i feel like im really bad at defending him tho cries

anonymous asked:

Hi Aurora okay first tysm for your blog It's so lovely to have another person so passionate about my fave things (i.e hp and period dramas) Anyway, i recently read the HP series (again) and found myself feeling SO MUCH. I genuinely teared up at so many different touching parts and I was just wondering what are your favorite most heart-wrenching/emotional parts from the books? I realize this is a lengthy quesition so feel free to never answer this or take a year.

ye S SS i love being passionate ab things and sharing that passion w my followers!!!!! i love yall esp when u ask me questions like this where i get to talk ab my fave things everrrrrrrrr (ps thank u so much for letting me take forever to answer this ur so cute to say that ilysm)

ok so literally i will cry my way thru the entire series when i reread bc harry potter has so much emotional weight for me and so many memories that go along with it. but i decided to limit myself to just 10 bc otherwise id be sitting here typing all day. so w/o further ado: 

AURORA’S TOP 10 MOST TEARFUL HARRY POTTER MOMENTS: 

((in no particular order)) 

  1. HARRY READS LILY’S LETTER IN DH: listen harry doesnt actually spend a lot of the books angsting over the fact that he doesnt have parents but in moments like this u remember he IS AN ORPHAN AND IT GETS ME SO HARD. fuk like just picturing harry crouched on the floor of sirius’s bedroom reading that letter… rereading it… crying… wow.gif!!!!! the line that makes me cry eveRY TIME is “She had made her g’s the same way he did : he searched through the letter for every one of them, and each felt like a friendly little wave glimpsed from behind a veil.“ LIKE RIP RIP RIP ABORT ABORT ABORT ITS TOO SAD!!!!!
  2. THE LOST PROPHECY IN OOTP: JESSESCREAMING.JPEG!!!!!!!!!!!! listen ,,, i talk ab this chapter so much on my blog. it is my #1 favorite moment in my #1 favorite harry potter book which is my #1 favorite series of all time. SO ITS A PRETTY BIG DEAL. harry’s reaction to sirius’s death… his anger at dumbledore… his grief… his discovery of his fate… its beautiful writing and its so painful but so amazing to read. LIKE!!!!! MY BABY!!! HE’S LOST SO MANY PEOPLE!!!!!!!! MY SWEET SUMMER CHILD!!!!!!!!!! “I DON’T CARE!“ Harry yelled at them, snatching up a lunascope and throwing it into the fireplace. “I’VE HAD ENOUGH, I’VE SEEN ENOUGH, I WANT OUT, I WANT IT TO END, I DON’T CARE ANYMORE!” “You do care,” said Dumbledore. He had not flinched or made a single move to stop Harry demolishing his office. His expression was calm, almost detached. “You care so much you feel as though you will bleed to death with the pain of it.”” LIKE LITERALLY WHEN I GET TO THIS POINT I HAVE TO TAKE A BREAK BC IM CRYING SO MUCH I CANT MAKE OUT THE WORDS!!!!!!!!!!!! also fun story: one time i was listening to ootp on audiobook while on vacation and we were in the car waiting to taxi on to a ferry boat and we were listening to this chapter when the ferry guy came by to take our tickets and i had like TEARS STREAMING DOWN MY FACE and jim dale is yelling as harry in the background…. the guy was like ‘is this bitch ok??’ lmaOOOOo 
  3. HARRY AND THE MIRROR OF ERISED IN SS:  this is another one of those moments where you remember that harry is an orphan and its /so/ painful. thinking about this teeny 11 year old baby harry sneaking out every night just to sit in front of this mirror so he can see his parents………my darling baby sweetheart i love him So Much. it just makes me so sad like hes /so young/ AND HE JUST WANTS TO SEE HIS PARENTS!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHH!! it also gives way to one of my all time favorite hp quotes: “It does not do well to dwell on dreams and forget to live.” 
  4. HARRY STOPS SIRIUS AND LUPIN FROM KILLING PETER IN POA: me reading this part is literally ISAYTHATSMYBABYANDIMREALLYPROUD.GIF!!!!!! like!! my boy!! he finds out this man literally caused the death of his parents and he MAKES THE GROWN ASS ADULTS SPARE HIS LIFE… LIKE… he literally acts twice his age and is so mature and is just…….so amazing. it shows such strength and wisdom and it makes me SO PROUD. the way he references james also makes me cry because you see the relationship harry has with james even though he’s literally never met him and its so beautiful. i love harry so much. 
  5. HARRY AFTER SECTUMSEMPER-ING MALFOY IN HBP: this is literally the opposite of that last one where im so proud of harry this is def… not one of his best moments lol. he rly rly fucks up and his guilt is so raw and it makes me so emotional because i feel SO bad for him. its def an important harry moment in the books because it shows his flaws and the consequences of his rage, but it also shows how GOOD he is because he feels so bad about what happens and like willingly takes his punishment even though it means that he cant play in the quidditch match. he really like… atones and even tho its rough to read i def love that its a part of the series bc its a really like watershed moment for harry and i think it really reminds him of the wizard he wants to be. this part also leads to i think a more satisfying harry/ginny first kiss bc ginny defends harry and then him not going to the game leads to “several sunlit days” AKA ONE OF MY FAVE HP MOMENTS EVER!!!!!!!!!!!
  6. HARRY AND HERMIONE VISIT JAMES AND LILY’S GRAVE IN DH: “But they were not living, thought Harry: They were gone. The empty words could not disguise the fact that his parents’ moldering remains lay beneath snow and stone, indifferent, unknowing.And tears came before he could stop them, boiling hot then instantly freezing on his face, and what was the point in wiping them off or pretending? He let them fall, his lips pressed hard together, looking down at the thick snow hiding from his eyes the place where the last of Lily and James lay, bones now, surely, or dust, not knowing or caring that their living son stood so near, his heart still beating, alive because of their sacrifice and close to wishing, at this moment, that he was sleeping under the snow with them.”  THIS IS ANOTHER ONE OF THOSE MOMENTS THAT I HAVE TO STOP READING BC IM CRYING SO MUCH I CANT MAKE OUT THE WORDS ANYMORE. I CRIED TYPING THIS. IM SO SAD. 
  7. THE FOREST AGAIN IN DH: hoo boy. hoooooo boy this is a Big One. this one is really…. wow. just. wow. [deep breath]. there is So Much in this chapter that makes me cry where do i even START. harry realizing that he has to die and ACCEPTING IT BRAVELY LIKE THE HERO HE IS. “Why had he never appreciate what a miracle he was,  brain and nerve and bounding heart?” im crying….. hes so good. HARRY NEARLY STOPPING WHEN HE SEES GINNY and ginny’s crying and comforting some girl and im crying too. JAMES. SIRIUS. LILY. REMUS. WHEN HARRY ASKS IF IT HURTS TO DIE LIKE LITEARLLY I HAVE TO PUT THE BOOK DOWN AND GET UP  AND WLAK AROUND THE ROOM BECAUSE I GET SO EMOTIONAL LIKE. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! when harry sees harry and screams at him ……………… rip in pieces me!!!!!!!! ALSO ONE OF HIS LAST THOUGHTS BEFORE THE AVADA KEDAVRA IS OF GINNY AND KISSING HER……….. [GUNSHOTS] [SCREAMING]
  8. BELLATRIX TORTURES HERMIONE IN DH: fuk this scene is no joke scary like it took harry potter to another level of real darkness. hermione being tortured was so chilling like beautiufl amazing smart snarky hermione it was so painful to read like my heart rate goes up when i read it bc im worried for my girl :/ and ron is sHAKING and like screaming and literally throwing himself at the walls to try to get to her and its SO upsetting like. they are still CHILDREN like theyre all so young and they dont deserve this like. hearing her plead and stuff … its just…. too much. these are my CHILDREN i have to PROTECT them. 
  9. HARRY DIGS DOBBYS GRAVE IN DH: this is another one of those harry moments where i just want to give him a huge hug. like he insists on digging dobby’s grave by hand which is just ….. [gets choked up] its fine. and his thoughts while he dig make me so sad. he so /tired/. hes so frustrated with dumbledore and he the hallows and the horcruxes and he feels responsible for what happened. and ron coming out and helping him dig silently makes me so happy and its one of those times u really see how much rons friendship means to harry. and harry comes out of this like … older and more mature? his wisdom and knowledge is rly apparent when he talks with griphook and olivander right after this like. he knows what hes going to do. hes made his choice. hes not going to race voldemort for the wand. i love him so much for that choice. hes such a grown man in this part like accepting responsibility, taking care of hermione and everyone like getting things in order. i love him. 
  10. MRS WEALSEY HUGS HARRY IN THE HOSPITAL WING IN GOF“’It wasn’t your fault, Harry,’ Mrs. Weasley whispered. ‘I told him to take the cup with me,’ said Harry. Now the burning feeling was in his throat too. He wished Ron would look away. Mrs. Weasley set the potion down on the bedside cabinet, bent down, and put her arms around Harry. He had no memory of ever being hugged like this, as though by a mother. The full weight of everything he had seen that night seemed to fall in upon him as Mrs. Weasley held him to her. His mothers face, his father’s voice, the sight of Cedric, dead on the ground all started spinning in his head until he could hardly bear it, until he was screwing up his face against the howl of misery fighting to get out of him.” HARRY POTTER DESERVES MORE HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he feels so guilty about cedric and god bless mrs weasley for telling him it wasnt his fault because it WASNT!!! he did so amazing in the graveyard like.. .he saw voldemort return and he fought him and he survived and he saw his paretns and hE TOOK CEDRICS BODY BACK SO IT COULD BE WITH HIS FAMILY!!!!!!!! HE TOOK IT BACK FOR THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  i would die a thousand deaths if it meant that harry didnt have to experience this pain!!!!

whew so there we go!!!!! the bottom line is obviously that i love the harry potter series more than anything and specifically i love the boy harry potter so so SO much and his suffering is agonizing to read and he didnt deserve any of it!!! i can litearlly think of SO many more heartbreaking moments in the series but here are just a handful. happy birthday to harry!!! 

Requests open: Cameron Dallas imagine

Cameron Dallas imagine:

Imagine you were best friends with Cam. You and Cam had been best friends for forever. Over the years you’d fell for him but didn’t want to do anything yo jeopardise your friendship. You had a new boyfriend, Cam had warned you not to date him because of his history and reputation. But you continued to date him anyway.

You arrived at your boyfriends house. You knocked on his front door his sister answered and told you to go up. You walked up the stairs to his house and to his room and heard weird noises. You knocked and opened the door brushing it off. Your first instinct was to scream and then you went into shock at what you saw. Your boyfriend getting it on with another girl, the girl just so happened to be your enemy. They looked over at you, your enemy smirked yyour boyfriend wore a shocked expression.

Y/N-“we’re done you ass!!” Walking out. Your boyfriend chased after you.

Your boyfriend-“Y/N baby that wasnt what it looked like.”

Y/N-“So you weren’t getting ‘it’ with my enemy.” Your boyfriend went slient and started trying ti defend himself but couldn’t. “Cam was right about you.”

Your boyfriend-“Oh what a surprise.”

Y/N-“What do you mean??”

Your boyfriend-“y/n hes in love with you.”

Y/N-“As if. But thats not the point your an ass I’m done cam was right.”

Your boyfriend-“Whatever your a slut go fuck your little buddie Cameron.”

Y/N-“So what one minute you want me the next I’m a slut cos i don’t want a manwhore like you. Wow. FUCK YOU!!!!” You shouted slamming the door fighting the tears. There were many emotions, most of all you were hurt. You drove over to Cams, you didnt want to go home and be alone.

*********

You knocked on the door and Cam opened the door.

Cam-“Y/N whats up.” He asked

Y/N-“you were right.” You said Cam knew what you meant and just hugged you while you cried. After 10 minutes you calmed down. You looked up.

Cam-“Wang some ice cream, i got cookies dough. Its good for eating your feelings.”

Y/N-“Yeah and im sorry about your shoulder.” You said feeling bad about his tear stained shoulder.

Cam-“Its cool. What are friends for i guess this is what i signed up for.”

Y/N-“Ah what would I do without you.”

Cam-“Be normal and use tissues instead of my shoulders.” He joked and you punched him in the arm.

*************

You and Cam just finished your ice cream.

Cam-“so you wanna talk about it?”

Y/N-“He cheated.”

Cam-“Aw he’s such a jerk you deserve better.”

Y/N-“Then he accised you of being in love with me. Pfftt thats ridiculous right.” You said laughing. Cam didn’t reply.

Y/N-“Riiight??”

Cam-“Not really. He’s right. I know I’m not supposed but honestly i love you.”

Y/N-“Cam i love you too.”

Cam-“Ive been waiting a while to hear that. But it was worth it.”

Y/N-“Same. After all good things come to those that wait.” Cam just laughed. You facepalmed yourself and blushed. Your hair was covering your face as you looked like a tomato.

Cam-“Aw little Y/N getting all embarrassed. Hey don’t be theres not a lot you can do to make yourself anymore retarded in my book.” He said you slapped him lightly on his head.“ Dont hide your face your face, your beautiful.” He then said putting the strands of hair that were covering your face behind your ear. You just smiled and looked down. He grabbed your chin gently so you were looking at him. He leaned in kissing you softly. You kissed him back.

Mama Dallas-“Camero-” she said walking to you and Cameron kissing.

Mama Dallas-“Aw mu little Cammies growing up, i always knew this would happen. Y/N you are my favourite of all his girlfriends. I dont ship this i cruise it.”

Cam-“Mom please stop talking.” He whined. His mum left.

Y/N-“Aw your mum is so adorable. So glad she ships it your fans probs wont.”

Cam-“True fans will. I dont care tho. I love you end of story. Haters can sot themselves down. Nothing and no-one can keep you from me.”

Y/N-“Aw.” He kissed your forehead and you held hands. The rest of the night you ate food and watched movies you nearly forgot about what happened before this.

This episode literally broke me (Im still crying mom)

Lets star with two parts (longy post)

NUMBER ONE: 

A new episode, new breathtaking moments and character development, This chapter literally made me cry…. I was wondering since the beggining how Yuuri will do in the program w/o Victor, and what we see is…

The first, its a troubled Yuuri, I was really holding until this part came, the expression, you can feel his uneasiness, fear, doubt, this wasnt the Yuuri who gave us a perfect SP, it was again a uncertain Yuuri, but now he was confident he could do it, netherless he wasnt thinking about his program, his head was in the other part of the world,,,

He then remembers every moment him and Victor spent together (good or bad), Yuuri really wanted to have Victor with him, however thats not the case , and he feels uneasy, thoughs clouding his vision…

Yuuri knows that his program wanst his , was theirs, they did it together and , thats the moment where his starts giving a good performance c: . BUT This doenst end here. There was something on Yuuris program that itched me, for example this words:

NUMBER TWO:

Since, episode 7 (#blessed), we know that Yuuri doesnt believe that Victor will leave him, and that Victor wouldnt leave. whether he wins or not. But then, others words of Yuuri contradict his actions and expressions, and that confuse me

He says “Ill be done” ,this means that Yuuri still has doubts about whether Victor will leave. He himself says it like he wants it, something like when he wins, Victor and him will part in different ways (tho, before, he demands Victor to stay by his side) , I know that Yuuri still works in his confidence and needs constant reassurance to know if what he doing is good, but what he is thinking is like pushing Victor, to not get attached.

Maybe, this is a way to defend himself (and oh boy, I know that feeling), not wanting to hold onto someone, fearing that they may dissapear leaving you all alone again (I know thats not the case, we have family, friends, but when a certain someone leaves you, you feel wrong, u wonder “what did you do?” “whats was now the mistake”?) Yuuri knows that hes more confident, but he fears, he is scared to get too attached, that he will lose a special person, so he thinks to let go of Victor, when the Grand Prix ends. But, everything changes when Yuuri sees him in the airport, Victor waiting for him worried, both of them running towards each other, and hugging shameless. Yuuri realices “its too late you are already close, hes close, he is by my side” and he doesnt fear anymore, getting attached isnt bad anymore, is safe, is good, it feels fine. And yuuri knows it by the way Victor recieved him, with open arms saying “I was waiting for you”

So this stament comes as naturally, as what Yuuri feels truly, he asks this because he knows Victor wouldnt say no. Also, bc Victor and him want to be together (with GP or not, with figure skating or not), He’s literally asking demandingStay by my side and never leave me”

And Victor’s answer, just tears him, not only because Victor wants to see Yuuri to skate more, but its a form of saying “Dont worry anymore, I will stay by your side, I want to stay with you, I wish to stay with you” Victor doenst feel obliged by Yuuri, and Yuuri knows that, so he cries, happy, relieved and the two of them prepared to win the GPF.

I like saying that chapter 7 was a display of their pure and untouchable love, and chapter 8 of realizations, tears, difficulties that was surpassed by their love.