i feel so weird i'm sorry omg



okay HUN ..now that I have your attention… IF YOU REMEMBER ME, a follow back would be greatly appreciated since ya girls tumblr was deleted last year okay? Love ya sis 😘 (PS I CANT STOP VIBIN TO …RFI? AND LWYMMD… idk if I can love this album more than I already do at this point❤️🔥)

belegsghost said to dwimmerlaiks: for the palette meme: Idril in plum?

Idril on her way to do some city planning probably??

universal-glitch  asked:

Can you write the Connor x Internet friend! Reader as a fanfic. I would love it if you did.

Message Me || Connor Murphy x Reader (PART 1 OF 5)

requested : yep
prompt: n/a
pairing : connor murphy x reader
warnings : suicide plan mention
additional notes : reader is female, based off of a Connor X Internet friend reader headcanon by @watch-the-whole-world-disappear, they meet on tumblr, connor runs an Edgy™ Aesthetic Blog, WHICH I RUN BTW, NOT THAT THERES ANYTHING ON IT YET BUT YEAH FOLLOW ME AT @connor-fvckng-mvrphy lmao it’s a Connor roleplay blog

Bored. Bored. Bored.

Bored is such a boring word. In this moment, you’ve never heard a word that describes you so much.

You scroll listlessly through your tumblr, liking random images and quotes from this one aesthetic blog that you follow. Your eyes wander, not that you’re finding anything interesting, until you come across an interesting poem.   


I have to get this
off my chest before
I straighten every crooked object
offensive clutter distraction
nervous as fuck
I’ll pull out every hair
or tear my fingers off
If I don’t figure out how to look
in your eyes
without screaming

I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you
I can’t remember anything before you
I can’t imagine anything without you
I want to live the rest of my life with you

But only if you think I’m cool
We should just kill ourselves

‘Interesting,‘ You think, 'Edgy, but very interesting.’

This guy (girl? other?) seems interesting. Relatable. You click on their name, intrigued.

At one click, you fall in love with the account. You follow on first sight.

According to his bio, his name is Connor and he’s seventeen. His posts consist of black-and-white photos of chipped nail-polish, of pale wrists with even paler scars zigzagged across the stick-thin appendage. Quotes by Poe, little poems like the first one you read. 

He’s tortured, you know. But you can’t bring yourself to message him, like the little stalker you are.

Hours of pouring over his account turn into days, days into weeks, until finally you have been an avid fan of his for a month. 

And then it all comes crashing down.

One day, you refresh your page, bored, and there’s a new post from him. Literally must have been posted not even a minute ago. 


this is not going to be a great week
or year or life
or anything inbetween
i thought for a millisecond
that i had found a friend
a kindred spirit
but you fucking tore it up

fuck you, E.H.
your friend too
go ahead and laugh
laugh all you want
but will you be laughing when the school shooter is dead?


You’re worried.

This poem…was not like the others.

This was angry. This was raw. This was…this was real.

You bite your lip. Your eyes flick down to the tags.

#suicide plan #goodbye

Shit. Your eyes widen and you click on your inbox, typing in a message frantically

hi I know you don’t know me but I just saw the tags on your newest poem and im freaking out
please please don’t kill yourself
I’m sorry it’s just your poems are really relatable and help me a lot and i feel like I’ve gotten to know you through them and oh my god you probably think I’m so creepy I’m so sorry

You wait, terrified, for a response.

One minute.

Two minutes.




There is no answer, and you bury your head in your pillow and try not to cry. You can’t help it, your shoulders shake with wracking sobs. You probably failed at saving this guy, you failed so bad. You suck, oh god, you suck.

After another five minutes of sobbing, you hear a loud ding from your phone, and you blearily stare at the screen through unshed tears.

im flattered
I didn’t realise that somebody actually read my poems or my tags or cared or…

You gasp in relief, fingers tap-tap-tapping out a reply. 

OH thank god I thought that you had…
Are you okay??
thats a stupid question omg I'm sorry

im fine
actually…i feel much better.
thanks for, you know.

I’m [y/n] btw


i know
thats creepy oh my god;sorry

it’s fine ig I mean it is in my bio so??? its chill


so this might sound weird but ????
you’re…pretty cool.
i just looked over your account and wanted to know
well you know
want to talk more???

wow im??? Really???

yeah i mean you helped me there,,,like a lot,,,

id love to !!!!

You talked almost every day. When you got down to it…he was a sweetheart. He was kind. He got you.

do you think, like…
well ever get to meet each other??
imean you’re a really great friend now and???
id like to meet you.

i wish
but we live like eight hours away from each other…

ill drive to you!

calm down, connor…lmao
we don’t want you burning out on the way

:( I don’t even know what you look like…

i don’t know what you look like either! XD

shit well
if I send you a picture of me
will you do the same?

sure ig

me.jpg my sister took the photo so,,,


id prefer handsome but I’ll take it
your turn, missy.

hnnghhh okay


holy shit



no no no I am definitely not wtf you need your eyes checked?

no way you’re fucking adorable
i think /I’m/ in love you cute lil motherfucker

we should swap phone numbers

and skype??

fuck yeah

oKay !!! im [skype/name] and my number is [number]

my Skype is the same as my tumblr and my phone number is XXXX XXXXXX

saved and I just texted you too :)

'hi Connor!!!!’ with a bunch of happy emojis?
dude you’re just,,,
thats really fucking cute

wh y???? do you keep calling me cute I’m???

because, as it turns out, i have a really cute best friend

best friend??
awww connor!!!

yeah yeah
you’re literally all I have, [y/n]

you’re my best friend too!!
i really wish i could meet you…

me too…hold on a sec

connor??? you okay???

my sister just walked in and was being a dick, being nosy about who I’m talking to and not believing that it was a friend. She thinks I’m talking to my dealer.
i fucking hate her sometimes

do you?

but she thinks I do. It’s easier to let her.

*internet hug*

Fuck…that’s cute.

 As time went on, you found yourself more and more drawn to Connor. His photos could always make you smile, and nothing brightened up a shitty day more than clicking on his Skype name and watching him answer a video call, smiling dopily at the camera.

And also as time went on…you slowly began to realise why.

You were in love with him. 

Fuck, you were in love with a guy eight hours away. A guy that you had never met in real life. What do you do?

…You continue pining for him over a distance, of course.

You watch yourself in the screen, waiting for Connor to pick up the Skype call. Soon enough, he does, and his grinning face fills the screen.

“Hey, [y/n].” He greets sleepily - it’s like, midnight over there - and rests his chin on his hands.

“Heya.” You wave at the camera, grinning sheepishly and a little shyly. The thrill of actually seeing him rather than just a message still gets you.

“It’s almost Valentine’s Day, huh?”

“Yep! Any special girl that you had in mind?” You ask, a hopeful smile plastered on your face.

“No, well…actually…” He furrows his brow, and your heart drops.

“Is she pretty?” You ask, concealing your jealousy. You could be there for him.

“She’s cute. Like, really fucking cute.” Connor says, watching you carefully.

Truth be told, Connor felt the same way. He was absolutely crazy about you, but he didn’t want to ruin this adorably heartwarming friendship you had.

To wake up and have no more *internet hug* messages or cute little reminders…it’d ruin his life. You were absolutely the only thing keeping him going.

You talked for ages, until it was about 2:30 on his end. Before long, he was getting tired. 

“I should go soon.” He says drowsily. 

“Mmmm.” You don’t want him to go. “Night, Con.”

“G'night.” He yawns. “Love you.”

You freeze. He freezes and hurriedly leaves the video chat.

Fuck, fuck, fuck. Connor slams his head on his desk, pissed off. “I fucked up. I fucked up.” He mumbles.

A small chime comes from his computer and he bites his lip, glancing reluctantly at the screen.

i love you too!!!!

I love this scene. I feel that Leo is  teasing Karai because she also has weird tastes… it is like they were together or something like that. XD I love Leorai so much. 

I really wish Leorai to be canon

Vocal Unit Hybrid AU

A/N: Ok so this one’s some short bursts of headcannons on how Seventeen’s vocal unit would be if they’re hybrid imo. Shoutout to the Anon who asked for the hybrid au! I’ve been thinking about this AU for a while, too. If you want a fic/buletpoint fic for this, please let me know! Also I didn’t do it for a specific member like the usual fic bc you didn’t give me any specification so ^^ I just want to hear what you guys think before writing a fic for this. Man, I love me some hybrid AUs. I hope you all enjoy!

Originally posted by memesolsvt


  • You know that bougie ass cat with the long white coat and whose food is probably more expensive than your week’s worth of groceries?
  • Yeah that’s Jeonghan
  • Is so picky with which shampoo he uses oml
  • Knows he’s pretty
  • Reeeeaaaaaallllyyyyy loves it when you brush his hair with that special cat brush (cat people, y’all know which brush I’m talking about)
  • 99% just naps around tbh, especially on that spot near the window with the most sunlight
  • Likes to push your stuff off the table out of spite
  • “Don’t you dare, Jeonghan. Don’t you dare.”
  • You can see the ‘f*** you’ in his eyes before he pushed your things off the table
  • Will distract you from what you’re initially doing just to get a good rub
  • He’s that hybrid that looked really nice and angelic at first but you know that s*** is just an act lmao
  • But he loves your attention alright
  • Like, if you seem very too infested or intimate with other hybrids, he’d get pretty jealous
  • Proceeds to give you a haughty look and a silent treatment that could last for days
  • And it’s the cutest thing tbh, it’s so easy to rile him up
  • But ofc you do it in moderation bc man, can he hold a grudge
  • But despite all that, he’s pretty receptive and would immediately know when you’re feeling upset
  • The type who wouldn’t say anything but hold you close as you cry into his shirt
  • Is a really loving hybrid despite his attitude


  • Joshua is a cat hybrid, just like Jeonghan
  • But unlike Jeonghan, he’s an actual angel
  • Joshua is a domestic cat hybrid, of a tortoisehell cat
  • Likes to watch you as he sits on the counter as you fret around the house
  • He also likes to steal you food (playfully, anyway) whenever you’re not looking
  • Loves waking you up by carding his fingers through your hair and saying good morning in this really soft tone
  • Omg imagine waking up to Joshua
  • You like to think the sweet way he always wakes you up is because he’s so restless during the night
  • The times you share air bed with him, he either steals all the cover or pushes you off the bed
  • Loves to take up space on the bed, too
  • But it’s all well bc he always apologize by making you breakfast the next morning
  • Loves to sidle up next to you as you read or do your work and just watch you do your thing
  • Loves to take you by surprise when he plant tiny pecks on your face when you least expect it
  • Refuses to let you wash the dishes after you cook for the both of you
  • Really loves quiet Sunday mornings when you don’t need to go to work and just lay in bed all day
  • The day you introduce him to anime was the day his life began oml
  • Couldn’t stop watching One Piece lmao
  • A habit he inherited from his cat DNA was he loves to lay on the living room carpet and take a nap as the shine shone through it
  • Also goes bats*** crazy when you tried aa catnip room fragrance lmao
  • He couldn’t stop purring through out the day


  • smol but spicy
  • Has tiny brown ears that would sometimes be hidden underneath his hair
  • While his eyes are clear and beautiful, it always seem to judge and calculate your every move lmao
  • His nose twitches if he finds a smell particularly strong
  • He sneezed once and you swear it was the death of you
  • His tail is pretty long and super strong
  • Would wag upwards and downwards annoyedly if you tease him lol
  • Loves to sleep and play music with the guitar you bought him for his birthday
  • But his favorite activity with you is going out for a swim swim
  • Otter!Jihoon loves to swim
  • Especially if it’s a lake
  • You try to take him out to the nearest lake, which is hundreds of miles away, as often as you could
  • It has become a monthly routine for you now
  • Looks really grateful as he swims about near the water’s edges while he chases minnows around
  • You don’t mind the long drives back and forth between the city and the lake town because Woozi seems the happiest in his element
  • The calmest you’ve seen him is when he’s asleep or when he’s eating lmao
  • Speaking of food, however small he is compared to most hybrids, Woozi seemed to have an endless appetite
  • You went and bought him a burger set one day and now he’s totally hooked
  • But you couldn’t help but submit to his wishes because overtime you buy him one, he would have the cutest smile on his face and his dimples would appear ugh
  • He totally knows you think he’s cute and he’s totally using it to his advantage


  • Ok don’t be weirded out but I can’t help imagining Seokmin as a horse hybrid
  • Ok but horse hybrids don’t have a tail so their only distinctive feature is their horse ears
  • And they neighs sometimes
  • Which in DK’s case is whenever he laughs hard
  • Which is often because he loves to laugh
  • So you can say he neighs often?? Is that weird???
  • I love confusing myself
  • Another distinct horse thing he got was that he loves going on a run
  • He runs every morning seven days a week
  • Used to beg and drags you to run with him but gave up after seeing that you wouldn’t even budge lmao
  • Can and will finish an entire week’s worth of food after his runs if you don’t control him
  • Definitely more independent than some types of hybrids but he still loves his hugs
  • Loves giving you piggyback (or can you call it horseback?) rides around the apartment
  • Your apartment is always full of laughter with DK around
  • It doesn’t matter if you’re on the more quite and introverted side of the spectrum, he will make you sing during the weekly karaoke nights in your apartment
  • Loves singing off-key, which leads to more laughter
  • Which means more neighs


  • Seungkwan is a parrot hybrid
  • Oh gosh, sometimes you wonder how Seungkwan caught your eyes in the first place
  • But then he’d smile and it would in turn make you smile, too and then you remember
  • Parrot!Seungkwan sometimes doesn’t seem to shut up but it’s impossible for you to get mad at him bc you know he just wanna see you happy
  • Loves to dance funnily to the music you play on the speaker lol
  • One day you figured to bring him to a karaoke place to actually use his endless energy for a purpose
  • And oh my god??? You were blown away
  • You always ask him to sing everyday now
  • Which he doesn’t mind complying to
  • And now he can’t stop singing lmao
  • Bird hybrids are particularly unique bc they have wings
  • Seungkwan’s wings are really beautiful
  • They’re pristin(e) ayee white with yellow coloring its tips
  • It makes him look even more like the angel he is
  • Also, Seungkwan’s hair tips seems to be yellow like his wings, too
  • Loves to sing off-key to wake you up and although you always wake up annoyed, you wouldn’t have it other way
  • Loves validation and literally loves it when you shower him with praise
  • Despite being really rumbuctious and full of humor most of the times, he’s pretty sensitive to your mood changes
  • Likes to cover you with his wing as you lean on his side when you’re feeling upset and it would feel like a little save haven shared only between you and him

anonymous asked:

IT'S SO NICE TO SEE ANOTHER ARTIST FROM TEXAS HELLOOOOOO OMG I AM AN ARTIST FROM DALLAS OMG tbh I've only ever seen foreign artists and artists from literally everywhere except Texas omg I'm sorry this is probs weird but I feel so much companionship rn like wow it's stupid

Hello my fellow Texan! I don’t see many other Texas-based artists. Which is so bizarre considering the geography.. 

anonymous asked:

*TRIGGER WARNING- self esteem, weight* Idk if it's because I'm fucking weird but I fucking hate myself Bc I'm so fucking fat omg, I'm like 145 (probably by this point) and 5'4-5'5 and I fucking hate myself so much and tbh dans picture made me feel worse about myself because it just drilled harder into my head how much skinnier everyone else is then me, I've tried fucking everything and can't loose weight I'm sorry I'm fucking weird

Dude no, youre gorgeous. Weight has nothing to do with beauty. Weight has everything to do with what your body needs to survive and keep your organs in place. So if your organs are in place and youre living, then i think you have one A+ body, my friend. Lemme tell you something. Im 5"1’ and i weigh 155lbs. Ive had a lot of trouble coming to terms with my weight for the longest time. But then i saw some people who were fucking GORGEOUS who weighed as much or even more than me and i decided to embrace the curves, because that just meant theres more of me to love. Youre wonderful and youre beautiful. Dan and phil have chub as well. In that pic you just cant see it because hes covering his stomach, but trust me, its there. Everyone has chub because thats where your organs are and you gotta have stretchy skin to make sure your tum doesnt rip. Youre doin great, your body is great, and whenever you get down on yourself just look in the mirror and focus on aspects of yourself you like. Dont focus on the bad, just focus on the good. You like your eyebrows? Cool, write down you like your eyebrows down on paper. Do that whenever you feel sad about yourself. Eventually, youll come to love yourself as much as i love you.

anonymous asked:

Something anything criminal batfam please. I'm begging you.

((ahhhhhh i’m sorry for all i’ve put you through so far, omg. uuuh i don’t have time to do something worth justice to that au at the moment that I feel comfortable with, but he’s a beta version of Steph’s past cut from ch 6!! I hope you enjoy it and thank you for sticking with me!!))

Her dad never gave her a ton of choices. Not real ones. There were choices like what moves she wanted to make when he played one of his weird games with her, and there were choices like what she wanted for dinner off a menu, or ones like, ‘are you too sick to go to school today?’ which she never was, because the alternative was staying home.

The first time her dad got arrested, she finally got a choice all her own, and she just couldn’t choose:

Who did she hate more? The cops, her dad, or everything?

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anonymous asked:

I just got a huge rush of positivity and strength in my sexuality! I feel so happy right now because I just realized how beautiful girls really are and I'm just smiley like a dork and I just thought I'd share my gay happiness with you. Sorry if this was weird lol

I completely understand this omg and it’s so wonderful!! It makes me so happy too 💖 Bein gay is great

sarahsyna  asked:

I like Nathaniel because all the dude even did while akumatised was try to go on a date. Like, if the first thing your EVIL self tries to do is go on a romantic boat ride as non-creepily as a supervillain can manage, you're probably not such a bad person. I mean, he did try kill Chloe, but that's almost charity. No clue why people ship them though.

i mean i get what you’re saying but i still feel like it was kinda weird like he didn’t really give marinette the option to say no.. i mean i haven’t watched the scene in a while but from what i can remember she really didn’t wanna go on the date with him and she only gave in when he was like practically begging her? like yeah aww he had a crush or whatever but i feel like he took it too far maybe? also oh my god i completely forgot that lmfao he literally wanted to kill chloe when he was akumatized why tf are they being shipped like that’s… a really unhealthy dynamic 

i can’t believe i’ll start school tomorrow, i really need like 1 more week at least pls pls pls 

why don’t more people listen to panic! at the disco? there’s something for everyone:

  • are you into cabaret? try fever.
  • are you a big beatles fan? get pretty. odd.
  • do you feel very sad and betrayed by two people leaving your band? try vices & virtues.
  • are you drunk and/or wearing gold pants at all times? check out too weird to live.
  • are you extremely gay to the point of losing functionality in day-to-day exchanges? literally all of the above my friend.
okay so please tell me i wasn’t the only one who noticed these jikook moments

i recently just got done watching BTS Gayo Track 6 and I swear I’ve seen some hidden jikook moments that, hopefully, I’m not only one that noticed.

Okay so the first thing I noticed was at 0:10 when they were literally just starting the show. J-Hope pointed out that Jimin was the MC and stood up to clap for him, which Jungkook followed suit not a beat later. But then Suga stood up and began doing ??? and if you just look at Jungkook, you see his expression morphs into ‘you better sit your butt down right now, hyung istg’ and he slowly stops clapping. And then Jimin said “don’t be greedy” to Suga and Jungkook sat down immediately.

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anonymous asked:

hi! i randomly saw that post about hoh in groups and i didn't know you had a disability, which sounds weird, you're one of my favourite bloggers and i have cerebral palsy and idk, it just made me feel weirdly happy to have found another lgbt+ disabled nerd, can i ask about your experiences? i can message you off-anon if you like but yeah :) have a great day! xx

yo, hey! :) message me anytime, i sometimes forget, ngl, it’s something that’s so normal to me i guess? 

my experiences aren’t that exciting i’m afraid, i was just super lazy in the womb (past heather is relatable) and so the right side of my jaw/ear were undeveloped at birth. And i can’t hear from that side. Basically i had a lot of surgery when i was younger (from the age of 5-14, and i think it was like 14 operations? honestly i lost count oops) to build up the bone more evenly. My jaw is still asymmetrical but it looks a lot better now, and i stopped having surgery at 14 because it just took so much toll on me emotionally/mentally tbh. I was in the hospital a lot and obviously, at that age, image is so important and it wasn’t helping self-esteem at all, yikes. 

But yeah, i still deal with curious stares a lot, which is still a bit overwhelming at times, but i have to remember that everyone gets curious by different things, so it’s not bad, just something i’m still getting used to! It took a look time for me to accept myself but i’m getting there, and i do treat myself a lot better than i used to :)

And i don’t talk about it a lot because i guess i spent so much time when i was younger only defined by that. So it’s great that now i can be proud of my bisexuality, my identity as a writer/bookwork, things like that, as well as having a disability. Also because i kind of forget? And i don’t know how you’ve found it, but no one really teaches you how to talk about it? I’m always happy to talk about it, i just don’t know how lmao. Coming out as bisexual was so much easier wow :D 

i know people find it awkward sometimes to ask questions, but i don’t mind at all! I’m happy to :) It’s just hard for me to bring up because i spent so much time trying to hide it. But i feel confident in my own skin now, apart from the occasional anxiety attack about it. I used to feel so different and alienated from people, because it’s easy to see the few differences you have as being ‘bigger’. But you also have so much in common, and your disability is only a small part of what makes you you.

And thank you for your lovely message, i’d love to hear about your experiences too ^.^

How To Know If A Sign Is PMSing || @zodiacsign.s
  • Aries: "I just... I can't anymore" *takes their bag and leaves*
  • Taurus: *rolls their eyes* "Why are you being so offensive? Are you like PMSing?"
  • Gemini: "Hahahahahaha" *is being awkwardly hyper. Like more hyper than always*
  • Cancer: *isolates themselves from the outside world and watches movies*
  • Leo: "Is everything okay, Leo?" "I'M FINE OMG."
  • Virgo: *listens to Punk Rock*
  • Libra: "I like... Feel so freakin' good today..." *has a mental breakdown*
  • Scorpio: *doesn't say a word for like days*
  • Sagittarius: "Tbh, you're being so annoying, just get the fuck away from me"
  • Capricorn: "Gimme that cookie, or our friendship is over"
  • Aquarius: "Guys, my periods coming up, so I'm sorry if I'm being weird"
  • Pisces: "Nuh uh, you did not just say that. You did not just..." *cries*

anonymous asked:

To me what Veruca goes through is something I'm really familiar with!! I'm half Filipino and half white and I was talking with my cousin earlier and it's something called "In-Between culture" I went to the Philippines last year and everyone called me white but back home where everyone around me is white it's obvious that I'm not white. It's super weird and love finding other people who have experienced this before cause it makes me feel more grounded I guess!!

OMG YES! this is exactly what I mean she feels kinda alienated by both and is left in-between! I will totally have to look up more on  “In-Between culture” cause it’s something that’s part of who she is. I’m sorry that you have to feel that way sometimes but i’m so happy you finding that out made you feel more grounded  <3 thanks for telling me about this <3!

anonymous asked:

Wada with her hair down maybe? Your style is gorgeous btw omg

heyhey i’m really sorry for the late reply and that this is really rushed

my sincere apologies!! but also thank you for your kind words!!

Ereri Week Day 5 - Mythology

I accidentally wrote 8,000 words for this prompt? I don’t know how that happened. I feel like this was such a mistake though, everyone is posting such amazing entries for mythology omg. I’m sorry about this.
Also, I don’t know if vampires fall under mythology, but let’s just pretend for now!

Warnings for blood and violence
Read it on AO3

Fight rings were illegal, and had been for some time now. However, human beings were a surprisingly bloodthirsty bunch. Bloodthirsty enough to bend the law and run the fights underground. Vampires, werewolves, trolls, witches and every creature the hunters were able to catch were sold off to the illegal rings, where they were forced to fight each other in front of paying audiences.

Levi, however, was not there to fight. Levi was food. The men that had captured him had assured him of that. He was human, so they couldn’t put him in the ring to fight - he would be torn apart in seconds, and that didn’t make for good entertainment. He was little more than a snack, something to be thrown to a beast to reward it for its bloodshed. It made him feel sick to his stomach.

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anonymous asked:

I mean I'm sorry but damn, no homo but I want to stick my boner so deep in your ass that, well so good that I that it makes you and I both feel good. Because that is what sex is??! Well u are a very sensual person and you gave me a boner, but that's not weird it's just I find you attractive and... I'm not gay I'm bisexual and even asexual at times aren't we all. Can u post nudes? Strictly for educational purposes of course.

Dad, I’ve told you before to stop sending me these messages omg