i feel mentally sick

Alright so I might just say screw everything to this whole hiatus thing because it’s messing up with my mind. I get all my work done which is good but I go to bed around 10 now because no kpop and I usually stay up pretty late because of tumblr. Since no tumblr and no updates on idols I’ve been having terrifying nightmares every time I sleep and I cry a lot because there’s no pictures of my bias’ to make me feel better or calm me down when I’m overwhelmed. Also there is no one I can talk to when I’m not on tumbIr or on my phone. I realize how lonely of a person I am without tumblr. I think hiatus’ aren’t my thing.

yesterday i heard about this pilot who purposely crashed plane and i keep thinking about it all the time. like, how fucked up this man was to kill this many innocent people. i don’t care if he was mentally ill, this whole situation is sick and i feel sorry for families of victims cause it must be terrible knowing that their loved ones died because some fuck up decided so

i feel so sick today mentally and physically my birthday is in 2 weeks and I just want to go to the hospital

im gonna try and sleep now

im reaaaaally mentally exhausted but i might feel better tomorrow. ive been feeling sick too so hopefully i can avoid that.

gnight everyone

Whenever someone with depression or anxiety or any mental illness has said to me in the past

“the nights are the hardest”

I was always like 

“lol thats so poetic emo im sure its fine”

but no. no no no no no. let me tell you firsthand, the nights are the fucking hardest. 

anonymous asked:

I'm trying to treat myself better both physically and mentally, I have been feeling dizzy and sick and not eating very healthy and drinking/smoking weed a lot and I just want to feel healthy and happier.. Any tips on how to start this?

The only advice I can give you from personal experience is to go to your doctor and request to get blood work done. That’s the best start to regaining your health, you’ll be able to see if you have any vitamin deficiencies. Also you might want to see a therapist, that could really teach you a lot about yourself. You might need a little help to get to your goals, and that’s completely okay.

abeastenrepose asked:

smutty sexual: Jean: 2, 5, 14, 15, 19, 23, 26, 30

2: Rough sex or soft sex? 

Ugh, Eren better not fucking see this, but I’m an honest man, okay, I prefer it on the gentler side. Most of the time! It’s not… a must or anything.

5: Favourite sex position? 

Eren better not fucking see thisholy shit. But, um, yeah… I really like… being ridden… Okay, look! It’s nice! …Really nice. Yeah.

14: Do you prefer giving or receiving oral sex?

Giving. I’m fucking amazing with my tongue and I know it. Nothing to be shy about, heh.

15: Most embarrassing thing that’s ever happened to you during sex?

Eren. Eren is the most embarrassing thing that’s ever happened to me during sex.

19: Would you prefer sex in the bath or sex in the shower?

H-heh, the shower. Morning showers are great, b-but getting laid in said morning showers is even better.

23: Have you ever sent someone a dirty text/picture?

…Maybe.

26: Something that will never fail to get you horny?

Ah, hah, um. Well. I’m not even an ass guy but, like, just here me out, okay. Whenever someone bends over in front of you and it doesn’t even matter if they have ass for days or ass for half a second, in that moment they. They look. Ahah. Great. …Shut up, I’m a visual person.

30: Do you watch porn?

On occasion. 

I made another avo sandwich😂💚🍃 they’re sooooo good, and on the side I had some roasted pepitas, I even sprinkled some on my sandwich to give it some crunch haha. Anyway, I’m feeling a little better mentally, but now I feel sick! My throat is so sore and I feel so weak and shaky. I can’t believe it😓I did some relaxing yoga though but other than that I’ve just been chilling on my bed curled up in a fuzzy blanket😁

I really need to follow some more yogis/yoga accounts..so leave your favorites down below!! I’ve been having such great yoga sessions lately, it’s just really been helping me to relax and find my breath when I get anxious🙏 hope you’re all having a great day☀️🍃🌀