i feel like sharing with you guys

I’ve struggled with understanding my sexuality for basically as long as I can remember, and I was reading through a journal entry of mine from April 2016 when I was still together with my ex and its so perfect that I want to share it with someone, but it feels wrong sharing it with people I actually know, so here it is:

“These thoughts will ruin any simple task. As I stir some garlic green beans on the stove my mind has to be like, ‘In a year you and Kate can break up… wait where did that thought come from, thats not something I want….but you were lusting after that guy at the gym….but it could never be the same as it is with Kate…. I wonder if I would still wonder if I was gay or not 24/7 if I tried dating a man…probably?’ Sitting on the couch watching SNL turns into a reason for my heart to beat fast enough that it might actually be humming and me wondering ‘Why do I not feel close to Kate, she’s sitting right next to me?! If this lack of feeling doesnt come back, my whole life will burn.’ Then later the same night, Kate lays on top of me and I trace my fingers along her face and everything feels right for just a second. Even through the happiest period of my life, these thoughts come and go and fuck me up.” 

anonymous asked:

*whispers*your art ask with mysme is so good. I was wondering if you could do something with mysme and a chubby, insecure mc. I understand if you dont want too, I just thought id ask ;-;

I’m sorry this came so late but so much kept coming up!!

I’ve been working on this sporadically since you sent this ask, to be honest, and I’m honored that you trust me to answer this sensitive question for some.
I wanted to share screenshots from the game where I remember the members themselves telling MC they dont care what she looks like, but somehow I can’t find them though I remember them!!
(So many routes, how would I remember which one it happened in;;)

But nonetheless I worked on this, hopefully it conveys my feelings on the matter. I thought that the best to answer this would be the one guy who probably knows the least about what you look like….

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Art of May!!! (ok I couldn’t put them all on one post because it was starting to be really too much ^^’)

Painted on PS [2017.05]

It was a really good month, I experimented a lot and had so much fun. Also I want to particularly thank all of you for your supports, your likes, reblogs, comments, tags and messages. I am sooo overwhelmed and I feel so blessed by all of you and yup Thank you guys, you are amazing and I am so lucky!!  Have a really really beautiful day <3 <3

May // June // July pt 1 // July pt 2 //

mlm peter parker headcanons

because there aren’t enough mlm peter content on my dash…. so yeee

  • pre-spider man peter having a crush on this one guy who always stood up for him when he got bullied and after peter became spider-man he gets to save that guy from an accident one day
    • Peter overhears his guy crush praising spider-man and gets a bit overwhelmed
    • bc ffs it feels GOOD to be your hero’s hero
    • guy crush being teased by his friends “damn he’s totally in love with that tight suit weirdo” but guy crush being all yes-homo like “I mean who isn’t”
    • guy crush being all fanboy over spider-man, wearing spidey t-shirt and perhaps putting some spidey badges on his backpack too
  • Peter talks about his crush with Karen because he still feels quite nervous to share how he feels about that guy with anyone around him
    • “hey Karen…. I think-I think I might have crush on a friend of mine…?”
    • “thanks Karen…. but I feel like it will be a disappointment for him if he finds out spider-man is me…. a nerdy kid that he always has to take care of? meh”
    • “what do you mean his heart rate is the same when he sees me in school as when he sees me in my suit?”
    • “YOU SCANNED HIM? whaaaat Karen don’t EVER do that-that’s just-kinda creepy you know? uh-YES I know I stared at him a lot-that does NOT mean I wanna scan him!!!! omg Karen please NEVER scan him again-I-I-omg please bury it with instant kill mode forEVER I CAN’T DO THIS”
    • “…….”
    • “sorry Karen I’ve calmed down”
    • “NO KAREN DON’T CALL HIM”
  • Peter thinks his secret is safe but literally none of his secrets is ever safe
    • Peter randomly talks about the guy with Ned and Ned be like “yeah haven’t you had a crush on him for about 50 years” and Peter chokes on his juice
    • “Peter, you’re not coming to Washington?” asks Liz. “Oh ofc he will,” says Michelle, “because [guy crush] will be there too-” (peter having his entire life flashing in front of his eyes) “-they are bffs, aren’t they?” Michelle smirks.
    • Peter nervously asking Tony if he could borrow his car to pick up a friend. “Sure kid,” says Tony leisurely, “just tell your boyfriend not to scratch the door.” and Peter nearly crashes the car
    • “M-m-m-m-mr Stark he’s not my boyfriend hahahaha uh haha” “yeah right if you pick him up with that car he will be your fiancé”
    • Aunt May meeting guy crush the first time after hearing way too many stories about him
    • “He’s such a sweetheart, isn’t he?” says May later when she’s driving Peter home, “so did you ask him to be your homecoming partner yet?”
    • this time Peter actually burst into real tears
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Can Conscious K-Pop Cross Over? BTS & BigHit Entertainment CEO ‘Hitman’ Bang on Taking America

On April 2, BTS played the fifth and final date of a sold-out U.S. arena run, performing to the shrieking fans who helped the group’s second full-length album, Wings, become the first K-pop project to crack the top 40 of the Billboard 200 in 2016. Since debuting in 2013, the seven-piece boy band has become a commercial behemoth in its native South Korea while continuing to make inroads within American pop culture. “Change,” an English-language hip-hop collaboration between BTS member Rap Monster and U.S. star Wale, was released three days before the kickoff of the stateside run.

“Change” touches on topics like voting rights and online harassment, while some of BTS’ biggest hits have addressed mental health. “Worldwide, our young generation shares the same issues socially and politically,” says BTS member Suga. Although K-pop music generally steers away from controversy, Rap Monster says that remaining outspoken “is important to us. And the bigger the voice we get, the more powerful our words become.”

A new BTS album is already underway and more U.S. dates might be on the way later this year. Bang Si Hyuk, the CEO and Executive Producer of label/management agency BigHit Entertainment who is better known as “Hitman” Bang, hints at “special features” designed for international listeners but thinks BTS will continue playing to its base.

“I’m not a believer in releasing full English songs to the U.S. market, like many K-pop artists have,” Bang tells Billboard in his first-ever interview with American press. “We must focus on what we do best as K-pop artists and producers and maybe add some special features to which international or U.S. music fans can feel attached. That is the best way for me to put K-pop into the mainstream U.S. music market and, in that regard, BTS will participate and perform in a way that is not much different from what they have been doing in the last three years. We’re adjusting and improving the way we do shows on the tour to meet the international or global level and expectations so that anyone, regardless of their culture and background, can enjoy BTS music and performances.”

Bang is sure to add that the group will be “very active and responsive in releasing new songs that would come out of collaborations with international artists, like 'Change.’” And, looking ahead, both the CEO and band see their most recent accomplishments as inspiration to achieve even more in the future.

“I’m so excited and thrilled at the response to the U.S. tour,” Bang says. “It’s still overwhelming and unbelievable at some point. I even further feel responsible for producing better music and production for fans around the world and I’d definitely think harder on what makes fans enthusiastic and passionate about BTS music and the band.” Meanwhile, the ambition within the group is perhaps best felt when member V winks that the group has “grander goals”; as if arena shows are just the beginning of what he and his band mates plan to accomplish around the world.

Below read on for an extended interview with BTS held before the tour kicked off. All member answers are taken via a translator except for Rap Monster.

With five arena shows, this tour is so huge and I think the main reason for that and why you guys are doing so well in America is because you sing about personal topics. Why is that so important to talk about in your music?

​Suga: Worldwide, our young generation shares the same issues socially and politically. I think that young people feel the same way about similar issues and BTS wants to cheer them up with our songs and talk about our feelings and social issues.

Rap Monster: These topics, like you said, they’re important, right? They should be told by someone. Someone should talk about it. And if someone should talk about it, then it feels like we have to talk about it. It’s very much an honor that we get power and attention from our fans them when we use our voices more. It’s important to us and the bigger the voice that we get, the more powerful that our words become.

These topics – loneliness, mental health, bullying – you don’t hear about in K-pop or even Korean culture much. Or, really, in American pop music either. Have you ever worried it might get a negative or opposite response?

​Suga: There are people who think negatively and there have been people who react negatively towards BTS’ music. But I think it’s way more important to make music with those issues because I think it’s important to encourage people to fight for those issues and, through the music, have a resolution for those issues. But I’m going to continue to talk about those issues through the music anyway. [Laughs]

Do you think K-pop needs to get more personal to gain a wider audience? Would you like to see that more in future?

Rap Monster: We still need some party songs, we still need some light love songs. I love to listen to them and feel the vibe from that. Everyone has their luggage and their shadows, but it’s up to everyone’s own [devices]. But we’re us. I think if we talk about it and if it gets more voice and attention, then maybe there are a lot of people in the world that accept us start to talk about those issues. I think that’s the change.

I thought “Spring Day” was a really big musical moment for you guys. Not only did it do really well on the charts, but this time you were showing a progression in thinking and a message of hope. The idea of recovering and winter moving to spring. Was that a conscious decision?

Rap Monster: It’s just like what you said, that was one step further. We’re always talking about the crises, the sorrows and youth’s feelings of getting lost. In many [television] programs, when we’d introduce our new album, I’d always talk about the word “recovery.” Like you said, it’s all about the recovery. Winter going to spring. The middle of the winter going to the spring. You got that.

​Suga: In addition to being what we are as BTS, we wanted to bring some changes and we actually wanted to evolve as a group. We wanted to show our many colors, but we still want to console others and give hope to others.

Something that was unique was all the solo songs on the Wings album. You’ve done mixtapes, but instead of full-fledged solo or unit releases, you got to show your different sides of yourselves. Why was that necessary?

Jin: The solo tracks were important because it was personal, an individual story and it was represented in the way that we are good at it. We worked a lot on each track and that’s why it was important to each of us.

Rap Monster: When I get questions about why is K-pop is so popular; I always tell them K-pop is like a great mix of music, videos, visuals, choreography, social media and real-life contents. Making the solo tracks on the album was quite a venture, but it’s connected to the concept. Like, when you watch the “I Need U” video, everyone has their own crises and characters. It’s kind of connected to our real personalities and characters, but the solo songs have their own characters and personalities. It’s all connected. It’s a mixture and that’s why people get interested in the concepts.

Speaking of solo songs, “Change” recently came out. Rap Monster, you and Wale are talking about different-but-similar issues when South Korea and America are both having interesting political times. Did you guys have a chance to discuss your different viewpoints?

Rap Monster: We didn’t have the time to get into it deeply, but I’m always watching the news about Trump and America; I always watch. When he first suggested a collaboration, I was like, “What should we do?” We could just do you know, a common hip-hop song, but I wanted to do a little more special. We have our political situation in Korea and the students are very angry. So, I think, if we talked about what’s going on, then we’ll have a real special collaboration. I think my guess was right and it became special.

Do you see or feel your influence among other groups in the industry?

​Jungkook: When we debuted back in 2013, we were influenced by our sunbaenim [Korean word for “senior”]. Over the years, as we watched other younger groups, we know they talk about us, they cover us and they follow us. I think they’re saying in interviews that they learned a lot from us and that makes us feel great. Being a sunbaenim, we want to be a good influence and be a better role model to other groups.

Last question, are you happy?

V: For now, we are very happy as we are, as a group, together. And I think we are happy because we are walking on the same path, walking the same direction. We wanted to get Daesang [Best of the Year award], but we have it already so our goal is to make great music, to share it with our fans.

Rap Monster: And a worldwide, stadium tour. That’s the goal.

V: We have grander goals.

© Jeff Benjamin @ Billboard

so Keith and Lance dating is some cool stuff, but now, consider: Keith and Lance as really close bffs

  • they!! look!! at!! cute!! boys!! together!!
    • one time Lance invited Keith over and the Bachelorette was on. Keith was like um no way man but then ended up getting really addicted but will deny it to the ends of the earth
    • they watch it together every week and talk about how hot the guys are ahhhh
    • Whenever they see a cute alien boy they playfully bicker over who “gets” him…
  • Lance is really physically affectionate! Keith being totally weirded out by it at first but eventually accepting it
    • Lance, flopping dramatically into Keith’s lap: you would not BELIEVE what the fuck just happened to me. Keith, not even looking up from sharpening his knife: who do I need to stab
    • They share beds sometimes when they don’t feel like sleeping alone
  • Speaking of that… slumber parties!!
    • “Keith, what the FUCK do you mean you have never had a slumber party… guess what we are doing Right Now…” -Lance, probably
    • they sit on Lance’s bed and watch shitty chick flicks while Lance tries to convince Keith to do a face mask…
    • “but Keith… you would look so pretty with makeup.. then maybe that alien boy who liked me more than you would change his mind-” and then Keith fucking tackles him  
  • They tried dating once but it just… didn’t work. But they had no problems slipping back into being friends!!
  • Keith always goes to Lance for dating advice, and vice versa! (even if the other has nothing good to say, lol)
    • Lance, coming out of the bathroom wearing some sexy outfit: okay so what do you think abt this for my date tonight. Keith: what the fuck Lance I did Not need to see that
  • Lance helping Keith be more open about his sexuality and Keith helping Lance with his insecurities 
  • They are really similar in size so they share clothes all the time… bc you know Lance has a Bomb Ass fashion sense and Keith digs it
  • They fight about stupid shit all the time 
    • Lance: I’m not talking to you bc… you flirted with that GUY I LIKED
    • Keith: what the fuck lance I literally just said hi?
    • Lance: you don’t UNDERSTAND
  • Keith and Lance just being really close bffs that love each other a lot!!

If you have more feel free to add them bc this is the Good Stuff

So like I don’t know about you guys but I love thinking about Viktor and Yuuri co-authoring a children’s book series together after they retire.

“Hello, Makkachin!” is the first book in the series. It’is a book that helps children understand their feelings of anxiety and other difficult emotional and mental issues that young children go through but aren’t given the coping mechanisms to deal with. Viktor and Yuuri do live readings in book stores and libraries all over the world–you can tell the divide in generations by whether someone knows the Nikiforov-Katsukis from figure skating or the Makkachin Books.

Inside the leaf of each book is a picture of Yuuri and Viktor at home in Saint Petersburg with Makkachin sitting on their laps.

“Hello, Makkachin! and other books in the series have thrilled millions of children worldwide. It has received numerous literary awards, including the Newberry Honor. Originally written in Russian, this New York Times Bestseller has been translated into twenty-three languages and has sold over eighteen million copies.

Other books in the series include:

Let’s skate, Makkachin!

Clean-up, Makkachin!

Happy Birthday, Makkachin!

Ohayo, Makkachin!

Let’s go to school, Makkachin!

Bonjour, Makkachin!

And many more!

Viktor and Yuuri Katsuki, pictured above, write and illustrate the Makkachin series from their Saint Petersburg, Russia home, where they live together with the real-life Makkachin, who turns twenty-six this year, and their puppies Basha and Katsu.

anonymous asked:

Have you ever made a move on a straight friend you've had? And if so please do tell :O

That’s kind of a complicated question for me. Since I’m mostly read as a girl by people, it’s usually straight guys making moves on me. I’ve never really tried to establish a relationship or sought after someone who was strictly a straight guy, but I’ve had a lot of guys who were “experimenting” with bisexuality use me as kind of a “best of both worlds”. They just wanted a cute kinda masc person who could fill a more dominant role while still having tits. These people usually ended up having some issue or embarrassment involving me being trans, ending with a “it would be easier if you were a girl” or “I can’t get past you being trans”, because they wanted to date a cute little queer boy but were unwilling to actually help support me when being trans was something I struggled with or, since I don’t pass, it became challenging explaining it to friends and family (like they wanted to date a boy, but they didn’t want to come out of the closet, so they just pretended I was a girl, and didn’t consider the emotional ramifications that would have on me). They would discover that being with a trans guy wasn’t “the best of both worlds”, but since they were attracted to what they perceived as my “female body”, instead of terminating the relationship they would subtly encourage and me and manipulate me into being more feminine and looking “like a girl”, despite knowing they entered into a relationship with a man.

So I guess all that whining was just my way of saying no. I avoid straight boys like the plague. Along with anyone who only likes pre-transition trans guys or trans guys who “still look like girls”.

If you’re someone who only likes trans boys when they look/pass as girls, or still want it to seem publicly like you’re dating a girl, then sorry, you don’t like boys, you’re fetishizing trans men.


Sorry for this rant I just have a lot of feelings about this subject lol

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Tagged by @blvnk-art, thank you so much! :)

“Pick 5 (ish) of your favourite drawings and tag 5 other artists.”

I generally like most of my drawings but there’s always something I would change in them so I pick 6 I wouldn’t change because I like them as they are :) (…Well ok, maybe I would change few small bits but whatever xD)

1. Remus Lupin. Colours and lines are pretty decent and I like how his hair turned out.

2. Lineart is hard to do, and I always try to make it look like from a comic or something which I think I managed here. I like her hair in this one.

3. My original character! I like the colours and the way they’re put on the canvas. I like that some of the lineart is visible but there are those brush strokes that give it kind of painterly look.

4. Idk, I just like it’s a little bit more dynamic. My art isn’t very dynamic… :/

5. I’m really proud I managed to use just green and brown tones but things didn’t blend together. You can still see what happens in the drawing. That’s good. I like the books, wand and reflections on the desk. Oh, and hatching of his jumper.

6. The idea is pretty interesting. I like the white in this drawing.

I’m tagging: @juanjoltaire , @ev1ct, @meabhd (if you guys want to :)) and anyone who feels like sharing their favourite drawings :)

BTS: dating Jungkook would include

▪ this dork would have to go through so much teasing before finally asking you out

 ▪ literally every time you’re over to hang out with the guys, they’d make it so obvious that he likes you 

 ▪ esp Jin that cheeky lil pickle

 ▪ “hey, I didn’t make enough food, you and y/n have to share, oops…”

 ▪ “Yoongi, don’t touch her! Do you want to feel the maknae’s wrath???“ 

▪ "I’m only going to the bathroom for 2 minutes, pls don’t do anything ok kookie?" 

▪ then he’d get fed up and just confess, mostly out of annoyance

 ▪ but then he’d think you’d take that the wrong way, and softly apologize and say he liked you too much to admit it to you before 

 ▪ but now that the cat’s outta the bag, you wanna hold my hand?

 ▪ would only initiate skinship if he’s known you for a while or he knows 100% ok with it 

▪ he then does it in front of the others to annoy them or get them to leave the room

 ▪ they’d just groan and throw pillows at you two, but continue with the teasing 

▪ but they’d be so so protective of you and treat you like a little sister (or a mini Jungkook) 

▪ rarely fighting with him

 ▪ bc there’s literally nothing that you can fight about with the other 

 ▪ you’re always very honest with each other, no matter how teasing and spontaneous your relationship may be

 ▪ so much showing off in front of you, he’s so dedicated to making you blush 

▪ tries to get Jin to teach him how to cook a v special meal for you 

▪ fails miserably, but you still appreciate the effort 

 ▪ jealous kookie is a scary kookie

 ▪ hates it when your attention is on someone else, or when other guys stare at you for too long or ‘accidentally’ brush themselves against you 

 ▪ he gets blinded by jealousy and rage and might end up throwing some hands 

▪ but you quickly pull him away and he’d proceed to apologize to you a million times

 ▪ but you’ll never admit how attractive he looked when he had that murderous look in his eye yikes

▪ sometimes won’t even act out on rage, he’d just cling to you or start playing with your hair to get your attention 

▪ then you’d ask him what’s wrong and he’ll just pout and play with your fingers until you two leave 

 ▪ is ready to be cuddled 24/7, beware

 ▪ you just can’t resist his pout and "please, jagi, I’m so lonely and cold and if you don’t hold me I’ll freeze to death" 

▪ takes his time to kiss you, just to make you weak in the knees

 ▪ but when he does, it’s so worth it bc it’s slow and passionate and he’s very caring 

 ▪ until Tae walks in and pretends to puke, but still somehow not completely ruining the moment

 ▪ loves it when you’re the big spoon, esp when he wakes up in your arms all cuddly and warm and happy

 ▪ aw, pls treat this happy dork well 💖

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Tadaaaa!! I’m doing Potter Week Prompts again this year! I’d posted this a while back on Twitter and Instagram but forgot to share it here! From July 25-31 I’ll be posting a drawing each day in celebrations of Harry Potter day! I definitely invite you guys to join me if you like - feel free to work ahead, too. :) Tag your creations with #PotterWeekPrompts and have fun!

Made some quick little June calendars that I thought I’d share with you guys 😊 There are only two colours this month because I wasn’t too happy with how the last batch turned out, but the mint and peach seem to be the most popular choices, and I quite like how these combinations turned out!

Download:

Mint + Silver |  Peach + Rose-gold

Let me know if you have any issues or queries, and I’ll do my best to help out. As always, feel free to share a picture on tumblr with my handle, or #thegirlygeek, or on instagram (@the_girlygeek), I’d love to see them! Enjoy! 💗

Summer Fling Part 10

Title: Summer Fling: Father Daughter Time

Pairing: Dean x Reader

Word Count: 4,814

Warnings: Fluff, MECHANIC!DEAN, Minor Mention of Sex.

Summary: After months of struggling, an impulse decision puts you on the road from Sioux Falls to Lawrence Kansas, hoping that your father, Bobby Singer, will take you in for the summer.  A breath of fresh air. A change of scenery. But little did you know, this summer was going to change your life forever.

Summer Fling Masterlist

A/N: I hope y’all enjoy this part as much as I do! It’s one of my favourites. It would be wonderful if you could leave me some feedback. This series lives on it. I am also not responsible for dental bills. 

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Your name: submit What is this?

August 1st.

You walked in the front door with the biggest grin spread across your cheeks. It was just after one thirty in the morning when Dean dropped you off from your exciting weekend together. A summer music festival a couple of cities over was too good to pass up and Dean managed to get tickets for the two of you. You spent the whole weekend together enjoying the summer sun. Your dad on the other hand, was going to be pissed at you for coming in this late. You probably would have been better off staying the night at Dean’s but you didn’t have any clothes for work in the morning.

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Impulse With Control (a very very brief exploration of keith exhibiting the ability to think before making decisions) 

/ this is really brief because oHHH BOY i have so much to say about this and planned. but this is actually an impulsive (HAHHA) meta bc i realised something and got so excited!!! basically, i was just thinking about a particular few seconds of a moment in 1x04. we’ll come to what exactly that is in a moment. but just to recap where we’re At in this situation: it’s highly distressing, pressing and tense. 

allura and keith have just been locked out the castle and there’s no telling if they can get back in. the sheer break and intensity of keith’s voice as he yells “no!” and bangs his fist against the barrier just demonstrates how genuinely invested and frustrated he is with what’s going on: 

he’s determined to continue, asking allura is they can break through the barrier to which the response just makes clear how truly terrible and serious this situation is. 

BUT SOMETHING HAPPENS I JUST WANT TO YELL ABOUT AND ANALYSE DEAR GOD.

now what we should think about is that what im going to bring up comes after allura has delivered some Pretty Bad News: 

And whoever has taken the Castle has a crystal, which means they’ll be able to fly the ship. We have to stop them.

now after she says that you see Keith turns his head and blinks pretty rapidly as he does so before asking a question:  

How are we going to do that?

and it’s here where something interesting happens. i’ve noticed this screenshot before and always thought it was pretty precious tbh but now im actually sat here thinking more about it i’ve come to a cool interpretation and realisation i just have to share!!!! 

so…. guys. this is a really hard blink. like you can see it’s scrunching not just his eyes but his nose a little and there are deliberate crinkles drawn in to demonstrate that this motion is not a natural blink this is a forceful blink. we can see this just by comparing the blink a few seconds before:

you can see this is a natural blink on the frame, and it’s also pretty fast. the hard blink that is significant is actually substantially longer in frames and it’s visibly so. 

it feels to me like keith is doing this for a few potential reasons: 

  • to bring himself back to the sharp focus he endeavours to maintain. 
  • you can see throughout this scene how worked up he is about the lack of control of this situation and knowing that shiro and lance (not knowing about pidge’s whereabouts at this stage) are in there, and one of them is also severely injured. this is his team trapped with the Galra, not to mention shiro and keith proves time and time again he is highly aware of the fact that shiro needs support just like everybody else.
  • so i think personally that this hard blink is kind of like a quicker, more Keith-esque version of ‘patience yields focus’ (abbreviation bc i dont have patience lmao: PYF). it makes sense. keith is quick on the uptake, he’s very direct and his body language is also often very open.
  • keith employs that mantra often with closing his eyes and taking a deep breath. it’s clear that the closed eyes is paired with PYF bc we see that happening as much each time Keith says PYF. these moments (below) all correlate to moments where keith needs to take time to realign himself and regain focus, it reveals when he may be turbulent inside and grappling with very intense emotions (he’s so passionate) 
  • so building on that there’s also a lot of evidence in canon to suggest keith eternalises this saying and doesn’t always voice it but still applies it (i’ve compiled a few example scenes - but this is something i mentioned briefly here and would love to talk more about! these are all what i would consider either Substantial Blinks or prolonged eye closing that is linked to PYF and what that entails) 
  • here, that’s not really the time or place for this. 
  • allura is also there and probably equally as distressed. one thing about keith is that he’s actually pretty self-aware and aware of his surroundings too. he knows that there isn’t really a moment to fall back to the method of PYF (which notably he only ever seems to really do in private when nobody can see him anyway - bar one exception im sure you’ve noticed above, but that ties more into the Hard Blink kind of thing rather than the Classic PYF, either way we are definitely going to talk about that some more bc i have an entire Mindscape Meta planned). 
  • a full PYF moment would potentially draw allura’s attention and cause more concern they just don’t have time to deal with. 
  • keith is so deeply rooted in the present and this is an unfolding situation where the safety of the rest of the team are at risk he can’t afford to lose concentration or succumb to something irrational because of the stakes. 
  • so the hard blink is snappy, fast. and it engages him again (just doing a hard blink myself it definitely makes you feel more aware and you can feel it in your face). 

so basically, keith realises that he needs to take a moment because he wants to make the right choices and not compromise the team, he takes a very brief moment to do what he has to privately. 

following that all the blinks go back to the usual natural smooth blinks:

Pidge also starts talking which captures allura and keith’s attention and moves the scene along ect. 

TLDR: this is just one example i wanted to talk about bc it’s v subtle but interesting. but the fact that keith is shown many times to take time before making a decision (we also should talk about keith and questioning/challenging things and speaking up about group plans, but that’s for another time) to try and keep himself grounded and level-headed just proves he is not as rash or impulsive as immediately assumed. 

instinctive and decisive, definitely. but i don’t believe impulsive and instinctive are entirely synonymous. they both are highly contextual based on the situation (im planning to write up some comparisons of when he’s actually 100% impulsive) - and whilst keith demonstrates he can be impulsive, the times he can take a moment to process a situation, be rational and logical, or take a private moment to get his head in the right place actually outweighs that way more than may be expected. 

Taken for Granted (pt 5)

As the days pass by, you seriously thought back to what Jin had told you. Was there a future in music for you? You did your fair share of research online, but you realized that nothing would beat real life experience in the music field. Simply looking up career details online wasn’t going to cut it. And to be honest, you didn’t have time to waste trying to find new careers. You wanted to find something that you were passionate about and quick.

But all of that would have to be put on hold though because you’re three months as a manager wasn’t up quite yet. You learned the love all the GOT7 boys, so you were thankful for the experience to get to know them through these three months. But each night, you hand was itching to play some instrument or write a bit of a new song so you couldn’t enjoy your job as a manager one bit.

However, you realized that the bts boys were making their comeback today and you couldn’t help but smile. You hadn’t seen them in person since you started the job and though you kept in touch through texting, you were excited to see the boys after what seemed like years.

As you sat there in the waiting room watching the boys get ready, you realized you still had to keep your job a priority. So as much as you wanted to go see the other boys in their waiting room, you stayed planted on the small couch in this waiting room.

Pretty soon, the boys were called out for their stage and before you knew it, their stage was over as well. When looking at the schedule, you saw the BTS was performing last and you sighed, realizing you could only see them once the music show was over.

Knowing there wasn’t much work needed to be done till the show was over, you stood on the side of the stage when bangtan was finally called to perform. Your eyes lit up when your eyes landed on the seven of them. Man had you missed them.

Namjoon and the rest of the boys were ushered to the stage as they were the last performance before the winner for the week was to be announced. He found out through one of the other boys that you were also on the set today, and his heart sped up knowing that you were in the same building as him after weeks and weeks.

Unfortunately, though, you hadn’t come to visit the boys yet and he was getting anxious to see you. It’s not like he could just text you and ask when you were coming. Hell, he hadn’t talked to you since that night you left him wondering.

As the boys got in formation on stage, Namjoon coincidentally turned and saw you standing on the side of the stage. You were standing where there was barely any light, but Namjoon had no doubt that it was you. He could make out from just your silhouette and he found himself smiling and losing himself in his thoughts. So lost, that he didn’t hear the music starting. While the boys moved around him, he stood still, just looking in your direction.

Thankfully for him, it was not a live stage. Some of the fans watching started to laugh, and it took a few seconds for Namjoon to realize what he had been doing. He immediately bowed towards the camera, apologizing. When he turned back to your direction, he realized you had left. Were you even there in the first place, or was he just hoping you were there?

The boys finished their stage and eventually, all the groups stood on stage, waiting for the MC’s to announce the winner. You sat in the waiting room, looking at the TV. Without a doubt, BTS had won first place, even though it was their first stage for their comeback. You weren’t even surprised. Sure, you were a little sad that your group hadn’t won but who were you kidding, you were excited for your friends.

Bangtan returned to their waiting room with the trophy in their hands and smiles plastered on their faces. “Wow, on our first stage,” Jimin said happily, staring at the trophy.

The boys all settled down on chairs across the room. Luckily, they had a few hours before their next schedule and took their time getting changed. Namjoon couldn’t help but frown when he realized the show was now over and you still hadn’t come by. He was at least hoping to run into you in the halls, but you were out of sight, nowhere to be found. He almost wanted to visit Jackson in an excuse to see you, but he followed the boys back to their room instead.

“I’m going to go and find Y/N” Jin said suddenly. Namjoon stared after Jin as he got up from his chair and walked towards the door. However, before  Jin made it very far, someone knocked on the door. Jin hurried to open the door. “Y/N! I was just about to go and find you!” Jin said rather loudly. With his big frame, Jin blocked you from Namjoon’s view completely. Namjoon tried to move every which direction in his chair to try and see you but he could only see the top of your head or your shoulders at best.

Pretty soon all the other boys were rushing to the door to greet their friend and what little Namjoon could see of you was completely blocked now. I should just go and say hi he thought to himself.

“Y/N how have you been?!” Tae exclaims, pulling you into a bear hug.

“Can’t….breathe….gonna….die….” you joke. Jin pulls Taehyung off immediately with a frown. “

“Yah, watch what you’re doing.  You’re going to squish her to death” he says, almost blocking the boys from touching you.

“You’re just jealous that you didn’t hug her yourself,” Taehyung says back, sticking his tongue out and trying to reach for you again.

You were so happy seeing the boys again. You had missed them dearly and to see them joking around with you as if no time as passed truly made your heart warm.

“Oppa, I think I can fend for myself,” you tell Jin, wrapping your arms around his own. It seemed like a natural thing to do, but  Jin turned around to you, flustered.

Namjoon watches silently from the distance, wondering how to approach you. You seemed to be having fun and had that wonderful smile on your face, but he was scared that if he came near you, that smile would disappear.

As you began catching up with the boys, you realized that Namjoon wasn’t there. Instead, you saw him sitting in front of his mirror, typing away on his phone. He really hates me, doesn’t he? You think to yourself. Over the last couple weeks, your learned to forgive Namjoon. Sure, he never apologized to you or had he even realized what he had done wrong. But you decided to let his mistakes go, along with your feelings for him. If he wanted to be friends, then you would gladly accept it, but you were no longer going to try and be apart of his life if he didn’t want you in it.

After chatting with the boys for another few minutes, you realized you had to get back to work. Though the time was short, you were so happy that you were able to see the boys. You realized that your schedules actually coincided quite a bit with the music shows, so you promised to see them more in the following weeks. Namjoon knew that you were going to leave soon and he wanted to so badly just say a few words to you, but he just couldn’t bring himself to do it.

As you got up to leave, the boys bid you farewell. But you didn’t want to leave things the way they were. You just couldn’t. So before you walked to the door to leave, you walked to Namjoon.

“Hey.. It’s been a while” you say slowly. Namjoon whips his head in your direction, surprised that you were talking to him.

“Y-yeah”, he says, not being able to piece together more than a word. “H-how have you been”, he asks. It seems so foreign to him, to be talking to you, let alone asking you anything.

“I’ve been alright. I really liked the album oppa, it was great. I’ll see you around I guess? Bye,” you say, not knowing what else to talk about. So before giving a chance for him to reply, you turn and began your walk to the exit of the room. You bid the boys goodbye again and walk back to your own room, proud of yourself of being strong enough to talk to Namjoon. You did try to get over your feelings for him, but you weren’t sure how you would react if you would talk to him again. Would those feelings just come rushing back? But much to your delight, you didn’t have the same feelings as you did months ago. You were finally over Kim Namjoon.

But meanwhile, Namjoon couldn’t help but feel sad. You used to have this…this…light in your eyes when you talked to him. Sure, he thought he never paid attention to you before, but it was obvious as day now that the light was no longer there. You looked at him like you did at everyone else, and it tore away at Namjoon slowly. Why then, did he not appreciate you before? Was it because he thought you would always be there? Clearly, you wouldn’t always be there for him like he wanted now. Namjoon couldn’t shake whatever it was that he was feeling, but he knew he had to try to change things.


A/N: This part is kinda short because I kept deleting what I wrote because I didn’t like it. Let me know if you want a part 6~ And also tell me how you think this series should continue. I love that you guys enjoy this series and share it, so keep doing so~ I love hearing back from you guys. I’ll also be writing part 2 of the arrangement this week so look forward to that too!

Previous Parts: Part 1  Part 2 Part 3 Part 4

Why take it out on the TV?! - Jason Todd x Reader

Summary - You decide to play a little jealousy game with Jaybird, in the end, the TV is the one that pays the price.

A/N: I will forever use Matthew Daddario gifs for Jason Todd fics XD

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Hey my dudes, I made some doodles that I wanted to share. They may look like random sketches to you, but the fact is, they are not ! Those are the first pictures of my sona represented as a FtM that I share publicly on the internet. Out of the closet you go, wooosh !

So yeah, I’ve been slowly making up my mind about it, about who I am. I mean, the thought has been creeping on my mind for years, but it took time to actually stop and listen to it for a second.

I haven’t started T or anything yet, but things are evolving slowly. I don’t know about you my friends, but in France, the whole admnistrative process takes very long. It’s okay tho, it’ll happens eventually. I’ve got some pretty cool binders in the meantime that I use since quite some times now ! I’m gonna stop there since I don’t really like sharing this much of myself, but hey, you understood the point of this.

Tho I feel the need to end my little rambling by thanking everybody on this website. Tumblr actually helped me building up confidence to talk about this matter. I feel safe sharing my thoughts here, and that’s important.

ps: jackal guy is my boyfriend, I felt like including him as well as he has been very supportive since the beginning. a round of applause for supportive special ones !

I’m Yours (Jason Todd x Reader x Dick Grayson)

Requested: NOPE.

A/N: I’ve been having mixed feelings for both Jason and Dick lately and all I could think about is taking them both….at the same time, so here I am sharing my fantasy with you freaky hoes. You guys should really listen to sexy music while reading this, it helps A LOT! I LOVED WRITING EVERY SINGLE PART OF THIS BTW!!!!

***WARNINGS: SLIGHT HANGOVER. YOU’RE PART OF A THREESOME. SIN SIN SIN WITH A DASH OF MORE SIN. AND DIRTY TALK.****

Words: 2,965

TAGS: @wynterrobin @wannabe-weasley @avengerdragoness @kazuha159 @insideoflit @jxsontxdds @annoyingtacoart  

THIS IS FOR THOSE, WHO LIKE ME, CAN’T PICK BETWEEN JASON AND DICK. SO, I DECIDED TO WRITE TWO DIFFERENT ENDINGS. ONE FOR JASON AND ONE FOR DICK.

ENJOY!

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The morning light streamed through half-closed blinds. The pounding migraine in your head made you groan loudly. You shifted your naked body under a soft blanket. You turned your head, laying your cheek against a pillow and opened your eyes slightly. You saw Dick’s back, peacefully rising and falling. He was laying on his stomach, his head turned towards the wall, with one arm flung over your waist.

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