Oxygen - chapter 6
Pairing: Jaehyun x (female) reader
Genre: romance, fuckboy!au
Summary: He took the oxygen away from your lungs and you let him. You let him unfold you when you promised yourself you wouldn’t. You let him inside when you knew you shouldn’t have. He ruined you and you gave him permission to do so.
What were you doing here? You should just turn around and go back. You still had some time left. He hasn’t even seen you so it’s not like he’ll bring it up. He definitely won’t bring up how you’ve been avoiding him the past week. Hansol tugged on your arm to get your attention.
“Are you coming or not? Don’t be a wuss Y/N.” Hansol teased pulling you towards the house that was already filled with people. The music blasting through the speakers could be heard from down the street.
“I’m not a wuss!” You retorted defensively
“Then let’s go and have some fun!”
You let Hansol drag you inside the crowded house. It already reeked of alcohol and booze. Hansol didn’t mind coming to parties like this. He’s one of those people who would go wild parties, but would be smart about it. He didn’t drink, he didn’t do drugs, and he didn’t take advantage of anyone. He also put his books first before partying. You were different. You didn’t care for wild parties like this one. You’d rather be back at the dorms in your bed sleeping. Sure in high school you went to a few, but you left after ten minutes of being there.
You sighed to yourself and let go of his hand. He turned to you in confusion.
“Go have fun okay? I’ll be fine by myself.”
You didn’t want to hold him back. Although he may not seem like it, he was looser than you were. He had a few friends here and you didn’t want to keep him from them. You saw Johnny waving him over to his small group in the corner.
“Are you sure Y/N?”
“Will you go? I’m not a baby, go enjoy yourself!” You exclaimed pushing him towards the group.
“Text me if you need me.”
“Will do papa Hansol.” You teased walking away.
Now what were you going to do? You walked around the party and decided to grab a drink. You knew you were going to need one.
“Give me a beer.” You told the bartender.
You leaned against the counter waiting for your drink that was served to you in a red solo cup. Classy. You nodded in thanks and took a sip of your drink. The burn making its way down your throat.
“You came!” A voice next to you exclaimed.
“I had nothing better to do. Besides you begged me to come over so much that I decided to give you mercy.”
You didn’t make eye contact with Jaehyun. You couldn’t. You could still feel the kiss on your lips. The feeling imprinted onto your lips and you hated how much you loved it. Jaehyun moved closer to you until your arms brushed against each other.
“Y/N. Are we okay?”
“Yeah of course. We’re fine, why wouldn’t we be?” You tried to play it off. You finished your drink and ordered a stronger one. It was the only way you were going to get through this night.
“You’ve been avoiding me. Y/N that kiss-”
“That kiss was a mistake. It was a mistake and it shouldn’t have happened. Let’s just forget about it.” You cut him off, looking in his eyes for the first time that night.
He gave you that look. That same look that tugged at your heart. That same painful look that made you want to hold him in your arms. You couldn’t look at him any longer. You looked down and to the side. You couldn’t take this anymore. You walked away and ignored his calls for you. The tears swelled up in your eyes.
Why did it have to be you?
You knocked on Hansol’s door hoping he would answer before Jaehyun got back. Please let him be home!
“Y/N? I didn’t know it was you, usually there’s loud banging and yelling. That sounds wrong, just come in.” Hansol said pulling you inside the dorm room.
You noticed that it was just Hansol in the room. Good, you didn’t want anyone else to see you cry. Especially not Johnny.
“What happened?” He asked setting you on the bed.
“Why am I so stupid?”
“What? You’re not stupid Y/N. What happened?”
You leaned into his chest and let your sobs escape. Hansol wrapped his arms around you tightly. His arms being protective barriers to keep you from harm. But how could he protect you when the harm was within yourself? It was inside of you and it was on your lips and you can’t do anything about it. No one can.
“He kissed me Hansol and I let him…” You whispered against his chest.
“I let him kiss me and I loved it. I loved the way our lips melted together. I love how soft his lips felt. Hansol, I enjoyed all of these things when I shouldn’t have!”
He sighed and rubbed your back. He didn’t know what to say. He was happy you and Jaehyun were getting close. He just wanted you to be happy, but it looks like that wasn’t the case. Why couldn’t you just accept him. Experience what it will be like to be with him? Hansol knew Jaehyun was an asshole, but he saw the way he looked at you. Johnny tells him how determined Jaehyun is to at least be around you. He just wants you happy.
“Why am I doing this to myself?”
You felt a little buzzed as you leaned against the wall. Loud music pumping through your veins. Some students already passed out on the floor and others half naked. You sighed and took a sip from your now empty cup. You looked over and saw Hansol talking to some girl who was clinging onto him. At least one of you is having fun.
“Hey, why are you here alone?”
You turned your head towards the person to tell them to leave, but you noticed how cute he was. Okay, maybe he could stay.
“Shouldn’t I ask you the same thing?”
“I guess we’ll be alone together then. I’m Kun.” He said holding out his hand for you to shake.
“Y/N.” You replied shaking his hand. He smiled and leaned against the wall next to you. He didn’t say anything so you turned your head only to catch him staring at you and smiling.
“What?” You asked smirking.
“Nothing, I’m just trying to figure you out. You seem like one of those girls who doesn’t take anyone’s bullshit.”
“I don’t. I’m guessing you’re one of Jaehyun’s friends?”
He gave you a disgusted look and waved that idea off. You laughed at his reaction and he joined you.
“No way, I hate that guy. We stay as far away from each other as possible.”
Was there a church choir near? You could hear their voices singing hallelujah after his statement. Finally, you met someone who despised Jaehyun just as much as you did. Well the way you used to despise him. Nonetheless you still felt blessed.
“I think we’re going to get along just fine.”
“Well in that case would you like to dance?” He asked getting closer to you.
You didn’t know if it was the alcohol you had or general attraction, but you felt goosebumps covering your arms. You nodded at let him pull you to the dance floor. When you passed by the staircase you saw something you wish you hadn’t. There was Jaehyun being pulled upstairs by a girl. He turned his head and the seductive smirk he had on his face disappeared when you two made eye contact. He looked at yours and Kun’s joined hands and slightly shook his head. You scoffed and turned away. He didn’t have any right to tell you who and who not to dance with. Especially considering he’s going upstairs to most likely fuck that girl’s brains out and then leave her.
If he was going to have some fun so were you.
You set your cup down and wrapped your arms around Kun’s neck. His hands sliding up and down your hips.
“Don’t be afraid to touch.” You whispered in his ear and guided his hands down to your ass.
You let out a small moan when he squeezed it. You turned around and grinded into him. Your body moving to the beat of the song blasting through the speakers. His hands traveled up, but you kept them down at your hip.
“I don’t think you’ve earned those yet.” You teased throwing your head back onto his shoulder.
“Why don’t I take you out to dinner then? Tomorrow night?” Kun asked turning you around. You nodded and he handed you his phone and told you to put your number in. You were actually going to dinner with a nice decent guy.
Little did you know Jaehyun watched every second of your interaction with him.
You fiddled with your keys and tried to unlock the door. Your mind still cloudy and your movements a bit sluggish. You didn’t drink much alcohol, but you were still a little tipsy. You groaned when you dropped your keys. You reached for them, but someone else grabbed them before you could. You looked up to find Jaehyun towering over you. His jaw clenched and his eyes stared right into your soul.
He pushed you against the wall roughly and held you there.
“I saw you with him.” He growled in your ear.
“I saw you with her.” You responded rolling your eyes.
He pressed his body closer to yours. You felt your breath quicken. This shouldn’t feel exciting. This shouldn’t feel right. So why did it? Why did you love it so much?
“I didn’t do anything.”
“I didn’t either.”
“Oh please, I saw the way you were grinding against him. The only person you’re supposed to be grinding on is me.” He said grinding his hips down against yours.
You gasp and leaned your head back. It shouldn’t feel good, but it did.
“The only person that’s aloud to touch your ass is me.”
You couldn’t stop yourself from moaning when his hand squeezed your ass and brought you closer. His hand running over it as if he owned. Which maybe in his mind he did, but not in yours. You were a free woman, no one owned you. You weren’t his property. You weren’t going to let him treat you the way he’s treated these other girls. So why were you getting wet at the thought of it?
“I’m not one of your toys Jaehyun. You don’t own me and you never will. You’re just drunk.” You said trying to push him away. His grip on you only tightened.
“You’re a woman, but you’re my woman. You’re my princess. I’m not going to let you date the douchiest guy here.”
“You are the douchiest guy here Jaehyun!”
“Kun is bad news. You’re better off with me.” He whispered kissing your neck.
You grabbed his shirt and held him closer. His lips felt warm against your cold neck. His body heating you up. You pulled him up and leaned in to meet his lips. You knew what you were doing wasn’t helping you at all. You’ll just blame how buzzed you were if he brought it up.
“Kun wouldn’t treat you as well as I could. He wouldn’t kiss you as well as I could. Fuck you as well as I could.” With that last sentence his hips thrusted into you, causing you to hit the wall behind you.
“Fuck Jaehyun!” You moaned into his mouth.
Jaehyun used your keys to open the door. He pushed you inside and kicked it so it would close. He walked you over then pushed you down onto your bed.
“Is your roommate here?” He asked against your lips.
You shook your head no and closed the tiny space between you. Your hands running through his hair while he grabbed onto your thighs. You gasped when he bit your lip. He took that as an opportunity to slip his tongue into your mouth. You let him explore your mouth as you guided his hand under your shirt and up your chest. He moaned at the feeling of your covered breasts underneath his hand.
“Fuck Y/N! I need to be inside you now! Do you feel how hard I am for you?” He asked rolling his hips down.
You arched your back and groaned. You shouldn’t want to feel him! You pulled him down and tugged on his ear lobe with your teeth.
“Go be inside that girl you were going to fuck.” You whispered in his ear before pushing him away.
You couldn’t deny how wet you were, but you weren’t going to let him in that easy. You were not a toy. You will not be treated like one either.
“You have a working right hand. Use it if you have to. Other than that I’m sure that girl would love submitting to you.” You said pushing him out the door and closing it before he could say anything else.
Great. Now your bed was infested with Jaehyun germs. You laid faced down and screamed into your pillow. Why were you doing this to yourself. You would things easier for yourself if you just stayed away. At least your feelings for him would fade away if you did. Why did it have to be you? You were just going to have to come to terms with the truth.
You had feelings for Jung Jaehyun.