Coming out as Asexual
So, I’m Asexual.
I’ve recently discovered that I don’t want to have sex, with anyone. And I shouldn’t say recently, because I’ve always thought sex was useless to me, and overall unappealing as a whole. I even remember when I learned how babies were made I stopped wanting to be mother. Sex was just never something I wanted.
But I constantly told myself, especially when I started understanding that was gay, that I was sexually attracted to woman. But that’s not the case at all, I want to hold hands with woman and laugh with a girl friend but I don’t want to have sex with women. That doesn’t excite me at all.
Another big part was the sex portrayed in the media. I would turn on the TV and see some sexual innuendo; and think I get it but I’m not also. I would turn on the progressive video and they would say wanting sex was healthy; but I didn’t want that so does that mean I was unhealthy. And then my Catholic school would have a group come in and talk about chastity and when they said that having sex in marriage is very important; so I couldn’t have a happy marriage. Everything rotates around sex, and I just felt like I was out of the loop. Like I was broken and left behind. Like I still was kid running from “cooties” and I never grew from it.
And it scared me forever, because everyone was saying how much they would love their husbands and have all the kids without cringing of the thought of having sex; while I wanted a wife and cringed. So, I went through everyone talking and dreaming thinking I was missing something; a sex frustrated screw.
But now I feel better about being asexual; because I’m not alone. Because I’m not broken. Because I’m asexual;
And I’m hella proud.