i feel so bad for doing this but i had to


Hello! I finally got over my jet lag (i think)!
I had a great time back in my hometown, Manila! ^o^ ♥

I had lots of fun and also lots of rest and I feel so refreshed (and also kind of sad because I miss my relatives and my dog…and the food) – Now that I think about it – being back here in New York in winter feels so much sadder because of the gloomy surroundings ((compared to the colorful and lively neighborhood back home – it’s been 2 years since I was able to visit Manila aahh)) ///// anyway, here are some photos from our flight stopover in Taiwan Taoyuan Airport!

Thank you so much for your well wishes everyone, I really appreciate it!
I hope to upload lots of new art starting next week (and will resume working on that MM art book♥)

I couldn’t do 707 Route while I was there, I had no mobile internet and the WiFi everywhere was super slow ;;v;; Now that I’m back, I still can’t do the route because the app won’t let me change my time zone (it still doesn’t recognize Daylight Savings Time)!!! //cries because now I won’t be able to play the new update hhHHHNNN

Also – my fave photo of all (it’s me beside a mirror) vvvvvvvvvvvvv

One Dance (Ethan Dolan x Reader)

Summary: Losing your friends at a Drake concert doesnโ€™t turn out so bad after all.

Warnings: eh none

A/N: Iย saw Drake last month and it was basically this imagine only Ethan wasnโ€™t there :( still it was literally the best night of my life. Iโ€™m thinking about doing a continuation/part two to this but it would probably just be pure smut, let me know what you think and leave requests!

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today in my cooking class one of my group members was so blunt and rude to me??? like we were kind of dividing up tasks amongst the 4 of us and there was 3 recipes we had to do. and as we were doing that he’s like. well celine’s kinda…. bad in the kitchen…. 

and when i said i preferred to work with someone on one of the recipes he was like yeah i’d feel better if you did that

and im like hahahaha thanks!!! :) srry im so inexperienced!!!! 

anonymous asked:

Should I feel bad for sorta not feeling angry for netflix's death note? Like the story of death note can be done anywhere so it doesn't really feel like whitewashing more like a retelling? Like I could understand if it took place in Japan but it obviously doesn't? Idk I feel Im wrong about this.

Tbh I am not here to tell you what you should feel about it but do consider if you only feel so removed from it because you’re not affected by the whitewashing of the story. Asian folks, especially Asian American people, STRUGGLE to be cast in general and in THEIR OWN STORIES because people want their pop culture, media, and cultural contributions but not them. They literally could’ve had it still take place here but cast Japanese Americans but they were lazy and made it about a white boy named Light *Turner*.

Consider if your indifference is caused by distance from the issue at hand.

anonymous asked:

I'm sorry for coming to you with this but you've always got good advice. So a month ago I broke up with my ex and two weeks ago I had gotten together with another girl. My ex is currently upset about this and she blames herself for it when it's mostly mine. I had stopped talking to her after we broke up. I feel really bad but I feel as though I shouldn't be. I didn't like our relationship. I don't really know if I should talk to her about this or not. Once again sorry for coming to you

Hmm… I think you two should get a time to talk one on one with each other about why you broke up. At least that way you both and try to grow from it. I can’t believe you think I give good advice, I have no idea what I’m doing here.

Anyhow, I hope all goes well. Stay safe, good luck!

anonymous asked:

hey if you dont mind “when was the last time you ate?” w/ mercutio maybe??? or anyone else you want to do (also im in lov with all your writing youre so great 10/10)

Benvolio hesitates when he sees Mercutio, and it makes him feel awful. Mercutio is his best friend, they’ve been through so much together, and now that Mercutio needs his best friend Benvolio hesitates? But there is something different about Mercutio now, something that puts Benvolio on edge. It’s been a week since they last saw each other, back when Mercutio had been escorted away by his uncle, and he can’t escape the feeling that something has deeply changed in that time.

Of course something has changed. Mercutio’s brother died.

Benvolio curses at himself and ignores the bad feeling, walking over to where Mercutio silently sits and watches the guests milling through his house. The funeral has just ended, and Benvolio would have thought Mercutio would be surrounded by people. Instead it seems like everyone is avoiding him. Frankly Benvolio can’t blame them.

“Hey,” he says softly as he sits down on the sofa next to Mercutio.

Mercutio only glances at him with empty eyes, then looks away again. He looks pale, haggard somehow even though his appearance is perfectly put together. There are dark circles beneath his eyes and Benvolio wonders if he’s managed to sleep since the incident happened. He wants to reach out and hug his friend, but he thinks of Mercutio’s eyes, shudders, and keeps his hands to himself.

“You don’t, uh, seem too well,” he says instead, lamely, looking down on his hands. “When was the last time you ate? Or slept?”

Mercutio shrugs, a quick, jerking movement. Benvolio wishes that Romeo was there; he is much better at getting to Mercutio when he is in one of his strange moods. But Romeo is sick, couldn’t even get up from his bed when Benvolio left him earlier.

“Isn’t there someone to help you, I don’t know, to deal with- with everything?” Benvolio makes a broad gesture with his arm, then lets it fall to his side. Mercutio isn’t responding to him, isn’t even looking at him, and he doesn’t know what to do or say. He sighs, heavily. “You know Val wouldn’t want you to stop caring about yourself this way.”

“It doesn’t matter what he wanted or not,” comes Mercutio’s voice, so soft that Benvolio first thinks he has misheard. “He’s dead. They killed him. He’s gone, and so it isn’t possible for him to want anything. The dead are dead.”

Benvolio looks around in panic, trying to think of something, anything, to say. From what he knows the investigation into the hit and run is still ongoing, and they don’t have any clue who drove the car that hit Valentine. But the tone of Mercutio’s voice is strange, so devoid of anger or- anything, really. It makes the hair on Benvolio’s neck rise, but he refuses to acknowledge it.

“Maybe,” he says finally, “but there are still people living, people who love you and who don’t want to see you like this.”

Mercutio is silent, unmoving next to Benvolio, then he rises and looks down on Benvolio, and those eyes freezes him to the core. It’s like Mercutio is someone else, someone he doesn’t know, and the way Mercutio tilts his head gives Benvolio the image of a bird considering a bug it’s about to eat.

“Then they shouldn’t watch,” Mercutio says simply and walks away. Benvolio is left behind, sweating and staring at a his back and feeling like he has been told something important, something vital. Something he shouldn’t forget.

i went to joanns to buy some stuff for cosplay and the woman two spots in front of me in line had like 4868932483 things in her basket with 2785324 different coupons and there was no one else that could get on the registers and i felt so bad for the cashier up there and the woman right in front of me was getting huffy 

when i finally got up there she apologized and i told her not to sweat it bc i used to work at michael’s and i know what it feels like to be swamped with no backup and she was so relieved and dropped the customer service voice and was like ‘omg i’m so glad someone understands’ and it felt good that i could reassure her 

of course then i couldn’t figure out the gd pin pad with my card so i stood there fighting with it for like a full 30 seconds i felt so bad like ‘I’M SORRY NOW IT’S MY FAULT’


My favorite uncle. The one who sang me italian lullabies when I was a baby.. Who inspired my love to cook. Who helped me love to ski. Who wants to help me learn again after my accident. Who loved me and made me feel special when i was a sick little girl.. He had a massive heart attack yesterday and I just found out. 

He’s on dialysis and in ICU.. It’s.. It’s bad. It doesn’t look good and I’m in shock.

I don’t know what to do or what to say. I can’t feel anything except absolute dread. 

I don’t know if this means i’m going to bury myself here to try and hide from the world, or if I’m going to be absent for a while. I suppose it depends on what happens to him. 

I love him so much. I can’t.. I can’t even comprehend this.

anonymous asked:

Oh since you asked for naughty I gotta know. Do you grow when you jerk off? Dose getting aroused or horny fuel your inner beast, making you want more power and size?

GOOD question! The answer is I USED to. It took YEARS of training to get good at it! fuck, i remember the first time teen beast started jacking off in earnest, wanting it so bad, feeling my cock swelling in my hands, ignoring the sounds of the bed creaking and groaning, the feeling of my feet stretching across the floor as my pj’s popped button after button! God it was so intense, forgetting everything around me as my head slid up the wall and within just a few strokes was brushing the roof, how my pre alone was spurting hard enough to dent the ceiling and chip the plaster!

God damn, the floorboards were groaning and I was about to fall right through the floor when I came (thank GOD I had shorter stamina, hadn’t trained it up yet!) I remember that cock spurting like a firehose, had to aim out the window, took the siding off my neighbours house as my thigh thick beastcock spurted so fucking hard! my muscled thighs jerking from the pleasure as I almost smothered myself in my hairy pecs it was AMAZING and TERRIFYING!

NOW though, you know how some guys think of baseball? or something to stop themselves from cumming too fast? I have to CONSTANTLY think of not growing, of holding back, of fighting off that urge, that desire to GROW. GOD it gets hard sometimes, and I can’t help it, it doesn’t work 100% of the time. The longer I edge, the more I can feel my back spread against my headboard, the more my cock fills my hands, and my balls push my thick legs apart! Feeling my pecs rising with every deep breath but never falling, just growing and heaving as I struggle to hold it “DON’t GROW…DON’T GROW…DON’T GROW” 

anonymous asked:

the writers did a bad deal for sure, but we had all thought about the wife thing. Anyway trying to think with these new pieces, it was a Vegas wedding, he certainly didn't care at all and he thought he was divorced, so 212 is understandable the thought to Erin, on 317 to Terry's wife too, he didn't talk to Erin about Abby is bullshit, but I'll try to swallow that he was afraid and ashamed of who he was in those time.

We all thought about it but i didn’t think they’d actually do it. They made it sound like it was nothing to him but then he’s suddenly all leaving and needing to sort out his life and his feelings rather than just moving on with it…definitely not the right way to go about all of this.

night-in with bobby 🌙 (for @chimchimsmiles ily – feel better soon ❤️️)

Nights were finally your escape from all the stress and struggles that had occupied your mind as the hours passed by. As night had settled in, your boyfriend Bobby was quick to come to your rescue. You two spent the night curled up in bed in matching hoodies while enjoying your favorite movies on Netflix and a warm cup of hot chocolate. When sleep had finally washed over you, Bobby couldn’t help but smile as he tucked you in and pressed a soft kiss against your forehead. 

anonymous asked:

Grim topic, but my Betta has just started pineconing. Any advice on how to deal with him dying would be appreciated. I've had him for almost a year and I let his water get bad as I could barely look after myself (over a few weeks) and was going to give him to a friend. I didn't in time and it's my fault... He's been my only friend while my family has made me feel worse and worse, and he won't be around much longer. I don't know what to do. My family will say just flush him and forget. I can't.

Hi, there.

I’m so sorry to hear. Unfortunately, there’s not much you can do for him at this point. You can try Epsom salt bath/dips or using an antibacterial medicine, although, from personal experience and seeing so many other incidents, this is usually futile. Even if the pineconing goes away, fish typically pass because of internal organ failure and/or stress from the ordeal.

All you can really do is try and make him comfortable. Make sure he has lots of resting places and reduce the water level if he’s struggling to swim. Spoil him a little with some extra treats. You also have the choice to euthanize the fish, although this is a very personal decision. If you do go this route, using the clove oil method is the most humane.

After he passes, either way, instead of flushing him, you can choose to bury him in a houseplant or garden. When my fish die, I bury them in houseplants. It helps to bring closure and makes me feel like the circle of life has continued somehow.

Be kind to yourself and good luck.

VIXX Reaction-Cheering you up

Hey @animeotakupooh  here is your request.  I made this in advanced and set it on a post timer so that way it goes out today and you don’t have to wait until I feel better.  If you don’t like it, send me a message and i’ll give it another shot.

I don’t own any of these gifs, props to the owners.

N:  He had been really tired from practicing all night long and was in a bad mood.  You popped by the office and started doing a silly dance for him.  He saw you and started to smile then gave a loving gesture to let you know you cheered him up.

Leo:  He was in the middle of getting his picture taken by a ton of cameras and was in a bad mood due to his busy day and not getting enough sleep.  He looked over at the side and saw you doing cute gestures at him, making him smile for the first time in a long time.

Ken:  He had been sad about work and not being able to see you.  It was making him cranky and he was mad.  You started to tell him via video chat that you miss him and will be there for him when he gets back making him smile and he blows you a kiss.

Ravi:  He had been upset about the way that his single had been doing on the charts.  You met him at the studio and gave him several talks of encourgament and then he was ready to get back out there.

Hongbin:  He was dissapointed that his shows ratings.  You met him for lunch and told him that you had already ordered the whole show from Viki and would always have it on hand.  He then smiled making his day better.

Hyuk:  He wasn’t happy about how his vocals were, when you came in and started to sing a cute song for him.  He looked at you and started to smile giving him the courage to try to sing the song again.

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senshiofmom  asked:

Top 10 sailor Moon Monster of the week

10. Screaming violin woman (093)

9. Pegasus hits the gym (143)

8. WHAT the ACTUAL HELL (151)

7. An 80s stripper who also happens to be a shoe (106)

6. Me (114)

5. The animation department had a lot of extra pink paint (174)

4. An elephant vacuum cleaner, but like in a sexy way (094)

3. My breasts are two small screaming snowmen (038)

2. Ball Family (132, 140, 146)

1. A straight-up, actual volcano (067)

I hope everyone who bitched about Jimin posting in the fancafe while on tour and said he didn’t like intl fans is really proud of themselves. He’s acknowledged intl fans and asked people to translate stuff so many times in the last couple of days; he obviously feels guilty. He even had Hoseok do that live with him so be could understand and interact with the intl fans. You guys really made him feel bad.

Not every idol can read/speak/understand English, languages are hard. Some people really struggle with learning second languages. And honestly I don’t think idols should be required to learn English or Japanese or anything else if they don’t really, actually want to. That kind of expectation is just too much, imo. We should take it as a nice surprise when an idol knows a second language instead of an expectation or a requirement. And on top of that, what is getting upset with an idol for communicating in their own language with fans who speak that language suppose to do exactly? Yelling at him doesn’t make him suddenly capable of understanding everything you guys type at him at lightening speed. It just hurts his feelings.

And of course he would feel home sick. He’s in a foreign country, eating foreign food, surrounded by people he can’t understand. If I remember correctly Jimin was the one who got homesick the fastest on Bon Voyage. He loves his country and there’s nothing wrong with that. He’s a homebody, so sue him.

Anyway it’s like 4am, I’m emotional, and him asking people to translate on ch+ for intl fans made me :/ :/ :/ because he shouldn’t have to worry about that. He’s a good kid and he doesn’t deserve to be spoken to that way by people (his fans) who are suppose to love and support him. I love armys, but honestly I don’t think you guys realize how spoiled we are. Your expectations are unrealistic.

There are fandoms out there that can’t even find an eng sub of a five minute clip of their group months after it’s aired. We get twenty subs uploaded to YouTube in a matter of hours. Armys work hard for each other and it makes BTS seem more accessible than they actually are, but please remember to respect the members in real time when English isn’t always an option. I hope that makes sense?? Like don’t let the ease of accessibility make you forget that, in the moment, you are dealing with real people with feelings who might struggle to understand you.

In short; please don’t be selfish and always remember to respect the members. They love you and they work hard for you. They deserve to be spoken to with care.

Kurt Cobain: was mentally and physically abused by his biological father because he had ADHD and was hyperactive which bothered his dad.

Kurt Cobain: his parents didn’t want him to play with poor kids because he was “better than them” and he was forced to wear a sweater he was allergic to so his mom would brag how her kids “were the best dressed kids in town”

Kurt Cobain: thought he was the reason of his parents divorce since his parents usually argued about his up-bringing which made him feel guilty and embarassed 

Kurt Cobain: witnessed his mother being abused by her boyfriend who once broke her arm and felt guilty because he couldn’t do anything about it

Kurt Cobain: moved to live with his dad in a trailer trying to improve their relationship but his dad ended up marrying another woman after promising his 10 year old son not to remarry

Kurt Cobain: couldn’t get along with his step-mom because he felt that if he would love her he would betray his mom and because his father treated his step-siblings better than him which made him withdrawn and deprssed 

Kurt Cobain: he had minor scoliosis but both of his parents didn’t care which caused several physical problems in the future mainly his stomach problems

Kurt Cobain: was forced by his father to practice sports and left his father’s house when he was 14 after a huge argument because he lost a wrestling match 

Kurt Cobain: his mother didn’t want him to come live with her so he had to move from relative to relative. None of his relatives afforded his stay which made him feel depressed and un-wanted

Kurt Cobain: moved to live with his mom and her husband and he was constantly abused by his step-dad for being a virgin and single and often called him “loser” and “faggot”

Kurt Cobain: was bullied in high school for being friends with a gay boy and because he was intersted in arts while the other boys were interested in sports

Kurt Cobain: started smoking pot when he was 13 to deal with his depression and his mother didn’t bother to stop him because she was also smoking pot that she hid in her jewerly box and she even once took a drag from her son’s joint at a party

Kurt Cobain: got kicked out of his mom’s house at 17 because he brought a girl with him to impress his step-dad who would always brag about how many girls he slept with when he was in Kurt’s age

Kurt Cobain: was homeless when he was just 17 and he would sometimes sleep in the library, in the hospital waiting room or on cardboards and he NEVER complained to anyone about it

Kurt Cobain: had to quit school at 18 to find a job to afford his bread and rent a dirty and smelly shack and he went through several jobs including being a janitor at his own high school

Kurt Cobain: he was kicked out of his appartements several times because he couldn’t afford to pay the rent until moving in with his first girlfriend when he was 21

Kurt Cobain: suffered from severe stomach problems because he had  a pinched nerve in his spine caused by his untreated scoliosis and he didn’t talk about it because he didn’t want to bother people which later made him medicate himself using heroin in littles doses to kill the pain   

Kurt Cobain: would sometimes stop in the middle of the performance to check if the people who stage dived were ok

Kurt Cobain: heard the story of a 14 year old girl who got raped and wrote a song about her (Polly) 

Kurt Cobain: hated sexists, racists and homophobes and didn’t want them to come to his shows and always expressed his annoyance because of their presence

Kurt Cobain: respected women dearly and encouraged feminist movements (like Riot Grrrls) 

Kurt Cobain: tried to quit drugs and went to rehab twice in a row. Once when his wife was pregnant and a second time when his daughter was born

Kurt Cobain: accepted to play a benefit for rape survivors in Bosnia and Herzegovina and didn’t get a dime for his performance

Kurt Cobain: wrote a song about rape (Rape Me) because he wanted to attract media’s attention to that issue and kept playing it despite the critics and the controversy that surrounded the song

Kurt Cobain: played a gay rights benefit supporting No-on-Nine

Kurt Cobain: stopped in the middle of the song to defend a girl who was being harrassed and kicked the man out of the show after making him feel ashamed about himself

Kurt Cobain: used his fame to promote good bands who weren’t famous and was bothered by media’s focus on his band only and openly expressed how he thought bands like Soundgarden and Alice In Chains were better and deserve more recogniation

Kurt Cobain: didn’t want to be called “a voice of a generation” because his drug use was exposed and he didn’t want to influence anybody negatively and he felt that he was judged by media which deepened his depresion because of his insecurity and made his drug addiction worse

Media: Kurt Cobain was a rock star junkie who hated fame and commited suicide because of it at age 27

People: Kurt Cobain is an emo pussy! He was a coward for killing himself and he was a junkie loser! He was always complaining about how his life sucked and the only thing he did is whine and sing about depression!


So yesterday whenever someone took out their phone and started taking pictures of me or my friend’s service dogs I took a picture of that person.

I made it very obvious that is what I was doing.

And most of them got offended. Because I was invading their privacy and being rude.

There was a lesson to be learned there, but I don’t think most of them got it. This is a mere 1/3 of the pictures I took. In one day.

This is what service dog handlers deal with. Imagine being someone with paranoia/psychosis and having strangers constantly stop and take pictures of you/your friends. It’s bad.

People- Do not take pictures of service dogs without permission. It’s rude and invasive.

Handlers, if someone does feel free to take a picture of them. Use a flash. Make it obvious. Maybe they’ll get the point.

I had 4 people (not shown) apologize and get the point yesterday. I talked to them about it. And I deleted my picture of them. They deleted their picture of me. That’s 4 more educated people out there.

In the meantime this little photo project of mine will continue. Because this is what I deal with everyday and it needs to stop. If being obnoxious gets my point across, good.


possible spoilers.

  • ‘ whatever i do, i do it to protect you. ‘
  • ‘ you’re confusing peace with terror. ‘
  • ‘ have to start somewhere. ‘
  • ‘ you will never win. ‘
  • ‘ come. we have a long ride ahead of us. ‘
  • ‘ is that ___ ? he/she/they look a little different than i imagined.’
  • ‘ what part of ‘urgent message’ do you guys not understand
  • ‘ you want to get out of here
  • ‘ congratulations. you are being rescued. ‘
  • ‘ i like to think he/she’s/they’re dead. it makes things easier. ‘
  • ‘ i’ve never had the luxury of political opinions. ‘
  • ‘ what we need is someone who can get us through the door without being killed. ‘
  • ‘ that is a bad idea. i think so, and so does ___. ‘
  • ‘ you find him/her/them, you kill him/her/them. then and there. ‘
  • ‘ why does he/she/they get a ___ and i don’t ? ‘
  • ‘ i find that answer vague and unconvincing. ‘
  • ‘ trust goes both ways. ‘
  • ‘ i will not fail. ‘
  • ‘ yes, i’m speaking to you. ‘
  • ‘ for that answer, you must pay. ‘
  • ‘ we’re not here to make friends. ‘
  • ‘ tell me you have a back-up plan. ‘
  • ‘ there are a lot of explosions for two people blending in. ‘
  • ‘ quiet
  • ‘ and there’s a fresh one if you mouth off again. ‘
  • ‘ let them pass in peace. ‘
  • ‘ is your foot alright
  • ‘ you almost shot me
  • ‘ there is more than one sort of prison, ___. i sense you carry yours wherever you go. ‘
  • ‘ not a day goes by where i don’t think of you. ‘
  • ‘ did they send you – ? did you come here to kill me ? ‘
  • ‘ all it’s ever brought me is pain. ‘
  • ‘ i will run no longer, but you must save yourself. ‘
  • ‘ it’s beautiful. ‘
  • ‘ i’m not very optimistic about our odds. ‘
  • ‘ i believe i owe you an apology, ___. your work exceeds all expectations. ‘
  • ‘ we stand here amidst my achievement, not yours
  • ‘ does he/she/they look like a killer ? ‘
  • ‘i don’t need luck, i have you. ‘
  • ‘ i have so much to tell you. ‘
  • ‘ you lied to me. ‘
  • ‘ you’re in shock. ‘
  • ‘ you’re in shock, and looking for someplace to put it. i’ve seen it before.’
  • ‘ i had every chance to pull the trigger. but did i ? ‘
  • ‘ i had orders. orders that i disobeyed. but you wouldn’t understand that. ‘
  • ‘ we don’t all have the luxury of deciding when we want to care about something. ‘
  • ‘ you’re not the only one who lost everything. some of us just decided to do something about it. ‘
  • ‘ be careful not to choke on your aspirations, ___. ‘
  • ‘ what chance do we have ? the question is, what choice ? ‘
  • ‘ the time to fight is now. ‘
  • ‘ every time i walked away from something i wanted to forget, i told myself it was for a cause i believed in. ‘
  • ‘ i couldn’t face myself if i gave up now. ‘
  • ‘ ___, i’ll be there for you. ‘
  • ‘ ___ said i had to. ‘
  • ‘ not used to people sticking around when things go bad. ‘
  • ‘ welcome home. ‘
  • ‘ one fighter with a sharp stick and nothing left to lose can take the day. ‘
  • ‘ make ten men feel like a hundred. ‘
  • ‘ good luck, little sister/brother. ‘
  • ‘ i’ve got a bad feeling about this – ‘
  • ‘ light it up. ‘
  • ‘ why does nobody ever tell me anything, ___ ? ‘
  • ‘ here. you wanted one, right ? ‘
  • ‘ your behavior, ___, is continually unexpected. ‘
  • ‘ ___ ! come back ! please ! ‘
  • ‘ ___, don’t go. don’t go. i’m here. i’m here. ‘
  • ‘ it’s okay. it’s okay. ‘
  • ‘ this is for you, ___. ‘
  • ‘ do you think anybody’s listening
  • ‘ you may fire when ready. ‘
  • ‘ ___ would have been proud of you. ‘
Time Out.

Hi. Jakei here. The real one.

I’m gonna delete the latest posts because this silly game is over. I learned something about this…”kind” of excersise. It was funny, but very serious as well..

Let’s get straight to the point.

In three days Underverse will have one year since I created the first animation, the pilot showing my favorite Sanses from de AUs. 

When I had the chance I tried to said all time this project started as a mistake, like a lucky moment to show people my love for art and videogames. But I learned to stop calling this story like that. Is just something that came up to my mind and made me feel more confident to do something I love with the chance to earn money with this to accomplish my goal to have my own house where I can live in peace with my only family that is my mother.

That’s my main goal. So, don’t think the rushers and haters are making me feel bad and forcing me to quit. I had to deal with real rude and evil people before, getting paid for being humillated from Mondays to Saturdays and coming back home crying because of a real stressing and miserable situation. I don’t think this is the same case here. I’m not receiving money from them. I keep with this because is a way when I can reach my goal giving love to my current job as a independent artist.

The latest posts were just for joking but I realized that some people was taking it too seriously. I’m very, very sorry for worrying you, but also I want to thank you for supporting me. Please don’t hate people who was involved into that shitpost, and don’t hate people who are really trying to hurt me. I don’t want you get hurt or having a bad time trying to defend me. 

Unlike other cases similar to this one. I learned to stop worrying about this. I prefer ignore this or even taking this with humor like I did this week for distract myself in some way due the delay of Underverse 0.3 has been a bit stressful to me because I’ll continue animating until the video is released. Stereohead Studios has also many important things to do so blaming someone is just useless and unfair.

Something that I’ve learned from other big artists that I admire with all my soul like Crayon Queen and Myebi/ Comyet… is that we have enough living hard situations in this world, in our personal lives, and the less thing we can do as recognized artists in this fandom is trying to make our blogs a nice place and spread positive feelings despite hatred and the amount of terrible asks people make to them, because we’re motivating people and teaching kindness and respect to each other.  Not for nothing exists options on this platforms to avoid those bad comments. Is a waste of time crying and messing up your entire day because two or three guys said something that could hurt you. 

Is not that hard when you’re used to it.

Those guys don’t even know you and You don’t know them. So… man… why even waste your thoughts and feelings when you can keep working on your own stuff and improving your skills? Making a space for you and your fans to laugh, to smile, to show you how far have you came because of their support.

You’re doing something you love and that matter. Probably others not, probably they won’t have to deal with this style of life. And I’m sure many of us started to be recognized thanks to this fandom. Everyone started with a little level or we was too shy to show our stuff. 

Drawing well, animating well, telling amazing stories won’t decide your happiness if you’re not happy, if you don’t try to trust happiness and show them that you’re really fighting for that.

If you feel your blogs or another places with things like “uuh I don’t like this thing i made” “I suck” “this person told me that and i’m so upset i hate them” “that person made something terrible go and hurt them because them deserve it” “i love what i do but my life is hell” “i’m tired of x and y because they want z” … things can’t change in your life if you don’t start by yourself.

I thought many times about cancel Underverse and leave this fandom, not only because of haters and stuff. It was because I was judged by many of other big artists that doesn’t like this kind of fandoms and are working in their own projects. I thought it was unfair because I was getting recognition because something that I didn’t create. I just created a fan story. 

I’m pretty sure when I post the next animation the chaos will be back again but I don’t even care. I don’t have 100k yet so I don’t have a multitude telling me what to do and asking me when. Anyway, if I had them, I wouldn’t still care. Because I have clear what to do and how to make it works. I’m not here just for teaching people how to draw or animate. I’m here too for showing them how to be nice and patient and how those two things can bring you to a better way to see the world. 

That we are real, nice people and we’re having fun, putting effort and love when we’re making something for you. Fandom or not fandom content.

Have a nice day.

And XGaster.

To the corner. Right nao.