i feel like my heart's going to cave in


The first thing Jason Momoa did before letting his mother watch “Frontier,” the new Netflix drama in which he plays a part Native American trader battling for control of the fur industry in 18th-century North America, was to prep her for the series opener. That’s when his character, Declan Harp, castrates British soldiers before skinning them alive. “It was like ‘Mom, just stick with it,’” he said. “I’m not normally that bad.” 

There’s little doubt that Mr. Momoa has delivered this speech before. In his 16-year career, this towering actor has portrayed an array of menacing brutes and killers including, most notably, Khal Drogo, a bloodthirsty warrior leader on HBO’s “Game of Thrones.” Drogo eventually revealed a softer side, but he still ripped out a man’s tongue for talking back to his wife, Daenerys Targaryen. 

In real life, the impishly funny Mr. Momoa, 37, is married to the actress Lisa Bonet and maintains an Instagram feed where you can find him doing outdoor activities — rock climbing, archery — with their two young children. Recently, he showed up at an interview in jeans, with a curved hunting knife strapped to his belt and the remnants of blond highlights from his turn as Aquaman in the movie “Justice League,” due this fall. “I’m going to have to dye it again soon,” said Mr. Momoa, who will start shooting his own superhero spinoff this spring. “But I’m not a big fan of haircuts either.” These are edited excerpts from the conversation. 

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typical bioware situation: i was 100% sure going to romance Jaal, but then i went to Kadara, and Reyes Vidal happened, and i’m like???! this smooth operator stole my heart, especially after he asked Sara for a dance - it was incredibly sweet, reminded me of the Winter Palace in Dragon Age: Inquisition. but for whatever reason i still decided to pursue my initial goal with Jaal, so i had to go a couple of saves back to reject Reyes in that cave scene, and it was HEARTBREAKING. you see, Jaal is precious, he and Sara are as thick as thieves now, but i can’t stop thinking about damn Reyes (STOP SENDING SARA LETTERS, REYES, YOU ONLY MAKE THINGS WORSE) and i feel like i have made a huge mistake. i really think Ryder and Vidal do have chemistry, and i actually saw the sparks between them, it somehow seemed so…i don’t know, natural? god, it’s like Vakarian/Shepard/Krios love triangle i was struggling with for two Mass Effect games all over again.

I sat waiting, praying for the time to go back instead of forward.
I looked at my wrists and remembered just how feeble I felt inside.
I just wanted to leave behind all the stains you left on me.
So I walked hoping to get as far away from this town as possible.
I ran and with each step I tried to pretend I was leaving everything behind, as if in a few steps I’d be in a new world with a new life.
The air burnt my lungs and I sat on the cold hard ground, imagining that this is how my heart must feel.
I cried, not one of those sobs where your entire body shakes and your head hurts and your chest feels like its caving in.
It was a soft silent cry and I knew in that moment that the old me was dead and gone
Lost somewhere in the wind and now here I was dead, empty and cold.
—  (193/365) by (KJ)

Tonight is one of those nights where I just need him. Not even in a sexual way. I just want him to hold me and tell me I’m going to be okay. I just feel so fucking lonely and lost. I genuinely feel like he would make all of that go away. Like I would feel okay with him here. I haven’t seen him in almost 3 fucking years and he still has a vice grip on my entire heart. I just need him here with me. Is that too much to ask

Chapter 6 of Playing Catch-Up by 5557 is now up!

Rating: T
None, some swearing
Hunk / Lance
Tags: Fluff, Angst, Fluff and Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Mild Psychological Horror, Horror, No violence or blood, Mystery, Suspense, 5557’s Particular Brand of Unsettling Reality and Character-Driven Humour, tagged relationship and friendship for plot reasons, Huddling for warmth, Hunk is so much more than food jokes, Hunk is a genius mechanic with anxiety, ADHD Lance, Depressed Lance, Season 2 Canon Compliant, Oh come on you guys it’s not that scary, Nobody dies, dick jokes, dark humor, brief suicide mention, more dick jokes, slow burn, friends to lovers, trauma recovery

“Dude,” Lance sighed, “I haven’t seen sunlight in over a year. I swear I’m getting paler. Like one of those cave-lizard things that have no eyeballs.” Hunk could see him making little clawing motions with his fingers out of the corner of his eye.

“Whoa, whoa, really?”

Lance turned to face him down from the steps above, his body a terrifying silhouette in the pale blue emergency lighting of the lower levels. “Hunk, I’m… I’m turning  white. ”

“Quick!” Hunk gasped as he clutched his heart, bracing himself against the wall, “How do you feel about unseasoned food?”

“I mean,” Lance shrugged, “Realistically speaking, at this point, anything sounds better than food go-OH MY GOD, HUNK I’M TURNING WHITE.”

“NO! NO! NO! NO!”

Hunk lunged forward and grabbed Lance by his skinny wrists.

“THIS CAN’T BE HAPPENING!” Lance wailed.

Hunk nodded soberly. “Lance, your children are going to be named Mikaeyla and Laykynn.”

“No!” Lance moaned, “I’m gonna give a shit about organic food and PTA meetings!” and he draped his arm dramatically over his forehead as Hunk’s lungs started turn burn from laughter and exhaustion in the frigid air.

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I’ll Be Back Before You Know It

  This is my first fic on here, I hope you like it! Warning:Smut. 

1.6K words.

Chandler Riggs x Reader

God, I miss him so much. I miss his touch. I miss his smile. I miss the way he breathes as we sleep close to each other. Why did Chandler have to be holed up in some hotel room. Who cares if he was filming and the weather was bad. I want him here, right now.

 We’ve only been together for five months but my heart aches without him. We’ve gotten so close these past few weeks, but then he had to drive back and start filming again while he had his summer free. I miss him so much. It’s not fair. I constantly text him. I tell hi m how much I miss him and want him here. It’s not going to change anything, but I like to think it will.

 I pull my covers up to bundle around my face. I take a deep breath. My whole room smells like him. We come in here to get away from my family. We do things like play video games, cuddle, and watch Netflix. It’s nice and simple and enjoyable. My bedroom is like my runaway paradise for missing Chandler.

 I sniffle quietly and tuck my self underneath my Chandler scented blankets. My mind races to remember all of my favorite times with him. The time we had a competition of who can climb the tree the fastest. When we first got ice creams at the greasy drive in that is located in the middle of town. The walk there, when he first kissed me. How soft his lips were and how the summer heat felt like nothing compared to my very red face. Man, I miss him so much it hurts.

 I turn over to my side, I can’t sleep like this. I can’t sleep without him here. I bite my fist as the first tear slips out and slides down my cheek. They keep coming. The salty water stings my eyes as I sob into the pillow he slept with. Everything reeks of him in the best way possible.

 "Just accept the fact that he’s busy,“ I thought to myself.  "Go to sleep, crybaby.”

 I close my eyes, tears still escaping through. I cuddle myself into the bed where it smells the most like Chandler. I take deep breaths, breathing his scent in. Unsurprisingly, it calms me down.

 My phone buzzes next to me. Great, just great. Right when I’m about to fall asleep my sister wants to probably know something stupid or weird that she just couldn’t Google. I reach my hand out of my cave-like cubbyhole of blankets to grab my phone. I read over my screen, the light blaring from my phone blinds my eyes. My heart skips a beat, it was Chandler.

I’m so sorry babe, I’ve been filming all day and I just got to my hotel. I miss you so much also. I’m going to be back to you in a week.-Chandlerxx

 I groan loudly. A week?! Its only been three days and I feel like I’m dying internally. I quickly text back.

I wish you were here right now, I need you. -Y/Nxo

I wish I was also. Can I call you?-Chandlerxx

Yes, of course. -Y/Nxo

 My phone rings five seconds later. I automatically answer it. I sigh in relief as I hear his soft voice through the phone.

 "Y/N? Are you there?“

 "Yes, Chandler, I’m right here.”

 "Oh good. How was your day?“

 I couldn’t stop myself from smiling. He was just too sweet. "It was pretty alright. I couldn’t stop thinking about you though.”

 I hear his breath puff out, signaling that he sighed. “Baby, I couldn’t you out of my mind either. Can I ask you something?”

 I hum lightly and tell him that he could always ask me anything. He clears his throat awkwardly,“Are you,um, are you alone?”

 "Yes babe, I’m all alone in my room cuddling with your pillow on your side of the bed.“

  "I have a bit of an issue, Y/N. I’ve been really, um, horny all day.”

  I hold in my giggle,“Are you alone,Chandler?”

 "Yes, yeah I’m in my hotel room. Can we do something?“

 "Yes of course we can, what is it?”

 "Can we have phone sex?“

 I cough abruptly. Clearing my phone I manage to say,"My parents may hear me, though.”

 "Don’t worry about that, they won’t.“

 "Oh? How do you know that?”

  “Because baby, when you were moaning and pulling my hair as I went down on you last week, they didn’t hear that.”

  I blush as I remember the incident. I had just gotten done shopping at the mall with my best friend. I had bought myself a new overpriced bra and pantie set from Victoria Secret. I was changing into my pajamas when Chandler saw a glimpse of my lacy undies. He practically ran to me, grabbing my ass and grinding against it. He pressed kisses up the back of my neck, yanking my flimsy underwear down. He brought his middle and pointer finger down to my arousal. He nibbled on my earlobe as he moaned into my ear, feeling my wetness. Chandler rubbed his fingers harshly against my clit, bringing my close to my climax. My head laid against his shoulder, my mouth wide open to a perfect ‘o’ as I let whimpers out. He grabbed a hold of my hips directing me to my bed. He laid me back as he left a trail of kisses down to my core. It was an amazing night.

 "Well, okay, fine.“ I close my eyes, calming myself down. I feel myself getting aroused my remembering the memory.

 I hear him let out a shaky breath,"Okay, so I need you to be naked of course. Then, I need you to close your eyes and listen to me. Only me.”

I rid all of my clothing and settle back into my comfortable bed. I close my eyes and tell him that I’m ready.

 I could tell that he was already touching himself when he spoke next,“Mm, okay so now t-touch yourself. Play with your prefect breasts, pinch your hardening nipples.”

 I make sure to moan lightly so he knows I followed his instructions. “Oh god, I love your sex noises so much. Y/N, imagine this. Imagine me on top of you, biting your neck. Imagine me sucking and biting and kissing all over your neck, leaving love bites everywhere my mouth latches onto. Imagine me kissing between the valley of your boobs, nipping at your soft skin. I’d kiss and lick over your soft supple breasts. I’d suck onto your nipple, biting down lightly onto it. You’d be so wet,Y/N”

 I whimper as I feel the fuzzy warmth spread through my body, confirming my arousal. “Babygirl, I want to cum for me here soon. It doesn’t have to be a crazy amazing one, but I want you to have an orgasm before I make you go to sleep. Is that okay sweetheart?”

 "Yes, yes, it’s totally okay.“

 "Good, now rub your pretty pussy. I want you to think about me pressing kisses to it. Think about me spreading your lips open. I’d lick one long stripe up from your core to your clit, flicking my tongue up. I’d then blow a cool breath of air over it. I would watch you shiver from the sensation. I want you to imagine me attaching my mouth over your sweet cunt, swiping my tongue back and forth, tasting all of your wetness.” He stopped talking for a moment and it was then I could here the wet sounds of him jacking off, it made my air get trapped into my throat. All that came out was a mix between a moan and a squeak.

 "Oh babe, I think your close. Are you close baby?“ His voice is low and it turns me on so much.

 This time I definitely moan,"Yes, I’m close.”

 He chuckles seductively. “Me too. I can’t wait till you get the chance to scream my name. When we don’t have try and be quiet. I can hear your whimpers and airy breaths. I can also hear your playing with yourself right now. You’re really wet aren’t you? Moan my name, Y/N. Let’s cum together, right now.”

 My eyes squeeze shut. I moan out his name,“Ch-chandler. Oh, yes. Chandler, yes.”

 This time I hear him moan, its deep and throaty and its like I feel it vibrate through my whole body. “I wish I could be there right now baby, have your legs over my shoulders, have you all spread out and fucking you deep. You want this cock, mm, you can have this cock. As soon as I’m back, I’m going to fuck you so hard. I’m going to cum, fuck, I’m going to cum. Cum with me baby,please, cum..right..now..”

 My whole body shakes as my orgasm takes over me. I moan out as I imagine Chandler jerking himself off quickly with his eyes closed and mouth agape. We should definitely do this way more.

 I catch my breath after a moment. I hear him clear his throat over the phone.“That was amazing,” I say amazed.

 "Yeah, it really was. Now, it’s time for bed. It’s going on 2 AM,“ he sighs.

 "Okay babe, good night.”

 "Good night, sweet dreams, and remember I’ll be back before you know it.“

 I end the call and smile to myself. I get comfortable in bed again. Pulling the covers back up to my face, I close my eyes. I’m surrounded by his scent once again. I can now sleep, my head hits his pillow softly. I mewl to myself as I drift away to sleep thinking about my one and only Chandler and how he is going to be home before I know it.

Do you want to see the most beautiful thing I’ve ever filmed? It was one of those days when it’s a minute away from snowing, and there’s this electricity in the air, you can almost hear it. And this bag was just, dancing with me, like a little kid beggin’ me to play with it - for fifteen minutes. And that’s the day I realized that there was this entire life behind things, and this incredibly benevolent force that wanted me to know that there was no reason to be afraid, ever. Video’s a poor excuse, I know. But it helps me remember - I need to remember. Sometimes, there’s so much beauty in the world - I feel like I can’t take it, like my heart is just going to cave in.

I can’t say it so lemme sing it

Tagged by @ellstra & @boredbyreality - thank you, guys! ❤

Using song titles from only one artist, answer these questions.

I like a few bands, and then there’s my utter devotion for Pink Floyd. Don’t ever let me talk about it, I get overly emotional and incredibly obnoxious in 0.5 seconds.

What is your gender?: In the Flesh

Describe yourself: Several Species of Small Furry Animals Gathered Together in a Cave and Grooving with a Pict

How do you feel?: Comfortably Numb

If you could go anywhere, where would it be?:  Set the Controls for the Heart of the Sun 

Favorite mode of transportation: Interstellar Overdrive

Your best friend: Get Your Filthy Hands Off My Desert

Favorite time of day: Let There Be More Light

If your life was a TV show, what would it be called?: Careful With That Axe, Ren Eugene

What is life to you?: A Saucerful of Secrets

Relationship status: Not Now John

Your biggest fear: Time

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