i feel like this could be photoshopped onto a lot of things

anonymous asked:

Stumbled across your art recently, and I totally admire your work! As a complete noob to the digital art scene, I'd just like to ask whether you have any tips on colour picking (like for skin tones, under varied/dramatic lighting and such!). I have a ton of other things I want to ask, but I'll limit myself to one question and then try to google the rest, haha/ Thanks for sharing your art with us! ^^

ahh thank you so much! ♥ welcome to the digial art scene friend, i hope you enjoy your stay and ctrl + z

now onto your question! (if you don’t know what layer and layer modes are and how they generally work you should probably google that before you continue reading)

we all perceive colour differently (thx science) and i trust my intuition a lot when it comes to colour picking because of that, and also because i feel like you can make pretty much every colour combination work within the right context. context is key! but still, remember that all of this is about how i perceive colour, so you might not agree with everything i say.

here’s a quick rundown of terms you’ll see around a lot in reference to colours and shading: the hue, which is the ‘colour’ itself, the saturation aka the intensity, and the brightness [or value] which describes how dark or bright we perceive a colour to be.

rule of thumb: when you shade don’t just add black (or white) to your base colours, that will make your drawings boring and lifeless. use different hues and saturation!

now first things first: which skin colour does the character have?

you’ll mostly be navigating in the red to yellow spectrum for the skin tone. so when i pick the base colours i usually start with the skin and adjust the rest of the colours accordingly. if you’re not sure where to begin it might help if you first determine the values (brightness) of the base colours in grayscale.

and here are a few colour variations—i stuck to the approximate values but played around with a lot of different hues and levels of saturation.

now compare 3 and 5: you’ll notice that 3 is very bright and leans towards orange hues, whereas 5 has a pinkish tint.

on the left i gave 5 the hair colour of 3 and in my opinion the pink hue of the skin doesn’t go well with the orange undertone of the hair. you’ll have to experiment a lot to find out which combinations work for you.  

ctrl + u is your biggest friend (or image >> adjustments >> hue/saturation in photoshop, the shortcut works in sai and clip studio paint too). play with the sliders and see what happens. i do that a lot myself, because it’s easier to coordinate the colours like that afterwards instead of trying to manually pick perfectly matching ones right away.

for further adjustments i like to use an extra semi-transparent layer on top of everything with just a single colour to add atmospheric light. this unifies the colours and makes them more harmonious, if that’s what you’re looking for. this is about as far as i’d go if i didn’t want to shade the drawing.

if i do want to shade, especially with high contrasts and dramatic light, i darken the base by just adding an additional black layer, here set to 40% opacity. of course you could add a colour layer like the ones i mentioned previously too.

to create an impression of dramatic light you need a high contrast between light and dark areas (1). if i want additional visual intrest i often add secondary light which falls onto the main shadow areas. here i picked a faint greenish blue to balance out the yellow (2). and since light is at least partially reflected when it hits a surface you should add a faint glow that goes across the shadow/light border. i uses a mid-brown with a very soft brush on a layer set to overlay here (3).

for this shading style i like to use the layer mode colour dodge with lowered opacity + fill settings. for some layer modes opacity and fill do the exact same thing (e.g. for multiply or screen). however for colour dodge there’s a big difference:

a lowered opacity merely alters the transparency of the entire layer. that looks pretty awful sometimes, because the bright orange affects the dark of the hair much more intensely than the already brighter skin. but when you lower the fill percentage you primarily lower the amount of light that falls onto darker colours. so the layer’s opacity setting treats every colour equally whereas the fill setting takes their values into consideration. it might be hard to understand if you don’t try it out yourself, so just play around to get a feel for how it works!

and to summarise, here’s a process gif:

colour is an extremely big topic and i’ve only barely scratched the surface but i hope that still helped you out a little! the fastest way to learn is always to try things yourself, so grab a sketch and experiment. 👍

trimax-na-boken  asked:

But WBC is real with actual documented incidents. What has a real SJW ever actually done besides make stupid people feel uncomfortable on the Internet

There is no such thing as “a real SJW”.  “Social justice warrior” was always a negative label from the beginning, created to designate those that are not representing social justice as it should be (kind of like how the term “weekend warrior” is used to describe someone who’s normally boring from Monday through Friday, but goes out of their way to indulge themselves irresponsibly on the weekends in an attempt to compensate).  Wearing that label unironically is like publicly proclaiming that you’re a bigot.  You’re utilizing the No True Scotsman logical fallacy here.  Also, the fact that you said “make stupid people uncomfortable on the internet” really doesn’t reflect well on you, especially when the majority of anti-SJWs are liberals, LGBTA people, minorities, etc. that are simply “uncomfortable” with how you’re poorly representing what we believe in.  The fact that there even is a divide between people that all desire equality just goes to show that someone is doing it wrong (hint: It’s not the anti-SJWs).  If anything, you’re just showing people exactly the kind of attitude that people hate about SJWs.  It’s the fanaticism.  It’s the extremism.  There are people who simply have faith in a higher power, and then there are people like WBC, who actively use that faith to try to harm others.  This is why they’re really the perfect analogy when discussing what SJWs are to activism.

In any case, are you sure you want me to answer this?  Because I don’t think you’re going to like what you see.

What has tumblr done, you ask?:

    Meanwhile, the sane people of tumblr mocked the shit out of them for intentionally kicking the hornet’s nest, and then whining when they got stung.

    Why?  Because 4chan contributed over $23k to it. 

    I’m sure all of this doesn’t even come CLOSE to what SJWs have done overall.  I could probably spend weeks finding all sorts of bullshit to put on here.  I openly invite others to add onto this, as I’m sure there’s a lot that’s been left out (@takashi0 might have a list on hand).

    This is why people are against “social justice warriors”.  They are NOT representing social justice.  They are NOT supporting equality.  They are only giving liberals, activists, women, minorities, and the LGBTA community a bad name.

    psa: false accusations.

    last time i made a psa post that can be found under here. a bunch of bitter fack shippers just can’t handle the truth and are out for blood. and by that they are doing whatever they can do ruin my friends reputation for no fucking reason.

    first off, imma jump right into it. don’t be a fucking sheep. if you see a post about eddiesghost going around- please report it and come back to us about it. theres something called proof. its easy for someone to just talk and make a post. but you gotta show the receipts. so next time if you see something about my friend on instagram or even twitter, please just report it, defend her or even just tell her about it! it’s some serious shit, its no longer a joke.

    a post was recently posted by a gross blog. link is here. DON’T REPOST THEIR SHITTY POST PLEASE. ITS GROWING ENOUGH ALREADY.

    warning, its pretty disturbing and i’m sorry you had to read it. just remember its not fucking true.

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    RFA: MC Crying From Laughter

    May I request a headcanon where RFA+Saeran+V are trying to make MC laugh because she didn’t look happy as usual, but when she did laugh she starts crying on the floor in tears because whatever they said was super funny?

    Hi, it’s Pancake 😁 I’m sorry this took me so long, I’ve been;; really, really busy. I’m sorry if this one doesn’t turn out great… but I’m trying! Some of these got waaay longer than I wanted them to… oops. I hope you enjoy it anyways 👍🏻

    ⁃ If you’re ever unhappy, ya boy Yoosung knows
    ⁃ You guys had gone to an internet cafe and you were just kind of poking at your food
    ⁃ “MC?” Yoosung asked. “Are… uh, are you okay?”
    ⁃ You met his gaze and looked back down. “Yeah?”
    ⁃ Awkward silence.
    ⁃ “Are you sure? You seem, well, sort of upset?”
    ⁃ I mean you wanted to tell him, but you didn’t want to ruin your date
    ⁃ So you just said, “I’m fine,” and hoped he would accept it
    ⁃ He didn’t.
    ⁃ “No, you’re not,” he said firmly.
    ⁃ And listen y’all this kiddo has absolutely no idea what else to do so he just stands up and dumps his entire bowl of ramen on his head
    ⁃ It was…
    ⁃ Very unexpected, to say the least
    ⁃ All the shock and emotion just rolls out in one big wave and you’re laughing and crying and Yoosung is chasing you around the table screaming “hUG MEEEEE” but you’re wearing your new shirt and he’s covered in ramen and the whole cafe is staring at you like you’re crazy and that’s when you realize
    ⁃ You love being with him. You love acting like stupid college students and doing the simple things together. You love holding his hand and tousling his hair. You love it when he cups an uneasy hand over your face and kisses you. You love the way he says your name.
    ⁃ You love him.

    ⁃ Movie nights are usually much more fun when you’re not holding back tears
    ⁃ You and Zen were trying to unwind before his big performance tomorrow, and you didn’t want to stress him out
    ⁃ You made it half an hour before he caught you off guard and asked if you wanted popcorn
    ⁃ You didn’t have time to swallow back the lump in your throat and your voice broke as you answered
    ⁃ Then he asked if you were okay, and all of the emotion started spilling out
    ⁃ Oh honey
    ⁃ The poor angel was just so lost
    ⁃ I mean you were blubbering and ugly crying (even though you still look gorgeous with tears and snot streaming down your face) and Zen couldn’t understand a dang word you were saying
    ⁃ So he just kind of pulled you in and wrapped you up in his arms
    ⁃ You just stayed like that, leaning into him until the sobs simmered into hiccups
    ⁃ His hands traveled up and down your back and found your ribs and
    ⁃ You really didn’t expect to get jabbed
    ⁃ A burst of laughter escaped you before you knew what was going on
    ⁃ And suddenly he was tackling you and you were gasping for air between spurts of uncontrollable giggles
    ⁃ There was not a ticklish spot on your body that his fingers didn’t find
    ⁃ When you thought you couldn’t breathe anymore, Zen relented and you guys settled back on the couch, panting like crazy
    ⁃ Consider yourselves unwound

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    Why I dislike The Fault in Our Stars

    So, I’ve been getting a lot of asks over the last few months asking why I strongly dislike TFIOS by John Green as much as I do. And for the most part, all the recent askers have been surprisingly polite, considering the more aggressive ones I’ve received in the past on the subject. Anyway, I’ve answered a bunch of them separately, but I’ve decided to condense all of my theories, opinions and arguments into one succinct post.

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    A Picture’s Worth A Thousand Words

    Oh gosh. Please blame this on @larvesta ‘s wonderful Chloe/Alya art and @miracufic ‘s fluff phase

    1.But don’t you have a more flattering one?

    Saving face is something Chloe’s has always prided herself on. She’s always strutted her way through life on gilded steps, silver spoon stuck firmly in her mouth as she steps over obstacles and often people.

    But being a hero doesn’t give her much room to save face when her transparent wings are still new and stubbornly clinging against her yellow suit. She’s barely an asset on her good days and more a liability to the team on days when Pollen is being particularly stingy with her abilities.

    The initial excitement of it all is waning in the face of her shame, as she is yet again, spirited away from a rampaging akuma in Volpina’s capable arms. She maintains what little gravitas she can, her chin lifted high and her gaze set forward as she shouts-

    “Put me down you mangy fox! I can totally help Ladybug! Just give me a chance!”

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    The Photoshoot

    pic request by @doctorsolomon

    Josh seemed to be pretty good at making an ass of himself. But Garret had still gotten him opportunity to pose for a photoshoot. Josh had been trying to get into the magazines for a while but didn’t realize that personality is just as important to getting a job as talent. But almost instantly upon arrival he found a way to fuck it up.

    “You better not flirt with me,” he said as the cameraman introduced himself.

    His friend looked mortified. “Josh…” Garret clapped his hand to his head. “Sorry. Sorry. He doesn’t mean it. Right?”

    Josh shrugged his shoulders and started looking around the studio apartment. He didn’t seem to have a professional bone in his body but the cameraman played it off. “Don’t worry about it. Probably just nerves.”

    “You must be a saint,” Garret said under his breath.

    “Actually, more of a sinner,” he laughed. “But let’s get started. Josh you go get changed real quick. The clothes are in the other room.”

    Josh did as he was told and walked into the other room. He looked around for a camera making sure the cameraman wasn’t doing anything he wasn’t supposed to. He wasn’t about to let something take private photos of him changing. However the only clothes in the room were a black sleeveless shirt and gray compression shorts. Both pieces we just a little bit too big. He threw the shirt on and pulled the shorts up. As long as he got paid it didn’t really matter.

    “That was fast,” Garret said in surprise.

    “It was the only thing in there,” Josh replied holding the shorts up. “But don’t you think they’re too big?” Garret looked up and down his friend. The clothes were definitely too big. Sure his friend had a muscular body but it was more lithe than bulky. And those shorts were not made for someone with that skinny of legs.

    “Don’t worry about it,” the cameraman smiled. “We’ll fix it in post. That’s what all that photoshop and stuff is for. Ready to get started big guy?”

    Josh let out a grunt. “Don’t call me big guy.”

    Garret’s face blanched but the cameraman didn’t seem to mind. He just grinned at the comment, “Just part of the business.” Still Garret couldn’t help but feel a little embarrassed.

    The cameraman set himself up and flashed the camera. “Sorry bout that. Just making sure the lighting is okay. Alright so let’s start with something simple. How about just a flex. Yeah show me that arm,” the flash goes off again. “Yeah. You’re comfortable in front of a camera.” The flash goes off again. “It feels good when I take you’re pictures,” the flash goes off again.

    Garret smiles as he sees his friend looked more confident. With each new picture he looked more comfortable. ‘Maybe he’ll be better at this than I thought.’ Josh’s more aggressive, tensed muscles, relaxed. Garret had found the guy online and read the reviews that he was good. But watching his friend actually be so outgoing with his body in such a short time really blew Garret away.

    “That’s it big guy. You love working out. I can tell. Just look at those big muscles. Glad I went with the XL cause you look pumped. You love showing off that hot body. Don’t you,” The cameraman was right. His body did fill out that shirt really well. And those shorts didn’t seem to fit him as badly. Garret wondered why he thought they were too big. Thinking about it was just because Josh loves to wear clothes that’s a little too tight on him. His entire wardrobe was about a half size too small. “But I know what you love working out the most. That ass. Let me get a look at the thing.”

    Josh turned around poking his butt out. It was huge. The two round globes stuck so much further out than any other part of his body. And that was saying something. His entire body bulged but his ass was still one of the first places Garret’s eyes went.

    “That’s good. Yeah. Just a few more. I know you get horny when guys check out that ass of yours. You love showing it off though.” Garret paused wondering why the cameraman was getting so specific but then he looked directly at Garret. “You ready to join him?”

    “Wha?!? I don’t… I thought this was just supposed to be his photoshoot. I didn’t think I’d be part of it,” Garret put his hands up defensively.

    “C’mon Gare, it’s fun,” Josh was still on all fours looking back at him.

    “Yeah. It’s fun,” the cameraman grinned. He leaned in closer and started to whisper. “Look I’ll just take a few photos with you next to your friend and if you want to stop just say so.”

    “Alright,” he said a little uncomfortably. He walked over to the stage. Josh was so happy for him to be over there. He quickly wrapped his arm around his shoulder pulling him in.

    The cameraman laughed, “Someone’s excited.” The camera flashed and Garret’s eyes went south to see the large bulge in Josh’s shorts. “Josh you seem to be such a natural but let’s ease your friend into this. We’ll start simple again just to help him get used to it.” Josh gave a thumbs up and pulled his friend in even closer. Garret choked slightly in his tight hold. “Good. Get nice and comfortable.” The flash went off. Garret felt a weird calm come over his body. “That’s it. Just relax. You’re practically a natural.” Another couple of flashes. Garret started to wonder why he was so nervous. The cameraman was obviously a professional. And they could delete the pictures whenever they wanted.

    “Good. Good. Now Josh act like a big strong protector.” Josh instantly let go of Garret and pretended to be angry at the camera. He leaned forward flexing his large muscles. “Good. Protect your boyfriend.”

    ‘Boyfriend?’ but another flash made Garret forget about the thought. He kept watching that muscled ass in front of him. He couldn’t keep his eyes off it.

    “Perfect. Now let’s get a little more intimate. Just kissing. Josh show Garret just how much you love him. Good.” Josh’s tongue went deep inside Garret’s mouth. He slowly pushed the smaller man into his arms holding him up. Garret felt his hard dick brush against his leg. Something about it seemed off but they were boyfriends. “But we both know who’s on top.” Another flash and Garret realized what the problem was. Josh grinned wildly as he lifted Garret back up. His thick hands slowly traced down his smaller boyfriend’s body. The strong bodybuilder was on his knees as his hands held onto his shorts. Josh looked up waiting for a nod.

    “Perfect. Just what we needed.” The camera man moved a little getting a better angle.  “Jeez! Look at that thing. How does Josh even fit that in his mouth?! All the way in,” the cameraman added. And then Josh pushed his mouth further onto the hard cock in front of him.

    “Training,” Garret gave the cameraman a devilish smile. “Lots of training.” Josh had already gotten to work on Garret; slowly working the other man up.

    “I can see that,” the camera flashed again. “He loves that big cock inside him, doesn’t he?”

    Garret laughed. “Sure does. He might act like a big tough guy when other people are around but once we’re alone he can’t get off me.” Josh was mindlessly sucking at the huge member in his mouth he didn’t even seem to care about the other man watching him. His other hand slowly started to drift to his own shorts; pawing at the own bulge.

    The cameraman laughed as he flashed a few more photos. Josh didn’t seem to slow down at all. Garret’s face tried to stay in control as his hot boyfriend sucked his cock. “Just a few more. Okay. Now. Come.” A surge of energy flew through both the guys as he said it. Come shot from their dicks. It filled Josh’s mouth and shorts. “Drink up big guy,” the cameraman took one more photo. Josh gladly sucked down everything that Garret shot into him. “Good job guys,” the cameraman set his camera down. “Josh go ahead and get cleaned up.”

    The big guy did as he was told. He went back to the dressing room and got his clothes back on. A strange fog seemed to be lifting from his mind as he put his clothes back on. Everything that just happened to be such a blur. As he pulled his pants up he realized just how tight they were. “Man… Gotta get new pants for this fat ass of mine…” He shook his head wondering how he thought they were so comfortable this morning.

    As he walked back out he wrapped his arm around his friend Garret. Both of them looked at each other a little confused. Josh pulled his arm away and acted like it just didn’t happen. He pulled out his phone as the cameraman laughed. “If you ever want more photos just give me a call. I’m sure we can fit you in.”


    I’m clearing out my ask box, so here’s a rapid fire bunch of answers to the 43 questions in there! A lot of these I wanted to draw a comic or do a little animation for but just never got the time or energy, and others I didn’t know what to say, but I think that some response is better than no response, so while these are all going to be either text or doodles, I wanted them all to actually get answers.

    Below the cut because this’ll be a hella long one~ Plenty of Zelda doodles in there though so if you just wanna see doofy drawings click too!

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    Online Dating

    “His name should be… Augustus Payne…”

    “Holy shit, Mike.”

    I covered my mouth to muffle my laughter as my friend typed in the name. He grinned as he contemplated what to put next. “We’re a millionaire…”


    “We own a houseboat…”


    “We love walks on the beach…”

    “Holy shit Mike, you are putting way too much effort into this!”

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    1,000 Followers Celebration! 

    As someone who has built most of their lives on words-the intricacies of them, how a few simple letters can combine in an infinite number of possibilities to create words and paragraphs and ideas-it’s not often that I find myself speechless. But I am now, because I’ve reached a milestone that I never thought I would ever reach. So you’ll have to excuse me while I do a bit of storytelling. 

    I first became aware of tumblr last year and I’d always had the idea of creating a more specialized sideblog, but it wasn’t until March or April that I started seriously considering making it. Not only was Game of Thrones beginning to take over my life again, but I had (surprise, surprise) been writing a lot of fanfiction. And I was stunned at the lack of Jonerys fanfiction. So of course I figured ‘since they probably won’t get their happy ending, why don’t I write it instead?’ From the beginning it was mostly just going to be oneshots so I could write a lot in between the constraints of school and keeping up the appearance of having a social life. 

    But I didn’t think I’d get any more than 150 followers, at most. I guess I happened to come at a good time. Like, I don’t know why I have so many. I don’t write long and complicated meta, I don’t make amazing edits, and I’m not a super great artist. I’m not even really a part of the community, really-I only started really being into GOT in 2014, right before I turned 13, and started watching it this past season-so it’s not like I’ve known everyone for years. I just write fanfic and reblog other people’s posts and generally love my ship, because Jonerys has done so much more for me than I can articulate. I don’t know if I really understand it myself, but it’s helped me cope with anxiety and high school (which are both awful, in case you were wondering). And it’s so much easier to reach out to people when I know we already have something in common. 

    And you might not think it’s a big deal that most other people who ship the ship are in their twenties and thirties but to me it is, because that seems like a lot of years and I always feel like I have to overcompensate and not seem immature. Because like I’m not used to being a part of a fandom. I’m used to writing thousands of words every night, just not so much posting them online. But I’m getting better. 

    Lol I don’t write fics for any of you. I write them because the ideas are in my head anyways and I figured ‘maybe someone wants to read this shit instead of just having it sit on my computer so I can read it on long car rides’. And apparently, someone did. 

    So thank you for making this community such a wonderful place and giving a young writer room to grow and build her craft (and occasionally make some shitty edits because she doesn’t really want to shell out a lot of money for Photoshop). Where it’s totally not weird that I’m obsessed with a fictional couple and have their family tree written out seven generations into the future (well, maybe it is a little bit, but I’m used to it). In less than three months. 

    Now I’m going to start praising all of my talented mutuals because once I get started writing it’s hard to stop. But I just want to thank all of you so much-for this milestone and all the ones before. Really. Every time I hit another hundred I’d think ‘but that’s it.’ And it hasn’t been. 

    Thank you all so much for everything that you do for our community. You all deserve the best in the world <3 Love you all

    Now let’s actually enjoy Jonerys tonight! 



    You’ll notice I don’t have very many. Firstly because this blog is only a few months old so I haven’t really had time and I’ve been hesitant to follow multifandom blogs for a while because I need lots of Jonerys content for this site. But feel free to reach out to me whenever. I promise that I’m a really nice person lol and I can talk about things other than GOT. Really. 

    I’m also really anxious so I haven’t gotten to know any of you as well as I would like to, especially since it’s only been a few months. I’d really like to change that, if that’s all right with all of you. I’m going to have to get through hiatus somehow-unless tonight kills me and the Sex That Was Promised sends me to heaven on Cloud 9….

    In no particular order (I could go alphabetically but I just don’t have the time for that right now) : 

    @jxlight : I remember when you left a comment on my second story No Regrets back in May and I flipped out because I love all of your artwork and I couldn’t believe you’d actually read my fic lol. You make the cutest comics and I always look forward to reading them-they always make my day, no matter what I have going on! 

    @trueloveforeverbeautyandthebeast : I love your blog so much! It’s so pretty (and I love your url)! You’ve been here since the very beginning and I always love it when you leave comments on my stories or like my posts!

    @mpaty1475 : Another of the perennials lol. Always leaving kudos on my work. I always looking forward to seeing your username and the comments you add to your posts. Thank you so much! 

    @ellimomo : What is there to say about you that hasn’t been said by someone already? You’re the Queen of Positivity and the Queen of AUs, a total optimist, and the nicest person to the new people in the fandom. Your AUs make my day whenever I see them. Seriously. You’re so creative. You were one of the first people I (finally) got up the courage to talk to when I was new to the fandom and I’m so glad I did. The Jonerys community is so lucky to have you, whether it’s for your reaction gifs or your ship positivity when we’ve been getting a lot of anti hate lately. Our ship would be a lot different without you and I’m so glad you’re here! 

    @sweetorganza : Beautiful edits, always. You have such a talent. Also so kind to everyone. I’m always honored whenever you like or reblog something of mine, especially something that I write. Your recent Alliances edit? Almost made me cry. From a set of moving pictures. I don’t know whether that says more about me or you. 

    @jonerysthrones : You run a lovely Jonerys blog! I love seeing all your answers to questions (especially those from antis) and I’ve also seen some lovely edits! A really great source for everything Jonerys (and staunch Daenerys defender). 

    @bemywiggins : You reblog some of the most interesting content and you never fail to make me laugh, even if it has nothing to do with Game of Thrones or I don’t get the reference. Like, I reblog so much content from you. It’s lovely. Never stop lol!

    @scarletstonewood : Another one of my Jonerys friends! I still have to listen to those songs you said reminded you of Jonerys because I’m terrible at listening to music if it’s not composed by Ramin Djawadi… Also love your tags! You just summarize all of us shippers (or at least me) so well! Love it love it love it love seeing you on my dash. 

    @oadara : I’ll just flat out say I’m still lowkey nervous whenever I add onto your posts or whatever because you’re like the definition of Jonerys royalty and you were writing meta for the ship when I had no idea who Dany was other than she raised her dragons as her children???? Your meta is amazing and so are your answers. Thanks for shutting down all of the damn antis-and yes, for discussing the mysteries of life with me that one time. I can’t imagine what it must have been like to watch this ship develop over time but I do know it would be a lot different if we didn’t have you spearheading it all. So thank you for your kindness and your sheer willpower and for being the closest person to Daenerys Targaryen that’s actually real. And believe me, that is not a compliment I give out lightly. I am literally still in awe of you. 

    @gleeksoccergal : Also a great source for content. Thanks for reading my stories and for always sending me random Jonerys photosets when I need something to cheer me up. Really, your timing is quite amazing. 

    @naerysv : Congrats on your own milestone by the way! I love your blog and the way you fiercely defend our queen whenever. You’re so lovely and I love seeing your stuff on my dash :)

    @sleeplessme : My source for all of the leaked dialogue that I don’t let myself look at. But seriously-you’re another rock solid member of the fandom and I always look forward to hearing your take on characters, episodes, and theories! You do so much for our community and your opinions are absolutely invaluable. 

    @luvd80s2 : Another source of content because you reblog everything. I love whenever I see that you’ve reblogged my stuff because it just makes everything seem more…official. I can’t explain it but I love seeing what you add on to things-especially your reaction gifs! Absolutely amazing. The fandom is lucky to have you!

    @truegodofthearena : Creator of amazing edits that I’m always stunned by because some people (like you) have such an amazing handle on Photoshop. I also love when you reblog my fics and then add something in the tags about how much you like it because there’s always this little bit of time after I post a fic when I regret writing it in the first place and it’s always nice to know that even just one person liked it. I always look forward to seeing you on my dash. Thank you for being so kind to a newbie :) 

    @mhysaofdragons : Again, what is there to say about you that people haven’t already? I remember when you just had 300 followers lol. And now you make amazing edits and answer questions and write meta and write fics and…lol, you could put me out of my job and write all my fics and I bet no one would mind. You’re so kind and caring too. One of my favorite blogs that I follow-I’m always excited every time you like one of my stories. Also amazing at gifsets. I know I already said that but I’m still thinking about what I want to do about my request because I don’t want to muck it up…I’m so glad you were one of the first blogs I started following. You welcomed me to the fandom on one of the Daenerys posts I made on my multifandom blog and I’ve never forgotten that. 

    @letdaeneryslive : I love your url, by the way. And your blog. You always have the best content and I love seeing you on my dash :)

    @thesilverrqueen : Probably one of the sweetest people I’ve met on Tumblr. Always reblogging my stuff, even if they’re just random posts about my writing updates or how no one in my family understands GOT in any way. Thanks for the compliments you put in the tags (and your url is also lovely) !

    @khaleesiwhitewolf : Another newbie! And yet you run a high quality blog and deserve all of your new followers. I always look forward to seeing what you add on to everyone’s posts and the way you always talk straight about Game of Thrones and the joy/struggle that comes along with watching it.

    @annabelleebythesea : I remember exactly where I was when you started following my blog-I was having breakfast in an airport with my dad on the way back from NYC and I got so excited it was hard not to make him think I was any weirder than he already does. Because your gifs are so amazing and you have such talent! I have no idea how you gif everything so fast (are you sure you sleep?) but I have a lot of respect for it because everything you make is lovely. The fandom is blessed to have you making edits for us. Honestly. I love talking with you about our lovely ship <3 And cats. See above. 

    @princessdany : You have the cutest blog and the greatest aesthetics. It’s lovely. And you’re lovely, obviously. And I love your color edits-you really have a lot of talent. It’s been wonderful being a part of the community with you :)

    @daenerystubborn : Great aesthetic, beautiful edits. Like, really beautiful edits. Shamelessly reblog yourself all you like, please. You deserve it. 

    @inside-the-overthinkers-mind : One of my fellow fic writers! I love your fics sooo much honestly and I love it whenever you reblog mine because you’re such a talented writer. I hope you write something else soon; our fandom always needs more fanfiction and sometimes I feel kind of bad because I’m just consistently spamming you all the time with random drabbles and oneshots…but your blog is quality. High quality. 

    @arriannemvrtell : CINNAMON LEMON CAKES. If you don’t understand that reference I got your name change wrong-in which case, please redirect this post to the person whose username used to be eliamartvll. You’re soooo sweet. Thanks for being my beta reader even though technically you haven’t betad anything yet lol. Thank you for messaging me at two in the morning your time and for always being so kind to everyone. I have to say, I was hesitant to follow someone whose blog also ships Jonsa-but I was pleasantly surprised to find that you’re one of my favorite blogs I follow. Though you’re such a lovely person that shouldn’t be surprising. All the internet hearts in the world. 

    @forcenturiestogether : New mutuals here but I love your blog. You’re always posting something GOT related. Thanks for liking all of my shit posts lol

    @winter-comes-with-fire-and-blood  : You’re so sweet! I love your blog and all your opinions on Jonerys-you’re so knowledgeable and know how to make a young one feel welcome. I’m so glad I met you, honestly. And your fanfics are amazing too :)

    @sethkatejonerys : Such a sweetie. Welcome to the ship! You have a great blog, just so you know. I love seeing you on my dash! 

    @arya4queen : Lovely edits and soo nice :) We’re new mutuals but I love talking to you and your edits are so amazing. Never doubt that-I will always reblog them. Multiple times, if you’d like lol. 

    @heylowday : Literally the best. You always make my day and I’m so honored that you like my fanfics and are making me edits because seriously your edits and manips are some of the best I’ve ever seen. I can’t believe it. Thank you so much lovely! And also your fan videos are AMAZING!!!!! Everyone should check them out if they haven’t already. 

    @loyalbarbarian : Love seeing your comments on stuff. Keep on keeping it real. Never change lol 

    @dreamofspring : One of my favorite gif makers. They’re incredible. Honestly. Goals. I always look forward to seeing your edits and icons. This is a depressingly short thing but just know you’re one of my absolute faves and I’m so glad that we’re mutuals :) 

    @mrsharington : Kit Harington and Richard Madden source I never knew I needed. I love all of your creative posts, even though we’re recent followers. You’re so sweet and kind and I always look forward to your amazing content! Already one of my faves! 

    @mudinyourlungs : I’ve been waiting a very long time to tell you just how much I adore your blog. I love reading your asks and answers and you do so much to shut down the hate in our fandom. You’re so intelligent but also ready to fangirl with anyone over how amazing it is that this is Actually Going to Happen and I’ve been a fan for a very long time. Your blog is truly amazing. I absolutely love it. So glad we’re mutuals.

    @spaceamazon , @ferosa , @is-there-a-yugioh-fandom , @sakura-bell  My newest mutuals! I haven’t gotten a chance yet to get to know all of you as much as I would like to but just know that I appreciate how much I always see you on my dash :) 

    *Also, I’m very sorry if I missed anyone! I just went through a list of my followers and I think I got everyone but it was also 10:30 at night (I wrote some of this in advance because I’m working today) sooo (also why I took a picture of my cat instead of making an actual edit lol)

    anonymous asked:

    can i ask you a few q's about your beautiful art? digital art is something i'd love to get into but i don't know where to start, i'm kind of overwhelmed. what program do you use? how do you get the drawing to look realistic without tracing over it? do you use reference photos? and lastly what's the best method for blending? thanks a lot if you can answer these!

    Of course you can!! Don’t worry my friend, I know digital art can seem really daunting at first but if you approach it one step at a time I’m sure you’ll be fine!

    Personally, I use PaintTool SAI for sketching and colouring, and Photoshop CC for colour tweaks, effects, text and all that final touch up stuff. If you’re using a mac, I don’t think you’ll be able to use PaintTool SAI since it’s windows only but I heard that FireAlpaca is an alternative that you could use! I haven’t personally tried FA out but I’ve heard good things c:

    Getting something to look realistic without tracing over it requires a lot of reference images and a lot of patience. I have 581 reference images saved for bangtan alone (sorted by member) and I use them mostly to get their facial features down as close as possible. There are two ways you can use these images:

    1. Draw up a grid

    (excuse the sketch lol I just whipped this up for this ask right now haha)

    This method is useful if you’re redrawing an image or you can only find one reference image for the angle/pose you need. The way this works is that you have the same number of squares for the grid on the image and the grid of your drawing. By observing where lines/shapes start and end in each square while drawing, it’ll hopefully keep any major proportional errors from occurring. One of the issues with drawing purely by eyeballing everything is that sometimes the end proportions go out of whack and the resulting image just doesn’t look quite right. I reckon this is a good way to start if you just want to familiarise yourself with drawing a new person in a more realistic style .

    2. Reference multiple images for one drawing

    (This sketch was from my 1am art process post lol so it’s a little old but it shows the reference images that I used for that sketch)

    The multiple image way is my preferred way because then you gain a better understanding of the proportions of the features which makes each person distinct. In addition to this, this method means that you can be a bit more flexible with the angles/poses that you choose to draw. Essentially, how it works is that you observe how certain features look and interact with each other in different situations, and apply that to how you draw them. I’ll be honest, not every sketch turns out right on the first try. Since you don’t have a concrete reference to base everything on, it’s kind of hit and miss. With continual practice though you’ll start to see better results more often :)

    As for blending, I use a combination of the colour dropping tool and the water tool on sai. For colour dropping, you start with the two colours that you want to blend. Taking a lower opacity brush (I usually use around 30-40% opacity for this bit), take one of the colours and draw it onto the other colour where they meet. This should result in a third, middle ground colour. Now select that intermediate colour, and draw over where it meets with the original colours - making sure to leave a bit of the original intermediate colour in the centre - which will produce another in between colour. Just keep adding the intermediate colours to the colours either side of it and repeating, and you’ll eventually get something resembling the image below.

    You can leave it like that for a “painterly look” if that’s what you like, but sometimes I like to have a softer, even blend. In this case, I’ll select the water tool on sai and blend it out with that. This is usually the case for skin, where I prefer it to look soft and even. However, this is just my preferences - feel free to mix and match and see what works best for you!!

    Good luck with digital art, and feel free to hit me up if you have any more questions! c:

    Olicity one-shot: The Rage Phase

    Word count: 4,469
    Rating: Teen
    Summary: Newsroom AU — Felicity might have been the face of Atlantic Cable News’ financial analysis, but when an ex-boyfriend takes revenge on her for breaking up with him, he tries to ruin it all for her. Oliver’s the only one she can turn to to help her get off the floor and fight back.

    Author’s note: OK, so a while back I wrote this quick little one-shot, what a good guy would do, based on The Newsroom but using Arrow characters. Well I watched this episode again recently and it all came back like a flood.

    Dedicated to the very amazing @blackcanarydinah as a late gift for graduating journalism school. You go, girl! Take over the world!

    (Also, read her story The 2025 Hamentashen Debacle because she is an amazing writer and it will warm your cold dead heart.)

    Lastly, you don’t HAVE to have seen The Newsroom to understand what’s going on in this story, but if you haven’t seen The Newsroom, then do yourselves the biggest favor and watch it immediately.

    Felicity has a necklace that she never takes off. Not even in the shower.

    It’s a necklace her mother gave her after she graduated with her Ph.D. When Donna handed over the box and Felicity opened it, they both burst into tears at the symbolism of the moment. It was the same necklace that Donna’s mother had given her for her bat mitzvah, and since Felicity didn’t want to have one, Donna wanted to wait for an equally significant event to pass it on.

    The necklace means she’s a fully realized woman. It’s imbued with the strength of generations of Smoak women, and it’s always been a source of comfort and power for her.

    But today…today it’s the starring feature of the most humiliating moment of her life.

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    Interview: CJ

    Today we’re joined by CJ. CJ is a wonderful artist who does a lot of work relating to the Hawkeye Initiative, which encourages artists to draw male characters in the ridiculous poses women are often in on the covers of comics. When they’re not drawing, CJ is also brushing up on their writing skills and hopes to be published one day. Their work is pretty amazing and really creative, as you’ll soon see. My thanks to them for taking the time to participate in this interview.


    Please, tell us about your art.

    My art? It’s low-quality garbage I produce in my free time.  

    The first art, writing, is a skill at which I am no means a master, though I am truly attempting to learn and improve.  I have several 200-page manuscripts that (thank God) will never see the light of day, but I am currently working on one that I think shows a little promise and a little improvement in my skills.  Someday I hope to publish and establish myself as an author.  For the moment, there is schoolwork in my way.

    I guess I can include a sample of my writing for reference?


    “When did you find out?”  I ask.  I thought I’d hidden it so well.  I covered my tracks, deleted my emails and texts, and came up with clever excuses for every one of my absences—but now here she is, telling me she already knows.

    “July, more or less.  And yes, I know you thought you hid the truth from me.  But you disappear for a day or two multiple times a month, you come back with a bunch of minor injuries and dirty laundry, and you’re wearing the necklace with the symbol of your bounty-hunting gang.  It’s not hard to figure out.”

    Oh, Lord, be with me.  She knows.  She already knows too much.

    I hang my head as if ashamed.  “I’m sorry.  I’ve been lying to you for so long, and that was wrong of me.  Can you forgive me?”

    “Of course.  I wouldn’t want anyone to know either, if I was you.”

    I try to make eye contact.  “Do you think you can…could you ever understand why I am like this?  Who I am? What I do and why I do it?”

    She takes a deep breath, but she finally nods. “Yes.  I can understand what drives you to this.  And I want you to know that I still care about you, I still want to be friends, and yes, I do forgive you for everything I know you’ve done.”

    The condolence is a nice thought, but it won’t stand.  I know her, and I know what she’s like.  It’s a miracle she’s managed to keep it quiet for this amount of time; I know no binding pledge could hold her.  Eventually the weight of the secret would crack her, and I would be ruined.

    No.  She must fall, for I cannot.

    I draw my pistol from the back of my belt and set the barrel on her forehead.  “Then I hope you can forgive me for this as well.”


    The other art I do is drawings for the Hawkeye Initiative.  If you haven’t heard before, it’s a project where authors take the ridiculous costumes and poses in which female characters are placed and swap them onto the male characters.  The point is to prove that sexualizing female characters isn’t empowering them but is instead demeaning them and removing their agency.  

    I do all my drawing pen/pencil and paper, as I have neither the programs nor the budget to do digital art yet.  Someday I will, but until then I’ll continue with traditional methods.

    Below is one of my preliminary sketches, a drawing of Captain America in a Danger Girl pose.

    And next is one of my finished pieces, a DC “Bombshells” cover where the girls are swapped with Iron Man, Captain America, and Hawkeye.

    As you can see, I have a lot to learn about, including drawing backgrounds, drawing swishy fabrics, and shading.  I decided to go with more basic colorblocking for this one rather than accidentally ruin it by failing the shading.  Someday I’ll redo this and it will be better.

    At one point, though, I did have PhotoShop access, and I came up with an asexual Captain America shield.

    The love that Tumblr aces found for this image was a beautiful thing.

    What inspires you?

    The impact I have on other people is really what keeps me going.  I believe the Hawkeye Initiative has been really eye-opening for a lot of people, especially guy nerds.  We’re so used to seeing all the ladies being sexualized that we barely think of it, until all of a sudden there’s Hawkeye or Wolverine or Thor or Hulk or Iron Man in that same costume and we realize that there’s a huge difference between a usable superhero suit and the glorified underwear the ladies have been crammed into.  We’re so used to the binary gender standards in our society that we don’t even notice it anymore, and we have no thought for how harmful it must be to all the girls out there who are watching these same movies and reading these comics.  We’re teaching the little boys that it’s okay to see women as a piece of sex in spandex, and we’re teaching little girls that their value comes from how sexy they are.  Both of those teachings need to be demolished and spat on.  

    Of course, it’s not good to sexualize anybody.  I understand that my art walks that fine moral edge.  But I also believe that the absurdity of seeing these guys in bikinis points out the fact that this is how we’ve treated women for years.  Women are amazing human beings who have so much more to them than their body parts. It’s high time we started treating them as equals.

    What got you interested in your field?  Have you always wanted to be an artist?

    My dreams and ambitions are all over the place—in fact, I still don’t know what I want to be. The artistry thing has never been a dream—I just came across the Hawkeye Initiative and went, hey, this is a good thing that needs doing.

    Do you have any kind of special or unique signature, symbol, or feature you include in your work that you’d be willing to reveal?

    There is almost always someone or something in the appropriate ace colors in every piece of art I do.  My pride is hidden, but it’s there.

    What advice would you give young aspiring artists?

    Don’t ever let anyone rain on your parade.  Don’t let anyone tell you you’re inferior, that your work is worthless, or that you’ll never succeed.  Don’t let anyone mistreat you like that.  And that “anyone” refers to you yourself, too.  You are your own worst critic.  While the other people are going “holy COW that is beautiful and I love the lines and the style,” you’re going “oh ew that color is wrong and I didn’t want that to look that way and the eyes are uneven ugh this is awful.”  That’s not accurate.  You’re not an accurate judge of your own skill.  You are almost always better than you think you are.


    Where on the spectrum do you identify?

    I just go by asexual.  I feel no need to break down my personal attraction any farther, because I simply swing in no particular direction and that is that.  I’m not straight, I’m not gay, I’m not bi, pan, skolio, or anything else. I’m ace.

    Have you encountered any kind of ace prejudice or ignorance in your field?  If so, how do you handle it?

    The Tumblr “Ace Discourse” is a terrible thing that should never have started, ever. I’ll admit I didn’t handle it well at first—I picked fights, yelled, and was suicidal for a while.  Now I ignore it.  Like any hateful ideology, eventually it must collapse under the weight of the pain it causes.  There are other people who can fight it; I can’t sacrifice myself like that right now.

    I also face prejudice from my church—they’ve openly told me they’d rather I be gay, anything but ace, because then I’d at least be having sex and obeying the Lord’s commands.  And my family at large would happily disown me if they knew I was anything but straight. They wouldn’t care even if I was a “cishet ace”—any deviation from “marry straight and procreate” and any ties to the queer community, and out I’d go.  Running this blog is dangerous for me, which is why I go by initials and can’t out myself.

    What’s the most common misconception about asexuality that you’ve encountered?

    Most common? I’m not sure.  There’s a lot.  I’m not so much bothered by the plant jokes and asexual reproduction puns—I’m bothered by the stuff that’s there to legitimately harm, scare, and hurt asexuals.

    What advice would you give to any asexual individuals out there who might be struggling with their orientation?

    You are fine exactly the way you are.  Exactly. The way.  You are.  

    You’re not broken, confused, a fake, a poser, an attention whore, or whatever else you’ve been called.  

    And whatever labels seem to fit you now, use them.  You can change them.  They’re not set in concrete.  I’m not judging you for however you change now or in the future.  It is fine to change and fine to stay the same.

    Finally, where can people find out more about your work?

    I run a Hawkeye Initiative sideblog at cj-does-art, where I post preliminary sketches and pieces of work as I inch toward completion.  I also have a main blog at hi-def-doritos, where I post garbage and entertain myself.  I have no particular writing blog, as I don’t want my writing stolen.  If you’d like to get in touch with me, feel free to drop a line!  I’d love to talk and I promise I don’t bite.

    Thank you, CJ, for participating in this interview and this project. It’s very much appreciated.

    a/n: Y’all I haven’t written in 10,000 years but I really dig the insanely cool Jared Kleinman and I just felt The Need™ to write smth so here goes adkjfkaj (sorry it’s kinda cliche and poorly written lmao)

    Don’t Tell Jared - Jared Kleinman x Reader 

    Jared Kleinman didn’t like to deal with his emotions. He pushed them down and said he’d deal with them later, though usually later never came. That’s just how he learned how to deal with things he was scared of. 

    You guys met in freshman year, at orientation. Ever since then you’ve been inseparable. One day, in sophomore year, when you guys were just playing video games and cracking jokes something happened. You laughed extra hard at some dumb joke he made when bam. That’s when he felt it. An emotion he wasn’t used to. So, he did what he always does, pushed it down and said he’d deal with it “later”.

    Jared Kleinman, no matter how much he’d deny it, loved you.

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    anonymous asked:

    OH OH, some hakizana jealousy, modern, or not whatever u want. and you can choose which party is jealous. maybe both are. ;)

    Haki would like the record to show that despite what some people might say, she was not trying to start trouble.

    She’s just so bored.

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    Surprise - Part 1 (Dedication for Rob Benedict’s Birthday Today!)

    Pairing: Rob Benedict x reader
    Word Count: 3,498
    Warnings: fluff, drinking, surprises, smut
    Authors: Sam, @totallysupernaturaloneshots​ (Becca), @crowley-you-sinnamon-roll​ (Caitlyn)
    Request: This anonymous request was passed onto me by @totallysupernaturaloneshots​ — reader is Rich’s sister and has known Rob for a while. One night after a party at Rich’s, Rob confesses his feelings for her and it ends up in some cute smut ;).
    A/N: I was so excited to write this! It was a lot of fun! There will definitely be more parts to this!

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    Taehyung x Reader Angst / Fluff

    Request 1: ‘ Hi! Taehyung Imagine where he finds out that you’re self conscious about your body because other people always made fun of you because of certain things like hair and stretch marks? He overhears you saying things like “Why do you have to look like this again today?” To yourself.. sorry if it’s too angsty! Can you make it a little longer and the end fluffy? thanks~ ‘

    Request 2: ‘ Hi 👋 I just found your tumblr and it’s the best thing❤️❤️ Can I please request a scenario with taehyung based on doddie clarck song 6/10 ?’

    I combined these requests because the 2nd one I found to be a good prompt to continue and complete the 1st… It’s like over 6k words – longer than I expected, but I think that’s because I put quite a bit of myself into this one… It actually helped alleviate some stuff on my mind, and express my annoyances with the past, so this time in particular, I find myself thanking you guys rather than the other way round!


    Summary: Chaning your point of view proves to be a lot tricker than you thought

    Warning: Self hate, quite angsty

    Today I’m trying something different.

    This is bound to get him.

    As I point a foot into the scrunched up material and slide the delicate fabric up my leg, an aura of confidence fills me. He has to notice me this time and realize I’m the most important thing about his day. Don’t many guys spend most of their teen years looking for this content online just wishing they could experience it for real?

    I attach the stockings to the suspender belt and stand up to take in my appearance through the mirror. The reflection gives me a promising image as I sport my new blue underwear with a lacy black net layered on top. The bra is actually both the cutest and sexiest thing I have ever bought for myself, really supporting my boobs and giving the eye something to admire, and the belt really changes my look up from just the sad two piece attempt at seducing this guy!… Maybe I should buy more like this and wear them underneath my clothes daily… Confident people always have a secret to give them that edge, right?

    Sure, my figure isn’t flawless, 100% toned with a sunkissed glow, but honestly, who in reality actually looks like that? Even models get photoshopped of their cellulite and stretch marks and skin tones… But the store was right; the garments really do know how to flatter and enhance what is there.

    I look good.

    Better than good.

    “Go get ‘em.”

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    Learning to Love

    part 1/23

    a supercorp fake dating au where everyone is a movie star and they have to fake date because reasons

    tw: homophobia

    Chapter 1: Lena

    6 months ago

    In hindsight, there are a lot of things that Lena could have done differently. There were big things, like how she could have chosen not to audition for Sunset five years ago, and there were small things, like how she could have chosen not to invite Jess over to her place that night. Mostly, she thinks, the thing she regrets not doing is closing the curtains. She thinks this because, at the sight of open curtains, the paparazzi got everything they had ever wanted from her: a secret.

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    I Didn’t Have A Damn Choice

    ((A/N: So I’ve had a few drinks and I wrote this thing. I don’t hate it. I kind of like it. It’s got some serious Winchester mojo going on and who doesn’t like that? And as we know… death never stopped a Winchester.

    Warnings: Language. Death.

    Word Count: 2010

    note: gif is not mine. ))

    “C’mon, don’t you die on me, Y/N!” Dean was hovered over you, alternating between chest compressions, as you lay, lifeless. He was frantic, green eyes wide with fear and fright, leaning down to breathe into you, attempting to force life into what was appearing to be less and less hopeful as each second ticked by.

    Sam watched, desperate. The hunt was supposed to be easy. Quick. It was the three of you and you had even waved it off as being more than simple. Werewolves had thick skulls, you had boasted, and you had sharp knives and speedy bullets. Dean had said you were cute and to stop it or else he’d throw up. Sam had agreed.

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    Title: More to Love
    Request: “can you do a Crowley x reader oneshot where the reader is really self conscious and insecure with her stretch marks and curves and Crowley helps her feel better with lots of fluff and kisses?:)” - Anon
    Pairing: Crowley x Reader
    Words: 1,092
    Warnings: self-hate, low self-esteem, fluff?

    “Well, that sucked,” you sighed, falling face first onto your bed.

    It had been a very unsuccessful day of shopping, more specifically, swimsuit shopping. You already hated this time of year, since you couldn’t hide yourself under your sweaters or coats unless you wanted to risk heatstroke. Granted, you could still find a loose fitting shirt or dresses that completed your curves, but with a swimsuit, there was no hiding.

    Every curve was amplified by the form fitting fabric, not to mention most places only had suits that would fit much smaller girls. Bikinis were all string, and showed too much skin for you to feel comfortable. A one piece either looked too old or was cut in a weird way that showed off the stretch marks you’d rather hide, and you didn’t even wanna think about the tankinis.

    And the worst part was you had even tried the plus sized stores as well, but most of those were too big. Nothing fit. You must have tired at least a dozen stores and nothing made you look the way you wanted. You groaned into your pillow, just wanting today to be over with, not wanting to think about those stupid swimsuits any more.

    “Hello darling.”

    “JESUS CHRIST!” You jumped at the sudden voice and fell off your bed.

    “Quite the opposite I’m afraid,” chuckled the King of Hell himself offering you a hand to help you to your feet.

    “Damnit Crowley, don’t scare me like that,” you clutched your chest. “You almost gave me a damn heart attack.”

    “Not my intention, I assure you,” he grinned as you let out a sigh, and sat down on the edge of the bed.

    “What do you want, Crowley?” asking as you rubbed your temples.

    “Moose told me you had been shopping today for a swimsuit. I couldn’t resist the chance of see you model a few,” he said coyly.

    “Yeah, well, you’re out of luck,” you looked away from Crowley, not wanting to talk about the failure of a shopping trip you had just been on. ‘Note to self, kick Sam’s ass later,’ you thought.

    “Yes, I did notice the lack of bags,” he said while looking around your small room. He picked up an old photo of you that was sitting on your dresser and inspected it closely. “When was this taken?”

    You looked up to see which picture he was talking about. It was from high school, years before you had met the boys and learned the truth of the world that full of things that went bump in the night.

    “I was 17, so like 8 years ago.”

    “Hmm,” he nodded thoughtfully. “You’ve lost weight since then.”

    You had managed to stay away from the hunters life, but that didn’t mean you hadn’t helped out a few times when the need arose. This meant a lot of running and getting a bit more in shape so that you could keep up, and keep from getting yourself killed. But being in shape and being thin were two very different things. You were healthy, no medical problems to speak of, and you had more endurance than most people, but that didn’t seem to help much.

    “Not enough though,” you muttered, mostly to yourself, absentmindedly poking at your stomach. An action the king did not fail to notice, and caused him to quirk an eyebrow.

    “Something on your mind, Dove?” He put the picture down and sat next to you on the bed.

    “It’s nothing.”

    “You’re a very bad liar…”

    You sighed yet again, you had been doing a lot of that today, and looked over at Crowley. You were surprised to see his brow knitted in concern as he look back at you. He placed a hand on your knee, in comfort and tilted his head as an invitation to tell him what was going through your mind.

    “I just hate…this,” you said, gesturing to your body. “No matter what I do, I just don’t look…right, I guess.”

    “You humans, always concerned about looking the ‘right’ way,” Crowley shook his head. “Don’t you lot get it yet? There is no ‘right’ way.”

    “Easy for you to say, you can look however you want by possessing a different person,” you grumbled. Of course he wouldn’t get it, Crowley hadn’t been human in hundreds of years, you shouldn’t have expected sympathy.

    “And yet, you don’t see me hoping from meat suit to meat suit. Because I don’t bloody care,” he said sternly. “Neither should you. Bollocks to the sods who say otherwise.”

    “Except those ‘sods’ are the ones who basically dictate the entire population’s perspective on how a person should look,” you thought back to all the pictures of models in swimsuits you had seen earlier.

    If trying them on hadn’t brought down your already low self-esteem, the photos certainly had. Sure, you knew full well that most of them were photoshopped to shit, and that no real person actually looked that way, but it didn’t help. After being told so many times one thing, you can’t help but to start believing it yourself even if you knew deep down that it wasn’t true.

    “If it bothers you that much, we can make a deal.”

    “Excuse me?!” you looked at the demon king, horrified.

    “It was a joke,” he sighed.

    “A pretty bad one if you ask me…” you looked down again, wishing this conversation would just end.

    “Y/N. Look at me,” Crowley placed a hand under your chin and you met his eyes. “There is nothing wrong with you. I have seen ugly and horrible things, I’m a bloody demon for hell’s sake. And compared to everything I see on a daily basis, you are stunning.”

    You felt tears prick your eyes. This was definitely not what you had expected him to say, and it stunned you that there was such sincerity in his voice.

    “You don’t need to change anything about the way you look, because it means there is more of you to love,” he grinned, having used the cheesy line. But what you had picked up on was that last word, love.

    “Did you just…use the ‘L word’?”

    “Did you not hear me right the first time? Yes, Y/N, love,” he kissed your forehead gently.

    Tears now escaped your eyes, but they were ones of joy, not sadness. Crowley wiped them away and gave you a true smile, not one of his scheming ones, but one you rarely saw.

    “Thanks Crowley, for everything.”

    “Anytime, Dove.”