i felt that we needed this

- dee loves charlie
- charlie (kinda) loves dee
- charlie loves frank “Frank’s gonna leave me for Jerry”?!
- frank loves charlie
- MAC LOVES DENNIS
- Mac got Dennis the RPG because he feels like this will evoke emotion from Dennis, something Mac believes Dennis has trusted only him to see, which is why he tried to get Dennis to open the crate “just me and you”
- Mac getting choked up explaining that he ordered the RPG on the dark web
- DENNIS LOVES MAC AND CRIED ABOUT HIS GIFT

You guys. We have literally never seen Dennis cry aside from his own mental breakdowns. This time, he cried because he felt loved and cared for. By Mac. Who knows him better than anyone else, who pays attention to him and is so thoughtful to his Dennis’ needs 😭😭😭

Also I love how we are living macdennis every episode since the coming-out

anonymous asked:

I work at the coffee place with donuts & we're training at a different store as ours gets built. My idiot coworker skipped many drinks as we're doing the drivethru, said he made them, & wouldn't make them again like I & others told him to. We're timed, however that's not why he's an idiot, I know it happens. He was told to clean outside. We have 5 cars in the drive-thru, & he stands RIGHT IN FRONT OF THE CARS as he cleans. I Felt bad yelling at him that he had to move. Was I right yelling @him?

You had every right. His actions could affect all of you if a customer were to make a complaint. He needs a size 21 foot up his ass. -Abby

So…

A couple days ago I had a bad mental breakdown. It was really… Rough, but it did finally get to tell my mom I can’t do this anymore. I need help. We’re gonna start looking for a therapist for me in the next week or two.

It’s taken me years to get to the point of admitting that I can’t do this on my own. And I have done everything in my power to try and make myself feel… Better. I spend time with friends, I go out and do things that make me really happy (pet cafes and conventions), I take personal time to just be alone and stay in bed when I’m having really off days… But it’s all felt so temporary. And lately it’s been harder for me to pull myself out of dark thoughts.

I’m very anxious about the whole thing. Partially relieved but… I just don’t know how things will go. I’m not looking forward to telling a stranger the worst things that have happened to me. But I’m also hopeful… I just want to feel… Like I’m stable. I want to feel alright. It doesn’t have to be “better” or “happy”. I’m honestly fine if I can achieve content.

anonymous asked:

I was having a breakdown in our session today and she'd never seen me in that state. She asked what I needed and I said I didn't know, so she thought for a minute and said: "I think we need to get out. You must feel trapped in here. If you promise not to jump out of my car we can go for a ride and get Starbucks and just drive with the windows down." And we did just that for the rest of the session. I felt so much better by the time we got back. I still can't believe she did that for me :)

anonymous asked:

dear Angel, how do you "check" somebody when they're being disrespectful, w/o turning it into a huge fight? (thank you, your blog is everything.).

i don’t let it escalate into a fight by having a calm but serious demeanor. i also use “i” instead of ‘you” statements. ie.”i felt disrespected when you said xyz the other night.” 

if they try to fight with me i’ll either say “i’m not arguing with you, i’m just letting you know how i’m feeling” or i shut down the conversation & talk to them later when they calm down. if they can’t handle themselves like a grown person and they have a meltdown or try to fight me every time we disagree or get into a little spat then maybe they don’t need to be in my life.

-angel

thatcupofjo  asked:

Hey! Creator of the Hollywood (Our Work Isn't Done) vid here-- just wanted to clarify, since the press we got is kinda misleading. We didn't take anything from Hamilton the Musical. We're riffing off of Immigrants (We Get The Job Done) from the mixtape. When we were coming up with the idea I was purposefully avoiding any of the songs from the musical itself, because I felt like they were... overdone.

I haven’t listened to the mix tape, hence my confusion (because yeah, the press is misleading).  Thank you so much for the note, and for the video itself!  It’s beautifully lain out and staged, your cinematography is fantastic, and the message is so important.

Thank you for doing what you’re doing.  It’s not easy, and it’s so needed.

I came out

I came out to my mom yesterday, I told her that her daughter will no longer be her daughter. I will be her son, the son I’ve always meant to be. Now nothing about this was easy, as a matter of fact, it felt like a constant anxiety attack. Kinda like when someone texts you “we need to talk.” Now she didn’t take it very well. After I move away from home and start to transition, I’m not to sure I’ll even have a woman left in my life to call mom. That’s heart breaking because she’s all I have. No father to love me when mom doesn’t. For now, its walking on eggshells and hoping I don’t come home one day to my stuff sitting outside the door and the locks changed, leaving me with no where to go. I pray to a God that I’m not even sure exists anymore due to the amount of Hate people like me have in their lives, that I don’t come home to find my stuff like that. I wish she could understand that, I’ve lived 20 years living to please everyone, it’s time I do this thing for me: I need start to being me. I need to reintroduce myself as Nixon Zane. Trans is beautiful no matter what. I’ve loved myself more since I’ve come out being trans more than I ever have before. If this is what self love feels like, I don’t think I’ve ever felt it before.

2

I am currently waiting for the possible snow storm. A snow day would be much appreciated, but highly unlikely. I felt like this picture accurately shows the snowfall amounts various news channels have been forecasting….

As far as life goes - we all know I don’t deal well with things out of my control. This entire house selling, hunting, buying process has me at my limit.

My husband, bless his heart, is a major cause of my stress. One minute he is saying things like, “Yes. Let’s schedule another showing for that house.” And then five minutes later, “Why did you contact the realtor? This whole thing probably will take months. We don’t need to go look again NOW.”

😕

Then ten minutes later, “Yes. I really do want to live in a new city. A fresh start somewhere different.” Followed shortly after with, “We should stay close to here. Probably in the same town.”

🤔

A few minutes later, “So did you hear back from the realtor about the showing? You should ask your mom to come too, to see what she thinks.”

He ended the conversation with, “You know, the Amish probably won’t even end up buying our house. We’ll just be here forever.”

I CANT EVEN.

I caved and finally called the doctor. Sheps fever was 102.5 this morning. They told me to just keep doing what I’m doing. If it goes up more tomorrow to call back and probably bring him in.
We had a rough night. He went to bed at 8. Ian and I couldn’t fall asleep til 2. Shep woke up at 3. He didn’t go back to sleep til 5. And then was up at 7. My darling husband got up with him and let me sleep longer than I thought I would get.
Since there was nothing more to be done for Shep, I left him in his fathers very capable hands and went for a pedicure with my mom. I haven’t had one since September and she offered to treat. It felt lovely. Then I got to go to Trader Joe’s by myself. It was nice getting to take my time and think about what we need.
Shep is now napping and ian went to the office for an award ceremony. He was top performer in January on his team and he’s getting a small award. I’m so proud of him. If Shep was well we would go support him.
I’m tired. I totally got prosciutto pasta and a jar of sauce from TJ’s today for dinner.
Sigh.

anonymous asked:

do you honestly believe that anon about Dasha harrassing them is real? in a time where people are constantly "good guy-ing" both Dasha and Edwin, of course people are going to create fake drama over them. unless that anon has proof there is no reason to believe some anon about a drama issue irrelevant to Onision other than create more drama until they provide proof. if someone said 'lainey messaged me and asked me to fuck greg cause i look like billie" you just gonna believe that?

I could see her doing it, but whether she did or not, it really doesn’t matter all that much. I doubt we’re going to need to “expose” Dasha. It’s weird if she does do that, but hey, as far as we know, she’s not a pedophile, right? She’s not doing anything spectularly bad. It’s irrelevant. I just felt like commenting.

anonymous asked:

Do you have any headcanons of Alucard while he was Vlad or as a small child? At least any headcanons you haven't shared yet?

Honestly?
I have none.
Vlad as a kid isn’t something I’d wanna think about too long because it’s such a sad tale.

Vlad in general…well… I guess because we have all the accounts and what people said about him historically I’ve never felt the need to make up headcanons.
And well…Vladcard has such limited screen time as well….

HOWEVER
I do see Vladcard and Alucard has two very different identities and personalities, for the simple basis is that Alucard has had all this time to change (even if its for the worst) and come into his own as the servant of Hellsing and the Church of England.
Not to mention when you think about it, the person you are now is not the person you were, say, 5 years ago.

Running and races and pregnancy

I went and did 3 miles with my running group this evening. I wanted to do the whole 4 but my sciatica has been acting up today from being up a lot with the baby and peeing the night before, plus sitting on the floor to change diapers and play with the kids. I need to make sure to change diapers on the ottoman. I’m going to make a chiropractor appointment for me and my daughter this weekend I think because we both need it. I should get the boys checked too to make sure their hips and such are doing good. I ordered a smaller maternity belt I’m hoping works better for my running and such so I can get relief during my runs. It causes pain and some numbness all down my right leg. Tonight I felt like naturally I wanted to not lift my right foot as much with my stride because the higher I lifted the worse my back hurt so it caused my Achilles’ tendon and calf to hurt from a lack of proper stretching. But I did 3 at the very least. I want to try and so 2 tomorrow and Friday if I get up early enough just to keep up my training. And Sunday I’m going to try to get in a 9 mile run. We will see though with how I feel. My abdomen hurt a bit tonight too so I definitely need a support belt.

Cassa was sitting and people watching in Stormwind, which was unusually boring for its standards. Thankfully, her day was brightened when Hector appeared near her. She simply laughed at him as she glanced him over, he was in dress pants and a coat, looking rather dressed up.

“Oh, come on now, I just felt like it. I’m taking you out, by the way, do you want to change?”

Cass looked herself over, “Do I –need- to change?” She was in her standard gear, knives, leather, and well-armed, but always hidden.

“No, no, I just… Well, let’s go then.” He was up to something. The mage he brought along conjured them a portal on the spot, and they walked through it with ease.


Hector looked around. “We are in the right spot, come on.” He began to lead her down a pathway, he seemed nervous but remained composed for the most part. Over a small hill there was a small area set up for a romantic dinner, seating for only two. The plates were set with some fresh meats cooked what seems to be only a few minutes ago, greens fresh from the field as well as other fixings one would find at a dinner. Hector led Cassa to a seat and pulled the seat out for her.

Cas chuckled some, “We in… Val'sharah? I thought this place was covered in nightmare shit.” She smirked and sat down, nodding out a thank you.

“I asked Bea and she recommended the spot to me, I ain’t the most romantic type.” He chuckled.

Cas smirked, “Asked her on where to eat?” She chuckled and shook her head, “I’m shocked she didn’t say a pub.” She motioned to her food, asking if they could dig in.

He nodded. “Help yourself, I had the chefs come out just before I met you, it’s all fresh. Those men work wonders for me.” They both began to eat the wonderful dinner. “I asked her for a nice spot to take you out to, this was her answer.”

“Hmm, well, she did nicely.” She chuckled and nodded in approval of the yummy food. “It’s amazin’.”

“I could not have asked for a better staff. So, are you enjoying your new position with the Redsteels?”

Cas nodded, “Yup, signed the papers a few days ago, I hope it got sent back already.”

“I trust it will be in soon, the Redsteels are good on paperwork.” He chuckled. “I thought we needed a night away from all the mumbo jumbo demons and all. A night for us.” He smiled brightly to her. Cas smiled a bit, “Okay.” She chuckled and continued to eat, the meal being one of the best she had in months.

Hector sighed with a smile. “So Miss Cass, anything new in your little world hum?”

Cas just watched him with furrowed brows, “Nah, nothin’ on my end. Most free time I’ve had since I’m not workin’ in Dalaran anymore, thank the fuckin’ Light, is spent with Bea. She gushes on about Greg. It’s cute and disgustin’ at the same time.”

“Yeah… I gotta agree, they can get a little too cute, but for Bea’s sake I just avoid it all together.“ Hector finished up his meal. He waited as Cas ate in perhaps the least lady like fashion, slouching, elbows on the table, and uncrossed legs. She nodded, "Good, no reason to see them all gross and cute together.” She nibbled on the last few bites of her meal and flashed him a smile.

As they finish Hector looked to Cass, smiling, happy he was with her. After a moment he stood up. “You gotta see this view. Bea really knows her stuff.” He led Cass to a spot in the grass overlooking the grove. She blinked and stood up, following along.

“Hard to think that this is what all the druids are thinking of…” Hector said, as he played with something in his hand nervously. Cas nodded, clearly impressed by the site. “If this is only a glimpse of what the Dream may look like, damn. Imagine the whole thing.”

Hector sighed, looking over the grove. Lush fields fill the sight of the two, and for a moment, if not more, it’s almost like there was not a care in the world. Hector broke the silence, taking Cassa’s hand in his own, looking into her eyes with a smile and speaking. “Cass, I’ve been thinking a lot lately… And I think I have come to a point in my life that I have something important to say… When I first joined Mirianda and Devoner on this adventure, I had hopes for great things, but I see now that the greatest thing is right here with me. You have made my life wonderful, each day is a new blessing that I have found in your eyes, each minute another epic adventure by your side, and I want to keep it this way forever.” Hector got down on one knee. “Cassa Moore, I have an important question for you. Will you stand by me now and forever, will you take this ring upon yourself, will you, Cassa Moore, marry me?” Hector pulled out a small box and opened it to reveal a rather large looking diamond ring with two slightly smaller alexandrite gems on either side of it. Along the sides sit smaller diamonds each shimmering in the moonlight.

Cas was blinking slowly as she watched him talk and take her hand in his. She very slowly grinned and covered her face to keep from chuckling as he continued on. She gave him a bright smirk as she peered at the ring. “Yes, of course. You’re stuck with me now though, you hear?”

“I wouldn’t want it any other way.” He smiled, stood up, and pulled Cassa in for a long kiss. Cas laughed and returned the embrace, then pulled back and offered her left hand to him.

Hector slipped the ring onto her ring finger. “A fitting ring for Lady Cassa I would say.”

Cas laughed brightly and moved the ring against her fingers, “Shit, Hector, you didn’t need to spend a fuckin’ fortune on it, you know that?”

“I wanted too, I’ve been saving my money for it, that’s directly from me. The house paid none of it.” He put his hands around her waist, smiled at her, all the nervous stress gone. “I am happy we are together Cass. My snowflake.”

She chuckled, “Well, shit, ok then.” She hugged him tightly, “No wonder you were actin’ all weird.”

“I know, I know… I wanted it to be perfect, and I think I hit it pretty hard on the nose.” She laughed, “You did good, I love it.” She wiggled her fingers around some, getting use to the feeling of the ring on her finger. “I hope you don’t expect me to wear this all the time, yeah? I’d probably snap the damn rocks right off by accident when practicin’.”

“No, I get that part, we don’t exactly live a posh life, just remember: you are stuck with me now.” He chuckled and pulled her back in for another kiss. Cas chuckled again and kissed him back, pulling him into a hug afterwards.

“When should we tell everyone else?” She asked with excitement. “As soon as you’d like. Only Bea knows currently… I was going to ask Mirianda to do the service for us.” Hector added with a nod.

Cas smiled brightly. “I’d like that. Very much, actually.” He smiled. “Me too, I think she’d be up for it. I wonder how Aura will react, if Grif will soon follow suit.”

She shrugged. “No idea, he should. Been long enough honestly. I do hope Miri can. Maybe Aura if Miri is too busy.”

Hector nodded. “Agreed, but I think Miri would make the time for us.” He smiled.
“I hope so too.” She smirked and wiggled her fingers again. He watched her and smirked. “I am glad you like it.“

She flashed a huge, brilliant smile, "Of course I would, silly.”

((Welp. It happened. It was cute <3 @miriredsteel @auralaith @bastard-of-redsteel @breiana-fairfax @lillian-aherys @stephennanzel @devonerredsteel @grumpdargon @velurensilverscale))

Dear Old Best friend,



It took me a few weeks to realize that you were actually done with me. I reached out and you pushed me further away. I’m not going to lie, I was devastated at first. You were the one of the few people who knew everything about me and never seemed to judge me, even when I didn’t always make the best decisions. I felt betrayed to know that you weren’t going to be there anymore when I needed you. I’m still not exactly sure what I did wrong. It was pretty awful of you to decide that we were done.
I am sorry if you still harbor any bad feelings towards me. I have none for you. You helped me continue on in the race of life, but I guess you never intended to help me across the finish line. I’m not mad, I don’t blame you, I just get a little sad when I’m full of nostalgia and can’t reach out to you and say “remember that time when”…
Everyone we meet is either supposed to serve as a lifelong bond or a lesson, and you were the latter. The lesson could have been a good one, or it could have been a heartbreaking one, but either way thank you. There is nobody else I would want to be a lesson than someone I created as many memories with. You are a lesson that I’ll never forget, just like our memories will be ones that I tell my children one day. And I hope one day your kids hear stories about me, and can tell you and I had a bond that made up a majority of your school years. You won’t be erased just because you’re no longer in my life.
Thank you for all the valuable advice you gave me, for the time you spent with me, and for helping shape me into who I am today. I’m sorry that the people we became weren’t compatible in your eyes, but I’m not sorry the journey brought us to this conclusion. It has helped me realize the people in my life who actually care about me and want to be there. I thought you were one of those people, but you proved to me that you weren’t.
You were more than just a best friend, you were a sister to me. In the process of dropping me out of your life, you lost your second family and I lost mine. But the door will always be open, you have seen my ugly laugh, and held me when I ugly cry, we have been through things that there is no going back from, and this is an undeniable fact that means I will always allow you to come back into my life. I would still be here for you if you wanted to make amends, but I don’t know if I would ever be able to trust you enough to be as close as we were again. When I lost you I also lost all of my trust, but I found myself.
Looking back, it destroyed me, but now it has only made me stronger. You were a fool to drop me like that. You were my best friend and I would’ve done anything for you. No matter what I was always there to defend you or be your shoulder to cry on. When you were in pain because someone hurt you, it killed me inside to see you so upset and I would’ve given anything to take that pain away from you. It is sad to realize how close we were and how much our friendship meant to me. But it obviously didn’t mean that much to you.
I still wish you the best. I still hope you can find someone to sweep you off your feet and treat you like the princess you are. I still hope you land your dream job, whatever that may. I hope you’re happy wherever you are and I hope you get everything you’ve ever wanted out of life. I hope you find someone who is a better fit for you than I was. Most importantly, I hope you find someone to fix all of your fly away, stray hairs on your wedding day.
Love forever and always,
Me

—  loyaltyxoxo

listen i’m never gonna shut up about the look on Cas’ face after Dean said “we don’t leave family behind” because THIS is exactly what Cas has struggled with for so many years. He always gets left behind, either by the angels or by the Winchesters, and he’s never quite felt like he belongs anywhere. But for Dean to straight up tell him that they won’t leave him behind, that they would rather die trying to save him, is such a powerful moment. It was important for Cas to hear that and I hope he keeps getting these affirmations because he desperately needs them.

Let’s talk about Yuuri’s and Viktor’s decisions to continue skating competitively, shall we?


Prepare for a gigantic MEGA rant just like last time when I wrote meta on Viktor after episode 10. I just have no chill because I felt the need to address it on a large scale to get lots of things cleared up. If you read to the end you’re the real mvp. So, here goes. 

It seems like this has riled up and disappointed some people, so I want to take a look at it and share my interpretation of what went through the character’s heads. I’ve seen various metas discussing it, and while I’m generally open minded and interested in various interpretations some have made me upset. Why? Because some have even suggested that their decisions were based on manipulation and emotional force directed towards each other, and it made me sad to see, for Yuuri’s and Viktor’s relationship is more beautiful than ever at this point. The narrative has built towards this conclusion from the very start. It wasn’t a last minute addition or something we couldn’t see coming. It makes perfect sense.


Let’s jump to the most integral piece of dialogue we have.


This is incredibly important, because what does it show? That despite their conflict in the hotel they were able to treat it like the mature adults they are and decide to face their future individually. I repeat that once again. Individually. Yes, Viktor and Yuuri might be in love, but they are still their own persons with their own goals and desires and they acknowledge this. Their decisions are to be made on their own will, and not to be forced or persuaded by the other. They want to face the future together, that’s obvious, but they are not about to bend themselves and compromise that future either. It’s their lives. Their choice. So they decide to reflect over it alone, and then share what they came up with. Their future is theirs and if they come up with conflicting decisions, then so be it. They both need to do what’s right and rings true to themselves


But let’s head back to the hotel, because didn’t Viktor say this?


Yeah, he does. Does that mean he was forcing Yuuri to do another season, or that he forced himself to compete for another season to manipulate Yuuri into continuing? No. For me, it does not. This is all the result of a huge misunderstanding built slowly over the course of the whole season. What misunderstanding? Well, it’s voiced rather clearly: Yuuri always planned to retire after the GPF, and Viktor had no clue. Remember this?


This scene is so sweet, and so heartbreaking. It’s so important that we even get a flashback to it later in the episode. Yuuri always planned to retire once the GPF was over, in an anxious ridden, “unselfish” (read: selfish) desire to “free” Viktor from his duties as coach. What do Viktor say in response? Basically, “I want to stay with you forever”. And Yuuri’s heart breaks because well, he loves Viktor so much and would like to stay with him forever too, but he can’t. Why? Because Yuuri thinks he’s a liability and a bother not worthy of Viktor’s time and career. It’s not true, of course, and we leave this scene with a Yuuri struggling to let go off Viktor and an overjoyed Viktor because he sees no obvious end in sight, at this point.


Which brings us back to the hotel again.


You might say that hey, doesn’t Viktor react negatively to the fact that Yuuri made an individual choice? Yeah, he does. But the reason for that was that there was literally no communication between them about this. He feels betrayed. All these months, all his love, all his passion for Yuuri, is seemingly swept out the door as if it was nothing. He loves Yuuri and wants to stay with Yuuri because Yuuri was both the door to the future and the person waiting behind it, and Viktor is not ready to be cast aside. Important to note is that Yuuri do this out of love for Viktor, because he believes it’s the right thing to do and Viktor’s happiness is his first priority. It ends up not working out the way he wants, because due to their miscommunication his will to ensure Viktor’s happiness ends up with Viktor crying. This is the last stepping stone to them becoming fully equal, which has been an important aspect in the show all the time. In the end they find a satisfying conclusion, that sacrificing yourself for your partner is not a good thing, and that they can seek happiness individually but also side by side as long as you trust your partner to make their own choice. But first, they need to have this argument.


Of course he’s mad! I’d be furious as well. But what I like about this scene is how maturely he handles his anger. There’s no over the top drama, he doesn’t scream his lungs out or smash things. He cries and slaps away Yuuri’s hand, which is entirely justified since he has a right to protect his personal space. Also take note that Yuuri touches his hair, which he has expressed concern about earlier, and that Yuuri also reveal both his eyes. It’s very intimate, and not weird at all for Viktor to force his hand away. Yuuri initially wears a look of shock on his face at this response, because Viktor has always encouraged and invited Yuuri into that personal space before. Not now, however. Yuuri is taken aback in return by Viktor’s rejection and negative response to his decision.


Oh, Yuuri. Did Viktor ever actually say this? No, he alluded that he would like to stay forever with you. I wish you’d never retire. Seeing Yuuri give up (because that’s what it is, in my eyes, supported by Yurio’s monologue) upsets him, and of course he wants to skate with Yuuri again as well. It’s the charming Katsuki Yuuri, right? Viktor wants to face him as well. On the ice, as equals. Just as Yuuri desired for the past 12 years. He had no idea Yuuri was retiring so soon, and had most likely already planned to skate with him next season at this point, or at least considered it (remember the smile in ep 8). Viktor has probably desired this more and more as Yuuri’s love slowly brought his passion for skating back. We can gradually see Viktor get more and more into what happens on the ice over the course of the season, only to peak in episode 11 when all the excitement rushes back to him through Yuuri’s skate. His life was void until Yuuri stepped into it and filled it with light, and now that light is pushing away the darkness that made everything in Viktor’s life dull and meaningless. That includes skating. Yuuri made it possible for Viktor to love skating again, and remember all the thrills it used to give him. I believe that at the start of the series Viktor has no burning desire to return to the competitive scene, but he has major character development over the course of the series, thanks to Yuuri, and this reflects in the choice he ultimately makes. He’s a changed person in the end, on to start a new chapter in his life, with Yuuri and newfound inspiration.


But still, they decide to think it over individually. They’re still upset, because now there’s a wall between them that didn’t exist before. Yuuri breaks down this wall rather excellently, but note that before his free skate, he is still very much determined to retire. Take a note of his use of “their”.


This is an important line as well, and after this things start becoming very interesting. Please head under the read more, and if you’re on the app you have my sincere apologies.

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