfortable because if we don’t, it will just continue. We are not objects or prizes. We are QUEENS.

it’s important to remember we’re a community and nobody is better than anybody else because of the amount of zeros on the end of their follower count

i felt the need to say that because (especially recently) i get a lot of people telling me they feel left out and upset because yeah favouritism exists and in the past people have let their follower counts go to their heads as if it defines their worth or makes them famous or something

there should be no weird hierarchy or cliques this isn’t high school most of us come on here to escape that shit

we share a mutual love for two giant nerds who love us just as much and that’s the only thing that matters here

we’re just people who blog and have fun and laugh and make friends and that’s all this should be - fun.

you’re all rad as heck.

Give Malachite Some Love

Everyone always says “I feel so bad for Lapis when she was in Malachite!!” And “I feel so bad for Jasper when she was in Malachite!!”

How the hell do you think Malachite felt, she didn’t even get to have her own voice and she was always torn between Lapis and Jasper. Fusions have their own personalities and Malachite never got to express HER personality.

As much as I love the ship, the two gems that make her, and Malachite,
I feel really bad that the fandom doesn’t seem to care that Malachite was hurting as well in the relationship, that or they forget about her and only focus on Lapis or Jasper and how terrible they are together.

Give Malachite a hug or a kiss or something she needs it

Will there be a new season of Rwby Chibi???! I need it!

Originally posted by cili-rwby


So I felt the need to make this post because I’ve been getting a lot of emails asking me for collabs but there are a lot of things that are a bit off in these emails so I wanted to clarify for yall how to ask someone for a collab.


Write these emails like you’re writing a school email. I’m not super picky about formatting or “dear star” at the top or something, but you can’t send me an email that just says “u want to collab? I need voice for fandub” Or something like that. 100% of the time if you send me an email like this, I will not reply. I simply dont have time to email back and have an email chain figuring out what you mean. Try to use complete sentences, and spell words correctly. Also stay away from “u” and stuff like that, because it doesn’t look professional at all.


This is the biggest one I have an issue with. If you don’t have a previous channel or any other previous work, that’s completely fine. I am perfectly open to working with people who haven’t done anything online before. However, you need to show me something. A preview, a sample of the voice acting, a demo of the game, something like that. Also, include information about what you precisely would need from me. “I would like you to voice this character, in this particular voice, and here is a sample of the lines I would need.” is a good example. If you’re not set on the lines or what kind of voice you need that’s fine, I dont need something really specific, just a rough estimate or more information about the project. 


I get about 4-5 emails daily asking if someone could join the channel as a possible voice actor. I’m completely open to adding people as possible voice actors, I’ve done it many times before, but you NEED to send me a demo reel if you’re looking to join or have an established channel or work that I can check out. It’s as simple as that. Remember, your voice is your trade. You need to showcase your trade. 


Nothing makes me want to delete an email more than reading the words: Here’s my demo reel, it’s so bad don’t look at it. I’m not saying you should send me an email saying “I AM THE BEST VOICE ACTOR IN THE WORLD HIRE ME”, but try to remember that when you’re sending me a demo reel or something like that you’re sending me an audition. If you walked into any audition and told the director not to listen to you, they would send you out of the room. I’m going to do the same. You’re an actor, you’re selling yourself. A better way to word it if you’re not sure about your audition is to say: “I’m still working on it, could I get some constructive feedback?” That right there is WAY better than “this is so bad.” I know this is a weird thing to be picky about, but I get a lot of these types of emails and it weighs on me. 

5. DONT SEND ME “CAN YOU CRITIQUE MY UNDERTALE AU?” just dont do it. I’d love to check out a comic or something, but I know nothing about creating AUs.  

AND THATS IT! I know I was a little strict in this post, don’t let that stop you from sending me an email! I love what I do and I love meeting new people through the internet, I just felt the need to share with you guys the best way to send emails because then you have a better chance of getting in contact with me! Plus this is helpful for people who don’t really know how to send these types of emails, and don’t beat yourself up if you didn’t know. 
Also just because why not, my email is starbotcentral@gmail.com. 

I’m gonna make it a series, it’ll be called People Who’ve Barely Said A Word In Canon And Yet I Love So Very Much Anyway


Hey @therealjacksepticeye
I’ve watched the Revelmode stream yesterday and sketched while watching. Here are your three Portrait I did.

But there’s more i need to say… Of course some fans are implied some septiplier stuff, and I have to say that I read fanfictions of this Genre as well. But then I saw you at the stream. I felt bad and got a guilty conscence. Its surely not easy for you I think, and I wanted to apologize.
My guiltiness doesn’t even let me sleep. I know it must Sound stupid or weird, that a stranger apologizes to you for something so trivial. I mean it like that. I’m very sorry for making uncomfortable.

Thanks of you saw this and took your time to read such a minor post from someone you doesn’t even know.

How BTS would react to a girl being added to their group.(request)

Seokjin: This freaking awkward gentleman would always make sure that she was okay and that she felt like she belonged but, very awkwardly would ask her.  “Oh, I’m sorry was it your turn to sing? Do you need water or… no okay I’m sorry please continue.” 

Originally posted by chimchams

Yoongi: Would always help her if she needed help with something. They would both constantly be in the studio listening to each others new ideas for the up coming album.                                                                                                                      “Do you think I should move this line over here instead of having it here? Don’t you think that would flow better when you are rapping?”

Originally posted by jeonbase

Hoseok: This ball of sunshine would be so excited! He would want to show her around, would help her with dancing whenever she asked for help, and probably highkey have sing-offs.                                                                             “You’re doing great (Y/N)! Keep it up!”

Originally posted by bangtanbighit

Namjoon: So nice and kind! Would always have long conversations with her about anything and everything. Always ask each other about fashion advise while they work in the studio.                                                                                 “Okay so this lyric is more meaningful so sing it with a lot of passion, but heres the real question can you help me with #kimdaily?”

Originally posted by eatjin

Jimin: This mother freaking angel! He would make her feel at home always making sure she has what she needs and if not he would go and get it. He would help her with singing in the studio.                                                             “Do you need anything before we start practicing? Food? Water? Do you want to sit or stand?”

Originally posted by bangtannoonas

Taehyung: This smiley little shit would introduce her to EVERYONE and take her everywhere going on little adventures at two in the morning. Would defiantly goof off while singing in the studio.                                                                       “Hey (Y/N) there’s a new ice cream place downtown we should go check it out!”

Originally posted by averageoppa

Jungkook: This boy would be so shy!! He would most likely do what he did in the early stages of BTS wait till she’s asleep to eat and shower. Once he warmed up to her it would be hard to get them away from each other.                “Is (Y/N) coming with us to go to the bathroom? What do you mean no?!”

Originally posted by bwipsul

  ~Admin Zee

Okay I don’t want to start drama, but I wanted to make a point about the issue with Pewdiepie.

Whether or not Felix meant what he said, he still said it at a time when the world is in chaos regarding minorities.  He said what he said at a time when his TRUE opinion on the matter REALLY means something.  He was careless with his words and whom those words might hurt.  Even if it was a joke, which I do believe it was, there are some things you should never joke about.  Felix is not the devil incarnate, and this does not make him the scum of the earth.  What it DOES make him is someone who made a very bad, insensitive call and refuses to listen to anyone about it.

I just hope he learns from this mistake.