i feel like it's better alone

I know you’re in pain. It hurts in ways you can’t even begin to describe and even if you could, no one seems to want to listen. Sure, people care and try to help… for a time… but when you don’t seem to be getting any better, after a while, they get tired of listening… Eventually it becomes easier to keep it all inside.
I know you feel like it will never get better and you’ll never be okay again. It’s been like this for so long now that you think if things were ever going to change they would have by now so this is how it’s always going to be… but it’s not. I promise it’s not. You learn cope, it just takes time and I know it feels like you’ve given it enough time already but not everyone heals at the same pace.
Tell yourself it’s okay to feel the way that you do. Nobody else on this earth has lived through your life to be in any kind of position to understand your battles. Nobody else but you has walked in your shoes to be any kind of comparison on how you should be feeling right now or whether or not you should be ‘better’. I won’t lie to you – what you’re going through will always leave its mark upon you as any trauma does – and that’s normal too. Nobody looks back on a traumatic life experience and giggles about it… But it’s this all-consuming depressive state… these overwhelming feelings you can’t control… the way those feelings isolate you and make you feel vulnerable and alone – THAT is what won’t last forever.
It DOES get better… you DO find acceptance. Not all at once – its gradual… like a stormy day or a long dark night… you don’t just blink and suddenly it’s a blue sky. Storm clouds part slowly, allowing brief flashes of sunlight at first… then eventually disappear… Dark nights end slowly as a new day begins to dawn… Acceptance is the same… and I know you have the courage to wait for it…
Lance AU

  • Okay but like what if one day Lance crashes into an alien planet and for some reason Blue isnt working and communicators are down and he realizes that hes alone. (And for some reason Blue cant fix herself… pls bear with me.)
  • The first few months Lance is barely getting by. He does some small jobs to get the food he needs and soma scrap parts for Blue. (He’s gotten skinnier and more cunning. He also sleeps in Blue bc he wants to remember NEEDS to remember that the other paladins are looking for him. He needs Blue to remind him.)
  • But as time goes by he starts question whether the paladins are really looking for him. So Lance decides to just live there for the time being… he gets a military job, buys/rents a house, and starts making an image of himself. (He forgets to continue fixing Blue but still remembers her… She obviously told him that it was okay for him to do this.) He becomes well known and jumps up the ranks in the military. His skills improve, hes the best of the best, he has alot of power, he is a hero to some (But honestly hes just really lonely.)
  • Then one day, on a patrol/battle, Lance comes across someone. (Someone who was taught to be a emotionless killing machine) (Im using they/them cuz who knows if its a girl or boy… who knows?) This person is captured and everyone wants to kill them but not Lance. He believes that they can become someone better.
  • So Lance takes it upon himself to teach this person all about love and care. (Obviously it would take a long time. He gets hurt in the process. He sometimes almost dies. But other times, he laughs. He tells them all about his life, about his family in earth, about the paladins, and eventually about his insecurities. He jokes and they laugh. He feels like hes finally doing something good.)
  • after a while he starts to see that they arent as aggressive and that they are more calm and he might even say trustworthy.(they just really love Lance. They would die for him. They really appreciate what Lance did for them and what better way to return the favor than to protect Lance?) So he decides to partner with them. They both work together. They fight together. They live together. (By this time, many years have passed) The person helps Lance get through his loneliness, his anxiety, his troubles. Lance helps them too. And so both of them heavily rely on each other that if they are separated they cant function normally.
  • And then one day, Blue calls out to him. she tell him that she ready, shes fixed, they can go home. Lance doesnt know whether to be happy or sad. He doesnt want to leave but he knows he has to. He knows he has a bigger responsibility. (Voltron and saving the universe) but he doesnt want to leave his friend behind, doesnt want to leave the one person who made all these years better, doesnt want them to feel alone(like he always felt) So he decides to take them with him.
  • they say their goodbyes to the planet and get inside Blue (who lets them get in cuz they have been taking such good care of Lance all this time) and leave of to space.

aaaannnddd thats all i have and i may or may not continue

who knows?
Part 2
So its come to my attention that my AU is similar to an AU from @nuro-does-art, which you can find here. Of course it was never my intention to copy them and im really sorry for any troubles. Of course we have different ideas and i hope to see how both of them develop!! Sooooo go check out their blog!! They are really nice and their AU is really good too! Anyways, Sorry once again!!

You know what? I kinda wish that Skam didn’t become globally famous. I wish Season 3 didn’t catapult it to worldwide recognition so people wouldn’t harass the actors and invade Nissen. Or at the very least, those people didn’t do those things in the first place. Cos I believe that’s the primary reason why Julie is ending the show now, I believed she had 2 more seasons planned but she stopped to protect her cast which I think is very brave. I mean, in America they wouldn’t give a shit, if it was doing as well as Skam they would keep going no matter the toll it takes on its actors. Julie did the right thing but it breaks my heart knowing there could have been more stories to tell. Bc people are assholes, we get deprived of more of this very important, beautiful show. I have never seen a show tackle topics to teens so realistically and humanely like skam. I can never watch any teen dramas, especially American ones, because they feel so fake and contrived now. This show has touched me and made me feel less alone and took my own shames and showed that it could get better.

anonymous asked:

Literally Jasper's dialogue in Alone At Sea solidified the fact that she's the victim for me. I read what she said as what I say when I'm trying to get my abuser to go easy on me "I've changed, I'm better, I'm sorry " etc and what Lapis said is exactly what my fucking past abuser said to my friend about me "I LIKED hurting her, I needed to, it made me feel strong" and its so fucking legitimately triggering to see Lapis portrayed as the victim because my abuser tried to convince me that I was bad

That scene always bothers me because you KNOW what the writers were trying to do. Portray Jasper as the dishonest abuser who’s just trying to manipulate and Lapis as the victim who misses her abuser and admits she did bad things to Jasper as well. What could’ve been a really good and well done dynamic (like the scene alone was perfectly serviceable albeit some generic dialogue) falls short because of previous portrayals in the series.

Jasper held no power over Lapis. She could not emotionally manipulate her nor could she physically overpower her. Lapis states outright she plans to keep Jasper as her prisoner and you see visuals of Jasper literally screaming in terror when Lapis pulls her back down. Lapis then states in Same Old World “after what I did to Jasper” fully acknowledging that she was the one in full control (and don’t give me that “she’s just blaming herself” nonsense because she admits to it again in Alone At Sea).

So when Jasper returned to Lapis, I did honestly see it as a victim begging someone who mentally and physically abused them to return to them. Lapis missed Jasper because she enjoyed hurting her and yet this is STILL portrayed like Lapis was the victim in all of this. Rather than make amends with hurting Jasper she instead launches her to space when she has just as much power to just use water to capture and overwhelm her.

This was supposed to portray an abusive relationship (somehow) but it was just a display of Lapis’s anger and bitterness acting out and hurting someone deeply while also receiving no punishment for it. It’s terrible terrible writing that, well, makes her the abuser in all of this.

I really didn’t wanna argue this bc it’s such a touchy subject but really, it’s so evidence now it’s hard to ignore. Jasper deserves better

the signs as jollywander quotes
  • aries: HOWDY!!!!! :-DD
  • taurus: im never getting better yeehaw
  • gemini: thts a lil mean ;; ??? leav u alon??
  • cancer: bt aa !!! i mite hav to block u if its okie cuz!!!
  • leo: aa WHT do i do abt th whole standin up fr myself part???
  • virgo: iim inn ddannger pelsae
  • libra: gues i aint wntd im srry
  • scorpio: uve hurt me a LOT nd uv kinda been emotionally abusive once som ppl told me. im not gona list it but. umm yhhea/
  • sagittarius: IM STILL SHAKEN ;; THNK U!!!
  • capricorn: Hello??? Sorry that this isn't Wander.....>_<
  • aquarius: wowie do i feel left out jus like irl ha
  • pisces: u go lil buddy rock tht id
suicidal || alex standall

prompt: You should do an Alex imagine where his gf is on one of the tapes and is suicdal. + Can you do an Alex imagine with suicidal reader + Can you do a Alex imagine where you guys are really close and you are on the tapes and you become super distant and suicidal

warnings: suicidal!reader, swearing, reader is on the tapes

a/n: this took a while to post bc i had to think of a reason to why the reader is on the tapes. italics mean hannah speaking , and as always feedback is appreciated and requests are open ALSO reader is tape number 14 and lets pretend clay recorded bryce’s confession on something else.

Girls will be girls and boys will be boys they say. But sometimes their actions can affect lives. They affected mine, see I went through some dark times and when I needed you most, you backed out. Why did you leave when i needed you most? But hey, girls will be girls right? This one’s for you Y/N Y/L/N.

You were lying in bed, listening to tape Hannah speak, while you felt your heart sink. After sitting through a long night, listening to each tape, you finally got to yours. You never knew you were one of these reasons Hannah killed herself until you walked home from school one day and saw a horribly wrapped package addressed to you. You had used a walkman your parents had to listen to the numbered tapes. And hearing Hannah speak and introduce the tapes, you couldn’t believe you were one of the reasons.

You and Alex Standall were dating so once you go to his tape, you couldn’t believe what Hannah was saying, but you carried on, and listened to each heartbreaking tape. So once you got the last tape you knew it was about you.

You see Y/N, even though you are my 14th tape, Mr Porter is still my last reason. You were such a nice person, you became my friend after Alex and Jess left. But after my reputation had changed for the worse and I was ‘Hannah The Slut’ you started hanging out with me less. You still always gave me a smile when we passed in the halls but you never stopped to ask how I was or anything really. Were you ashamed to hang out with me? Was I a burden to you?

At this point you were in tears, your nose was stuffed and your eyes were red and puffy. “I’m so sorry Hannah, I didn’t mean to leave you.” You spoke, turning to your side on your bed. You had your headphones in so you didn’t hear your door open. You felt arms wrap around your crying figure. You removed one earbud and turned to face your hugger. “It’s okay Y/N.” Alex spoke and kissed your forehead. You turn to face Alex, your head in his chest “I didn’t mean to hurt Hannah.” You spoke into his chest, your tears staining his shirt, but Alex didn’t mind. He hated seeing like this.

Alex moved to stop the tape and move the god damn thing away from you, since you already finished your tape. “It’s okay Y/N.” Alex said once again, and you calmed down and slowed your breathing, listening to Alex’s heartbeat. Then the two of you fell asleep.

Since you were the last person to receive the tapes, you held on to them. Even though they caused you emotional pain, it was the only thing you had left from Hannah. You kept the shoebox under your bed, and rarely touched it. You carried on with your life as per usual. You started to notice how everyone who was on the tapes looked more stressed and freaked. They knew what you had done and you know what they did. But you and Alex were still happy, and that’s what matters. But after a week since listening to the tapes, you’ve had a total shift of behavior.

You had been more tired that usual, you ate less, rarely spoke and would get agitated easily. Alex noticed your shift in behavior, but thought it wouldn’t be a big deal. But then your behavior continued for 2 months. Then one day you weren’t at school. Alex had started freaking out, but you sat at home, emotionally drained. Why am I still alive? This question would echo in your mind. Why were you still alive? You had contributed to make a girl commit suicide and she was your friend.

You hated yourself and the guilt was eating you alive. “I shouldn’t have left her.” You mumble to yourself. Your whole body felt sore and weak, you’ve been eating less, your face was a sickly color and bags formed under your eyes. Alex went straight to your house that afternoon, panic was rushing through him. “Hey Ms. Y/L/N, is Y/N home?” Alex asked your mom who opened the door and greeted him. “She’s in her room. Alex, do you know why she’s been acting so strangely? She’s not acting like the Y/N we know.” Your mom spoke, her voice quiet. Alex shook his head, knowing better than to let his girlfriend’s mom know about the tapes.

She gave Alex a smile and let him in, the platinum blonde hair boy rushing to your room. He found you laying in bed and staring at your ceiling. “Why am I still alive Alex?” You asked, your voice calm and soft. “Y/N, no, please don’t think like that.” Alex spoke, immediately sitting next to you and pulling you close to him. “But it’s true Alex, I killed Hannah Baker.” You cried softly. “We all did, but you shouldn’t take your life because it. Hannah’s death affected a bunch of people and yours would too. Please don’t do it.” You laid your forehead on Alex’s shoulder, tears falling from your eyes.

“It’s hard, the guilt is eating me alive.” You said. Alex cupped your face and made you look at him, “It’s okay, we’ll get through this. I’ll help you.” He kissed your forehead. “Thank you, I love you.” You spoke, and Alex gave you a smile, “I love you too.”

damn this was rlly long and im not too proud of it but i posted so :)) ALSO this is such a serious topic like please if you ever feel suicidal get help or even call a hotline, its better to get help then go through it alone

dating Kihyun would include~

Originally posted by gifsmonstax

  • where to start
  • well welcome to hell 
  • hope you’re in comfortably because this is definitely gonna be one ride you’ll never forget 
  • i think he’d act shy around others when he realises he has feelings or you
  • and when you’re around he accidentally stutters a lot and gets teased for it
  • massive heart eyes though when you tell everyone to leave him alone cause you think its cute
  • and then he’d be wayyy more confident when telling you
  • he’d like sit you down and say it straight that he liked you because what’s better than honesty?
  • and if you said you liked him too his heart would do a complete flip
  • thus kihyunnie becomes a sweetheart at your fingertips
  • surprises you with food on random occasions
  • ‘its my token of love for you, duh?’
  • ‘but kihyun we were–’
  • ‘meant to go out tonight, i know. but now we can stay home and i can admire you by myself!’
  • actually believes you to be one of the best things to happen to him, besides everything with monsta x
  • and i think he’d not hide it from you that he was very appreciative of you being with him
  • so he’d shower you with affection at all possible times
  • gets flowers delivered to your house when he’s away
  • always has a cute message printed out that he claims he made up himself
  • but you’re like,, 79% sure it came from john keats
  • if you ever asked him to sing to you he’d be like noooo
  • though wouldn’t need much more convincing to actually say yes
  • and he’d do that GOD FORSAKEN cover of hyeya and you’d die
  • (just saying that is?? the best thing i’ve heard?? ever?????)
  • always in awe of you because wow
  • he’s amazed by the fact you always make him happy
  • like he could have the worst day ever but when he saw you his mind just goes blank and he’s like :)
  • unless you don’t text him where you are after 10pm
  • because i think he would get very protective of you, but not jealous
  • like, i think he’d be chill if you had guy friends that were pretty close
  • if you were with him then obviously you don’t like them duh
  • though if some guy was flirtin w you and it was v obvious he’d give the smuggest smile like ‘mine bye’
  • but there would be some things that annoy him
  • tbh i think he would get pretty heated in arguments
  • not because he wants to argue with you, but instead bc he wants to get his opinion out there
  • and he thinks his opinion is right and will need force to back down
  • so it would start with something like you coming home late and he’d be annoyed
  • probably because you were like ten minutes later than expected
  • and an hour later every single little thing that’s annoyed him is being thrown at you
  • but when he cools down he just kinda comes and hugs you like
  • ‘ya know… im sorry. i didn’t mean what i said. can we talk?
  • and if you say no he’ll just wait for you to actually want speak with him
  • then for the next few days he’d literally fall at your feet for anything you wanted 
  • i don’t think he’d be the first to say i love you, but he’d be the first to think it
  • like one day you were out together and idk you’re talking to someone about something
  • and he’s just thinking …damn i think i love them…nope i do love them…
  • but is a little anxious to tell you so puts it off until he’s one hundred and forty per cent sure that it’s love 
  • (which it is)
  • and you’re at dinner one night and he’s about to tell you but you beat him to it
  • then he’d get all whiny bc he wanted to say it first but oh well
  • cute lil blush over his cheeks when you did tell him and he’d go an fangirl(boy?) on his groupchats that night
  • ‘i have the cutest relationship, suck on that you cheese blocks’
  • would live in the moment mostly so wouldn’t really plan ahead by more than a month
  • but you’d catch him one day when he’s really tired just cuddled up to you mumbling something quietly
  • ‘to be honest i think we’d have pretty cute kids, and they’d be cuter than minhyuk’s’
  • ‘what was that kihyun?’
  • ‘you’re cuter than minhyuk is what i said thanks’
  • overall, would overwhelm you with affection every day of your life
  • it would leave you questioning the meaning of love itself
  • please love and adore him because he is precious

~other ‘dating idols would include’ posts & masterlist

Being scared together
  • Jon: Damian, are you ever really afraid of anything?
  • Damian: ...maybe.
  • Jon: It's just the two of us. You can tell me.
  • Damian: I fear that there will be a night when my father doesn't come home. That this time, he's not just going to lose his memories, there won't be a Chaos Shard to revive him or that there won't even be a body to place in a Lazarus Pit. That without me knowing it, he might just end up another bloodstain on broken concrete, just like Drake. Not even anything left of him to mourn over.
  • Jon: That's horrible! I'm sorry I asked...
  • Damian: You don't get a free pass. It's your turn to tell me yours.
  • Jon: Well, I keep thinking about why my dad and I have to try so hard to keep our identity secret. I get it now...people will know I'm different. They might call me an alien, they might call me a hero. But because they know I'm not like them, they won't see who I am. That to them, I won't be a boy, I won't be a kid named Jon Kent. I'm scared that to them, I won't even have a name, that I don't deserve to even have a name, or friends, or school or anything, because I'm not one of them after all. That I'm not human, and that I don't deserve to live like one.
  • Damian: Ironic. I fear the ignominy of death while you fear life without living. We're just a pair of scared boys, aren't we?
  • Jon: I guess. But you know what? Telling you about my fears and hearing about yours makes me feel better. Like, I know I'm not alone, I'm not the only one who's scared. It's like if you're there with me, I know I can be brave.
  • Damian: -TT- if being scared together gives us the courage we need, then I hope you're prepared to deal with me for the rest of your life.
  • Jon: You know, that doesn't sound so bad...

You’re Not Alone, Clarke~*✲゚*✧~*✧ (faded version)

  • dally: i just miss johnny so much man. i hope he's okay and i hope that if he comes back i can stop being such a douche. cause i just block out all my emotions all the time cause i don't wanna get hurt, ya know? but he's like the light of my life. he makes me feel, man. and i just wanna protect him from all the bad things that keep happening to him but i can't actively do that because if i do then i'll blow my cover and everybody will find out how i feel and if i even admit how i feel to myself it'll ruin everything so i just have to protect him from a distance, but i feel like that isn't enough and it hurts. and now i really can't do anything because he's in a fucking church and he's gonna die in like two chapters and i can't take that. he's what's been keeping me going. i want to be a better man for him, because he deserves that you know. but it's hard and i feel like i'm not enough and i never will be enough and he's too pure and so i'll just ruin him even more. and sometimes i lie to myself and say everything will turn out fine but i know it won't. we're greasers and he just killed a kid and i can barely take care of myself let alone him. which i don't need to worry about too much i guess because he can hold his own in a rumble and stuff and he takes a shit ton of beatings from his old man. ugh i hate thinking about that. i wish we could both just go out in the country and live alone with a couple horses. maybe a dog, but it'd be his dog cause animals don't like me except for ponies. not ponyboy though i'm pretty sure that kid hates me. but it wouldn't matter cause it'd just be me and johnny cakes in a little country house with no worries at all. man i just wish we could be together. the world is fucked but i would beat the shit out of every single fucker in this town for me and him, you know man. he just makes me feel that strongly, y'know?
  • darry: what
  • sodapop: what
  • two-bit: what
  • steve: what
  • cherry: what
  • marcia: what
  • bob: what
  • the store clerk that dally pointed a gun at: what
  • s.e. hinton: what
  • the entire world: what

anonymous asked:

Okay. I'm a shipper. If I state here on Jess's blog that it's a bruise will you trolls leave us alone! Its a bruise, caused by Sam pounding Cait repeatedly into a wooden bunk from behind. So hard that she apparently cut herself from the force on the wood (from the pounding from behind). Over and over while setting the scene..There. Does that visual make you anti anons feel better? Sounds like SC had a fun time at work to me. And Cait's so proud of the mark she wanted us ALL to see! Turtle Soup


My dash keeps showing me a post about Greg “charming” Blue Diamond so much that she wanted to “save” him by taking him to the zoo. With the conclusion that no one can resist the Universe charm….

Here’s the thing though: Greg didn’t charm Blue Diamond. Not really. What he did do, however, is talk to her about her grief. Offering comforting words and even letting her know that he understood how she felt. Which impressed her.

She was impressed that a mere human could understand how she feels, because she clearly doesn’t view humans as sentient, intelligent beings. Which isn’t evil per se. Why would she think of some alien race as equal to her own? Humans have a hard time seeing other beings on Earth as intelligent. Hell, in some cases we can’t even see the intelligence in other people. So why would Blue Diamond?

Getting back on track: Greg was probably the first person in thousands of years that spoke to her about grief like it was real. Like it was valid. Like she wasn’t wrong for feeling it. Even sort of gave her a reassurance that its ok that she’s still grieving because it can take a long time to be ok with the knowledge that the person/gem you love isn’t coming back.

That impressed her. This human understood how she felt. And he didn’t deserve to be killed by the Cluster.

I mean, its not surprising that it was Greg. He IS a good man. But I think joking about the “Universe charm” takes away from the bigger picture there.

Blue Diamond has been alone in her grief. From Yellow Diamond’s words, she was expected to just shake it off and move forward. But she can’t. And, to be fair, Yellow Diamond can’t either, but she’s better at hiding it. Better at bottling up her feelings and ignore them.

And here’s Greg, a human, talking to her about her grief like its valid. Offering comfort and reassurance.

Hello....Got some SU theories

Hello, I realize I do not talk much, in fact rarely, but I wanted to get out 2 theories I have regarding the latest SU bomb to add to the mix. I apologize if some of what I have to say might have already been speculated or if this ends up being a spoiler of sorts. This is just my opinions.

The first thing I would like to talk about is Padparadscha, who I will refer to as Paddy for the rest of this post as Padparadscha is a bit of a mouth full. Paddy was certainly an interesting character who was hilarious to watch. I do think she is going to end up being an important gem to the series because of her power which is the subject of my first theory. At first glance it looks like she has exactly what the show describes; a slightly lagged behind future vision. However, I am purposing that she actually just has an extremely rare “past vision;” which is to say that instead of seeing the future, she can see into the past.

Now I think the reason why I think Paddy can see to the past is demonstrated throughout the episode. the slight “lag” time is just enough so the situation can be labeled as what has happened vs what is happening. That’s why she isn’t exactly saying what is happening while it is going on, which I feel would more accurately show the claim of a bad future vision better than the significant time they gave her to “see”. Now why is Paddy only doing the immediate past instead of, say, looking farther back?

I believe that is because of gem society and while none of the imperfect gems claim to be perfect, no matter what, people (and gems) like to keep up with social expectations. Without going into true psychology which is too heavy for this post, most people (I think) will agree that even outcasts would like to be part of a community which is why the imperfect gems were so eager to go with Steven. They could go to another community that would embrace their uniqueness, so they could belong. It feels good to be part of a larger group (not to say that differences aren’t important! but being different in a group that still accepts you is better then being different and alone).

SO, here is why I think Paddy simply hasn’t explored her ability to its fullest. I think from the moment she emerged, she was told that sapphires see the future and only the future. And she was told that she just has a bad future vision and nothing else. If you were told from birth that that you were supposed to and expected to play the piano, wouldn’t you put everything into playing the piano, even if you weren’t good at it? That’s what I think Paddy is doing, she actively trying to do something she isn’t supposed to do. That’s why she is only “predicting” the most current past event because that is the closest she can do to future vision. Because that is what she knows is expected of her, even imperfect gems re-literate that to her when they describe her ability.

Now, my predication is that someone within the SU will finally recognize Paddy for what she can do and will encourage her to look farther back. Far enough that she might be able to finally say what happened to Pink Diamond? Because unlike the future, the past is can’t change. Which is why she might be the biggest threat to the Diamond society. My guess is that any other sapphire having this ability is immediately shattered, because aside from the vision, she is a perfect gem. This is why her ability, and gem, are so rare, just like her name sake. This leads me to believe Paddy might became the most important new character to the series. 

And this leads me to my biggest theory. WHAT HAPPENED TO PINK DIAMOND AND WHO SHATTERED HER? There have been tons of theories and none of them are hitting all of the marks that I believe happened. Before I begin my rant, here are a couple of things to that make the Rose Quartz did it false. Please note that there are tons of theories by many people smarter then me who pointed these things out that I physically can’t give credit to everyone. The only thing in this post I claim to be my thoughts is what actually happened because that is what I haven’t quite agreed with any one particular theory.Here we go!

The Sword, the Place, and the Method of Attack

From what we can gather, this is what we know to be true. Pink diamond stepped out of her carriage-thing apparently in Japan (where her carriage thing is) and was immediately “shattered” with a sword by Rose Quartz. This has been backed by Eyeball, Jasper, and Blue Diamond. I point out these characters because they do not have a reason to hid the facts (I will get to that later). So I believe that this event did happen the way is described. There are a lot of problems with this though. Most were pointed out by Blue Zicron and one from the SU fan base. The general guise I will describe in case anyone has been under a rock:

1) The sword that Rose Quarts owned and ever held did not destroy gems, it only poofed them (their physical form). This is confirmed by Bismuth who created the sword. Needless to say she wouldn’t have lied about this given everything that happened.

2) As Blue Zicorn pointed out, how did Rose Quartz even get in in the first place? Apparently by this time, Rose was already a wanted criminal and every rose quartz had at least been dismissed (but I don’t think bubbled) from being in Pink Diamond’s immediate guard. So how did an obvious rose quartz get that close to begin with?

3) What happened to Pink Diamond’s Pearl? From everything Blue Zicorn said, it seems implied that Pink Diamond’s pearl is MIA. Not even from the story it’s self, but is all but missing from homeworld too, as she should have been the one to tell the Diamonds what happened in detail.

So given everything that happened and what the show has given us the viewers I humbly present what I think actually happened. Again please note that this is just my guess.

First of, I think our Pearl was Pink Diamond’s pearl. The reason, she bares all the colors of the other diamonds which leads be to believe she was most likely a gift to her. Pink Diamond is the newest Diamond born from Earth, given the mural on the wall. I think when she was born, the Diamonds gave her a pearl as a present. Now Pink Diamond, I think, was actually a kinder Diamond, with her gem being on her belly and very naive. I think she did like earth and loved the life on it, but listened to her “sisters” on what to do with it (cluster). I do think she created the rose quartz(es) has helpers for the humans back on the zoo.

One Rose Quartz, our Rose, however, realized what would happen to the Earth when the cluster emerged. That’s when she started her rebellion. Before this though, I think she might have been in Pink Diamond’s immediate guard and got close to Pearl, so when Rose left, Pearl bounced too. I believe Pink kept this a secret though so the other diamonds wouldn’t get mad at her for losing her pearl. Now give it a few hundred years. Pink Diamond matures a little and starts to realize what Rose already figured out. I think she reached out to Rose to come out with a plan to potential save earth.

The plan was simple, stage a kidnapping/destruction of Pink, Rose would present the alive Pink to the Diamonds and the Diamonds would be so grateful that they would spared the Earth. This is what I believe the original plan was and the first part worked perfectly. Pink Diamond would stop her carriage thing, to greet her pearl who came back to her. I think that is how “Rose/Pearl” was able to get so close without anyone noticing. A Quartz might get attention, but a weak pearl? Not even a glance. I think Pearl got close to Pink then transformed into Rose Quartz and stabbed her with the sword. Pink merely poofed and Pearl picked her up and and left before anyone could do anything. It would look like Pink had been shattered, and Rose Quartz did it.

Now here is where things fell apart. I think White Diamond came to Earth first to see what had happened.She heard everything from the eye witness accounts and got furious with Rose Quartz. I think she must have called Rose out. Rose went ahead and went to the stand off with Pink (in gem form) in hand, White didn’t know this. Rose went to present Pink to White diamond, but upon White seeing Rose she attacked. Going to her defense, Rose lifted up her hand that had Pink in it and Pink got the full force of White’s attack. And Shattered. Because the only thing that can kill a diamond is another diamond.

Rose quickly feel apart and White realized what had happened. Rose leaves the scene (most likely in tears) and White calls in Yellow Diamond. Yellow sees what happens and hatches a plan with the grief/guilty White. She tells White to wipe-out everyone who potentially saw what really happened. They then retreat to homeworld saying that Rose killed Pink in the original kidnapping as it had more witnesses, but they destroyed Earth (with only top military knowing the cluster would take care of it). They decide not to tell Blue as she was particularly close to Pink. and the rest is history.

Now you might be asking yourself, how did I come to this conclusion? And my answer is the wall mural in the Centipeetle space ship. To me it shows the exchange. It shows Rose holding up a diamond and White Diamond attacking. I think the Centipeetles were able to write it down before White destroyed/corrupted them.

To me, my theory, explains a lot. Why Pearl doesn’t use transformation power as she was traumatized from the whole ordeal. Rose feeling guilty as she was the one to present Pink and therefore feels like she shattered Pink in a way. Why White diamond was absent during the trail? How could she face Rose Quartz (and Blue) knowing she did it and the potential of Rose exposing her as the real shatterer. And why Yellow was so mad at Blue Zicron for pointing out the holes in the kidnapping/shattering event and why Yellow was acting so guilty? Again this could be just a rambling of a SU fan, but I thought it was worth putting out there. Sorry for the long post! Here are some Gem Potatoes!

the rain | jason blossom (riverdale)

Originally posted by riverdalesource

prompt: 8- “what your wearing is very distracting”, 12- “i didn’t realise i needed your permission, 15-“here take my jacket you look freezing & 23- “kiss me”

a/n: another piece from my trial co-owner!! let me know what yous think!!

perfect nails, perfect hair.

after many hours spent in front of the mirror, I was finally ready to leave my room and go to Cheryl Blossom’s party.

“You look fabulous!“ My best friend, Betty Cooper said in amazement.

“I don't look like myself at all, Betty. I shouldn't have put this much lipstick, maybe i should just stay…”

“No friggin way, Y/F/N! You can't spend a friday night inside of your house. Besides, you have to find yourself a date for prom!“

I, myself, am a particularly introvert person. And to be honest, I’ve never been to a party before, let alone at Cheryl Blossom’s

But my friend was right, I totally needed a date for the prom, so I said yes to the party. Betty hugged me tightly and grabbed her purse. We were ready to go.

We entered the massive Thornhill mansion and searched for our mutual friend, one and only, Veronica Lodge. I was already extremely anxious and jittery.

“Oh my god, you guys! Finally!“ said the raven haired girl joyfully.

“Y/n! You look… different?!”

I smiled ungainly.

“Don’t get me wrong, different but amazing…" 

 Suddenly, there was an awkward silence.

“Do you guys… want something to drink?”

I nodded in agreement. I totally needed some alcohol to warm me up. We slowly entered a huge living room, filled with familiar faces. Kids from my school were there.

Almost all of them, dancing and drinking not surprisingly expensive beer, without even noticing me.

“Hey, you wanna dance?” shouted Betty. The music was very loud.

“I… No, Betty. I’m not… you can go without me! I’ll catch up later.”

She calmly smiled to me. Even though I was surrounded with people, I felt so lonely.

Many weird thoughs were running through my mind. I wanted to be somebody, I wanted to be known by them, but I was just a regular geeky high school freak. I knew it, leaving my house was a horrible idea.

At that exact moment, a familiar red haired boy approached to me.

“Hi there, beautiful”

“So… To be honest, I’ve never seen you at Cheryl’s parties before.”

“Parties are not really my thing” I tried not to look at his face.

“Then what’s your thing?”

I actually started enjoying this conversation.

“Um… Books, music… I don’t know”

He let out a tiny laugh. His laugh, it was like a melody to my soul. We sat on a beach, next to a small beach house. The familiar sound of waves was astonishing.

“Never met a girl like you before, Y/N. Truly rare”

We both laughed. His piercing blue eyes were shining like diamonds in the night. His face, his personality, he was art. We spent the rest of the night talking, opening up to each other. I could feel it, it was love. A weird, spontaneous love. Assuden, it started to rain. 

“Jason, we have to go!”

“No, Y/N! We are too far from Thornhill! We have to hide in the beach house"  We quickly rain into the beach house while laughing.”

“The rain is still pouring! We have to stay here.” I said.

“Here, take my jacket, you look freezing”

I put on his comfortable red velvet jacket.

“What’s so special about rain?” he sat next to me.

“I like rain. Rain makes me feel less alone. All rain is, is a cloud- falling apart, and pouring its shattered pieces down on top of you. It makes me feel better to know other things in nature can shatter.”

I could feel his eyes staring at me.

“Um… Jason, I have to ask you something”

“Oh so do I… You go first.”

“Why… Why did you choose me over all those girls?”

And we were back to the awkward conversations.

“Well that’s simple. There’s no reason I shouldn’t pick you, Y/N. You are special" 

I had to words to say. Was he actually in love with me?

“My turn now!”

He took my hand. 

“Y/N, would you like to go to prom with me?"  I stood there, frozen, speachless.



“Kiss me!”

His rosy lips quickly slammed mine. The kiss was strong, breathtaking.  The rain finally stopped pouring

Jason was not just a typo highschool rich kid, he was more than that. He was more than good enough. And I loved him, I truly did. But missing someone gets easier everyday because even though you are one day further from the last time you saw them, you are one day closer to the next time you will. …

MC x Saeyoung living together
  • Saeyoung: “You’re a lot stronger than you give yourself credit.”
  • Me: “Sometimes I get tired of being strong.”
  • Saeyoung: “You have me, you’re not alone, whenever you’re feeling weak, I’ll be there to carry you.”
  • Me: “I know where else you could carry me.”
  • Saeyoung: “Oh god, there goes your mind finding its way to the gutter.”
  • Me: “It’s part of my charm.”
  • Saeyoung: “Dear Lord help me, I’m marrying a succubus.”
  • Me: “You’re no prude yourself, just because you have a nun outfit doesn’t mean you’re like a virgin. If I didn’t know any better I’d think you’re a sadist.”
  • Saeyoung: “Me? Nawww, I’m as innocent as the lamb of God. Can I get an Amen? Hallelujah, Praise Jesus.”
  • Me: “Oh stop it, the only praise allowed in this room is to God Seven.”
  • Saeyoung: “It’s really sexy when you say it like that. But I’m not a sadist, you just make it too easy for me to tease you.”
  • [Excerpt from my fanfic Mystic Diary]
Bts finding out their younger sister has depression bc of bad friends.

He found you sitting on your bed, just staring out your window.

“You okay?…”

“How do you stop from feeling really sad?”

“You let everything flow out, talk to me.”

“My friends… they don’t treat me, well, like a friend.”


“Teenagers can be mean just remember they do not define you. You’ll find better friends along the way that like you for you. Use the treatment your getting right now as a muse for something creative… a poem, a painting. Also dont hang around them any more. I don’t like seeing you sad you little bum.”

Originally posted by bangtannoonas


“Who dares make a Kim member sad! I’m sorry y/n, everything will get better as you grow, I promise. I mean when have I ever been wrong?”

“The time you told be to eat the green pill instead of the white and I ended up sleeping for a whole day even though all I had was a my sore throat”

“Not the point. Just know that everybody has bad times in their life so that way the good times could be better than you could ever imagine! Now, you wanna come make some cupcakes? We can make your favorite! <3”

Originally posted by jjilljj


“Well, those aren’t true friends, now are they? Ditch them. I know you’re a good person and its hard for you to leave people behind but trust me you’ll feel much better after. You might be alone for a while but hey thats better than being treated badly by others especially when you have a choice. Plus you won’t be fully alone… I’ll be here!”

Originally posted by hoseokb


“Well first, they’re dead. And second, don’t be an idiot and stay friends with them. I know this is very blunt but if you feel like you’re unwanted by them, leave. You don’t deserve to be hurt by some people that aren’t going to be in your life forever. You’re young! Live your life with people who truly like you. And  don’t stress out over little things. Do you remember when I was stuck in a slump? Look at me now. Winning awards left and right with my best friends.”

Originally posted by jeonsshi


“There missing out on you y/n! You’re such a good person, don’t you forget that! I wish I could be in high school again just so I could hang out with you. I don’t like seiing you so hurt by this, by them. Please do me a favor and drop them. You can find such better people whether it be online or from other schools! I’ll be your friend… I’ll come by during lunch and just hang with you. Every single day until you don’t need me anymore!”

Originally posted by xtronnorfravan


“There’s no point as associating them as friends then. They need a new title… starngers! You need to get away from toxic people before they really start damaging you and putting a toll on you. I really hope you make the right choice in leaving them and go meet some new people. Start a club at school or join clubs online with people that have the same interest. You can always text me if your feeling lonely okay!”

Originally posted by wellhell0therenicetomeetyou


“Who hurt my baby sis?! That really irks me ya know, you’re such a sweet person. I don’t understand how people can be so rude. Leave them, they don’t understand us cool kids. Viva la Jeons! Don’t let this hang over you okay? You don’t need this type of situation, its a waste of time. Spend your time doing more important things like studying! You do want a good job right?” “I’m gonna fight your ‘friends’.” *fighting stance*

Originally posted by just-sad-fandom-trash


late as always but whatevs

hiya pals, i got a cuppa anixtea and depresso,,, it sucks ass but I’ve been getting a lot better with medicine. If you are feeling like crap, talk to someone. I know a lot of the times its easier said than done, but once you open up to one person, it gets easier to open up to the next.

my inbox is always open to those who need someone to chat with!