i feel like im doing it wrong

Ive been with this girl for more than a year and ive been dealing with depression for more than 2 years. I feel like she fell in love with me during this period, so nothing should change that, but I was officially diagnosed with depression and anxiety. When i shared this information with her, she stopped talking to me for days.
When we finally spoke a week later, she told me she couldnt deal with “this” and said that she doesnt think “this is going to work”. I was opening up to someone i loved and trusted and instead of being met with compassion and understanding, now im alone, left wondering what i do wrong…

anonymous asked:

I honestly wanna listen to ur 3am thoughts u seem like a genuinely lovely person and idk u can share your thoughts w/ us if u ever feel lonely( I promise Im not a creep I just really like your personality) okay this whole message sounds wrong im ou t

THIS IS THE SWEETEST MESSAGE EVER?????? THANK U SO SO MUCH ILY THIS IS LIKE THE NICEST THING ANYONES EVER SAID TO ME PELAS id actually Love to do that tbh lets Chat (though my mind at 3am is just a medley of cryin over 2009 phan and laughing at terrible memes so. we’ll see how that pans out)

yall can go ahead and ship josh with maya but i am forever uncomfortable. someone who just started uni getting involved with a 14 year old is gross. they are at completely different maturity levels/ stages in their lives. he’s in UNIVERSITY. josh doesn’t really know maya at all and thinks he can analyse what maya’s feelings for lucas are??? did josh not reject her a hundred times prior to this episode. they aren’t even dating they’re “playing the long game” what the actual Fuck is that???? why should maya only receive romantic affection the two times a year she sees josh??? WHY DOES JOSH LIKE A 14 YEAR OLD???? he’s basically leading her on. im so uncomfortable i cant do this it’s so wrong. 

first of all bitch i just wanna come clean and say that i would my set left tiddy on fire cause i don’t like that tiddy as much as the right one, gotta have respect, but mostly because this is some bullshit man i feel betrayed and personally and legally attacked by patrick martin fuck, this mf thinks his cute ass looks like a troll doll now idk what kinda trolls he’s seen but he’s wrong and im willing to make my case against him in court of law now this is just my onion but he should learn to have some RESPECT towards his damb self and traditionally i would whoop his ass for thinking of himself like that BUT i think he and i would agree that that mayhaps be morally wrong and the last thing i want to do is upset him so im just. gonna positively roast him till he’s medium rare and sizzling like his left nut if he does not BELIEVE me when I say that his smile is absolutely gorgeous and stunning but that takes us back to the morally wrong thing,

anonymous asked:

we all definitely know you feel like that avery. do you worry about ur identity being too close to emily? and basically being the same person? and lumped together a lot?

to an extent, yeah. m not about to lash tf out or anything but it is invalidating when 80% of my inbox is questions about her/my relationship n i feel like my personal individuality is being augmented lol, so i understand where 2012 dan was coming from. he didn’t hate phil or the concept of being shipped with him, he just felt people stopped appreciating him for who he was as a singular person, n i feel that too

i found the world’s longest anti regina rant in my drafts that i…think was written after the 5b finale? anyways, i’m very sorry, but it’s so long i feel like i’m doing a disservice by letting it sit. i sometimes get asked why i dislike regina because i’m sort of vague about it and i don’t like pissing people off (shocking, i know). i feel like this genuinely covers just about everything. 

you do not have to read this. if you know this will make you angry, please do not read it. you like her? cool, awesome, i’m not condemning that. these are just some of my thoughts. you have been warned. seriously, if you know you’re going to hate me, don’t read it. don’t do it. i for real don’t want to argue with people, just make my reasons more or less known.

i just know some people might feel the same way and - again - this is so fucking long i can’t just let it sit there. 

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anonymous asked:

Why is everything so difficultm I feel like all I'm doing is fucking up with every decision I make. I don't feel like I really belong with anyone. Im scared by being in people's lives is just gonna make them hate themselves, because I'm a fuck up.

same , same . but you aren’t a fuck up . mistakes happen . don’t blame yourself for all the stuff that goes wrong . just stay strong , and keep pushing through . I’m here if you need anything

PSA ABOUT JENISSI SOLO ALBUM

BRUH THERE IS NO REASON JENISSI FROM TOPPDOGG HAS TO JUMP ON HIS FUCKING SOCIAL MEDIA ACCOUNTS AND DEFEND THE CONTEXT OF HIS FUCKIN SOLO ALBUM TO ANYONE! HE WROTE ABOUT HIMSELF AND DIDNT OFFEND ANYONE ! HE WANTED TO TELL HIS STORY AND YA WANNA FUCKIN KNOCK HIM FOR THAT? WHAT IS MUSIC IF WE CANT FUCKIN EXPRESS OURSELVES LIKE COME THE FUCK ON!!! JENISSI ALBUM WAS AMAZING BECAUSE HE WAS TRUE TO HIMSELF AND HIS FANS ! IF YOU FUCKIN DISAGREE THAT IS ALL FINE AND DANDY! BUT DONT NIT PICK HIS LYRICS LOOKIN FOR SHIT TO BRING HIM DOWN WITH ! HE DIDNT DO ANYTHING WRONG AT ALL YET PEOPLE ARE TREATING HIM LIKE HE DID !! IDC IF IM THE ONLY FUCKIN #TOPPKLASS DEFENDING JENISSI IMA DEFEND HIM FROM EVERY FUCKIN BODY BECAUSE HE DONT DESERVE THIS BULLSHIT ! HE DESERVES NOTHING BUT PRAISE FOR HIS HARD WORK ANYONE WHO THINKS FUCKIN OTHERWISE OF ANYTHING I HAVE TO FUCKIN SAY FEEL FREE TO TAKE IT UP WITH ME FUCKIN PERSONALLY! @ ME

anonymous asked:

I am drawing a S&P Fan art, and I kinda wanted to post it for u, but I feel like it isn't very good so far... So idk what to do because I don't want to get something wrong to the point where you hate me or something ;^;

DO U THINK I WOULD HATE U? ✾(〜 ☌ω☌)〜✾

 I’m sure it’s amazeballs !ଘ(੭ˊ꒳ˋ)੭✧

However, i won’t force u to show it if u don’t want to ! im not here for makin’ u uncomfortable OAO !

But i would be truly honored to see this fan art! skills doesn’t matter! only the determination u put in it MEANS A LOT. Don’t u understand u’ve wasted a bit of ur time for supporting the team??! THAT S  WONDERFUL. 

 i will neveh judge or hate someone who is offering us a drawing !(◐ω◑ ) this is too priceless !

i dont feel like im even really alive anymore it feels like nothing is real because outside is so sunny and happy and light and i feel like i should be happy because its summer and theres no school or exams to worry about but all i feel is dark dark dark and i feel like im going insane i cant bear to be outside because it reminds me of how wrong everything is and all i can do is lay in bed feeling like im slowly dying even though physically im okay

ocean-couture  asked:

don't you think you're kinds fat to be posting pictures like that?

dont you think you have some balls msging me this knowing ill post it for everyone to see. listen you are probably some insecure girl who has NEVER loved herself and finds comfort in making others feel like shit. but you are msging the wrong person to do that because im sooo confident i know im hot and i fucking love myself stop body shaming stop slut shaming its fucking 2016 you brat xxxxx you must have one shitty life but im happy you thought this would get to me when in reality i know im hot and i just looked at your face page like if you wanna sit here and call me fat ill sit here and say learn how to apply makeup and learn how to dress like omg btw change your theme xxxxxx have a good day !!!! oops 

anonymous asked:

one of my friends outed me to her friends and sent me screenshots of her friends talking transphobic things abt me then i called them transphobes they told me they are not then i tried to explain even if u dont hate trans ppl u can still be transphobic bc actually everyone has transphobic opinions the things they said didnt make me sad or anything bc i know theyre all wrong ignorants but i feel like im too selfish bc i stopped being friends with them

I’m so sorry your (ex)friend did that. That is incredibly fucking shitty.

They should not have been outing you to people without your permission. That is not something that friends do. It can put you in a lot of awkward situations, as well as outright dangerous ones - like what happened here, it caused a bunch of transphobes to target you.

Taking care of yourself isn’t selfish. You are not being selfish for cutting that person out of your friend circle. You deserve way better friends than that.

“tips for women” lists: always trust your instincts ladies!!!! if a situation feels wrong or scary, listen to that feeling and do whatever you have to to get to safety!!!!!

me: thats cool except i literally feel like im going to die every .2 seconds and every time i see any person in public im positive theyre going to murder me. my instincts are never anything but bad

as much as i love the edwadism meme and enjoy that people want to hear what i have to say, it is really worrying when i actually get compliments because it feels like im doing something wrong. it feels like a betrayal of my whole project. it seems like if you were to actually listen to me, the point that should come across would be “do not listen to me”, so when people admit to learning from me and thank me for trying to teach, it actually feels more like an abuse of power and antithetical to my real interests because i don’t know if it’s simply a misreading on the part of my followers or an actual attempt on my part at trying to convince everyone that im worth listening to.

what comes to mind was the accusation a while back that i had a “cult” on tumblr, which was laughable and then of course that spun out into a big joke about how all of these people were in my cult and worshiped me and the absolute absurdity of it all was what made it funny, but when people legitimately appreciate my presence then it becomes immediately obvious that i have a real affect on people, despite the fact that i would be the last person to trust on most things because i am absolutely aware of the gaps and limitations in my knowledge.

it’s a very contradictory position and it’s hard for me to articulate because i do really want to teach but i don’t want to really be considered an authority. it may be somewhat flattering that you think i am, but the next thing i would feel after hearing that is the dread that I have somehow tricked somebody into listening to me when everything that i am about is criticism and there is nothing more convenient than to follow the critic but that is still a form of worship that i am opposed to and it still makes me very uncomfortable.

so, although it wears the form of the joke, the assertion that “true edwadists are anti-edwad” is essentially true. if you gave a shit about what i had to say, you wouldn’t. my thoughts would be indistinguishable from anyone else’s until you came to conclusions on your own, which you should. your investigation should not end with me, just as it shouldn’t end with marx (or anyone else for that matter).