i feel this because of him

anonymous asked:

Being Married to Shawn

  • “I love you.”
  • Shawn still taking you out on dates even thought you’re already married
  • Shawn taking you along on tour with him
  • Not having to be apart as much as you did when you were still dating
  • Waking up next to him every morning
  • Good morning kisses
  • Goodnight kisses
  • Shawn getting along with your family
  • And treating your siblings like they’re his own siblings
  • His family loving you
  • Whenever Aaliyah had a break from school
  • You’d convince Shawn to fly her out to wherever you both were
  • And you’d hang out with her and make sure she was safe
  • Shawn having meetings early on a Saturday morning
  • And you being disappointed because you like to cuddle on weekends
  • But he makes up for it by coming home at 11am with Starbucks
  • Spending long nights in the studio with him
  • Shawn surprising you with weekend getaways
  • “I love that you’re my forever.” 
  • Always being Shawn’s plus one to events
  • Getting a cat together shortly after you’re married
  • Buying Shawn clothes
  • Cooking together
  • Him knowing everything about you 
  • All the scary, hard to love, messed up stuff
  • And still loving you anyway
  • Knowing what he’s like at two am when he’s worked hard all day
  • And what he’s like at two pm on a lazy Sunday
  • Knowing everything about him
  • Choosing to love each other daily
  • Choosing to love each other through all the gritty and hard stuff
  • Knowing that ring on his ring finger is for you
  • And that whenever he sees it he thinks of you
  • Having a sign that was a wedding gift: “The Mendes Family, est. 20__”
  • Wedding pictures in your living room
  • Pictures of the two of you and your families all over your house
  • Your house full of cute decorations that Shawn let you be in charge of 
  • Playfully arguing about who’s turn it was to clean the cat’s litter box
  • Sitting on your kitchen floor eating ice cream at 2am just because
  • Literally just getting to do life with your best friend

anonymous asked:

MELLY!! Since you're not talking enough about The Ziam's moment in the NBC special. I kindly, gently, would advice you to drown in the feels during your upcoming Ziam day.

Just so we’re clear and we can all be ruined together, what moment are you talking about? Because there were a lot of moments where I felt like my heart  had been left in the desert of my feels to turn to ash and dust, leaving behind nothing but angst and silicone.

Was it this one where Zayn was chilled so Loammy provided him with a cape fashioned out of his own Loamminess to warm him?

Or this one that looked like it was straight out of a Hugh Grant and Julia Roberts romantic comedy where Zehn was all “Ah dun lyke rollacoastehs Leeyum” and then looked like he was about to kiss a Loam, but then remembered himself at the last moment (WHAT KIND OF WUTHERING HEIGHTS ANGST)

Or mayhaps it was this one, where Loammy Jean gives bruh to bruh tummy scritches?

its fine i’m FINE

anonymous asked:

I love the idea that Killian likes Emma getting a little handsy (and maybe even a bit rough) with him during makeouts or sex because it goes along with his feelings about the sea. The ocean waves can be forceful, but Killian knew enough about the sea to feel secure on the water while also getting the thrill of adventure. Now he's on land but he still gets that thrill with Emma.

i’m gonna need you to stop right now before i spontaneously combust

I Hope he Likes Surprises 4

A/N: round 4 here we go… thank god for @whitechocolateperfection true life saver 

Part 1  Part 2  Part 3

Originally posted by anthony-samaniego

Shawn’s POV

I wake up breathing heavily. Light is streaming through the curtain and I glance up at the clock. It’s not even 5pm yet. When did I fall asleep?

I jump when I see Andrew at the end of the bed. There’s an emotionless expression crossing his features. Something I never see. At least not from him.

“We have to talk about this, Shawn. This is your girlfriend. Have you forgotten that? You can’t keep hiding away in this hotel room.”

I struggle to form any coherent thoughts. The dream is still haunting me because it’s more than just a dream. It’s the reality of that night.

“Andrew..I know. I feel horrible, ok? I’m going to fix this.”

“I’ll come back when you’ve figured out a way to say those words with some conviction.” Andrews’s disappointment in me would only be a fraction of what’s to come from Y/N. As scary as that is, I can’t continue running, or hiding.


I felt every emotion at once seeing Shawn’s name on my caller ID. I didn’t want to talk to him. I was afraid to hear his voice, to listen to the excuses.

I try pinching myself. Maybe I’ll wake up, and this will all be another nightmare.

“Hello?” My voice shakes into the phone, and I wish I could’ve sounded stronger. Shawn always sounded so strong.

“It’s good to hear your voice.” His words are rehearsed. Maybe he practiced in the mirror before the call, figuring out what sounded the best. Not taking into consideration the words I need to hear.

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Thoughts on The Proposal

1. Darcy’s nervousness is so endearing to me, how he can’t sit still and keeps sitting down and then getting up and pacing. BE STILL MY HEART
2. And then he just jumps right in and is like “In vain I have struggled. It will not so. My feelings will not be repressed. You must allow me to tell you how ardently I admire and love you.”
4. She gets all surprised and blushes, and Darcy is like “sweet yeah she totally digs this” when in reality she is NOT digging it
5. The idiot goes on to insult her and her family, because what’s a proclamation of love without some insults!
6. Lizzie literally feels sorry for the man because she knows she’s about to let him waaaay down hahahaha this chick kills me bc then she’s like, I’m more angry so I don’t even care (“she lost all compassion in anger”)
7. “He spoke of apprehension and anxiety, but his countenance expressed real security” ….check your pride, Darce
8. Lizzie starts going off on this long let down and Darcy is absolutely STUNNED bc no other woman on the face of the planet would say no to him, yet here the love of his life stands, rejecting him
9. Darcy seeks to know why she’s rejecting him, and that just opens up a whole can of worms Darcy didn’t even know existed
10. But he honestly just takes the beat down, until Wickham is mentioned and he snaps into attention, “in a less tranquil tone, and with heightened color”
11. And I LOVE sassy Darcy, “yes, his misfortunes have been great indeed.”
12. But then I’m all sad bc Darcy tries to be like “well sorrrrryyyyyyy I just suck at communication, if I woulda done this better you would have said yes” and lizzie is like “fat chance”, breaking his heart
13. Fat chance = “you could not have made the offer of your hand in any possible way that would have tempted me to accept it”
14. Poor guy is MORTIFIED and lizzie just keeps twisting the dagger going “from the very beginning - from the first moment, I may almost say - of my acquaintance with you, your manners, impressing me with the fullest belief of your arrogance, your conceit, and your selfish disdain for the feelings of others… I had not known you a month before I felt that you were the last man in the world whom I could ever be prevailed upon to marry.”
15. OUCH, lizzie….. give the guy a break!
14. He leaves hastily bc he is just so surprised and probably a little convicted with a mix of heartbreak, and then she just cries for a straight half hour
15. These two will be the honest death of me. But, I love them.

Worship their insecurities

I kiss daddy in odd places. Daddy probably doesn’t even really know why I do. I kiss daddy on his upper arm/shoulder. Its because I know whats there. Scars. I kiss him there to let him know its not bad. That Im proud that they’re fully healed scars. I kiss daddy on his nose. I like his nose, but he doesn’t. I kiss his nose so he knows I like it. I kiss daddy on his back. He’s insecure about that too. I don’t mind it one bit. When daddy would take his shirt off around me, I’d squeal and hug him so tightly. I’d kiss his chest. It’s because I know it’s hard for him to feel comfortable like that. He hates his body, but I could make a shrine for it. I could make an entire temple for all of him. I kiss daddy all over his face. I even give him love bites on his cheek. He hates how he looks. I absolutely adore him.

A daddy can be insecure about their body too. They deserve just as much reassurance as an insecure little. Remember to do the little things like that. Daddies are so thankful for their littles, and making sure to appreciate them is a god given gift to them. Always say thank you. Always say I love you. Always give back. Worship your daddy just as he should you.

anonymous asked:

im so happy to know that touka and kaneki have repaired their friendship. of course it's not 100% comfortable, especially with the reveal of touka's feelings, but the fact that they'll act more comfortable and normal around each other from now and out is just so nice. and as much as i want peace, i am ready for kaneki to go batshit when whatevers going to happen to touka happens.

I’m soooooooo satisfied with their talk. I was scared that we might have a bridge 2.0 (Touka yelling, Kaneki not really hearing her words), but we have the opposite. I like how Touka made Kaneki see that all those feelings of “i’m afraid of losing you” are the same feelings she has right now, so both can understand each other because they’re sharing the same worry, they’re afraid of losing each other *cries* and I love that Kaneki understood that, and the fact that he asked her to come with him, it means that he understands that they can work together and protect each other TOGETHER, without leaving the other behind and make them feel excluded. 

anonymous asked:

I had a realization (which may be me just talking outta my ass also bc I don't really remember the last chapter but) that the way Yoongi was with the OC last time and the way Jungkook was with her this time really show how they feel with her. Yoongi ate out the oc in the last chapter, and even though he fumbled bc he never did it before, he did it willingly because he *wanted* to please her. It satisfied him to satisfy her (1/?)

When Jungkook was with the oc, we thought that he wanted equal satisfaction and to please and put the oc first, however he confirmed he was actually there to self-satisfy and gain the upper hand on Yoongi when he said ‘that’s how you deserve to be treated.’ I think ultimately Jungkook is out there for self gain (like thinking he’s the better man, better lover, etc.) (2/3)

and Yoongi is out there wishing to please the oc, but failing miserably because he doesn’t quite know how (maybe some people disagree, but we see this sort of behaviour with his inner monologue saying he wanted to kiss her, eat her out, and when he did those out of place acts of kindness for the oc like the band aid thing). Like I said, I could be wrong but thats the way I interpret it lmao (3/3)

I hope I sent that first ask anonymously lmao

Originally posted by oblivian-girl

You.  I like you, anon.  You pay close attention and that makes me happy.  


Youngjae being all romantic to Jaebum in front of a whole school is giving me too many feelings to handle at this hour someone save me 

Jaebum’s smile when Youngjae says “I think Jaebum hyung doesn’t have to feel sorry because I want to change bodies with him” is just alsdknalfkdns

AND “I’m going to embrace his apologetic feelings too” YOUNGJAE YOU LOVE HIM THAT MUCH I KNOW BUT IT STILL HURTS ME IN A GOOD WAY

Thank you ciarast for the subs bless you I love you so much ♥

Prepare for angst! Unless this has been done. XD Anyway, I’d like to see a scenario in which the boys are in the killing game and S/O can’t take it any more. So, she asks them to kill her so they can escape and live their lives free and happy. She mainly asks this because she struggles with low self esteem and feels the world would be better if she wasn’t around. Do they go through with it or do they try to get her to stop?

Wow, this is… painful. Hope you cry enjoy!

Korekiyo Shinguuji

  • Well…. He considers it.
  • After all, you came to him with this request because you were completely serious about it
  • And if it was anyone else, he probably would have agreed
  • But…
  • If it’s you, he actually really cares about your life and well-being
  • He finds it fascinating that this is the way you want to deal with things, though
  • He tells you he won’t do it, but that he foresees this situation ending soon…
  • Can you stick it out a little longer? …Just for him?
  • Of course, you can always vent your problems to him, if that will help any
  • He can offer a few… unique ideas on dealing with them
  • And if you ever feel this way again, he still won’t change his mind, but… maybe he’ll work on a plan to free the both of you without either of you dying.

Rantarou Amami

  • Absolutely not…
  • He sits down and reasons with you as calmly as he can
  • There’s no point in doing this, especially since he may be found out as the culprit anyway if he kills you
  • Is that what you want?
  • Ends up pulling you into a hug and whispering into your ear that… he needs you here with him
  • There’s practically no point in him surviving on his own
  • If you’re tired of this situation, you’ll just have to help him find a way to end it!
  • If the two of you work together, and you get help from your other classmates… surely you’ll be able to accomplish something.
  • He’ll be right beside you for the rest of your time there… when things get rough, and you feel like giving up, you can lean on him
  • So just… stick around, okay?
  • Please.
  • Please don’t leave him.

Kokichi Ouma

  • He doesn’t even wait for you to finish your question before he bursts into tears
  • No!!!!! He won’t do that, not to you!!
  • Sure, anyone else would be fair game, but you’re supposed to spend the rest of your life ruling the world alongside him!!
  • Hey, he promises he’ll do anything for you if you just stay with him, so won’t you? Please?
  • He actually tells you what he knows about the whole situation in the hopes that you’ll understand how he’s so confident about your survival
  • After all, he’s got this whole thing figured out!!
  • Is that a lie?
  • W-Well
  • Okay, but even if it is, just please don’t leave him!!
  • He can’t be left alone… especially by you…
  • For some reason, he seems… especially vulnerable when he says that
  • You agree to try and tough it out through this situation… for his sake
  • Cries again because he’s so relieved
  • Later tells you his crying was a lie, but you know better, since…
  • He won’t leave your side from then on.

Shuuichi Saihara

  • When you come to him with your request, he’s horrified
  • He pleads with you to reconsider… Of course this situation is awful, but you can’t give in like this!
  • And… no matter how you feel about it, even if you refuse to change your mind, he just… can’t
  • He can’t go through with doing something like that
  • Especially not… to you
  • There’s no way he could kill you
  • He’s so afraid, though
  • That you’ll do something to yourself, if he refuses…
  • He tries so hard to convince you to pull through this
  • “Listen..I don’t want to live out the rest of my life, knowing I gave up on you here… I-I know that we haven’t been together very long, but… don’t you want us to have a future together?  Please, don’t give up on that possibility yet!”
  • Eventually, you agree to try and get through this once more
  • He’s so relieved he just sinks down to the floor and weakly thanks you a dozen times in a hoarse voice
  • Lowkey is afraid to leave you on your own after that, though

Kaito Momota

  • Not gonna happen.
  • Why are you even thinking of a bullshit plan like that?!
  • That’s not an escape from this situation, that’s dooming yourself and running away!
  • And he never asked you to sacrifice yourself for him
  • Why would he ever want that?
  • Of course he understands how much you hate this
  • He feels the same way
  • But there’s no way a bullshit plan like that will help anyone
  • You can get through this situation; he knows you can!
  • He just has a feeling!
  • And, well, he hasn’t been wrong yet, so… won’t you try believing in him a little?


  • What- What are you even talking about…
  • He just… can’t do something like that
  • Sure, he’s a robot, but he has emotions too!!
  • And he doesn’t want to feel what he may feel if you die!!
  • Besides, he’s probably… not cut out for killing anyone
  • Basically begs you to stay with him and not hurt yourself
  • This situation is… truly harrowing, but you’ve been strong enough to get this far…
  • He knows you can get through this.
  • Whether you listen to him or not… has yet to be determined
  • But if you decide to end your life anyway by some other means, he’ll be in for a world of pain

Gonta Gokuhara

  • Gonta can’t do something like that!
  • It goes against everything that Gonta is…. As a person and a gentlemen!
  • He tries to make you understand how bad of an idea that is
  • Even if you manage to sway him somewhat, he still won’t do it
  • How could Gonta hurt the one he loves most!
  • You end up agreeing with him, but…
  • Really, you only agree to pacify him
  • You find someone else to carry out your plan with you
  • Although you pick someone you’re sure the others will expose as the culprit, so he can survive
  • When Gonta sees your body…
  • It’s like a chill sweeps through the entire world
  • He barely says anything during the trial, he’s too devastated
  • He’s never quite the same afterwards…
  • He turns quiet and almost cold… no longer the carefree, dazzling gentlemen you once loved.

Ryouma Hoshi

  • He refuses at first
  • But after listening to you plead for a while…
  • He quietly agrees to go along with it
  • After all… He agrees that you can’t deal with this situation any longer, and so he wants to help you leave it
  • The two of you set up a plan together… one you think is fullproof
  • But when it comes down to it… At the very last second…
  • He sacrifices himself instead… and so you become the culprit instead of him
  • He’s happy with things turning out this way
  • After all, you were the only thing he had to live for…
  • …As well as the thing he was willing to die for.

Griffin: Avi is just white as a sheet, he’s paralyzed in fear.

Travis: I slap him.

Griffin: He doesn’t respond to you, he’s just. Paralyzed.

Travis: I slap him again.

Griffin: … He doesn’t move or respond to that ‘cause he’s- he’s paralysed.

Clint: I slap him.

Griffin: Okay you just take turns slapping Avi. He doesn’t move because he is literally paralyzed.

anonymous asked:

How do you think Len would react if Mick fell in love? Would he be jealous or would he think it could be good for him (especially if he'd gotten with Sara)? Pre-season 2 interviews had the writers saying that they wanted Mick to fall in love and it looked like Amaya was going to be that person. They didn't say she would love him back though. Do you think he had a crush on her and maybe didn't act on it because he knew she didn't feel the same way about him? He was attracted to her in Germany.

Leonard is a jealous asshole and very little will convince me otherwise.

He could barely stand Mick having Ray as a friend. Hallucination!Len was jealous and salty as hell about Mick getting close with Amaya. Legion!Len literally put a tracker in/on Mick and pulled this move:

Originally posted by coldsflash

Maybe if Len had someone of his own to focus his energy on, he wouldn’t be such a dick, but I think he’d always feel at least a little jealousy (stemming from insecurity). He doesn’t share well (play well) with others. After some personal development on the Legends journey, that improved a bit (working with a team helped chill him out), but that wouldn’t just evaporate.

As for Mick and Amaya, the interviews from the producers never really said he’d be in a romance (that I can recall), but Dominic Purcell was saying he’d want to play Mick in love. I might be wrong and maybe they were more direct about Mick and romance, but I recall most of what they said about Mick being more about his grief over Len and that arc.

i do think he had/has some measure of feelings for Amaya though. I’d hesitate to say he was in love, or that he would say he was in love, but he cared deeply about her and wanted her to come with him and be on (by?) his side in the end. He called her his “one friend”. I think he was humbled by her, over the season, how she didn’t recoil at him calling himself an “animal” and tried to turn it into something positive, how she got him a gift he could enjoy, how she showed him physical affection with no strings attached, which is something i don’t think he gets a lot of. She also falls into his theme of expressing attraction to women who can kick ass.

anonymous asked:

1. The fifth time they meet, it is because she seeks him out at the Royal castle. It is several weeks after he allowed her to escape from the Dark One’s dungeon, and she has recovered fully from her wounds. She tries to tell herself to let that be their final interaction – he had the opportunity to end her life, but chose not to, which means he’s moving on from thoughts of vengeance. She should lie low and permit him to walk that path without having to deal with her - the person he blames.

2. She should also be making the most of her second chance, moving on from her old life and family. And yet, if there is one thing she can’t do, it is to let go of her son completely. Facing an existence without seeing him is even harder when another version is so close. So, against her better judgement, she finds herself one evening pushing her dinner to one side, taking a deep breath and allowing her magic to transport her away.

3. She reappears next to a bench set amongst some rose bushes. It is a small, private side-garden, accessible only to those who know both where the door is hidden and also have the key. The bushes look cared for, so she can tell at least someone tends the plants inside. Her instincts told her to come her, so she settles on the bench and waits. A long time passes, her fingers becoming cold from the breeze. Her wounds may be healed but her body is still more tired and sensitive than before.

4. Finally, when the last of the daylight has vanished and the stars have made their appearance, she hears the sound of a key in the lock. Someone enters, closing the door behind them, and then footsteps near. She waits patiently as the person approaches, letting herself smirk slightly when the feet come to an abrupt halt. ‘We’ve spoken before without guards,’ she pushes, when the silence lingers. Henry – King Henry, as she always has to tell herself – moves into view.

5. ‘How do you even know about this place?’ he asks, a curious expression on his face instead of exhibiting fear or hatred. She supposes that is definitely a step in the right direction. ‘I gather you read that book back to front several times?’ she replies, already knowing the answer. He nods, choosing to lean against a statue rather than join her on the bench. He’s dressed in typical night robes for this land – not something her Henry would be seen dead in. She smiles at the thought.

6. ‘Well, when we had that year where we were all sent from Storybrooke back to the Enchanted Forest, and I was separated from my Henry-’ she breaks off, pain in her heart at the similar situations. And yet this time, there is no Snow or David or even Belle around her. ‘We stayed in our version of this castle – the entire pathetic group of people. I would come here every night, just to have some peace, and think about Henry without Snow asking me every five minutes if I was alright.’ 

7. She almost bites her tongue when she realizes she’s mentioned Snow’s name. The death of his grandparents and disappearance of his mother is of course all on her head in his eyes – even if she wasn’t the version to actually perform those acts. Henry crosses his arms, but appears to contemplate what she says. ‘If what is written in the book is true,’ he begins slowly, ‘And I’m not saying that I believe it - it could just be your way of trying to trick me.’

8. He glances sideways at this, and she knows he’s lying – he does believe the book, at least somewhat. ‘If it were true though, you two ended up being close then? You and Grandma?’ She smiles sadly at him, and nods. ‘We forgave each other, and became family. She was always giving me ridiculous hope speeches. Emma became a dear friend too. I miss them.’ He bites his lip, clearly turning something over in his mind. ‘If it was so difficult during that year, why did you leave again? Leave Henry?’ 

9. ‘It’s all there in the book, Henry,’ she says gently. ‘I didn’t have a choice about leaving. And I miss him, every single day.’ Silence falls for a moment. Her hands are getting colder, and she rubs them together slightly. ‘I’m not him,’ Henry blurts out suddenly. ‘I’m not your son. I have no memories of growing up with you, or living in that world.’ She remembers then – remembers mistaking him for her Henry when she lay dying. Maybe that is what made him believe in the book. 

10. ‘I know you aren’t my son,’ she admits, twisting her fingers together. ‘That doesn’t mean you aren’t like my Henry in many ways though. You’re him if he had had a very different upbringing, is all.’ He snorts at this, rubbing a toe into the dirt. He looks very much like a teenager in this moment, and nothing like a King. ‘I’m not trying to replace my son,’ she continues, watching his face closely. ‘And if you want, I can leave and you’ll never have to see me or think about me ever again.’ 

11. He becomes quiet again at this offer, and the silence stretches on so long that she makes a move to stand up and transport herself away. If that is his choice, then she will respect it. But as soon as she’s standing, he holds out a hand. ‘I have to welcome all the nobles in the Kingdom to the castle next week,’ he tells her, in an odd shift in topic. ‘I’m slightly terrified that they won’t take me seriously, considering the fact that they’re all at least two decades older than me.’

12. ‘Overwhelm them with polite steeliness,’ she advises him with a twitch of her lips. ‘I became Queen at a rather young age myself, and found if you’re polite but don’t let them get away with anything, the old curmudgeons learn to respect you quite quickly.’ He nods, and at last smiles back. ‘I know, I read the books,’ he tells her. At her confused expression, he elaborates. ‘Our history books, about your reign. When you weren’t trying to track Grandma down, you were a pretty good ruler.’ 

13. She laughs slightly, and shrugs her shoulders. ‘Helped that a lot of them were scared of me,’ she admits, pursing her lips. ‘Not a prudent route for you to take.’ He drops his chin in agreement. ‘Most of my advisors are terrible,’ he confides with a wince. ‘Half of them don’t know what they’re talking about, and the other half want to run the kingdom themselves.’ She knows that feeling well, and extends a hand out, letting it hang in the air between them for a moment in a gesture of peace. 

14. ‘I understand that, I do,’ she tells him seriously. ‘If you ever need another person’s opinion, I’m always available.’ She feels stupid at the offer, but there is a flicker of relief in his eyes, or so she chooses to see. ‘I come to this garden every night myself,’ he informs her. ‘None of my guards are allowed to disturb me here.’ They stare at each other for a moment, with new-found understanding. ‘Good night, Henry,’ she says, and she sees him smile before she transports herself away.

anonymous asked:

How shameful are people to believe that Betty freaking Cooper would be so low as to be so obviously jealous right next to her future husband an episode after he revealed this was something he was afraid of? Where she revealed her deepest scars to show him she wasn't perfect because she trusts him and wants him to continue being in her life. An episode after he showed her he accepts her flaws. How can people even consider this being a possibility? And on the slight off chance it is, it's OOC!

I’m so so proud of your words, anon! It’s something that I’ve been thinking since we saw the whole preview and I felt quite annoyed to see a bunch of people around twitter saying such things about Betty being jealous!

It feels like people skipped the part when Jug said the whole Archie thing during their fight, and she literally walked away because that possibility is just ridiculous.

I’m glad Bughead fans know the truth!

The thing about Kaneki being uncomfortable during the talk when Touka mentioned it in a sexual way , I mean, who wouldn’t ? Obviously , if someone just come to you and ask/offer you such thing , anyone could feel uncomfortable about it . But most people disregard Kaneki personality and character itself .

 Do you think Kaneki is the type to just jump at people ? No , he wouldn’t because that’s not him . That’s not his character . Heck, if Hide or Tsukiyama or any other characters ask/talk/offer him the same thing , he would most likely give similar answers . 

we sang this song in the youth group i help lead today and at the first ‘you have NO RIVAL! you have no EQUAL!’ i cannot even describe the feeling it was like my whole body was worshipping not just my mind or my voice like my entire body loved jesus…… it was sooooooo ………… it was good ….. i wish i didnt do anything to hurt others or dishonour him because he deserves more of me and im sorry ………………… hes SO BEAUTIFUL and he’s coming back soon guys 

allthingsbae  asked:


I don’t know about this one

  • Knows the answer to any question you try to throw at him
  • “The library of congress has the worlds largest comic book collection.”
  • Wears glasses and looks so cute in them
  • Shy smiles
  • Is very comfortable with silence
  • Is reading a new book every time you see him
  • Works as a tutor
  • Knows literally everything but chooses what information to share
  • Barely ever speaks 
  • But when he does it’s always something profound 
  • Has his entire life plan 
  • And a backup plan 
  • Just in case
  • Is gonna be the one telling all the athletes what to do one day 
  • Contrary to popular belief, actually studies
  • Would ask before holding your hand
  • Or kissing you
  • Or doing anything involving entering your personal bubble
  • Would help you with your homework
  • Not necessarily because you needed help
  • But just because he wanted to be with you
  • And you wanted to be with him too
  • Would be pretty quiet
  • And sometimes awkward
  • But that smile
  • That smile lights up the whole entire world

anonymous asked:

So a while ago I told my best friend that I self harm, and obviously he doesn't want me to hurt myself, but I want to hurt myself, but I can't because I don't want to disappoint him... But I really want to cut... -Pen

I’ve been there and i know how hard it is to feel like you’re letting the person down. But it’s important to remember that you have to get healthy for you not because you want someone to love you.

anonymous asked:

Do you think you could do Alex and Charles? Thank you so much if you can, you're amazing <3

of course my love !!! i hope you feel better soon 💛

• Alex Summers is well acquainted with anxiety attacks. He’s been having them since Cuba, and they only worsened with everything that went on in Vietnam.

• that’s why, when you have them, Alex takes his upon himself to make you feel safe again. because he knows how it feels; to have your breath ripped away from your chest and your body sparking with electricity overload

• he speaks very, very softly. he knows how comforting a simple murmur can be in those moments, and he uses his voice to tell you sweet nothings.

• if you allow him closer, he’ll gently grab your hand and entwine your fingers together, bringing them up to his lips to press a kiss to your knuckles

• he’ll even start to hum against your skin, ending up singing ballads under his breath, his fingers barely grazing the insides of your elbows

• once you’re calm enough to receive further physical touches, he’ll pull you into his strong arms, your head neatly tucked under his chin as you breathe in his scent

• he’ll continue to quietly sing to you, stopping every few moments to press his lips to the crown of your head


• As a telepath - and as your lover, Charles is particularly affected when negative emotions hit you.

• when your breathing starts to pick up, however, he pushes his own symptoms aside; ignoring the churning of his stomach to focus solely on you

• he’ll reach out with one hand and let his fingertips press against yours in a gentle display of affection, blue eyes filled with love and concern

• his other hand will come up to touch his temple, connecting his mind to yours and filling it with soothing scents and memories you’re fond of; like that one time you went to get ice cream and you sat in his lap, and how the frozen treat had accidentally met the tip of his nose, creating a little stain in the process

• he’ll continue to fill your mind with happy, serene thoughts until your breathing has slowed and your tears have dried, and only then will he allow himself to gather you in his arms, a small tear running down his cheek as you sniffle quietly, eyes closing and body relaxing against his